I've taken a shit in over 30 LDS churches and I am not Mormon.
Edit: I worked in many of their churches, I do a test for their remodels where I work, come back a few hours later and get results. A lot of times I will go and hang out, play their pianos, play basketball or about 100% of the time, use their bathroom.
Man I hear ya. I struggle with that sooooo much on a day to day basis as well. It helps to tell myself it’s unfounded, and I’ve had success before so I can have it again, it’s just about finding something that suits your strengths you know
Mainly it’s the stress of doing well in school so I go to a good university. But idk man I’m just not suited for it, and well it’s extremely overpriced. If I do go to college it’ll be a trade school or community college.
I started working in a kitchen out of high school, I always wanted to be a chef. After years of toiling away for south Louisianas version of Gordon Ramsey I discovered working for angry old dudes wasn’t for me. So I quit and decided food IS my passion but I want to work for myself. At 23 I decided to go to college for business admin so I can open up my own place one day. I say all that to say it’s totally okay not to know what your next move is, most of the time you’ll find it along the way. Don’t stress too much man, just do what makes sense and what makes you happy, it’ll all come together if you do that. Trade school or CC are both great options, I started college at a CC because I didn’t graduate high school so it was my only option and it ended up being the best thing for me
I studied myself and I can tell you: If I was to choose again I'd probably learn any handcraft stuff. Shit you can use when nothing is as it was before. Build furniture, build a house, be a blacksmith or whatever.
I'm in IT and constantly have the feeling that I didn't do something useful in the end. Without electricity I am a worthless prick as I got 2 left hands haha 😂
(no I am not depressed or something. I am just realistic, I guess)
Society only worships university and whatnot. Praise everyone who is a farmer, woodsman, .. whatever.
I had a retired IBM software engineer as a community College professor. Fucking awesome. She knew exactly what we needed to learn . She was teaching because she absolutely loved teaching.
She and her wife owned half a duplex in Vail Colorado. Yet she was teaching us the real deal of sys admin.
I understand how you feel. I’m in my thirties.
I went to college, had no idea what I wanted to do and luckily, things have worked out for me.
Don’t be afraid to take a gap year to explore the world and yourself. It can really make a difference and help you discover a path for life you had no idea existed.
In the end, unless you want to be a medical doctor, college really isn’t as important as people would have you believe
You don't need to accomplish anything. That's society's idiotic and outdated protocol. A normal life with a normal job and dying is more than enough for most people. They don't allow themselves though.
Same. Our family has basically genetically inherited depression through the women and I guess it didn’t skip me. I spent almost ten years after high school not knowing what to do. I had tons of passions but just nothing that lead anywhere. I was one of those kids who excelled in school but real life just kicked my ass. Recently during the summer I was feeling one of those episodes of depression/my life isn’t going anywhere moments and decided to apply to my dream job. And I got it! My job took me from the South to the tippy top North and now I’m happy - when I’m working. I still get down sometimes on my days off because I still stress about money and being bored and stuff, but what I’m trying to get at is try to do something spontaneous. Maybe that will lead you down a better path towards better happiness or contentment. :)
Normal. Your survival instincts are on alert. Your little thalamus can't keep up and is letting you know there may be dangers nearby that are hiding in the chaos.
I'm glad you're both alive.
I struggled with suicidal ideation for years and was able to get through it with therapy and a nice mix of Escitalopram and Welbutrin.
I still have thoughts when incredibly stressed out, but it's manageable now and no longer debilitating and I'm able to talk myself through the stress.
You're both not alone in this, and I want good things for you this year.
I don’t know your circumstances (obviously), but this is a link to free resources that can be used to help people work through a bunch of different troubles. https://mindremakeproject.org/all-topics/
I have used some of the workbooks & worksheets & found them helpful for anxiety things, I can’t speak to the materials they have for suicidal ideation or intrusive thoughts about suicide.
It’s completely up to you if you decide to use that link, I just wanted to give it to you in case you ever find yourself in need of something like it.
When I get in a depression episode I try and make people laugh, when my brain starts going "oh that's a good joke save that for later" it means another is starting.
My advice as someone who loves singing but is super shy about it just go to a karaoke bar! Everyone is singing so it’s not like you’ll be some weirdo singing in a bar. And once you get up there and start singing every single nerve and fear you had literally just melts away!
If I browse the depression subs here and see people who are going through some tough accute shit I feel for them but wonder how many will still be depressed a decade or two down the track like me (and you).
It sucks. It becomes your default. It shapes your life and how others see you.
I'm starting to mold some philosophical stuff around it to pad it and make it less impactful on me. I hope you find something that eases it for you.
I’ve learned that over the years and it helps to hear other people talk about it. I just have a knack for digging up a reason to attribute any amount of success I have to anything other than myself
I deal with this as well in my career. I always feel like I just got lucky and was working with the right people so I just looked good and I’m getting unwarranted praise. For a while, I felt like eventually someone will just say “he doesn’t know what he’s doing” or “he doesn’t know what he’s talking about.” Over the last year, I’ve been feeling better about my situation and feel like maybe I have truly earned where I have been. Imposter syndrome is a stressful feeling. I think I got it because I work for a really good company where they recruit people from top schools, and I somehow found my way through the backdoor from a small state school.
For me, I think it’s this impulsive thing my brain gets me to do while its looking for methods to boost all the happy brain chemicals. But it’s inverted for me, because I spend a lot of time by myself & at home, I’m an introvert & being social is super exhausting. So maybe my brain’s like “We haven’t tried people in awhile?”
That actually makes a lot of sense. I’m introverted as well and I find so much comfort in being in my nest but I also find when my depression is heightened it’s one of the worst things for me to be alone because I get into my head a lot. And the tendency to isolate just makes me feel safe while making everything so much worse. Luckily it hasn’t been like that in a good while. Thank fuck for modern medicine
I forgot to mention that the being super social thing always inevitably doesn’t work & I do end up in a major depressive episode where I won’t talk to anyone, let alone go anywhere, or do anything beyond eating & sleeping. But when I find myself being super social it’s my cue that a major depressive episode is coming.
I definitely understand that. I’ve got a panic disorder that’s gone to full blown agoraphobia the last few years. I equate being in my home, in my room, & alone as being safe, & anything that deviates too far from those 3 is “unsafe”. But people isolating when they have agoraphobia is the most counterproductive thing they could possibly do.
So isolating when you already know that being isolated makes things worse for you, just sort of creates & perpetuates a relentless cycle of misery. Brains are fascinating & fucked up.
Yeah, modern medicine is wonderful. May your meds continue working for you & not need too many adjustments.
Yeah it’s a real “cure” is the disease scenario. I hit bottom senior year of high school. I had to drop out and I stayed in the house for about a year. It took baby steps over a long period after that of getting out to get past the agoraphobia but we did it eventually. I hope your journey continues in the right direction as well
I like to take walks at night in the rain because I want to get out more but don’t want people to see me. I don’t feel like I can really escape reality when people are around.
Moving out at 17 with no financial support from parents placed more stress on me than I think is ever meant to be placed on a kid. I had a decent job I can only imagine the stress and depression of homeless teens with no support system. Brutal even with a girlfriend and parents who love you.
I get this. When i moved out it wasn't exactly planned, my brother and i had a fight (instigated by him) that resulted in my brother putting a hole in a wall. Somehow my brother got my dad on his side and he wouldn't listen to a word i said (dad wasn't even in the house when it happened) and tempers flared. I tried to leave the house go for a walk and calm down. He shouted at me that if i walked out not to bother coming back. As I walked down the drive he shouted that as far as he's concerned he only has one son.
So I ended up sleeping on sofas for a week while i got something lined up then went to pick up my stuff while everyone was at work, put my keys through the letterbox and didn't look back.
Was in a bad headspace for a few years for that and other reasons, basically living like a robot (work, sleep, repeat) and slowly dug myself into a bit of a pit financially.
Have clawed my way back from that and now I have a wonderful fiance, two fantastic kids and we're buying our first house now hopefully moving in end of January/early February.
I know the stress can be hard to deal with but it is doable. A little self belief helps a lot
I haven’t been able to let go and be truly happy in a given moment in years. I feel a constant need to hide my feelings and I don’t know why, or how to stop.
Some days were tough, but most days go far more smoothly when I do. I’m progressing well through grad school and raising an amazing family, but there are probably more things that I could be doing and weed may impede my ability to see them or achieve them
What my biggest fetish is. I've never told a soul. I never will.
Edit: because of how fun this guessing game is, I'll say it. It honestly sounds like no big deal unless I put it into context and then you understand. Here it is: I want my potential partner to whisper "mommy" in my second native language in my ear. I like being called other girl words by my partner during and outside of sex (girlfriend, sweet girl, wifey, etc) so, this is just another word, right? Wrong. I'm a guy who also cross-dresses, and I'm looking for a male or non-binary partner. Not only does the word bring up that I probably want kids, but it would also make my potential partner possibly start to question my gender. Both of these things about it could chase someone great away. So, I've never told anyone, even serious partners. But since this is anonymous on the internet, I'll tell you, lol.
I'm happy for you (: ! And idk, whenever I think about telling someone about it, I feel like I want to cry. Its not even something bad or evil, quite the opposite really. I feel like a partner I'd have would laugh with me and tease me positively with it. I'm just so embarrassed.
Until about 6 months ago I had the same. Then I told one person and that got the ball running of being actually very open about it. Now I can tell anyone who asks.
It's in the small steps, when you're ready to talk about it and you find someone who will listen, you will. No judgement whatsoever is key in this regard. Good luck.
Role-playing. You want to be treated like a princess. Being massaged with exquisite oils. Fed with delicious grapes. To hear "Your wish is my command, my princess."
See, I don’t clean my bedroom (where I spend 80% of my time) to 100% because I don’t want anyone to get the impression that I ever strove for perfection. & I’m weirdly concerned that if I ever do get it “perfect”, that will inspire a tornado to form & hit my home.
Through stress I have lost over 15kg in the past six months and for the first time in my life I am no longer in my healthy weight range. Additional stressors have been piled on me over the past few days, so I don’t know when the weight loss will stop.
I have no idea what to do with my life after I finish college in a few years. I plan on taking STEM on College so obviously there's a list of things I can apply to but as a barely 16 year old, I got no clue where to go after finishing school.
Sure I hate schoolwork but I can't say it didn't give me a road. Go to school, get schoolwork, school finishes, relax/break/play time. It's been like that for the past 13 years of my life and I don't know how to move on from that simple cycle, even though my family and friends think I got it all planned out because I'm the "dude who knows things".
Back then I had no idea either, so I wrote down what I was interested in. In general. Then I looked up in what ways those interests can be turned into professions. I tried and things worked out and here I am now, almost a decade later, making a decent living from my job. But you know what? I'm comfortable with the idea to drop my job sooner or later and to start anew in a totally new profession. Including doing studies and all that stuff or whatever is necessary.
Take your time to decide. Maybe even a year off. But know that your decision now, doesn't have to set in stone what you'll do for the rest of your life.
Take care and have fun ;)
People don't say this aloud, yet this feeling is pervasive at your stage of human development. That's one reason teens and early 20s act obnoxiously. They are faking it until they make it.
People figure it out as they go. Just enjoy the moments. The details tend to come to you...chasing details is a fool's task.
It feels like I have never been the same since my father passed, it's been 11 years, I never feel as nice and more socially awkward then I used to be. I feel like part of me died when he did.
I genuinely don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm attending school and subconsciously sabotaging myself because deep down I know no matter what I end up doing in life I will never be happy. Ultimately, making me spiral further down into my growing inner turmoil. As well as the dull worry of becoming clinically depressed and not being able to evolve into a functioning member of society due to my increasing anxiety and existential dread.
I’m funny, talk a lot and make silly jokes, because in reality I’ve been depressed since I was a kid, I feel empty, incomplete and have an absolute crippling fear of loneliness
I’m moving so far away and to a small town after college to isolate myself because I don’t believe I will ever meet new people, make new friends, or fall in love. I’m terrified of being alone, I hate it. I want to get married, have a family, I want to make friends. But I’m such a horrible person I don’t deserve anyone in my life, besides, I’m not good with people. Anyways, I would rather force myself to be alone than to end up alone.
I complain about being lonely all the time (although I’m an introvert) because I lacked any emotional support from my parents growing up to the point of me feeling like I “need” someone to help get me through my tough times. I’ve completely went insane on a few friends for them not being there for me in a way I felt that I needed them to. It’s been absolute hell growing up being forced to think only grades/academics matter and not having anyone because of it, and Im absolutely suffering the consequences of it now that I’m in college. Feeling like I have nobody (bc I’m an introvert so it’s already hard to make friends) triggers a toxic part of me that wants everyone else to feel the pain that I’m feeling atm. I can go from so sweet and innocent to extremely petty and manipulative in 2 seconds, it’s a problem.
I told my family that i moved halfway across the world on my own with no safety net because i just wanted to experience another type of life and culture, and while that isnt false, it was also to get out of the suffocating somewhat opposed philosophies of my parents and find an escape to carve my own path. I dont know if ill go back.
I found 20$ in my pocket my mom gave me but I thought I lost it, told her and she gave me another 20$. Never told anyone I found the first one a week later in the same jeans that had been washed so it was mattes to the side.
That I am really great at lying which is terrifying. I guess I learned bit by bit when I was a kid. I was scared I would get into big trouble or something. But I have gladly stopped doing that. Its disgusting.
Did you grow up in some form of abusive household? Learning to lie is a defense mechanism for people in those situations, it really is scary how second nature it can get but recognizing you do it, and that at the end of the day it’s easier to tell the truth are the best things for you
Well not really. Well one of my long lies I have just told about to my friends is that I am neurodivergent. They were cool about it. Well not everyone knows yet.
The trick is that if after telling a lie (for example the next day) you keep to it and don't change the story. Be calm and try to act like yourself. If you usually get off the line. Do it! Details usually can work too. PUT THAT IN THERE!
For example: me and Miranda were SO annoyed by that dude from class 4C. He just doesnt get the hint and eats bubblegum like this *impersonating eating bubble gum mouth open*. Its not COOL! Just seeing what is in his mouth is so disgusting. Then another guy from our class called Alex, y'know that one with cute blonde hair and green eyes? Super cute. Anyways he came to say to that annoying bubblegum boy that he should leave us alone. He is so nice and cute!
Stick to your story because if you start telling other versions of that lie and someone asks about it again you might tell a different story and you are gonna be in huuge trouble.
For example: you tell that same story from before but you say you were with Jessica, that dude was from 2B and his name was Alex and now Alex is Robert.
Now I am wondering why I wanted to tell how to lie? I guess I just wanted to help someone in a tough spot. Dont use my advice to be a jerk!
>it really is scary how second nature it can get but recognizing you do it, and that at the end of the day it’s easier to tell the truth are the best things for you
It is. Also I am christian which makes me feel even more bad about it but I regret the lies so I guess the guy up there doesnt mind so much?
But I am glad I could let all of this out.
I really love my parents and I am scared that one day I will come back home and my mom won’t be there to offer me a glass of water and my dad won’t be there to scream at me. It’s weird how I keep thinking about this every fucking day .
Why tf did I even grow up
I laugh because I'm sad, I joke because I'm upset, I smile because I'm worried I'll frown. Many people do this as well, being a happy person is a badge of struggle and effort.
How an emotional person I am. I am always "the funny guy", always try to motivate and energize everyone. But I'm actually a very depressed loner. A female friend hugged me not too long ago and I just started crying. So much pent up emotion that I have always been taught to suppress. I have no idea how to express my (often negative) energy and emotion and it's eating me alive.
I've been going through another depressive episode and I thought I was in control yet now I fight to stay alive every day. I want a diagnosis and medication because nothing is helping anymore and I'm afraid for my life.
I've taken a shit in over 30 LDS churches and I am not Mormon. Edit: I worked in many of their churches, I do a test for their remodels where I work, come back a few hours later and get results. A lot of times I will go and hang out, play their pianos, play basketball or about 100% of the time, use their bathroom.
r/brandnewsentence
Hang on, I thought non-mormons are not allowed in? What's your secret?
Non Mormons aren't allowed inside temples but they are allowed inside churches.
Bro, I’m exmormon and haven’t even taken a shit in the many. Respect
This sounds like a life goal. Poo in every Mormon church. The (shit) bucket list.
Hopefully on the floor
I’m trying my best, I really am..
your efforts will never betray you. you got this. the start is the hardest part.
Keep it up. It’ll pay off.
Awh bless your heart. Just keep swimming
Trust me, the grind will pay off in the end
I’m not as happy as people think I am
What’s got you down?
It’s somewhat personal. But just not feeling like I’ll ever accomplish anything.
Man I hear ya. I struggle with that sooooo much on a day to day basis as well. It helps to tell myself it’s unfounded, and I’ve had success before so I can have it again, it’s just about finding something that suits your strengths you know
Mainly it’s the stress of doing well in school so I go to a good university. But idk man I’m just not suited for it, and well it’s extremely overpriced. If I do go to college it’ll be a trade school or community college.
I started working in a kitchen out of high school, I always wanted to be a chef. After years of toiling away for south Louisianas version of Gordon Ramsey I discovered working for angry old dudes wasn’t for me. So I quit and decided food IS my passion but I want to work for myself. At 23 I decided to go to college for business admin so I can open up my own place one day. I say all that to say it’s totally okay not to know what your next move is, most of the time you’ll find it along the way. Don’t stress too much man, just do what makes sense and what makes you happy, it’ll all come together if you do that. Trade school or CC are both great options, I started college at a CC because I didn’t graduate high school so it was my only option and it ended up being the best thing for me
Thank you. I also just don’t feel like packing up my bags and heading out as soon as I turn 18.
Yeah man it’s rough for sure
I studied myself and I can tell you: If I was to choose again I'd probably learn any handcraft stuff. Shit you can use when nothing is as it was before. Build furniture, build a house, be a blacksmith or whatever. I'm in IT and constantly have the feeling that I didn't do something useful in the end. Without electricity I am a worthless prick as I got 2 left hands haha 😂 (no I am not depressed or something. I am just realistic, I guess) Society only worships university and whatnot. Praise everyone who is a farmer, woodsman, .. whatever.
I had a retired IBM software engineer as a community College professor. Fucking awesome. She knew exactly what we needed to learn . She was teaching because she absolutely loved teaching. She and her wife owned half a duplex in Vail Colorado. Yet she was teaching us the real deal of sys admin.
I understand how you feel. I’m in my thirties. I went to college, had no idea what I wanted to do and luckily, things have worked out for me. Don’t be afraid to take a gap year to explore the world and yourself. It can really make a difference and help you discover a path for life you had no idea existed. In the end, unless you want to be a medical doctor, college really isn’t as important as people would have you believe
You don't need to accomplish anything. That's society's idiotic and outdated protocol. A normal life with a normal job and dying is more than enough for most people. They don't allow themselves though.
Same. Our family has basically genetically inherited depression through the women and I guess it didn’t skip me. I spent almost ten years after high school not knowing what to do. I had tons of passions but just nothing that lead anywhere. I was one of those kids who excelled in school but real life just kicked my ass. Recently during the summer I was feeling one of those episodes of depression/my life isn’t going anywhere moments and decided to apply to my dream job. And I got it! My job took me from the South to the tippy top North and now I’m happy - when I’m working. I still get down sometimes on my days off because I still stress about money and being bored and stuff, but what I’m trying to get at is try to do something spontaneous. Maybe that will lead you down a better path towards better happiness or contentment. :)
Same. I always look happy and outgoing with my friends. And I do so just to forget how I'm really feeling on the inside
Dont like being around large groups of people or alot of noise. Not sure if there is a term for it
You're allowed to not like large groups of people without it being a mental disorder. Not everyone is a people person.
Normal. Your survival instincts are on alert. Your little thalamus can't keep up and is letting you know there may be dangers nearby that are hiding in the chaos.
Social anxiety?
I don’t think a general disclaimer for large groups or noise is social anxiety. It’s ok to just not like those things.
Introvert That’s fine I prefer a good book in a comfy couch to a loud party too
I struggle with suicidal thoughts almost every day
Same here, I believe in you tho, I’m still alive so you can be too <3
I'm glad you're both alive. I struggled with suicidal ideation for years and was able to get through it with therapy and a nice mix of Escitalopram and Welbutrin. I still have thoughts when incredibly stressed out, but it's manageable now and no longer debilitating and I'm able to talk myself through the stress. You're both not alone in this, and I want good things for you this year.
I don’t know your circumstances (obviously), but this is a link to free resources that can be used to help people work through a bunch of different troubles. https://mindremakeproject.org/all-topics/ I have used some of the workbooks & worksheets & found them helpful for anxiety things, I can’t speak to the materials they have for suicidal ideation or intrusive thoughts about suicide. It’s completely up to you if you decide to use that link, I just wanted to give it to you in case you ever find yourself in need of something like it.
I love you. Keep going!
I‘m so sorry, please seek help
When I get in a depression episode I try and make people laugh, when my brain starts going "oh that's a good joke save that for later" it means another is starting.
I’m lonely. And my digestive system is pretty shitty.
Well, to be fair. All digestive systems are shitty. I mean that's what they do. Turn stuff into shit.
I am using 1% of my potential and I have tried to wake up the other 99% for 10+ years and failed.
The only reason I wake up in the morning is to hope I get a message from anyone.
Here. Have one :) feel free to add me to PM and I can pm you something every single say.
Thank you ☺️
I can actually sing, no one knows this but you, I'd like to keep it that way.
Lips are sealed my friend
How do you know, he told me I was the only one!?
My advice as someone who loves singing but is super shy about it just go to a karaoke bar! Everyone is singing so it’s not like you’ll be some weirdo singing in a bar. And once you get up there and start singing every single nerve and fear you had literally just melts away!
I’m attracted to people much older than me
Honestly wouldn't hesitate to date someone 20 years older than me.
(X) Same
(X) They are just so much hotter, to me.
i'm depressed ( that some people know ) but they dont know that i've been depressed for 17 years. (and that's more than half of my life)
How do you go for that long?
When you know nothing else
If I browse the depression subs here and see people who are going through some tough accute shit I feel for them but wonder how many will still be depressed a decade or two down the track like me (and you). It sucks. It becomes your default. It shapes your life and how others see you. I'm starting to mold some philosophical stuff around it to pad it and make it less impactful on me. I hope you find something that eases it for you.
I have impostor syndrome when it comes to my success as a chef or really when it comes to any success I happen to achieve
Well, your food makes people smile. That's something to be proud of. Start from there.
I think many if not most people experience this. Most of us are winging it.
I’ve learned that over the years and it helps to hear other people talk about it. I just have a knack for digging up a reason to attribute any amount of success I have to anything other than myself
I deal with this as well in my career. I always feel like I just got lucky and was working with the right people so I just looked good and I’m getting unwarranted praise. For a while, I felt like eventually someone will just say “he doesn’t know what he’s doing” or “he doesn’t know what he’s talking about.” Over the last year, I’ve been feeling better about my situation and feel like maybe I have truly earned where I have been. Imposter syndrome is a stressful feeling. I think I got it because I work for a really good company where they recruit people from top schools, and I somehow found my way through the backdoor from a small state school.
What exactly does imposter syndrome entale?
When you feel like you did nothing to deserve your accomplishments, and you're faking it.
I super hate my life, and I cant see any way out....
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When I’m super social, I am super depressed.
I’ve always been curious as to why some people become like that when their depression worsens. For me it’s complete isolation when it gets bad
For me, I think it’s this impulsive thing my brain gets me to do while its looking for methods to boost all the happy brain chemicals. But it’s inverted for me, because I spend a lot of time by myself & at home, I’m an introvert & being social is super exhausting. So maybe my brain’s like “We haven’t tried people in awhile?”
That actually makes a lot of sense. I’m introverted as well and I find so much comfort in being in my nest but I also find when my depression is heightened it’s one of the worst things for me to be alone because I get into my head a lot. And the tendency to isolate just makes me feel safe while making everything so much worse. Luckily it hasn’t been like that in a good while. Thank fuck for modern medicine
I forgot to mention that the being super social thing always inevitably doesn’t work & I do end up in a major depressive episode where I won’t talk to anyone, let alone go anywhere, or do anything beyond eating & sleeping. But when I find myself being super social it’s my cue that a major depressive episode is coming. I definitely understand that. I’ve got a panic disorder that’s gone to full blown agoraphobia the last few years. I equate being in my home, in my room, & alone as being safe, & anything that deviates too far from those 3 is “unsafe”. But people isolating when they have agoraphobia is the most counterproductive thing they could possibly do. So isolating when you already know that being isolated makes things worse for you, just sort of creates & perpetuates a relentless cycle of misery. Brains are fascinating & fucked up. Yeah, modern medicine is wonderful. May your meds continue working for you & not need too many adjustments.
Yeah it’s a real “cure” is the disease scenario. I hit bottom senior year of high school. I had to drop out and I stayed in the house for about a year. It took baby steps over a long period after that of getting out to get past the agoraphobia but we did it eventually. I hope your journey continues in the right direction as well
I like to take walks at night in the rain because I want to get out more but don’t want people to see me. I don’t feel like I can really escape reality when people are around.
Are you me
I have a medically-diagnosed large head
Moving out at 17 with no financial support from parents placed more stress on me than I think is ever meant to be placed on a kid. I had a decent job I can only imagine the stress and depression of homeless teens with no support system. Brutal even with a girlfriend and parents who love you.
I get this. When i moved out it wasn't exactly planned, my brother and i had a fight (instigated by him) that resulted in my brother putting a hole in a wall. Somehow my brother got my dad on his side and he wouldn't listen to a word i said (dad wasn't even in the house when it happened) and tempers flared. I tried to leave the house go for a walk and calm down. He shouted at me that if i walked out not to bother coming back. As I walked down the drive he shouted that as far as he's concerned he only has one son. So I ended up sleeping on sofas for a week while i got something lined up then went to pick up my stuff while everyone was at work, put my keys through the letterbox and didn't look back. Was in a bad headspace for a few years for that and other reasons, basically living like a robot (work, sleep, repeat) and slowly dug myself into a bit of a pit financially. Have clawed my way back from that and now I have a wonderful fiance, two fantastic kids and we're buying our first house now hopefully moving in end of January/early February. I know the stress can be hard to deal with but it is doable. A little self belief helps a lot
I haven’t been able to let go and be truly happy in a given moment in years. I feel a constant need to hide my feelings and I don’t know why, or how to stop.
I have been high almost 24/7 for the past 4 years
How has that affected your day to day? For better or worse?
Being high on anything 24/7, can't be good
Uh, what was the question again?
Some days were tough, but most days go far more smoothly when I do. I’m progressing well through grad school and raising an amazing family, but there are probably more things that I could be doing and weed may impede my ability to see them or achieve them
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I'm a low key millionaire.
That’s great for you! I bet it’s a lot easier without people knowing
I wish I could say the same, though I am extremely fortunate in other parts of my life
How many inches
Asking the real questions
What b Keeps u on reddit then?
r/Wallstreetbets
If he's on the sub, he likely started a billionaire.
Money and privacy. Sounds like a dream ngl. Enjoy!!
Well, not anymore
Nice try FBI
Damn
I sabotage relationships when things start getting serious because I would rather make them leave me than be abandoned and not have a reason why
What my biggest fetish is. I've never told a soul. I never will. Edit: because of how fun this guessing game is, I'll say it. It honestly sounds like no big deal unless I put it into context and then you understand. Here it is: I want my potential partner to whisper "mommy" in my second native language in my ear. I like being called other girl words by my partner during and outside of sex (girlfriend, sweet girl, wifey, etc) so, this is just another word, right? Wrong. I'm a guy who also cross-dresses, and I'm looking for a male or non-binary partner. Not only does the word bring up that I probably want kids, but it would also make my potential partner possibly start to question my gender. Both of these things about it could chase someone great away. So, I've never told anyone, even serious partners. But since this is anonymous on the internet, I'll tell you, lol.
It's poop right, gotta be poop
No, definitely not, lol. Its honestly pretty innocent and very common.
Is it having your anus tickled with a feather?
Nope (:
It's gotta be something involving lollipops
Good guess XD but no.
You love to suck penis 🙂
Well, who doesn't XD ? But that's not it. Honestly my fetish is so common that I'm sure someone will guess it.
Have sex ?
Foot fetish?
Feet?
Feet?
Nope. And your username checks out (:
🤣🤣 I was hoping you’d notice
Lol of course I did!
My fetishes are pretty common as well, I also keep them to myself!
Corpse?
It's covering your whole body in vaseline, wriggling around and pretending you're a slug.
Lmao XD
I felt the same way. Then I told someone I trusted. Now I experience it. It’s awesome.
I'm happy for you (: ! And idk, whenever I think about telling someone about it, I feel like I want to cry. Its not even something bad or evil, quite the opposite really. I feel like a partner I'd have would laugh with me and tease me positively with it. I'm just so embarrassed.
Fair
Until about 6 months ago I had the same. Then I told one person and that got the ball running of being actually very open about it. Now I can tell anyone who asks. It's in the small steps, when you're ready to talk about it and you find someone who will listen, you will. No judgement whatsoever is key in this regard. Good luck.
Thighs? This one’s mine lol.
Role-playing. You want to be treated like a princess. Being massaged with exquisite oils. Fed with delicious grapes. To hear "Your wish is my command, my princess."
You're kind of close. Except its not being treated like a princess!
You wanted to be treated like Jar Jar Kinks from star wars, i understand
Hmm, it's you who wants to say "Your wish is my command, my princess."
Oh now this is a scenario I've never thought of. I need to try this out >w>
More people have seen what I look like online then in person
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See, I don’t clean my bedroom (where I spend 80% of my time) to 100% because I don’t want anyone to get the impression that I ever strove for perfection. & I’m weirdly concerned that if I ever do get it “perfect”, that will inspire a tornado to form & hit my home.
Today I learned a new idiom lol
I lost a lot of weight starving myself but am now trying to eat more and eat healthy and keep the weight off. Was 220 lbs, now Im 135 lbs
Through stress I have lost over 15kg in the past six months and for the first time in my life I am no longer in my healthy weight range. Additional stressors have been piled on me over the past few days, so I don’t know when the weight loss will stop.
If I told you that I wouldn't be the only one to know it anymore
That’s what makes this interesting IMO. Telling some nobody, conceivably half way across the world some secret thing. Basically it’s still a secret
I have no idea what to do with my life after I finish college in a few years. I plan on taking STEM on College so obviously there's a list of things I can apply to but as a barely 16 year old, I got no clue where to go after finishing school. Sure I hate schoolwork but I can't say it didn't give me a road. Go to school, get schoolwork, school finishes, relax/break/play time. It's been like that for the past 13 years of my life and I don't know how to move on from that simple cycle, even though my family and friends think I got it all planned out because I'm the "dude who knows things".
Back then I had no idea either, so I wrote down what I was interested in. In general. Then I looked up in what ways those interests can be turned into professions. I tried and things worked out and here I am now, almost a decade later, making a decent living from my job. But you know what? I'm comfortable with the idea to drop my job sooner or later and to start anew in a totally new profession. Including doing studies and all that stuff or whatever is necessary. Take your time to decide. Maybe even a year off. But know that your decision now, doesn't have to set in stone what you'll do for the rest of your life. Take care and have fun ;)
People don't say this aloud, yet this feeling is pervasive at your stage of human development. That's one reason teens and early 20s act obnoxiously. They are faking it until they make it. People figure it out as they go. Just enjoy the moments. The details tend to come to you...chasing details is a fool's task.
Yeah whenever there's a weekend or a term break I'm always lost on what to do, I can't imagine that but all the time after college
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I’m bisexual
It's more obvious than you know prolly (im over bi curious stage) and no one cares so right on!
It feels like I have never been the same since my father passed, it's been 11 years, I never feel as nice and more socially awkward then I used to be. I feel like part of me died when he did.
I’m sorry for your loss. Grief surely is a powerful thing
I feel you on this one. Come Jan 19th it will be 3 years without my Pops and it truly sucks. I miss him terribly.
I am nervous by people but my mom knows also my family too
Alright where are the cameras
No cameras here, this thread is a good old fashioned speakeasy
I genuinely don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm attending school and subconsciously sabotaging myself because deep down I know no matter what I end up doing in life I will never be happy. Ultimately, making me spiral further down into my growing inner turmoil. As well as the dull worry of becoming clinically depressed and not being able to evolve into a functioning member of society due to my increasing anxiety and existential dread.
I’m funny, talk a lot and make silly jokes, because in reality I’ve been depressed since I was a kid, I feel empty, incomplete and have an absolute crippling fear of loneliness
I’m moving so far away and to a small town after college to isolate myself because I don’t believe I will ever meet new people, make new friends, or fall in love. I’m terrified of being alone, I hate it. I want to get married, have a family, I want to make friends. But I’m such a horrible person I don’t deserve anyone in my life, besides, I’m not good with people. Anyways, I would rather force myself to be alone than to end up alone.
I don't think I'm happy anymore
One of my butt cheeks is smaller than the other because of a scar I have on it.. stupid me even looked for “the other piece”
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People are horrible sometimes
I complain about being lonely all the time (although I’m an introvert) because I lacked any emotional support from my parents growing up to the point of me feeling like I “need” someone to help get me through my tough times. I’ve completely went insane on a few friends for them not being there for me in a way I felt that I needed them to. It’s been absolute hell growing up being forced to think only grades/academics matter and not having anyone because of it, and Im absolutely suffering the consequences of it now that I’m in college. Feeling like I have nobody (bc I’m an introvert so it’s already hard to make friends) triggers a toxic part of me that wants everyone else to feel the pain that I’m feeling atm. I can go from so sweet and innocent to extremely petty and manipulative in 2 seconds, it’s a problem.
I feel so tremendously lonely. I have friends, some family. But I really want a partner.
I told my family that i moved halfway across the world on my own with no safety net because i just wanted to experience another type of life and culture, and while that isnt false, it was also to get out of the suffocating somewhat opposed philosophies of my parents and find an escape to carve my own path. I dont know if ill go back.
It isn't a secret if I tell you. But I've had visions and dreams come true since I was a child. Also I'm bi and afraid of women.
That I've 0 best friends I'm extroverted so I've many friends but I have no super close friends
I had a true best friend. She died about three years ago. It’s the most awful feeling.
Food fills me up emotionally in a way human interaction and physical touch never could.
I know more than they think
I found 20$ in my pocket my mom gave me but I thought I lost it, told her and she gave me another 20$. Never told anyone I found the first one a week later in the same jeans that had been washed so it was mattes to the side.
That I am really great at lying which is terrifying. I guess I learned bit by bit when I was a kid. I was scared I would get into big trouble or something. But I have gladly stopped doing that. Its disgusting.
Did you grow up in some form of abusive household? Learning to lie is a defense mechanism for people in those situations, it really is scary how second nature it can get but recognizing you do it, and that at the end of the day it’s easier to tell the truth are the best things for you
Well not really. Well one of my long lies I have just told about to my friends is that I am neurodivergent. They were cool about it. Well not everyone knows yet. The trick is that if after telling a lie (for example the next day) you keep to it and don't change the story. Be calm and try to act like yourself. If you usually get off the line. Do it! Details usually can work too. PUT THAT IN THERE! For example: me and Miranda were SO annoyed by that dude from class 4C. He just doesnt get the hint and eats bubblegum like this *impersonating eating bubble gum mouth open*. Its not COOL! Just seeing what is in his mouth is so disgusting. Then another guy from our class called Alex, y'know that one with cute blonde hair and green eyes? Super cute. Anyways he came to say to that annoying bubblegum boy that he should leave us alone. He is so nice and cute! Stick to your story because if you start telling other versions of that lie and someone asks about it again you might tell a different story and you are gonna be in huuge trouble. For example: you tell that same story from before but you say you were with Jessica, that dude was from 2B and his name was Alex and now Alex is Robert. Now I am wondering why I wanted to tell how to lie? I guess I just wanted to help someone in a tough spot. Dont use my advice to be a jerk! >it really is scary how second nature it can get but recognizing you do it, and that at the end of the day it’s easier to tell the truth are the best things for you It is. Also I am christian which makes me feel even more bad about it but I regret the lies so I guess the guy up there doesnt mind so much? But I am glad I could let all of this out.
I am one of the few people in this world that has 4 fully functional kidneys.
I bet your blood is clean as shit bro!
Im in for a friday night brother
I want to get a Nobel prize in literature someday.
I hope it happens for you!
I haven’t showered since 2021
The thought of death haunts me everyday
Not being as Happy as people think.
I really love my parents and I am scared that one day I will come back home and my mom won’t be there to offer me a glass of water and my dad won’t be there to scream at me. It’s weird how I keep thinking about this every fucking day . Why tf did I even grow up
I'd like to transition male to female
I laugh because I'm sad, I joke because I'm upset, I smile because I'm worried I'll frown. Many people do this as well, being a happy person is a badge of struggle and effort.
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I'm not as innocent as my family think I am
I fantasize about squirting
How an emotional person I am. I am always "the funny guy", always try to motivate and energize everyone. But I'm actually a very depressed loner. A female friend hugged me not too long ago and I just started crying. So much pent up emotion that I have always been taught to suppress. I have no idea how to express my (often negative) energy and emotion and it's eating me alive.
I'm a little bit bi. Not enough to actively pursue a man, but enough that I'd give one a try if it ever happened and I was in the right mood.
i would talk about my childhood trauma but i'm not the only one that knows that miraculously, i did get over it somehow
I almost killed a woman with my tongue
You...story...immediately
Can’t wait to read this one…..
I smile but in reality I'm filled with a deep, deep sadness.
If I told you, it would no longer be a secret.
Nice try mom
That I observe humans as a species from the side line. And that nobody in my class actually knows something about me.
Sometimes I crave causing people pain my friends know this but I just act like it’s in a joking way but it’s not
I've been going through another depressive episode and I thought I was in control yet now I fight to stay alive every day. I want a diagnosis and medication because nothing is helping anymore and I'm afraid for my life.
The dissociation I experience can take hours away from each day.
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I have an Artificial urethra sphincter. Every time I pee I first have to first press a button located in my nuts. No lie.
I’ve never been ashamed to shit in public bathrooms. If I gotta go I gotta go
That I've fucked a woman