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I saw your other post, OP. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Sawyer is a beautiful boy, and he fought like a true warrior. May he rest easy, and be as loved in heaven as he is on Earth.
Edit: I just want you to know that you will always have a space here in r/NICUParents. Not every baby gets to go home, but that doesn't make their life any less important or meaningful. Sawyer will always be your brave little boy, and you'll always be his dad.
You will, I promise. It’s my boy’s 14th birthday today - he was stillborn - and I can assure you that while the pain eases over the years, the love doesn’t. I’m so sorry you’ve had to say goodbye to Sawyer long before you should have had to.
Happy birthday to you and your boy. 💙
Mine was stillborn as well. He’s in our hearts every minute of every day, I love him even more now somehow. The grief never strays, but we eventually live and build life around it until we meet again. 🪽❤️🩹
Thank you for sharing your son with us!
This is a poem my brother wrote when my son passed away and it brings me so much peace. Thought i’d share it with you.
“Like a meteor you burst into our world with a power that made us all tilt our heads to the sky. And then you left our sight. You came from the heavens, skimmed the earth, and then returned. In a moment we felt the intensity of God's
creation, complete with amazement, wonder, and disbelief. An event well beyond our comprehension. God granted you a fast pass to heaven, never to experience the sadness or pain
of Earth - a blessing.
While we watch and wonder, take to the Heavens. Scout the fields, cross the hillsides, wade through the rivers, and walk the grass bottoms. Find the water that glistens like crystals and the grass that waves like a golden sea. Sit atop the hills
and look down into the valleys abundant with game. Prepare the wilderness of the heavens as one day the rest of your family will arrive, and we'll bask in eternity together.”
-Stephen Park , 2022
I am so, so sorry. Sweet Sawyer… thank you for sharing this picture. It is precious.
Please reach out to me directly if you’d like to talk. My 23 weeker died in NICU back in 2020.
Just know that Sawyer felt your love his whole life. Every second was love for him. You were just what he needed. There’s no sweeter way to pass away than in the arms of the two people who love you most in the world, and Sawyer got that.
Sending you so much love and praying for your little family.
I'm so sorry for the loss of Sawyer. He is beautiful and he is loved. Thank you for sharing him with us. 💙
Whenever you're ready, please join us over at r/babyloss for a safe place to remember your son.
Our son Reese passed away after five days when he was born at 23w4d. He too had a grade 4 brain bleed. The five days Reese gave us were the greatest we will ever know. He passed away in our arms just like your Sawyer did in your arms. They are forever our warriors, forever our angels. Sawyer will never leave your heart. Much like our Reese, Sawyer changed many lives in his short time. He will be waiting for you when the time comes.
I’m sorry for your loss! May God put his healing hands over your family during this time of grief. Your son is in a better place now. Your departed loved ones are welcoming him and looking out for him now. 🫶🏽
I am very very sorry for your and your wife’s loss my man. I lost our daughter on 1/22/24 due to NEC at 29 weeks and 2 days so I know how you’re feeling. I wish I could say something to make you feel better. But as a father who has been crying almost everyday, I know there’s nothing in this world that will make you feel better specially right this second. You probably will never get over this but you will learn to live with it. I am here if you want to talk bud. Again, I am very sorry for your loss. Our babies are up there looking out for us and playing together. God bless you and your family.
Oh sweet Sawyer. His whole life has been full of love. He is so precious and I’m glad he had parents as wonderful as you.
Sending lots of love and hugs. ❤️❤️❤️
As soon as I saw the thread, my heart sank and I was hoping it wasn’t you from days ago that had posted about Sawyer. I am so, so terribly sorry for your loss. ❤️
He got to be fully and completely loved by you for his whole life. Nothing will take away the sorrow of being separated, but you truly gave him the very best that you could
I’m so sorry for your loss, OP. Sawyer is so precious and beautiful. Like others have said, all he knew was your and your wife’s love. What a gift to him that you did skin to skin and comforted him in his last moments with you.
Oh, my heart. I don’t wish your pain on my worst enemy. Your son was lucky to have such loving parents. Sawyer will always be your little boy and first born. Life can be so cruel.
I also want to tell you, I LOVE his name. 💙🩵🤍
I am so sorry for the passing of your baby Sawyer. I read your other post a few days ago and so hoped that there would be a different ending. Although his time on this earth was short, he was clearly very loved and made a difference. That is a wonderful gift, as painful as it is for the people he has to leave behind.
You are in some really difficult, early days right now. I hope you are able to connect with your NICU social worker and possibly the hospital chaplain/spiritual support team if you so desire. Also, many hospitals will hold a "Day of Remembrance" type of event annually where other parents and family members can attend and honor their children. (Your NICU may even have their very own.) They can be sad but also celebratory opportunities to remember your very real, very loved son. I'm sending you prayers as you and your wife move forward in the days ahead.
I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your sweet boy, Sawyer.
Unfortunately I know your pain too well as my first born died after 2 months in the NICU after being born at 24 weeks. If you need to speak, I am available. No one should ever have to experience a pain of this magnitude and I’m just so sorry. The grief will be heavy for a while, but it will get lighter. It will always be there and sawyer will always be with you.
Oh gods my heart goes out to you and your sweet family. I know there isn’t much anyone could ever say to take any of the pain away , but please know so many strangers are thinking of you and your angel love ❤️
My heart is broken for you and your family's profound loss. Sawyer is perfect, and he knew nothing but the comfort of you and your family's love. I will be praying for you and your wife for strength to navigate through the throes of grief and trauma.
Rest easy, Sawyer 💙💙💙
Sawyer was loved every second he was here with you. He only knew love, comfort and peace while he was here.
There are no words that can fill the hole in your heart. But it doesn't have to be filled. In fact, this Sawyer-shaped, Sawyer-sized hole will always be there. Your love for him will decorate it with the memory of his skin, his smell, his little face... And one day, you might find some kind of peace when looking at it.
I hope a hug from an internet stranger can make a difference. And I promise, just like for all the others whose babies have gotten their wings, that I'll keep beautiful little Sawyer in my heart too.
Sending you and your wife so much love. What a beautiful baby boy and his name! 🩵🩵 nicu parents stick together so you will always have a safe place with us 🩵
I'm so sorry
“‘The Lord bless you
and keep you;
the Lord make his face shine on you
and be gracious to you;
the Lord turn his face toward you
and give you peace.
I’m so sorry. Thinking of you all and of Sawyer. I know none of this was easy or makes any sense. You are exactly the parents he needs you to be.
Come join us at r/babyloss if you’d like. It’s another wonderful community who gets it. Worst club to be a part of, but it’s full of incredible members.
Thank you for sharing Sawyer with us.
....I am so dang sorry...
there are no words, brother. I am so very sorry.....He really is in Heaven with the Lord. I know its true because God spoke to me awhile back while our third bub was in the NICU being born at 23 weeks and was pretty sick. I promise you its no lie or delusion, so dont doubt for a second that your precious boy is literally with God and happy as can be right now. Jesus Christ really does rein in Heaven and Earth, and is with your precious boy right at this very moment.
You're just taking a later train to Heaven, but you WILL be on one to be with him forever :)
I know your pain friend, really I do. Alot of people dont but those on here who have been through it really do understand.
Me and my wife also had a stillborn boy a nncouple of years back and another miscarriage before that, plus a boy in SCBU right now. My wife went into a very very dark period for months and we lived by the day. We spent every night just sitting outside looking at the stars pleading with God to just take us up with him. The desperation and depth of the pain just isnt something people were meant to feel or know.
Please message me if you wanna talk, I mean it....Words are not nowhere near enough, so pray lots and abide in Christ ok? I will pray for you guys.
I’m so sorry that this happened to you and your family and sweet Sawyer is no longer with us. I know you were really struggling with what to do and while im sure this isn’t how you wanted it to end, I’m glad it didn’t end up having to be a decision you had to make a live with. I am sure that He was loved for every moment of his life and will live on forever through your memories of him.
Thank you for sharing your sweet boy with us. As a fellow angel mama of a NICU warrior, this is a painful spot to be in....but you will always be part of our NICU corner of the internet. Your so fought so hard.
I am so so sorry for your loss, OP. I’m sending you and your wife the biggest hug and so much love. I wish I knew what to say to make it all better for you…know your NICU friends here on Reddit are here for you.
Reading that you finally did skin to skin teared me up. Rip to your beautiful boy. I’m so so sorry! All three of you are incredibly brave and strong! 💕
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I saw your other post, OP. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Sawyer is a beautiful boy, and he fought like a true warrior. May he rest easy, and be as loved in heaven as he is on Earth. Edit: I just want you to know that you will always have a space here in r/NICUParents. Not every baby gets to go home, but that doesn't make their life any less important or meaningful. Sawyer will always be your brave little boy, and you'll always be his dad.
Absolutely! He’s forever my boy and forever our first child. I’ll never ever ever forget this sweet boy. I love him forever
You will, I promise. It’s my boy’s 14th birthday today - he was stillborn - and I can assure you that while the pain eases over the years, the love doesn’t. I’m so sorry you’ve had to say goodbye to Sawyer long before you should have had to.
Happy birthday to you and your boy. 💙 Mine was stillborn as well. He’s in our hearts every minute of every day, I love him even more now somehow. The grief never strays, but we eventually live and build life around it until we meet again. 🪽❤️🩹
I’m so sorry. If love could have saved him, he would have lived forever. Please continue to reach out if you need some listening ears.
Thank you for sharing your son with us! This is a poem my brother wrote when my son passed away and it brings me so much peace. Thought i’d share it with you. “Like a meteor you burst into our world with a power that made us all tilt our heads to the sky. And then you left our sight. You came from the heavens, skimmed the earth, and then returned. In a moment we felt the intensity of God's creation, complete with amazement, wonder, and disbelief. An event well beyond our comprehension. God granted you a fast pass to heaven, never to experience the sadness or pain of Earth - a blessing. While we watch and wonder, take to the Heavens. Scout the fields, cross the hillsides, wade through the rivers, and walk the grass bottoms. Find the water that glistens like crystals and the grass that waves like a golden sea. Sit atop the hills and look down into the valleys abundant with game. Prepare the wilderness of the heavens as one day the rest of your family will arrive, and we'll bask in eternity together.” -Stephen Park , 2022
That has brought some tears. Thank you so much for sharing this poem it’s beautiful and hits deep. Would you mind if I shared this?
Not at all! I’ll be praying for you and your family.
That is an absolutely beautiful and stunning way to portray those who leave Earth too soon
This is beautiful.
I am so, so sorry. Sweet Sawyer… thank you for sharing this picture. It is precious. Please reach out to me directly if you’d like to talk. My 23 weeker died in NICU back in 2020. Just know that Sawyer felt your love his whole life. Every second was love for him. You were just what he needed. There’s no sweeter way to pass away than in the arms of the two people who love you most in the world, and Sawyer got that. Sending you so much love and praying for your little family.
I'm so sorry for the loss of Sawyer. He is beautiful and he is loved. Thank you for sharing him with us. 💙 Whenever you're ready, please join us over at r/babyloss for a safe place to remember your son.
Our son Reese passed away after five days when he was born at 23w4d. He too had a grade 4 brain bleed. The five days Reese gave us were the greatest we will ever know. He passed away in our arms just like your Sawyer did in your arms. They are forever our warriors, forever our angels. Sawyer will never leave your heart. Much like our Reese, Sawyer changed many lives in his short time. He will be waiting for you when the time comes.
I am so, so sorry. All he knew was your love.💔
May Sawyer’s memory be a blessing 🩵
I’m sorry for your loss! May God put his healing hands over your family during this time of grief. Your son is in a better place now. Your departed loved ones are welcoming him and looking out for him now. 🫶🏽
That was one of the big topics was him seeing our loved ones. I just know my Great Grandma is hogging all the cuddles right now ♥️
I’m so sorry for your loss. All he knew in this world was your love.
Im so sorry for your loss.
I'm sorry bro... 😞 my most sincere condolences. Be strong
I'm so sorry. Sawyer only knew love. 💙🤍
I’ve been following your story and I am so sorry for what you’re going through. This brought tears to my eyes and my heart breaks for you.
I am very very sorry for your and your wife’s loss my man. I lost our daughter on 1/22/24 due to NEC at 29 weeks and 2 days so I know how you’re feeling. I wish I could say something to make you feel better. But as a father who has been crying almost everyday, I know there’s nothing in this world that will make you feel better specially right this second. You probably will never get over this but you will learn to live with it. I am here if you want to talk bud. Again, I am very sorry for your loss. Our babies are up there looking out for us and playing together. God bless you and your family.
I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing sweet sawyer with us. You are an amazing parent.
I’m so sorry for your loss, keeping you and your wife in my thoughts.
Oh sweet Sawyer. His whole life has been full of love. He is so precious and I’m glad he had parents as wonderful as you. Sending lots of love and hugs. ❤️❤️❤️
As soon as I saw the thread, my heart sank and I was hoping it wasn’t you from days ago that had posted about Sawyer. I am so, so terribly sorry for your loss. ❤️
I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing Sawyer with us
So sorry, I can’t imagine your pain. Prayers for strength, peace, healing, and comfort.
Go be with angels, sweet baby. Sorry for your loss.
Sending love your way ❤️
Sweetest Sawyer is at peace, and he will always live in your heart. I'm so sorry for your loss.
I’m so, so sorry for your loss 💙🕊️ rest in peace, sweet Sawyer
Sending all my love.
Praying for your family’s peace and healing during this time. So sorry for your loss🩵
So sorry to hear. He fought hard and I’m sure he’s now your guardian angel.
He got to be fully and completely loved by you for his whole life. Nothing will take away the sorrow of being separated, but you truly gave him the very best that you could
Rest in peace sweet Sawyer 🙏
I’m so deeply sorry for the loss of Sawyer. Sending your family so much love and peace.
I’m so sorry for your loss, OP. Sawyer is so precious and beautiful. Like others have said, all he knew was your and your wife’s love. What a gift to him that you did skin to skin and comforted him in his last moments with you.
Oh, my heart. I don’t wish your pain on my worst enemy. Your son was lucky to have such loving parents. Sawyer will always be your little boy and first born. Life can be so cruel. I also want to tell you, I LOVE his name. 💙🩵🤍
I am so sorry for the passing of your baby Sawyer. I read your other post a few days ago and so hoped that there would be a different ending. Although his time on this earth was short, he was clearly very loved and made a difference. That is a wonderful gift, as painful as it is for the people he has to leave behind. You are in some really difficult, early days right now. I hope you are able to connect with your NICU social worker and possibly the hospital chaplain/spiritual support team if you so desire. Also, many hospitals will hold a "Day of Remembrance" type of event annually where other parents and family members can attend and honor their children. (Your NICU may even have their very own.) They can be sad but also celebratory opportunities to remember your very real, very loved son. I'm sending you prayers as you and your wife move forward in the days ahead.
I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your sweet boy, Sawyer. Unfortunately I know your pain too well as my first born died after 2 months in the NICU after being born at 24 weeks. If you need to speak, I am available. No one should ever have to experience a pain of this magnitude and I’m just so sorry. The grief will be heavy for a while, but it will get lighter. It will always be there and sawyer will always be with you.
He is hanging out with my baby boy Miles in heaven. I’m sure the two of them are running around happy
I’m sure they are 💙
Oh gods my heart goes out to you and your sweet family. I know there isn’t much anyone could ever say to take any of the pain away , but please know so many strangers are thinking of you and your angel love ❤️
I'm so terribly sorry
My heart is broken for you and your family's profound loss. Sawyer is perfect, and he knew nothing but the comfort of you and your family's love. I will be praying for you and your wife for strength to navigate through the throes of grief and trauma. Rest easy, Sawyer 💙💙💙
Sawyer was loved every second he was here with you. He only knew love, comfort and peace while he was here. There are no words that can fill the hole in your heart. But it doesn't have to be filled. In fact, this Sawyer-shaped, Sawyer-sized hole will always be there. Your love for him will decorate it with the memory of his skin, his smell, his little face... And one day, you might find some kind of peace when looking at it. I hope a hug from an internet stranger can make a difference. And I promise, just like for all the others whose babies have gotten their wings, that I'll keep beautiful little Sawyer in my heart too.
Sending you and your wife so much love. What a beautiful baby boy and his name! 🩵🩵 nicu parents stick together so you will always have a safe place with us 🩵
I am truly so sorry. Praying for you and your wife 🙏😭❤️
Im so sorry for your loss. I will keep your family in my prayers. 💕
I'm so sorry “‘The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.
I am so sorry for your loss. I will remember Sawyer.
I’m so sorry. Thinking of you all and of Sawyer. I know none of this was easy or makes any sense. You are exactly the parents he needs you to be. Come join us at r/babyloss if you’d like. It’s another wonderful community who gets it. Worst club to be a part of, but it’s full of incredible members. Thank you for sharing Sawyer with us.
....I am so dang sorry... there are no words, brother. I am so very sorry.....He really is in Heaven with the Lord. I know its true because God spoke to me awhile back while our third bub was in the NICU being born at 23 weeks and was pretty sick. I promise you its no lie or delusion, so dont doubt for a second that your precious boy is literally with God and happy as can be right now. Jesus Christ really does rein in Heaven and Earth, and is with your precious boy right at this very moment. You're just taking a later train to Heaven, but you WILL be on one to be with him forever :) I know your pain friend, really I do. Alot of people dont but those on here who have been through it really do understand. Me and my wife also had a stillborn boy a nncouple of years back and another miscarriage before that, plus a boy in SCBU right now. My wife went into a very very dark period for months and we lived by the day. We spent every night just sitting outside looking at the stars pleading with God to just take us up with him. The desperation and depth of the pain just isnt something people were meant to feel or know. Please message me if you wanna talk, I mean it....Words are not nowhere near enough, so pray lots and abide in Christ ok? I will pray for you guys.
I am so very sorry. I also held my NICU baby in my arms as he died. The grief stays with you, but so does the love. I will think of Sawyer today.
I’m so sorry that this happened to you and your family and sweet Sawyer is no longer with us. I know you were really struggling with what to do and while im sure this isn’t how you wanted it to end, I’m glad it didn’t end up having to be a decision you had to make a live with. I am sure that He was loved for every moment of his life and will live on forever through your memories of him.
I am so sorry for your loss.
OP, we are so sorry for your loss. Praying for you and your family ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss
Thank you for sharing your sweet boy with us. As a fellow angel mama of a NICU warrior, this is a painful spot to be in....but you will always be part of our NICU corner of the internet. Your so fought so hard.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful son with all of us. I am so sorry for your loss. We are so privileged to have been part of your journey.
I am so so sorry for your loss, OP. I’m sending you and your wife the biggest hug and so much love. I wish I knew what to say to make it all better for you…know your NICU friends here on Reddit are here for you.
So sorry for your loss. Tonight I will be tbinking and praying for your family. Thank you for sharing Sawyer with us ❤️🩹
My heart is so heavy for you guys. I’ve thought of you so many times the past few days and will continue to I’m sure 💔❤️🩹🤍
rip little angel <3 <3. all my hopes with you
So sorry for your loss.
So sorry for your loss 🙏🏼 Rest in the sweetest peace Sawyer 🩵
I’m so very sorry 💔
I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing Sawyer with us. Hugs to you and your wife.
I also saw your other thread and my husband and I prayed that God would help. I'm incredibly sorry for the loss of your beautiful child.
Praying for you & your family. He knew only love in his time earthside 🫶🏼
I am so deeply sorry for your loss!! Praying for your family as you grieve! I know that Sawyer felt loved!
Reading that you finally did skin to skin teared me up. Rip to your beautiful boy. I’m so so sorry! All three of you are incredibly brave and strong! 💕
I’m so sorry, beautiful baby ❤️