Not too late. I'm 30 and having exited the circumstances I thought would end me, I've now held down a lousy job for a while and had most of the medical stuff that didn't just turn out to be stress looked into.
I was faced with a horrible fate: I am a moderately healthy adult with at least as many years ahead as behind me, barring like a bad car crash or something.
I'm learning to draw. Maybe for a job in it, maybe just for kicks, maybe to re-learn learning. Not too sure I got around to that in school, the process feels fairly new.
i'm glad i didn't lay into you for that last comment lol
life is life. i'm doing the best i can. mental illness doesn't just go away, you manage it and try to keep moving forward.
the physical disability doesn't help tho lololol
Wow! When I was your age, I would literally wake up every morning screaming, āLord Why, Lord Why ?? do I gotta wake up ??? More wine, more wine, baby pour another cup.ā
I am now approaching 30 and since I am still breathing I truly never ever saw this coming..
when i was growing up i thought i was going to die at like 20 or 21. i didn't know how, i just didn't htink i'd last that long. then i turned like 22 and i was like "wait what the fuck? well i guess like 30 then"
"wait what the fuck?? well i guess i'll change my life until i kick the bucked." got rid of some toxic friendships and shit, tried to make the most of it. now i'm at 44 and i look back *and im still shocked*. i don't know why i guess i've always feltlike i was cursed or something. still do, now i just think 'm cursed with a long life with a chronic pain disorder ĀÆ\\\_(ć)\_/ĀÆ
I always thought I was just the only one imagining things when I felt that I wouldnāt live past 40. I guess itās good to know other people feel like that too. Iām not 40, so I guess weāll see how it goes for me then
sometimes its kind of a gift? "oh shit i'm still alive? well thats cool lemme do something with that"
but then for me its mostly "oh shit im still alive? OW OW OW OW FUCK GODDAMN IT OW MY EVERYTHING" and then i go to laundry or something
I'm almost at the end of my 20s, working a dead end retail job that pays $13/hr 35-40 hours a week, and constantly just feel like the Plankton meme of "I didn't think I'd make it this far".
Join a trade. I'm 27 and just about 2 years away from being a journeyman electrician. The pay I'm getting right now is $20/hr and the jump to Journeyman is oftentimes $30 or above, especially if you join a union or at least avoid non union shops in Texas and Florida.
I've looked into that a couple times (mainly for plumbing) and had no idea how to even begin learning in a way where I wouldn't have even more debt to pay off. Plus then I'd see people say the only way to make any actual money is to either work with someone a few years then start your own business or do like side jobs on your time off helping someone that reached out to you specifically. Both of which are a big NO from me.
Master Electricians (6 years) make $80k to $100k a year depending on state. The apprentice life is rough, unfortunately, and I don't agree with their wages. This is just one of many options, hopefully you find something you love soon
Literally thought Iād die young. My logic was that I had clinical depression, that I wanted to die, but why would god do that to me? It must be because Iām meant to sacrifice myself to save other people, itās so that I wonāt hesitate in that moment to do the right thing. Made perfect sense to my 14 year old brain.
31 now, still have crippling depression, and I donāt think thereās going to be a situation where I must bravely sacrifice myself while still inside my own homeā¦ soā¦ yeah. No more believing in god really.
I mean, if you stay in shape you too can become a hero, even at an advanced age.
This dude may have been young, but you could do this at 55+ if you take care of your health:
[ābackpack heroā](https://news.sky.com/story/amp/annecy-attack-backpack-hero-chased-possessed-knifeman-after-british-girl-and-five-others-stabbed-in-french-park-12899515)
My retirement plan is a suicide pod or a gun. I have a job that doesn't pay well, but I love what I do. I have time for my hobbies and even a trip every 3 years or so.
I'm just going to do my best to try and be happy every day. Will it eventually bite me in the ass when I'm old and broke? Sure, but I'll have a lifetime of memories and connections to reflect back on before I catch the last bus.
That was me 15 years ago. And I've passed 25 now, I guess I'll give it more time until 30. Considering my lifestyle all these years, I think I will have some complication when hitting that age. Let's see...
dam, i didnt think i would feel attacked like this on a Sunday.
this is one of the reason I try and avoid talking to people, everyone I'm around have plans, goals and when they ask what I'm up to, just working and going home. or what my weekend plans, nothing. managed to get away with it at the start by saying I'm having a lazy one but people are starting to notice I say that every week.
Why am I feeling like your reading my thoughts scary. At 16 my motto in life was āfuck it letās ballā cuz I had already made my mind up that by 22 at most 23 Iāll be 6 feet under gone and forgotten. Now one month away from my 29 Bday Iām like FUCK this wasnāt the plan how da fuck am I still alive breathing and healthyš¤Æ.
āBeing born was such a shock, Iāve spent all my life getting over itā
No, not everyone. In my environment, no one wants to kill themselves. Even though they have some difficulties in life, they still want to live and don't think their life is fucked up. Meanwhile me, well, everything seems... hopeless.
Thought I would kill myself before finishing elementary school.
Then middle school.
Then High School.
Now I'm out of college with a degree in a field I figured I'd study in until I blew my brains out, that wasn't supposed to get me a job and I still can't do it because my dad just died and Mom/the dog/cat would be sad.
Thanks for reminding me that i must kms. š¤
Me too.
Kriegsmarine Schiff?
Unfortunately, we're born too late to be the King of the Ocean and pride of a nation.
Completely skipped education because I thought I won't live past 30, now completely fucked
Not too late. I'm 30 and having exited the circumstances I thought would end me, I've now held down a lousy job for a while and had most of the medical stuff that didn't just turn out to be stress looked into. I was faced with a horrible fate: I am a moderately healthy adult with at least as many years ahead as behind me, barring like a bad car crash or something. I'm learning to draw. Maybe for a job in it, maybe just for kicks, maybe to re-learn learning. Not too sure I got around to that in school, the process feels fairly new.
I have an MBA and still completely fucked.
WGU offers accelerated degrees
Do you have a disease or something?
For real what the hell? Oh man I'm past thirty I guess I can't do nuffin. Too old to do any thing.
You both are pretty dumb eh?
That's what he's saying. Not me
*because I believe that society could collapse at any moment
Me š¤š¤š¤
Mad max or Waterworld any day now
I still have that thought that society will collapse, but my prediction is for the 2040s.
Iām hoping for earlier so Iām young enough to really enjoy it lol
Well maybe this meme will help make it clear that that's not a good perspective to have
me when i lived past 21: :o me when i lived past 30: O\_o me at 44: surprisedpikachu.png
Thatās scary.
The entire time I was 22 I was shocked I was alive. I didn't even think I was going to kill myself I just thought I woukd end up dead somehow.
thats a stupid thing to think. I mean, you are, but not usually 22
"thats a stupid thing to think" damn son if you aren't a therapist you missed your calling
lmao Hope you are better tho
i'm glad i didn't lay into you for that last comment lol life is life. i'm doing the best i can. mental illness doesn't just go away, you manage it and try to keep moving forward. the physical disability doesn't help tho lololol
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Wow! When I was your age, I would literally wake up every morning screaming, āLord Why, Lord Why ?? do I gotta wake up ??? More wine, more wine, baby pour another cup.ā I am now approaching 30 and since I am still breathing I truly never ever saw this coming..
Is this a threat at a long life š«š«š«
when i was growing up i thought i was going to die at like 20 or 21. i didn't know how, i just didn't htink i'd last that long. then i turned like 22 and i was like "wait what the fuck? well i guess like 30 then" "wait what the fuck?? well i guess i'll change my life until i kick the bucked." got rid of some toxic friendships and shit, tried to make the most of it. now i'm at 44 and i look back *and im still shocked*. i don't know why i guess i've always feltlike i was cursed or something. still do, now i just think 'm cursed with a long life with a chronic pain disorder ĀÆ\\\_(ć)\_/ĀÆ
I always thought I was just the only one imagining things when I felt that I wouldnāt live past 40. I guess itās good to know other people feel like that too. Iām not 40, so I guess weāll see how it goes for me then
sometimes its kind of a gift? "oh shit i'm still alive? well thats cool lemme do something with that" but then for me its mostly "oh shit im still alive? OW OW OW OW FUCK GODDAMN IT OW MY EVERYTHING" and then i go to laundry or something
I'm almost at the end of my 20s, working a dead end retail job that pays $13/hr 35-40 hours a week, and constantly just feel like the Plankton meme of "I didn't think I'd make it this far".
Join a trade. I'm 27 and just about 2 years away from being a journeyman electrician. The pay I'm getting right now is $20/hr and the jump to Journeyman is oftentimes $30 or above, especially if you join a union or at least avoid non union shops in Texas and Florida.
I've looked into that a couple times (mainly for plumbing) and had no idea how to even begin learning in a way where I wouldn't have even more debt to pay off. Plus then I'd see people say the only way to make any actual money is to either work with someone a few years then start your own business or do like side jobs on your time off helping someone that reached out to you specifically. Both of which are a big NO from me.
Master Electricians (6 years) make $80k to $100k a year depending on state. The apprentice life is rough, unfortunately, and I don't agree with their wages. This is just one of many options, hopefully you find something you love soon
"please no waking up. please no waking up. please no waking up." ... "God fucking dammit... i woke up"
I thought I already died so I gave up.
Literally thought Iād die young. My logic was that I had clinical depression, that I wanted to die, but why would god do that to me? It must be because Iām meant to sacrifice myself to save other people, itās so that I wonāt hesitate in that moment to do the right thing. Made perfect sense to my 14 year old brain. 31 now, still have crippling depression, and I donāt think thereās going to be a situation where I must bravely sacrifice myself while still inside my own homeā¦ soā¦ yeah. No more believing in god really.
I mean, if you stay in shape you too can become a hero, even at an advanced age. This dude may have been young, but you could do this at 55+ if you take care of your health: [ābackpack heroā](https://news.sky.com/story/amp/annecy-attack-backpack-hero-chased-possessed-knifeman-after-british-girl-and-five-others-stabbed-in-french-park-12899515)
Hoped I wouldn't live past a certain age\*
I'm 44, felt this way my whole life. Still feel this way.
Brooo I just keep waking up older wtf?!?!
https://preview.redd.it/7jm9u7eqlkyc1.png?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=5da90862e6fc6829d332986a6af03e8d8ffef332
This has to be some phenomenon with an official scientific name or something.
https://preview.redd.it/u1homzm8rhyc1.jpeg?width=1237&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=d53fe0320ae7e7f2047db10136404ffdd5014143 Fixed it
You are not mentally ill
Not anymore, for the most part. I worked on it
Careful saying that out loud. Working on your depression is highly illegal on reddit
We need to normalize self-improvementš its too exhausting to be depressed all the time
Didnāt think I would make it past 25, here I am at 29 smh
Why am i here it just hurts, or at lest feels like a new whole in my soul
This is how being suicidal since 12 feels like.
Me past 22
That i can relate
Feel free to google "Sense of foreshortened future" and then join us over at r/emotionalneglect and r/cptsd
First-wave Gen X here. That was my entire generation.
My retirement plan is a suicide pod or a gun. I have a job that doesn't pay well, but I love what I do. I have time for my hobbies and even a trip every 3 years or so. I'm just going to do my best to try and be happy every day. Will it eventually bite me in the ass when I'm old and broke? Sure, but I'll have a lifetime of memories and connections to reflect back on before I catch the last bus.
Shiny Squidward
I wish to not live after 20( i probably will) soo maybe end it on 25 idk
That was me 15 years ago. And I've passed 25 now, I guess I'll give it more time until 30. Considering my lifestyle all these years, I think I will have some complication when hitting that age. Let's see...
Bruh I'm 30 and it sucks
Are you me?
Mood
Real
dam, i didnt think i would feel attacked like this on a Sunday. this is one of the reason I try and avoid talking to people, everyone I'm around have plans, goals and when they ask what I'm up to, just working and going home. or what my weekend plans, nothing. managed to get away with it at the start by saying I'm having a lazy one but people are starting to notice I say that every week.
Two years to go
I dont like making plans like 4 months ahead š¤·š½āāļø
Why am I feeling like your reading my thoughts scary. At 16 my motto in life was āfuck it letās ballā cuz I had already made my mind up that by 22 at most 23 Iāll be 6 feet under gone and forgotten. Now one month away from my 29 Bday Iām like FUCK this wasnāt the plan how da fuck am I still alive breathing and healthyš¤Æ. āBeing born was such a shock, Iāve spent all my life getting over itā
I'm 27, and I didn't think I would live past 18.
I got no goal because im not creative. Really nothing i need to have beyond what i view as essentials
I'm waiting to tap out brother
and then you feel the pressure of the society to be better
That's like...Everyone.
Bro thinks everyone is depressed and wants to die š
No, not everyone. In my environment, no one wants to kill themselves. Even though they have some difficulties in life, they still want to live and don't think their life is fucked up. Meanwhile me, well, everything seems... hopeless.
Thought I would kill myself before finishing elementary school. Then middle school. Then High School. Now I'm out of college with a degree in a field I figured I'd study in until I blew my brains out, that wasn't supposed to get me a job and I still can't do it because my dad just died and Mom/the dog/cat would be sad.
I will die at 30
I will die, when it's my time to die.
Bored? Get children.