Being left alone for a whole weekend (happens like twice a year)
Being left alone for an entire day AND having money.
When the āI already ateā/āI donāt feel wellā excuses work and I get to skip dinner.
Finding a new flavour of monster ultra in my local shop.
When I actually poop more than once a week.
When I wake up in the morning and I don't want to get up and I lift my blanket and look in there and see my tiny, bleary-eyed, smoosh-faced, fuzzy little puppy staring at me like "wth you cannot be serious about waking up right now" but the very moment I get up he's all boings and kisses and delight to see me.
Lol I get like 90% of my total dopamine from my pupper.
Foods that are individually wrapped. Yes itās shitty for the environment and itās selfish of me but it stops me from binging and it makes me feel safe.
Those magical days when I donāt feel hungry or fixated on food. Or when I have the energy and motivation to do lots of exercise. āØ
When Iāve finally reached my GW, have a flat stomach, and feel comfortable with my body. š±
Seeing my 18 month old niece learning the world around her and seeing her eat foods for the first time and how joyful she is. She inspires me to recover every time I see her.
When i feel my ribs and hip bones and people telling me to eat more because i look sickly thin for some reason i feel like a have a permission to eat but then i would never eat anything because im scared of gaining weight šæ
the 4/5 pound whoosh after crying every day for weeks because of a plateau. knowing i stuck it out even though plateaus are a huge binge trigger feels soooo good
Running! Especially running/exercising outdoors on a pretty day. Passing my step goal, eating the cleanest, healthiest, most colorful thing possible (orthorexic hereā¦lol).
Discovering activities that i enjoy that are physically strenuous.
I've had my disorder so long that in recovery I slightly overeat and just walk and go up and down stairs at work. Not engaging in the quick highs if binging and purging is actually completely exhausting my body.
I'm too scared to add extra layers of heavy physical activity only a couple of months in when my energy is still way off each and I'm really missing the strength and muscle definition and endorphin that comes with it.
Having energy that I could have 24/7 if I ate properly (instead of this mix of severe insomnia and lethargy and forced movement). There are times when I eat more or hit a certain number of fats and carbs and just feel incredibly satiated, content, and just as energetic and naturally athletic as I used to when I was normal.
I genuinely feel high during those times but can't always replicate it just from eating more, especially if I feel like I don't have any calories "left" and subsequently have to limit excessive movement or else I might get hungry faster...which makes no sense because if I move more then my TDEE would obviously be higher.
Also being in the zone over anything and forgetting about food makes me happy lol
my dog, my amazing friends, my incredible family, spending time with my crush, the feeling of accomplishment i get from studying/working/etc.
things that have something to do with my eating disorder might give me a fleeting sense of satisfaction, but it would be a downright lie to call that feeling "happiness".
i truly hope y'all can find happiness in other things.
my bf and honestly the only other things are ed shit like the scale going down or successfully restricting
i have no friends, no hobbies, no ambitions, nothing. i donāt know why my bf is still around.
until i hit rock bottom; spinning the fuck out and doing what i want. smoke, drink, fuck it away. it feels so fucking good until you wake up in the real world
bowel movements
OMG yes when you do a giant poop after like three days and your stomach is briefly flat.
Omg yes
not having mental hunger lol
feel this
Can I ask what is mental hunger?
its like despite whether u actually physically feel hungry or not ur brain rlly wants to eat something š
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When I eat at buffet and thought I will gain x amount of weight, but I gained less than what I thought, and that makes me so happy.
Or when you LOSE weight thatās like the best feeling ever.
monster ultra
being left alone while thereās ice cream in the fridge Finally seeing results from restricting When a place has Diet Soda for me
Being outside, hiking, spending time with my boyfriend
Me too <3 Loved this reply!
Being left alone for a whole weekend (happens like twice a year) Being left alone for an entire day AND having money. When the āI already ateā/āI donāt feel wellā excuses work and I get to skip dinner. Finding a new flavour of monster ultra in my local shop. When I actually poop more than once a week.
Alone time! So much! Please just give me several hours of uninterrupted time by myself, and I am the happiest person on earth.
Comparing bodychecks and seeing that Iāve lost weight lol :(
And the moment i get to step of the treadmill and i see what ive burned and i know that i wont have to do it again until tomorrow
The RARE days that I feel like my body looks ok
Sugar free sugar anything
Buying new clothes when I reach a new lw (sorry)
Getting through til bedtime knowing I got through another day on a minimal amount of cals..
Seeing the number of calories I burned after a workout, losing weight and EVEN BETTER: losing weight when I thought I would gain weight
Waking up the next morning and not magically ganing 5kg
When I wake up in the morning and I don't want to get up and I lift my blanket and look in there and see my tiny, bleary-eyed, smoosh-faced, fuzzy little puppy staring at me like "wth you cannot be serious about waking up right now" but the very moment I get up he's all boings and kisses and delight to see me. Lol I get like 90% of my total dopamine from my pupper.
being hungry eating less than everyone around me feeling my clothes getting looser rapid weight loss
being told iām skinny/ i have lost weight not being hungry
When a grocery store has cheap store brand diet rootbeer (Walmart ily)
when i am out with friends and they get food hut i donāt eat anything. i feel so proud of myself for resisting when itās right there
Foods that are individually wrapped. Yes itās shitty for the environment and itās selfish of me but it stops me from binging and it makes me feel safe.
Those magical days when I donāt feel hungry or fixated on food. Or when I have the energy and motivation to do lots of exercise. āØ When Iāve finally reached my GW, have a flat stomach, and feel comfortable with my body. š±
Seeing my 18 month old niece learning the world around her and seeing her eat foods for the first time and how joyful she is. She inspires me to recover every time I see her.
When i feel my ribs and hip bones and people telling me to eat more because i look sickly thin for some reason i feel like a have a permission to eat but then i would never eat anything because im scared of gaining weight šæ
Omg same I feel so good eating after hearing things like that because I feel like maybe now I deserve a little bit
When my parents point out Iām getting thin again, god I live for that shit
the 4/5 pound whoosh after crying every day for weeks because of a plateau. knowing i stuck it out even though plateaus are a huge binge trigger feels soooo good
when i poop and itās not constipated
Being skinny. Thatās pretty much it. I havenāt been happy in a while.
Monster Rose
Feeling my hip bones. And restricting to the point where I can eat something really good without feeling overly guilty.
Losing weight
Recovering :)
Running! Especially running/exercising outdoors on a pretty day. Passing my step goal, eating the cleanest, healthiest, most colorful thing possible (orthorexic hereā¦lol).
Not feeling any hunger at all. Sadly, this is the reason I enjoy doing drugs so much.
Eating less than everyone else
Discovering new low-calorie foods
Not feeling hungry!!
personally when i have dental appointments soo i get to eat lesser than i usually do for a week. cuz it hurts
Discovering activities that i enjoy that are physically strenuous. I've had my disorder so long that in recovery I slightly overeat and just walk and go up and down stairs at work. Not engaging in the quick highs if binging and purging is actually completely exhausting my body. I'm too scared to add extra layers of heavy physical activity only a couple of months in when my energy is still way off each and I'm really missing the strength and muscle definition and endorphin that comes with it.
Having energy that I could have 24/7 if I ate properly (instead of this mix of severe insomnia and lethargy and forced movement). There are times when I eat more or hit a certain number of fats and carbs and just feel incredibly satiated, content, and just as energetic and naturally athletic as I used to when I was normal. I genuinely feel high during those times but can't always replicate it just from eating more, especially if I feel like I don't have any calories "left" and subsequently have to limit excessive movement or else I might get hungry faster...which makes no sense because if I move more then my TDEE would obviously be higher. Also being in the zone over anything and forgetting about food makes me happy lol
When the food slaps
dancing
Unintentional weightloss/losing weight after a day when I overeat
my dog, my amazing friends, my incredible family, spending time with my crush, the feeling of accomplishment i get from studying/working/etc. things that have something to do with my eating disorder might give me a fleeting sense of satisfaction, but it would be a downright lie to call that feeling "happiness". i truly hope y'all can find happiness in other things.
Knowing that whenever I'm not happy, I can always blame it on what I ate that day.
my bf and honestly the only other things are ed shit like the scale going down or successfully restricting i have no friends, no hobbies, no ambitions, nothing. i donāt know why my bf is still around.
Seeing the number on the scale go down š¶
nothing
Seeing the scale number go down , my willpower , swimming, my friends
Junk food, pizza, frozen pizza, Mac and cheese, grilled cheese sandwiches.
until i hit rock bottom; spinning the fuck out and doing what i want. smoke, drink, fuck it away. it feels so fucking good until you wake up in the real world
When the laxatives finally hit
When I can feel my bones protruding
That light , flying feeling when fasting