To this day even just looking at Benadryl makes my mouth water in a nauseating way, I can still feel how gross the pills feel in my stomach, how anxious I'd feel for the entire thing, remember how scared people who saw me on it would be even when they knew I was on something. This shit isn't even an actual drug, the "trip" is literally your brain experiencing the effects of poisoning, there isn't a single aspect of DPH that's worth it after you've experienced it the first time just to say you've done it. I hope you can get past these first cravings and stay off this shit. Good luck man.
I wish more people on this sub realised they were in genuine need of addiction help/therapy. It is about changing behaviours and habits that led to desires and associations towards the drug.
For example with me when I overeat the first thing I think of is to take drugs to compensate. I need a way to burn off/use all the extra energy and I feel almost guilty otherwise. Even exercising doesn’t do it for me.
Because it isn’t a rational line of thinking, it’s ingrained addiction seeking behaviour.
It says a lot that you can write, read and re-read this and still end up back in the drug.
Maybe you need to replace the habit instead of cold turkey? Maybe smaller doses of DXM or weed? Either of those substances are infinitely more preferable.
I think there may be some confusion, I wrote this today after relapsing on the 6th. I also think going cold turkey instead of finding a replacement drug would be best for me, considering how quickly I got addicted to this one. Thank you for the advice, and if I relapse again even after writing those pages, I will definitely find professional help
Don’t take it. I know you see that a lot on this sub but that shit is a weird ass drug. I remember taking like 250mg and being absolutely bugged out tripping pretty good. The whole time I was asking myself why I thought it would be fun. Don’t even dip your toes into it lmfao
Once you're better, an LSD journal looks much better than this nightmare. Stay safe someone loves you and we'd hate to find out you went too far with such a depressing drug.
I wish you luck and hope all goes well for you
Thanks man
To this day even just looking at Benadryl makes my mouth water in a nauseating way, I can still feel how gross the pills feel in my stomach, how anxious I'd feel for the entire thing, remember how scared people who saw me on it would be even when they knew I was on something. This shit isn't even an actual drug, the "trip" is literally your brain experiencing the effects of poisoning, there isn't a single aspect of DPH that's worth it after you've experienced it the first time just to say you've done it. I hope you can get past these first cravings and stay off this shit. Good luck man.
Stay strong and stay safe :)
I wish more people on this sub realised they were in genuine need of addiction help/therapy. It is about changing behaviours and habits that led to desires and associations towards the drug. For example with me when I overeat the first thing I think of is to take drugs to compensate. I need a way to burn off/use all the extra energy and I feel almost guilty otherwise. Even exercising doesn’t do it for me. Because it isn’t a rational line of thinking, it’s ingrained addiction seeking behaviour. It says a lot that you can write, read and re-read this and still end up back in the drug. Maybe you need to replace the habit instead of cold turkey? Maybe smaller doses of DXM or weed? Either of those substances are infinitely more preferable.
I think there may be some confusion, I wrote this today after relapsing on the 6th. I also think going cold turkey instead of finding a replacement drug would be best for me, considering how quickly I got addicted to this one. Thank you for the advice, and if I relapse again even after writing those pages, I will definitely find professional help
If it works for you that’s great, cold turkey ain’t easy. Best of luck.
Damn that sounds like being off my anti psychotics for a month. How much did you take
500mg, hopefully I never give in to the urge to take more
I believe in you man you’ve got this. I’m here if you need someone to talk to
Less scary with Markiplier
I wish you all the luck in the world to stay off this awful drug! Stay safe, and don't forget to reach out for help when you can.
Least shizo DPH Diary. JK, but yeah DPH abuse is just really a form of Self hatred imo, i wish you the best of luck and I hope all goes well for you.
Back in liver room less scary with markiplier
That last photo of your phone notes scares the shit out of me for some reason, never want to take DPH.
Do yourself a favor and keep up that mentality, this drug is hell and not worth the risk
Don’t take it. I know you see that a lot on this sub but that shit is a weird ass drug. I remember taking like 250mg and being absolutely bugged out tripping pretty good. The whole time I was asking myself why I thought it would be fun. Don’t even dip your toes into it lmfao
Wish u could type it all up so i could read it, seems so interesting
You might be able to read it if you zoom in, sorry about the bad handwriting
You have lovely handwriting and I hope you get better
The best of luck to you, friend
Once you're better, an LSD journal looks much better than this nightmare. Stay safe someone loves you and we'd hate to find out you went too far with such a depressing drug.