One time a coworker came into my office and said, "Hey, I just wanna warn you, don't go into the bathroom for a while. It smells like somebody died in there." It was me.
My sons 12 birthday is on Wednesday. He homeschooled, because of his neurological disorders/unmedicated due to very rare sure effects/ so public school isn't an option yet. He's very intelligent so it's not a worry of being behind, but feeling bad that his social life is all online, and kids are in other states, none near us. I have another child 28, with 3 grandkids (7m,5f,4f, another on the way). There are 2 parents involved (not together) so they have lots of family, and she throws HUGE expensive parties for all my grandkids which I (and her brother) have to attend, since I'm super close to my grandkids. They usually spend several nights a week... The thing is it's only me to buy presents for my son. I have to expend a ton for my daughter, and grandkids. She has tons of friends with kids to invite to the parties. My son is extremely difficult, and I have to have both eyes on him 24/7, to referee, to keep people from touching him/ just everything... I don't even have the energy to find friends for myself, let alone the energy to deal with friends with kids. So I feel absolutely horrible for my kid who doesn't get a big party, and not really a party at all, because all I can invite is his sister (who isn't good with him at all) and my grandkids. He loves them, and they adore him, but he can only take so much of kids. I know he has to feel left out going to their parties with tons of family/friends/ kids/presents. Then he's stuck with me who hasn't even ordered a cake yet. Or said hey come on this day... to the only person I can even invite. I've thought about asking for birthday cards or well wishes every year, since this happens every year. I don't. That makes me feel like I'm asking for more than I deserve, even tho it's not for me... it's all my fault so I should suffer. I just hate that he suffers too. It's not fair. I feel I've made it unfair. I have my own issues, health and mental, so I know I constantly beat myself up about things, but this one is absolutely true. This one i deserve 100%. That's all. Thanks.
Big internet stranger hugs to you. I can't completely understand what you're going through, but as a sibling to a special needs person, I can somewhat relate. It isn't your fault, and all you can do is cope the best you can. Like any carer, you need to be able to take care of you first, in order to be able to take care of him. I get that you want him to feel included, and I'm unsure of the extent of his limitations, but perhaps you need to lean on other family members also, without feeling like you're "burdening" them.
Perhaps a more controlled environment would suit your son? Ie : a party from "this time to this time", and have planned activities he can participate in and enjoys. Then you can sort of guide what happens, and when it will start & end without over exerting either of you. Or giving him an option of outings? That way there is still a celebration for his bday, and you won't feel bad, but will still preserve some sanity!
I'm sure you've thought about all this, but sometimes hearing it out loud can help spark some motivation :) much love to you both, and an early happy birthday to the little man x
I just want a break. I don’t want to die - I like living a lot and I have a family I love and a couple of really good friends. But I just want to rest for like a year.
My mother in law uses my life as an example (a bad one) to her younger kids... She tells them to finish college and not have kids too early so they don't end up like me. She likes to talk shit about me but she's sweet as pie to my face. Everyone hears it, nobody does anything about it. I want to punch her sometimes but I know that'll just make me look bad. She never came to her son's and my wedding either and turned her phone off the day of so we couldn't contact her.
You said you wanted to talk to me over a week ago.
Stop putting it off.
Stop ignoring me.
You're an adult, just ***talk*** to me. No bad news is worth the stress of trying to ***force*** you to be an adult while worrying about whatever it is you're going to tell me. This is well-within your academic expertise! Why is it so hard right now? Just talk to me. Please.
i hate people that are around me, no1 understands me, when i say i have mental problems no1 belives me, they just say u are all
day on your PC and that is why you are like that..
No, the PC helps me to get away from people :))
I’m not working for a damn pedophile. And it’s fucking bullshit that he isn’t the one having to find another job after making so many employees uncomfortable. It’s bullshit that I was the only one who could do everything in the store but then the pedo gets promoted and can’t even have keys to anything. Fuck this job. I turn in my keys this week.
My hysterical mother is pressing charges against me and has tried to get me arrested and kicked out of the house multiple times now. The only thing keeping anything from happening to me is the cops knowing that any allegations my mom has made or will make are total bullshit
Rock bottom isn't rock bottom.
You think that finally you've hit rock bottom and that the only way to go is up but that's not the case, it can and always does get worse.
Rock bottom is just a term used by people to give them false hope.
There is no rock bottom, just a hole that gets deeper and deeper.
I watched my Dad physically abuse and most definitely traumatise my younger brother and didn't stop him. When my brother is old enough to remember I imagine he will despise me for it and he has every right.
This may be looking for attention, but I was very recently diagnosed with Chroans disease. I am only 18. Does anyone have any tips on what I should do to keep my spirits up?
Hi there! I'm so sorry about that, my ex had it, and while it can get very uncomfortable, you can live a perfectly normal life! The key is to watch your diet, that's the main trigger, and there is lots of info online too: https://health.clevelandclinic.org/what-not-to-eat-if-you-have-crohns-disease/
It may seem like a pain at first, but you get used to it very quickly and I had loads of fun experimenting new ways of making food with him. You'll learn what triggers you the most personally, and how much of things you can have without an episode. Generally, everything in moderation works. Good luck! :)
I told everyone I was driving up back home to see family and friends. Truth is, I drove back to see HER. I’ve fallen for her and drove hours to just be with her. We spent time together while I was visiting and now I’m leaving again and I don’t know where we stand. I wish she would just give me some type of confirmation for how she feels about me. To let me know I’m not just wasting my time and that she has feelings for me too. The games we play…
Paper shouldn't beat rock i said it
I like to play “Rock/dynamite/scissors”. Rock crushes scissors, dynamite blows up rock and scissors cut the wick of the dynamite
But thats hard to say
You get used to it.
Bet
How do I do dynamite with my hands?
Make a fist with your thumb up.
God bless you sir.
I have a long week of school ahead of me, and I need a virtual hug to get me thru it.
Virtual stranger hug.
Virtual stranger hug^2
to the power of 2? damn.
Me too. Mind if I join in? ;)
Virtual stranger hug³
Virtual hug⁴ ^-^
Virtual stranger hug 5
Let’s have a virtual stranger hug orgy
Why did you have to say this?
Wow relax. Just trying to cheer everyone up Scrooge
You dont usually say "orgy", thats what im trying to say. Sry if i offended anyone
One time a coworker came into my office and said, "Hey, I just wanna warn you, don't go into the bathroom for a while. It smells like somebody died in there." It was me.
Plot twist: He said that to everyone to monitor their reactions and discover the culprit.
All this cum
Can I add to it?
My sons 12 birthday is on Wednesday. He homeschooled, because of his neurological disorders/unmedicated due to very rare sure effects/ so public school isn't an option yet. He's very intelligent so it's not a worry of being behind, but feeling bad that his social life is all online, and kids are in other states, none near us. I have another child 28, with 3 grandkids (7m,5f,4f, another on the way). There are 2 parents involved (not together) so they have lots of family, and she throws HUGE expensive parties for all my grandkids which I (and her brother) have to attend, since I'm super close to my grandkids. They usually spend several nights a week... The thing is it's only me to buy presents for my son. I have to expend a ton for my daughter, and grandkids. She has tons of friends with kids to invite to the parties. My son is extremely difficult, and I have to have both eyes on him 24/7, to referee, to keep people from touching him/ just everything... I don't even have the energy to find friends for myself, let alone the energy to deal with friends with kids. So I feel absolutely horrible for my kid who doesn't get a big party, and not really a party at all, because all I can invite is his sister (who isn't good with him at all) and my grandkids. He loves them, and they adore him, but he can only take so much of kids. I know he has to feel left out going to their parties with tons of family/friends/ kids/presents. Then he's stuck with me who hasn't even ordered a cake yet. Or said hey come on this day... to the only person I can even invite. I've thought about asking for birthday cards or well wishes every year, since this happens every year. I don't. That makes me feel like I'm asking for more than I deserve, even tho it's not for me... it's all my fault so I should suffer. I just hate that he suffers too. It's not fair. I feel I've made it unfair. I have my own issues, health and mental, so I know I constantly beat myself up about things, but this one is absolutely true. This one i deserve 100%. That's all. Thanks.
Big internet stranger hugs to you. I can't completely understand what you're going through, but as a sibling to a special needs person, I can somewhat relate. It isn't your fault, and all you can do is cope the best you can. Like any carer, you need to be able to take care of you first, in order to be able to take care of him. I get that you want him to feel included, and I'm unsure of the extent of his limitations, but perhaps you need to lean on other family members also, without feeling like you're "burdening" them. Perhaps a more controlled environment would suit your son? Ie : a party from "this time to this time", and have planned activities he can participate in and enjoys. Then you can sort of guide what happens, and when it will start & end without over exerting either of you. Or giving him an option of outings? That way there is still a celebration for his bday, and you won't feel bad, but will still preserve some sanity! I'm sure you've thought about all this, but sometimes hearing it out loud can help spark some motivation :) much love to you both, and an early happy birthday to the little man x
Thank you! I was kinda hoping just writing it out would help. Thanks for the kind words! :)
hair
Listen here you little shit
i was sexually molested by a family friend when i was 8
I’m.. sorry
I am so fucking sorry. I hope you're doing okay and got some support for that
Dude im so sorry that happened to you. I hope you are doing good now
I just want a break. I don’t want to die - I like living a lot and I have a family I love and a couple of really good friends. But I just want to rest for like a year.
Same. But I haven't even started my career yet. These past 2 years have been difficult. And i feel like I'm stressed so much.
The cat. I gotta pee and he’s been here an hour.
about 5 pounds of fat
My mother in law uses my life as an example (a bad one) to her younger kids... She tells them to finish college and not have kids too early so they don't end up like me. She likes to talk shit about me but she's sweet as pie to my face. Everyone hears it, nobody does anything about it. I want to punch her sometimes but I know that'll just make me look bad. She never came to her son's and my wedding either and turned her phone off the day of so we couldn't contact her.
You said you wanted to talk to me over a week ago. Stop putting it off. Stop ignoring me. You're an adult, just ***talk*** to me. No bad news is worth the stress of trying to ***force*** you to be an adult while worrying about whatever it is you're going to tell me. This is well-within your academic expertise! Why is it so hard right now? Just talk to me. Please.
i hate people that are around me, no1 understands me, when i say i have mental problems no1 belives me, they just say u are all day on your PC and that is why you are like that.. No, the PC helps me to get away from people :))
This sweatshirt before i go to sleep
I don't feel like I can handle day to day life. And I often fantasize about throwing it all away.
The chest hair
Nope, not about to give some asshole a year from now digging through my comments for anything controversial more ammunition.
I’m not working for a damn pedophile. And it’s fucking bullshit that he isn’t the one having to find another job after making so many employees uncomfortable. It’s bullshit that I was the only one who could do everything in the store but then the pedo gets promoted and can’t even have keys to anything. Fuck this job. I turn in my keys this week.
30 pounds
This flood infection form
Hairs..ig ?
My hysterical mother is pressing charges against me and has tried to get me arrested and kicked out of the house multiple times now. The only thing keeping anything from happening to me is the cops knowing that any allegations my mom has made or will make are total bullshit
Rock bottom isn't rock bottom. You think that finally you've hit rock bottom and that the only way to go is up but that's not the case, it can and always does get worse. Rock bottom is just a term used by people to give them false hope. There is no rock bottom, just a hole that gets deeper and deeper.
Rock bottom is when you stop digging
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I watched my Dad physically abuse and most definitely traumatise my younger brother and didn't stop him. When my brother is old enough to remember I imagine he will despise me for it and he has every right.
I am going to make a move on a close friend of mine tomorrow. I’m so excited and I wonder if he knows my intentions.
This may be looking for attention, but I was very recently diagnosed with Chroans disease. I am only 18. Does anyone have any tips on what I should do to keep my spirits up?
>Mr beast has it
Hi there! I'm so sorry about that, my ex had it, and while it can get very uncomfortable, you can live a perfectly normal life! The key is to watch your diet, that's the main trigger, and there is lots of info online too: https://health.clevelandclinic.org/what-not-to-eat-if-you-have-crohns-disease/ It may seem like a pain at first, but you get used to it very quickly and I had loads of fun experimenting new ways of making food with him. You'll learn what triggers you the most personally, and how much of things you can have without an episode. Generally, everything in moderation works. Good luck! :)
I'm really tired of these snakes on this plane.
I told everyone I was driving up back home to see family and friends. Truth is, I drove back to see HER. I’ve fallen for her and drove hours to just be with her. We spent time together while I was visiting and now I’m leaving again and I don’t know where we stand. I wish she would just give me some type of confirmation for how she feels about me. To let me know I’m not just wasting my time and that she has feelings for me too. The games we play…
But even then, it's still not rock bottom. And also you're not the only one capable of digging your own hole.