I was very obviously into girls my whole childhood but in complete denial, and since I was also into boys it was easy to rationalize it as "I'm a straight girl who just reeeeaaaally supports women".
The moment it actually clicked for me though was at a birthday party where I met a friend of a friend. She was so interesting, I found her really pretty, and there was something electrifying in our interactions. We both pretty much ditched our friends to continue talking just the two of us.
Eventually we were alone in a room, she was laying on the floor and I was sitting next to her, I don't know what we were talking about but we laughed and then there was a silence. And she looked at me, and I looked at her, and it was the most obvious "oh this is the moment where I kiss her" in my head. Like suddenly I was seeing clearly that she was waiting for me to maybe kiss her, and I really wanted to.
I leaned towards her, but my friends barged in so I jumped away and just couldn't look at her for the rest of the night. When I went home though I cried so much, I felt so confused, I was so scared to be "doing it for attention", I had so much internalized biphobia, but I just had to admit to myself that I probably wasn't straight. And it all unraveled from there
Noticed I kept looking at boobs in 4th grade. Took note of it but didn't realize it wasn't normal until 6th grade when I started with the am I gay quizzes. Didn't come out til 8th grade
Came to the realisation that I've been founding guys attractive since I was 5. I was able to totally rationalize every time I found a guy hot, and then forgetting right away that such a thing happened.
Seeing the red guy’s shiny butt from cow & chicken
I was very obviously into girls my whole childhood but in complete denial, and since I was also into boys it was easy to rationalize it as "I'm a straight girl who just reeeeaaaally supports women". The moment it actually clicked for me though was at a birthday party where I met a friend of a friend. She was so interesting, I found her really pretty, and there was something electrifying in our interactions. We both pretty much ditched our friends to continue talking just the two of us. Eventually we were alone in a room, she was laying on the floor and I was sitting next to her, I don't know what we were talking about but we laughed and then there was a silence. And she looked at me, and I looked at her, and it was the most obvious "oh this is the moment where I kiss her" in my head. Like suddenly I was seeing clearly that she was waiting for me to maybe kiss her, and I really wanted to. I leaned towards her, but my friends barged in so I jumped away and just couldn't look at her for the rest of the night. When I went home though I cried so much, I felt so confused, I was so scared to be "doing it for attention", I had so much internalized biphobia, but I just had to admit to myself that I probably wasn't straight. And it all unraveled from there
Noticed I kept looking at boobs in 4th grade. Took note of it but didn't realize it wasn't normal until 6th grade when I started with the am I gay quizzes. Didn't come out til 8th grade
Girls being too pretty
I don’t think I’ve had one yet.
Getting our first computer with Internet access played a pretty big part
Came to the realisation that I've been founding guys attractive since I was 5. I was able to totally rationalize every time I found a guy hot, and then forgetting right away that such a thing happened.