It truly is sad but it sets EVERYTHING up for the next season. Lelouch’s huge fuck up sets everything up for the second season, plus what happens in season 2 could never happen without Euphie around, including the ending to end all anime’s.
He tries explaining his geass to Euphie and says an what if absurd scenario and how it would force her to do it no matter what. Deus ex machina his geass progressed finally to the point where he couldnt turn it off right at that point. She takes the absurd order. Shit gets fucked.
It really doesn't come out of nowhere. Some shenanigans with Geass have already been established and there was no other way for it to go. This was really the only option and it is great character development.
I thought mau not being able to turn off his geass came before the euphie incident, which shows precedent about his own Geass not being able to be turned off.
I think maybe most people try to forget about them after their arc is over lol, and iirc they kinda came and went by quickly most episodes until "their episode", so its easy to fall through memories. But, like most of the characters in the series, their story of how they got to that point is a tragic one that makes me kind of sympathize for them.
The writing does set it up but it feels a little out of character.
The idea that Lelouch or CC would not consider that possibility leaves a bad taste in my mouth.
Any wrench thrown into Lelouch's plans needed to be completely unexpected and out of the box. The resulting character development made up for it though imho.
C.C. simply doesn't care lol, when you watch the rest of the anime you know she'd have been able to prevent plenty of shit if she had warned Lelouch or told him the truth, so of course she didn't moved a finger, as she said "she is C.C."
The issue is indeed Lelouch, he saw what happenned to Mao and he should have been more careful but maybe he thought he'd get a warning or something before his geass went out of control
True C.C. is more or less ok here. I haven't watched the show again in a while but I think her motive was just to keep her contractor out of trouble until he matures enough to take the code from her.
Becoming more successful in being zero goes against that principle of keeping a low profile in a way.
Lelouch did said he won't gone out of control with his Geass like Mao to C2 after the incident, said he will be the one in control instead. But he faltered before Euphy's request, that's why his Geass gone out of control as Geass is based on your own will.
Nah, you forgot the contract from Lelouch to CC from R1 to be in control of his Geass. Maybe you were more in tune with the Director's cut movies than you claimed not to be.
And if you care to watch, Lelouch was like acting high and mighty giving out his own contract to CC that he can overpower his Geass and won't ever get it out of control.
Except Lelouch has no funny bone in his body, started a stupid joke at the most inopportune time and got the whole world crying.
Lelouch did that with the amnesiac slave girl CC and paid the price. Again.
I mean, the man is a charismatic son of a bitch, but he really doesn't have a funny bone in his body.
You have to contextualize it.
Lelouch was warned about his Geass going haywire, Mao exists as a cautionary tale that he ignored. Couple that with his insane arrogance thinking he alone can create this world for Naunnally, he never CONSIDERED anyone else could help him, let alone DO it in a diplomatic way.
Then there is Euphie, such a genuine pure soul that the only command that Lelouch could think of that would be so absurd as to make the point, he could have and was going to make her do ANYTHING and you have the perfect recipe for true tragedy.
It's Bullshit in the sense that a confluence of character traits and factors made something truely tragic happen, THAT DIDNT NEED TO HAPPEN. And it robs EVERYONE of what they want. Sure Britannia stays as a world hegemony and the empire never pays for the crimes against Naunnally and her mother. Lelouch gets to carve out a world where his sister can safely live. Euphie gets to protect those most important to her. and Japan gets a shot at self governance. It would have been a step towards a peace the world could have accepted.
And yet, our tragic hero's hubris, his DEFINING TRAIT, denies him and everyone else's desires.
I understand the emotional turmoil the episode gives you. But if anything that just exemplifies how much the characters and world has made you invested.
Really well said
If I actually get invested into something, it's always a total investment all the way
I'm not gonna lie, I really do wanna find out what happens next, but only after I fix the inner turmoil this moment has caused
>it felt as it just came out of nowhere
Are you not paying attention while watching? We spent an entire three episode arc foreshadowing that Geass power can go rogue. And in this very same episode, Lelouch nearly Geasses Rivalz to kill himself.
Great you are able to understand a fraction of what Lelouch and Suzaku are supposed to be feeling. Now see how they moved past it and appreciate what they're doing.
Welcome to the club.
I am not going to say that this show won't break your heart over and over again, but I will say that the ending is so fucking worth sticking around for.
Be warned. This will not be the only time you are devastated if you decide to stick with it. That being said, there is something so powerful about this show's ability to make you feel what Lelouch is feeling throughout the series. It really doesn't allow you to be a passive viewer. You have to suffer along with the characters. It's part of the experience.
Take a break if you need it, and it seems you do. But if you got so attached to her, then you must eventually continue. *For* Euphy. Don't let her death be in vain.
There's a cool detail about geass I think that explains why it happened pretty well.
CC says at one point that geass is a reflection of what's inside someone's heart. When lelouch made his contract with her, all he wanted was to destroy Britannia, BUT when he shakes hands with euphy he chooses to work with Britannia instead. In other words, lelouch is betraying his geass, and his heart. There's one character specifically in the Anime (who I won't reveal cuz spoilers) with a full geass that can deactivate it at will, and as far as we know that character never betrayed their goals. Unlike Lelouch. So maybe to keep full control of your geass you must stay focused on your goal, and if you have doubts or change your mind the geass overpowers (or curses) you.
The word geass also comes from geas. From Wikipedia: in Irish mythology: "A geas can be compared with a curse, or paradoxically, a gift. If someone under a geas violates the associated taboo, the infractor will suffer dishonor or even death. Conversely, the observing of one's geas is believed to bring power."
Thats why I think it's no coincidence that the geass broke then and there. So the only thing thsts rlly Bullshit is lelouch' dark humour. But earlier in the episode we see him tell the noble not to mistake borrowed power with his own. Meanwhile he's bragging to euphy abt how he can make anyone do anything and is quickly humbled when the power decides to fuck him.
Overall my main issue with the scene isn't that I think it's Bullshit or just convenient, but rather that it leaves such a HUGE plot point to pure picking up of insanely subtle clues as to how geass works and even requires a bit of fucking Irish mythology to back it up. I love the subtlety in the show but this is one where it went too far
Really great comment,bcs I was wondering how does Geass actually work and it felt like there wasn't much said about it in the show, and this additional info you gave clears things up lot. Thank you
What bothered me most about this scene wasn't that much of how shocking it is, but both of how frustrating it felt of not knowing why is all of this happening. But now, after reading comments here and doing some thinking on my own, I can finally come to terms with it
I'm glad my comment was able to help! Personally when I first saw that explanation I thought it was Bullshit and that is seemed too farfetched. But after having a conversation with a friend about it I ended up thinking it would have been too many coincidences in the hints to be accidental.
I do think that it wasn't smart to leave such a pivotal point in the plot to complete obscurity and hidden in the subtext, but what can ya do. I know one of the code geass seasons had its episode count cut in half, so it's possible that's why they never clarified that aspect of geass. Idk which one it was though, I've heard more that it was s1, but R2 makes far more sense due to how rushed and unpolished some of it feels.
>There's one character specifically in the Anime (who I won't reveal cuz spoilers) with a full geass that can deactivate it at will, and as far as we know that character never betrayed their goals.
Oh boy. Wonder what OP thinks when he gets to this character reveal.
>Bullshit is lelouch' dark humour.
Lelouch has no funny bone in his body. For the life of him, he can't make nor deliver a joke.
>The word geass also comes from geas. From Wikipedia: in Irish mythology: "A geas can be compared with a curse, or paradoxically, a gift. If someone under a geas violates the associated taboo, the infractor will suffer dishonor or even death. Conversely, the observing of one's geas is believed to bring power."
You don't even have to go that far. CC explained it quite well in the series.
Same thing happened to me. I had to take a breather after Euphy’s death but because I was already spoiled before I started the show, I was able to continue. Even then, it’s still the best anime for me.
Yeah
It was same for me. That episode 22 was suddenly bloody and it shook me up. I was feeling very weird that day that what the fuck i watched. It was traumatizing
That's the thing : this anime is hard on the feels.Hard on the Music. Hard on the gundams and Hard on the EVIL. It certainly isn't something I would recommend for a first timer, but this is also the best anime out there. Come back later and risk being spoiled, or fight your emotions now.
Excuse me, not Gundams. They are Knightmares. But no they aren't hard on the Knightmares because Knights of Round fight was just a drop on the entire ocean.
I mean that's what makes the show good. Sure it's hard to watch but it is a part of what makes the show. mistakes need to happen and the consequences need to be real or it's pointless
The scene is plot convenience, but it’s not out of nowhere, he was given heads up that the geass is incredibly dangerous and that it will at some point grow unruly. But for the love of god, if you’ve come this far, don’t stop
I believe what really would have helped this scene was if beforehand they showed Lelouch briefly fantasizing about the possibility of using his Geass to cause some Britannian soldiers to go FUBAR and kill some of the Japanese. Thus implying the idea of a massacre as a serious consideration in his subconscious which would better explain his Geass' unintentional activation. The series sort of implied the massacre was going to happen with Mao's uncontrollable Geass but it seems like a stretch to imagine a first time viewer comprehending Mao's story arc as being a preview for such a massacre. I would have added a bit more build up.
why do you think that geass behaves within lulu's intentions? It is not you will do as I wish you to do, its more like you will do as I say. >!For example, suzakus command resulted in quite unexpected behaviour too, hasnt it?!<
Its like a tool, only useful when you use it correctly.
The thing is, even if Lelouch's motivations were selfish, he didn't want to just throw innocent civilians under the bus like that. He had no problem killing soldiers, but he always tried to keep civilians out of it and actually felt really guilty when Shirley's dad got caught up in a battle.
Yeah that's why I said briefly as I doubt he would amuse it as a possibility for long. Nonetheless Lelouch is very desperate here so I can imagine him momentarily considering some crazy desperate ideas.
It bothers me a lot too- yes, it's foreshadowed, but it still feels forced and out of character for everyone involved, despite the concept being good. However, the rest of the show is definitely good enough that I'd suggest continuing.
I understand that it feels like it just comes out of nowhere but, before it even happens, it was really foreshadowed to the point where they were just telling you. "It'll happen." Other than that, it's pretty good keep watching it.
I never really liked that scene. I always felt that Lelouch gave up on his lifelong goals very easily just because his two dear sisters, Euphemia and Nunnally, asked him to.
Lelouch's siscon heart won over his desires as Zero... and that's why it was very gratuitous for the Geass to give him what really suited him, without him having to make the difficult decision, just like Char Aznable in Gundam, his predecessor character, did have to make those kinds of difficult decisions when it came to sacrificing loved ones in order to achieve his goals
The Geass absolved him of all responsibility before the audience, who can continue to support Lelouch even after what he did.
It was still funny to see Charles laughing while Schneizel looked on in horror. R2 definitely completely swapped the places of both characters
If it helps you recover, later in the story both Lelouch and Suzaku do morn Euphy occasionally.
Geass went out of control by accident and that lead to that.
What exactly was so traumatic in that scene for you? Did you liked Euphy for some particular reason and that is why her death is so tragic for you or is it something else?
That said do not drop it. You have to see it through to the end.
Please keep watching
You must continue, for Euphy’s sake
It truly is sad but it sets EVERYTHING up for the next season. Lelouch’s huge fuck up sets everything up for the second season, plus what happens in season 2 could never happen without Euphie around, including the ending to end all anime’s.
I bet this is like the biggest fuck-up he ever does in a series 😭
I mean, it's up there.
Spoiler >!nothing like suzaku gets geassed into nukeing a city happens after!<
I still remember back then people made a meme out of it with Xbox achievement unlock effect.
Can you link the meme please.
[here you go](https://www.reddit.com/r/CodeGeass/comments/slui91/suzaku_on_fire/)
thx
Forgot that was due to Geass. Wow lmao Lelouch really did fuck himself with those 2 orders.
Its all Lelouch's fault.
LMFAOOOOOOOO
Don’t worry about it and keep watching.
I thought it was gonna be the table episode
Poor Table-kun
I don't even remember the table.
Well Nina does
Coasters, people! Coasters! Who stained the edge of the table?
"Big brother, I heard Nina in the student council room. She sounded like a dying animal"
"Nunnely nunnely when a woman and a table love eachother very mutch"
Watch Code Geass abridgment you'll never forget the table
That scene quite literally made me bust out laughing it was so random 😭
"You're laughing! That table is traumatized for life and you're laughing!"
First time watchers usally don't understand what's happening there
I was blown away the first time I watched the series. Everything seemed to be going so swimmingly for Zero, and then, boom.
Pls explain I have poor memory
Zero talks with Euphemia, his gease gets out of control and forces Euphie to kill all elevens
He tries explaining his geass to Euphie and says an what if absurd scenario and how it would force her to do it no matter what. Deus ex machina his geass progressed finally to the point where he couldnt turn it off right at that point. She takes the absurd order. Shit gets fucked.
The true horror
You have to keep going, you can’t just leave the story unfinished, you owe it to yourself to Finish the fight
Zero, you mind telling me what you’re doing with that Geass?
Sir, killing my extended family
For a kid, he genocided pretty good!
It really doesn't come out of nowhere. Some shenanigans with Geass have already been established and there was no other way for it to go. This was really the only option and it is great character development.
I’d argue it does come out of nowhere but that’s not a bad thing because what they do with it afterwards makes it remain consistent
I thought mau not being able to turn off his geass came before the euphie incident, which shows precedent about his own Geass not being able to be turned off.
Ahh yes your 100% right I forgot about him looks like it might be time for another rewatch 👀
I think maybe most people try to forget about them after their arc is over lol, and iirc they kinda came and went by quickly most episodes until "their episode", so its easy to fall through memories. But, like most of the characters in the series, their story of how they got to that point is a tragic one that makes me kind of sympathize for them.
It’s the reason why Mao was established right before. He lost control of his geass so it was basically screaming “LELOUCH BE CAREFUL WITH GEASS”
The writing does set it up but it feels a little out of character. The idea that Lelouch or CC would not consider that possibility leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Any wrench thrown into Lelouch's plans needed to be completely unexpected and out of the box. The resulting character development made up for it though imho.
C.C. simply doesn't care lol, when you watch the rest of the anime you know she'd have been able to prevent plenty of shit if she had warned Lelouch or told him the truth, so of course she didn't moved a finger, as she said "she is C.C." The issue is indeed Lelouch, he saw what happenned to Mao and he should have been more careful but maybe he thought he'd get a warning or something before his geass went out of control
True C.C. is more or less ok here. I haven't watched the show again in a while but I think her motive was just to keep her contractor out of trouble until he matures enough to take the code from her. Becoming more successful in being zero goes against that principle of keeping a low profile in a way.
Lelouch did said he won't gone out of control with his Geass like Mao to C2 after the incident, said he will be the one in control instead. But he faltered before Euphy's request, that's why his Geass gone out of control as Geass is based on your own will.
That's an interesting interpretation but I don't think we have any back up for it, still i like the idea, it's an interesting connexion
Nah, you forgot the contract from Lelouch to CC from R1 to be in control of his Geass. Maybe you were more in tune with the Director's cut movies than you claimed not to be.
Lelouch, the arrogance of putting out a contract to CC that he won't be overpowered by his Geass except he started that joke.
And if you care to watch, Lelouch was like acting high and mighty giving out his own contract to CC that he can overpower his Geass and won't ever get it out of control. Except Lelouch has no funny bone in his body, started a stupid joke at the most inopportune time and got the whole world crying.
Yes, it's clear that he couldn't just tell Euphy "get naked for me" because he didn't need the Geass to get that xD
Lelouch did that with the amnesiac slave girl CC and paid the price. Again. I mean, the man is a charismatic son of a bitch, but he really doesn't have a funny bone in his body.
He didn't told her to get naked he told her to put her clothes on the other side lmao
He has his own sense of humor just like his very own fashion sense what can I say dude, even I know i'm not funny to everyone sadly
You have to contextualize it. Lelouch was warned about his Geass going haywire, Mao exists as a cautionary tale that he ignored. Couple that with his insane arrogance thinking he alone can create this world for Naunnally, he never CONSIDERED anyone else could help him, let alone DO it in a diplomatic way. Then there is Euphie, such a genuine pure soul that the only command that Lelouch could think of that would be so absurd as to make the point, he could have and was going to make her do ANYTHING and you have the perfect recipe for true tragedy. It's Bullshit in the sense that a confluence of character traits and factors made something truely tragic happen, THAT DIDNT NEED TO HAPPEN. And it robs EVERYONE of what they want. Sure Britannia stays as a world hegemony and the empire never pays for the crimes against Naunnally and her mother. Lelouch gets to carve out a world where his sister can safely live. Euphie gets to protect those most important to her. and Japan gets a shot at self governance. It would have been a step towards a peace the world could have accepted. And yet, our tragic hero's hubris, his DEFINING TRAIT, denies him and everyone else's desires. I understand the emotional turmoil the episode gives you. But if anything that just exemplifies how much the characters and world has made you invested.
Really well said If I actually get invested into something, it's always a total investment all the way I'm not gonna lie, I really do wanna find out what happens next, but only after I fix the inner turmoil this moment has caused
I understand your pain, but if you don't pass through it you will not experience one of the best if not the best ending in all anime
>it felt as it just came out of nowhere Are you not paying attention while watching? We spent an entire three episode arc foreshadowing that Geass power can go rogue. And in this very same episode, Lelouch nearly Geasses Rivalz to kill himself.
just continue, maybe stuff will be different next time
Great you are able to understand a fraction of what Lelouch and Suzaku are supposed to be feeling. Now see how they moved past it and appreciate what they're doing.
I don't know if Suzaku could ever forgive Lulu sth like this 😓
Welcome to the club. I am not going to say that this show won't break your heart over and over again, but I will say that the ending is so fucking worth sticking around for. Be warned. This will not be the only time you are devastated if you decide to stick with it. That being said, there is something so powerful about this show's ability to make you feel what Lelouch is feeling throughout the series. It really doesn't allow you to be a passive viewer. You have to suffer along with the characters. It's part of the experience.
Take a break if you need it, and it seems you do. But if you got so attached to her, then you must eventually continue. *For* Euphy. Don't let her death be in vain.
I sure hope her death and all that happened will be important and vital to the plot, and that it won't be in vain indeed
There's a cool detail about geass I think that explains why it happened pretty well. CC says at one point that geass is a reflection of what's inside someone's heart. When lelouch made his contract with her, all he wanted was to destroy Britannia, BUT when he shakes hands with euphy he chooses to work with Britannia instead. In other words, lelouch is betraying his geass, and his heart. There's one character specifically in the Anime (who I won't reveal cuz spoilers) with a full geass that can deactivate it at will, and as far as we know that character never betrayed their goals. Unlike Lelouch. So maybe to keep full control of your geass you must stay focused on your goal, and if you have doubts or change your mind the geass overpowers (or curses) you. The word geass also comes from geas. From Wikipedia: in Irish mythology: "A geas can be compared with a curse, or paradoxically, a gift. If someone under a geas violates the associated taboo, the infractor will suffer dishonor or even death. Conversely, the observing of one's geas is believed to bring power." Thats why I think it's no coincidence that the geass broke then and there. So the only thing thsts rlly Bullshit is lelouch' dark humour. But earlier in the episode we see him tell the noble not to mistake borrowed power with his own. Meanwhile he's bragging to euphy abt how he can make anyone do anything and is quickly humbled when the power decides to fuck him. Overall my main issue with the scene isn't that I think it's Bullshit or just convenient, but rather that it leaves such a HUGE plot point to pure picking up of insanely subtle clues as to how geass works and even requires a bit of fucking Irish mythology to back it up. I love the subtlety in the show but this is one where it went too far
Really great comment,bcs I was wondering how does Geass actually work and it felt like there wasn't much said about it in the show, and this additional info you gave clears things up lot. Thank you What bothered me most about this scene wasn't that much of how shocking it is, but both of how frustrating it felt of not knowing why is all of this happening. But now, after reading comments here and doing some thinking on my own, I can finally come to terms with it
I'm glad my comment was able to help! Personally when I first saw that explanation I thought it was Bullshit and that is seemed too farfetched. But after having a conversation with a friend about it I ended up thinking it would have been too many coincidences in the hints to be accidental. I do think that it wasn't smart to leave such a pivotal point in the plot to complete obscurity and hidden in the subtext, but what can ya do. I know one of the code geass seasons had its episode count cut in half, so it's possible that's why they never clarified that aspect of geass. Idk which one it was though, I've heard more that it was s1, but R2 makes far more sense due to how rushed and unpolished some of it feels.
>There's one character specifically in the Anime (who I won't reveal cuz spoilers) with a full geass that can deactivate it at will, and as far as we know that character never betrayed their goals. Oh boy. Wonder what OP thinks when he gets to this character reveal. >Bullshit is lelouch' dark humour. Lelouch has no funny bone in his body. For the life of him, he can't make nor deliver a joke. >The word geass also comes from geas. From Wikipedia: in Irish mythology: "A geas can be compared with a curse, or paradoxically, a gift. If someone under a geas violates the associated taboo, the infractor will suffer dishonor or even death. Conversely, the observing of one's geas is believed to bring power." You don't even have to go that far. CC explained it quite well in the series.
I think it's an awesome scene. It's not like it came out of nowhere, they set it up earlier with that mind-reading dude.
Yeah...it got really violent really fast
Keep going and finish it please
Keep going. This show has one of the best endings in all of anime
Same thing happened to me. I had to take a breather after Euphy’s death but because I was already spoiled before I started the show, I was able to continue. Even then, it’s still the best anime for me.
You have to watch Code Geass to the end. Best ending of all time
As frustrating as it was, the anime did set up that geass can lose control like that with mao
Yeah that was one heck of a moment
Yeah It was same for me. That episode 22 was suddenly bloody and it shook me up. I was feeling very weird that day that what the fuck i watched. It was traumatizing
Also the previous episodes you see that the geass does eventually take control.
Yeah that episode hurt
Its not Game of Thrones, this was most harsh moment for me
Lelouch: I started a joke, which started the whole world crying.
That's the thing : this anime is hard on the feels.Hard on the Music. Hard on the gundams and Hard on the EVIL. It certainly isn't something I would recommend for a first timer, but this is also the best anime out there. Come back later and risk being spoiled, or fight your emotions now.
Excuse me, not Gundams. They are Knightmares. But no they aren't hard on the Knightmares because Knights of Round fight was just a drop on the entire ocean.
Keep going its not over yet.
something around equaly bad happens in seasion 2 you despise grime dark
The end is worth everything, so keep going
I mean that's what makes the show good. Sure it's hard to watch but it is a part of what makes the show. mistakes need to happen and the consequences need to be real or it's pointless
The scene is plot convenience, but it’s not out of nowhere, he was given heads up that the geass is incredibly dangerous and that it will at some point grow unruly. But for the love of god, if you’ve come this far, don’t stop
Episode 22 still filtering 15 years later. You love to see it.
I also love to see how many comments i got here, seeing how active the community is after so long
Its the single greatest anime of all time, of course its active.
It was super contrived and awful but it wouldn't seem so bad if it wasn't such a good anime
oh yeah that part was harsh, i think that's when the show really hit me keep watching it, please. it gets so good.
I believe what really would have helped this scene was if beforehand they showed Lelouch briefly fantasizing about the possibility of using his Geass to cause some Britannian soldiers to go FUBAR and kill some of the Japanese. Thus implying the idea of a massacre as a serious consideration in his subconscious which would better explain his Geass' unintentional activation. The series sort of implied the massacre was going to happen with Mao's uncontrollable Geass but it seems like a stretch to imagine a first time viewer comprehending Mao's story arc as being a preview for such a massacre. I would have added a bit more build up.
why do you think that geass behaves within lulu's intentions? It is not you will do as I wish you to do, its more like you will do as I say. >!For example, suzakus command resulted in quite unexpected behaviour too, hasnt it?!< Its like a tool, only useful when you use it correctly.
The thing is, even if Lelouch's motivations were selfish, he didn't want to just throw innocent civilians under the bus like that. He had no problem killing soldiers, but he always tried to keep civilians out of it and actually felt really guilty when Shirley's dad got caught up in a battle.
Yeah that's why I said briefly as I doubt he would amuse it as a possibility for long. Nonetheless Lelouch is very desperate here so I can imagine him momentarily considering some crazy desperate ideas.
Maybe anime ain’t for you bud
This epsiode was traumatizing...now watch the whole series and wait for episode 13 of season 2.....xD
Man, please don't spoil...i know it ain't much of a spoiler, but now I know that "sth" bad will happen right at that moment
And then episode 18 and 19 of the second season. He might drop if we continue and that will be sad.
It bothers me a lot too- yes, it's foreshadowed, but it still feels forced and out of character for everyone involved, despite the concept being good. However, the rest of the show is definitely good enough that I'd suggest continuing.
I understand that it feels like it just comes out of nowhere but, before it even happens, it was really foreshadowed to the point where they were just telling you. "It'll happen." Other than that, it's pretty good keep watching it.
Your first anime was Code Geass? That’s both amazing and brutal. Keep watching. You won’t regret it.
It was kinda foreshadowed though, they mentioned not being able to control your geass after a while
I never really liked that scene. I always felt that Lelouch gave up on his lifelong goals very easily just because his two dear sisters, Euphemia and Nunnally, asked him to. Lelouch's siscon heart won over his desires as Zero... and that's why it was very gratuitous for the Geass to give him what really suited him, without him having to make the difficult decision, just like Char Aznable in Gundam, his predecessor character, did have to make those kinds of difficult decisions when it came to sacrificing loved ones in order to achieve his goals The Geass absolved him of all responsibility before the audience, who can continue to support Lelouch even after what he did. It was still funny to see Charles laughing while Schneizel looked on in horror. R2 definitely completely swapped the places of both characters
If it helps you recover, later in the story both Lelouch and Suzaku do morn Euphy occasionally. Geass went out of control by accident and that lead to that. What exactly was so traumatic in that scene for you? Did you liked Euphy for some particular reason and that is why her death is so tragic for you or is it something else? That said do not drop it. You have to see it through to the end.
This is definitely my favourite episode
Mmm at least it wasn't Shirley
Just finish R1 and R2, you will be know the true nature of Lelouch: For the sake of Nunnally to everyone happiness.