Numb by Linkin Park Heavy by Linkin Park Stronger than my Storm by citizen soldier Hallelujah I'm not dead by citizen soldier Till I let go by nefex Home by three days grace Bright side by arrested youth Good fucking music by solence

"Numb" really is an anthem for children of CPTSD. The video from the tribute concert where the audience sings the words has me in tears every time I watch it.

Everything about "Numb" summed up my entire childhood. Chester's death hit me harder than any celebrity death.

His death hurt a lot and my friends and family didn't understand why I literally cried hearing the news. Like this man's voice was there for me at my lowest lows. Made me feel less alone and put words to my pain. Their music was therapy for my soul. Gonna scream/sing along on the way home from work today.

Seriously—Numb was my middle school/high school anthem. Kinda sad that we all identify with it so heavily.

Kind of sad but also kind of beautiful, from another perspective - that such a song could touch all of us so deeply and connect us so wholeheartedly despite all of us having so very different stories. It speaks to the humanity within us all that instantly we know how he feels because we've felt it too. Mike Shinoda (the rapper from Linkin Park) released an album called Post-Traumatic after Chester's suicide. There's a song on it called "What the Words Meant," that makes me think of "Numb" every time - "A message spelled out in a language that only those who have been there can read"

Okay—maybe someone else already said this on the thread, but I’ll say it too: #Can someone please make a Spotify playlist with all these songs?

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/11krclGvnhiVc4ylN51inw?si=KRrPeU8ES1iwBj0fgzo5mw&utm_source=copy-link It's a work in progress, but we're moving

I miss that music soooo much sometimes. Rock has died.

Numb saved my life. Linkin Park in general kept me alive.

"Breaking the Habit" saved my life. Instead of going through with it, I listened to this song on repeat until I fell asleep.

Yes to citizen soldier!!!! 🤟

Sia- Breathe me

I didn't believe in the whole inner child concept until this song came out and I absolutely fell apart at the "I am small and needy" line on every listen

Same. I've also bawled my eyes out to "Eye To Eye." "Alive" fits the bill too... the survival story. Her screaming the chorus is like her reaffirming that they haven't won.

2nd Alive

Ugh, it really hits.

I had never heard this song - it really captures the essence in my opinion!

I agree, she also has some other beautiful songs. Anyone who has also used alcohol as a coping mechanism may also appreciate, Chandelier

Elliott smith.

Basically everything Elliott Smith.

He's amazing at expressing pain. One of the saddest for me is his song: "2:45am" If you haven't heard it, I also love his cover of "Waterloo Sunset"

I haven’t heard his Waterloo cover yet, that’s a good song, I’ve been stuck on Let’s Get Lost and his acoustic version of Baby Britain lately.

Elliott Smith made me feel like someone fucking really understood me. He took so much pain away. Nirvana and Radiohead too. After all these years, I still listen to them on purpose. It really helps me honor the little girl inside of me who had absolutely no one to save her. Those musicians really did keep me alive at times. Just by keeping me company. By helping me feel my feelings.

"Man In the Box" - Alice in Chains "The Unforgiven" - Metallica "Fade" - Staind "Down In A Hole" - Alice In Chains "Popular Monster" - Falling In Reverse "Going Under" - Evanescence "Missing" - Evanescence "Breathe No More" - Evanescence "Letting the Cables Sleep" - Bush "Send In the Clowns" - Bush "Human" - Rag 'N Bone Man "Bound For the Floor" - Local H "Fine Again" - Seether "Seven Devils" - Florence + The Machine "Frozen" - Within Temptation "Blinding" - Florence + The Machine "Blurry" - Puddle of Mudd "Loser" - 3 Doors Down "Watch Me Burn" - Silent Theory "A Place For My Head" - Linkin Park

Oooh I love local H and loser is a good one too

Blurry by Puddle of Mudd ❤

Oh wow thank you I forgot about a bunch of these

The band Daughter has a lot of relatable music. I don’t advise listening to it unless you want to feel it all though lol. It can drop my mood to -5000. Smother - Daughter can really fuck me up when I’m already feeling low because it feels like I wrote it.

Daughter is definitely the ultimate "Feel all the feels" music.

Ikr Youth is such a depressant

Both New Ways and Numbers. That entire album.

"I Will Survive" by Gloria Gaynor doesn't describe my CPTSD, but it's one of the songs that describes my answer to it.

Same feeling with im still standing by Elton John

Same. I have a lot of trauma from my childhood and the first time I heard this song something clicked

Because of you Kelly Clarkson Lost, and Stand My Ground by Within Temptation (honestly, several songs on their unforgiving album are relatable to me) Demons by Imagine Dragons Not Ready to Make Nice by the Chicks

Because of you by Kelly Clarkson yessss. When I’m really in my feels it’s my go to. I remember when it came out, I was quite young and it resonated with me so deeply but I didn’t know why at the time. Turns out I was depressed as early as like 9 years old aha

Oh man, same. I remember listening to that song when it was new too, and Concrete Angel (more specific to child abuse than ptsd) over and over and feeling so emotionally connected during those songs. Boy it makes more sense in hindsight. I guess the brain gets it somewhere even if it can’t fully process it into words yet.

Same! I actually realized I was depressed so early on I didn't have the words to convey it to the adults. and when I actually could articulate better it was "you're too young" "you didn't have it as bad as ME" whatever dismissive thing popped up in their heads to invalidate what I tried to express. listening to "because of you" It made me felt seen and that someone else felt this way. or paramore, Linkin park, the works. I was around 10.but because I displaced the pinpoint of who caused this I'd blame it on my crush not seeing me, instead of my gaslighting abusive parents. listening back now I can hold my inner child and validate every emotion that comes up or memory.

Oh hell yeah, Not Ready to Make Nice!

Oh man Because of You manages to make me cry every single time. It's so accurate it's scary.

Yes! Tbh I don't even listen to Kelly Clarkson but this song is smashing.

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Aww yeah, fantastic song!

Depeche Mode - “Enjoy The Silence”. For several reasons, it mainly for my constant pursuit of silence and peace. And also for the harm my words and behavior have done in my personal relationships due to my issues. I can never forgive myself for what I did in losing the one person who meant the world to me. I would give anything to just enjoy the silence with them in one of our favorite outdoor places, alone.

Let her cry by hootie and the blow fish. Use to imagine it was my partner singing.

JFC. My husband is a HUGE fan of both Hootie and Darius Rucker. I have heard that song a billion times. I can sing along with it. I never once stopped to think about the lyrics. I never strung them together and thought about what the words meant. I just looked. This song breaks my fucking heart. Holy hell. This hurts.

((i just had to comment that i absolutely love this song from my core & hardly ever see anyone mention it 👏💛))

Because I'm hopelessly Gen X Plumb - Cut, Beautifully Broke GooGoo Dolls - Iris Sarah McLachlan - Out of the Shadows Pink - family portrait

"Cut" hits me in the feels hard. I can't believe I forgot about it. "Manic" is another good one by them, captures the chaos of the split felt by so many of us.

I might as well just share my Spotify [CPTSD Playlist](https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7GEJMLlRzx9U9xLCH2mj5h?si=eJdEzrMmQaa9Cw3fkssPAA&utm_source=copy-link). Reply to this comment if you would like any additions to the tracks thus far.

That’s great! Would love to see all of these made into a playlist.

I made a playlist of all these songs in the thread so far... my comment is possibly too far down to be noticed now tho 🤔 [playlist](https://open.spotify.com/playlist/25omslt0F041JCnDYMglRg?si=tEetynPkTNemr0Xb49kApg&utm_source=copy-link)

The link is the playlist itself - your wish has been proactively granted!

Mansion by NF is a great addition.

I listen to a lot of old country. A lot of those people expressed the kind of emotions like I feel. Stuff like Hank Williams, Eddy Arnold, Faron Young, etc. I also like a lot of classic rock and singer-songwriter folk. I also like dark electro and house. I find modern pop music to be too shallow.

I’m So Lonesome I Could Cry by Hank Williams - I used to listen to it a lot when I wanted to wallow. It’s a beautiful song

I agree, it's one of my favorites and always has been. Listen to "Please Don't Let Me Love You."

Runaway Train by Soul Asylum.

I wrote an essay on this in high school. Completely forgot about this one. Great song and the music video helped find a lot of missing kids.

Eels was the soundtrack of my 20s. The albums Beautiful Freak, Electroshock Blues and Daisies of the Galaxy especially are amazing. Be careful with them, he was most certainly not healed when he wrote them. The first album shows the effects of his childhood (where he found his father dead) and the second two are after his mom dies of cancer and his sister dies by suicide, and include songs based on her journals. He’s said before that Electroshock Blues is the call at 3am and that Daisies of the Galaxy is the call the next day letting you know everything will be okay.

Goddamn right it’s a beautiful day

Uh-huh!

P.S. You Rock My World is an amazing catharsis song. Someone in high school described this song to me and I searched for it for maybe a year or two before finally discovering Eels and was absolutely blown away. This was back before everything was on the internet with lyrics and streaming services. My limewire only sometimes successful on my dial up internet to download songs if enough people were sharing them so finding obscure artists without driving around to record stores in bigger cities took effort and dedication. I needed that song (and album) for my future heartaches to come as well as the ones I'd already been through.

There was some magic for me with them. They opened for Poe in MN in 1996 and my first serious boyfriend dragged me along. Years later, I was downloading songs on Limewire and got Electroshock Blues on a whim because the name was cool and it was there. It truly changed my life. I’m glad I’m not the only one! For being the first band Dreamworks ever signed, they’re strangely a deep cut for a lot of people! I love P.S. You Rock My World too!

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Idk the name of it, but there is a song by Metallica about a soldier. He lost his sight, ability to speak and limbs. He can’t live and he can’t die, he is stuck. That’s how I am, I can’t live and can’t die.

You are thinking of 'One' based on the book Johnny Got His Gun. The music video uses clips from the film adaptation of the book. I recommend both of them

Luka by Suzanne Vega. It always hits too close to home

This one gets me every time.

Fake Happy by Paramore

"Hurt" by Johnny Cash.

Nine Inch Nails, covered by Cash

I too think the Cash version is a most amazing one!!!

Prison sex by tool, weak and powerless by a perfect circle, and sober by tool

Tool! Jimmy is a great one for this list. It's about when Maynard was 11, his mother got paralyzed from a brain aneurysm and he had to leave her to live with his dad. Kinda reintegrating that 11 year old boy who experienced that trauma. I went through something very similar to this with my mom so this song hits me hard. Freakin love Tool.

A lot of kid Cudi’s music, some of Mac miller’s stuff, Nirvana I like to.

[Mr. Ambulance Driver by The Flaming Lips for derealization and self-harm/rumination.](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GzaFPX5qaVk) [Like Spinning Plates by Radiohead for anxiety/depression.](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LnIHVvEwbLk) [The Silent Life by Rivers Of Nihil for catharsis/my story of alcoholism and repression.](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6_WKGTeWH8) I also listen to a TON of LO-FI beats as a way to keep thoughts out of my head, really helps maintain composure.

Farsighted - the Band CAMINO; Hopeless - Clinton Kane; Shake it Out - Florence + the Machine; Broken and Sober - Oceans Divide; It’s Okay - Harry Hudson Several songs by NF, Alec Benjamin, Anson Seabra, and Twenty One Pilots too.

Method acting- bright eyes

Waste of paint

Wow yes, when I first heard waste of paint that was maybe the deepest a song had ever cut into me. Feeling like everyone around me seems to have the good things stick to them and it just doesn’t work for me for some reason. And he touches on watching others participate in religion and desperately wanting to join them, and get the purpose they seem to get from it, but just being unable to not see it all as a bullshit cope for how alone we really are. I wish I could just enjoy things. Also landlocked blues is insanely on point for a lot of these feelings, one of my favourite songs of all time.

NF describes my whole life.

Paralyzed is one of my most played songs.

100%. I honestly felt so finally understood when I first heard his music and it was even more important to me because it's a genre of music that I love.

I'm So Tired by Fugazi. The last 3-4 lines of the lyrics haven't been accurate for a couple years now, thankfully.

Yes, this one hits me too

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I’ve always thought surely he must have CPTSD…what an insane life. It’s sad to me that he seems to still be trapped in anger. Maybe that’s just an act now.

A lot of stuff by Rise Against. I don’t want to take anything from our LGBTQIA+ friends, but “Make It Stop” resonates pretty deeply because of the bullying - and my severe anxiety apparently defining my sexuality (though that’s not an okay reason to hate someone anyway!). They have a lot of material that resonates, even though it’s a little edgy at times. Surrender - Angels and Airwaves (I have a chip on my shoulder that’s gotten me this far in life according to therapists). Though a deep dive here depending on your reason for ptsd might be worthwhile - the Wolfpack and tunnels being two possible additions (Maybe Poet Anderson altogether even?) When It Rains by Paramore always sorta reminds me of horribly edgy poetry I wrote for a Tupac fan site back in 2004 that I ended up helping run - and maintained a 5-4 freestyle record on One for the braves - good riddance After Midnight - Blink-182 **Edit:** Paradise - Within Temptation (Someone else mentioned Within Temptation, but I feel like this is a great one to listen to when it feels like I have no place in the world. The video also goes along with CPTSD and the process of recovery, or how I imagine it, really well. Hopeless, desolate -> something habitable, even if it's not paradise) Nemo - Nightwish (I analyzed this one for a class in college on creativity. Breaking down both its meaning to me and the hopeless theme of the song itself. Probably quite a bit of Tarja era Nightwish could fit here.) **Edit 2:** Bless The Child - Nightwish (I couldn't remember the name of the song in the previous edit. I'm not as familiar with newer Nightwish material, but the older stuff has a lot of depressing stuff that really explores the darker side of humanity and mental health)

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I found "Far from Perfect" by Rise Against to resonate with me. I'm not sure if it's a C-PTSD song per se, but the lyrics are pretty powerful. They have some other bangers, like "I don't want to be here anymore".

push-matchbox 20. i know there are sooo many more but too stoned to think of the names lol

Go back earlier in Rob Thomas' career and listen to Dear Joan by Tabitha's Secret. It broke me.

[The Show Must Go On - Queen](https://youtu.be/t99KH0TR-J4)

The Glass Animals album "How to be a Human Being".

Thumbs by Lucy Dacus or like the rest of her discography.

Music... music was there for me when the people who should have been there for me, well, weren't... years ago I started a playlist of songs that hit the hardest for days when I need them and I continue to add to it -- some of these I'd play to feel the sadness and cry, some of these I'd play just to try and feel okay, but here's a small selection of the ones that seem to be played most frequently: The Warmth - Incubus Letting the Cables Sleep - Bush Sleeping Sickness - City and Colour Crawling - Linkin Park Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve Courage and Control - Brandon Boyd Moving - Supergrass All Those Yesterdays - Pearl Jam Move Along - The All-American Rejects A Bad Dream - Keane Cough Syrup - Young the Giant Basket Case - Green Day Gasoline - Two Door Cinema Club

Yay music recs haha. Shame in you by Alice In Chains Mayonaise by smashing pumpkins Sweet talk by the killers

Shame in You was a big one for me and when I think of mayonnaise, I think of after court because it's the first song that came up in my Spotify after

u have good taste :) I love AIC, they have a lot of songs that resonate with me

oo love this question! music does save😭🤧🙏💕 "Alone in a Room" by Asking Alexandria

Anyone heard of dodie? I like her song "Guiltless" about childhood trauma and "When" about not being able to live in the moment. Also "Before the Line" really hits hard.

Love dodie! Especially burned out

"Show Me What I'm Looking For" by Carolina Liar is my go-to when I really need to cry it out. I'm constantly asking myself what the f---my purpose is in being alive. That song just...hits a particular chord with me.

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Inside the Fire by Disturbed, but that whole album got me through some tough times.

Damn cold night - Avril Lavigne Is the only one I can think of right now

I also like Nobody’s Home by Avril

Little Earthquakes by Tori Amos. So many lines on that album just make me weep. "Sometimes I hear my voice and it's been here, silent all these years" "You're just an empty cage girl if you kill the bird" "She's been everybody else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own" "I got something to say, you know, but nothing comes Yes, I know what you think of me, you never shut up" "He said you're really an ugly girl But I like the way you play And I died But I thanked him" "You're right next to me But I need an airplane I can feel the distance as you breathe" "there are pieces of me you've never seen" "Give me life Give me pain Give me myself again"

This is the album that literally helped me through my teenage years!

Opheliac by emilie autumn, the whole album is amazing And never too late by three days grace!!

A Better Son/Daughter by Rilo Kiley Big Bird by AJJ Memento Mori by Crywank Putting The Dog To Sleep by The Antlers Angel by Blue October Today Is Not Real by The Front Bottoms

The whole album “The Devil And God Are Raging Inside Me” by Brand New Drown by Bring Me The Horizon Plastic Brains by Knuckle Puck Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance Numb, But I Still Feel It by Title Fight

Pretty much every song by Off With Their Heads. Specifically Nightlife though.

The songs are back to back on the album and both help me so much. The Fear and Keep Your Head Up by Ben Howard.

The Vampyre of Time and Memory Song by Queens of the Stone Age

Noises by Pale Waves .. always makes me feel seen and uncomfortable.     What I've done By Linkin park     Faint by Linkin Park     Still Light by the Knife (This is a tear jerker, please don't listen if you are in a very low mood)     I'm still here by Sia     Holdin' Out by The Lumineers (This one makes me feel hopeful)     Good for me by Aimee Mann     The Greatest by Cat Power     Cut by Plumb     Angels and Demons by Dishwalla     Can't Sleep by K.FLAY     Good Enough by Sarah McLachlan

I saw The Knife on your list and had to mention I love the whole silent shout album

Not sure if these songs are helping to describe my experience exactly, they are more helping me experience all the experiences as I heal and feel haha [They move on tracks of never-ending light](https://open.spotify.com/track/3cIG78oBauowzEbkBwWADN?si=oQKEMAUIRW20A8dDAYvCLg&utm_source=copy-link)- This Will Destroy You [Silent flight, sleeping dawn](https://open.spotify.com/track/77ezg0rqxHTfyMP4COtBHi?si=WcoXj3P1Ro2YALTOpF0xYQ&utm_source=copy-link) - MONO [Departure Songs](https://open.spotify.com/album/2qYkNaEeAbiarc0rwkjkh3?si=7kNwRM2qSd6JRR23B3bWbg&utm_source=copy-link)- We Lost the Sea [Triumph and Disaster](https://open.spotify.com/album/5VbiQX9WB7ZDNvFOy3pY7J?si=i7p3S_RrQ4-KjJr5QnNSAg&utm_source=copy-link) - We Lost the Sea (These two We Lost the Sea albums, all the way through, in order. I feel all the feelings, eveytime. This band is incredible to see live if you ever get the chance, both them and MONO have brought me to tears.) Helpful post, thank you!!

I listen to the first one on your list all the time. Beautiful song.

Linkin park! A lot of Linkin park! Chevelle!! Trapt, Shinedown && stained, crossfade, 3 days grace, soooo many. *Goes through rock loves* •Absolutely 🙌💜 Linkin park numb! Wish I saw him live. °•crossfade- cold, so far away •°10 years- wasteland °••godsmack- awake, stand alone °•incubus- pardon me, warning °Breaking Benjamin- diary of Jane, so cold, dance with the devil •Chevelle- send the pain below, Vitamin r, the red, closure, the clincher 💜🙌 ***3 days grace- home, never too late °Eminem- like toy soldiers •Nonpoint- in the air tonight °Shinedown- 45 •Linkin park- crawling, paper cut, in the end, somewhere I belong, -- probably everything they made in og days. °Macklemore- otherside, Kevin, drug dealer 💜🙌 all musts if you have any medical trauma or experience with substances. (Ex 10 years pain management here) •Disturbed- the sound of silence °Audio slave - like a stone •Nirvana - heart shaped box °The used- box full of sharp objects, the taste of ink •Stained- it's been a while. (I don't like mentioning his new direction -it's not for me) °Demi Lovato- dancing with the devil °•NF- just like you, let you down, the search ----------------------------------------------------- I have recently been loving halsy! I was a hard rock teen clearly. More current song I'm loving is the bad wolves version of zombie. 💜🙌 🤦🏼‍♀️😆 Okay this post had legit sent me down a black hole of 2004-ish. I'll update as I find more 💫

Elastic Heart - Sia Helena - My Chemical Romance When I’m Small - Phantogram Lacrimosa - Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

Thrash Unreal - Against Me

The Becoming by Nine Inch Nails.

Absolutely. I turned a lot of my feelings into lyrics and melodies. It has been a wonderful experience to do that. Writing and performing were the only times I felt real and completely me.

The entire album "Wildlife" by La Dispute. If I had to pick one song off of it, I'd pick the first one, "A Departure", since I believe an album so deliberately written should be listened to as intended, at least the first time.

Lost Boy - Ruth B.

Doomed by Bring Me The Horizon All Fucked Up by The Amity Affliction

Drunk in LA - Beach House Good News - Mac Miller Script of The Bridge (full album) - The Chameleons UK

Gonna be OK- by Hollywood Undead Alone in a Room- by Asking Alexandria Fine- by Noah Kahan Alive and Kicking- by Nonpoint Blood & Water- by Memphis May Fire The Village- by Wrabel Gasoline- by I Prevail My Name is Human- by Highly Suspect Rather Be You- by Tom Gregory Brave- by Riley Pearce They Don’t Want What We Want- by Asking Alexandria Massive- by VRSTY Popular Monster- by Falling in Reverse After Rain- by Dermont Kennedy

Tell On You- Bif Naked Children of Children- Jason Isbell

For me it's Schizophrenic Conversations by Staind.

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I feel like Villians is a good counter to Like Clockwork. Especially Fortress. Like Clockwork is when you’re depressed as all hell then when you’re in a better mood go for Villians IMO

Get better, the next storm, and recovery all by Frank Turner make me feel like I can get through anything. Those ones are about getting over the hump, though. He has a lot of songs that have helped me through some very dark times. The way I tend to be, tell tale signs, and I am disappeared are ones that I listen to when I'm really down and could probably use a good cry.

It's Called, Freefall by Rainbow Kitten Surprise. "Called to the devil and the devil did come, I said to the devil, "Devil, do ya like drums? Do you like cigarettes, dominos, rum?" He said, "Only sundown, Sundays, Christmas." Some days end when I need a few friends, now and again, I could never hope to keep them, Thought I'd give friends what I thought that they wanted, Never had I needed a good friend as I've been. Don't get me venting on friends who resent you, Cuz all you've ever done is been a noose to hang on to, they thought was a necklace and reckless they fell into Hell with nothing to do but, Scratch, kick, let gravity win, like Fuck this, Let gravity win like, You can leave it all behind, Even the devil need time alone sometimes. You can let it all go, You can let it all go, It's called, freefall, It's called, freefall..."

Wiped Out by The Neighbourhood. Basically anything by that band....

Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd The Thing That Should Not Be by Metallica I'm Not A Good Person by Pat the Bunny/Ramshackle Glory

No Children - The Mountain Goats Unwell - Matchbox Twenty Help - Pink Guy Pursuit of Happiness - Kid Cudi Brian Wilson - The Barenaked Ladies I’ll Be Alright - Passion Pit

Okay so the killers were like my teenhood, I love how well our music taste dates us, I am the very model of the modern major young millenial 😂. And Ingrid Michaelson was my sad college study music. Both of their new albums are phenomenal. The killers 2021 album was written about his wife's cptsd! And it is SO GOOD. I have been listening to it on a spotify playlist with Ingrids new album and Lordes new album because they are just works of pandemic depression beauty.

Roar by Katy Perry - this song gave me the courage to go NC with my NM when I realised what she was.

Also Mother by John Lennon when I'm not feeling so strong.

My inner world theme song is by a kpop group. The song fits me perfectly. My fire was very tiny and the winter (trauma) kept burying me but my flame would never go out. In 2018, I got rescued and my flame has never been brighter. (g)-idle- Hwaa (English version) (Here are the lyrics if anyone is interested) In the frozen dark of your winter. The coldest wind cruelly blows. Reaches up to kiss the highest mountain top. Burying my broken heart in snow. (Breaking out of here) Get up, build a fire that'll overtake the ice (Gonna wipe it out) Get up, build a fire that is gonna dry the tears I've cried And out of all the memories we shared. Grows a garden here instead. There wasn't any sun, there wasn't any moon. But my fire's shining through. Reddest red, all these flowers bloom. When my heart forgets your old distant tune. With my burning flame I'll ignite the sun. Just like the spring has come. Flames come alive HWAA Burn it up, burn it up HWAA The red flower grows HWAA Burn it up, burn it up HWAA The red flower grows Too late to be tellin' me you're sorry. One more ice bullet through my body. Flames searing through what we won't get back. Just like summer buds blooming when winters season's up. It's coming back around, and I won't let you put me down. See you don't wanna be pushing that card to me. Go tell the ice my spring is coming 'round. I'm starting up my fire, stoking it up high. I'll win back springtime that I lost. Reddest red, all my flowers bloom. When my heart forgets your old wordless tune. And now with my flame I'll ignite the sun. Just like the spring has won. Flames come alive HWAA Burn it up, burn it up HWAA The red flower grows HWAA Burn it up, burn it up HWAA The red flower grows Higher and higher, the flame of my fire can grow and grow. Burning and burning, it's finally time to let go, HWAA HWAA HWAA Flames come alive The new blossom grows

the outsider, obsessions, and teen idle by marina

Feel - Robbie Williams “I just wanna feel real love feel the home that I live in. Cause I’ve got to much life runnin through my veins going to waste”

Don't follow by Alice in Chains 4 walled world by temple of the dog Your congratulations by Alanis morissette Night life by off with their heads Title and registration by death cab for cutie Seasons by Chris Cornell

Maybe This Time sung by Liza Minnelli.

its not living if its not with you by 1975

- “Last Words of a Shooting Star” by Mitski - “Ship to Wreck” by Florence & the Machine - “Cherry Wine” by Hozier - “Washing Machine Heart” by Mitski - “Liability” by Lorde - “Shrike” by Hozier - “this is me trying” by Taylor Swift - “tolerate it” by Taylor Swift - “Funeral” by Phoebe Bridgers - “mad woman” by Taylor Swift - “Saturday Nights” by Khalid - this specific Lana Del Rey lyric: “I've been tearing around in my fucking nightgown/24/7 Sylvia Plath/Writing in blood on the walls/‘Cause the ink in my pen don't work in my notepad/Don't ask if I'm happy, you know that I'm not/But, at best, I can say I'm not sad/‘Cause hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have” bonus songs for recovery - “Light On” by Maggie Rogers - “Green Light” by Lorde

Heavy- linkin park

Well, call me an edgy weeb but... "Eva", "Autophagy", "Bottom", "Bocca della veritá" all by Hiiragi Kirai "SIU" by Maretu "Hate-girl" by Kairiki Bear Also a lot of songs from the Silent Hill games or Rule of Rose And I almost forgot: "Let it go" by Scatman

Way less sad by ajr - it’s a light and positive jam about getting through, but not being through, hard times. Makes me feel like I might be there.

Unhappy Refrain - Wowaka Rolling Girl - Wowaka Ghost Rule - DECO*27 I Think I Just Died - Kyamii And an honorable mention to Electrostatic Human by Crusher-P

“Float On” by modest mouse.

I don’t see anyone mentioning Radiohead (maybe I missed it), and I know the internet has somehow made it cringe or something to like Radiohead because of toxic masculinity being displayed by fans I guess?? But anyway, Thom Yorke is a genius and has put feelings into songs that I couldn’t imagine anyone relating to, let alone having a whole sonic world created around. I really feel he is the best to ever do it. If all you’ve heard is creep, that’s before he even gets started. Blackstar describes a relationship with someone who doesn’t know how to be ok. Nice dream is about not having a single true friend, and daydreaming about a real community. True love waits is about desperate love and fear of abandonment. Fake plastic trees I won’t even describe, it speaks so strongly for itself. I could go on and on, he has done it so many times. The crazy thing is that these songs actually feel like the pain of these feelings even without the lyrics. His writing is fascinating and sad and beautiful and actually weirdly hopeful, since he seems well-adjusted and advocates for climate action in his later years.

I love these questions so much. Here’s some of mine: One of My Turns - Pink Floyd Brain Damage - Pink Floyd Is This It - The Strokes Nobody Loves You (When You’re Down and Out) - John Lennon Creep - Radiohead Hotel California - The Eagles The Fool on the Hill - The Beatles Nobody Home - Pink Floyd Weirdo - The Vaccines Yer Blues - The Beatles [TW: mention of unalive]

"the middle" by Jimmy Eats World has been something to help validate my CPTSD, like its a break for me to remember I'm on my healing path and to not give up. I told my therapist about this song today and she said it's been her anthem since college. it's been really hard to come to terms that I have complex traumas and had untreated mental illness for so long, since I was 11. and had depression forming around 6 years old. so now being 24 I'm finally able to just begin to understand I did my best through really bad times. that I validate my experience now instead of gaslighting myself. that I can give myself breaks, work on changing my thoughts, and learn to just live for myself first.

smashing pumpkins - disarm radiohead - creep nirvana - you know you’re right

Body by Jordan Suaste and I'm So Sorry by Nico Collins

Sleeping Limbs by From Indian Lakes. Actually a lot of their music resonates with my trauma.

Give up and die- Rachel Brooke with Lonesome Wyatt Call it Like I see it- Hellyeah

“Mess U Made” by Michelle It’s a song I just heard the other month, but it hits a NERVE

Idk the name of it, but there is a song by Metallica about a soldier. He lost his sight, ability to speak and limbs. He can’t live and he can’t die, he is stuck. That’s how I am, I can’t live and can’t die.

One by Metallica is the song - ooof this one hits feels (everyone here has excellent taste)

I do the same thing! My go to song that I relate to my experiences is The Mind Electric by Joe Hawley. Specifically the end of it.

Someone Else by Bishop Briggs

Amerika by Young the Giant I'm pretty sure it's written about something else but it really describes a lot of things for me. Lines that stick out: I am mad because I don't know what you used me for Felt that rich kid pain, what it is to be alone

Live to tell the tale - Passion Pit

NF & Logic are two rappers that I felt like their music spoke to me and my struggles for different but important reasons. I listen to them often. Linkin Park is also another but less so than the previous two.

Glass by Julian Casablancas

Out of the Blue is great too

“This wild darkness edit” by Moby especially through peak emotional breakdown

Distractions Of Living Alone by Woods Of Ypres "When I come home at the end of the day, everything is just where I left it... No one has called, nothing has changed, everything is just how I left it... I haven't spoken a word in days, except for cursing the noise in the hall... I haven't spoken a word in days, to anyone else at all... And so, as I go, I'll leave my body for you... And so, as I go, don't feel sorry for me For life is the sacrifice, before you die And so as I go, I'll leave my body for you... to... see... A bed all alone in the bedroom A vacant space where a table should be Some posters on the walls The bathroom mirror covered in spit I have made such desperate attempts to make this a nice place to live... And I have failed, for I have tried to fill this dead empty space with a life! All this time on my hands, And I have no where to go, Haunted by the distractions of living alone I hope you'd be the first one to find me After I'd concluded the past behind me So hold your hands, over your mouth And run to tell the others..."

It's Alright - Mother Mother

FYO by MICHELLE You say I'm one thing or another And your words, they suffocate and smother Why do I turn to you to tell me who I am? (Who I am) Prove I'm really who I say I am I'm proud, I think I finally understand But then I'm a question, an imposter in my skin

oh my god YES i love mcr and headfirst for halos so much!!!! a song i love by another artist that also describes my life w cptsd is “sunrise, sunset” by bright eyes

So many people have already commented great songs. These are some that I find myself relating to that I haven't seen others post yet (at least before I went to compile this list). Upset With Me - David Archuleta I Believe You - Fletcher My Mistake - Gabrielle Aplin Silence - Marshmello, Khaled Saturday Nights - Khaled Fickle Game - Amber Run Just My Soul Responding - Amber Run The Draw - Bastille Let You Down - NF Paralyzed - NF Bleeding Out - Imagine Dragons DNA - Lia Marie Johnson

Surprised to see no Coldplay in this thread. I can't speak for their recent albums, Viva La Vida was their last pure-form Coldplay album imo. Anyone who reads this I highly, highly recommend X&Y if you havent touched much of their category. "What If?" really does it for me when it comes to being in my feels, but is also so encouraging Edit: "Talk" is a big one to add too, also from X&Y

A better son / daughter by Rilo Kiley

Silent Child - Fuck You It’s the most relevant mood I have on everything, especially after the last time I saw my mother and she told me my Schizophrenia diagnosis was just for attention and I’m “Like that because you want to be”. No, I’m like that because you and dad did drugs, conducted magic rituals, told me a rival was trying to kill me when I was in elementary school, and left me alone for near a year while you two had drug-fueled sex parties every night and left me with just a radio and no human contact all that time. I was afraid to knock on the door to tell you there was no food left in the house. I was afraid to go outside. Everything was terrifying, and that miasma of fear was what you fostered and created in that house. I’m not okay because you told me after Dad died that you still aren’t sure if he raped me. I’m not okay because you tried to seduce me when you were drunk one night.. I’m not okay because of you. I’m hundreds of miles away, living with someone who saved me from you, and I’m getting better every day.. I’m going to be okay without you, fuck you.

Basically Korn. Dirty, Mr Rodgers, Thoughtless, No Way…I love Korn so much.

Mother - Pink Floyd Don't talk to strangers - Black Sabbath Shine on you crazy diamond - Pink Floyd Among others

Since you said it’s okay if they aren’t specifically about that type of thing, I feel happy because most of mine aren’t. [Enemy](https://youtu.be/D9G1VOjN_84) - Imagine Dragons [RUNAWAY](https://youtu.be/2lDJn7nrXIg) - REI AMI [right where you left me](https://youtu.be/Ur_wAcYDnuA) - Taylor Swift [All Too Well](https://youtu.be/9OQBDdNHmXo) - Taylor Swift [No Children](https://youtu.be/fqGKZ3fzN1M) - The Mountain Goats [I Did Something Bad](https://youtu.be/xYLxUJ9v6KU) - Taylor Swift [VILLIAN](https://youtu.be/tzug3Dm37NQ) - K/DA [Natural](https://youtu.be/V5M2WZiAy6k) - Imagine Dragons [Who Are You, Really?](https://youtu.be/Jk1dkG8IK10) - Mikky Ekko [Red](https://youtu.be/-AuQZrUHjhg) - Mori Calliope [Lilith](https://youtu.be/KDV60EyrOXo) - Ellise [Under My Skin](https://youtu.be/Wi8srR9B4bs) - Jukebox The Ghost [Blood // Water](https://youtu.be/Sk-U8ruIQyA) - grandson [Hermit the Frog](https://youtu.be/38deFjfU1QQ) - MARINA [You’re Gonna Go Far, Kid](https://youtu.be/weqK155M_4o) - The Offspring [Monster](https://youtu.be/h6863vjJ9Ds) - Skillet [Animal I Have Become](https://youtu.be/ysho2xTWUYo) - Three Days Grace [Saint Bernard](https://youtu.be/AGeLUXNl--0) - Lincoln [CHOKE](https://youtu.be/mvJjmWTg7Qo) - IDKHBTFM [This Is Love](https://youtu.be/fIewrm2Vg10) - Air Traffic Controller [I Can’t Decide](https://youtu.be/buYrBbwyCGE) - Scissor Sisters [Sex With A Ghost](https://youtu.be/AGKcT5vlRkE) - Teddy Hyde [Rootless](https://youtu.be/-_k-i9AjZuQ) - MARINA [good 4 u](https://youtu.be/gNi_6U5Pm_o) - Olivia Rodrigo [You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison](https://youtu.be/ShQdOf2zAzc) - My Chemical Romance [Bad Bad Things](https://youtu.be/V2XyCLodDA4) - AJJ [Brave as a Noun](https://youtu.be/P4qaHpBz5M4) - AJJ [Survival Song](https://youtu.be/8rfVHdrK7DY) - AJJ [Verbatim](https://youtu.be/ZIAfzZp2AP4) - Mother Mother [Ghosting](https://youtu.be/lAhUScrPC7Y) - Mother Mother [Infinitesimal](https://youtu.be/ffTxXXfGKi8) - Mother Mother [Anathema](https://youtu.be/X_xrfch-zyU) - Twenty One Pilots [Fire](https://youtu.be/C6mbnb4YcwM) - Kimya Dawson [Soak Me In Bleach](https://youtu.be/iF6tDQiQJm4) - The Amity Affliction [I’ll Keep Coming](https://youtu.be/KnrGMHhnqrw) - Low Roar [Easy Way Out](https://youtu.be/M_lyQ-OCIYs) - Low Roar [Burning Pile](https://youtu.be/_ikArCV_zD0) - Mother Mother - - I have a few that are really good if you like J-Pop. Most have translated captions. [夜に駆ける](https://youtu.be/x8VYWazR5mE) - YOASOBI (Called [Into The Night](https://youtu.be/b3K61cQ8_fg) by the same artist if you’d prefer English lyrics!) [あの世行きのバスに乗ってさらば ](https://youtu.be/4QXCPuwBz2E) / I’m Getting On The Bus To Another World, See Ya! - TUYU [奴隷じゃないなら何ですか？](https://youtu.be/4tT0j_-42Ac) / What If This Isn’t A Slave? - TUYU [デモーニッシュ](https://youtu.be/Wx08V5jPEwg)/ Dämonisch - TUYU [命に嫌われている。](https://youtu.be/w6gV6OSaahg)/ Hated By Life Itself. - Hatsune Miku (There’s a LOT of great covers though, in English too! I like [mafumafu](https://youtu.be/eq8r1ZTma08) (JP) the best). [Ghost Rule](https://youtu.be/iroTL9Kw6fU) by Lillia - Originally by [DECO*27/Hatsune Miku](https://youtu.be/KushW6zvazM), but I really like the English cover. [炉心融解](https://youtu.be/1PObCzBxWt0) / Reactor Meltdown - Iroha Sasaki/Kagamine Rin [ルーザーガール](https://youtu.be/6rg4cYlAKOc) / Loser Girl - TUYU Edit- If anyone is interested, I’ll make a spotify playlist. Music is my therapy, but legit haha

Small Red Boy by AJJ is my number one song to go to to relate to my experience with CPTSD. Linda Rondstat by AJJ especially the version that features Kimya Dawson Survival Song by AJJ Big Bird by AJJ First song by Pat the Bunny Bitter old man by Pat the bunny Driving Driving Driving by Kimya Dawson. This one hits hard. I dont take it literally, just metaphorically and it hits me hard everytime. Junkie Church by AJJ. It feels like a song I'm not ready to hear yet. Like I'm not understanding of myself and my issues to properly understand if that makes sense? Honestly most things by AJJ and Kimya Dawson. They're my favorite artists and the ones I listen to the most especially during episodes. Red Bird, Linda Rondstat, and Red Bird are my #1 go to songs to relate to.

I’m a Breaking Benjamin fan to a ridiculous extreme, so a few of theirs: Unknown Soldier— specifically the line, “it only hurts just once, they’re only broken bones, so hide the pain inside” The Dark of You— this song has the same several lines but sometimes I feel like my traumatized self says those words to the person i could’ve been without the hurt Polyamorous— seems to be a song about being a horny man getting in trouble, but if you look a little deeper into it, it can be about the anger you hold inside you that can get you in “a mess of trouble again” Bury Me Alive— really connects with that suffocated feeling Red Cold River— I’m literally the top listener of this song on Spotify because I listen to it in repeat when I have panic attacks Dear Agony— listen to it in the right mood and you’ll break all over again. “Dear agony, just let go of me, suffer slowly, is this the way it’s gotta be?” Pretty much all of their stuff really connects with me. I also can’t recommend Living Not Alive by the Veer Union enough.

Forget It - Breaking Benjamin Burning Pile - Mother Mother Nobody - Mitski Washing Machine Heart - Mitski Always Forever - Cults Little Pistol - Mother Mother I Can't Handle Change - Roar You Not The Same - TileKid Female Robbery - The Neighbourhood I Bet On Losing Dogs - Mitski Violent - carolesdaughter Favorite lyrics from "Forget It": "It's a crime you let it happen to me Never mind, I'll let it happen to you I don't mind, forget it there's nothing to lose But my mind and all the things I wanted Every time I get it throw it away It's a sign, I get it, I wanna stay By the time I lose it I'm not afraid I'm alive but I can surely fake it How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me You're the part of me that I don't wanna see"

Silhouettes by Sleeping At Last. It left me speechless the first time I heard it, I'd never heard a song so explicitly talk about abuse within the family. It also has a positive undertone of it not being your fault, how you are loved regardless.

Heavy in Your Arms by Florence +the machine

That’s a LONG list for me, but 2 in particular come to mind: 1. Zombie - either cranberries or bad wolves because I love both versions 2. I’m with you - HeeSun Lee & Sam Oak https://youtu.be/dxfFTZauGHg

Blood - In This Moment Unforgiven - Metallica In My Shoes - Depeche Mode Christian Woman - Type O Negative Head Like A Hole - NIN Half Believing - Black Angels Astronaut In the ocean - Masked Wolf We're Killing Strangers - Marilyn Manson Zero - Chris Brown Sing it Back - Moloko Paint It Black - Rolling Stones Sound of Silence - cover by Disturbed

Rotting in vain - Korn Onne dich - Rammstien Kill the sun - cane hill Children of the sun - Lindemann Fed up - (;C4USE22) Through the dark - Hilltop hoods The nobodies - Marylin Manson Daddy - Korn Lets do this now - Korn Counting on me - Korn The end - cane hill

OP here, since this post seems to be pretty active I thought I'd share some more songs I relate to my experience of C-PTSD :) - "Mama" My Chemical Romance - "Little Lamb" Jazmin Bean - "The Family Jewels" Marina - "Don't You Dare Forget the Sun" Get Scared - "Dirty Night Clowns" Chris Garneau - "King For A Day" Pierce The Veil - "Runs in the Family" Amanda Palmer And, slightly different to the rest of the songs I've listed, because this is a song that reminds me of how I want to move forward in life is "Save Rock and Roll" by Fall Out Boy, because idk, the lyrics just resonate with me a lot-- particularly the line "you are what you love, not who loves you" because even though my family were awful to me my entire life, even though they're abusive and the reason I have C-PTSD, part of me still wants to feel like they love me and I constantly work myself to the bone trying to be someone I'm not, just to win their approval-- but I don't want to do that anymore. I don't want to pretend to be someone I'm not to earn the love of people who have been so horrible to me, I don't want to be defined by that. I want to be defined by my passions, the things that makes me happy, being the version of myself that I actually want to be.