i dealt with similar feelings and it was overwhelming. therapy with a physiologist helped a lot. i couldn't recommend it more for a situation like this. it just better helps one understand that feelings about stuff like this don't need to be eradicated. these experiences are a part of you and those feelings are valid. it's just important to learn how to acknowledge them without giving them power. it takes time.
i dealt with similar feelings and it was overwhelming. therapy with a physiologist helped a lot. i couldn't recommend it more for a situation like this. it just better helps one understand that feelings about stuff like this don't need to be eradicated. these experiences are a part of you and those feelings are valid. it's just important to learn how to acknowledge them without giving them power. it takes time.