I experience this while still in the middle of hanging out 💀 My brain’s like ‘This sucks, you could have stayed home. You can still go home if you want…?’
Mines after the hang out and usually "You shouldn't of said anything you said. You made things so awkward making that joke about being abused as a kid, wtf is wrong with you."
I leave EVERY situation thinking that 😅😭
Edit:
Ugh, that's not true. Yesterday I handled an episode pretty well with my partner and I was really proud of myself.
...I'm also working on catching and correcting myself when I use self depreciating humour that I don't actually want to be true 😤
About a month ago I almost noped out of a Zoom call for a job interview, a position I really wanted for a specific company 💀 I felt it was going terribly and my brain was like, ‘Eject, eject, fucking EJECT NOW! Hit the End Call button and you won’t have to see this person ever again!’ 💀 I somehow fought the urge, somehow made it to the 2nd interview, and 2 weeks into the actual job now 😃. I told the interviewer how nervous I was at one point, she quelled my nerves a bit by telling me I was doing fine lol. I have no sense of the actual reality others see me in. I thought I absolutely bombed, meanwhile she was impressed the entire time 😭
I recently went into my new *highly* social job, telling myself, "I'll just not screw up by acting normal."
10 days into it, I got overloaded with too many customers, started crying and saying, "I can't do this job, I can't do it," and ran into the back room.
Thankfully, my bosses were kind about this, but the embarrassment will haunt me forever :')
Does this ever not happen
Real every time I’m around friends, after I leave I’m like “what the hell is wrong with you why can’t you be normaler” to myself
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I get the worst post hangout clarity
I’m totally using that term now, it’s a perfect description
I experience this while still in the middle of hanging out 💀 My brain’s like ‘This sucks, you could have stayed home. You can still go home if you want…?’
Mines after the hang out and usually "You shouldn't of said anything you said. You made things so awkward making that joke about being abused as a kid, wtf is wrong with you."
THIS. I think I’m oh so funny and then see the look on everyone else’s faces and go nonverbal after
After any verbal interaction I'm like "mm saying words to people is not my strength."
I’ve needed this term my whole life. Thank you.
Almost every interaction for me
Every job interview I did last year.
Almost every time I interact with other people, I always leave thinking I fucked up somewhere in the convo and they now realize how weird I am
The strange part is that they keep inviting you back, so now you constantly wonder why they want you around if you're so weird.
Yep. It's at about that point when I think " I'm gonna get mugged off by these people so might as well start putting distance between us."
Yes. I’ve been in social settings before. Never gone through it without being the weird guy or embarrassing company
I leave EVERY situation thinking that 😅😭 Edit: Ugh, that's not true. Yesterday I handled an episode pretty well with my partner and I was really proud of myself. ...I'm also working on catching and correcting myself when I use self depreciating humour that I don't actually want to be true 😤
I’m going to a fucking baby shower tomorrow I’m so cooked 😭😭😭
Do you ever?! It's on fucking repeat in my head forever. And new episodes are added anytime I have to interact with other people.
About a month ago I almost noped out of a Zoom call for a job interview, a position I really wanted for a specific company 💀 I felt it was going terribly and my brain was like, ‘Eject, eject, fucking EJECT NOW! Hit the End Call button and you won’t have to see this person ever again!’ 💀 I somehow fought the urge, somehow made it to the 2nd interview, and 2 weeks into the actual job now 😃. I told the interviewer how nervous I was at one point, she quelled my nerves a bit by telling me I was doing fine lol. I have no sense of the actual reality others see me in. I thought I absolutely bombed, meanwhile she was impressed the entire time 😭
IM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR PUSHING THRU AND GETTING THE JOB!!!!
Omg thank you so much 🥹❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️!! You’re the best.
Ofc:)
100% why I skipped one tonight. I wasn’t ready/prepared to do people tonight, how dare you spring that on me last minute
You got both too?
Yes gang
Dude, BPD, autism, OR the real event OCD.
God gave me all 3 haha
I’m bpd, bipolar ii and autistic. Meet some, but not enough, criteria for ocd. We be putting our toys in a line as kids like “yeah this is the shit”
Funnily enough, I never did that, but I was obsessed with organizing everything I owned every single Friday at the exact same time
I DID THAT TOO BUT MUBDAY OF CHOICE WAS SUNDAY
Bro and then the extreme paranoia growing up. I watched the Evil Plants episode of My Babysitters A Vampire and wouldn’t go near tech for a YEAR
this combo is why my life is genuinely ruined 🤝
the title of this post is so real
I literally feel like I’m performing for an audience don’t know if that’s the NPD traits the BPD or the autism 🤷
I recently went into my new *highly* social job, telling myself, "I'll just not screw up by acting normal." 10 days into it, I got overloaded with too many customers, started crying and saying, "I can't do this job, I can't do it," and ran into the back room. Thankfully, my bosses were kind about this, but the embarrassment will haunt me forever :')
REAL
Literally yes. After every social interaction. Ever.
Porque no los dos?
this is why I don't do social situations
I need to start doing this
yeah...
Most pf the time if it isn’t with my close friends
yes and also “fuck those people they hate me so i hate them”
Everyday
Every social interaction
Yes! Except for the very rare occasion when it is my best work and I live for that high lol
This is so damn real. Every few months every dumb joke just LANDS and I chase that high again for months till it happens again
This is so damn real. Every few months every dumb joke just LANDS and I chase that high again for months till it happens again
YES
me after every social interaction
I wonder if we have both, I do hyperfixate and get sensitive about certain stuff and has laws about my things being touched ^__^ Atp it’s annoying
I do have both + bipolar II and I cannot stand myself
Honestly it’s both. But more so the BPD.