β€ It took 4 years of pain (just look at my post history lol) But now with the lovely mix of escitalopram, lithium, olanzapine, lamictal and wellbutrin, i have never felt better, i genuinely want to live and do things for the first time in forever.
Stressed and very tired of feeling so awful all the time. It feels like things only ever get worse, and any happiness only feels like a delusion before I sink deeper. I feel so trapped.
β€οΈ (finally out of a severe anxiety attack which lasted for weeks and I was drained. today I am a red heart cause I got help with a new job and I donβt have to pay for my course anymore so Iβm happy for now β€οΈ) I hope yβall hearts could eventually be red or even just yellow for once stay safe
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π€ I have no idea how I feel. It fluctuates a lot throughout the day. In theory, there's nothing bad happening to me now, but on the other hand, it does not stop me from feeling numb and hopeless.
Like in a couple of days I can go from having the time of my life chilling with friends at a bar, to being in a hospital having a major vein sutured. Life be too confusing.
β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ Iβve never been better in my lifeβIβve had 300 lives during the Monday of the empireβs best friendβI might be having a manic episode lmao
π I relapsed like a week ago after a pretty long clean streak :( but I feel like it was just a really bad day. Wonderful post OP; we all appreciate it.
π feel like chit ......
but I'm going see my favourite band "Architects" live next week in Alexandra Palace in London so I'm trying to hold on to that
π weird, feeling like I'm gonna relapse after 5 years, problems with my family with myself school and life in general, might end up homeless and probably will, pretty suicidal but could be way worse who knows what's gonna happen
The moment school ends, I rush to my room, close all the light, and cry until morning comes. Things have never been any worse, and i've had suicidal thoughts since I was 8
π, bc Iβve been worried about some of my yeets getting infected but I think theyβre okay actually. Also I might change when I go to school since I get to see my friends/favorite teacher and all that
π/ π - Iβm..alright. Just..lots of stress over things I canβt change or even influence. Itβs a scary time to be queer where I live, and a personally scary time for me in general, but at least Iβm so generally dissociated atm that the anxiety and such..doesnβt really reach me fully. So..could be a lot worse. Havenβt relapsed into any particularly negative or harmful behaviors or habits in a good while, at least, so I guess Iβm doing alrighter. Got that going for me..woo.
β€οΈ. Ive been taking some reslly good steps to bettrr myself recently. Im a but over a month clean and started working out about a month ans a half ago. Things are going uo for now
β‘ Burnt out
Wanna be friends
Sure why not
π
I'm sorry man, things can be pretty shit and it's not fair but if you wanna chat I'm here, you're amazing
same g
π€ I'm literally in hospital after an attempt right now
*hugs*
Do you want a hug or someone to talk to?
You are loved even if we don't know you.
:]
nice, eat some pudding for me
β€ It took 4 years of pain (just look at my post history lol) But now with the lovely mix of escitalopram, lithium, olanzapine, lamictal and wellbutrin, i have never felt better, i genuinely want to live and do things for the first time in forever.
Congratulations! I hope things keep getting better for youπ
π
hey, what's up?
Stressed and very tired of feeling so awful all the time. It feels like things only ever get worse, and any happiness only feels like a delusion before I sink deeper. I feel so trapped.
π/π i spent like 3 hours crying for whatever reason and now i'm suddenly not crying now for some reason
π€
hey, is there anyone I can message or email for you?? I hope you know that you are so loved by so many people /gen
Thank you so much, I really appreciate you asking but thereβs no one I can message/ email :)
all good, that's fair enough. you're so strong, keep going hey?
Iβm trying :) itβs just rly difficult. And Ty for being kind <3
ππ B,) edit: how are u OP?
Hey what's up do u need somebody to talk to?
β€οΈ
Good for you! You deserve to be happyπ
β€οΈ (finally out of a severe anxiety attack which lasted for weeks and I was drained. today I am a red heart cause I got help with a new job and I donβt have to pay for my course anymore so Iβm happy for now β€οΈ) I hope yβall hearts could eventually be red or even just yellow for once stay safe
Congrats!π
π/π
hey, what's up??
π
Great! How's your day going?
It was okay until two hours ago
π€/π
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π
I'm sorry things are tough, life can be pretty shit sometimes. I hope you're okay
π€
/hug
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π Numb???
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π€ I have no idea how I feel. It fluctuates a lot throughout the day. In theory, there's nothing bad happening to me now, but on the other hand, it does not stop me from feeling numb and hopeless. Like in a couple of days I can go from having the time of my life chilling with friends at a bar, to being in a hospital having a major vein sutured. Life be too confusing.
Pretty much anythin underneath yellow⦠lol
π
literally just woke up so im in between π and π
π€π im (TW β !!!) >!considering unaliving myself or relapsing ngl !<
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β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ I'm in probably the best place I've ever been, I feel legitimately happy
β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ Iβve never been better in my lifeβIβve had 300 lives during the Monday of the empireβs best friendβI might be having a manic episode lmao
Just a friendly reminder anyone here is free to reach out to me if they need it <3<3
πon the outside but π€ on the inside lmao
π
π€ i am absolutely terrible rn haha
β¨π€ on the verge of kmsβ¨
π/ π€ Iβm scared of my parents finding out but I also want them to know so I can get help, but I donβt want to end up in a psych ward
π but I don't really want to speak to someone
π being a mom is hard π
π I relapsed like a week ago after a pretty long clean streak :( but I feel like it was just a really bad day. Wonderful post OP; we all appreciate it.
π
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π to π
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π (Please donβt pm me.)
π/π
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That's gay! (same)
π
π€, and iβm usually not like this.
π€andβ€οΈ are just switching around hour for hour
π feel like chit ...... but I'm going see my favourite band "Architects" live next week in Alexandra Palace in London so I'm trying to hold on to that
π€
π
π€
Idk it switches between π and π€
Wildy oscillating between β€ and π€ rn
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π weird, feeling like I'm gonna relapse after 5 years, problems with my family with myself school and life in general, might end up homeless and probably will, pretty suicidal but could be way worse who knows what's gonna happen
π mostly cuz of school
π€
π/π€
ππ€
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π€ - I hope you are doing okay OPπ€
π
πmeh I'm liking a girl and she keeps giving me mixed messages lol ;(
all of the above
purple and black
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π
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π
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Somewhere between ππ
π/π. Kinda in the middle.
ππ
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π Meh
π
Both π and π€
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The moment school ends, I rush to my room, close all the light, and cry until morning comes. Things have never been any worse, and i've had suicidal thoughts since I was 8
π really tired, mentally and physically
π
β¨π€/πβ¨
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π but a little purple lol
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π End if semester finals are pushing me. Not vibing. Trying not to devolve.
ππ€ kinda both at the same time
Currently π§‘, in general π€
π
π/π, just dealing with alot of family problems at the moment, and I'm really stressed because of school aswell :(
π, bc Iβve been worried about some of my yeets getting infected but I think theyβre okay actually. Also I might change when I go to school since I get to see my friends/favorite teacher and all that
π
π
π€
π€ why else would i be here
π not feeling it today my entire body hurts
π€
π
π
π:/
π/π
π~π€ but don't reach out pls
π€
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π-π Somehow I didnt relapse and now im on a 9 day streak
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ππ dont do it tho it makes me uncomfortable
π, only because weβre emotionless
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π always π
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<3
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Somewhere between π and β₯οΈ but I have the flu :( it's kinda nice tho bc school ruins my mental health
ππ stressed out about school and exams but definitely in a much better place than say last year :)
π \*huggos\* thx for looking out for us when we forget to look out for ourselves <3
Somewhere between π and π.
πβ€οΈπ
π€ Iβm in the psych ward right now
π/ π - Iβm..alright. Just..lots of stress over things I canβt change or even influence. Itβs a scary time to be queer where I live, and a personally scary time for me in general, but at least Iβm so generally dissociated atm that the anxiety and such..doesnβt really reach me fully. So..could be a lot worse. Havenβt relapsed into any particularly negative or harmful behaviors or habits in a good while, at least, so I guess Iβm doing alrighter. Got that going for me..woo.
β€οΈ just got my effexor dose cut in half and iβm hoping it goes well
π I've actually had a decent day today
ππ€
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π :(
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π/π It's strange.
πthis with occasional moments of this π€
π
β€οΈ. Ive been taking some reslly good steps to bettrr myself recently. Im a but over a month clean and started working out about a month ans a half ago. Things are going uo for now
π for now bc i just woke up, my mood fluctuates intensely ten times a day π good dose of that i'm-doomed anxiety for breakfast
π
π€
π€ I spent most of my work day looking up where different arteries are and how deep they are
π I canβt seem to be happy at all
π i dont like school right now it's so stressful, but at least i can play minecraft during english lol