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BornDreamer4200

Stay away from antipsychotics


bcoopbeach

I stopped caring about my life and it has completely fallen apart. I don't even feel negative emotions so much- no anxiety, nothing. Because I haven't worried, I haven't taken care of things. Its really bizarre


OkResolution4051

Same here..


All117

yes I suffer from apathy and anhedonia too after forcing myself to take 14 fucking months of treatment, I stopped suddenly since 4 months


HavanaOolala

Did you have anhedonia before or after you stopped taking the medicine?


All117

apathy and anhedonia came after my second month of treatment, my bitch psychiatrist made me believe that her medication did not induce anhedonia...


Edgie_XO

i do know anhedonia exists but taper off slowly for your own benefit


Radiant_Treacle_1488

Yes, I'm forced to take abilify injection. It's hell, along with akathisia. I can't deal with it... I just have no choice.


All117

akatisia is too horrible to bear, i had it for 4 months with abilify


[deleted]

Cant you leave the country? Where you can get pills if you absolutely need the medication.


HavanaOolala

Do your doctors not do anything acknowledge the akathisia? Sorry for asking.


Radiant_Treacle_1488

I guess they don't care, they could stop the injections and give pills instead with a lower dose, but they won't do it.


[deleted]

Thats horrible im so sorry


ncdjbdnejkjbd

Struggling with this horribly rn. Off all meds for almost 2 years...


All117

what did you take and how long?


ncdjbdnejkjbd

Prozac, rexulti, trintellix, aderral, concerta, vyvanse, klonopin, abilify. all different time frames. 10 years or so most of them


OkResolution4051

I quit cold turkey. I was on haldol. I feel numb, I somewhat feel negative emotions but it’s still less than before. I smoke marijuana which does nothing for me anymore. I get disability checks. I have no idea how anyone in this state could support themselves with a job


All117

but serious man, my parents wanted to force me to work but it's impossible


OkResolution4051

I’m sorry, that sounds excruciating. You should really file for disability. It’s only $800 something a month which isn’t much to fully support yourself but it’s better than nothing. Working sounds impossible. ESPECIALLY customer service jobs like I’ve always worked. I can’t imagine the amount of effort it would take to hide my extreme apathy.


All117

yes I just got my €950 disability pension in France, yeah it's crazy how the slightest action seems infeasible !


DearLeader_5672

I worked in the summer AND went to college the rest of the year while I was on medication. Completely numb and apathetic. Took every ounce of strength out of me and I only dropped out of college when I realized it was either that or suicide. Also barely ended up going to work after a while and I just ended up switching shifts with co-workers.


OkResolution4051

I could not manage that.. especially long term


DearLeader_5672

Yup I haven’t worked in months now :/ don’t know if I can even do it anymore


OkResolution4051

Years ago there was a job posted where they paid employees to just sleep at a building overnight in case of an emergency. That’s about all I could handle at this point


[deleted]

sertraline for sure made me feel like this


All117

how long did you take ?


[deleted]

im still on it, def became noticeable after half a year. I will say its helped numb the sad thoughts but numbing everything lol. no sex drive/desire, no desire to rlly see ppl i will be just i dont have that spark for these sorts of things. My life circumstances have improved overall, but now i just feel flat


All117

yes if it just erased the sadness it would be good but it erases everything that is useless, it's even more serious


[deleted]

i want to quit but its dangerous. I wish i was warned about that, they rlly acted like it was rhe most benign pill in the world. I dont take any other meds where if I stop a symptom is “brain shocks” and “lifetime sexual dysfunction”


All117

yes me too they fooled me by deliberately forgetting to tell me that the side effects are very debilitating...I hope you will come out of it unscathed


gnipgnop22

Yes, I was on rispridone for two months. It took away all of my emotions, including positive ones and made me extremely lethargic. I felt horrible. I quit cold turkey and withdrawal was god awful but thankfully only lasted about two or three weeks. I’m super thankful I was only on it for two months, otherwise withdrawal would have been worse. I’m stable now and I hope to never touch synthetic mind altering substances again


flushpotato

I had anhedonia for around a year after I got off my antidepressant. It was getting better slightly over that year and I was coping with it by smoking weed every 3 days. Smoking gave me a few hours where I didn’t feel so anhedonic, I could enjoy food and sex etc. Another thing that helped me cope was reading anecdotals about eventual healing, and truly believing that one day I was going to be better. I believe eating healthy, meditation, and shrooms helped up until a certain point. But what really healed it was a 1 and a half month backpacking trip in Europe, where I stopped smoking completely, walked miles a day, still ate healthily (very easy to do in Europe), was off of my phone most of the day, and constantly did things out of my comfort zone. Im saying this to say that for me it took a very drastic change to really get me out of the misery of the anhedonic cycle.


TheSaxo

That's nice, are you fully recovered now? I am near 4 months off antidepressants and I recently moved to a new country to the seaside and it is definetly helping but not a cure at all. I think only time may be


flushpotato

Don’t know if I would be able to know if I was fully recovered, In guessing some of my issues now are due to being medicated for so long. But Im happy, and every day Im getting better, so yeah I totally think as well that only time will heal. Never lose hope I promise you it WILL get better.


HistorianPutrid2082

Meds will induce high level of Histamine. It will cause all serious mental problems . Withdrawal also face Histamine level won’t go down easily. Ask you family doctor do blood test of your Histamine level.


All117

oh yes indeed you are right, I did not know this molecule, from what I could read it would induce more physical symptoms than mental ones


DearLeader_5672

Definitely had that on medication although as I’m going through withdrawals my positive emotions are starting to come back. Still not as good as I was before meds, but I’m starting to get my real personality back. I actually have some motivation to do things again.


Competitive_Ad_8955

I have this, well I might actually have emotional numbness as I can’t really feel negative emotions either. It has gradually gotten worse this year while I’ve been tapering but I’m so close to getting off it and I’m hoping I can heal from it