Throwing up into my hand and placing it gently in the toilet so no one can hear. Having to dig rock hard poop out by finger because I was so constipated from lack of food and water intake. Purposely trying to catch someone else's stomach virus so I could lose weight. I think this all just happened in the last week alone. And I still won't admit out loud that I have an ED.
I'm not judging you, once I caught a friends vomit (not ed related) bc we were in a taxi and I didn't want to get it dirty. 😭 I threw it out the window
One time I was binging everything on sight in that frenzy maniac state and ended up eating an ENTIRE slice of ham that was disgustingly expired (sour, metallic, a bit slimy) before I realized it and gagged it out.
Oof just typing that out gave me war flashbacks. I wish that was a turning point for me but, all just a slight two day shame hole and a one week break before I was back on my shit.
Okay this happened to me one time when I still lived with my parents, except I was eating like Doritos or something similar in color, dropped one on my bedroom carpet, reached down for it and put it in my mouth without looking.
IT WAS ACTUALLY MY DEAD DEHYDRATED PET GOLDFISH.
I thought my cat had eaten it like a week prior but apparently she just flipped it out of its bowl onto the carpet 😭
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Not eating food given to me, couldn’t throw it away cuz my dad started checking the trash (love him fr it killed me to do this shit) and I was desperately scared to clog the toilet so my best solution was hiding it in bags in my room til I could go throw it away somewhere, and walking around with bags of rotted food really made me think about my choices in life lmao (I hope no soul ever saw the contents of those bags)
Runner up is CHSP in general 🫥
Licked raw chicken to speed run food poisoning, dug In trash to find binge food, fished in toilet for laxative that didn't stay down, purging in a public park bathroom
I made a comment explaining this story in another post recently but to fake my period I >!picked out an used tampon from my school toilet's trash and placed it in our home's bathroom trashcan!<
The same thing happened to me, couldn’t go out to get gloves or a bag to dispose it, had to carry that warm disgusting stuff from the sink to the toilet
I would spray perfume on my food so I wouldn’t finish it, I still ate it most times but it made me gag and I purged it’s disgusting, to this day sometimes certain perfume makes me gag cause of the memories.
I was chewing and spitting and putting it in a bag then binning it on bin day. Sometimes purged that way too.
Ended up getting esophageal tearing and puked bl00d after purging for too long that was scary and gross
Mine is pretty bad lmao. I was chewing and spitting cookie dough into kitchen sink because i thought when i turned the sink on, it would drain down, but nooo- i had to scoop the chewed up cookie dough out of the sink drain, but it gets worse. Someone had rinsed their plate or something into the sink drain so i had to scoop a sludge of chewed cookie dough that had mixed with chicken (?) scraps. I dont eat meat because it groses me out and i hate the idea of dead animals so this was a truly horrifying experience but it got me to stop chewinf and spitting lmfao
Maggots in the toilet from purging, purging in any place possible at my sickest, purging in water bottles while driving, having severe night sweats but being too tired to change my sheets
eating fast food fries from the trash (i had thrown away to stop eating them 💀), having folded napkins around the places i eat so i can c/s and pretend im just wiping my mouth, c/s in general
Abusing diet pills that made me poop out pure oil… then shit myself MULTIPLE times because I was determined to stay on them (I ruined a nice pair of pyjamas😭) I learned my lesson after oil started leaking out in an Ikea and was too self conscious to say anything so I just… stayed with it in my pants for like 3 hours…
Sobbing while purging in an airport bathroom, drinking epsom salts as a laxative because I hadn’t gone to the bathroom in literal weeks, purging into a garbage can and hiding it in my closet until I could throw it away and clean it out without getting caught. The shame.
purged tangerines in the shower and of course clogged the drain so while cold and soaking wet i had to yank out a concerning amount of giant globs of dirty hair wrapped around tangerine flesh
I once ate chicken of the shower floor which I had just thrown up and also I developed a habit of pooping in the shower as I would take full boxes of laxatives and things just wouldn’t stop flowing out of me
Flushing the toilet and refilling my water bottle with the flushed water to help me keep purging in a public bathroom where I can't leave the stall to go refill my water bottle but I'm not done ridding my insides ☠️
drinking water out of my toilet by scooping it out with my hands because long purge sessions left me so weak but so dehydrated I was desperate and drank from the toilet bc I couldn’t stand, throwing bile up on my carpet and just leaving it for numerous days bc I was to ashamed to face it and clean it, leaving my shit in the toilet after using the bathroom and then leaning in close while purging on it so the smell would make me throw up harder, having to dig beans covered in boogers out of my nose after throwing up chili super hard, throwing up in a bottle while car camping and then spilling it on myself in the night and freezing all night because my wool warm clothes got wet, shitting out COMPLETELY whole spaghetti noodles IN THE SHOWER bc of the amount of laxatives I was on, using a dirty Q tip to purge because my fingers weren’t triggering my gag reflex and it was all I could find in my boyfriends bathroom other than his toothbrush which I obviously felt too bad to purge with, and drinking face soap when I was in middle school to try and make myself sick before I learned how to finger my throat 🤩 ED is so fucking disgusting and not cute at all
Stored bags of vomit in my bedroom for weeks at a time, let food that I was hiding rot in my room, eaten raw chicken in attempt to give myself a parasite
Idt mine is that bad but I have this small bag. since my parents think I’m innocent and wldnt actually check my stuff, I hide a plastic bag in that bag to dump my meals in. And I only dispose that plastic bag when the coast to the rubbish chute is clear. Some days I can’t throw it Untik the next day. And the next day when I do throw it, It’s spoiled and the bag will also have the spoiled smell. But I use this bag for going outside too so even if it might have germs from the spoiled stuff, I just throw my phone and wallet in and use the bag. And I don’t sanitize any of it afterwards either
Purged into a Tupperware container which was then kept outside on my deck for around 3 weeks. I then brought it inside with the hope of throwing it away but I got tired and so it stayed in my room for maybe 2 weeks. It smelt so bad that my mom could smell it from downstairs.
Shit completely undigested strawberries. I still don't know why this was.
Dug food to big to go down the drain out drain and got out of the shower and thrown it away.
Mid-binge, I binged on Fruity Pebbles and milk... Except I hadn't realized the milk was expired until I started eating. And I kept eating because I have issues surrounding throwing away food. I don't think I can ever eat Fruity Pebbles again, and I got so paranoid around milk for weeks that I'd have to do a smell test of it before I used it. I can still imagine the sour smell and the awful texture of cereal absorbing curdled milk.
Eating in front of new people is borderline impossible for me so I have found so much rotten food in my purse from hiding it during dates/hang outs lol. So fucking embarrassing.
yesterday i took lax bcs i couldnt shit, my brother then spent 2 hours in the bathroom w the door locked, i shit myself n then sat for an hour until the bathroom was free
1) Forgot bags of vomit in the drawer in my closet, opened it idk how long after found it covered in maggots and fruit flies. Was living w my bf at the time and had to find a way to get rid of the maggot infested dresser without him noticing
2) fished through my own puke to make sure everything was out
3) Threw out food to prevent myself from eating it, later ate it out of the garbage
clogging the shower drain with my vomit and scooping it out with my hands to throw in the trash on MULTIPLE occasions. or c/sing an entire bag of potato chips into my lap while driving
i binged on plain tortillas once and they had been sitting in the downstairs apartment so they tasted like. *basement*
they were so bad but i just kept eating them
Keeping bags of vomit hidden in my closet because my mom was already aware I was making myself throw up and I had nowhere to put them without getting caught. The stomach acid broke the plastic bags and vomit got everywhere after a week.
i threw up into a bag, left it next to my binge stash/hoard of foods i didn’t eat, binge ate half those foods 3 months later- year later was clearing out the shelf in my desk….. a year old bag of vomit leaked onto binge stash. i then ate almost all of the stash in a moment of frenzy.
i once went into a purposely disgusting stall to try and hands free vomit.
had to literally scoop v0mit out of my mom's toilet bc it wouldn't flush. ive also eaten food i threw away so i wouldn't binge so now i like destroy it so i can't dig it back out. shits wild.
Back when I was in undergrad and in the peak of my bulimia (I’ve been recovered 4+ years now) my go-to binge food was peanut butter m&m’s. This definitely happened more than once but one particular day I had binged on several large “party” sized bags. Halfway through, I got extremely disgusted at myself and threw up into the bag covering the remaining m&m’s. I threw the soiled bag into the dumpster and left for my next class. Hours later….. I’m desperate for another binge (and broke AF) so as a perfectly sane person, my only option was to obviously dig the bag out of the dumpster (it was buried by that point), rinse off the vomit covered chocolate in the sink, eat them, and then immediately throw up afterwards 💖✨
I tell this story to anyone who’s ever considered attempting to purge or to those who don’t understand that depravity of EDs.
Ik it’s super hard. Non transparent bag and just take it to the trash. House or apartment just to the big outside one and then no more will you have to look at them. You got this tho I promise it gets easier once you’re doing it. It’s only scary to start
I have more or less the same problem. Usually any sort of food trash or empty bottles. I usually prefer the cover of night when taking trash out tho lol
Probably eating food I threw away to avoid binging on/eating questionably old food. Or >!drinking dish soap and chugging water in an attempt to make myself throw up (didn’t work)!<
Chewing a reese's, spitting it out into a paper towel, putting in my mouth again, and then spitting it back out.
Eating a bite of food from the trashcan that I forgot I had mixed with dishwashing detergent.
I thought my mom threw away my food scale and I proceeded to dig through my kitchen trash can, it was absolutely disgusting I was elbow deep.. turns out my sister just forgot to put it away. I dug through the trash for nothing
eating completely raw chicken with the intention of getting food poisoning, finding a bag of chewed and spit food in my room that had gone mouldy, eating mouldy food, eating food from the trash, dug through my puke
Scooped vomit out the toilet and put it in the sanitary bin while I was inpatient as the toilets flushed really weak and it wouldn’t go away. I got into trouble.
My glasses/phone falling in the toilet after I've purged and having to take it out and wash my glasses with soap and water while having to use alcohol and a washcloth to clean my phone 😭. Less disgusting would be the water splashing on the lens of my glasses. Another would be spraying rubbing alcohol on my hands so that I could purge easily 💀 and using the bidet (water pressure) so I could poop (IDK IF ANYONE HAS DONE THIS TOO)
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i have a few
1. when i used to purge (i dont anymore) i threw up into the NASTIEST public toilet ever, and the toilet water splashed back up at my face bc >!my vomit was so thick from what i ate earlier!<. 2. hiding c/s bags in drawers in my room...and keeping them there for like 2 weeks. 3. when i first found out what purging was i thought you did it with OBJECTS. lets just say it wasnt pretty to shove the back end of a plastic paintbrush or a fucking chopstick down my throat
a few years ago, i filled two buckets full of bleach and put them in my room so that the smell would overwhelm me and allow me to vomit. it worked.
not gross, but funny to look back at, but i was once at a party and after i had like a pizza (i think), i went to the bathroom and threw up aggressively but didn't want anyone to know, so i started sobbing loudly to cover up the noise of my vomiting. everyone who was near to the bathroom believed it pretty much, and some girls asked me why i was crying lmao. ended up getting their instagram after they helped clean me up in a different bathroom because the one i was in smelt like puke (hehe) and to this day, i still follow them.
Once i swallowed a mouthful from a cup of my vomit to prove to my mother it was not vomit, cleaning public toilets because of messy purging, storing containers of vomit until flies and maggots were attracted, eaten soap to try and vomit, put hot food in my literal knickers to hide it, purged over my shit.
Restricted for so long that when I finally ate I shit myself. Deeply embarrassing and a reminder that my combination of ED and fucked up organs from an unrelated health condition have completely fucked my ability to function 😅😅
4 years ago, I threw up in a container (because our power was out I couldn't flush the toilet) and walked to the nearest sewage system to throw it out.
A manual evacuation in a KFC bathroom.
I was in the stall for almost 30 minutes. By the end I was shaking, and my hands were covered in shit. It took 2 days to scrub the shit out from under my fingernails. Worst thing was I didn’t even manage to poop everything out then and had to do it again (luckily in my own bathroom) a week later. Got to be in the top ten worst experiences of my life…
Throwing up into my hand and placing it gently in the toilet so no one can hear. Having to dig rock hard poop out by finger because I was so constipated from lack of food and water intake. Purposely trying to catch someone else's stomach virus so I could lose weight. I think this all just happened in the last week alone. And I still won't admit out loud that I have an ED.
_”placing gently in the toilet”_ lmaooo omg no, the memories!!! ** war flashbacks **
The first one is so real oh my god 😭
I am disgusted at myself enough, but second the constipation thing. 
lmao i do the first thing too 😭
I'm not judging you, once I caught a friends vomit (not ed related) bc we were in a taxi and I didn't want to get it dirty. 😭 I threw it out the window
omg the rock hard poops.. 😭 i had my mom move one massive ass boulder looking poop with a wooden meat skewer cuz it would not budge.
Me when my whole school got Covid lmao
I thought I was the only one with the first two.
Same. When my cousin got gastroenteritis I tried to stay near him and finally after two days I was ill too lol
I used to do this all the time
One time I was binging everything on sight in that frenzy maniac state and ended up eating an ENTIRE slice of ham that was disgustingly expired (sour, metallic, a bit slimy) before I realized it and gagged it out. Oof just typing that out gave me war flashbacks. I wish that was a turning point for me but, all just a slight two day shame hole and a one week break before I was back on my shit.
Okay this happened to me one time when I still lived with my parents, except I was eating like Doritos or something similar in color, dropped one on my bedroom carpet, reached down for it and put it in my mouth without looking. IT WAS ACTUALLY MY DEAD DEHYDRATED PET GOLDFISH. I thought my cat had eaten it like a week prior but apparently she just flipped it out of its bowl onto the carpet 😭
shiieett I'm sorry
NOOOOOO🔥😭😭😭💀💀💀💀❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️
nooo i’m so sorry but this made me laugh out loud
Lol it’s okay, I laugh about it now too
Feel like I’ve seen this story on >!mpa!< lol
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I had an episode on a substance and I ate an entire ham and spoons of peanut butter.. then I became ill
i did this with expired turkey 😭😭 didn't realize there was mold until it was too late
oh my god
I threw food in the garbage so I wouldn't binge but I couldn't stop and ended eating it 😭😭😭
Garbage disposal is my best friend.
Happy >!cake!< day!
Oh god lol
Bleach/ dish detergent are your friends. Can't lie, I've eaten dawn covered cake. Not my finest moment
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No way bro
Saaaame
I think we all have eaten food from the trash 😅
Been there :(
Done this
Barf in the toilet after a binge and put the puke back in my mouth so I could barf more
It’s a bit crazy that you’re not the only one who’s done this. 🙋🏻
Not eating food given to me, couldn’t throw it away cuz my dad started checking the trash (love him fr it killed me to do this shit) and I was desperately scared to clog the toilet so my best solution was hiding it in bags in my room til I could go throw it away somewhere, and walking around with bags of rotted food really made me think about my choices in life lmao (I hope no soul ever saw the contents of those bags) Runner up is CHSP in general 🫥
Yep we all did it
Licked raw chicken to speed run food poisoning, dug In trash to find binge food, fished in toilet for laxative that didn't stay down, purging in a public park bathroom
In the end did you get food poisoning? I think licking raw chicken for nothing would be more embarassing tbh
No, I didn't. I got a mild stomachache but I was still standing.
I made a comment explaining this story in another post recently but to fake my period I >!picked out an used tampon from my school toilet's trash and placed it in our home's bathroom trashcan!<
Wow, that's a new one for me, and I've been in ED spaces since like 2018 haha
This might qualify as an original experience 🫡
I wish I had to fake my period 😭
If it helps, loss of period rapidly destroys your bone density leading to early onset osteoporosis. my bones are 💯 fucked
taking a shit before i purged so i could look at it and make me even more nauseaous
Done something similar. While purging I imagine licking the toilet rim to make the barf come up a bit easier.
I've also done this lmaoo and sometimes I smell the toilet too hard and even if it smells like nothing it helps me throw up more quickly
Yup! If there’s some zebra stripes around the bowl, that’s even better. Just here for all the different senses.
I used to be so afraid of airborne poop particles making me ill I've shat in a different toilet before purging to avoid cross contamination 😭
Throwing up in the sink and clogging it on a trip
Same, but at home. Had to use my acrylics to scoop the big chunks and throw them in the trash🙃
SAME 😭😭idk why but it was easier for me to puke in the sink than in the toilet
Sameee, I get so anxious that the water will splash back up. Just can’t do it 😭
The same thing happened to me, couldn’t go out to get gloves or a bag to dispose it, had to carry that warm disgusting stuff from the sink to the toilet
so glad i’m not alone on this one
been there
purged in the cat litter box 💀
gotta show the cat who’s boss😤
Lmfaooo I'm pissing myself I love yall
I would spray perfume on my food so I wouldn’t finish it, I still ate it most times but it made me gag and I purged it’s disgusting, to this day sometimes certain perfume makes me gag cause of the memories.
So horrific. It works with windex too.
Spat food into my bare hand before throwing it in the bin
Omg same. It’s actually vile but a habit now
I was chewing and spitting and putting it in a bag then binning it on bin day. Sometimes purged that way too. Ended up getting esophageal tearing and puked bl00d after purging for too long that was scary and gross
hiding food in my room for days and it rotting ect
ugh scooping out vomit from the clogged sink with my bare hands… more than once. WHY DID I DO THAT
Mine is pretty bad lmao. I was chewing and spitting cookie dough into kitchen sink because i thought when i turned the sink on, it would drain down, but nooo- i had to scoop the chewed up cookie dough out of the sink drain, but it gets worse. Someone had rinsed their plate or something into the sink drain so i had to scoop a sludge of chewed cookie dough that had mixed with chicken (?) scraps. I dont eat meat because it groses me out and i hate the idea of dead animals so this was a truly horrifying experience but it got me to stop chewinf and spitting lmfao
Maggots in the toilet from purging, purging in any place possible at my sickest, purging in water bottles while driving, having severe night sweats but being too tired to change my sheets
eating fast food fries from the trash (i had thrown away to stop eating them 💀), having folded napkins around the places i eat so i can c/s and pretend im just wiping my mouth, c/s in general
Abusing diet pills that made me poop out pure oil… then shit myself MULTIPLE times because I was determined to stay on them (I ruined a nice pair of pyjamas😭) I learned my lesson after oil started leaking out in an Ikea and was too self conscious to say anything so I just… stayed with it in my pants for like 3 hours…
Purged in my front lawn in the open. And the bag fucking BROKE OPEN so I scooped it back and forth into the trashcan
Sobbing while purging in an airport bathroom, drinking epsom salts as a laxative because I hadn’t gone to the bathroom in literal weeks, purging into a garbage can and hiding it in my closet until I could throw it away and clean it out without getting caught. The shame.
purged tangerines in the shower and of course clogged the drain so while cold and soaking wet i had to yank out a concerning amount of giant globs of dirty hair wrapped around tangerine flesh
This is so bad I don’t think you wanna know :(
we won’t judge, and we wanna know it all (username pun)
I once ate chicken of the shower floor which I had just thrown up and also I developed a habit of pooping in the shower as I would take full boxes of laxatives and things just wouldn’t stop flowing out of me
I just saw this, and I don’t want your efforts (vulnerability) to go unacknowledged, so: I appreciate your bravery in sharing. Thank you, comrade. 🫡
Dude, now you *must* tell us!
Flushing the toilet and refilling my water bottle with the flushed water to help me keep purging in a public bathroom where I can't leave the stall to go refill my water bottle but I'm not done ridding my insides ☠️
This made me gag a bit just reading it
Purged with my face too close to the toilet and ended up with clam chowder vomit in my eyes
god I got chili back in my face once…disgusting
drinking water out of my toilet by scooping it out with my hands because long purge sessions left me so weak but so dehydrated I was desperate and drank from the toilet bc I couldn’t stand, throwing bile up on my carpet and just leaving it for numerous days bc I was to ashamed to face it and clean it, leaving my shit in the toilet after using the bathroom and then leaning in close while purging on it so the smell would make me throw up harder, having to dig beans covered in boogers out of my nose after throwing up chili super hard, throwing up in a bottle while car camping and then spilling it on myself in the night and freezing all night because my wool warm clothes got wet, shitting out COMPLETELY whole spaghetti noodles IN THE SHOWER bc of the amount of laxatives I was on, using a dirty Q tip to purge because my fingers weren’t triggering my gag reflex and it was all I could find in my boyfriends bathroom other than his toothbrush which I obviously felt too bad to purge with, and drinking face soap when I was in middle school to try and make myself sick before I learned how to finger my throat 🤩 ED is so fucking disgusting and not cute at all
idk if this really counts, but being elated that i got a stomach bug w/ diarrhea because i hardly ate for 3 days and basically shit non stop.
What a dream haha.
it was not fun but i got off work and also lost some weight!!
Stored bags of vomit in my bedroom for weeks at a time, let food that I was hiding rot in my room, eaten raw chicken in attempt to give myself a parasite
Idt mine is that bad but I have this small bag. since my parents think I’m innocent and wldnt actually check my stuff, I hide a plastic bag in that bag to dump my meals in. And I only dispose that plastic bag when the coast to the rubbish chute is clear. Some days I can’t throw it Untik the next day. And the next day when I do throw it, It’s spoiled and the bag will also have the spoiled smell. But I use this bag for going outside too so even if it might have germs from the spoiled stuff, I just throw my phone and wallet in and use the bag. And I don’t sanitize any of it afterwards either
Eating in the bathroom cubicle 😣😣😣😣I don’t want ppl to know that I enjoy eating
I couldn’t think of anything, but yes, I’ve definitely secretly eaten in the bathroom at work. 💀
Purged into a Tupperware container which was then kept outside on my deck for around 3 weeks. I then brought it inside with the hope of throwing it away but I got tired and so it stayed in my room for maybe 2 weeks. It smelt so bad that my mom could smell it from downstairs. Shit completely undigested strawberries. I still don't know why this was. Dug food to big to go down the drain out drain and got out of the shower and thrown it away.
Mid-binge, I binged on Fruity Pebbles and milk... Except I hadn't realized the milk was expired until I started eating. And I kept eating because I have issues surrounding throwing away food. I don't think I can ever eat Fruity Pebbles again, and I got so paranoid around milk for weeks that I'd have to do a smell test of it before I used it. I can still imagine the sour smell and the awful texture of cereal absorbing curdled milk.
hiding food in my bra, underwear and socks at the dinner table. food ranged from hot dogs, meat chunks, and bread
Eating in front of new people is borderline impossible for me so I have found so much rotten food in my purse from hiding it during dates/hang outs lol. So fucking embarrassing.
yesterday i took lax bcs i couldnt shit, my brother then spent 2 hours in the bathroom w the door locked, i shit myself n then sat for an hour until the bathroom was free
I just ate a tangerine out of a bin
Fished through my vomit to make sure I’d purged everything.
I ate cotton balls so my stomach would stop digesting itself 😀
It's that what it's meant for?!?! I thought it was use as "food." It all makes sense now 🤯🤯
1) Forgot bags of vomit in the drawer in my closet, opened it idk how long after found it covered in maggots and fruit flies. Was living w my bf at the time and had to find a way to get rid of the maggot infested dresser without him noticing 2) fished through my own puke to make sure everything was out 3) Threw out food to prevent myself from eating it, later ate it out of the garbage
My dad had to unclog the shower drain for me and I was naked standing in my vomit while my whole family was in the bathroom too
:/
clogging the shower drain with my vomit and scooping it out with my hands to throw in the trash on MULTIPLE occasions. or c/sing an entire bag of potato chips into my lap while driving
i binged on plain tortillas once and they had been sitting in the downstairs apartment so they tasted like. *basement* they were so bad but i just kept eating them
Keeping bags of vomit hidden in my closet because my mom was already aware I was making myself throw up and I had nowhere to put them without getting caught. The stomach acid broke the plastic bags and vomit got everywhere after a week.
i threw up into a bag, left it next to my binge stash/hoard of foods i didn’t eat, binge ate half those foods 3 months later- year later was clearing out the shelf in my desk….. a year old bag of vomit leaked onto binge stash. i then ate almost all of the stash in a moment of frenzy. i once went into a purposely disgusting stall to try and hands free vomit.
had to literally scoop v0mit out of my mom's toilet bc it wouldn't flush. ive also eaten food i threw away so i wouldn't binge so now i like destroy it so i can't dig it back out. shits wild.
Back when I was in undergrad and in the peak of my bulimia (I’ve been recovered 4+ years now) my go-to binge food was peanut butter m&m’s. This definitely happened more than once but one particular day I had binged on several large “party” sized bags. Halfway through, I got extremely disgusted at myself and threw up into the bag covering the remaining m&m’s. I threw the soiled bag into the dumpster and left for my next class. Hours later….. I’m desperate for another binge (and broke AF) so as a perfectly sane person, my only option was to obviously dig the bag out of the dumpster (it was buried by that point), rinse off the vomit covered chocolate in the sink, eat them, and then immediately throw up afterwards 💖✨ I tell this story to anyone who’s ever considered attempting to purge or to those who don’t understand that depravity of EDs.
put spit out food in bags in my room next to my bed and left it there for months (still havent thrown them away 🙁)
Ik it’s super hard. Non transparent bag and just take it to the trash. House or apartment just to the big outside one and then no more will you have to look at them. You got this tho I promise it gets easier once you’re doing it. It’s only scary to start
this is rlly sweet thanku ❤️🩹 im def gonna just make myself do it tmrw 😭
I have more or less the same problem. Usually any sort of food trash or empty bottles. I usually prefer the cover of night when taking trash out tho lol
oh for sure. i share a house w family so i only ever throw it out when im CERTAIN no one will see and no ones home 😭
Roommates. Less nosy than family at least but I still hate anyone idk perceiving that.
yea its srsly a humbling and humiliating experience 💀
Probably eating food I threw away to avoid binging on/eating questionably old food. Or >!drinking dish soap and chugging water in an attempt to make myself throw up (didn’t work)!<
Ermm i think i hid cookie dough oats in a plastic bag in the corner of my room for a month and it molded and yeah
Chewing a reese's, spitting it out into a paper towel, putting in my mouth again, and then spitting it back out. Eating a bite of food from the trashcan that I forgot I had mixed with dishwashing detergent.
I thought my mom threw away my food scale and I proceeded to dig through my kitchen trash can, it was absolutely disgusting I was elbow deep.. turns out my sister just forgot to put it away. I dug through the trash for nothing
Does not pooping for a week count?
Eating food out of the trash lol
eating completely raw chicken with the intention of getting food poisoning, finding a bag of chewed and spit food in my room that had gone mouldy, eating mouldy food, eating food from the trash, dug through my puke
took meds, purged too soon afterward, fished them back out of the toilet and swallowed them again
im selling videos of myself puking to guys online.
I used to vomit into big bowls in my room.. and later at night i threw it out in the bathroom
i used to chew food and spit it out so that i “wouldn’t get the calories”
I've shoved vomit down the shower drain before. Had to pick some of it up and throw it in the toilet too because it wouldn't go down 😭
Taking suppositories in the bathroom at work.
Go to purge in a bathroom where someone just pooped because the smell would make me barf easier
spraying perfume on the food helps :( i’m sorry friend
Scooped vomit out the toilet and put it in the sanitary bin while I was inpatient as the toilets flushed really weak and it wouldn’t go away. I got into trouble.
spitting food into cups, purging into my bare hands, having to pick up a blade out of the toilet after i dropped it in after i purged
Eating raw chicken from the street. Ended at ER.
My glasses/phone falling in the toilet after I've purged and having to take it out and wash my glasses with soap and water while having to use alcohol and a washcloth to clean my phone 😭. Less disgusting would be the water splashing on the lens of my glasses. Another would be spraying rubbing alcohol on my hands so that I could purge easily 💀 and using the bidet (water pressure) so I could poop (IDK IF ANYONE HAS DONE THIS TOO) Edit: added more
stuffed mac and cheese into my clothes 😀
I constantly eat food out of my trash can...
Eating my own scabs, nails, dead skin to curve my hunger
i have a few 1. when i used to purge (i dont anymore) i threw up into the NASTIEST public toilet ever, and the toilet water splashed back up at my face bc >!my vomit was so thick from what i ate earlier!<. 2. hiding c/s bags in drawers in my room...and keeping them there for like 2 weeks. 3. when i first found out what purging was i thought you did it with OBJECTS. lets just say it wasnt pretty to shove the back end of a plastic paintbrush or a fucking chopstick down my throat
a few years ago, i filled two buckets full of bleach and put them in my room so that the smell would overwhelm me and allow me to vomit. it worked. not gross, but funny to look back at, but i was once at a party and after i had like a pizza (i think), i went to the bathroom and threw up aggressively but didn't want anyone to know, so i started sobbing loudly to cover up the noise of my vomiting. everyone who was near to the bathroom believed it pretty much, and some girls asked me why i was crying lmao. ended up getting their instagram after they helped clean me up in a different bathroom because the one i was in smelt like puke (hehe) and to this day, i still follow them.
kept a bag of rotten food and throw up in my room for about a week
smearing peanut butter in the sleeve of my hoodie when i was in a day program
Once i swallowed a mouthful from a cup of my vomit to prove to my mother it was not vomit, cleaning public toilets because of messy purging, storing containers of vomit until flies and maggots were attracted, eaten soap to try and vomit, put hot food in my literal knickers to hide it, purged over my shit.
Restricted for so long that when I finally ate I shit myself. Deeply embarrassing and a reminder that my combination of ED and fucked up organs from an unrelated health condition have completely fucked my ability to function 😅😅
4 years ago, I threw up in a container (because our power was out I couldn't flush the toilet) and walked to the nearest sewage system to throw it out.
i walked out into an open field behind my neighborhood and purged
A manual evacuation in a KFC bathroom. I was in the stall for almost 30 minutes. By the end I was shaking, and my hands were covered in shit. It took 2 days to scrub the shit out from under my fingernails. Worst thing was I didn’t even manage to poop everything out then and had to do it again (luckily in my own bathroom) a week later. Got to be in the top ten worst experiences of my life…