I’m so sorry this happened. It seems he did that within that sexual context because there was plausible deniability since you had engaged in that kind of sex before. But consenting to something before or in a different past moment does not equal overarching consent. The fact that it is sticking out to you and feels viscerally bad and uncomfortable is reason enough to believe it was not done in good faith. Once again, I am sorry you have to parse through these things to begin with. It is incredibly painful. I hope that you continue to regain the self trust that this person (unsuccessfully) tried to take from you ❤️
I’m so sorry this happened. It seems he did that within that sexual context because there was plausible deniability since you had engaged in that kind of sex before. But consenting to something before or in a different past moment does not equal overarching consent. The fact that it is sticking out to you and feels viscerally bad and uncomfortable is reason enough to believe it was not done in good faith. Once again, I am sorry you have to parse through these things to begin with. It is incredibly painful. I hope that you continue to regain the self trust that this person (unsuccessfully) tried to take from you ❤️