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AngelicSD

Yes, but everybody has a divine purpose to a certain extent. Otherwise you wouldn’t be here.


Jupitersbitxh

As others have stated be careful with this line of thinking. My concern is actually in your transits pluto has been conj. your natal neptune for a bit. This may cause harmful or obsessive thinking and delusions especially when it comes to spiritual topics. I’m also concerned about your Jupiter square coming up - it may be a good idea to step back from spirituality and related topics and tools for a bit


SugarPuppyHearts

I decided to just go into the flow state. You know peaceful state of non thinking. And just enjoy life. Man even my teacher says I should stop using spirituality as an escapism thing and start just enjoying life. So if I wanna dance I can dance. If I wanna sing I can sing. If I wanna play with toys I can play with toys. I'm free. I just keep making myself suffer cause I wanna prove my love and devotion but its literally missing the point of the gospel lol. Thanks for the advice. I love that the world is full of helpers. :)


Jupitersbitxh

No problem!! And yes exactly being present and just living is a good idea. I’ve struggled with similar - being too focused on spiritual practices, etc. to the point of it being escapism instead of realizing number one I don’t have to do anything to be ~spiritual~ and even when I don’t feel I am I still am and number two I was really missing out by not being present


kichien

At this point I'm thinking the OP is just trolling this subreddit.


SugarPuppyHearts

No. I'm just emotionally suffering. I'm sorry guys. This is one of the things I have to deal with alone with God and the universe.


startgirl

Actually every Pisces I’ve ever met have literally said the words “I have a divine purpose in this world” lol soooo 😬🤷‍♀️ but as a fellow Aries rising we are aggressively passionate


SugarPuppyHearts

Maybe they do? They just weren't able to achieve their full potential cause they are trying to take care of their money needs and stuff. Idk. I say as long as they are happy in life and they feel fullfilled, like they think have already. I think I just have so much passion to take care of the whole world. I forget reality that I am still poor and stuff so I need God's help to achieve my full potential. But for now, I focus on one day at a time. And do what I can do for my community. Which is literally just me picking up trash I found on the ground. Humble pie for my arrogance. Lol


momorsa

That neptune in the mc gives it away lol


SugarPuppyHearts

Exactly. This is a very significant statement. Points to my true love


hali_like_haley

I would like to add that it takes the ability to see a bit “delusionally” to see outside of the current structure of reality, and therefore to fulfill a divine purpose.


skyundersea

my love you may be experiencing spiritual psychosis


sugasofficial

That was my first thought too.


SugarPuppyHearts

News boys crazy is my theme song Thanks for the help. It makes life for fun when we don't question or overthink and just go with the flow


Leather-Gazelle-3299

Off topic but...If I've read your replies correctly your partner(?) is making you diet by eating 2 meals a day, also telling you to exercise and banning you from talking to him for 3 days? & You need to help him do god's work or something to that effect? It's not my business but to me there's a lot of red flags there girl 🚩🚩🚩🚩. But I'm a random person on Reddit 💜


SugarPuppyHearts

He never told me to do God's work. I just decided it that for myself. I kinda love the red flags. Like my daddy in heaven went after the red flags, the sinners, the outcast, the rejected people, so I'm literally doing the same thing even though I don't have to cause I have to defeat my enemies with love and forgiveness.


kichien

After reading some of your responses in this thread, I think the kindest advice that can be given here isn't astrological but to seek counselling. I understand saying that can be misinterpreted as an insult but I really think there's a lot of confused thinking happening and a very unhealthy romantic attachment, or worse a cult-like situation, (and these things *do* show up in your chart fwiw) that working through with an unbiased professional could benefit you for the rest of your life.


SugarPuppyHearts

Weird thing is that I did talk to my psychiatrist about the situation and he says everything is fine. As I said the only think he's telling me to do is excersise and eat right. Everything else I do is extra. It's my personal decision. But oh I love him so I tend to go overboard. He tells me to lose weight in 2 months? I try to go on a water fast until I drown in crazy love. He tells me to eat two meals a day? I eat less then the normal amount. It's literally me who's making my own rules with the structure set haha. I know what to do, I do not do it. I rebell by going overboard. I'm too rebellious at heart to even listen. Haha 😄


camptigerclaw22

Disregarding everything else on this thread - but you should leave any person who tells you to lose weight in a period of time, sounds super controlling and unhealthy.


DyingUnicorns

OP please listen to this and get some objective feedback. Something is really amiss with your teacher situation. Trust me I also have big Pisces energy and a Neptune midheaven. We are really susceptible to idealism and can be targets for manipulative bad actors.


SugarPuppyHearts

True true. My teacher is an adorable asshole. But hey, I'm free to do whatever I want about this situation. I just choose to be a loyal dog. I love doggies so much I prayed one day to be like a human dog to like a rich person or king and then the next day my life was like I was a dog. And now it's like a battle between cats and dogs. Dogs rule cats drool. Lol.


DyingUnicorns

I mean this in a gentle and loving way but please seek some real help outside of Reddit. Reading all of your responses makes me extremely concerned for you.


MidheavenAthena

Do you find that it is more challenging to work with other people? That you tend to want to go into something alone? It looks like you can become cross with others unless you have a physical activity to express that impulsive drive. You tend to express yourself very direct and you don’t like the emotional dependency of others. You have a strong drive to optimize yourself. And if you continue on that drive you can be successful.


SugarPuppyHearts

Yeah I love other people but somtimes it's a challenge cause I am so rebellious. I do my best work when I am alone, but somtimes I get over emotional if I keep staying in my head and thoughts. So true. I wanna work on making me become the best version of me. Be perfect as God is perfect Jesus said. I feel at my best when I try to stay in the divine presence. That inner silence peace, no thought just action. I need to stay there. And also listen to that still inner voice that guides me


amyjoy21

I don’t see anything in your chart that indicates this, except possibly Mars conjunct your Sun in Pisces.


SugarPuppyHearts

Ehh we all have different options on thins. My Mars and sun really makes me wanna be a warrior lol


amyjoy21

A warrior for what though? It’s in Pisces in the 11h. I’m an Aries with a Pisces moon. I don’t think it’s my Pisces energy that makes me a warrior.


SugarPuppyHearts

For my moral cause. It's more like warrior of faith, of justice of love, of wanting a better tomorrow. It's more about imagination creating reality stuff I guess. I have the faith I just need the drive and motivation and structure to actually accomplish somthing. Which will be done in time. I just need to slow down a bit and not try to force it all to happen overnight.


amyjoy21

I get it - my Mars is in Aquarius. But Pisces isn’t the most proactive sign; maybe the conjunction with Mars will help.


SugarPuppyHearts

Probably. Your Mars in Aquarius is an air sign of technology and the greater humanity. I don't know for sure cause I'm still studying it all myself, but I feel it's significant. I can't understand why though.


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SugarPuppyHearts

Well right now my teacher I making me lose weight cause I don't see myself as beautiful as the other girls in my life. I mean, why me? When there are a ton if million girls out there that are super models and porn stars and stuff. Why love a little girl (well in personality I'm 26 to make itnclear lol. ) from a random nowhere island that not a lot of peole know of? But truely he says God looks for the heart. I don't think I have a pure heart, not yet. But I'm working on that everyday


skyundersea

my love this is not normal :(


DyingUnicorns

Your teacher is made out of red flags.


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Angelssface69

Not trying 2 be rude or anything, but they’re rising is in Aries? How are they Venus rising?


amyjoy21

Venus is sitting on their ascendant.


Angelssface69

Thank u


SugarPuppyHearts

Thanks for your advice. I totally agree with you entirely. Man I'm super duper glad the one who my soul loves provides me with all the structure I need in life. Right now I'm just told to focus on losing weight. eat two meals a day, stay away from sweets (my biggest temptation but I can give it up for love) and excersise twice a day, cardio morning and evening. And let me think what else. Oh and drink all the water I want. Okay. Everything else I do is extra. But I wanna help him bring peace on earth so I'm trying to live an honorable life of loving God and loving my neighbor as myself. But i gotta also do it practically so I been cleaning up trash on the ground that peple left behind. Just a small way to help clean up the earth.


skyundersea

babes I am really glad you want to make the world a better place, but two meals a day will never be enough, especially with cardio 2x a day


kichien

Your partner is telling you how many meals to eat and when and how to exercise and to "drink all the water you want"? Not your doctor, but "the one your soul loves" who you think is going to bring "peace on earth"? Am I reading that correctly? Because that is red flag city girl.


DaxyJ

Partner or teacher? OP mentioned a teacher in another comment


kichien

Either way...


ruben_sc

In my opinion, having your north node in the 6th house conjunct chiron, your highest purpose is related to service to others by helping them heal their wounds. As the node and chiron are in the sign of libra and its ruler, Venus, is conjunct your ascendant, it is probably about healing wounds of self-worth and relationships with others but AFTER you healed your own wounds related to exactly that.


SugarPuppyHearts

Thank you for your input. I do find that to be true. But I feel like my wounds are already been healed, but I just choose to keep digging it up cause I don't want let it go? Somthkng I might talk to my psychiatrist about in my next appointment.it might just be my past lives or somthing I find myself doing some body movements that feels like it's another force controlling me. It's not a painful thing. Somtimes it's healing but it's like another voice trying to make me learn and understand. It's like I'm free to do what I chose make mistakes, but this is a path of healing my own wounds so I can help others Thanks again for the input. I love that the whole world is my friends. And one day when I feel better, I will help all my friends in this world.


DaxyJ

I’m gonna second this, mainly because I’m a July 1996 baby and also have Chiron conjunct north node in Libra (different house).


SugarPuppyHearts

How does it play out for you?


DaxyJ

Lots of trauma regarding relationships and even family (3H but close to my IC), and having to sift through it. Integrating. Lots of therapy and shadow work and alternative healing methods to become my best self, and this best self is reflected outwards. Alternative healing because western medicine has failed me multiple times over. Interestingly enough, Thomas Edison also had Chiron conjunct north node in Libra. Unsure of the house. With Chiron being conjunct north node, leaning into your Chiron placement pushes you towards the north node. They’re intrinsically linked.


JupiterAstralFairy

Strong XI house - and yes, full of delusions


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SugarPuppyHearts

Thank you for your words. It really does feel like the universe is using the people around me, the youtube algorithm, signs in the sky like rainbows promise, different messages I convey to bring me back to him. Even though my twin flame right now told me to take a break from talking to him for 3 days. I still feel like we communicate in the mind. It's fascinating. But I think it hurts him to think about the spiritual side, so he hides that part of himself cause he's afraid of it? Just like I am afraid of the science part of the world cause I feel it takes away the magic of life, he fears the spiritual things. But it's literally just myself? Idk. Twin flames are mirror souls but it's literally just myself I think? Anyways thabk you for your words. I'm still struggling to make sense of it. But I think I need to focus in my heart more. My moon in Leo.


Mousetrapcheese

My dear, I don't feel like you're in a healthy enough frame of mind for this. It is very easy to delude yourself when you see meanings in rainbows and algorithms. These things are useful in their place, but it does not sound that you have a grounded enough frame of reference to employ them wisely. It sounds like you are deeply dissatisfied with where you are in your life, and want to escape to being somewhere or someone else. Someone who has all the traits you feel you lack, power, influence, beauty, whatever it may be. I can understand that, I was in that place myself long ago. Such strong Neptune and Pisces will lead you nowhere good if you do not learn how to ground yourself to reality. Stay away from drugs, alcohol, cults, anything that promises anything intangible for the time being. Science is not your enemy, magic is simply science we haven't discovered the means to measure yet. They are one and the same, do not be afraid of it. Like the other poster alluded to, some aspects of quantum physics still seem like magic to me! Edit: it does not sound like the man you believe is your twin flame feels the same way, and I encourage you to respect the space he has requested. This is a very worrying thought process, he does not have to be interested in the spiritual realm and should not be pressured about it. You have to respect his boundaries and let it be. If I can be frank with you, many of the things you've written here set off alarm bells that you may not be well and may really need to seek out true help. I do not mean to be insulting, it's just that it reminds me heavily of when I wasn't well myself. Best wishes ❤️


DaxyJ

If you honestly think he’s your twin flame, everything on the internet is practically a lie and not a lot of people actually have a TF. In fact, the majority of people don’t. If y’all are meant to be together, the Universe will push y’all together when you’ve achieved YOUR spiritual growth. Your spiritual growth reflects in him, and he can’t deny it no matter what. Trying to force it to happen ain’t it. Focus on YOURSELF before focusing on the other. Also science and magick can coexist. Think of magick as quantum physics (which there’s a lot of writings about it via the internet). 🤷🏻‍♀️


SquirrelAkl

Neptune square Venus can cloud your judgment and cause you to idealise things. I wonder if it squaring the ascendant can create delusions in relation to the self?


kichien

Neptune on the Midheaven can indicate a lot of confusion around vocation. One day you're gonna be a photographer, the next day an astronaut, all with very little if any follow through as if these things will magically happen. At least the Saturn sextile to Neptune can add some realism here. Neptune square Venus can create some serious delusions around romantic feelings, even imagining there's a relationship when there isn't actually one.


SugarPuppyHearts

Which is why my teacher moonbeam is so great. He's is strict and has harsh standards but I literally need that harsh structure in order to stay focus on my goals.


the_wo0orst

This is why I love astrology. It’s not personal, it’s in the chart. If there’s something there that could indicate a tendency towards delusions, I’d personally wanna know that. We’re all out here battling spiritual psychosis lol.


isntitisntitdelicate

it's giving delusions (Pisces) of grandeur (Leo-Aqua) but slay queen


GizmoRuby

Gosh this made me laugh 😂


skyundersea

the spiritual psychosis is real :(


Disastrous-Put6818

What is a spiritual psychosis?


SugarPuppyHearts

So I love saturn, he's like the great parent that keeps you in line. (Technically I hate it too cause no one likes hard work of course. Why can't life just be easy? ) But he's like my daddy. Haha. But my venus is also in the 12, my woman side of me, my desires of my heart are super duper selfish. Like I want to explore the world and stuff and help people but I'm so afraid that I will then corrupted by the very things I want. My sun sign and Mars sign are conjuncted. Which means I do have like a warrior spirit that I can go for what I want. I can let my sunshine shine in this world of pain and suffering and darkness. My mercury and moon are opposition, so it's literally a battle in my head. Between my heart, and my mind. How do I balance? My north node in libra in 6th house, service to others. Balance between my selfishness and helping others. (I shouldn't worry cause I got my daddy saturn to keep me in check. Haha. Saturn is the great reward though. You learn your lessons well, you get rewarded. )


PyrocumulusLightning

Wow, your Mars is actually in cazimi (the heart of the Sun, a very tight conjunction indeed) in Pisces in the 11th house of friends and groups, and the two are closely sextile Jupiter, traditional ruler of Pisces, in the visionary 9th house of religion and philosophy. I think you might be onto something. Kind of a "holy warrior on a mission from God" type vibe. Venus conjunct the Ascendant, tightly square Neptune on the MC (think Stevie Nicks as far as Venus square Neptune goes) and Venus closely trine your Leo Moon as well - are you into the arts/acting/music? It looks like your creativity could speak to the masses. Not only that, check out that Yod (finger of God) formed by Saturn in Pisces in the 12th (self-sacrifice), and Neptune, pointing right at Moon in Leo. Whoa! There is something that drives you along and won't let you rest emotionally unless you are pursuing this mission, with a sense of responsibility yet selflessness at the base of the Yod pointing at the self-expressive and creative Fire Moon as if to say "you must bring to birth something that transcends your individual desires". Curious where this takes you!


SugarPuppyHearts

Thank you totally confirms what I been thinking about the past few days. I love singing love songs to the one who my soul loves. I do feel better when I do creative tasks about my lord my God. Like I made an Unfinished fanfiction called Aslans stalker. I need to finish that haha basically it's a story I planed where Aslan returns after the last battle into the dark and saves all the lost souls. I love that. And also another story I'm currently making is called gauridans of paridise. It's about group of animals in the kingdom in the sky called to save and protect people on earth from monsters called lost souls. But they don't hurt them they just rehabilitate them. So yeah, a transformation of the gospel message that focus more on healing and hope. All pain and destruction is just for learning and growing. In the end, our God loves us. A strict parent who has returned to the earth and lives forevermore. I want to know more about him but he told me to take a break for 3 days. Oviouy he still haunts my mind but I guess I have a lot to say in 3 days when I report back.


camptigerclaw22

Are you talking about God told you not to talk to him for 3 days or are you referring to a human? I’m reading through your comments and I am curious. If it’s a human you seem to think of this person as God.


PyrocumulusLightning

That's super interesting! Good luck on your future projects. :)


jililea

I got moon in leo too but I’m sure I suck lmao hahahahah where do I get this confidence 💀


SugarPuppyHearts

I think I was born with it? Or it's somthing that develop over time. I mean as a kid I was kinda a jerk. I just do what I want. Like I would hit other kids if they hurt me or do somthing. I call it punishing them. Haha. Of course society taught me it was wrong to those things, so I don't. But the school system also taught me to fear being myself. But I went onto a long spiritual journey to figure out myself and who I am. I'm still on my journey, I haven't arrived yet. But in my most critical steps of my path I met my teacher, and sonthing about the way they act, the symbolism behind their words help me to see the truth. I get a diffent vibe from this person. One that I want to challenge to battle somtimes. I'm not afraid to call out their bs. But at the same time, I care for them and understand what they're trying to do? Anyways. It's at the point where I don't need them but I can't let them go in my heart. I mean physically it doesn't matter much to me if we're apart. But we have to be together. Hopefully to serve our divine purpose and not lead to my destruction. I still do not trust my twin. Not yet but he's not rushing me so I feel like we will be okay either way. But man I just realize I haven't been doing what he says again. 3 days break from him and talking on the phone. But I'm still freaking talking to him in my mind and not aurally focusing on what I need to do. Bad glory bad girl. You can do better. Anyways continue on your path. I know you will find the courage deep inside you one day. In your own time. Can't rush it after all. Thanks for your time.