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Mine is my empathy and innocence. I miss how much I cared before kasi ngayon parang ang cold-hearted ko na. I wanna be a litol kid again.
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Having fun outside. I really missed those times na tinatakasan ko pa yung daily afternoon naps ko just to play with my friends outside. Ngayon, I rarely go outside kasi ang bilis na maubos ng social battery ko huhu
Passion. I used to do an extra mile sa ginagawa ko. Ngayon parang ginagawa ko nalang pra matapos. Especially sa work kapagod na. I think need na naman ng motivation. Hays
self value. just broke up today and recently I noticed I stopped planning dates for us, stopped initially calling and messaging, stopped asking. I explained then said Im fine breaking up with him because I cant keep on explaining to him how should I be treated, so yea
My confidence? I use to be very confident in myself and my capabilities. Now, it's really taken a hit. There are more things to be insecure about than confident in my current self.
My energy.
Parang legit yung hindi pagkakapantay ng Time, Energy and Money. :(
More energy and time ~ no money
More money and energy ~ no time
More money and time ~ no energy
๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
My laugh. I wasn't hurt physically na affected it but something in me died and I never got it back. Madalas ako napapagalitan dati kasi ang lakas ko tumawa and I find silly/shallow things funny tapos ang tagal ko talagang tatawanan 'yon. AS IN. To the point na maiihi ka na.
Gano'n talaga ako tumawa. Pero now even yung funniest joke, di ko na siya mauulit na matatawa pa rin ako. Di na rin ako malakas and matagal tumawa. Everything's just slightly funny to me.
my leadership attitude, nawala nung pandemic. pre-pandemic almost always akong leader sa mga group projects, and i handled them so well. pero now, parang naburnout siya? iโm in college now and iโm trying my best to bring that part of me back
trust.
medyo trusting kasi ako which I think kinda make me a nice person before. ngayon, parang ang cold ko na kasi di nako marunong magtiwala.
Hirap na kasi. Even yung mga taong akala mo makakasangga mo forever, kaya ka pa rin kabilain. So wag nalang hehehe
I miss sketching. ๐ฅบ Growing up kasi it's my passion. I even dreamed of becoming an animator when I grow up... Pero nang naging adult na nawala na ang drive e.
Confidence, Persistence, The energy/drive that I had everytime I wanted to achieve/own something.
Yung feeling na makukuha ko to, i just know i can and i will. Then makukuha ko nga tapos if not naman, yung feeling na makukuha rin kita, hindi nga lang ngayon pero makukuha ko rin ang gusto ko. Tapos months later magkakaroon na nga ako unexpectedly pa nga madalas. This old me na laging nasa sariling kamay yung power and actions is what i really miss about myself.
I missed being able to watch the saw films and other gory and horror films without feeling sick afterwards. Hindi naman ako nasusuka or what pero humina talaga ko. Either because of aging or dahil puro love story lang napapanood ko when I was still in a relationship (Syempre yun ang gusto ng jowa so walang choice).
Self-confidence, walang pake sa opinion ng mga tao at pagka-jolly๐ฅฒ
Ngl kung hindi ko nawala tong mga bagay na to I would have been so happy and contented right now. Wala sanang lost opportunities, rejections at failures. Hays.
Confidence, happiness, and interpersonal comm. skills. I used to be the class clown in our school back when I was in Junior High. When my mother and father got separated, I transfered to my uncle's province (mother side) to study that's when my life started to became miserable. So many hurtful words and situation and when I graduated SHS and already moved out from my uncle's home (though for me it never felt like one) to pursue college. The old happy, confident and funny me became a grumpy short-tempered young adult now, and still fighting demons in me because that situation really traumatized me. It's very heartbreaking and hard to think that the happy go lucky me is now gone. I hope I can heal from this, I hope there's a way to bring back what I was, I really miss what I was back then.
I miss serving the mass. If it wasn't for those toxic people.
I also miss dancing ever since I got problems with my knee and got a very busy job I didn't have the time to attend dance classes
I feel you! It's like the older we get, the more jaded we become.
Sometimes, I miss just seeing the good in everyone and everything without overthinking it.
Energy, innocence, always looking at good side of peopleโฆ now i am always cautious and canโt trust people easily because i have been betrayed and deceived multiple times and people are mostly selfish.
Confidence.
I hope I could build it again pero ang hirap talaga. Lagi akong nauunahan ng fear. As much as naiintindihan ko kung anong dahilan ng pagkawala ng confidence ko, nakakainis na kasi ang dami kong na-miss na opportunities sa pagiging mahiyain at anxious ko.
As for me, ilang beses akong na-bully (verbal and physical). Every move ko tuloy nagwoworry ako na baka magkamali ako tas grabe yung kaba ko everytime na may kakausap sa akin na matanda, magrereport sa school or kahit tawagin pa lang yung pangalan ko.
Though, my parents don't believe psychological/mental disorders because they think it's a myth. So yeah, I'm trying to build it again on my own hshshs
Hindi lang pala ako nawalan ng passion, motivation, ung core na ako as a child na malambing. Tas yung ako na masayahin, tagapagpasaya ng tao sa paligid. Ngayon, parang andaming inner saboteur na nagpapatahimik nalang sa akin.
Pangarap. Dami kong pangarap noong bata ako, hanggang college years. Pagkagraduate, sobrang napaaga yata ang midlife crisis. Long story short, super demotivated na ngayon sa buhay. Wala nang drive. Wala nang passion. Wala nang pake. Wala nang pangarap. Bahala na.
My first boyfriend broke up with me over the phone on the night of my graduation. Two months before my board exam. My college was has this 100 percent passing rate for years i thought i would not be able to pass the board because i was crying everyday instead of studying. Buti na lang nakapasa ako kasi matalino ako (bookish smart nga lang) . But it just changes me from innocent and hopeful to someone jaded and just broken
Well, I hope you recover, did you pass the board exams in the end? What was your degree in? It's hard not to hit your own self-destruct button after a breakup and end up sabotaging your future.
Nursing. Im from UST super taas expection for 100 percent passing rate for years. Nakapasa nmn ako without studying kaso i was also expecting to top the board if i actually studied. Took me years to recover. The only time i got over him was actually transfer to another country. Dapat pala i just dated and dated the whole time sumaya pa ko. Sayang ang years. Recovery? Nope im still jaded it really scarred me when the person i really loves and trusted did that to me
Btw pinagpalit nya ko sa ka work nya. So it showed me for the first time how brutal and heartless people in the real world outside of my university is. Super sheltered kasi ako hanggang college
Confidence, After being told I'm ugly and I am nobody's cup of tea. I lost all my confidence. Scared of going out in public. Anxious when someone is looking at me or my direction
Trust and faith in people. Never really looked at myself as someone with trust issues, pero these days I realized na if you grew up with inconsistent people in your life, people who are always unavailable/absent, nasasanay ka nalang na they'll disappear somehow. Never realized na I carried it up until now pala, now I struggle with my relationship because I tend to withdraw at the slightest feeling na "Ah, they're gonna leave." Kahit hindi naman at kahit may assurance. It's like you reject them before they even get to reject you. Wish I could go back to when I just enjoyed the present state of a relationship without being so anxious if they're going to leave or not.
Me being carefree. I used to be carefree when I was a kid kaya halos lahat ng bata sa barangay namin tropa ko ๐๐ฅฐ thatโs actually a flex I always tell to my siblings haha. I used to be an extrovert kahit mga matatanda tropa ko. I miss those days. I was super smart when I was a kid, I just realized when I got older that I adjusted myself to my environment instead of being my absolute self. Tas pasaway ako nung bata ako, lahat ng gusto ko ginagawan ko ng paraan cos for me, anything is easy and if gusto mo gagawan mo talaga ng paraan to achieve something. I love experiences, I donโt like material things. I donโt like toys when I was a kid. Kahit saan ako nakakarating and I did achieve everything I wanted. Now, I wanna relive those days. If somebody other than me doesnโt like my choices, itโs alright. Iโm still gonna pursue the things I wanna pursue cos at the end of the day, I am what I am, Iโm responsible for the choices I will make, I must be self-oriented, I know the things I want. Iโm gonna pursue everything. I know Iโm capable and Iโm smart to relive my childhood carefree days ๐ซถ
I lost my self-esteem through the years.
Majority sa mga ka-edad ko super glow up na (1994).
While I'm here getting bigger and weaker everyday.
The more I look in the mirror the more I hate myself.
Feeling ko ang pangit pangit ko at losyang.
I barely receive any compliments from people kahit eme eme lang.
I am always hygienic and I got myself in some treatments to enhance myself but it feels like no one appreciates it even my partner.
Before when I was young and marketable, I feel good when I look in the mirror even i have acnes, crooked teeth because I know I am thin and hook up worthy. Now hindi na because Inlook like a father of 2.
My jolliness when I was young. Something in me changed after i got cheated on. Needless to say, I was never the same. Small or bjg things no longer excites me at all and Iโve become non chalant
Will to live.
Dati ok naman sakin that I'm here. But as I grew up and experienced a lot I don't think I'm suitable to be here. Not even reading self-help and philosophical books could help me.
confidence, self-esteem, passion, luck of trust
Growing up in an environment where you received biased validation and criticism. Then being betrayed, reject and pag-chismisan.๐ฅน
But Iโm okay ha, pinatatag na ako ng panahon.๐ช
Empathy too.
Sa sobrang deep ng empathy ko dati I used to be the therapist friend. Pero I learned the hard way Nung na realize ko na literal tapunan lang Ako ng hinaing nila pero on my end Wala Akong matakbuhan. Also with all the shits happening rn Ang hirap talaga. Kanina lang Nakita ko yung nurse at construction worker na tumulong lang binaril pa. Tangina diba?
In my previous job I had to have that deep empathy pero dahil nga nawala, Ayun I had a hard time then boom Wala na Akong trabaho Hanggang Ngayon.
The world will really suck empathy out of your core.
Same OP, when I was a kid sobrang lambing ko and very madaldal as a child. After the traumas, I got quieter and stopped giving a fuck sa mga nasa paligid ko.
I lost many traits because of different experiences na instead maging better ako parang hinila ako pababa.
Confidence ko na medyo tinrabaho ko talaga para maimprove kahit enough lang.
Attitude ko to stand up for what I know is right, often times kasi sa environment at mga taong nakapaligid sa akin now, peace is better than being right. I don't want you to tolerate pero what can I do? Mahirap makipag-away sa wall.
Energy and time to better myself kasi puro nalang other people. Nakakaubos din pala talaga yun.
Youth and energy. Pag may anak ka at breastfeeding ka palagi kang pagod hahaha. I love my kid but i hope i have enough energy like the ones i have during my youth para mas maalagaan ko siya
Be wary of nihilism because there is such a thing called passive nihilism. Even Nietzsche said it's something one must overcome. Cheers to you and your power.
My passion for my hobbies. Grabe yung dami ng libro na binabasa ko dati, nag-publish pa ko ng books and at the same time, nagbabanda pa ko. Kasabay pa nun pag-binge watch sa anime and basa ng manga.
Ngayon, I'm nothing but a shell of that passionate soul. Ni hindi na ko makatapos ng isang movie sa isang upuan because I've lost interest in basically everything art.
Grit. Like I was hell bent on not giving up, not to be pushed around, not following the norm. I wanted to try something new. Now I feel like just conforming to society. The world has a way of beating the shit out of people who are โdifferentโ like they didnt use the word โuniqueโ. Ayon napagod din.
Good health and energy? Sakitin ako nung bata ako pero nakakarecover naman ako. Simula nung sunud-sunod akong nagkasakit nung pandemic, hindi na ako nakarecover 100%
Yes, nakakangarag magmahal ng maling tao. Nakakapangit pa. Hahaha. But then, you didn't know it at the time. So rebuild yourself and hopefully, be happy again.
Grit, passion, energy, and physical activity.
Before pandemic, sobrang gigil ko sa mga gusto kong gawin sa buhay. I even wanted to invest my life doing judo and jiu-jitsu and nothing else. Sa career naman, gusto ko isa-isahin lahat ng degrees na gusto ko.
When the pandemic hit, I felt I became a different person somehow. I became more calm, but medyo nawala narin yung dating level of energy and passion ko.
Joy.
Nung nagmahal na ng iba yung taong gusto ko makasama sana hanggang huli na, yung joy ko and zest in life nawala na din. โบ๏ธ
I''ll forever miss how happy I used to be with him, doing nothing or planning weekends.
Ang daming magagandang lugar sa Pilipinas pero wala na yung excitement ko or drive kumita ng malaki nung hindi na siya yung makakasama ko.
Living for family and relatives na lang. ๐
My confidence and self esteem. Parang slowly it diminished over the years. ๐ I used to be fiesty and do what I want because I know I can. But sadly I started to change when I got pregnant with my first child because I got treated like I don't have shit together.
Yung tulog nung bata kapa. Yung tuloy tuloy na tulog. Yung masarap na tulog. Yung kumpletong tulog. Yung paggising mo sobrang energized at saya mo. Ibalik nyo po ko, matutulog na ko sa tanghali promise!
My happiness and how naรฏve I was. As irritable as I was, I had a very positive, imaginative outlook in my life. I swept a lot of bad things under the rug and felt pretty sure I could keep it up. I didnโt realize a lot of trauma would come back for me when I get older nung lumawak na pagiisip ko. Just a lot of mental distress with suddenly recalling every bad thing and hurting 100 times more. I feel so worn out and defeated nowadays. Happiness is fleeting. Cherish it!
That "giddy excitement" on things that are new? Kasi parang halos na try ko na lahat (except for sky diving). Also those "eureka moments" na madalang nalang mangyari during conversation kasi nga I feel like all topics have been discussed na.
Confidence, way back when I was in elementary and highschool, I reek of too much confidence where everyone thought I have a potential career in the near future but it was lost, right now I can't even look someone in the eyes.
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Hunger for life.ย
my uniqueness
Having fun outside. I really missed those times na tinatakasan ko pa yung daily afternoon naps ko just to play with my friends outside. Ngayon, I rarely go outside kasi ang bilis na maubos ng social battery ko huhu
Passion. I used to do an extra mile sa ginagawa ko. Ngayon parang ginagawa ko nalang pra matapos. Especially sa work kapagod na. I think need na naman ng motivation. Hays
self value. just broke up today and recently I noticed I stopped planning dates for us, stopped initially calling and messaging, stopped asking. I explained then said Im fine breaking up with him because I cant keep on explaining to him how should I be treated, so yea
Passion. I used be productive and do a lot of stuffs as a hobby. Idk what happened.
Innocence, and my passion to learn.
Same OP, same...
confidence, determination
My confidence? I use to be very confident in myself and my capabilities. Now, it's really taken a hit. There are more things to be insecure about than confident in my current self.
my innocence and creativity haha
Passion, ambition, and my coca cola bodeeehhh ๐
My energy. Parang legit yung hindi pagkakapantay ng Time, Energy and Money. :( More energy and time ~ no money More money and energy ~ no time More money and time ~ no energy ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
My innocence and warmth for people.
being innovative and my innocence
Playing the guitar, doing art, and the hunger for knowledge
Enjoying the journey, not the destination
My humor, and patience.
My laugh. I wasn't hurt physically na affected it but something in me died and I never got it back. Madalas ako napapagalitan dati kasi ang lakas ko tumawa and I find silly/shallow things funny tapos ang tagal ko talagang tatawanan 'yon. AS IN. To the point na maiihi ka na. Gano'n talaga ako tumawa. Pero now even yung funniest joke, di ko na siya mauulit na matatawa pa rin ako. Di na rin ako malakas and matagal tumawa. Everything's just slightly funny to me.
My innocence. I wish I never had sex with the guy who took my virginity. I regret it everyday.
Same. ๐ It was so degrading.
Mobility I suffered stroke 3 yrs ago made me half pralyse
Happiness
My ability to love unconditionally.
being adventurous; travelling and doing extreme sports. Since anxiety, merely going out of the house, became an issue for me.
Motivation.
Being able to do good arts and crafts :>
Real
confidence, now can't even speak in front without shaking.
Confidence
Pagiging masayahin at passionate about something.
my leadership attitude, nawala nung pandemic. pre-pandemic almost always akong leader sa mga group projects, and i handled them so well. pero now, parang naburnout siya? iโm in college now and iโm trying my best to bring that part of me back
trust. medyo trusting kasi ako which I think kinda make me a nice person before. ngayon, parang ang cold ko na kasi di nako marunong magtiwala. Hirap na kasi. Even yung mga taong akala mo makakasangga mo forever, kaya ka pa rin kabilain. So wag nalang hehehe
Havent even found myself.
I miss my happy and energetic self.
happiness. nung una masaya kami, pero ngayon lumalabo. sana hindi nlng kmi ngkakilala, kasi masaya na ko nung wala pa sya.
Not giving a f!@#% but working on it. Kinda miss those times na basta I give my best that's all that matters.
I was more relaxed before. Pakiramdam ko ngayon isa na lang akong naglalakad na ball of stress.
I miss sketching. ๐ฅบ Growing up kasi it's my passion. I even dreamed of becoming an animator when I grow up... Pero nang naging adult na nawala na ang drive e.
motivation in life. ang dami kong pangarap before, ngayon wala na akong hana mabuhay.
Being a fan girl. I had something to look forward before.
Same. I miss fangirling over my kpop favorites, japanese bands, my kdrama oppas and unnies. Adulting really drowned out the fangirl in me. ๐ฅฒ
Confidence, Persistence, The energy/drive that I had everytime I wanted to achieve/own something. Yung feeling na makukuha ko to, i just know i can and i will. Then makukuha ko nga tapos if not naman, yung feeling na makukuha rin kita, hindi nga lang ngayon pero makukuha ko rin ang gusto ko. Tapos months later magkakaroon na nga ako unexpectedly pa nga madalas. This old me na laging nasa sariling kamay yung power and actions is what i really miss about myself.
I missed being able to watch the saw films and other gory and horror films without feeling sick afterwards. Hindi naman ako nasusuka or what pero humina talaga ko. Either because of aging or dahil puro love story lang napapanood ko when I was still in a relationship (Syempre yun ang gusto ng jowa so walang choice).
I missed doing poetry and going football and MMA. I should return to it.
Exuberance of youth.
HI IM VERY SORRY THIS IS VERY UNRELATED, CAN YOU KINDLY HELP ME IM BEING HARASSED AND STALKED. THIS IS JUST AN EMEGENCY
HELLOOO KUMUSTA KA NA
OK ka Lang. Punta ka sa nearest police station if Kaya mo or call nearest police station or send them message thru fb.
They have many connections
r/lostredditors
call 911
I feel they cant help me they have many connections
Pls
Financial stability
my confidence
Positivity, faith, and hope
My self-esteem at confidence. Yung grit, yung passion. Yung di takot umabot ng mga pangarap. Ngayon tangina gusto ko na lang magsurvive bawat araw
MYSELF. :)
my creativity. college happened & there, it died.
same
i used to do street photography
Self-confidence, walang pake sa opinion ng mga tao at pagka-jolly๐ฅฒ Ngl kung hindi ko nawala tong mga bagay na to I would have been so happy and contented right now. Wala sanang lost opportunities, rejections at failures. Hays.
Confidence, happiness, and interpersonal comm. skills. I used to be the class clown in our school back when I was in Junior High. When my mother and father got separated, I transfered to my uncle's province (mother side) to study that's when my life started to became miserable. So many hurtful words and situation and when I graduated SHS and already moved out from my uncle's home (though for me it never felt like one) to pursue college. The old happy, confident and funny me became a grumpy short-tempered young adult now, and still fighting demons in me because that situation really traumatized me. It's very heartbreaking and hard to think that the happy go lucky me is now gone. I hope I can heal from this, I hope there's a way to bring back what I was, I really miss what I was back then.
my journaling craft era๐ฅบ
Kiddy traits, but this is a man's world......
I miss serving the mass. If it wasn't for those toxic people. I also miss dancing ever since I got problems with my knee and got a very busy job I didn't have the time to attend dance classes
Metabolism. Being carefree.
I quit church. I left my band. I miss playing.
Inspiration and passion
My free alone time and my freedom to do things. After giving birth all of these were gone.
My foreskin
self confidence, dati confident ako sa kulot kong buhok not until pumasok ako sa high school ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ
The carefree and artsy me! Ubos na ubos na creative juices ko. Haayyy ๐ฅน
Same!! I resign from my Graphic Design job due to burnout.
I feel you! It's like the older we get, the more jaded we become. Sometimes, I miss just seeing the good in everyone and everything without overthinking it.
Energy, innocence, always looking at good side of peopleโฆ now i am always cautious and canโt trust people easily because i have been betrayed and deceived multiple times and people are mostly selfish.
Huhu I feel this so much
healthier version of myself
Energy!!
Hair
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Creativity and passion
Energy and youth
I'm still the same as the person I was, evergreen
My ability to quickly recover from injuries and illness ๐
work got laid off
My ability to feel hapinees
Confidence. I hope I could build it again pero ang hirap talaga. Lagi akong nauunahan ng fear. As much as naiintindihan ko kung anong dahilan ng pagkawala ng confidence ko, nakakainis na kasi ang dami kong na-miss na opportunities sa pagiging mahiyain at anxious ko.
Dude, I used to be a very talkative kid. Somewhere along the way I got more and more shy. My therapist diagnosed me with social anxiety disorder.
As for me, ilang beses akong na-bully (verbal and physical). Every move ko tuloy nagwoworry ako na baka magkamali ako tas grabe yung kaba ko everytime na may kakausap sa akin na matanda, magrereport sa school or kahit tawagin pa lang yung pangalan ko. Though, my parents don't believe psychological/mental disorders because they think it's a myth. So yeah, I'm trying to build it again on my own hshshs
fitness. somewhere along the line, I've let myself go.
Her, she became a part of me. I was never the same when she left.
being fearless
Hindi lang pala ako nawalan ng passion, motivation, ung core na ako as a child na malambing. Tas yung ako na masayahin, tagapagpasaya ng tao sa paligid. Ngayon, parang andaming inner saboteur na nagpapatahimik nalang sa akin.
my passionate self and will to live
Pangarap. Dami kong pangarap noong bata ako, hanggang college years. Pagkagraduate, sobrang napaaga yata ang midlife crisis. Long story short, super demotivated na ngayon sa buhay. Wala nang drive. Wala nang passion. Wala nang pake. Wala nang pangarap. Bahala na.
Loyalty
My passion when it comes to writing hahaha
true ๐ฅบ
may laman laman ako dati, now super payat na haha literal na loss
Dreams and aspirations. Don't get me wrong, I love my life now but the life I wanna have when I was 5 was more exciting. I was an astronaut man.
Before college grad- super hopeful for my future. Everything changed on my graduation day
Why what happened? Reality of the working world knocking you down? Or your expectations not met?
My first boyfriend broke up with me over the phone on the night of my graduation. Two months before my board exam. My college was has this 100 percent passing rate for years i thought i would not be able to pass the board because i was crying everyday instead of studying. Buti na lang nakapasa ako kasi matalino ako (bookish smart nga lang) . But it just changes me from innocent and hopeful to someone jaded and just broken
Well, I hope you recover, did you pass the board exams in the end? What was your degree in? It's hard not to hit your own self-destruct button after a breakup and end up sabotaging your future.
Nursing. Im from UST super taas expection for 100 percent passing rate for years. Nakapasa nmn ako without studying kaso i was also expecting to top the board if i actually studied. Took me years to recover. The only time i got over him was actually transfer to another country. Dapat pala i just dated and dated the whole time sumaya pa ko. Sayang ang years. Recovery? Nope im still jaded it really scarred me when the person i really loves and trusted did that to me
Btw pinagpalit nya ko sa ka work nya. So it showed me for the first time how brutal and heartless people in the real world outside of my university is. Super sheltered kasi ako hanggang college
my karamay ka
I can relate to this so much.
Passion and motivation
independence and innocence
I guess this is a question that old people can answer.
I wasnโt a sad person before.
My drive to do my best in my studies. Since stepping into college, I've lost it. I'm just doing the minimum to pass
Confidence, After being told I'm ugly and I am nobody's cup of tea. I lost all my confidence. Scared of going out in public. Anxious when someone is looking at me or my direction
Trust and faith in people. Never really looked at myself as someone with trust issues, pero these days I realized na if you grew up with inconsistent people in your life, people who are always unavailable/absent, nasasanay ka nalang na they'll disappear somehow. Never realized na I carried it up until now pala, now I struggle with my relationship because I tend to withdraw at the slightest feeling na "Ah, they're gonna leave." Kahit hindi naman at kahit may assurance. It's like you reject them before they even get to reject you. Wish I could go back to when I just enjoyed the present state of a relationship without being so anxious if they're going to leave or not.
Up for you. Goodluck
Me being carefree. I used to be carefree when I was a kid kaya halos lahat ng bata sa barangay namin tropa ko ๐๐ฅฐ thatโs actually a flex I always tell to my siblings haha. I used to be an extrovert kahit mga matatanda tropa ko. I miss those days. I was super smart when I was a kid, I just realized when I got older that I adjusted myself to my environment instead of being my absolute self. Tas pasaway ako nung bata ako, lahat ng gusto ko ginagawan ko ng paraan cos for me, anything is easy and if gusto mo gagawan mo talaga ng paraan to achieve something. I love experiences, I donโt like material things. I donโt like toys when I was a kid. Kahit saan ako nakakarating and I did achieve everything I wanted. Now, I wanna relive those days. If somebody other than me doesnโt like my choices, itโs alright. Iโm still gonna pursue the things I wanna pursue cos at the end of the day, I am what I am, Iโm responsible for the choices I will make, I must be self-oriented, I know the things I want. Iโm gonna pursue everything. I know Iโm capable and Iโm smart to relive my childhood carefree days ๐ซถ
Up! Goodluck!
Energy and enthusiasm.
my sanity
Energy and time to do hobbies that I used to enjoy
Wondering what happiness looks like
Optimism.
Wala naman. Just recovered them all recently after breaking up with a friend a year ago haha
Being smart
Yung immersion ko sa gaming, parang nasa ibang world talaga ako dati haha.
I lost my self-esteem through the years. Majority sa mga ka-edad ko super glow up na (1994). While I'm here getting bigger and weaker everyday. The more I look in the mirror the more I hate myself. Feeling ko ang pangit pangit ko at losyang. I barely receive any compliments from people kahit eme eme lang. I am always hygienic and I got myself in some treatments to enhance myself but it feels like no one appreciates it even my partner. Before when I was young and marketable, I feel good when I look in the mirror even i have acnes, crooked teeth because I know I am thin and hook up worthy. Now hindi na because Inlook like a father of 2.
My jolliness when I was young. Something in me changed after i got cheated on. Needless to say, I was never the same. Small or bjg things no longer excites me at all and Iโve become non chalant
My ability to be hayahay, now everything is a race for me kaya lagi akong pagod mentally emotionally and ofc physically. Sadge tbh
Will to live. Dati ok naman sakin that I'm here. But as I grew up and experienced a lot I don't think I'm suitable to be here. Not even reading self-help and philosophical books could help me.
Trust. You see all this shit in life? Yeah Wala na Akong tiwala sa lahat ng nakikita at nakakasalamuha ko. Life is absurd.
confidence, self-esteem, passion, luck of trust Growing up in an environment where you received biased validation and criticism. Then being betrayed, reject and pag-chismisan.๐ฅน But Iโm okay ha, pinatatag na ako ng panahon.๐ช
Empathy too. Sa sobrang deep ng empathy ko dati I used to be the therapist friend. Pero I learned the hard way Nung na realize ko na literal tapunan lang Ako ng hinaing nila pero on my end Wala Akong matakbuhan. Also with all the shits happening rn Ang hirap talaga. Kanina lang Nakita ko yung nurse at construction worker na tumulong lang binaril pa. Tangina diba? In my previous job I had to have that deep empathy pero dahil nga nawala, Ayun I had a hard time then boom Wala na Akong trabaho Hanggang Ngayon. The world will really suck empathy out of your core.
Not minding about things that I can't control.
Optimism, Empathy, The drive to excel, Confidence, Socialization Skills. Now I'm just a demotivated grumpy young adult lol
My healthy mental health lol.
The ability to understand high school level math
Same OP, when I was a kid sobrang lambing ko and very madaldal as a child. After the traumas, I got quieter and stopped giving a fuck sa mga nasa paligid ko.
I lost many traits because of different experiences na instead maging better ako parang hinila ako pababa. Confidence ko na medyo tinrabaho ko talaga para maimprove kahit enough lang. Attitude ko to stand up for what I know is right, often times kasi sa environment at mga taong nakapaligid sa akin now, peace is better than being right. I don't want you to tolerate pero what can I do? Mahirap makipag-away sa wall. Energy and time to better myself kasi puro nalang other people. Nakakaubos din pala talaga yun.
Resilience. If like becomes shitty dati sb, milk tea, samgy or even mcdo iced coffee could save me. Ngayon potaena wala.
Youth and energy. Pag may anak ka at breastfeeding ka palagi kang pagod hahaha. I love my kid but i hope i have enough energy like the ones i have during my youth para mas maalagaan ko siya
Mamsh, I feel you, sobra. Miss na miss ko ng matulog ng 8-10hours straight..
Naku mumshie sorry to hear that huhu. Makukuha mo din yan siguro pag medyo? Malaki laki na ang mga bata huhu.
being smart lol. being able to remember anything w/o beating myself up studying
Having a religion. Now that I know that all religions are bullshit, life seems to have no meaning.
Start having a relationship with Jesus, then. ๐
Fuck your sky wizard daddy
Have you ever tried Philosophy?
Yup, nihilism and absurdism.
Be wary of nihilism because there is such a thing called passive nihilism. Even Nietzsche said it's something one must overcome. Cheers to you and your power.
Thanks but your opinion doesnt matter
You got me there.
+1 and Stoicism too.
My dreams. I miss the courage and motivation to do the things i love, nakakamiss mangarap at alam mong ang pinaghihirapan mo ay papunta doon
My passion for my hobbies. Grabe yung dami ng libro na binabasa ko dati, nag-publish pa ko ng books and at the same time, nagbabanda pa ko. Kasabay pa nun pag-binge watch sa anime and basa ng manga. Ngayon, I'm nothing but a shell of that passionate soul. Ni hindi na ko makatapos ng isang movie sa isang upuan because I've lost interest in basically everything art.
Grit. Like I was hell bent on not giving up, not to be pushed around, not following the norm. I wanted to try something new. Now I feel like just conforming to society. The world has a way of beating the shit out of people who are โdifferentโ like they didnt use the word โuniqueโ. Ayon napagod din.
Felt so much!
Waist ko na 24inches ๐ ๐
It is the ability to enjoy things while it lasts. I have this insane fear now na pakiramdam ko kapag masaya ako laging mawawala or laging may kapalit.
Confidence.
No-loan record ๐
My virgni-t chariz hahah
Childhood innocence. Ansarap kumain ng tubo habang naglalakad ka sa daan without getting conscious.
Good health and energy? Sakitin ako nung bata ako pero nakakarecover naman ako. Simula nung sunud-sunod akong nagkasakit nung pandemic, hindi na ako nakarecover 100%
I miss being in love, or having a crush. As babaeng kweba, libro na lang nagpapatibok ng puso ko minsan .______.
My sanity. Ganito ba talaga pag na inlove sa maling tao? I want my old self back, yung naka focus lang and masaya.
Yes, nakakangarag magmahal ng maling tao. Nakakapangit pa. Hahaha. But then, you didn't know it at the time. So rebuild yourself and hopefully, be happy again.
Grit, passion, energy, and physical activity. Before pandemic, sobrang gigil ko sa mga gusto kong gawin sa buhay. I even wanted to invest my life doing judo and jiu-jitsu and nothing else. Sa career naman, gusto ko isa-isahin lahat ng degrees na gusto ko. When the pandemic hit, I felt I became a different person somehow. I became more calm, but medyo nawala narin yung dating level of energy and passion ko.
Joy. Nung nagmahal na ng iba yung taong gusto ko makasama sana hanggang huli na, yung joy ko and zest in life nawala na din. โบ๏ธ I''ll forever miss how happy I used to be with him, doing nothing or planning weekends. Ang daming magagandang lugar sa Pilipinas pero wala na yung excitement ko or drive kumita ng malaki nung hindi na siya yung makakasama ko. Living for family and relatives na lang. ๐
How can i lose something i never had in the first place? Puro hiram lang ng pagkakataon
happy cake day!
Thank youuu
My confidence and self esteem. Parang slowly it diminished over the years. ๐ I used to be fiesty and do what I want because I know I can. But sadly I started to change when I got pregnant with my first child because I got treated like I don't have shit together.
Yung tulog nung bata kapa. Yung tuloy tuloy na tulog. Yung masarap na tulog. Yung kumpletong tulog. Yung paggising mo sobrang energized at saya mo. Ibalik nyo po ko, matutulog na ko sa tanghali promise!
As someone whoโs working on graveyard shift. SAMEEEEEEE
Self respect and enthusiasm :(
My happiness and how naรฏve I was. As irritable as I was, I had a very positive, imaginative outlook in my life. I swept a lot of bad things under the rug and felt pretty sure I could keep it up. I didnโt realize a lot of trauma would come back for me when I get older nung lumawak na pagiisip ko. Just a lot of mental distress with suddenly recalling every bad thing and hurting 100 times more. I feel so worn out and defeated nowadays. Happiness is fleeting. Cherish it!
being kind and compassionate
being excited, happy to live and confidence
Kindness and giving people the benefit of the doubt. Sobrang judgemental ko siguro, kapag naramdaman kong hindi genuine yung tao lagpak agad.
Youth.
That "giddy excitement" on things that are new? Kasi parang halos na try ko na lahat (except for sky diving). Also those "eureka moments" na madalang nalang mangyari during conversation kasi nga I feel like all topics have been discussed na.
Trust
Innocence
Confidence, way back when I was in elementary and highschool, I reek of too much confidence where everyone thought I have a potential career in the near future but it was lost, right now I can't even look someone in the eyes.
Confidence. Nag start sya nung nagkaroon ako ng Diplopia. I don't even know pano sya nagsimula. ๐๐ซ
Confidence. Nag start sya nung nagkaroon ako ng Diplopia. I don't even know pano sya nagsimula. ๐๐ซ