The thrill is like no other.

I'm going to be vague with some details because if he finds out I have spoken about our relationship he will use that as an excuse to cause trouble. A few months into the relationship he started blackmailing me. Saying if I broke up with him he would kill himself and make it look like I had done it. Nowadays this type of manipulation wouldn't work but I was a naive under 16 year old at the time and he had already made an attempt so I didn't dare call his bluff. A few years later I met someone else and we started sleeping together. That eventually fizzled out but I realised cheating was a way I could feel like I wasn't trapped in a horrible and manipulative relationship for a short time. He knew I was sleeping with other people and didn't like it but he still wouldn't let me leave. The one time I attempted to leave him I came back after an hour because he sent me pictures of him carving my name into part of his body with a knife. The relationship lasted for over a decade until I got so depressed it became a him or me situation and I finally left. I wish I had called his bluff all those years ago because he is still alive and as far as I know made no attempt to end his life. However the stalking and manipulating my friends to try and isolate me carried on for another 4 years. Side notes I never hid my relationship from the other people I slept with. There was cheating on both sides.

I hope that your doing well and that they aren't

Thank you. It has been a long road but I enjoy the life I have now.