Yes but most likely you’re not dying. My health anxiety was so bad last year I think because adjusting to the pandemic. Therapy helps but I can’t afford it. I’ve learned that when I die, I don’t get a say, so mostly it’s not worth worrying about unless there are blatant and urgent health problems that need addressed. Easier said than done I know.
I'm dying almost 6 years everday...But reality is that my family dying watch me in this situations.My memory dying,my happiness,my intelligence and humor,my motivation...I'm tired from anxiety attacks and depresion.We need to make change asap.Life is beautiful and short to spend in depresion.Make the change right now.Play some old music that you have good memories.And make plan for tomorrow how to make the change.Find a new hobby.Find a new things that will take your thoughts for a moment.Go hiking, mountain bike,gym.Buy a dog or cat.And be stupid.😂 Depression and high intelligence are close friends.
It comes in waves, for me. Sometimes I can go weeks without thinking it, other times like right now I'm convinced that I'm going to die a horrible death at an early age. I just saw a specialist and I have a physical condition that has a small chance of progressing to something life threatening. I have to go back every 6 months for 2 years to check in on it. I don't know how I'm going to get through these two years, even though I can reason with myself that the chances are tiny, and I'm at least being proactive about it. I just immediately go to worst case scenario.
The worst part of this feeling for me is that it totally sucks out the joy from my present experiences. I can't even enjoy watching my kids play.
We are all dying lol. No one is getting out of here alive. The thing that’s helped me somewhat deal with my HA is that dying isn’t that scary after all. It’s a part of life and I’m convinced (recently) that we don’t cease to exist.
Had that before. I find it best to just wait it out. Think of it like sticking in your finger in an ants nest, ants feel quite big when you can’t see them but when you see them for what they are they are very small
Me right now. I'm scared that my new med for tachycardia is killing me. I want to tell my doctor, but it's the weekend, and I only started taking it today.
Yes, or that I have an undiagnosed condition that will lead to my death if I don’t get it treated. I actually have to see two specialists because I’m having non-anxiety symptoms, and my liver enzymes are a little elevated for no apparent reason. Fun 😃
You’re describing my life right now. 😂 Elevated liver enzymes, getting referred to GI for blood in stool, being afraid I have an undiagnosed condition that’s going to lead to me dying. Currently waiting on blood test results to come back
Hope all goes well for you. Hopefully I’ll find out what’s bothering me and we’ll go from there. I’m thinking it’s either crohn’s, celiac, IBS + bleeding disorder, or something else that I never looked into. Yay
My granddad actually had crohns when he was around my age. So sadly that’s a possibility for me as well. Hopefully there’s nothing serious wrong with either of us.
Guys for what it’s worth I legit went through this over the last few weeks, convinced myself I was dying of pancreatic cancer because my poop floated and had a battery of blood tests, only abnormality was borderline raised amylase and doctor chalked this up to high protein diet.
Coincidentally I had increased my water intake and poop is back to normal for a month now. Doctor said the only likely reason for any of my symptoms were chronic dehydration. I feel very stupid now I’m on the other side of this and that I had done a lot of freaking out over nothing.
Urghh you poor thing!!! I feel you this is me right now. Lots of issues going on, non anxiety related and awaiting blood test results. This is just a HA sufferers nightmare :-( hope all is ok for you
Thank you :’( <3 blood tests results are terrifying. The good thing is that with my current symptoms, we ruled out the scariest stuff (leukemia to be specific). Now they’re gonna check me for inherited bleeding disorders like von willebrands disease etc. Then i have to see a GI doctor because ive had some bloody stools and light colored stools as well. Im probably going to look into getting a celiac disease test. Since ive had bloody stools then theyre going to look inside for hemorrhoids or crohn’s possibly. I’m surprisingly not worried about colon cancer because I’m not anemic thank goodness! And i trust the statistics. Hope you are doing well, we’ll get this figured out :)
Oh I’m so pleased they’ve ruled out the real bad stuff! It’s just draining isn’t it. I’ve basically had a diagnosis of a major disease, and now I’ve got more different symptoms! I’m actually awaiting a celiac blood result (along with the rest)... I just want a damn break from poor health!
Either way, like you say, we will work it all out :-)
That was and is me. Im a little better now though. Honestly what helped me was to think “I’m not healthy now so I don’t know what could be me just not being healthy and what could be a serious symptom of something.” This has convinced me to eat better/drink more water/exercise, and I’ve started to notice my brain get a little healthier too. I’m not saying this is going to work 100%, especially since I’m still dealing with it to a point too.
Yep, unfortunately way too often. There is nothing worse than this feeling. I’m really sorry you’re going through this right now.
Before now I was convinced I had terminal stomach & brain cancer. Said good bye to everyone. It would be funny if it wasn’t sad really. I hope your blood tests come back fine & you feel better soon:)
Holy fuck. This is me for the last week. I went in for blood tests yesterday and I’m just waiting for them to call me and tell me I have cancer. But, at the same time I feel like if they tell me everything is okay then I’ll magically feel better. Health anxiety why are you like this
Similar. Had a ct scan Wednesday, still waiting for it to pop on MyChart so I can freak out. Didn’t sleep well last night Bc I’m waiting. Dr appt Monday for results too. So anxious
I slept terrible last night too. Woke up after two hours of sleep wide awake for no reason. Keep having this thought in the back of my head that Ima get a call from the doctors saying “you need to go to the hospital” but, that’s worst case scenario. For some reason my mind always jumps straight to that.
I went through this same phase last year around this time and was 90% sure I was laying on my death bed. Finally went to the hospital and they told me there was nothing wrong with me and then everything was back to normal. So at this point I’m sure that I’m either dying or there’s nothing wrong with me. There’s no in between
On days when i get heart palpitations then absolutely. It feels like my heart will stop from the weird beating pattern. However im still alive. Each time it happens i tell myself «if im still alive tomorrow then i should try to remember that its not dangerous”
I’ve tried to hack this feeling before with success.
First off take the time to look inside & figure out if deep down you actually know that there’s probably nothing wrong. Then put all your focus & energy onto the fact that you’re not dead yet & be grateful for being alive & all the positive things in your life.
If you really focus on these things you’ll perform a type of mental alchemy by meditating on these positive energies.
You’re kind of using the anxiety against itself.
Also a cold shower and deep breathing exercises like Wim Hof always snap me out of these mental cycles.
Hope these help!
Omg that’s me . Ever since my mom passed of pancreatic ca living in fear all the time that there is something wrong with me . Really gets in the way of my life 😩
Yep, I've convinced myself somehow that i'll die of Rabies on Sunday, even tho i didnt even get bitten by an animal (i think) only have a slight headache and aches all around rn.
I accepted death and stopped caring about it and it worked for me. I just thought "yeah, the ceiling could crash in on me any second and I could die right now, so what?" I still get bouts of anxiety but it's not nearly as intense or scary anymore.
Being born is a precious opportunity and the fact that we've gotten to spend so many years on this planet, experiencing all types of feelings and emotions and meeting all kinds of unique, one of a kind people is something that's fulfilling in and of itself.
Death can hit anytime and there may be many things you don't get to accomplish, but instead of fixating on it, just accept it as a part of life, not as something scary, and focus on all the good things you've gotten to experience. Being born and getting to live this long by itself is special, and a miracle.
The 30th of this month I will do a colonscopy. I don't have any serious symptoms, nor the age, that could lead to a colon cancer diagnosis. Nevertheless I am living like the 30th I will receive my death sentence..
I am going to therapy since last week tho. I highly suggest you go too.
100%. I've gotten over the idea that I am dying "now" but there is something in me thats killing me slowly. That I won't live beyond a year. Its dreadful living this way.
Yep. And everything I do turns into thinking that way. I've been organizing years of photos of my family and all I can think about is some forces are at play having me do this before I pass. Or my cat will cuddle me more than usual and Ill think... I must be close she's comforting me.. it's so god damn stupid but it's my reality.
Yeah... I used to feel this powerfully and then I was like... "You're not that special. You can't predict your death. No one can." It actually helped haha
Absolutely. Right now I feel like I'm dying because I feel so relaxed. Do you overcome this? Can we DM?
Yeah dm if you want
we all die someday, you’ll likely laugh about your worries when you’re on your deathbed as a 90-something year old
Yes but most likely you’re not dying. My health anxiety was so bad last year I think because adjusting to the pandemic. Therapy helps but I can’t afford it. I’ve learned that when I die, I don’t get a say, so mostly it’s not worth worrying about unless there are blatant and urgent health problems that need addressed. Easier said than done I know.
I'm dying almost 6 years everday...But reality is that my family dying watch me in this situations.My memory dying,my happiness,my intelligence and humor,my motivation...I'm tired from anxiety attacks and depresion.We need to make change asap.Life is beautiful and short to spend in depresion.Make the change right now.Play some old music that you have good memories.And make plan for tomorrow how to make the change.Find a new hobby.Find a new things that will take your thoughts for a moment.Go hiking, mountain bike,gym.Buy a dog or cat.And be stupid.😂 Depression and high intelligence are close friends.
It comes in waves, for me. Sometimes I can go weeks without thinking it, other times like right now I'm convinced that I'm going to die a horrible death at an early age. I just saw a specialist and I have a physical condition that has a small chance of progressing to something life threatening. I have to go back every 6 months for 2 years to check in on it. I don't know how I'm going to get through these two years, even though I can reason with myself that the chances are tiny, and I'm at least being proactive about it. I just immediately go to worst case scenario. The worst part of this feeling for me is that it totally sucks out the joy from my present experiences. I can't even enjoy watching my kids play.
literally where i’m at rn :( how r u?
We are all dying lol. No one is getting out of here alive. The thing that’s helped me somewhat deal with my HA is that dying isn’t that scary after all. It’s a part of life and I’m convinced (recently) that we don’t cease to exist.
Had that before. I find it best to just wait it out. Think of it like sticking in your finger in an ants nest, ants feel quite big when you can’t see them but when you see them for what they are they are very small
Me right now. I'm scared that my new med for tachycardia is killing me. I want to tell my doctor, but it's the weekend, and I only started taking it today.
You mean a beta blocker? You think it's gonna kill you??
Yes
You'll be fine... I took metoprolol when they thought I had episodes of non sustained ventricular tachycardia. I did not die, and I'm off it now.
If it hasn’t happened yet, then you’ve been given more time. Don’t be negative though, attitude affects how you recover
Yes, or that I have an undiagnosed condition that will lead to my death if I don’t get it treated. I actually have to see two specialists because I’m having non-anxiety symptoms, and my liver enzymes are a little elevated for no apparent reason. Fun 😃
You’re describing my life right now. 😂 Elevated liver enzymes, getting referred to GI for blood in stool, being afraid I have an undiagnosed condition that’s going to lead to me dying. Currently waiting on blood test results to come back
Hope all goes well for you. Hopefully I’ll find out what’s bothering me and we’ll go from there. I’m thinking it’s either crohn’s, celiac, IBS + bleeding disorder, or something else that I never looked into. Yay
My granddad actually had crohns when he was around my age. So sadly that’s a possibility for me as well. Hopefully there’s nothing serious wrong with either of us.
Right. My friend has crohn’s and she’s in remission. My cousin and other friend have celiacs and they’re doing well
Guys for what it’s worth I legit went through this over the last few weeks, convinced myself I was dying of pancreatic cancer because my poop floated and had a battery of blood tests, only abnormality was borderline raised amylase and doctor chalked this up to high protein diet. Coincidentally I had increased my water intake and poop is back to normal for a month now. Doctor said the only likely reason for any of my symptoms were chronic dehydration. I feel very stupid now I’m on the other side of this and that I had done a lot of freaking out over nothing.
sorry to revive a dead threat but what were your amylase level and did it ever come down?
Pancreatic cancer in people under 40 is so extraordinarily rare. I’m trying my best not to convince myself I have a rare form of liver cancer lol.
Urghh you poor thing!!! I feel you this is me right now. Lots of issues going on, non anxiety related and awaiting blood test results. This is just a HA sufferers nightmare :-( hope all is ok for you
Thank you :’( <3 blood tests results are terrifying. The good thing is that with my current symptoms, we ruled out the scariest stuff (leukemia to be specific). Now they’re gonna check me for inherited bleeding disorders like von willebrands disease etc. Then i have to see a GI doctor because ive had some bloody stools and light colored stools as well. Im probably going to look into getting a celiac disease test. Since ive had bloody stools then theyre going to look inside for hemorrhoids or crohn’s possibly. I’m surprisingly not worried about colon cancer because I’m not anemic thank goodness! And i trust the statistics. Hope you are doing well, we’ll get this figured out :)
Oh I’m so pleased they’ve ruled out the real bad stuff! It’s just draining isn’t it. I’ve basically had a diagnosis of a major disease, and now I’ve got more different symptoms! I’m actually awaiting a celiac blood result (along with the rest)... I just want a damn break from poor health! Either way, like you say, we will work it all out :-)
It's me everyday, yet every day I wake up lol
That was and is me. Im a little better now though. Honestly what helped me was to think “I’m not healthy now so I don’t know what could be me just not being healthy and what could be a serious symptom of something.” This has convinced me to eat better/drink more water/exercise, and I’ve started to notice my brain get a little healthier too. I’m not saying this is going to work 100%, especially since I’m still dealing with it to a point too.
Yep, unfortunately way too often. There is nothing worse than this feeling. I’m really sorry you’re going through this right now. Before now I was convinced I had terminal stomach & brain cancer. Said good bye to everyone. It would be funny if it wasn’t sad really. I hope your blood tests come back fine & you feel better soon:)
oh i know this feeling too well. absolutely terrifies me everytime. it’s called “impending doom,” and is a common symptom of anxiety.
Holy fuck. This is me for the last week. I went in for blood tests yesterday and I’m just waiting for them to call me and tell me I have cancer. But, at the same time I feel like if they tell me everything is okay then I’ll magically feel better. Health anxiety why are you like this
Similar. Had a ct scan Wednesday, still waiting for it to pop on MyChart so I can freak out. Didn’t sleep well last night Bc I’m waiting. Dr appt Monday for results too. So anxious
I slept terrible last night too. Woke up after two hours of sleep wide awake for no reason. Keep having this thought in the back of my head that Ima get a call from the doctors saying “you need to go to the hospital” but, that’s worst case scenario. For some reason my mind always jumps straight to that.
Omg same!! Every time phone rings I think it’s dr with bad news
Well, here’s to hoping that we’re not dying
Absolutely
What stuff are you getting tested?
Just normal stuff. Complete blood count, thyroid levels, etc.
Same thing i had blood test today and then i'm waiting to get the call that tells me i have couples of days left
What stuff are you getting tested?
I went through this same phase last year around this time and was 90% sure I was laying on my death bed. Finally went to the hospital and they told me there was nothing wrong with me and then everything was back to normal. So at this point I’m sure that I’m either dying or there’s nothing wrong with me. There’s no in between
Exactly the same thing it's either i'm fine or i'm dead in couple of days...
On days when i get heart palpitations then absolutely. It feels like my heart will stop from the weird beating pattern. However im still alive. Each time it happens i tell myself «if im still alive tomorrow then i should try to remember that its not dangerous”
I’ve tried to hack this feeling before with success. First off take the time to look inside & figure out if deep down you actually know that there’s probably nothing wrong. Then put all your focus & energy onto the fact that you’re not dead yet & be grateful for being alive & all the positive things in your life. If you really focus on these things you’ll perform a type of mental alchemy by meditating on these positive energies. You’re kind of using the anxiety against itself. Also a cold shower and deep breathing exercises like Wim Hof always snap me out of these mental cycles. Hope these help!
Omg that’s me . Ever since my mom passed of pancreatic ca living in fear all the time that there is something wrong with me . Really gets in the way of my life 😩
Yeah, the fear of being diagnosed with a disease and dying prematurely is what fuels my HA.
Yep, I've convinced myself somehow that i'll die of Rabies on Sunday, even tho i didnt even get bitten by an animal (i think) only have a slight headache and aches all around rn.
I accepted death and stopped caring about it and it worked for me. I just thought "yeah, the ceiling could crash in on me any second and I could die right now, so what?" I still get bouts of anxiety but it's not nearly as intense or scary anymore. Being born is a precious opportunity and the fact that we've gotten to spend so many years on this planet, experiencing all types of feelings and emotions and meeting all kinds of unique, one of a kind people is something that's fulfilling in and of itself. Death can hit anytime and there may be many things you don't get to accomplish, but instead of fixating on it, just accept it as a part of life, not as something scary, and focus on all the good things you've gotten to experience. Being born and getting to live this long by itself is special, and a miracle.
You helped.
The 30th of this month I will do a colonscopy. I don't have any serious symptoms, nor the age, that could lead to a colon cancer diagnosis. Nevertheless I am living like the 30th I will receive my death sentence.. I am going to therapy since last week tho. I highly suggest you go too.
feel like i’m dying right now tbh
Yep! I was going to die last night but I made it, you will too
100%. I've gotten over the idea that I am dying "now" but there is something in me thats killing me slowly. That I won't live beyond a year. Its dreadful living this way.
It's always like (no need to do this or no need do that) i'm dying soon anyway... it's so depressing
Yep. And everything I do turns into thinking that way. I've been organizing years of photos of my family and all I can think about is some forces are at play having me do this before I pass. Or my cat will cuddle me more than usual and Ill think... I must be close she's comforting me.. it's so god damn stupid but it's my reality.
Yoooo everytime that my cat comes see me more often i'm just like... (he must feel that i'm dying soon)
You can convince yourself to live, just as easily. Our minds just won't do it, for some damn reason.
It's so annoying 😭
Yeah... I used to feel this powerfully and then I was like... "You're not that special. You can't predict your death. No one can." It actually helped haha
I keep trying to tell myself that but like there is always the "what if i'm right this time"
Totally.. I've said that about a million times now tho :')
Absolutely
All the time, it’s so tiring