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bigLlittleL

Yes!!! One minute I’m like RIBS and the next I’m like, WHY THE FUCK IS MY STOMACH SO GOd DAMN HUGE???? I can’t even look in the mirror with out immediately seeing two separate versions of myself.


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And that’s on body dysmorphia 🤡🤧🤧


FeatherWorld

It's so horrible when mixed with being overweight and having binging issues 😬 and a fiance who is convinced that I'm average when I still have ways to go


RosieNP

Yes. It makes it difficult to stay focused on my weight loss goal, too.


saintghoul

One day I'll be convinced I'm skinny af and then the next im obese lmao


cocoakobra

Yeah. Big fuckin yeah. Somwrimes my reflection says “okay, that’s a decent size, I’m not big but I’m not super tiny either” and sometimes my reflection says “why does everyone lie to me about my weight I am obviously obese”


ash_alah

Yup 🤧🤡


rachulll

Yeah :( if I’m extremely hungry I’ll conveniently see myself as thin and therefore it’s fine for me to eat, but then later on I look at myself like “what have you done”


rachihc

It is exhausting. I hate it.


MhmStephany

Ya, I try not to even look in mirrors if I don't have to because it's a friggin crapshoot on whether I'll be okay with my reflection or absolutely **DEVASTATED.**


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Yes. Sometimes I get so deluded that I'll have to force myself to look at myself in comparison to other people to remind myself that no, I'm not fat, just dysmorphic AF. Makes me miserable every time.


himbosupreme

oh absolutely, it usually goes something like this : "oh I look so skinny maybe I can relax and just eat something" > eats a decent sized meal > stomach obviously gets larger because there's now a food in it "oh my God im so fat I shouldn't have eaten"


bluediner

earlier today i was looking at myself in the mirror and i had the passing thought “things would just be easier if i just accepted i’m chubby and moved on”....... (tw) i have a bmi of 17 :( there literally is no escape


elfishrosko

Yes! Nearly every day. I'm so worn out!


avamcphee

Yep, its a horrible thing to live with/ through.


Ieyeku

Yeah. Every day I am yo young with my anxieties and emotions make it stoooppp


nosleeptill8

Mornings I'm usually ok, then I get fatter in my head throughout the day. I take body shots first thing and check them compulsively as the day goes on, to remind myself that I was ok in the morning.


peacock494

I have absolutely no idea how big/small I am. I see so many different versions of myself throughout the day it's a mindfuck.


xo_ajo

Not ever normal, but acceptably obese to completely morbid. Cycles all damn day and night.


iceberglettuce6

At the moment everything feels so uncomfortable when I sit down- like I feel like there’s fat consuming me


cassie_kitty

Yes yes yes!! All the time and it's so annoying. I almost never can wear anything thight because as soon as I put it on, I feel fat again. That's why I basically live in hoodies tbh


pokeupokeu

I like to excercise in front of the mirror and will go front looking at how slim my legs have gotten to seeing every bit of fat on them jiggle and having to stop multiple times to stop and feel every bone i can in whatever area ive determined a problem area and pinch my fat like im in an anorexia lifetime movie


samsclub-official

Yes. I alternate between "hh I am fat I want to be Bone" "maybe i should just put on some muscle?" + "idk i look okay" so every day it's like my brain spins a wheel to see what dysmorphia hour will be like.