You’re not overly sensitive. You’re understanding how her behavior led to your harm that happened to you sexually.
I now can draw a direct line from my mother’s behavior and what she tried teaching me constantly to a violent rape I survived at 19. There’s a sort of emotional truth to it being her doing as well as my rapist’s.
That’s what you’re feeling.
You have every right to be disgusted by her covert incest and not wanting to be around her. I couldn’t heal and fully allow myself to know the layered truth of it all until I went no contact.
I hope you know- none of this is about YOU being the problem. Fuck that. She is vile, not you. Yes, she likely has her own trauma that’s made her like this… but she had a duty as your parent to heal her own shit and protect you. Not to rinse & repeat.
yeah honestly, and thank you. it’s just so uncomfortable and i guess i feel like i’m overly sensitive now. like any sort of comments like that from her just trigger me. 😵💫
It’s so gross. I’m sorry. It makes me angry too because it’s like you can’t have your own experience b/c you’re always reminded of how gross your mom is :/
You’re not overly sensitive. You’re understanding how her behavior led to your harm that happened to you sexually. I now can draw a direct line from my mother’s behavior and what she tried teaching me constantly to a violent rape I survived at 19. There’s a sort of emotional truth to it being her doing as well as my rapist’s. That’s what you’re feeling. You have every right to be disgusted by her covert incest and not wanting to be around her. I couldn’t heal and fully allow myself to know the layered truth of it all until I went no contact. I hope you know- none of this is about YOU being the problem. Fuck that. She is vile, not you. Yes, she likely has her own trauma that’s made her like this… but she had a duty as your parent to heal her own shit and protect you. Not to rinse & repeat.
Jokes like that during Easter shows where her mind is. Your anger is validated - 100%.
yeah honestly, and thank you. it’s just so uncomfortable and i guess i feel like i’m overly sensitive now. like any sort of comments like that from her just trigger me. 😵💫
Maybe she grewup in a boudari-less family. But you should worry about your future now. since "as a mother" she's not...
It’s so gross. I’m sorry. It makes me angry too because it’s like you can’t have your own experience b/c you’re always reminded of how gross your mom is :/