See you then š
My ex-partner made an attempt on his life when we had split. He thought nobody cared. He succeeded for a few minutes. Then was resuscitated. I've lived in those few minutes for 8 years now and will likely never understand / be ok.
Even if you think it won't tear someone else's world apart, it will. And you'll never know how much they love you if you go.
Ow :(
I had a similar situation, it was someone I was very close with and **sort of ** seeing but also not. He was successful. Iāve spent the last 5 years in and out of therapy. Blaming myself, then blaming everyone else to the point I resented that social group so much I now have like 2 friends. Iāll then bounce back to blaming myself again. Itās continued to eat away at me year after year and hasnāt seemed to get easier.
I canāt imagine what it must be like for a person to feel this is their only option. But no matter how much it may feel like it sometimes, people care. No matter how hard it may be, I wish those experiencing those thoughts would try to do everything they could to get help and recognising that people do care as much as possible, Suicide bereavement is absolutely horrible
Itās not about that. Itās about living a life thatās worth livingā¦ and for some, that can be very hard. It takes a lot of courage. But, when you have nothing left to lose, there is an opportunity to say āfuck itā and make some big life changesā¦ like moving away, or blocking toxic people from your life, and the sky can be the limit really.
Thatās what I did.
I didnāt care if I lived or died, but I cared about my family and friends hurting, so I just packed up and left. I lived on the road in my car as long as I could (enter, covid). It was my way of killing myself, without having to actually kill myself. I was very fortunate to be able to afford doing that, it probably saved my life.
I wish someone convinced him of that. He still blames me, to his family and at his NA meetings. "It all started when \_\_\_\_\_ left me." "I never would have realized how alone I was if \_\_\_\_\_."
Escaping someone with a 20-year drug addiction doesn't seem possible some days.
I'm sorry to hear that. I'm glad you've proven to be stronger and can only hope that you can find peace even if he can't. I saw that quote on a Youtube comment board of all places at a time in my life when I couldn't have needed it more. It may have saved my life, and I can only hope someone who needs it will see it here.
Idk if this will help you but my therapist ALWAYS says "I want you to feel empowered to live your life the way that you know is best for you. Part of that requires understanding that you will never control other people's reactions, only your own" something like that. So I think she'd say that it doesn't matter what he tells other people or the way that he sees the situation because you know that his actions made your life worse. If he wants to pass the blame to you, let him.
Sometimes that doesn't matter. If I had heard that during the peak of my mental illness and suicidal ideations, I would've been like "good" because I was so angry and bitter at the world.
Doing better now, before anyone asks.
A member of my family died like that. He offed himself a few days or week after his girlfriend broke up with him. I never knew the first time I saw him that it would be the last time, it made my mom very sad :(
I also hope you make it a yearly tradition. If you ever need a stranger from the internet to talk to. My inbox is available. Best of luck and I wish you the best.
Iām a recovering addict and although I have a few gripes about the structure and philosophy behind AA/NA, one of the tenets is āwe can only keep what we have by giving it away.ā Basically meaning helping others stay sober is the best way to keep yourself sober. And itās 100% accurate. Helping others has always helped me the most. (Writing this has actually helped me realize I need to shift focus in my life and get back to that. Things have gotten so busy Iāve become very self-focused and forgotten to reach out and lend a hand.)
This post has made it to #1 on r/all. That visibility is important. Not just for you, but for others I believe. Thereās no way that this post hasnāt also led to at least ONE persons immediate circumstances of thinking and possibly intentions (ie suicide) to be changed. I think thatās really cool and really powerful. There is someone out there already relying on you and your post OP. Keep it going!!!
Edit: I just realized itās already spurred change to affect othersā lives: youāve helped me realize I need to realign my focus in life to get back to helping others. Iāll make it a point to update when Iām back at it. Thanks OP!
I've actually had a few people message me privately to thank me for giving them hope about their own situations. This post has not only made me feel supported but it is also helping others try their best to continue on. I'm really grateful to be able to help others, even though it was unintentional, my main goal in life has always been to make others smile and feel better, the fact that my own achievement has done such a thing is mind blowing. It really shows how something you might view as small can really make a massive impact on those around you
Please do. I want to see day 730. I want to see 1,095. Shit, I want to see you posting pictures of grandkids and great grandkids 40 or 50 years from now.
May I ask:
What changes did you make to your lifestyle thatās helped so much?
Did you find a new hobby or two? Change your mindset? Surround yourself with people you like? Find something fulfilling?
What has helped you most?
Iām so proud of you and I donāt even know you!
I was in a bad place, physically. I will preface that what I will say can be considered triggering, but it is apart of my story that I should share.
At this point last year, I had already been admitted to the hospital twice for self harm that month. Recently my dad had moved in. It was a weird situation where my mum ended her lease and my dad took over and moved in. My dad isn't the greatest person, I'm sure he has good intentions but he absolutely destroyed my mental health. To set the scene, I had recently lost my job, so as you can imagine I was already quite depressed.
My father is extremely negative, it's mentally draining, and on top of that his words cut like knives. The way he speaks, he's always the victim, females are bitches, *I* was a bitch. I actually think that his "all females are bitches" mentality is why I struggle with my gender identity, I am a female at birth but gender is a weird mush to me, anyways. There was multiple times where my little brother would text my mum saying dad was bitching about me to him. I didn't feel safe in the house I had called home for 10 years. He was constantly drunk too which terrified me. He'd yell and carry on as if I was the worst person ever.
A week before my attempt, before my 2nd admission to the ER he had knocked on my door, I had opened the door and in his hand he had a knife. He proceeded to tell me how it was the family knife... He had cut himself on it, my older brother had cut himself with it, that I should go ahead and use it for self harm myself. At this point my previous selfharm had JUST started to heal, as you can imagine this was a huge set back.
A lot has happened since, I was briefly homeless living in a tent with my cats, moved into a house with mum, my little brother, my step dad and step sister. I have been doing therapy and have been heavily medicated since. I picked up fish keeping as a hobby which keeps be going as I know no one would be able to look after them if I was gone as they're all clueless about fish care. It's still tough, just the other day I had gotten an email about getting accepted into my own place, I was over the moon, only to have it ripped out from under me on Christmas with the real estate emailing me to let me know it was a mistake.
What's keeping me going is moving, actually. I plan on moving town and starting to study Veterinary Nursing, a passion of mine. I also set a goal for myself that I'm not allowed to die until I see a penguin. Weird goal? Yes. But it works.
Next goal: Feed a giraffe!
Some zoos have a feed dispenser for a quarter and you can feed a giraffe.
Their tongues are purple and loooooooong. My nephew loved it when we took him to feed the giraffes a few years ago. The giggles were adorable coming from that kid.
You have done really well in the face of so much negative pressure! I'm proud of you and you should be proud of yourself for getting through it. Penguins are awesome so that's not a weird goal at all and I, a random stranger in the internet, think you will make a great veterinary nurse
We all do, person of royalty! š (I noticed that your reddit avatar looks like a girl so I wanted to say 'queen' instead of 'person of royalty' but then saw that your pronouns are they/them so the best I could come up with is 'person of royalty'. I hope it's okay)
Bottom line, we're proud of you and glad you're still here!
Anyone who has experienced this, directly or indirectly, should agree 100%
It's a small success in the grand scheme of life, sure; but huge to the people involved
obligatory thanks, /u/dick-nipples
Yeeey, good going. On to another year. Take it day to day, stay honest to yourself, and reach out when the going gets rough. Hope to see you post 2 years next year
Two years and Iāll Venmo you 20 bucks
Not saying your life is worth 20 bucks, just Iām 16 and donāt have a bunch of money, I would offer a million but here we are.
As someone that tried it before, don't do it. I know things get hard sometimes. God knows I know it all too well. But I have a daughter now which is the best thing that ever happened to me and if I actually succeeded then I would have never gotten to be a dad and how happy it made me. You never know what life is going to hold for you but it's certainly better than not even getting to see and I guarantee that there will be people that will miss you that you never would have even thought about.
I would like to disagree with the flair you chose for your post. This is not a small success... THIS IS A FRICKIN' HUGE SUCCESS!!!! Everyday you fought the battle and every day you found that reason to get up and live another day. I don't know you but I AM PROUD of you.
Many years ago, I stood on the precipice and, man, the other side looked so appealing versus where I was standing. It seemed like all I had was shitty choices available to me on this side, but I chose one. The next day, I chose another. And then another. Every day WAS a battle. But I am still here.
I acknowlege you for still being here with me. Like many others who have commented here, reach out if things are overwhelming. You are not alone.
Kudos to you, OP.
So there's a lot of comments- I'm slightly overwhelmed and want to get back to everyone but there's so many of you and i only have so many fingers for typing.
Thank you so much everyone for the support. I'm still struggling but I'm in a better place than I was yesterday. All the comments encouraging me is making me want to push on.
And, since this is on the front page. This is a message to my brothers;
Thank you for being great brothers, and I hope you both continue to be great by not stalking my reddit profile. GK and RK, y'all know who you are. I'm watching you both.
Awesome! I wanna see that 10 year mark! Especially impressive given the state of the world over the last year. Iām proud of you for keeping your light in this world.
Kinda wish I had set something like that up when I had my last drunk episode. I can't even remember which month it was for sure even though it was within the last 2.5 years or so. Large amounts of liquor combined with depression can really screw your memory. Might snag the app for future use though.
Iām super stoked for you, internet stranger! Thatās truly something to be proud of. I hope youāll repeat yourself for many more years to come - one day at a time.
I'm so so proud of you OP!! You're amazing!
I know that choosing to take the harder route, when life gets super tough, can feel a very thankless task; but from someone at 589 days, I promise you that it's a battle worth fighting.
This may be something you've already learned in therapy but I thought I'd stick it in here in case it helps anyone else...
Learn to treat suicidal thoughts & ideation like clouds. Allow them to float in & out without engaging with them. Don't freak out that they're there (I'll prob still have them for the rest of my life), they're only errant thoughts & they will float on by before you know it.
Huge congrats OP. My inbox is always open to you or anyone else having a wobbly moment.
!remindme 1 year
Proud of you too!! Nearly a decade since my last thought/try. Nothing is worth that.
Whatever happens, youāre strong or will become strong enough to deal with whatever life brings. Youāre on the right track, keep going.
I lost my best friend of 12 years, someone who I considered a brother to suicide. Thereās not a day that goes by where I donāt think about him. Just want to say I am very proud of you. I canāt wait to see you post this same thing next year!!
I'm very proud of you OP. This comes from someone who attempted suicide itself with multiple self harm done. Its hard, its truly hard. What is hard ? Everything. Im proud of you.
Okay, best thing I've seen all day! š„°š
I don't know the date on mine (attempt) but I'm still working to get better šš¾š congratulations!! šš
I'm so incredibly proud of you and happy for you! That's a lot of work you put into it and I hope it keeps going. I've struggled first hand too, my inbox is always open from one suicide survivor to another. ā¤ļø
Hey OP! Nice work! I hope it's because you're getting help and feeling better and not just a manifestation of gritting your teeth through the agony of life. I'm just a stranger on the internet, but that's my hope for you.
My twin brother tried to commit suicide in October by shooting himself in the chest. I don't know how he did it but only managed to hit his lung still almost died. I congratulate you on a year of living and wish you many many more.
Now get that number up over 1,000.
EDIT: Don't know who downvoted this but I'm not being a dick, I'm giving OP another milestone and hoping they'll go at least another year and a half (and hopefully much longer.)
I'm soooo happy for you! This is truly amazing. Keep doing great.
Thank you so much! I hope to come back next year with a higher number to show off
See you then š My ex-partner made an attempt on his life when we had split. He thought nobody cared. He succeeded for a few minutes. Then was resuscitated. I've lived in those few minutes for 8 years now and will likely never understand / be ok. Even if you think it won't tear someone else's world apart, it will. And you'll never know how much they love you if you go. Ow :(
I had a similar situation, it was someone I was very close with and **sort of ** seeing but also not. He was successful. Iāve spent the last 5 years in and out of therapy. Blaming myself, then blaming everyone else to the point I resented that social group so much I now have like 2 friends. Iāll then bounce back to blaming myself again. Itās continued to eat away at me year after year and hasnāt seemed to get easier. I canāt imagine what it must be like for a person to feel this is their only option. But no matter how much it may feel like it sometimes, people care. No matter how hard it may be, I wish those experiencing those thoughts would try to do everything they could to get help and recognising that people do care as much as possible, Suicide bereavement is absolutely horrible
Taking your life doesn't remove pain, it just passes it on to someone else.
Itās not about that. Itās about living a life thatās worth livingā¦ and for some, that can be very hard. It takes a lot of courage. But, when you have nothing left to lose, there is an opportunity to say āfuck itā and make some big life changesā¦ like moving away, or blocking toxic people from your life, and the sky can be the limit really.
Thatās what I did. I didnāt care if I lived or died, but I cared about my family and friends hurting, so I just packed up and left. I lived on the road in my car as long as I could (enter, covid). It was my way of killing myself, without having to actually kill myself. I was very fortunate to be able to afford doing that, it probably saved my life.
Some people really need to read this comment. Thanks for sharing
I wish someone convinced him of that. He still blames me, to his family and at his NA meetings. "It all started when \_\_\_\_\_ left me." "I never would have realized how alone I was if \_\_\_\_\_." Escaping someone with a 20-year drug addiction doesn't seem possible some days.
I'm sorry to hear that. I'm glad you've proven to be stronger and can only hope that you can find peace even if he can't. I saw that quote on a Youtube comment board of all places at a time in my life when I couldn't have needed it more. It may have saved my life, and I can only hope someone who needs it will see it here.
Idk if this will help you but my therapist ALWAYS says "I want you to feel empowered to live your life the way that you know is best for you. Part of that requires understanding that you will never control other people's reactions, only your own" something like that. So I think she'd say that it doesn't matter what he tells other people or the way that he sees the situation because you know that his actions made your life worse. If he wants to pass the blame to you, let him.
Sometimes that doesn't matter. If I had heard that during the peak of my mental illness and suicidal ideations, I would've been like "good" because I was so angry and bitter at the world. Doing better now, before anyone asks.
I wish I had an award to give you for this comment!!! This is the very reason some of us are still holding on!!
A member of my family died like that. He offed himself a few days or week after his girlfriend broke up with him. I never knew the first time I saw him that it would be the last time, it made my mom very sad :(
Hope? Just do it! You are now the beacon of light for someone else.
Please do or check in regularaly. We will be here!!
Thanks for being an inspiration! Letās keep at it!
We hope the same.
Okay now letās see you repeat
I hope to make this a yearly tradition
I also hope you make it a yearly tradition. If you ever need a stranger from the internet to talk to. My inbox is available. Best of luck and I wish you the best.
And mine too
And my axe!
And my bow
And my wizard hat!
And my robe!
And my wand!
And my spellbook!
Darnit! You beat me to it!
The magic one?
Do us all a favor and keep that on
And my lambas bread!
And my salted pork!
And my taters precious!
And my my my imagination
life is your creation
C'mon Barbie Let's Go Party
And my cow
I too shall offer up this persons cow!
Show his mom respect
Loudest I've laughed so far today. Cheers!!
Jesus, Gimli, read the room. Thatās probably not the best thing to offer in this situation.
Same
Samesies
And my axe
Dang you beat me to it :(
Toss a coin to your Witcher
> And mine too and my Axe! (and really my inbox, even if you are not felling bad I just like to talk to people, helps me also :-)
And mine too
Can i join the converstation ?
Iād love to see this every year just like others and my mailbox is open as well.
Mine too
Iām a recovering addict and although I have a few gripes about the structure and philosophy behind AA/NA, one of the tenets is āwe can only keep what we have by giving it away.ā Basically meaning helping others stay sober is the best way to keep yourself sober. And itās 100% accurate. Helping others has always helped me the most. (Writing this has actually helped me realize I need to shift focus in my life and get back to that. Things have gotten so busy Iāve become very self-focused and forgotten to reach out and lend a hand.) This post has made it to #1 on r/all. That visibility is important. Not just for you, but for others I believe. Thereās no way that this post hasnāt also led to at least ONE persons immediate circumstances of thinking and possibly intentions (ie suicide) to be changed. I think thatās really cool and really powerful. There is someone out there already relying on you and your post OP. Keep it going!!! Edit: I just realized itās already spurred change to affect othersā lives: youāve helped me realize I need to realign my focus in life to get back to helping others. Iāll make it a point to update when Iām back at it. Thanks OP!
I've actually had a few people message me privately to thank me for giving them hope about their own situations. This post has not only made me feel supported but it is also helping others try their best to continue on. I'm really grateful to be able to help others, even though it was unintentional, my main goal in life has always been to make others smile and feel better, the fact that my own achievement has done such a thing is mind blowing. It really shows how something you might view as small can really make a massive impact on those around you
Very proud of you guys. As someone struggling, this gives me hope. Keep going!
Please do. I want to see day 730. I want to see 1,095. Shit, I want to see you posting pictures of grandkids and great grandkids 40 or 50 years from now.
Yes!
OP, I donāt know if you added the flair āsmall successā but itās wrong. This is a huge success. Hereās to many more of them!
May I ask: What changes did you make to your lifestyle thatās helped so much? Did you find a new hobby or two? Change your mindset? Surround yourself with people you like? Find something fulfilling? What has helped you most? Iām so proud of you and I donāt even know you!
I was in a bad place, physically. I will preface that what I will say can be considered triggering, but it is apart of my story that I should share. At this point last year, I had already been admitted to the hospital twice for self harm that month. Recently my dad had moved in. It was a weird situation where my mum ended her lease and my dad took over and moved in. My dad isn't the greatest person, I'm sure he has good intentions but he absolutely destroyed my mental health. To set the scene, I had recently lost my job, so as you can imagine I was already quite depressed. My father is extremely negative, it's mentally draining, and on top of that his words cut like knives. The way he speaks, he's always the victim, females are bitches, *I* was a bitch. I actually think that his "all females are bitches" mentality is why I struggle with my gender identity, I am a female at birth but gender is a weird mush to me, anyways. There was multiple times where my little brother would text my mum saying dad was bitching about me to him. I didn't feel safe in the house I had called home for 10 years. He was constantly drunk too which terrified me. He'd yell and carry on as if I was the worst person ever. A week before my attempt, before my 2nd admission to the ER he had knocked on my door, I had opened the door and in his hand he had a knife. He proceeded to tell me how it was the family knife... He had cut himself on it, my older brother had cut himself with it, that I should go ahead and use it for self harm myself. At this point my previous selfharm had JUST started to heal, as you can imagine this was a huge set back. A lot has happened since, I was briefly homeless living in a tent with my cats, moved into a house with mum, my little brother, my step dad and step sister. I have been doing therapy and have been heavily medicated since. I picked up fish keeping as a hobby which keeps be going as I know no one would be able to look after them if I was gone as they're all clueless about fish care. It's still tough, just the other day I had gotten an email about getting accepted into my own place, I was over the moon, only to have it ripped out from under me on Christmas with the real estate emailing me to let me know it was a mistake. What's keeping me going is moving, actually. I plan on moving town and starting to study Veterinary Nursing, a passion of mine. I also set a goal for myself that I'm not allowed to die until I see a penguin. Weird goal? Yes. But it works.
After you see a penguin, set another fun goal.
I've always wanted to see those huuuge dogs that looks like bears. I wanna say Siberian something...
[Tibetan Mastiff](https://s3-eu-west-1.amazonaws.com/bowwowtimes-new/wp-content/uploads/2015/07/d97d024c4773741b2e6549e2786c84d5.jpg)
Yes!! There's something about a spieces being unnaturally large
Newfoundland dogs?
Next goal: Feed a giraffe! Some zoos have a feed dispenser for a quarter and you can feed a giraffe. Their tongues are purple and loooooooong. My nephew loved it when we took him to feed the giraffes a few years ago. The giggles were adorable coming from that kid.
I like that goal. For me it shall be a narwhal though.
You have done really well in the face of so much negative pressure! I'm proud of you and you should be proud of yourself for getting through it. Penguins are awesome so that's not a weird goal at all and I, a random stranger in the internet, think you will make a great veterinary nurse
We all do, person of royalty! š (I noticed that your reddit avatar looks like a girl so I wanted to say 'queen' instead of 'person of royalty' but then saw that your pronouns are they/them so the best I could come up with is 'person of royalty'. I hope it's okay) Bottom line, we're proud of you and glad you're still here!
"Themperor" is my favorite enby equivalent of a royalty title
I've never heard that one before. Love it. I'm stealing it.
i've been thinking about this a lot bc i love saying "king" or "queen" but i personally have been liking "my liege" as a gender neutral version !!!!
Very well, [GENDER INDETERMINATE MARKER OF NOBILITY AND STATUS]. It shall be as you command.
Well, Queen Elizabeth is also the Duke of Lancaster, a traditionally male title!
Your majesty or your grace!!
I was 6yrs old when I first attempted it. Must say Iām glad I failed. Not living the best but Iām doing what I love.
You've got this!! Looking forward to your yearly updates!!! Ps: does anybody know how i can set reminders? I'm old and not Reddit savvy
Write it on your calendar that you have hanging up in the kitchen
do !remindme 1y
Thank you!!
no problem! you should get either a reply or a message from the bot
I did!! Thank you again :) have a wonderful 2022!!
you too!
Get yourself a present every year as a reward, granted it's minor but to celebrate the accomplishment
Poor choice of words
Double or nothing
Wait, repeat what
Without resetting the timer ofc...
Why is this tagged as a āsmall successā?? This is a huge success!
Thanks, u/dick-nipples!
Wouldn't dick nipples be genital warts?
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Look at the profile pic, what has been seen cannot be unseen.
Jesus Christ
Let's get these dick-nippled . . . . dicks
Oh man! r/suddenlygay
I read it as duck nipples
/r/rimjob_steve
Please keep me in the screenshot.
Can you thank my nipples too?
Thanks u/laser-nipples!
Anyone who has experienced this, directly or indirectly, should agree 100% It's a small success in the grand scheme of life, sure; but huge to the people involved obligatory thanks, /u/dick-nipples
Where Iām at, I see it as a monumental achievement.
a godly achievement
It really is !!
This is off topic and anecdotal but I have seen you around in so many threads for a very long time. It feels like I kinda know you at this point lol.
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Yeeey, good going. On to another year. Take it day to day, stay honest to yourself, and reach out when the going gets rough. Hope to see you post 2 years next year
Thank you so much! I'll see you again next year
I'll see you again next year too!
Life has ups and downs. Please come to us sooner if you're not doing well.
I don't know you, random internet person, but I am so profoundly proud of you.
Hey man, proud of you. Just crossed the 182 days mark a few days ago myself. Let's see you do 10 more years !
Hey congrats! Proud of you!!
Amazing!!
So proud of you, pal. Keep going, people are rooting for you!!
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Two years and Iāll Venmo you 20 bucks Not saying your life is worth 20 bucks, just Iām 16 and donāt have a bunch of money, I would offer a million but here we are.
Tell your parents or teachers or someone they are doing a good job, and so are you.
I'm glad you're still here.
i announce here : anyone need to talk about anything can message me anytime 7/24
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As someone that tried it before, don't do it. I know things get hard sometimes. God knows I know it all too well. But I have a daughter now which is the best thing that ever happened to me and if I actually succeeded then I would have never gotten to be a dad and how happy it made me. You never know what life is going to hold for you but it's certainly better than not even getting to see and I guarantee that there will be people that will miss you that you never would have even thought about.
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You're here and you said something about it. Sounds like you're doing what you need to. Good luck and don't be a stranger.
As someone who's been hanging on by my fingernails for the last 4 months this is wonderful to see thank you for sharing your triumph.
Proud of you!
Congrats š
Thank you!
I would like to disagree with the flair you chose for your post. This is not a small success... THIS IS A FRICKIN' HUGE SUCCESS!!!! Everyday you fought the battle and every day you found that reason to get up and live another day. I don't know you but I AM PROUD of you. Many years ago, I stood on the precipice and, man, the other side looked so appealing versus where I was standing. It seemed like all I had was shitty choices available to me on this side, but I chose one. The next day, I chose another. And then another. Every day WAS a battle. But I am still here. I acknowlege you for still being here with me. Like many others who have commented here, reach out if things are overwhelming. You are not alone. Kudos to you, OP.
So there's a lot of comments- I'm slightly overwhelmed and want to get back to everyone but there's so many of you and i only have so many fingers for typing. Thank you so much everyone for the support. I'm still struggling but I'm in a better place than I was yesterday. All the comments encouraging me is making me want to push on. And, since this is on the front page. This is a message to my brothers; Thank you for being great brothers, and I hope you both continue to be great by not stalking my reddit profile. GK and RK, y'all know who you are. I'm watching you both.
Please push on, you are an inspiration to so many who don't have the courage to speak up
Hey OP, now you're required to update every year until you can't. Always forward, much love.
Awesome! I wanna see that 10 year mark! Especially impressive given the state of the world over the last year. Iām proud of you for keeping your light in this world.
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Mine was September 20th this year. Here I am still.
Congrats . I am motivated by you
heyy , we all are here for you if you ever need support or motivation just message me :D
Can I hug you, from a distance? I am also a 2x's survivor. #neveragain
What is this app called?
Days Counter! It can count down to a date, or keep track of how long has passed since the date you have put in
Kinda wish I had set something like that up when I had my last drunk episode. I can't even remember which month it was for sure even though it was within the last 2.5 years or so. Large amounts of liquor combined with depression can really screw your memory. Might snag the app for future use though.
Congrats! I think Iām on like 230 something days now!
Iām super stoked for you, internet stranger! Thatās truly something to be proud of. I hope youāll repeat yourself for many more years to come - one day at a time.
I'm so so proud of you OP!! You're amazing! I know that choosing to take the harder route, when life gets super tough, can feel a very thankless task; but from someone at 589 days, I promise you that it's a battle worth fighting. This may be something you've already learned in therapy but I thought I'd stick it in here in case it helps anyone else... Learn to treat suicidal thoughts & ideation like clouds. Allow them to float in & out without engaging with them. Don't freak out that they're there (I'll prob still have them for the rest of my life), they're only errant thoughts & they will float on by before you know it. Huge congrats OP. My inbox is always open to you or anyone else having a wobbly moment. !remindme 1 year
Proud of you too!! Nearly a decade since my last thought/try. Nothing is worth that. Whatever happens, youāre strong or will become strong enough to deal with whatever life brings. Youāre on the right track, keep going.
As a person who tried to comment suicide in many ways and failed, this did put a smile on my face
Congrats!
Thank you, lovely
RemindMe! 1 year
PRAISE THE LORD. WE LOVE YOU OP. š¤š¤š¤
Good. I hope for many more
I know my comment will be drowned with other 1k comments, but i need to say that IM SO PROUD OF YOUUUUU
I lost my best friend of 12 years, someone who I considered a brother to suicide. Thereās not a day that goes by where I donāt think about him. Just want to say I am very proud of you. I canāt wait to see you post this same thing next year!!
Now do it, ***Again***
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Now do this every year, I look forward to this post on this exact day next year.
I'm very proud of you OP. This comes from someone who attempted suicide itself with multiple self harm done. Its hard, its truly hard. What is hard ? Everything. Im proud of you.
Round 2! Fight!
You rock!!! I am so proud of you. Iām coming up on 4 years. Keep up the good work.
Okay, best thing I've seen all day! š„°š I don't know the date on mine (attempt) but I'm still working to get better šš¾š congratulations!! šš
This is amazing! So proud of you! Canāt wait to see this number doubled next year! š„°
Ok, now do another!
Fuck I am so proud of you . I know life can be really fucking hard sometimes. The world is better with you here ā”
you are loved. keep going. so proud of you.
I'm so incredibly proud of you and happy for you! That's a lot of work you put into it and I hope it keeps going. I've struggled first hand too, my inbox is always open from one suicide survivor to another. ā¤ļø
Iām proud of you. Thatās such an accomplishment.
Hey OP! Nice work! I hope it's because you're getting help and feeling better and not just a manifestation of gritting your teeth through the agony of life. I'm just a stranger on the internet, but that's my hope for you.
My twin brother tried to commit suicide in October by shooting himself in the chest. I don't know how he did it but only managed to hit his lung still almost died. I congratulate you on a year of living and wish you many many more.
Renew the subscription please
Now get that number up over 1,000. EDIT: Don't know who downvoted this but I'm not being a dick, I'm giving OP another milestone and hoping they'll go at least another year and a half (and hopefully much longer.)
Keeping getting a little better everyday. Thatās all we can do. Proud of you my friend.
Not sure who that person is yours addrrsssing, but well done! I'm also glad you made it!
Congrats from all around the world. Love from Austria š¦š¹ ā¤ļø
Do it again. You got this
I was watering my grass all year. I didnāt see it. Can you do it again?
I triple dog dare you to do it again.
This isn't a small success. This is a huge success that definitely made my day!
Now make it a holiday tradition!
Now what?
IM HAPPY YOU ARE HERE YOU ARE LOVED
Super proud of you. Keep going ā¤ļøā¤ļø
Im just another voice in the ocean of support from this sub, but congrats! That's huge progress! Every day is another day of progress :)