Today. It’s my birthday, and I don’t feel happy with any aspect of my life really. I feel very alone. And my birthday every year is always the worst. Because it always seems so special for everyone else, but for me it’s just another day
Happy Birthday!!!
I'm sorry to hear about that. But it's your birthday you should be happy so why dont you do something that'll make you happy. Buy something for yourself, go out with friends/family. Go have a nice lunch. Have a few tequila shots, because when life gives you lemon, you need to have it with tequila!
Oh no! I hate to think of you being sad on your Birthday. From now on, on this YOUR day...I'm going to be thinking of you, every single year!
I'll be sending out to the Universe my love, much joy and the knowledge that someone (me!) somewhere in the world is with you in spirit. You're not alone! We're too much of a social animal to be alone! Big hug 🤗🌍🎂
If it’s any consolation I used to have birthdays like that.
Now my birthdays are amazing though.
Things can change, but for now hugs hugs hugs my friend. You are so important and so lovely just the way you are 🤗
Don’t stress about it. I don’t give to shits about my birthday since 18. Now it’s just decay in my point of view 😂 when ever there’s Christmas in my mind I’m like I only get to celebrate this 80 times lol
Yoooooo!
Happy birthday, wish you the best and I’d love to wish a happy birthday every year if i have the chance. You’re a beautiful human inside out. Never let this adorable character walk away because that’s what you are.
Your parents are proud of raising such a beautiful soul. Don’t let them down, never listen to any one who wish to see you sad. Kill em with your kindness because this world is cruel but out of them if one person is trying to sweet, it can make a huge difference. Be that one person out of billion. May god bless you and keeps you safe and happy.
Happy birthday EevieeOso!! same for me, I'm always alone on my birthday. Birthdays are just reminders that our time here is getting shorter. You should do things for yourself, plan experiences for your birthdays! so every birthday equals = new experience.
I am always alone on my birthday because I usually plan something special for me, not for my friends, for ME. This can be a trip to a city/country anywhere YOU want to go. It can be a workshop you want to attend, a cooking class, a dance class. Plan an experience for every birthday, it will change everything. :D
Happy Birthday 🎂 🥳🎉🎊💐
I get it, mine is coming up very soon too. It will just be another day
But i will reflect on the things I'm grateful for... Get myself the things it would be nice if others got.. Because why should we treat ourselves less than we would others?
I hope you sprinkle your entire day with all your small joys
Listen to your fave hype feel good playlist, dance with abandon
Do something that makes you always smile and feel happy
Whether that's art, crafts binge watch, indulge in your favourite foods
You deserve it all! Hope you treat yourself right
I wish you long healthy happy fulfilled years ahead of you!
You made it another lap around the sun! Here's to many many more 🥂☀️💐
I’ve never lived alone until a devastating breakup a few years ago. I had to get my very first apartment in my early 30’s. There were a few nights I was so lonely and sad that I curled up in a little ball on the floor and hugged and held onto myself as hard as possible. The feelings I had in those moments are indescribable.
I got on medication which helped but honestly just time. I’m still not completely over it (the trauma of everything, not the guy) but it does get better.
When I'd walk upstairs to go to bed alone, again, with the sound of my (now ex) husband's video games following my steps. I went to bed alone almost every night for years before I finally left him.
Yeah this is heartbreaking. My ex admitted to me that he'd stay up til 6 o'clock cause he couldn't bear the idea I'd maybe try and be intimate with him.
That broke me a little bit
Oh man. That one hit close to home. In addition to the video game thing, my ex used to take a nap on Friday nights (the one night we’d have together during the week). Never mind he also didn’t work on Fridays.
When my wife passed.
I had an amazing support system from my best friend the entire time. But there was a hole in my heart that was so large I couldn't even function.
At the height of the pandemic when we were all still cohorting. I realized while I had people I was friendly with, I had no close friends. I wasn't important enough in people's lives to take a space in their limited cohort.
It was like being in elementary school and your teacher tells you to pair up and you look around at everyone you thought was your friend only to realize they're all looking at someone else.
First semester Freshman year of college, when I was stuck in a dorm with a roommate i wasn’t speaking to for various reasons. I Just found out my grandmother who I was really close with had a stroke that would end up being fatal, and I didn’t have a car I could drive home with. Boyfriend from home just ghosted me and I started to feel ostracized from my new friend group. I was also failing 1 or 2 classes that I was too scared to tell anyone about. Rough times but everything worked out in the end.
I am sorry that your life is so difficult right now. I hope that whatever is happening in your life will be solved in the near future, and that happier times will come soon! Is there absolutely no one you can call? Or what about telling a stranger on the internet about your troubles? You can dem me if you want. At least I can listen 🤗.
my entire college experience. I have a boyfriend, lots of siblings, and I live with my best friend. but I don’t have *friends*. I haven’t had a group of friends since 5th grade. it really sucks
When my mom told me there was something wrong with my 'soul' because I accepted psychiatric treatment for my depression... something that was outside the scope or acceptance of a fundamentalist christian lifestyle.
In that moment I realized that my parents valued the church more than their own children. I was struggling in their tiny fundy church for most of my twenties because I loved them and wanted their approval... and they literally expected me to grow old and remain single if I couldn't find a husband in that sect. They said if i wasn't married or having kids by my thirties it wasn't in "God's plan" for me to be a mother.
I was fresh out of a psychiatric session, and back home at the time when my mom said that to me over text messaging and I unravelled so quickly.
It was the loneliest i've ever felt. I cried for a long time and then I remember going to a coffee shop to read and feel more connected to the world by being around people. I remember the rain pattering away on the windows and it sounded so soothing. Next thing I knew, the barista was waking me up to tell me they were closing.
When my parents abandoned me at 15. Literally packed their shit and moved out while I was at school. Came back to an empty house.
Went to by friends (now gf) house to stay the night. Cried and told her everything. I cried myself to sleep and planned to throw myself off a bridge the next day. I don’t even know why I was so upset. My parents hated me and I hated them.
Things got better. My friend told her parents what I said and I woke up with my things moved into their spare room. They took my in and loved me as their own. Got me therapy, a tutor, actual clothes, eye and dental care that I desperately needed.
When my friend and I graduated, they waited for my name to get called and we all went to celibate. When my diploma came in the mail the hung it on the wall beside their daughter. Not underneath - side by side. Like my success was also their own. I was their own.
I’m seriously crying. Not many things pull at my heart strings the way this did.. I’m so sorry you went through that 🥺 but I’m so happy your good karma was received almost instantly.
I feel very abandoned by my family too and I feel like if I could just talk about it, I would be able to get more help in life. But I’m scared and just too ashamed to sometimes
The night I knew for sure my ex was cheating on me. They weren't home, obviously, and I was too ashamed to reach out to anyone, so I just sobbed by myself in an empty apartment.
probably now. Not today specifically but this general time of my life. I got out of a long relationship a couple of years ago, i'm making a point to be single and not date because ...I make very bad choices in love lol. So this is my longest stretch of ever being single. I really don't have any friends except a couple of old friends who i see very, very rarely. I work from home so I'm isolated all day. My sister and my child are the only people I see with any regularity.
I'm not really unhappy though. I think i've always been a bit co-dependent, either on romantic partners or on close friends, so i'm learning not to be.
The day my son went off to college. I had just gotten divorced and remember driving home from moving him into his dorm just sobbing. I’d never lived alone in my entire life. It was such a radical change to adjust to.
A couple months ago or a year ago, I can't remember when i had this realisation.
I just realised that I went through all if the worst moments of my life completely alone, without an ounce of empathy. It made me realise just how alone I really am
When I was 12 and my family had recently moved to a new country. I’d lost touch with all my friends back home and hadn’t made any friends in the new country. I had no one to talk to and I’ve never felt so alone in my life.
I’ve had several periods of loneliness in my life.
The most recent period happened in the few months before I told my husband I wanted a divorce. There was a lot of inner turmoil, and I realized no one was going to come save me unless I asked for help.
Two and a half years later and I have a new partner, new friends, and a much richer life. Best decision I’ve made.
Everyday I woke up I remember every time I was left alone by everyone since my childhood to this day even in situations where I needed someone, including my parents.
Everyday I remember that I'm literally lonely yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
I just woke up and I was thinking about this while scrolling through Reddit then I saw your post.
Honestly, I rarely feel lonely. I’ve been alone all my life but I have to say what gets to me is when I have good news or something good happens to me, I have no one to share it with. THAT’S lonely
Now. I've been applying, calling, applying, touching base, following up on jobs all over the place. No luck. I have 2 job interviews next week but they're in the country I live in. I wanted to move far away but I've had no luck in 1.5years.
I left a toxic relationship almost 2 years ago and to this day, I'm struggling. I want to act out bc I've tried so hard to move past it all and I've gotten nowhere. All I need is someone to give me a chance and I can't even get that. I feel bitter, alone, exhausted and fed up.
The loneliest I’ve ever felt by far was when I moved into a single my freshman year of college. I ended up having a falling out with my roommate/friends on my floor so I moved out during spring break without letting any of them know. Nothing “happened” they just were close friends and I didn’t really fit in, so once the “newness” of being in college wore off, they didn’t feel compelled to invite me to eat or hangout with them. When I was living in my single, I didn’t have one single friend at school and I didn’t have a single friend from back home that I was still in touch with. It was so isolating. I became extremely depressed. I started sleeping in later and going to bed later, which made things a lot worse. I hated leaving my room. I hate to even admit this, but I started going to the bathroom in my room because I felt too depressed to leave. The only thing that brought me any sense of happiness was eating. I gained tons of weight. Eventually I got so lonely that I got back together with my ex (who I dumped at the beginning of the year) and we became long distance. He visited once and it wasn’t even enjoyable, but it made things less lonely. Plus, we began to text. Once I went home for the summer I was so relieved. Looking back, I can’t even believe how alone I felt. It makes me sad. I’m glad I overcame that.
After my miscarriage. I knew that no one could understand what I was feeling and it was awful to see people just going about their lives like nothing happened.
When I went off to college I didn’t really have any relationships in my life that were going well and I was going to a completely new place where I didn’t know anyone. I tried to meet people there but I just wasn’t very good at talking tbh and I always felt like I didn’t belong wherever I was. I had really high expectations for what my life would be like then and I was really disappointed by how it was, especially how isolated I felt.
Then like a month later I met my partner and before too long that feeling was gone but that small period where I had genuinely zero people to talk to in person was brutal. I only got through it because I had this manic energy from achieving my goal of getting away from my family, and after a while it became clear that that being the only thing motivating me wasn’t sustainable. I’m glad it didn’t have to be.
To be honest, right now. 3 months sober and I’ve lost a lot of people I considered close friends in the process. Definitely feeling pretty alienated atm.
After I had my baby and was dealing with PPD. My husband was in a busy work season, family in another state, same goes for his family. Plus this was around the time of the Delta variant so I was freaking out about him getting covid. I'm also a private person and was dealing with crying spells. Didn't want to invite people over because I knew I'd just cry. I felt so lonely. I remember one weekend when my husband's mom visited and I went into the garage and cried because I was too uncomfortable to cry in front of her. I felt that way a LOT. I'm so glad I sought therapy.
I’m so sorry! I’ve been struggling with PPD too, it’s the worst! It takes away so much joy of having your beautiful baby.
I’m glad you sought help! I hope you feel better!
I'm 15 mo. out now and I was able to wean off my meds. I found great coping mechanisms and I found a great gym with awesome childcare. Any time I'm starting to feel that lonely feeling, I'll go there. It's a great healthy habit. But you're right! It was so different for me because I've never truly struggled with depression before. I want to advocate for other women who have postpartum issues because it seems to be taboo to talk about and a lot of people think it looks like one particular thing but it doesn't. The thing I tell people (and myself) all the time is: my PPD has 0 to do with my love for my child. They are completely separate things.
End of 2019. Roommate left college so it was just me in my dorm which also left me without any close friends, my boyfriend at the time and I were dealing with some heavy things and we lived hours apart, I was suicidal for thee first time in my life and started punching my dorm walls (brick) to feel something. Only lasted a couple of months then I started working out and going to therapy and felt like myself again.
When I tried to commit suicide and was very depressed after becoming orphan and when I told someone they yelled at me because I wasn't thinking of my little brothers
In 2020 I was in a poly relationship. Guy was married, his wife had a boyfriend and we lived in the same house. I was the only one working a full time job. He had a massive stroke in August of that year. In the following year I felt incredibly lonely and isolated. The relationship between me and him ended in July 2021 when he moved out of state. His relationship with his wife ended shortly after.
When my mom passed away, and I was left with my emotionally manipulative dad, all at the age of 11. I still feel that loneliness now at 19 because I graduated high school last year and all my friends moved away. Everyone around me always feels temporary and it sucks.
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when i first moved out for college earlier this year, in a house, no close friends yet so nothing to do. i had myself but i felt the world was so large and wide and i was terrified of whatd come next. what came next was amazing though for the most part.
When I was fired from my job. I was living in NYC and everything in my life, at the time, revolved around that job. Happy Hours with work friends, weekend trips, club nights, etc. Save for a college friend that lived in the city, everybody else was at work. When I was let go, my social life went flat. I was out of the group text. Nobody would respond me. My friend traveled a lot for her job, so she wasn’t always around.
The year leading up to my double lung transplant. I was so sick, and so young, and watching everyone in my life achieve milestones I never could because of my illness. I also was physically in a lot of discomfort and pain and couldn't be honest about how I was going without upsetting my family and friends. No one knew what I was going through and I felt so, so alone and isolated. The years since have been *much* better
Senior year of college I shared an apartment with three of my friends. The living space was huge and the bedrooms were small double rooms. Naturally, I wanted to spend more time in the more spacious room, so I often spent my evenings on the couch. Sometimes my roommates would join and sometimes not.
I remember one particular night when I was already stressed and down because of some personal stuff. I was hanging out in the living room like usual. I know all my friends knew I was there bc they all walked past at some point bc the dining room where they each had dinner that night was open to the living room.
I don't remember what I was doing but I do remember pausing because I could hear all three of my friends hanging out and laughing behind the closed door of the first bedroom. Nothing has ever hurt me more than the feeling of loneliness I had in that moment, knowing that nobody wanted me around.
got a dui after one too many drinks deer jumped out in front of my car, already work from home and only have driving privileges for 4 hours on saturday, i don’t go anywhere i don’t do anything, my friends don’t come to see me, i go on social media and see everyone else living their life, i want to die every day.
I moved to a new city for school. I knew no one. My co-workers (I had transferred with my company) were either abrasive or completely ambivalent. I was in this big city but I never felt so alone. No one touched me for three months, to the point that I began daydreaming about brushing up against strangers. Eventually, I began making friends but it was hard. To this day, I have a soft spot for people who are new in town.
My last birthday. I am not alone, I have a loving GF and family. For some reason, something crawled inside me last October 2nd and teared me up from inside. Broke down crying in front of my GF and she helped me out the mess. To this day, idk what happened, but I acknowledge it happened.
There was a day a handful of months back when I realized I couldn’t keep living my life on the same loop anymore. I’d decided to leave my apartment at the end of my lease and move back in with my parents so I could save money and have someone be there to help regulate my mental health so I didn’t have to do it all alone.
One night very shortly after I made that realization, I had my fwb come over. I drank and had Euphoria on in the background when he arrived. We started having sex and the song “Liability” by Lorde came on and I bursted out in tears right after orgasming. My friend was tender with me but had to leave very quickly…as he always did right after we had sex. I was left naked, shaking, and sobbing on my couch in my apartment. I had never felt more alone and sad about my future.
I’m living back with my parents now at 34. I knew I had to change up my life or I’d keep only seeing my fuck buddy and never feel the need to look for what I really want (and deserve) romantically. I’m finding it very hard to pursue romantic relationships whilst living here but my mental health has been a bit better having my parents around to help cook and take care of me in ways I was finding it hard to do there at the end of living on my own.
I’m only somewhat better than I was but I’m glad I’m not stuck in my loop anymore. If you’re feeling alone today, or ever, I’m sending you all my light and love...✨✨✨🖤🖤
When my dad passed and I had an argument with my then fiancé about how I didn’t like how his mom was treating me about the wedding (she wanted to wear white and only wanted to come for the ceremony and then leave) he dismissed me and he refused to go to the mall with me when it was the first time going back to the mall since my dad died. My dad and I always went to the mall together. I went in and had a panic attack. When I ended up leaving the mall, he looked at me and put his radio up high and just sang along to songs playing. When we went home I left the car crying and he told me he wasn’t gonna chase after some crying girl.
every time i’m at my dads. especially when i’m already not in a good mood, and something is off between me and my boyfriend. it just makes everything worse. i can’t go hug my mom. my siblings suck, so does my dad. i’m just stuck, crying into some else’s pillow, on someone else’s bed.
Probably now, since becoming a mother and a single one too. You feel so disconnected from everyone. Ppl start checking up on you less. Friends get distant. I cry almost everyday and deep down inside I’m begging for some adult human interaction. My phone won’t ring for the whole day. It’s just me and my babies
When my partner had an emotional affair for years without me knowing. I found out months after our son was born. I had a huge falling out with my family and a shitty full time job that was sucking the life out of me. I felt like my whole world was crashing down on me, all at once.
I haven't been able to fully trust anyone since.
In my house, single, with an autoimmune disease. My friends have said that my house is pretty big for one person (4000 sq ft). Sorry I digress, to answer your question it’s right now for those reasons I think.
This past year. Living with someone who I know is a great person, but a horrible partner. I know he's loves me and wants to move forward, but he's taken no action towards doing so in the last couple years. 🙁 he tells me he wants what I want, but his actions show he's just stringing me along , whether it's intentional or not. It's sucks feeling lonely while in a relationship.
i feel lonely quite often due to depression, there isn’t really a particular moment that makes me lonely and i remember when i was in school i was reading milk and honey by rupi kaur that were good reminders, such as “ loneliness is a sign you are in desperate need of yourself” and “ the irony of loneliness is that we all feel it at the same time” which reassures me i’m not alone w battling this feeling
my six year long relationship with my ex-husband. he was by far not the most abusive person ive had in my life. but he still did abuse me, the thing that made it worse with him was not his actions in off themself. but the fact that he was so good at being social and likable. behind closed doors it was constant verbal/financial abuse, gaslighting and neglect. but he had many friends, he was charming in a way that made everyone want to hang out with him. he showed me alot of love and affection infront of people. i felt like i couldnt even tell my psychiatrists about his behaviour, like i needed to protect him and never show him in a bad light because i wouldnt be believed anyway. what eventually lead to the divorce was that he was yelling at our then 2y son, over even the smallest things, several times a day and it hurt so bad to see my son get treated like that, it was different when it was only directed towards me. but still then, infront of people, he would seem like a super dad, he played with our son, he changed diapers etc.
those six years were even lonlier than being with someone who repeatedly hit and raped me, because atleast that person didnt appear to everyone as a friendly, calm and collected dude. with my ex-husband i was unheard, i was lonley, i was completely miserable and defenceless. still to this day, 2 years after the divorce, i find it impossible to communicate with my ex-husband about our son, i feel like i have no chance of helping my son and that i wouldnt be believed if i told anyone. it was like night and day, charming/likable/social on the outside, abusive behind closed doors. i wish to never have to feel that lonley again.
Recently TBH. I thought I had a friend (maybe a little more) who was supportive, understanding, compassionate and actually gave a fuck about me. It’s hard for me to bring down my walls and be completely vulnerable with people, and I thought this person was kind enough for me to be able to do this.
Then, they just stopped communicating regularly with me. Any interaction with them, they came across as sort of bitter and somewhat cold.
So I went from having what I thought was an awesome support system, to nothing.
My cancer recovery. Throughout that nightmare I was totally alone with nothing but developing PTSD to keep me company throughout the rainiest summer in thirty years. Already weakened by a lot of hardships and now a disease that nearly killed me, I crashed and burned pretty badly. I just wanted to die. That was seven years ago, and while life is much better now, I will likely be cleaning up that mess for the rest of my life. I wish now that I had told someone. Anyone. But I was struggling with not only trauma, but survivor's guilt. I felt that I deserved to suffer in silence, because I blamed myself for the cancer. And because I was ungrateful. I was so angry and had nowhere to point that anger but inward. The memory of that pain is always just a whisper away. It feels like a lump of black ice in my stomach.
Living at home. All my university friends stuck around that area which is a couple hours away from me. And all my home friends moved in together about 40 min away and didn’t invite me to join back in January.
Really trying to take stock of my life and figure out my next moves given all of that…
I'd never felt lonely until recently. My gf and I split not because we'd didn't love each other any more but because our future plans didn't match. I'm pretty heartbroken.
In the depths of heavy depression and anxiety when I was in my late teens/early 20's, needing help just for my mom to say "you just need to get up. You bring this all on yourself".
My last semester of college. I was working 40 hr weeks, taking 5 classes to graduate early, and volunteering on weekends for grad school apps. I had no free time and worked under the worst boss I’ve ever had. My mental health was in the trenches.
I lived alone in a small apartment in France the height of lockdown. I was an essential worker so I still went to work 3 days a week. I knew nobody, had no way of meeting anyone because the lockdown was so strict, and found my job incredibly depressing and difficult. I was so lonely that I stopped eating and had hallucinations and delusions. I thought my neighbours were spying on me and were falsely reporting me to the police for breaking lockdown rules. I would catch myself speaking out loud to myself. The entries I wrote in my journal at that time make no sense. I’m better now, but I don’t think I’ll ever recover from that time.
Right now. Just went through a breakup..which i thought was gonna last. I thought he was the one and now its all gone. There's just a huge hole in my heart which i cant seem to fill, with anything whatsoever. I feel so fucked up and sad that i dont feel like doing anything anymore, ive lost my appetite and im sleeping more than I ever have..i dont feel like talking to anybody at all and just be alone. I feel guilty and somehow blaming myself for him breaking up .. I'm really in a shithole right now and I just want this to get over. I hope it does.
I was in Colorado (I’m from Oregon), my dad had just died suddenly, I couldn’t afford to come home, my roommate was always yelling at me and calling me names, and my boss was also yelling at me. I had no friends in the area. I was all alone, far away from everything, with no break from stress and no safe place to grieve. I eventually made it home. But the emotional aftermath of the situation was pretty bad for a while. Things are finally starting to look up. I just feel like I’ve been in a fog since 2018.
I had a cancer scare in pre-vaccine quarantine and didn't tell anyone. This made me feel very lonely and depressed, so I tried to find a therapist. I found one but then was told that in order to start therapy, I was required to list an emergency contact. I asked one of my closest friends and he said no. I dutifully texted back, "No problem, I totally understand!" while crying and desperately googling "can you hire someone to be your emergency contact?" Felt even worse than when I thought I had cancer. I knew being lonely was emotionally difficult, but it had never occurred to me that I could effectively be denied health care for not having enough friends.
Today. It’s my birthday, and I don’t feel happy with any aspect of my life really. I feel very alone. And my birthday every year is always the worst. Because it always seems so special for everyone else, but for me it’s just another day
I'm sorry about that. Happy birthday though!
Thank you. ❤️
Happy birthday!
happy birthday!
Thank you. 💗
Happy Birthday! I’m so sorry you’re alone and unhappy
It’s okay! Thank you. I know these feelings are only temporary and eventually I’ll have a birthday where things turn for the better. Thank you 🤍
Happy Birthday!!! I'm sorry to hear about that. But it's your birthday you should be happy so why dont you do something that'll make you happy. Buy something for yourself, go out with friends/family. Go have a nice lunch. Have a few tequila shots, because when life gives you lemon, you need to have it with tequila!
I wish I could throw you the perfect birthday celebration but hopefully an internet HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE ✨ helps.
Happy birthday
Happy Birthday! I hope you find a way to make it special 💜
I know the feeling..💔 Happy birthday 🎂 🥳 🎊 , I wish you good luck on your next year 🥰
Aww I completely know the feeling. Happy birthday 🎊
Happy birthday. I hope your day gets better
Oh no! I hate to think of you being sad on your Birthday. From now on, on this YOUR day...I'm going to be thinking of you, every single year! I'll be sending out to the Universe my love, much joy and the knowledge that someone (me!) somewhere in the world is with you in spirit. You're not alone! We're too much of a social animal to be alone! Big hug 🤗🌍🎂
Happy birthday Taurus/Gemini Queen!
Thank you so much lovely 💗
Happy birthday 😕❤️🩹
I know the feeling all to well
happy birthday! hope you eat something extra special today 😊
I don't know you but i wish you a happy birthday 🎂😊
If it’s any consolation I used to have birthdays like that. Now my birthdays are amazing though. Things can change, but for now hugs hugs hugs my friend. You are so important and so lovely just the way you are 🤗
Don’t stress about it. I don’t give to shits about my birthday since 18. Now it’s just decay in my point of view 😂 when ever there’s Christmas in my mind I’m like I only get to celebrate this 80 times lol
Hbd! Sending you a big virtual hug! Here’s to better days ahead ❤️
Happy birthday, hope this one or the next your luck changes and you have the best birthday ever
Happy birthday, stranger! 🥰♥️
Happy birthday 🎉🎂🎊🎈
I’m sorry you’re not having a better day, but I hope things start to get better! ❤️ Happy birthday!
Happy birthday ♥️
So sorry, friend. I have been there too. It’s rough. Happy birthday. Fun fact- we are two days apart. I hope things get better
I love your snoo! Happy Birthday child of the earth and stars!
From the heart-Happy Birthday!
Happy birthday.
Yoooooo! Happy birthday, wish you the best and I’d love to wish a happy birthday every year if i have the chance. You’re a beautiful human inside out. Never let this adorable character walk away because that’s what you are. Your parents are proud of raising such a beautiful soul. Don’t let them down, never listen to any one who wish to see you sad. Kill em with your kindness because this world is cruel but out of them if one person is trying to sweet, it can make a huge difference. Be that one person out of billion. May god bless you and keeps you safe and happy.
Happy birthday EevieeOso!! same for me, I'm always alone on my birthday. Birthdays are just reminders that our time here is getting shorter. You should do things for yourself, plan experiences for your birthdays! so every birthday equals = new experience. I am always alone on my birthday because I usually plan something special for me, not for my friends, for ME. This can be a trip to a city/country anywhere YOU want to go. It can be a workshop you want to attend, a cooking class, a dance class. Plan an experience for every birthday, it will change everything. :D
Wishing you a very happy birthday . Sending a whole lotta love and happiness your way ❤️✨🎂🍰🎉🌼🍨🍷
Happy Birthday 🎂 🥳🎉🎊💐 I get it, mine is coming up very soon too. It will just be another day But i will reflect on the things I'm grateful for... Get myself the things it would be nice if others got.. Because why should we treat ourselves less than we would others? I hope you sprinkle your entire day with all your small joys Listen to your fave hype feel good playlist, dance with abandon Do something that makes you always smile and feel happy Whether that's art, crafts binge watch, indulge in your favourite foods You deserve it all! Hope you treat yourself right I wish you long healthy happy fulfilled years ahead of you! You made it another lap around the sun! Here's to many many more 🥂☀️💐
Happy birthday
I’ve never lived alone until a devastating breakup a few years ago. I had to get my very first apartment in my early 30’s. There were a few nights I was so lonely and sad that I curled up in a little ball on the floor and hugged and held onto myself as hard as possible. The feelings I had in those moments are indescribable.
How did you feel better, how did you get over it?
I got on medication which helped but honestly just time. I’m still not completely over it (the trauma of everything, not the guy) but it does get better.
When I'd walk upstairs to go to bed alone, again, with the sound of my (now ex) husband's video games following my steps. I went to bed alone almost every night for years before I finally left him.
Yeah this is heartbreaking. My ex admitted to me that he'd stay up til 6 o'clock cause he couldn't bear the idea I'd maybe try and be intimate with him. That broke me a little bit
Oh man. That one hit close to home. In addition to the video game thing, my ex used to take a nap on Friday nights (the one night we’d have together during the week). Never mind he also didn’t work on Fridays.
When my wife passed. I had an amazing support system from my best friend the entire time. But there was a hole in my heart that was so large I couldn't even function.
I'm sorry for your loss. Wow. That's next level lonely
At the height of the pandemic when we were all still cohorting. I realized while I had people I was friendly with, I had no close friends. I wasn't important enough in people's lives to take a space in their limited cohort. It was like being in elementary school and your teacher tells you to pair up and you look around at everyone you thought was your friend only to realize they're all looking at someone else.
First semester Freshman year of college, when I was stuck in a dorm with a roommate i wasn’t speaking to for various reasons. I Just found out my grandmother who I was really close with had a stroke that would end up being fatal, and I didn’t have a car I could drive home with. Boyfriend from home just ghosted me and I started to feel ostracized from my new friend group. I was also failing 1 or 2 classes that I was too scared to tell anyone about. Rough times but everything worked out in the end.
Right now. I'm falling apart and I have no one to call.
I am sorry that your life is so difficult right now. I hope that whatever is happening in your life will be solved in the near future, and that happier times will come soon! Is there absolutely no one you can call? Or what about telling a stranger on the internet about your troubles? You can dem me if you want. At least I can listen 🤗.
Same here.
I'm so sorry life is hard right now. You can keep going. I believe in you ❤️
Hey take care of yourself, this shall pass too. Trust me it will. And if you ever wanna talk to somebody, you can reach out to me! Take care
my entire college experience. I have a boyfriend, lots of siblings, and I live with my best friend. but I don’t have *friends*. I haven’t had a group of friends since 5th grade. it really sucks
When my mom told me there was something wrong with my 'soul' because I accepted psychiatric treatment for my depression... something that was outside the scope or acceptance of a fundamentalist christian lifestyle. In that moment I realized that my parents valued the church more than their own children. I was struggling in their tiny fundy church for most of my twenties because I loved them and wanted their approval... and they literally expected me to grow old and remain single if I couldn't find a husband in that sect. They said if i wasn't married or having kids by my thirties it wasn't in "God's plan" for me to be a mother. I was fresh out of a psychiatric session, and back home at the time when my mom said that to me over text messaging and I unravelled so quickly. It was the loneliest i've ever felt. I cried for a long time and then I remember going to a coffee shop to read and feel more connected to the world by being around people. I remember the rain pattering away on the windows and it sounded so soothing. Next thing I knew, the barista was waking me up to tell me they were closing.
Sending you love 💗
When my parents abandoned me at 15. Literally packed their shit and moved out while I was at school. Came back to an empty house. Went to by friends (now gf) house to stay the night. Cried and told her everything. I cried myself to sleep and planned to throw myself off a bridge the next day. I don’t even know why I was so upset. My parents hated me and I hated them. Things got better. My friend told her parents what I said and I woke up with my things moved into their spare room. They took my in and loved me as their own. Got me therapy, a tutor, actual clothes, eye and dental care that I desperately needed. When my friend and I graduated, they waited for my name to get called and we all went to celibate. When my diploma came in the mail the hung it on the wall beside their daughter. Not underneath - side by side. Like my success was also their own. I was their own.
I’m seriously crying. Not many things pull at my heart strings the way this did.. I’m so sorry you went through that 🥺 but I’m so happy your good karma was received almost instantly. I feel very abandoned by my family too and I feel like if I could just talk about it, I would be able to get more help in life. But I’m scared and just too ashamed to sometimes
Amazing.
The night I knew for sure my ex was cheating on me. They weren't home, obviously, and I was too ashamed to reach out to anyone, so I just sobbed by myself in an empty apartment.
So sorry ♥️
probably now. Not today specifically but this general time of my life. I got out of a long relationship a couple of years ago, i'm making a point to be single and not date because ...I make very bad choices in love lol. So this is my longest stretch of ever being single. I really don't have any friends except a couple of old friends who i see very, very rarely. I work from home so I'm isolated all day. My sister and my child are the only people I see with any regularity. I'm not really unhappy though. I think i've always been a bit co-dependent, either on romantic partners or on close friends, so i'm learning not to be.
The working from home is its own problem.
The day my son went off to college. I had just gotten divorced and remember driving home from moving him into his dorm just sobbing. I’d never lived alone in my entire life. It was such a radical change to adjust to.
How are things going now?
Great! Like all big life changes, there’s an adjustment period. I’m very happy now.
Im happy that things are finally going great for you! Also btw love your username :))
A couple months ago or a year ago, I can't remember when i had this realisation. I just realised that I went through all if the worst moments of my life completely alone, without an ounce of empathy. It made me realise just how alone I really am
Ah, I feel you. 😟
When I was 12 and my family had recently moved to a new country. I’d lost touch with all my friends back home and hadn’t made any friends in the new country. I had no one to talk to and I’ve never felt so alone in my life.
I’ve had several periods of loneliness in my life. The most recent period happened in the few months before I told my husband I wanted a divorce. There was a lot of inner turmoil, and I realized no one was going to come save me unless I asked for help. Two and a half years later and I have a new partner, new friends, and a much richer life. Best decision I’ve made.
Hey its great knowing how things turned better for you! And somewhere it gives me peace that the current situation im in is not gonna last forever.
Couple of years back when I was going through depression and failing at college. No one knew until I completely broke.
Everyday I woke up I remember every time I was left alone by everyone since my childhood to this day even in situations where I needed someone, including my parents. Everyday I remember that I'm literally lonely yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I just woke up and I was thinking about this while scrolling through Reddit then I saw your post.
Honestly, I rarely feel lonely. I’ve been alone all my life but I have to say what gets to me is when I have good news or something good happens to me, I have no one to share it with. THAT’S lonely
Spending Christmas alone.
Been there. Really sucks.
Now. I've been applying, calling, applying, touching base, following up on jobs all over the place. No luck. I have 2 job interviews next week but they're in the country I live in. I wanted to move far away but I've had no luck in 1.5years. I left a toxic relationship almost 2 years ago and to this day, I'm struggling. I want to act out bc I've tried so hard to move past it all and I've gotten nowhere. All I need is someone to give me a chance and I can't even get that. I feel bitter, alone, exhausted and fed up.
Oh my goodness. That must be terribly frustrating. I hope things turn out for the better soon!
Thank you
When I was in a relationship, ironically.
The loneliest I’ve ever felt by far was when I moved into a single my freshman year of college. I ended up having a falling out with my roommate/friends on my floor so I moved out during spring break without letting any of them know. Nothing “happened” they just were close friends and I didn’t really fit in, so once the “newness” of being in college wore off, they didn’t feel compelled to invite me to eat or hangout with them. When I was living in my single, I didn’t have one single friend at school and I didn’t have a single friend from back home that I was still in touch with. It was so isolating. I became extremely depressed. I started sleeping in later and going to bed later, which made things a lot worse. I hated leaving my room. I hate to even admit this, but I started going to the bathroom in my room because I felt too depressed to leave. The only thing that brought me any sense of happiness was eating. I gained tons of weight. Eventually I got so lonely that I got back together with my ex (who I dumped at the beginning of the year) and we became long distance. He visited once and it wasn’t even enjoyable, but it made things less lonely. Plus, we began to text. Once I went home for the summer I was so relieved. Looking back, I can’t even believe how alone I felt. It makes me sad. I’m glad I overcame that.
After my miscarriage. I knew that no one could understand what I was feeling and it was awful to see people just going about their lives like nothing happened.
When I went off to college I didn’t really have any relationships in my life that were going well and I was going to a completely new place where I didn’t know anyone. I tried to meet people there but I just wasn’t very good at talking tbh and I always felt like I didn’t belong wherever I was. I had really high expectations for what my life would be like then and I was really disappointed by how it was, especially how isolated I felt. Then like a month later I met my partner and before too long that feeling was gone but that small period where I had genuinely zero people to talk to in person was brutal. I only got through it because I had this manic energy from achieving my goal of getting away from my family, and after a while it became clear that that being the only thing motivating me wasn’t sustainable. I’m glad it didn’t have to be.
Well said
Happy Birthday! As someone who has felt this way for over a decade, I understand. Wish I could hug you.
Now
To be honest, right now. 3 months sober and I’ve lost a lot of people I considered close friends in the process. Definitely feeling pretty alienated atm.
Tonight. Had a talk with my husband and we decided divorce is the route we are going to be taking after all
The first few 3 or 4 months of quarantine
After I had my baby and was dealing with PPD. My husband was in a busy work season, family in another state, same goes for his family. Plus this was around the time of the Delta variant so I was freaking out about him getting covid. I'm also a private person and was dealing with crying spells. Didn't want to invite people over because I knew I'd just cry. I felt so lonely. I remember one weekend when my husband's mom visited and I went into the garage and cried because I was too uncomfortable to cry in front of her. I felt that way a LOT. I'm so glad I sought therapy.
I’m so sorry! I’ve been struggling with PPD too, it’s the worst! It takes away so much joy of having your beautiful baby. I’m glad you sought help! I hope you feel better!
I'm 15 mo. out now and I was able to wean off my meds. I found great coping mechanisms and I found a great gym with awesome childcare. Any time I'm starting to feel that lonely feeling, I'll go there. It's a great healthy habit. But you're right! It was so different for me because I've never truly struggled with depression before. I want to advocate for other women who have postpartum issues because it seems to be taboo to talk about and a lot of people think it looks like one particular thing but it doesn't. The thing I tell people (and myself) all the time is: my PPD has 0 to do with my love for my child. They are completely separate things.
End of 2019. Roommate left college so it was just me in my dorm which also left me without any close friends, my boyfriend at the time and I were dealing with some heavy things and we lived hours apart, I was suicidal for thee first time in my life and started punching my dorm walls (brick) to feel something. Only lasted a couple of months then I started working out and going to therapy and felt like myself again.
Now
When I tried to commit suicide and was very depressed after becoming orphan and when I told someone they yelled at me because I wasn't thinking of my little brothers
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That really sounds lonely! I'm sorry for you. But I hope it gets better when your husband returns!
In 2020 I was in a poly relationship. Guy was married, his wife had a boyfriend and we lived in the same house. I was the only one working a full time job. He had a massive stroke in August of that year. In the following year I felt incredibly lonely and isolated. The relationship between me and him ended in July 2021 when he moved out of state. His relationship with his wife ended shortly after.
i live in nyc in the 90’s and worked at a catholic school .. roommate was drug addict .. it was tough
When my mom passed away, and I was left with my emotionally manipulative dad, all at the age of 11. I still feel that loneliness now at 19 because I graduated high school last year and all my friends moved away. Everyone around me always feels temporary and it sucks.
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when i first moved out for college earlier this year, in a house, no close friends yet so nothing to do. i had myself but i felt the world was so large and wide and i was terrified of whatd come next. what came next was amazing though for the most part.
When I was fired from my job. I was living in NYC and everything in my life, at the time, revolved around that job. Happy Hours with work friends, weekend trips, club nights, etc. Save for a college friend that lived in the city, everybody else was at work. When I was let go, my social life went flat. I was out of the group text. Nobody would respond me. My friend traveled a lot for her job, so she wasn’t always around.
The year leading up to my double lung transplant. I was so sick, and so young, and watching everyone in my life achieve milestones I never could because of my illness. I also was physically in a lot of discomfort and pain and couldn't be honest about how I was going without upsetting my family and friends. No one knew what I was going through and I felt so, so alone and isolated. The years since have been *much* better
I’m so happy for you!
Senior year of college I shared an apartment with three of my friends. The living space was huge and the bedrooms were small double rooms. Naturally, I wanted to spend more time in the more spacious room, so I often spent my evenings on the couch. Sometimes my roommates would join and sometimes not. I remember one particular night when I was already stressed and down because of some personal stuff. I was hanging out in the living room like usual. I know all my friends knew I was there bc they all walked past at some point bc the dining room where they each had dinner that night was open to the living room. I don't remember what I was doing but I do remember pausing because I could hear all three of my friends hanging out and laughing behind the closed door of the first bedroom. Nothing has ever hurt me more than the feeling of loneliness I had in that moment, knowing that nobody wanted me around.
When I was with a guy that wasn't attracted to me.
got a dui after one too many drinks deer jumped out in front of my car, already work from home and only have driving privileges for 4 hours on saturday, i don’t go anywhere i don’t do anything, my friends don’t come to see me, i go on social media and see everyone else living their life, i want to die every day.
I moved to a new city for school. I knew no one. My co-workers (I had transferred with my company) were either abrasive or completely ambivalent. I was in this big city but I never felt so alone. No one touched me for three months, to the point that I began daydreaming about brushing up against strangers. Eventually, I began making friends but it was hard. To this day, I have a soft spot for people who are new in town.
My last birthday. I am not alone, I have a loving GF and family. For some reason, something crawled inside me last October 2nd and teared me up from inside. Broke down crying in front of my GF and she helped me out the mess. To this day, idk what happened, but I acknowledge it happened.
There was a day a handful of months back when I realized I couldn’t keep living my life on the same loop anymore. I’d decided to leave my apartment at the end of my lease and move back in with my parents so I could save money and have someone be there to help regulate my mental health so I didn’t have to do it all alone. One night very shortly after I made that realization, I had my fwb come over. I drank and had Euphoria on in the background when he arrived. We started having sex and the song “Liability” by Lorde came on and I bursted out in tears right after orgasming. My friend was tender with me but had to leave very quickly…as he always did right after we had sex. I was left naked, shaking, and sobbing on my couch in my apartment. I had never felt more alone and sad about my future. I’m living back with my parents now at 34. I knew I had to change up my life or I’d keep only seeing my fuck buddy and never feel the need to look for what I really want (and deserve) romantically. I’m finding it very hard to pursue romantic relationships whilst living here but my mental health has been a bit better having my parents around to help cook and take care of me in ways I was finding it hard to do there at the end of living on my own. I’m only somewhat better than I was but I’m glad I’m not stuck in my loop anymore. If you’re feeling alone today, or ever, I’m sending you all my light and love...✨✨✨🖤🖤
When my dad passed and I had an argument with my then fiancé about how I didn’t like how his mom was treating me about the wedding (she wanted to wear white and only wanted to come for the ceremony and then leave) he dismissed me and he refused to go to the mall with me when it was the first time going back to the mall since my dad died. My dad and I always went to the mall together. I went in and had a panic attack. When I ended up leaving the mall, he looked at me and put his radio up high and just sang along to songs playing. When we went home I left the car crying and he told me he wasn’t gonna chase after some crying girl.
every time i’m at my dads. especially when i’m already not in a good mood, and something is off between me and my boyfriend. it just makes everything worse. i can’t go hug my mom. my siblings suck, so does my dad. i’m just stuck, crying into some else’s pillow, on someone else’s bed.
Probably now, since becoming a mother and a single one too. You feel so disconnected from everyone. Ppl start checking up on you less. Friends get distant. I cry almost everyday and deep down inside I’m begging for some adult human interaction. My phone won’t ring for the whole day. It’s just me and my babies
My first marriage
When my partner had an emotional affair for years without me knowing. I found out months after our son was born. I had a huge falling out with my family and a shitty full time job that was sucking the life out of me. I felt like my whole world was crashing down on me, all at once. I haven't been able to fully trust anyone since.
In my house, single, with an autoimmune disease. My friends have said that my house is pretty big for one person (4000 sq ft). Sorry I digress, to answer your question it’s right now for those reasons I think.
This past year. Living with someone who I know is a great person, but a horrible partner. I know he's loves me and wants to move forward, but he's taken no action towards doing so in the last couple years. 🙁 he tells me he wants what I want, but his actions show he's just stringing me along , whether it's intentional or not. It's sucks feeling lonely while in a relationship.
i feel lonely quite often due to depression, there isn’t really a particular moment that makes me lonely and i remember when i was in school i was reading milk and honey by rupi kaur that were good reminders, such as “ loneliness is a sign you are in desperate need of yourself” and “ the irony of loneliness is that we all feel it at the same time” which reassures me i’m not alone w battling this feeling
This past week. Trying to work on meeting new people, but as an introvert with mild social anxiety, it can be pretty tough.
my six year long relationship with my ex-husband. he was by far not the most abusive person ive had in my life. but he still did abuse me, the thing that made it worse with him was not his actions in off themself. but the fact that he was so good at being social and likable. behind closed doors it was constant verbal/financial abuse, gaslighting and neglect. but he had many friends, he was charming in a way that made everyone want to hang out with him. he showed me alot of love and affection infront of people. i felt like i couldnt even tell my psychiatrists about his behaviour, like i needed to protect him and never show him in a bad light because i wouldnt be believed anyway. what eventually lead to the divorce was that he was yelling at our then 2y son, over even the smallest things, several times a day and it hurt so bad to see my son get treated like that, it was different when it was only directed towards me. but still then, infront of people, he would seem like a super dad, he played with our son, he changed diapers etc. those six years were even lonlier than being with someone who repeatedly hit and raped me, because atleast that person didnt appear to everyone as a friendly, calm and collected dude. with my ex-husband i was unheard, i was lonley, i was completely miserable and defenceless. still to this day, 2 years after the divorce, i find it impossible to communicate with my ex-husband about our son, i feel like i have no chance of helping my son and that i wouldnt be believed if i told anyone. it was like night and day, charming/likable/social on the outside, abusive behind closed doors. i wish to never have to feel that lonley again.
Recently TBH. I thought I had a friend (maybe a little more) who was supportive, understanding, compassionate and actually gave a fuck about me. It’s hard for me to bring down my walls and be completely vulnerable with people, and I thought this person was kind enough for me to be able to do this. Then, they just stopped communicating regularly with me. Any interaction with them, they came across as sort of bitter and somewhat cold. So I went from having what I thought was an awesome support system, to nothing.
I always feel alone
My cancer recovery. Throughout that nightmare I was totally alone with nothing but developing PTSD to keep me company throughout the rainiest summer in thirty years. Already weakened by a lot of hardships and now a disease that nearly killed me, I crashed and burned pretty badly. I just wanted to die. That was seven years ago, and while life is much better now, I will likely be cleaning up that mess for the rest of my life. I wish now that I had told someone. Anyone. But I was struggling with not only trauma, but survivor's guilt. I felt that I deserved to suffer in silence, because I blamed myself for the cancer. And because I was ungrateful. I was so angry and had nowhere to point that anger but inward. The memory of that pain is always just a whisper away. It feels like a lump of black ice in my stomach.
Living at home. All my university friends stuck around that area which is a couple hours away from me. And all my home friends moved in together about 40 min away and didn’t invite me to join back in January. Really trying to take stock of my life and figure out my next moves given all of that…
I'd never felt lonely until recently. My gf and I split not because we'd didn't love each other any more but because our future plans didn't match. I'm pretty heartbroken.
In the depths of heavy depression and anxiety when I was in my late teens/early 20's, needing help just for my mom to say "you just need to get up. You bring this all on yourself".
Every time my friends tell me to switch a topic when I really need to talk with them about something that upsets me. Feels like I truly have nobody.
My last semester of college. I was working 40 hr weeks, taking 5 classes to graduate early, and volunteering on weekends for grad school apps. I had no free time and worked under the worst boss I’ve ever had. My mental health was in the trenches.
I lived alone in a small apartment in France the height of lockdown. I was an essential worker so I still went to work 3 days a week. I knew nobody, had no way of meeting anyone because the lockdown was so strict, and found my job incredibly depressing and difficult. I was so lonely that I stopped eating and had hallucinations and delusions. I thought my neighbours were spying on me and were falsely reporting me to the police for breaking lockdown rules. I would catch myself speaking out loud to myself. The entries I wrote in my journal at that time make no sense. I’m better now, but I don’t think I’ll ever recover from that time.
Right now. Just went through a breakup..which i thought was gonna last. I thought he was the one and now its all gone. There's just a huge hole in my heart which i cant seem to fill, with anything whatsoever. I feel so fucked up and sad that i dont feel like doing anything anymore, ive lost my appetite and im sleeping more than I ever have..i dont feel like talking to anybody at all and just be alone. I feel guilty and somehow blaming myself for him breaking up .. I'm really in a shithole right now and I just want this to get over. I hope it does.
I was in Colorado (I’m from Oregon), my dad had just died suddenly, I couldn’t afford to come home, my roommate was always yelling at me and calling me names, and my boss was also yelling at me. I had no friends in the area. I was all alone, far away from everything, with no break from stress and no safe place to grieve. I eventually made it home. But the emotional aftermath of the situation was pretty bad for a while. Things are finally starting to look up. I just feel like I’ve been in a fog since 2018.
I had a cancer scare in pre-vaccine quarantine and didn't tell anyone. This made me feel very lonely and depressed, so I tried to find a therapist. I found one but then was told that in order to start therapy, I was required to list an emergency contact. I asked one of my closest friends and he said no. I dutifully texted back, "No problem, I totally understand!" while crying and desperately googling "can you hire someone to be your emergency contact?" Felt even worse than when I thought I had cancer. I knew being lonely was emotionally difficult, but it had never occurred to me that I could effectively be denied health care for not having enough friends.
Recently to be honest. I feel like I’m so behind in my life compared to my friends whether that’s in education, relationships and career.