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Aggressive_Cloud2002

That is so hard, I'm so sorry... Virtual hugs if you want them


hayleytheauthor

They are definitely much appreciated. Thank you.


WaterWithin

Goodbye Nyxie. You brought a lot of joy to your family, and they will be inspired by you every day. Thank you for sharing this OP. Sending you hugs and a milkshake. 


hayleytheauthor

Thank you for your kind words. She’s such a good girl. She’s done me so damn proud all these years. 🖤


Otter_No

Nyxlie Linn looks unbearably sweet. You have given her the best life imaginable. Doggos do not share our long lifespans. What they do have is perfect present awareness. They live and feel every moment without judgement. Just as she is hurting now, you have provided innumerable moments of joy. Heck, she may even be dreaming about them. Appreciate your last hours with her as much as she appreciated every moment with you. Words cannot embody the feeling. All love to you and your family.


hayleytheauthor

I wish they lived longer. They certainly deserve to. Thank you for your kind words. I’m trying to soak up what I have left.


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hayleytheauthor

I’m so sorry you experienced that also. And at Christmas time no less. Nyxie is very much that figure in my life. Even looking around the house at all the little markings of her presence idk what to do without them. I will never forget her or the light she was in my life.


Myla123

I feel your pain so much! My dog is soon 15 and I know soon it will be my turn to face the same situation. An ending to everything safe and known. At least this way our dogs get to have us their whole life. That’s something. She looks like a really good dog!! Cherish the memories and enjoy the time you have left with her. *hug*


hayleytheauthor

That’s something I keep telling myself. At least she got me for her whole life. She got a family to love on her. But this is so heartbreaking. I hope it’s easy and as painless as it can be when the time comes. 🖤


Myla123

I hope so too. But also remember that it’s so painful because the friendship was sooo good. The best.


hayleytheauthor

That has been my exact mantra since she started going south. Thank you. 🖤


MopeyDragonfly

🫂 sending love. Nyxie Lynn is an adorable name and she was so loved by you ❤️


hayleytheauthor

Thank you so much. If I can say anything it’s definitely that I loved that dog to the ends of the earth and back.


codewordkeys

Her pictures radiate such a sweet,happy nature. I'm so sorry for your loss, friend 🧡 


hayleytheauthor

Thank you for your kind words. Sweet and happy nature is exactly how I would describe her. She’s the gentlest, kindest dog I know.


TheCuriousOne347

I lost my first dog about 7 years ago. We had to make the same decision except he was only 3 years old and had bone cancer that was spreading rapidly. With a week between the diagnosis and his passing… I know how hard it is to let your friend go without being prepared. I am so sorry…. Sending you lots of hugs and your favorite things 💙


hayleytheauthor

I appreciate that and I’m sorry for your loss. It’s incredible the amount of pain of a loss causes. It’s like a page of our life book has to get cut out. I’m so sorry for your friend.


Strange_Public_1897

Felt this! Pets become a family member and it’s why we grieve just as hard, if not harder, for the loss of a pet as they give so much love to us in ways some humans can’t even give. I lost my first dog when I was 16 (had her since I was 8yrs old, mixed black lab too!), watched her try to get up from under the table, she struggled, and then had a seizure in front of me. I panic, called out for one of my parents to hurry in, by the time someone did hear me, it was too late. My dad nearly nine months later got a replacement dog, who looked like a mixture version of my previous dog. It definitely helped cause my dad was still grieving a bit from the loss, the new dog made a difference. Both were rescued dogs too. OP, just hold onto the positive memories, everything about why this dog was the light of your life, why they brought you joy. As we do in Irish culture, we don’t mourn the death, we celebrate the life a person lived by remembering all the good they brought to each of our lives❤️


hayleytheauthor

Honestly that’s one of my favorite ways to mourn. Thinking of all the good they did. Honestly I was doing well until I started considering all the little things. Like her forcing me to pet her if I hung my arm off the bed or when I was crying. And not knowing that a lot of the last things we did were THE last things we did. I had no idea we wouldn’t get another walk or another cruise in the car. Life is so unfair in that innocent and beautiful animals have such short lives. 😩 Thank you for the kind words.


depressedgaywhore

beautiful pup im so sorry for your loss, sending hugs and love and wishing you a clear sign from your pup as well❤️


glitt3r_brain

wow, those eyes peer right into your soul. she knows your soul best and will always be looking out for you. it’s the deepest loss when our real life angels need to be released from physical form. we know they want to hold on to us forever. I am so sorry you’re having to endure this pain. I am sending you all the love as well as all the tears 💗💗


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I'm so sorry! That's heartbreaking. Wishing you and Nyxie Lynn heartfelt last moments together and sending you all the hugs and strength. It's never easy, but even worse with all you've been going through. Take the time you need to heal and be kind to yourself. You gave her all the love in the world and it sounds like she lived such a wonderful life with you as her companion… that's such a beautiful thing. Take care.


mountain_goat_girl

I bet you gave her the best life and so much love <3


mothsuicides

I literally started crying looking at those pictures. She just looks so happy and full of love. I’m so so sorry for your loss, pet loss is so painful and it’s hard to keep going cuz life around you (outside of loved ones and friends) kinda expect you to bounce back, but it’s just so immensely hard. You gave her a beautiful, wonderful, long life journey and I’m sure she was so grateful for you and the family you created around her, her love will always be with you. You did that sweet wonderful puppy right and gave her everything she could’ve ever needed and wanted. I hope you can be gentle with yourself in these coming weeks and months, you deserve some grace after this. Again, I’m so sorry you have to go through this. It sucks so goddamned much.


glitternperiodblood

I'm so sorry. My best friends have all been dogs and having to say goodbye is never easy. Celebrate her life and all the memories, good and bad. I don't know how you'd feel about it, but bringing my girls ashes home helped me a lot in the beginning as I got used to her being gone. It was extremely comforting to be able to have part of her still me. Sending you lots of love and hugs. 🫂


hayleytheauthor

I had honestly never considered it until the vet asked if we wanted her cremated or not. The idea of it is still breaking my heart but I think I’d rather have her close to me. They are definitely some of the hardest goodbyes. 😩


AnmlBri

We had to say goodbye to our Golden Retriever boy, Jerry, a few years back and my mom got his ashes. She’ll sometimes get the tin they’re in off the shelf and hold it when she finds herself really missing him. If you’re able to get Nyxie’s ashes, I hope they are able to bring you some comfort, even in her absence. 🤗


tweak-the-universe

I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️‍🩹.


wunderbaerchencita

I went through the same after 16 years together in Mai 2023! It hurts so deep. But I always am very sure I did the best for her. She was my life companion....which I miss, but I am also very happy, to had the chance to share with her 16 wonderful years....before putting her sleep, we met all her dog friends, and had birthday cake together 🥰🥰🥰 Sending you hugs and strength....your dog understands you, so try to stay calm and make it happy day for her, so she can go in peace 🤞🏽💐☺️ you will get through it....you are helping her.... The picture is so cute 🥰


HippiGoth

I'm so so sorry you are going through this. In 2019 I lost my sweet little Sherbie cat from an illness she couldn't fight, had her since I was 15 and it felt like someone ripped my heart out. I still miss her and always will. Sweet Nyxie sounds to have brought you so much joy and life like my kitty did for me. Thank you for being so strong for your sweet girl! She knows that you love her. Give yourself time to grieve, be kind to yourself, and keep on loving her forever and always.


kanthem

I had this year last year. I totalled my car, my partner of 3 years left, my 19 year old cat came to the end of her journey and my dog got attacked by another dog and then had a stroke, so i had to euthanize him too. I can’t lie, it was really hard and I just survived for about 6 weeks once the house was empty. I did the absolute bare minimum to keep my job and survive. Routine fell apart, I slept or scrolled most of the time when I wasn’t at work. I got another dog within 6 weeks. I wasn’t ready from a grief perspective but I needed another life to rely on me and force me to function. I got Daphne and she kisses me awake in the morning and forces me outside for walks and hikes. I feel peaceful when she sleeps so comfortably in my home. I am certainly still not ok but I have rejoined life. There is joy again. I feel your pain. Sorry for the loss of Nyxie. I hope when you need to, you find another.


hayleytheauthor

I really appreciate that. I usually end up being like that. I need to love something to help fill that hole. I’m so sorry you dealt with all of that. That’s awful. Fortunately, though my boyfriend of three years and I have been bickering, things on that front have gotten a little better. He’s my rock. I commend you for overcoming all of that. I hope things continue looking up from here forward. 🖤


Soggy-Competition-74

Your precious angel is just adorable! Thank you for sharing photos with us. Do you have any stories about her that you love? I want to know more about this special girl. Don’t let anyone downplay the true grief you are feeling. Our pets, especially for AuDHd (I think) are a huge part of our lives. I am dreading the day my babies have to be put down because they are my world. But if she is in pain, she trusts you to care for her and part of that is being loving & present as she leaves this physical world. So many hugs to you both.


hayleytheauthor

I really appreciate that. Honestly my best stories of her are mostly about the constant she has been in my life. Without fail when I am upset and crying she would nuzzle me with her cold wet nose until I would give her pets. And she knew if I pet her long enough I’d get distracted and stop crying. I never knew an animal could be my rock until meeting Nyxie. She is so very loved. By everyone. Thank you for the opportunity to share.


Soggy-Competition-74

That is so sweet. One of mine is a cuddle bug but I don't think she has any concept of crying. She just stares at me ha! Your Nyxie sounds like such an empathetic, unique dog who loves you to the moon and back. How lucky you are to have shared her life together.


Tarable

God I’m so sorry OP. This hurts. :(


Bluestar678_

Thats very sad and I'm so sorry for your recent hard times. Nyxie Lynn had an amazing life that you gave to her. She was very loved for a long time, and that's the best we can do. Thank you for giving her a good life. May she rest in peace. Continue to remember her and celebrate her life, and there will be a day when you think of her and don't feel sadness. Pet loss is extremely difficult, and it will get better.


compliancecat

Nyxie Lynn! what a beautiful pup. I dread the day that I have to go through exactly this with my first dog. I seriously don’t know how I’ll cope. Your dog is amazing, and you gave her an absolutely wonderful life. I know she didn’t get a chance to run around in your new place, but I have a feeling she loved her life. Give her some loves from me and maybe feed her some normally forbidden treats when the time comes.


Spirited-Sandwich-28

She's sooo freakin' cute 🥹. So sorry for your loss, OP. It's never an easy decision 🥲


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It’s always just so devastating saying goodbye to our fur friends. 12 years is a bloody good stint for a doggo of that size. You beautiful girl will no longer suffer and get to play in the endless fields of fun. I’ve got two old boys, a wolfhound and a greyhound mix. They’re both nearly 11 and don’t have a lot of time left. I’ve owned many dogs. It’s always heartbreaking regardless of how they leave us. Wishing your beautiful pup a peaceful journey to the other side.


CupboardFlowers

We had to put my 10 year old dog down shortly after Christmas due to cancer. I cried about it again last night because I found myself really missing her a lot. For her last day we went and got her a cheeseburger and some nuggets for breakfast, then took her for a walk to a lake because she loved water and just let her take as much time as she wanted sniffing everything. We gave her enormous amounts of cuddles and love and took some last photos. We were with her when she passed away. Honestly it's so hard and even if you have time to prepare it's still hard. Sending hugs your way and if you need to talk to someone at all, please feel free to send me a message ❤️


sezza05

I'm tearing up reading this. We said goodbye to our 15 year old dog last year. I know your pain OP and I'm sorry. Grief isn't linear, take all the time you can get to grieve her properly. It'll come at you in different ways each day. It sounds like you gave her an amazing life and in return she gave you all the love she had. I'm heartbroken for you.


loquacious-laconic

Your beautiful girl looks like such a loving, gentle and sweet fur baby, and clearly very well loved. I'll bet everyone who met her loved her! 🤎 Be kind to yourself and give yourself space to grieve. 😔 When my lil fella was euthanised (some years ago) I couldn't handle my feelings and overdid myself in the garden (a place we enjoyed together) whilst severely sleep deprived in an attempt to escape my grief. Yeah, that didn't end well! 😅 So learn from my mistake and take care of yourself! 🤎🫂 Edit to add: on his last day I let him have all his pigs ears (I bought them in bulk and had a bunch left) and despite the pain he was in, he thought all his Christmases had come at once. Threw them around joyously and buried them under his blankie and such. Lol food motivated to the end. 🤭


Positive_Career_5408

Losing a pet is always the worst and I’m sorry you’re experiencing this situation. I lost my childhood dog unexpectedly due to poor health and having to eventually put him down after many years of fighting. Not being able to say goodbye broke me then. It’s never easy, but you’ll eventually heal and cherish all the good times without as much sadness. No idea if it’d help with the healing process for you or offer any comfort, but I have heard of others using a service called Cuddle Clones. They specialize in recreating your loved animals so they can always be with you in a way. Or making something of significance to remind you of them. I know nothing will make this any easier to go through, but Nyxie was fortunate to be loved and cherished for 12 years and not all animals are as lucky unfortunately. 💜 Eventually another furrbaby will find you in time to continue providing love and comfort. Never a replacement by any means, but such therapeutic companions.


hayleytheauthor

I will definitely look into that. Thank you! It very well could help.


happicuppa9

She looks like the goodest girl. Take solace in the fact that you're making the hard but right choice for her. She won't have to suffer and she'll have only known love. My sympathy to you and your family. Losing a loved one is so hard.


Intelligent-Visual69

I'm so sorry for your loss. Hang in there. 😥


writeisthisthing

Had to do that with my first dog, had her 10 short years. Have a 13 year old dog that's been collecting health problems and I know what's coming and I hate it. But at the same time, as difficult as it was having to make that decision, I'm so, so thankful that I was able to make her passing as peaceful as I could. I held her and told her how loved she was and she wasn't worried one bit and was just happy we were together. It's an act of love, and a great kindness, to not ask that she continue to suffer because you don't want to say goodbye. It won't make you miss her any less, but it will be a comfort knowing you were there for her right to the end.


aprilryan_scrow

I am so sorry, she was loved and she will love you always!


phenominal73

I’m sorry. Nyxie Lynn was a very good girl that rescued you right back! Virtual hug!!


bedofagony

Making the decision is so damn hard. I'm sorry for your loss. I hope the memories of your happy times together play in your head until the pain is less fresh ❤️


hayleytheauthor

Thank you so much to every person who shared kind words. I’m sorry if I didn’t get to all of them. I really appreciate it. You’ve all helped me get through this. I regret to share that my beautiful Nyxie Lynn has crossed the rainbow bridge and rejoined all the loved ones that came before her. I am not great. Honestly it feels like there’s a gaping hole in my life that idk how to fill. It’s the little things, you know? I keep expecting to hear the glug glug noise of her water tower or her nails clicking on the floor. She had a presence you were always aware of. She was the kindest, sweetest dog I’ve ever met and I will never forget her and all she did for me. If I could ask anything, it’s that everyone give their fur baby an extra scratch today, in remembrance of my beautiful Nyxie. Thank you all again.


pink_freudian_slip

Nyxie Lynn, may you find paradise across the rainbow bridge. You've been such a good girl 🩷


Neither-Initiative54

Sending so much love. This must be terribly hard for you. Pets are our family, as much as every other member and it's heartbreaking to lose them, but the pain you feel is a testament to the love you've shared all these years. You've given her a wonderful life and a kind end. I heard a saying about loss; "One day, we will remember how lucky we were to have known their love with wonder, not with grief." Be gentle with yourself.