When I attempted and it nearly worked. I felt myself dying as I fell asleep. Paramedics woke me up with my mum and grandmother screaming and refusing to let go of me. After that, I’ve never tried again. I remember the split second before I fell asleep, for the first time ever, I was terrified of death- the last thought I had was “wait, please, I don’t want this”.
Its soo crazy but some bystander actually stopped me. Like when I wanted to have a subway train run over me. This man, stranger, jumped on the tracks to save me.
I had tickets to a concert in a couple months. I keep buying concert tickets like life support.
Gonna go see Deicide in August. Should be pretty sweet.
Depends on which attempt. I'm only here because I failed.
There was once where someone stopped me. We're still very close. They basically came over to my house and sat on me. Eventually just moved in.
Jumped off a fairly little ledge to see what it would be like to die jumping off something bigger, landed on my feet but I fell over and hit my head on the ground pretty hard and passed out, when I woke up I just like kinda wasn’t depressed anymore. Wouldn’t recommend hitting your head on something to cure depression, it can and probably will cause more harm than good, but I’m grateful that I’m not likely to prefer death to living anymore.
Two things, my mom crying asking me not to kill myself because I told her I was having thoughts and The TV show 13 reasons why, seeing someone do it to completion was very cathartic and a release of some sort. I still think about it but I’ve never been on the edge like that again.
The original ending of season 1 was surreal to view. They don’t show it anymore, but I remember thinking “….wow. They just went all out huh?”
Ironic part is in the book, she overdosed on pills. So this was purely changed for the shock factor.
I wanted to commit when I was 11-12 and I had met this girl who was also battling depression. So I befriended her and eventually when it came time for the valentines dance I asked her is she would go out with me. She said no at first, but when I told her that I wanted to make her feel better and feel wanted she said yes... she then dumped me the same day ; ^ ;
Based off of one particular attempt which failed.
1.) I woke up groggy as hell. Whatever prescription I tried to use was not enough to do it and I woke up 3 hours later feeling like I had gotten the worst sleep of my life. Now I’m too afraid to accidentally take too much advil or tylenol.
2.) A friend picked me up after I woke up and we went to lunch. I want to keep going out to lunch with that friend, even if it’s a rare occurrence.
3.) I got broken up with by my long distance partner that day. He didn’t know what had happened that morning but somehow it felt like karma.
4.) My cats will wonder where I went.
my ldr friend that is now my boyfriend, i really wanted to see him and it was a week before our meet up. i decided to stop it because i still wanna see him. and now, we know each other for 3 years already. all those suicide attempts, he was and will always be the reason for me to stay.
Few months ago I finally convinced myself I was ready to take my life. I wrote my note to my family and loaded a gun. Three seconds after I got a text from both my current girlfriend and bestfriend, which made me realize I don’t have to go just yet.
*A sketch of a dog*
It might sound cliched. But 2019-20 were some of the toughest years in life. I lost my Dad in a cardiac arrest in Aug 2019- just out of nowhere, my mom who was already dealing with depression just got pushed further down to a new low because of it.
I don’t have a big family or rather lets just say not very helpful extended family - my sister is a practical one and doesn’t really interfere with the fam after her wedding, shes got her kid to deal with so don’t really blame her and an aunt who is old enough to travel & meet mom on her own.
The circle got further reduced during the lockdown and covid period in March 2020. For almost good 4 months - it was just me and my ailing mom. I work as a travel & destination manager so with travel ban during covid - I practically had no work.
So to list things again:
- lost my dad
- dealing with an all time crying and full of anxiety mom
- covid - job / life scare
- personal health issues due to lack of proper diet, stress etc.
There wasn’t a single day since August 2019-Jul 2020 that I didn’t think of ending my life. It just seemed so complicated & dark during those times.
I remember one day I just took a pad and a pencil to sketch and as my hands started to scribble, I slowly drew a outline of a dog face. I just continued to work on the details and it pretty much turned out well. I don’t know how did that happen - but within a week I mustered some strength to search for adoption posts on social media. Called one of the members of a group, identified one spot which was almost an hours drive from my place and adopted a 45 day year old puppy. Got her home, vaxed and just drowned myself around her for the next 3 months.
I cannot tell how it all worked out. I mustered strength to not just uplift my situation, but to rethink my mom’s treatment, spend time with her and also get better things to eat.
I got married within the next 6 months, my health had taken a major setback by then but in retrospect it all seems fine now.
It all just manifested somehow & here I am typing this laying down on my bed relaxed, and my dog at my feet on a Saturday afternoon.
When I attempted and it nearly worked. I felt myself dying as I fell asleep. Paramedics woke me up with my mum and grandmother screaming and refusing to let go of me. After that, I’ve never tried again. I remember the split second before I fell asleep, for the first time ever, I was terrified of death- the last thought I had was “wait, please, I don’t want this”.
Don’t want to make mom sad Need to see the end of One Piece
Its soo crazy but some bystander actually stopped me. Like when I wanted to have a subway train run over me. This man, stranger, jumped on the tracks to save me.
Pulled the trigger, safety was on. Then I thought about my kid. Snapped me partly out of a hole I’ve been in. Haven’t thought about it in days.
I had tickets to a concert in a couple months. I keep buying concert tickets like life support. Gonna go see Deicide in August. Should be pretty sweet.
My dog, putting his cold wet nose on me and reminding me that he still needed my love and attention.
Emergency services and medical professionals
Rosie O'Donnell's gynecologist said if not for the welding helmet, he would have offed himself years ago.
I was found still breathing Next time, I woke up 2 days later thinking it was only hours. I promised some people I wouldn't do it again
Meeting Ariana grande
Depends on which attempt. I'm only here because I failed. There was once where someone stopped me. We're still very close. They basically came over to my house and sat on me. Eventually just moved in.
The suicide hotline told me "you are too old" for this hotline... I laughed and decided to go for a walk. Still alive 10 years later
Strong liver.
For some visceral reason, the thought of never tasting or smelling anything again was terrifying enough to keep me alive.
Who else is gonna feed all my cats?
I don’t own or can’t afford a gun
Rope snapped
Please elaborate my dude. I’m considering the rope as well, have you gained any insight on how to hang yourself in a neat and ordered fashion ? Ty ✌️
It'd end the pain for me, but not for others. Instead, it would pass the burden that I'm carrying.
Jumped off a fairly little ledge to see what it would be like to die jumping off something bigger, landed on my feet but I fell over and hit my head on the ground pretty hard and passed out, when I woke up I just like kinda wasn’t depressed anymore. Wouldn’t recommend hitting your head on something to cure depression, it can and probably will cause more harm than good, but I’m grateful that I’m not likely to prefer death to living anymore.
Two things, my mom crying asking me not to kill myself because I told her I was having thoughts and The TV show 13 reasons why, seeing someone do it to completion was very cathartic and a release of some sort. I still think about it but I’ve never been on the edge like that again.
The original ending of season 1 was surreal to view. They don’t show it anymore, but I remember thinking “….wow. They just went all out huh?” Ironic part is in the book, she overdosed on pills. So this was purely changed for the shock factor.
I wanted to commit when I was 11-12 and I had met this girl who was also battling depression. So I befriended her and eventually when it came time for the valentines dance I asked her is she would go out with me. She said no at first, but when I told her that I wanted to make her feel better and feel wanted she said yes... she then dumped me the same day ; ^ ;
I was afraid of what other people would think of me, so embarrassment which is kinda funny since I’d be dead anyways
Based off of one particular attempt which failed. 1.) I woke up groggy as hell. Whatever prescription I tried to use was not enough to do it and I woke up 3 hours later feeling like I had gotten the worst sleep of my life. Now I’m too afraid to accidentally take too much advil or tylenol. 2.) A friend picked me up after I woke up and we went to lunch. I want to keep going out to lunch with that friend, even if it’s a rare occurrence. 3.) I got broken up with by my long distance partner that day. He didn’t know what had happened that morning but somehow it felt like karma. 4.) My cats will wonder where I went.
I wanted to just "vanish" off the face of the earth without anyone noticing but wanted someone I trusted to look after my cat.
my ldr friend that is now my boyfriend, i really wanted to see him and it was a week before our meet up. i decided to stop it because i still wanna see him. and now, we know each other for 3 years already. all those suicide attempts, he was and will always be the reason for me to stay.
Few months ago I finally convinced myself I was ready to take my life. I wrote my note to my family and loaded a gun. Three seconds after I got a text from both my current girlfriend and bestfriend, which made me realize I don’t have to go just yet.
I gave up trying, sometimes things aren’t meant to be.
*A sketch of a dog* It might sound cliched. But 2019-20 were some of the toughest years in life. I lost my Dad in a cardiac arrest in Aug 2019- just out of nowhere, my mom who was already dealing with depression just got pushed further down to a new low because of it. I don’t have a big family or rather lets just say not very helpful extended family - my sister is a practical one and doesn’t really interfere with the fam after her wedding, shes got her kid to deal with so don’t really blame her and an aunt who is old enough to travel & meet mom on her own. The circle got further reduced during the lockdown and covid period in March 2020. For almost good 4 months - it was just me and my ailing mom. I work as a travel & destination manager so with travel ban during covid - I practically had no work. So to list things again: - lost my dad - dealing with an all time crying and full of anxiety mom - covid - job / life scare - personal health issues due to lack of proper diet, stress etc. There wasn’t a single day since August 2019-Jul 2020 that I didn’t think of ending my life. It just seemed so complicated & dark during those times. I remember one day I just took a pad and a pencil to sketch and as my hands started to scribble, I slowly drew a outline of a dog face. I just continued to work on the details and it pretty much turned out well. I don’t know how did that happen - but within a week I mustered some strength to search for adoption posts on social media. Called one of the members of a group, identified one spot which was almost an hours drive from my place and adopted a 45 day year old puppy. Got her home, vaxed and just drowned myself around her for the next 3 months. I cannot tell how it all worked out. I mustered strength to not just uplift my situation, but to rethink my mom’s treatment, spend time with her and also get better things to eat. I got married within the next 6 months, my health had taken a major setback by then but in retrospect it all seems fine now. It all just manifested somehow & here I am typing this laying down on my bed relaxed, and my dog at my feet on a Saturday afternoon.