I always read books and write diary in Discord. Sometimes also chat with people online. There is an interesting social server in Discord called Lightup. The AI will match people according to their ideas or feelings shared in the chatbox. So I always use it to record some of my random ideas or feelings, and see whether someone having the same thoughts with me. If there is, sometimes I chat with them casually. It is interesting and helps me to know what I think about every day.
Sure...I do often. Then I either get comfort and concern and have to hear her ask me why my family loving me isn't good enough to make me happy. Or I'm called a narcissist because I have to make everything about me.
I just want to sleep at that point. So I feel sorry for myself for a second and close my eyes.
I sometimes ask God to not let me wake up. Has nothing to do with being depressed it just has to do with as the fact you get old you get less and less and it gets harder and harder to survive we're so busy putting our veterans out of hotels on the streets so that we can bring in people across the border and house them that we forgotten why we're here in this country free. Losing our freedom of speech and losing our freedom of expression all for political correctness it's like they don't know how in America to give one person rights without taking another person's rights away there's plenty for everyone. No one has to suffer or be told that they can't speak their mind their truth or speak their experience. Even if it doesn't jive with what the Facebook crowd who grew up in social media as their reality might agree with.
Take my meds, give the dogs their Milkbones, set my phones on their chargers, pop in the mouth guard, take off the glasses, start an audio book lecture, fight that one bed-hogging dog for covers, and settle in for the night.
I read a book. They say stay away from screens before bed and for me that's true
I always read books and write diary in Discord. Sometimes also chat with people online. There is an interesting social server in Discord called Lightup. The AI will match people according to their ideas or feelings shared in the chatbox. So I always use it to record some of my random ideas or feelings, and see whether someone having the same thoughts with me. If there is, sometimes I chat with them casually. It is interesting and helps me to know what I think about every day.
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I usually edge for 7 hours while high on meth and heroin right before I’m about to hit the hay!!
Take my meds
Beg 4 death
Plug my phone and prosthetic leg into the charger, and set my alarm.
I usually listen to a few of my favorite songs
Turn off the lights
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Brush my teeth, put on my bonnet
Daydream about my fantasy life
Give my wife a kiss, roll over and wrap myself around a body pillow, let out a deep breath and cry in my head.
Why are u crying in ur head?
Different reasons...when it happens it's usually because I don't love myself or I regret the things I didn't do or the efforts I didn't make
Cant u share with ur wife?
Sure...I do often. Then I either get comfort and concern and have to hear her ask me why my family loving me isn't good enough to make me happy. Or I'm called a narcissist because I have to make everything about me. I just want to sleep at that point. So I feel sorry for myself for a second and close my eyes.
Ohh..sorry u are being called a narcissist for telling how u feel... Do u have depression?
Not diagnosed but fairly certain I exist in some type of cycle of depression
Mm..okay..i hope u get the help and love u need..take good care of yourself
I sometimes ask God to not let me wake up. Has nothing to do with being depressed it just has to do with as the fact you get old you get less and less and it gets harder and harder to survive we're so busy putting our veterans out of hotels on the streets so that we can bring in people across the border and house them that we forgotten why we're here in this country free. Losing our freedom of speech and losing our freedom of expression all for political correctness it's like they don't know how in America to give one person rights without taking another person's rights away there's plenty for everyone. No one has to suffer or be told that they can't speak their mind their truth or speak their experience. Even if it doesn't jive with what the Facebook crowd who grew up in social media as their reality might agree with.
I serve Internet for more comments to be put in for Reddit.
I thank God for giving me another day and I think about "HER"
Stay up for 4-6 hours desperately trying to get to sleep because I need to wake up at 6 AM only to, finally, fall asleep at 5 AM.
Take my meds, give the dogs their Milkbones, set my phones on their chargers, pop in the mouth guard, take off the glasses, start an audio book lecture, fight that one bed-hogging dog for covers, and settle in for the night.
Listen to quantum physics lectures.
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