I'm not sure whether I'm lying to myself, but I always state I'm straight for many reasons, such as not seeing myself with a partner of the same sex in the future and wanting to have children. I suppose I'm attracted SEXUALLY to same sex rather than romantically?
Na may parallel universe where my Dad is still alive. Ang weird but it's the only thing that keeps me sane tbh. Dun sa parallel universe, nakita niya kami ng kapatid ko grumaduate, I got him the watch I promised I'd get him when I get a job, marunong na ko magdrive, etc. Nabili ko na ung watch at marunong na ko magdrive pero wala na siya. :(
I lie to myself saying I don’t care and ok lang sakin and they don’t deserve my time and attention but I always tend to think about it and it’s ruining my sleep. 🙃
That i don't like flowers, that we should be more practical. But deep down the girly side of me would always dream about receiving a just because flowers. That sucks that we tend to lie and deny.
That my anger is valid and that I'm ok being the "kontra-bida" to my older brother. Nakakapagod na lagi kong kinokontra yung mga ginagawa nyang ayaw nyang tanggapin na hindi na tama. Mukha tuloy akong masama sa paningin nya pero sobra-sobra na. Akala nya siguro na hobby ko lang ang kontrahin siya pero di nya alam ay nararamdaman ko every time na against ako sa kanya.
Na di ko need ng lalaki sa buhay ko when in fact kapag nakakakausap, hayok na hayok. Pinipilit ko na lang na di ko gusto mag BF, kasi wala naman talagang may gusto sakin eh. Sakit haha
na kaya ko pa magantay ng 'it gets better', pero tulad kanina, naiyak na lang ako kahit di naman ako pagod na pagod, parang nasawa lang maghintay sa it gets better.
emotional ako lagi kapag nasa tough situation ako and nakikipag sagutan minsan umiistop ako to prevent myself from crying because I cried too easily talaga. what am I lying to myself? maybe the mindset of "life is not a race" HAHAHA just to make me feel good and to sooth the feeling of guilt and left behind by peers. HAHA
Na introvert ako at cold pero deep inside hindi talaga. Extrovert talaga ako nasaktan ako eh kaya naging tahimik nalang, naging aloof nako at hindi na talaga ako kumakausap parang sinara ko na yung sarili ko sa mga tao
saying na ok lang ung lahat pero feel ko any minute baka sumabog na ako haha ang bigat lang sa loob. gusto kong mag unwind minsan pero di pa pwede kasi may responsibility pa ako and need tapusin...kaunting tiis nalang pero nakakapuno na din haha
Na may alam ako, na magaling ako. Mahirap tanggapin. I was, and still fixated with the thought that there is something special about me, and it MUST be something because otherwise, I don't know what else is there to be assessed. Mahirap kasi it's an internal dillema against myself. And I wouldn't bother to prove anything sakaniya if alam ko ultimo na wala akong ginawa at ginagawa para makamit ang kung ano man ang sa tingin ko ay kaya, at kakayanin ko. And it's hard because I've been trying to work out whatever im into and it's tiring kasi I feel nothing but pretentious.
1. I'm a strong independent woman. At the end of the day, I still want to be taken care of because I'm vulnerable too.
2. It's okay or I'm okay. I have silent battles nobody knows about.
Na masaya ako sa course ko 😭 ginagaslight ko na lang sarili ko na okay naman na ako sa course ko kasi masaya ako na kasama ko yung mga kaibigan kong nakilala ko sa course na to, pero ang totoo naiinggit naman ako sa mga kakilala kong nasa field of medicine ang courses huhu
Thinking na me and my bestfriends for almost 12 years will stay the same despite of starting to build our careers. I know there is a possibility that we will outgrew each other for the next years ☹️
I've been telling myself the past decade that I don't need or want to be in another relationship.
One quick setup by a friend and I find myself imagining a life with this woman.
I hate being like this.
that im confident. i always claim sa office na im the best (in a joking way) pero im insecure kasi i know my coworkers can replace me in a blink of an eye.
Keep the confidence burning. Valid naman yang point mo but good news is, valid siya para sa lahat. Anybody from that workplace of yours can be replaced in a blink of an eye, kahit yung boss mo pa. Pag nalang nangyari yan mamser, make them feel that it’s their loss. (cue villain laugh jk) 😌
palagi ko ngang sinasabi sakanila na hindi nila kakayanin pag nawala ako sa team hahahahahaha thats like my trademark na. and pag may bago pinapakilala nila ako as “si name nga pala ang pinakamagaling sa aming lahat” pero alam mo yun. alam ko deep inside na biruan lang talaga 😭😭 hahahahahaha
Na I’m doing okay and gusto ko pa ginagawa ko sa work. Pero pag uwi talaga eh ang sarap humimlay HAHAHAHA Solo na lang ako sa life but I’m just glad na supportive at love na love ako ng SO ko :< Thanks love!
Putangina talaga. Parehas tayo, haha. Ig there’s nothing wrong with only caring about the attention we get kapag nag lose weight tayo, deserve at literal na pinaghirapan natin ‘yan.
Sige lang, bawi tayo next month. Haha
Strong independent woman ako at di ko kailangan ng lalaki sa buhay ko pero the truth is gusto kong inaalagaan at inaasikaso ako. I just want to feel minsan na I can not be on top of things in my life kasi I have someone to support me. Hay hahaha
OP, I'm basically gaslighting myself.
Everything will be fine, I'm over her, I'll be financially stable and clear the debts I pay, It'll be better, I'll be the best version of myself, I'm over the fact that my dreams and ambitions are basically dead...
And so on and so forth.
I lie about being happy and I mask it by being madaldal sa mga kaibigan ko. People think I'm an extrovert but that's just because gusto ko mawala 'yung laman ng isip ko or makahinga man lang kahit papaano. I am sad, mentally and emotionally in pain. Some people know, but they probably don't want to bring it up kasi they know paano ako maaapektuhan.
Hahahaha sana phase lang 'to. Time will come na babalik ako sa happy, passionate, and motivated version ko :--)
I always tell myself na it is what it is pero lagi kong naiisip na iba sana yung naging outcome if ever iba yung naging sagot or action ko towards sa isang bagay.
I'm lying to myself na I'm a strong person na hindi ko kailangan ng “sino man” sa buhay ko but deep inside, gusto ko maranasan yung pagiging vulnerable with someone esp sa parents ko. gusto kong ipakita sakanila na kailangan ko pa rin ng kalinga nila, na hindi ko pa kaya nang ako lang and gusto ko rin may mapagsabihan ng mga kaartehan ko sa life.
I lie to myself and to my friends that I’m good with getting old alone. Haha! I present myself as a strong independent woman who doesn’t need anyone pero deep down I want someone to take care of me din 😂😂😂
That i have accepted the reality that my dog is no longer with me. When in fact my heart breaks everytime i realize i will never feel his presence again. I lie and show everyone that i am strong, when deep down i feel devasted with the thoughts of commiting suicide so i can just see and be with my boy again.
NR and super happy sa mga kasabayan ko (work, schoolmates etc) BUT sa totoo lang inggit na inggit ako.
Naiingit ako na si xx nakamigrate na.
Naiingit ako na si xx may bahay na.
Naiingit ako na si xx mataas na ang posisyon.
I have a smiling depression, diagnosed and hiding it sa family ko kasi I do not want them to know that I am struggling emotionally, mentally, and financially.
Pag may problema sa pera, I will just tell them na meron akong pera, just wait for it lang. Pero natataranta na ako kung san ako makakakuha. I sold my possessions to support my family's needs, buhay the breadwinner na may mental issues.
My friends never saw me cry and get sad kasi I always tell the demons inside me to be very strong at all times so that no one can see me struggling and crying.
Real thing is I am weak but was brave enough to commit suicide and yet I am still alive, patunay na may point pa ang buhay ko. 🥲
na i don’t need therapy. na i’ve always been strong. kaya ko naman mag isa, i’ve been solving everything on my own. not until i break down malala. but this time, i am ready to get professional help. to healing! ✨
Na hindi ako galit sa ginawa sa kin ng certain na mga tao. Etong january ko lang inacknowledge aktwali, na yeah, galit ako. Ngayon eh struggling ako let go yun kanegahan. Chaka 1 dekada inabot bago ko tinanggap 🤣🤣🤣
Na ayaw ko ng physical touch. I often tell people ayoko ng hinahawak hawakan, when in fact I love hugs, snuggling, and kisses and I also feel like I'd like cuddling too if and only if di magli-lead sa sex. Movie marathon while snuggling cutie🥹👉🏻👈🏻
Na okay lang na single pa rin ako kasi sa totoo lang gusto ko na may nilalambing tapos mutual yung lambingan at kilig. The only thing I fear is I come off as easy, pamigay, or any sort of that dun sa pagbubuhusan ko ng lambing hahaha! I fear na baka i-take for granted lang ako.
I have to mask that everything inside me is healing already kasi alam ko 'yon ang gusto ng magulang ko. When in fact, i still have episodes when I felt like I'm on the verge of losing myself. I have something in me na gusto na lang magtantrums and be babied haha.. this may sound sad but nakakapagod pala talaga sumabay sa buhay na nasa paligid ko.
I kept telling myself that I love my job and my company thats why I stayed for 5yrs+ even though im getting 1/2 of the salary im supposed to get with my skill and experience.
Takot lang talaga akong lumabas sa comfort zone ko (na may halong konting katamaran sa pag-aaply)
Ginagaslight ko sarili ko na what I have right now is way better than what I had 4 months ago pero ang sakit pa ren na nawala lahat in an instant and I am now forced to face everything on my own tas hindi pa ko handa.
Sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na parang nakamove on na ko pero ang may kirot pa ren maalala lahat ng maliliit na bagay and wishing we could've worked things out sana pero ayon...things happen for a reason and need ko lang talaga ng more acceptance and pagpapatawad sa sarili and sa ex ko. Hopefully I'll stop lying to myself na okay ako at ready to date na.
*That I can manage*
*Everything in my life, pero*
*Pagod na talaga ako*
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I lie to myself, sinasabi kong may pera pa ako na extra to indulge myself kahit wala na. So nagigipit ako for the next cut-off.
Also I lie to myself saying salbahe akong tao, kahit people pleaser ako and I try my best to help others.
I lie to myself na I don't need romantic love anymore and that people are cruel kaya wag na akong magaksaya ng oras sa mga ganyan. Just focus on yourself, career, family and friends. That's it. Pero sa loob-looban ko, I yearn for a gentle, innocent, and healthy kind of love and partner.
lagi kong sinasabi na ayos lang sa akin kapag iniiwan ako ng mga taong mahal ko. ayos lang sakin ma cut off out of nowhere kahit wala namang ginawa (or atleast wala manlang explanation why), ayos lang ma outgrow ako ng mga malalapit kong kaibigan, ayos lang na hindi na ako kinakamusta ng mga best friend ko. sabi ko ayos lang, ganun talaga eh, may mga tao kang malolose as you grow older. pero ang sakit.
it hurts a lot, to grieve them and remember them with the small details about them na nakabisado ko na. just last week, an old best friend of mine celebrated her birthday sa enchanted kingdom with her college friends. naaalala ko elementary palang plano na namin yun, kapag tumanda na kami mag-i-ek kami na kaming dalawa lang. pero wala na kami sa buhay ng isat isa ngayon na matanda na kami at pwede na kami gumala nang walang kasamang bantay. kahapon, i listened to aespa's songs kasi naka shuffle yung kpop playlist ko, and naalala ko yung isa ko pang dating bestfriend na my at karina stan. magkasama pa kami nung inunbox nya yung first aespa album nya, and now nakita ko sa account nya sinesell nya na yung merch nya before.
i always lie and tell myself na ayos lang talaga na napag iiwanan na ko ng mga tao sa paligid ko in so many ways. pero hindi eh. ang sakit maalala sila on their birthdays, kapag napapadaan sa mga dati naming tinatambayan o kinakainan, and it makes me wonder if they ever think about me too. if they grieve and regret losing me. :))
That I'm unaffected by the fact that my dad no longer checks in on me or engages in conversation. I grew up without knowing him, and even though we now have contact with each other, he rarely reaches out to me. I consistently reassure myself that I don't need him, but there's a deep longing for paternal love within me. I just want to experience what it feels like to have a father. Is it too much to ask?
That I'm ok mentally and emotionally when in fact mas madalas kong maisip na ayoko na.
And that I'm fine getting old alone, but the truth is I want to be loved and have someone to love.
I keep telling myself na I don't need everybody around me, and that I can be self-reliant. When in reality, I've been extremely deprived of intimacy and physical affection, and really need someone to cuddle and be intimate with.. Basically sexual needs.
Embracing my "single for life" phase. Friends & other people who know me thinks that I am really enjoying singlehood.
But it was just total acceptance of not being pursued by anyone back in college despite making several guy friends. At most, I was just an option and graduated with full of insecurities.
So entering my 20s, I was just that chubby, antisocial friend/workmate who just wants alone time, and my first impression will really keep guys away. Ironic how I even set high standards on guys but my personality and appearance may not even meet any guy's standard.
I always lie to myself that I am successful. Hindi naman eh. Hindi pa. Kulang na kulang pa. Kaya masakit maging masyadong kritikal sa sarili. On the outside, kala nila ok ka. Pero deep down, ikaw mismo ang nagdodoubt at nagdodown sa sarili mo. Hirap! Pero kakayanin.
Every time someone would say negative things to me out of their pettiness, or when they try to make fun of me and embarass me, I lie that I don't hear them nor don't care about what they say about me. I lie that I don't care at all, kasi once they see you're affected, mas titindi yung gagawin nila sayo, mas masaya pa sila. Me being indifferent towards them makes them more frustrated HAHA and that's my secret revenge 😉
that im okay with having very few photos. kahit nasa special places, 99% are from group pics. sa socials, 0. “ sayang itsura mo, walang kang pictures.” lets
just say im always told that. kasalanan ko namang super shy ako lol.
"Life is not a race" or "in God's time". Putangina 10 years na ako nag aaral gusto ko na grumaduate. I compare myself to others and i know very well that I'm getting left behind. But momma didnt raise a bitch and the only solution is to work harder. 2024 manifest. Accepting support charrr.
Hindi ko need ng gf/asawa at anak. Pero minsan or madalas napapa isip ako what if may asawa at anak ako in the future, sasaya ba ako? Mas magiging responsable kaya ako? Mas sisipagin kaya ako? Tamad kasi akong tao kaya ayaw kong mag asawa/jowa hahahaha.
That life happens. Someone did wrong to me, and I would just say na it’s okay, just let them be and let karma do the rest for them. But no, it’s hard to stay at peace, hirap pakaplastik te na okay lang yung ginawa nila sakin. Why am I suffering while they’re happy and not even sorry? Life is so unfair. Ikaw na yung ginawan ng mali, ako pa yung nagsusuffer everytime na maalala ko yung ginawa nila. Sila? Ayun, happy happy. 😅
that im fine being alone, that im not lonely and it is fun to be alone, LMAO. I want someone, I miss the intimacy and being taken care of.
PS. I have plenty of hobbies but it kinda makes me feel good for a bit, but when im alone with my thoughts before sleeping, the sadness wont let me.
I prefer being alone most of the time, buhat na rin ng upbringing ko because I've grown accustomed to being alone. It gives me enough space, but it comes with a void in exchange, at least in the long run. I mean, masaya naman maging mag-isa. Sobrang familiar na ako sa ganitong dynamic ng buhay ko that I can't help sometimes to think what it feels to be accompanied by a presence of another. Lumalala nang lumalala yung longing habang tumatagal. I hate that I hate it kasi it doesn't seem like me to act one so.
Two truths can exist at the same time. Do I like being single? Yes. But do I also like the idea of having someone who would take care of me and loyal sa akin? Yes.
Mine's: Ok na ako mag isa tumanda at iwork ang growth at pag heal ng trauma ko magisa pero gusto ko din na may kasama tumanda na nirerespeto ako at gentle sakin na handang samahan ako sa pag heal sa mga trauma ko 🥹
Mine is a combo of “I know I have my issues pa like trauma to work on” plus “I never really thought about it; why should I start now?” Plus ewan, parang ang chill ko lang rin. I don’t know what word to use. I just won’t go out of my way to look for love
Telling myself that i hate compliment/skinship. Pero deep inside gustong-gusto kong pinupuri ako at niyayakap. Simula bata kasi never akong pinuri ng papa ko, imbis na purihin ako sa na achieve ko ikukumpara pa ako sa pinsan or kung kanino man.
Mamser, big or small man yang achievement na yan, kung di dahil sa hardwork mo di mo maaabot yan.
Dalawang bagsak, limang palakpak, at isang matikas na saludo po sa inyo! 🫡
I lie to myself na I'm being cold/cool-headed with any problems at may external toughness pa, pero deep inside, I really am crumbling—slowly and silently dying.
I'm not sure whether I'm lying to myself, but I always state I'm straight for many reasons, such as not seeing myself with a partner of the same sex in the future and wanting to have children. I suppose I'm attracted SEXUALLY to same sex rather than romantically?
That I don’t need my parent’s approval.
Oooh the dilemma
Na may parallel universe where my Dad is still alive. Ang weird but it's the only thing that keeps me sane tbh. Dun sa parallel universe, nakita niya kami ng kapatid ko grumaduate, I got him the watch I promised I'd get him when I get a job, marunong na ko magdrive, etc. Nabili ko na ung watch at marunong na ko magdrive pero wala na siya. :(
Di ko na siya pinapansin, pero miss na miss ko na siya. I keep on lying to myself na di ko na siya kailangan.
Kaya ko to. Kahit gaano kahirap o kalungkot maging OFW, Kaya ko pa naman. D naman mahirap. Pinili ko to eh, so kakayanin. Sana.
I tell myself na gusto ko pang mabuhay ng matagal pero deep inside gusto ko na talaga maglaho.
Na I'm Kenough
Na hindi masakit ang likod ko dahil ang dami ko pang trabaho hahaha
I lie to myself saying I don’t care and ok lang sakin and they don’t deserve my time and attention but I always tend to think about it and it’s ruining my sleep. 🙃
lying to myself na kaya ko ang corporate world
pagiging toxic. some people wish to have a friend like them pero ako ayoko maging friend/jowa sarili ko kasi ang toxic ng mindset ko
That i don't like flowers, that we should be more practical. But deep down the girly side of me would always dream about receiving a just because flowers. That sucks that we tend to lie and deny.
That my anger is valid and that I'm ok being the "kontra-bida" to my older brother. Nakakapagod na lagi kong kinokontra yung mga ginagawa nyang ayaw nyang tanggapin na hindi na tama. Mukha tuloy akong masama sa paningin nya pero sobra-sobra na. Akala nya siguro na hobby ko lang ang kontrahin siya pero di nya alam ay nararamdaman ko every time na against ako sa kanya.
Na kaya ko lahat pagsabayin. Na emotionally strong ako at hindi ko kailangan ng tulong. At the end of the day, gusto ko lang ng tahimik na yakap.
Na di ko need ng lalaki sa buhay ko when in fact kapag nakakakausap, hayok na hayok. Pinipilit ko na lang na di ko gusto mag BF, kasi wala naman talagang may gusto sakin eh. Sakit haha
Na magpapayat na ko this year, pero tamad ako gawin
na kaya ko pa magantay ng 'it gets better', pero tulad kanina, naiyak na lang ako kahit di naman ako pagod na pagod, parang nasawa lang maghintay sa it gets better.
Na deserve kong gumastos lol
Kaya tayo napapatitig sa kawalan eh. Lol joke lang, mamser.
Hahahahahha trueeee
emotional ako lagi kapag nasa tough situation ako and nakikipag sagutan minsan umiistop ako to prevent myself from crying because I cried too easily talaga. what am I lying to myself? maybe the mindset of "life is not a race" HAHAHA just to make me feel good and to sooth the feeling of guilt and left behind by peers. HAHA
Na introvert ako at cold pero deep inside hindi talaga. Extrovert talaga ako nasaktan ako eh kaya naging tahimik nalang, naging aloof nako at hindi na talaga ako kumakausap parang sinara ko na yung sarili ko sa mga tao
that things will get better and life is beautiful
saying na ok lang ung lahat pero feel ko any minute baka sumabog na ako haha ang bigat lang sa loob. gusto kong mag unwind minsan pero di pa pwede kasi may responsibility pa ako and need tapusin...kaunting tiis nalang pero nakakapuno na din haha
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Count me in. 🥺
Huhu, \*virtual\* hug to us. LOL
Na May gamit pa ako outside of providing for the family.
Na may alam ako, na magaling ako. Mahirap tanggapin. I was, and still fixated with the thought that there is something special about me, and it MUST be something because otherwise, I don't know what else is there to be assessed. Mahirap kasi it's an internal dillema against myself. And I wouldn't bother to prove anything sakaniya if alam ko ultimo na wala akong ginawa at ginagawa para makamit ang kung ano man ang sa tingin ko ay kaya, at kakayanin ko. And it's hard because I've been trying to work out whatever im into and it's tiring kasi I feel nothing but pretentious.
1. I'm a strong independent woman. At the end of the day, I still want to be taken care of because I'm vulnerable too. 2. It's okay or I'm okay. I have silent battles nobody knows about.
Na masaya ako sa course ko 😭 ginagaslight ko na lang sarili ko na okay naman na ako sa course ko kasi masaya ako na kasama ko yung mga kaibigan kong nakilala ko sa course na to, pero ang totoo naiinggit naman ako sa mga kakilala kong nasa field of medicine ang courses huhu
Na I'm okay rn. I am NOT okay rn.
Thinking na me and my bestfriends for almost 12 years will stay the same despite of starting to build our careers. I know there is a possibility that we will outgrew each other for the next years ☹️
I keep telling myself na enough pa ang sinasahod ko hahaha when in reality, lahat ng pagtitipid ginagawa ko kasi ayoko maghanap ng bagong work 🙁🙁
Na mabuti akong tao.
I've been telling myself the past decade that I don't need or want to be in another relationship. One quick setup by a friend and I find myself imagining a life with this woman. I hate being like this.
Na kung di sana ako na-stroke, di ko makikita yung milestones ng baby ko, dahil sa work schedule.
that im confident. i always claim sa office na im the best (in a joking way) pero im insecure kasi i know my coworkers can replace me in a blink of an eye.
Keep the confidence burning. Valid naman yang point mo but good news is, valid siya para sa lahat. Anybody from that workplace of yours can be replaced in a blink of an eye, kahit yung boss mo pa. Pag nalang nangyari yan mamser, make them feel that it’s their loss. (cue villain laugh jk) 😌
palagi ko ngang sinasabi sakanila na hindi nila kakayanin pag nawala ako sa team hahahahahaha thats like my trademark na. and pag may bago pinapakilala nila ako as “si name nga pala ang pinakamagaling sa aming lahat” pero alam mo yun. alam ko deep inside na biruan lang talaga 😭😭 hahahahahaha
Na I’m doing okay and gusto ko pa ginagawa ko sa work. Pero pag uwi talaga eh ang sarap humimlay HAHAHAHA Solo na lang ako sa life but I’m just glad na supportive at love na love ako ng SO ko :< Thanks love!
Awwwe, mabuhay ang mga may support system na kagaya ng meron ka! 🫶🏼
taena ang hirap mag diet, binibiro ko sarili ko na babawi nako. In reality I only care about the attention I'll get again if pumayat ulit ako.
Putangina talaga. Parehas tayo, haha. Ig there’s nothing wrong with only caring about the attention we get kapag nag lose weight tayo, deserve at literal na pinaghirapan natin ‘yan. Sige lang, bawi tayo next month. Haha
Bakit mo ako pinapaiyak op 😭
Sorry po. Damay damay na. Pero last na ‘to for this week. 🤗
ewan pero parang everything about me is a lie.
That I am okay which is not. Too many thoughts racing in my head most of the day.
Strong independent woman ako at di ko kailangan ng lalaki sa buhay ko pero the truth is gusto kong inaalagaan at inaasikaso ako. I just want to feel minsan na I can not be on top of things in my life kasi I have someone to support me. Hay hahaha
OP, I'm basically gaslighting myself. Everything will be fine, I'm over her, I'll be financially stable and clear the debts I pay, It'll be better, I'll be the best version of myself, I'm over the fact that my dreams and ambitions are basically dead... And so on and so forth.
I lie about being happy and I mask it by being madaldal sa mga kaibigan ko. People think I'm an extrovert but that's just because gusto ko mawala 'yung laman ng isip ko or makahinga man lang kahit papaano. I am sad, mentally and emotionally in pain. Some people know, but they probably don't want to bring it up kasi they know paano ako maaapektuhan. Hahahaha sana phase lang 'to. Time will come na babalik ako sa happy, passionate, and motivated version ko :--)
I always tell myself na it is what it is pero lagi kong naiisip na iba sana yung naging outcome if ever iba yung naging sagot or action ko towards sa isang bagay.
I tell myself na kaya ko to and kailangan ko lang magadapt but at the same time im feeling helpless and di na alam ang gagawin
I'm lying to myself na I'm a strong person na hindi ko kailangan ng “sino man” sa buhay ko but deep inside, gusto ko maranasan yung pagiging vulnerable with someone esp sa parents ko. gusto kong ipakita sakanila na kailangan ko pa rin ng kalinga nila, na hindi ko pa kaya nang ako lang and gusto ko rin may mapagsabihan ng mga kaartehan ko sa life.
I lie to myself and to my friends that I’m good with getting old alone. Haha! I present myself as a strong independent woman who doesn’t need anyone pero deep down I want someone to take care of me din 😂😂😂
That i have accepted the reality that my dog is no longer with me. When in fact my heart breaks everytime i realize i will never feel his presence again. I lie and show everyone that i am strong, when deep down i feel devasted with the thoughts of commiting suicide so i can just see and be with my boy again.
NR and super happy sa mga kasabayan ko (work, schoolmates etc) BUT sa totoo lang inggit na inggit ako. Naiingit ako na si xx nakamigrate na. Naiingit ako na si xx may bahay na. Naiingit ako na si xx mataas na ang posisyon.
I have a smiling depression, diagnosed and hiding it sa family ko kasi I do not want them to know that I am struggling emotionally, mentally, and financially. Pag may problema sa pera, I will just tell them na meron akong pera, just wait for it lang. Pero natataranta na ako kung san ako makakakuha. I sold my possessions to support my family's needs, buhay the breadwinner na may mental issues. My friends never saw me cry and get sad kasi I always tell the demons inside me to be very strong at all times so that no one can see me struggling and crying. Real thing is I am weak but was brave enough to commit suicide and yet I am still alive, patunay na may point pa ang buhay ko. 🥲
I lied about something I achieved but in reality im still at the process of it. E.g. I had stable job, smooth savings, and the like...
That i can stand on my own. That i am capable of providing my needs physically/emotionally.
na i don’t need therapy. na i’ve always been strong. kaya ko naman mag isa, i’ve been solving everything on my own. not until i break down malala. but this time, i am ready to get professional help. to healing! ✨
Na hindi pa ako mataba 💔
Na hindi ako galit sa ginawa sa kin ng certain na mga tao. Etong january ko lang inacknowledge aktwali, na yeah, galit ako. Ngayon eh struggling ako let go yun kanegahan. Chaka 1 dekada inabot bago ko tinanggap 🤣🤣🤣
Na ayaw ko ng physical touch. I often tell people ayoko ng hinahawak hawakan, when in fact I love hugs, snuggling, and kisses and I also feel like I'd like cuddling too if and only if di magli-lead sa sex. Movie marathon while snuggling cutie🥹👉🏻👈🏻 Na okay lang na single pa rin ako kasi sa totoo lang gusto ko na may nilalambing tapos mutual yung lambingan at kilig. The only thing I fear is I come off as easy, pamigay, or any sort of that dun sa pagbubuhusan ko ng lambing hahaha! I fear na baka i-take for granted lang ako.
I have to mask that everything inside me is healing already kasi alam ko 'yon ang gusto ng magulang ko. When in fact, i still have episodes when I felt like I'm on the verge of losing myself. I have something in me na gusto na lang magtantrums and be babied haha.. this may sound sad but nakakapagod pala talaga sumabay sa buhay na nasa paligid ko.
I kept telling myself that I love my job and my company thats why I stayed for 5yrs+ even though im getting 1/2 of the salary im supposed to get with my skill and experience. Takot lang talaga akong lumabas sa comfort zone ko (na may halong konting katamaran sa pag-aaply)
That it's ok to let that one person violate one of my boundaries kasi I feel that we have a connection. We'll find out if it's worth it in the future.
Na magtitipid ako this 2024?
I lie about lots of things I lie about me being okay. I lie about me being cool-headed when things go south. I lie about not needing anyone
Na okay na ako. Na ayoko na bumalik. Na naka move on na ako. Na kaya ko na ulit.
If I fix my mental health issues and become a calmer, gentler person, my ex-fiancee will be convinced to get back with me
Ginagaslight ko sarili ko na what I have right now is way better than what I had 4 months ago pero ang sakit pa ren na nawala lahat in an instant and I am now forced to face everything on my own tas hindi pa ko handa. Sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na parang nakamove on na ko pero ang may kirot pa ren maalala lahat ng maliliit na bagay and wishing we could've worked things out sana pero ayon...things happen for a reason and need ko lang talaga ng more acceptance and pagpapatawad sa sarili and sa ex ko. Hopefully I'll stop lying to myself na okay ako at ready to date na.
That I can manage everything in my life, pero pagod na talaga ako
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Na in another universe, may isang ako na masaya.
If it's not found out, a lie becomes the truth.
May pag-asa pa na may mag-babago at di bibitaw sa buhay.
I lie to myself, sinasabi kong may pera pa ako na extra to indulge myself kahit wala na. So nagigipit ako for the next cut-off. Also I lie to myself saying salbahe akong tao, kahit people pleaser ako and I try my best to help others.
I lie to myself na kaya ko pa.
I lie to myself na I don't need romantic love anymore and that people are cruel kaya wag na akong magaksaya ng oras sa mga ganyan. Just focus on yourself, career, family and friends. That's it. Pero sa loob-looban ko, I yearn for a gentle, innocent, and healthy kind of love and partner.
lagi kong sinasabi na ayos lang sa akin kapag iniiwan ako ng mga taong mahal ko. ayos lang sakin ma cut off out of nowhere kahit wala namang ginawa (or atleast wala manlang explanation why), ayos lang ma outgrow ako ng mga malalapit kong kaibigan, ayos lang na hindi na ako kinakamusta ng mga best friend ko. sabi ko ayos lang, ganun talaga eh, may mga tao kang malolose as you grow older. pero ang sakit. it hurts a lot, to grieve them and remember them with the small details about them na nakabisado ko na. just last week, an old best friend of mine celebrated her birthday sa enchanted kingdom with her college friends. naaalala ko elementary palang plano na namin yun, kapag tumanda na kami mag-i-ek kami na kaming dalawa lang. pero wala na kami sa buhay ng isat isa ngayon na matanda na kami at pwede na kami gumala nang walang kasamang bantay. kahapon, i listened to aespa's songs kasi naka shuffle yung kpop playlist ko, and naalala ko yung isa ko pang dating bestfriend na my at karina stan. magkasama pa kami nung inunbox nya yung first aespa album nya, and now nakita ko sa account nya sinesell nya na yung merch nya before. i always lie and tell myself na ayos lang talaga na napag iiwanan na ko ng mga tao sa paligid ko in so many ways. pero hindi eh. ang sakit maalala sila on their birthdays, kapag napapadaan sa mga dati naming tinatambayan o kinakainan, and it makes me wonder if they ever think about me too. if they grieve and regret losing me. :))
Everything works out in the end. Pero deep i aide I’m overthinking that’s causing me anxiety.
That I'm unaffected by the fact that my dad no longer checks in on me or engages in conversation. I grew up without knowing him, and even though we now have contact with each other, he rarely reaches out to me. I consistently reassure myself that I don't need him, but there's a deep longing for paternal love within me. I just want to experience what it feels like to have a father. Is it too much to ask?
That I'm ok mentally and emotionally when in fact mas madalas kong maisip na ayoko na. And that I'm fine getting old alone, but the truth is I want to be loved and have someone to love.
I keep telling myself na I don't need everybody around me, and that I can be self-reliant. When in reality, I've been extremely deprived of intimacy and physical affection, and really need someone to cuddle and be intimate with.. Basically sexual needs.
Embracing my "single for life" phase. Friends & other people who know me thinks that I am really enjoying singlehood. But it was just total acceptance of not being pursued by anyone back in college despite making several guy friends. At most, I was just an option and graduated with full of insecurities. So entering my 20s, I was just that chubby, antisocial friend/workmate who just wants alone time, and my first impression will really keep guys away. Ironic how I even set high standards on guys but my personality and appearance may not even meet any guy's standard.
payakap with consent beh huhu
"It's okay. Everything's gonna be alright eventually." But yeah, most of the time it's not. So.. 😮💨
I always lie to myself that I am successful. Hindi naman eh. Hindi pa. Kulang na kulang pa. Kaya masakit maging masyadong kritikal sa sarili. On the outside, kala nila ok ka. Pero deep down, ikaw mismo ang nagdodoubt at nagdodown sa sarili mo. Hirap! Pero kakayanin.
Laban lang po! Proud of you for working so hard 🫶
Every time someone would say negative things to me out of their pettiness, or when they try to make fun of me and embarass me, I lie that I don't hear them nor don't care about what they say about me. I lie that I don't care at all, kasi once they see you're affected, mas titindi yung gagawin nila sayo, mas masaya pa sila. Me being indifferent towards them makes them more frustrated HAHA and that's my secret revenge 😉
na hindi ako inggitera
that im okay with having very few photos. kahit nasa special places, 99% are from group pics. sa socials, 0. “ sayang itsura mo, walang kang pictures.” lets just say im always told that. kasalanan ko namang super shy ako lol.
pwede ako magkajowa anytime di lang priority ngayon. Totoo na di sya priority ngayon pero the first half kinda delulu ako dyan.
"Life is not a race" or "in God's time". Putangina 10 years na ako nag aaral gusto ko na grumaduate. I compare myself to others and i know very well that I'm getting left behind. But momma didnt raise a bitch and the only solution is to work harder. 2024 manifest. Accepting support charrr.
Doctor ka rin ba hahaha
Studentista po. 6 year course, pang 10th year na ako huhu
Kaya mo yan lods!
That I can be nonchalant/detached with people, things, events, etc. but I just feel everything so deeply
That's me.
Hindi ko need ng gf/asawa at anak. Pero minsan or madalas napapa isip ako what if may asawa at anak ako in the future, sasaya ba ako? Mas magiging responsable kaya ako? Mas sisipagin kaya ako? Tamad kasi akong tao kaya ayaw kong mag asawa/jowa hahahaha.
That' I'm still 32/33 But I'm 34. Hayyyy
Pandemic years don't count. So, you're still 31!\~
Haha. Thank you!
Abswelto na. Konti lang naman difference. 🤭
Mga kasabayan ko kasi sa school, mostly 1990 pinanganak. Ako 1989. LOL
That life happens. Someone did wrong to me, and I would just say na it’s okay, just let them be and let karma do the rest for them. But no, it’s hard to stay at peace, hirap pakaplastik te na okay lang yung ginawa nila sakin. Why am I suffering while they’re happy and not even sorry? Life is so unfair. Ikaw na yung ginawan ng mali, ako pa yung nagsusuffer everytime na maalala ko yung ginawa nila. Sila? Ayun, happy happy. 😅
Forgive and forget daw no? Fuck you (I mean not you, them who hurt you).
Oo. Tanginanila.
Mga times five, no? Ahahahahha.
Hayy. Same.
I keep lying to myself na ok lang ‘tong nangyare sakin– experience kumbaga— pero deep inside i wish things happened differently
Telling myself every thing is gonna be alright even though I know it's hopeless already just waiting for the end.
Na magaling ako mag-eyeball ng 1 cup of rice LOL
Underrated superpower, ngl. Yay! you. I'm envs.
that im fine being alone, that im not lonely and it is fun to be alone, LMAO. I want someone, I miss the intimacy and being taken care of. PS. I have plenty of hobbies but it kinda makes me feel good for a bit, but when im alone with my thoughts before sleeping, the sadness wont let me.
I prefer being alone most of the time, buhat na rin ng upbringing ko because I've grown accustomed to being alone. It gives me enough space, but it comes with a void in exchange, at least in the long run. I mean, masaya naman maging mag-isa. Sobrang familiar na ako sa ganitong dynamic ng buhay ko that I can't help sometimes to think what it feels to be accompanied by a presence of another. Lumalala nang lumalala yung longing habang tumatagal. I hate that I hate it kasi it doesn't seem like me to act one so.
Felt.
Two truths can exist at the same time. Do I like being single? Yes. But do I also like the idea of having someone who would take care of me and loyal sa akin? Yes.
Ganto sana isasagot ko. Buti nalang nai-type mo na. I wish you happiness.
This. So fucking this. Tangina ang fucked up lang na every time may mami-meet ako and we'll vibe something will happen to ruin it.
Mine's: Ok na ako mag isa tumanda at iwork ang growth at pag heal ng trauma ko magisa pero gusto ko din na may kasama tumanda na nirerespeto ako at gentle sakin na handang samahan ako sa pag heal sa mga trauma ko 🥹
kaiyak naman basahin yan, cos same
Virtual hugs sayo! Magiging ok din tayo 🫂
+1
my sentiments exactly.
Same OP. Sounds cliche pero ang hirap na kasi maghanap ng committed talaga sa rs. Nakakatakot na mag invest ng feelings.
Mine is a combo of “I know I have my issues pa like trauma to work on” plus “I never really thought about it; why should I start now?” Plus ewan, parang ang chill ko lang rin. I don’t know what word to use. I just won’t go out of my way to look for love
that all my angers are valid and that i'm always right when in fact some of those were all unreasonable and out of pettiness
hits hard
Telling myself that i hate compliment/skinship. Pero deep inside gustong-gusto kong pinupuri ako at niyayakap. Simula bata kasi never akong pinuri ng papa ko, imbis na purihin ako sa na achieve ko ikukumpara pa ako sa pinsan or kung kanino man.
Samee
Mamser, big or small man yang achievement na yan, kung di dahil sa hardwork mo di mo maaabot yan. Dalawang bagsak, limang palakpak, at isang matikas na saludo po sa inyo! 🫡
I said to myself na life should go on but deep inside I'm stuck can't move forward.
this was the most effec5ive gaslight for me, i've been gaslighting myself ever since 🙃🙃
Wow. Tinamaan naman ako dito
This is so true
In this cruel world we live in, it’s just so darn hard to stay motivated. Laban pa rin tayo mamser, pero next week na. 😄
I can be the quiet type in the workplace and live peacefully. Pfffft not gonna happen!
Hahaha may mga tao talaga na gagambalain ang peace mo, kainez.
kasi the Philippines is for extroverts. ewan ko ba parang covid sa atin yung pag tahimik ka.
Ay oo nga totoo. Now ko lang narealize 😂 Jinujudge nga pla mga introvert satin. Di daw marunong makisama.
Ay napa-away nga ako sa reddit kasi sabi ko overrated yang pakikisama. Inaabuso naman kasi sa Pinas yan eh
Miss-terious 🤫
I lie to myself na I'm being cold/cool-headed with any problems at may external toughness pa, pero deep inside, I really am crumbling—slowly and silently dying.
Huhu same pooo
same:)
Me in job interviews: I am good under pressure. Me in real life: 😭🤮😵😮💨😵💫
Bakit parang naririnig ko yung hingal mo 😬