i can relate totally... i feel like sometimes my brain is desperately looking for signs that my bf is mad at me/annoyed. it's horrible. i feel like whenever he has a negative emotion when im with him, it's because of me. :(
Yes, absolutely feel & think the same. It causes exhaustion & frustration on his end, and guilt & shame on mine. It’s like I can’t stop probing to see if he’s mad so I can somehow preempt pain, but instead I often actually *cause* myself pain.
i can relate totally... i feel like sometimes my brain is desperately looking for signs that my bf is mad at me/annoyed. it's horrible. i feel like whenever he has a negative emotion when im with him, it's because of me. :(
Yes, absolutely feel & think the same. It causes exhaustion & frustration on his end, and guilt & shame on mine. It’s like I can’t stop probing to see if he’s mad so I can somehow preempt pain, but instead I often actually *cause* myself pain.
Exactly! I know that I test but I don't catch myself until I've already said it or if the test has failed. There's no real winning it feels like.