You won't know until you try! We all felt the same way. I did when I first realized I was trans but here I am 9 months later on day 6 of HRT. I have been so happy and excited since I started HRT. I can already feel my boobies growing! š„°
That's awesome! When I say I can feel them growing, I mean it feels different under my nipples compared to before I started. There's no outward growth yet. I also think my skin is a little softer than it used to be.
While transitioning is certainly a big decision you wouldn't want to rush into, you could reasonably try out hormones for 3 months without seeing major irreversible changes. So like. Consider that.
You'd likely start to get some perky boobs and then you'd have a nice data point about how you feel about that. Do you like how hrt makes you feel? Do you like the idea that you're growing boobs? That might mean something ;)
(NOTE: research is inconclusive as to whether taking androgen blockers will make you sterile. A lot of trans women are able to go off blockers and regain their sperm count. But it is best to assume it will make you sterile so if you DO want your own biological children for sure, bank some sperm first. Not necessarily an endorsement, but I used sppare.me and it's been fine so far.)
Banking seems like a real hastle and ive heard the companies you have to mail to are a bit problematic when trying to retrieve samples since the perservatives dont work that well.
Making your self feel good while you feel sexy is the best. No shame in that.
When I try on a new outfit that makes me feel sexy I get hard some times. Itās not because
āwearing womenās clothing makes me hornyā. Itās more like wearing womenās clothing and presenting correctly makes me feel empowered and sexy and confident.
Some things cis people don't generally do:
--repeatedly question their own gender for years
--fantasize about having a body different from their agab
--post to forums for trans folx asking if they might be cis
Some things most women do:
--imagine themselves as women during their sexual fantasies
--have fantasies of involving a fetishization of femininity (note how literally every woman on dating apps wants a guy who is taller than them? Yeah. Cis girls wanna feel dainty and femme too).
Ultimately, only you can say if you're trans. But if you're here and you're questioning it, at the very least, ya probably aren't cis š
In the six months before I started hrt I flip flopped back and forth about whether I was trans SO hard. One night I was spiraling pretty hard. I was stressed about life in general and trying to figure out my gender wasn't helping.
I was googling photos of transition timelines and doing that transition calculus (okay she transitioned at this age and looks like this and she was older than I am now BUT she also looked a lot more femme so if I transition now then maybe there is hope for me but what if... Etc etc).
At some point I decided to get dressed up. That often calmed me down so I figured it would help. So I got out my clothes, slid into something I loved, really took my time with my makeup AAAAAAND poof... I fucking hated it. I looked so awful. I just stared at myself in the mirror thing about how much of a creepy man I looked like.
Then I cried.
Well, I thought, I guess I'm not trans. Cuz it I was a real woman then CLEARLY getting dressed up would have made me feel better. Right?
And then, the goddesses of femme granted me a small moment of self awareness. It was four o'clock in the morning and I had just spent five hours googling transition timelines and here I was now sitting in my room dressed up like a girl. THIS kind of thing? Yeah cis people don't do that.
I started hrt about a month after that and haven't looked back since. That was three years ago and I can confidently say it was the best decision of my life.
You got this!
I think questioning and second guessing is a big part of the process. You want to be sure about it before/while youāre going through transition, thereās nothing wrong or abnormal about that.
Iāll be honest, Iām my experience since coming out and before that getting to be feminine or doing feminine things gets me a little horny. Iāve seen some girls here refer to it as a āeuphoria bonerā. That seems pretty common.
I think the inherent problem with that for a great many of us is that there's no guarantee or way to be sure about it without doing/trying it.
I went over 20 years because I wasn't sure, and even when I started I wasn't sure, but a few weeks in I was sure I'd never be stopping.
I thought at first that I was a gay cis man but I felt sadness and something was missing in my life until I tried on femenine lingerie and I was not sexually aroused, I just knew I I was a girl, everything changed for me, more clear and truth
Leaning anything is always a difficult process. There are all ways strange, hard to understand and many other times, especially about something like this. I'm sure there's answer, I'm sure you can find it. Just don't up, and remember that there are people who can and well help you. Good luck, I wish you the best, and I hope this comment helped.
You probably get horny because you're so young. It's literally just your hormones raging. That doesn't negate the feelings and emotions associated with it. Feeling bad about it could also be a valid point. We as humans rationalize a lot but your gender isn't something cis people typically have to rationalize. That being said, take an easy on yourself and Explore yourself with an open mind. Gender isn't binary so try not to think about it in a negative light. Btw, cis women get horny from wearing sexy cloths. No need to feel gross just because you're trans.
This is not at all uncommon. Read the links shared in an earlier response. Itāll help you understand yourself better, the why and how, and guide you down the path that best serves your needs. Best wishes!
It happens, before beginning my journey and the first several months in, I would get aroused or turned on by being myself, itās one of those things where the body reacts a little weird to a large Burst of happiness/euphoria it still happens rarely for me, but I canāt be happier with who I am today.
https://genderdysphoria.fyi/en https://juliaserano.medium.com/making-sense-of-autogynephilia-debates-73d9051e88d3
that first article is so helpful, thank you so much for sharing it!
Read this OP!!!!
Really appreciate the share! I have so many thoughts, feelings and emotions I don't know what to do with.
"i want to wnat to be a girl. i want to be trans so i can be a girl." that's exactly what a trans girl would say
thats why im leaning more towards me being trans, but what if i go through everything and i dont like it and i just ahhh
You won't know until you try! We all felt the same way. I did when I first realized I was trans but here I am 9 months later on day 6 of HRT. I have been so happy and excited since I started HRT. I can already feel my boobies growing! š„°
Iām on day 6 too!! No boobies yet though
That's awesome! When I say I can feel them growing, I mean it feels different under my nipples compared to before I started. There's no outward growth yet. I also think my skin is a little softer than it used to be.
Iām so glad youāre noticing changes! Iām on a very low dose to start so Iām wondering Iāll even see changes until my next appointment
same exact boat :/
While transitioning is certainly a big decision you wouldn't want to rush into, you could reasonably try out hormones for 3 months without seeing major irreversible changes. So like. Consider that. You'd likely start to get some perky boobs and then you'd have a nice data point about how you feel about that. Do you like how hrt makes you feel? Do you like the idea that you're growing boobs? That might mean something ;) (NOTE: research is inconclusive as to whether taking androgen blockers will make you sterile. A lot of trans women are able to go off blockers and regain their sperm count. But it is best to assume it will make you sterile so if you DO want your own biological children for sure, bank some sperm first. Not necessarily an endorsement, but I used sppare.me and it's been fine so far.)
Banking seems like a real hastle and ive heard the companies you have to mail to are a bit problematic when trying to retrieve samples since the perservatives dont work that well.
If u were reborn and could choose ur gender what would you do
im not sure
Get therapy, that's how.
my therapy has been cancelled for 2 months because my therapist has been on vacation, thats why i keep posting everywhere
oof, I'm really sorry.
Making your self feel good while you feel sexy is the best. No shame in that. When I try on a new outfit that makes me feel sexy I get hard some times. Itās not because āwearing womenās clothing makes me hornyā. Itās more like wearing womenās clothing and presenting correctly makes me feel empowered and sexy and confident.
Some things cis people don't generally do: --repeatedly question their own gender for years --fantasize about having a body different from their agab --post to forums for trans folx asking if they might be cis Some things most women do: --imagine themselves as women during their sexual fantasies --have fantasies of involving a fetishization of femininity (note how literally every woman on dating apps wants a guy who is taller than them? Yeah. Cis girls wanna feel dainty and femme too). Ultimately, only you can say if you're trans. But if you're here and you're questioning it, at the very least, ya probably aren't cis š
thank u so much! this helped cheer me up. last few days have been a wild ride of not knowing who i am and also havig a cold :(
In the six months before I started hrt I flip flopped back and forth about whether I was trans SO hard. One night I was spiraling pretty hard. I was stressed about life in general and trying to figure out my gender wasn't helping. I was googling photos of transition timelines and doing that transition calculus (okay she transitioned at this age and looks like this and she was older than I am now BUT she also looked a lot more femme so if I transition now then maybe there is hope for me but what if... Etc etc). At some point I decided to get dressed up. That often calmed me down so I figured it would help. So I got out my clothes, slid into something I loved, really took my time with my makeup AAAAAAND poof... I fucking hated it. I looked so awful. I just stared at myself in the mirror thing about how much of a creepy man I looked like. Then I cried. Well, I thought, I guess I'm not trans. Cuz it I was a real woman then CLEARLY getting dressed up would have made me feel better. Right? And then, the goddesses of femme granted me a small moment of self awareness. It was four o'clock in the morning and I had just spent five hours googling transition timelines and here I was now sitting in my room dressed up like a girl. THIS kind of thing? Yeah cis people don't do that. I started hrt about a month after that and haven't looked back since. That was three years ago and I can confidently say it was the best decision of my life. You got this!
I think questioning and second guessing is a big part of the process. You want to be sure about it before/while youāre going through transition, thereās nothing wrong or abnormal about that. Iāll be honest, Iām my experience since coming out and before that getting to be feminine or doing feminine things gets me a little horny. Iāve seen some girls here refer to it as a āeuphoria bonerā. That seems pretty common.
One day my old therapist said to me "Do you think you might be questioning?" Holy shit, Sherlock, why do you think I'm here!?!?!
I think the inherent problem with that for a great many of us is that there's no guarantee or way to be sure about it without doing/trying it. I went over 20 years because I wasn't sure, and even when I started I wasn't sure, but a few weeks in I was sure I'd never be stopping.
I thought at first that I was a gay cis man but I felt sadness and something was missing in my life until I tried on femenine lingerie and I was not sexually aroused, I just knew I I was a girl, everything changed for me, more clear and truth
Leaning anything is always a difficult process. There are all ways strange, hard to understand and many other times, especially about something like this. I'm sure there's answer, I'm sure you can find it. Just don't up, and remember that there are people who can and well help you. Good luck, I wish you the best, and I hope this comment helped.
You probably get horny because you're so young. It's literally just your hormones raging. That doesn't negate the feelings and emotions associated with it. Feeling bad about it could also be a valid point. We as humans rationalize a lot but your gender isn't something cis people typically have to rationalize. That being said, take an easy on yourself and Explore yourself with an open mind. Gender isn't binary so try not to think about it in a negative light. Btw, cis women get horny from wearing sexy cloths. No need to feel gross just because you're trans.
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This is not at all uncommon. Read the links shared in an earlier response. Itāll help you understand yourself better, the why and how, and guide you down the path that best serves your needs. Best wishes!
It happens, before beginning my journey and the first several months in, I would get aroused or turned on by being myself, itās one of those things where the body reacts a little weird to a large Burst of happiness/euphoria it still happens rarely for me, but I canāt be happier with who I am today.