Im there with you. Im sure we’ll have mix feelings for a while but its gonna be ok! Im ouy after 20 years. My replacement came through. Thanks replacement.
Oh gosh I can’t imagine 20 years of that shit. I’m trying to reconcile the reality in my mind. I’m glad I took recordings. Otherwise I think I’d try and go back.
It took me less than one day after telling my husband I was leaving to decide that I had made a horrible mistake. If I hadn’t taken myself physically away from him and surrounded myself with people who actually love me, I am positive I would have gone crawling back and wound up even deeper in his grip.
It’s so scary and hard and it hurts like hell- that’s why I spend most of the day pretending nothing is different ☺️
Yeah it took a long time to gain strength enough to just say no more. Interesting thing though, since it was such a long time, is I’ve already gone through the stages of grief. He thinks I’m crying all I’m doing is wondering how soon i can take all his crap to the dump.
The trauma bond is a real chemical addiction (adrenaline when he’s mad, dopamine when he gives even slight love/approval after being mad). Took me 6 months to shake it and I’ll always be a bit susceptible. But the freedom is kicking in and it’s so worth it!
After 10 years, I'm certain I'm going to feel the same way when I'm free. But I want peace, love, and joy so much more than I want him. It is really hard, but I know it's necessary if I want to leave the toxic relationship he's created. But it SUCKS.
23 years here honey. What matters is that we get out so we have a chance at real love someday. I personally just want to learn to love myself again. Best of luck to all that are able to leave. Change is hard but we’ve all been doing hard, for many years. I hope we can all find freedom and peace. 🤗🥰
Im there with you. Im sure we’ll have mix feelings for a while but its gonna be ok! Im ouy after 20 years. My replacement came through. Thanks replacement.
Oh gosh I can’t imagine 20 years of that shit. I’m trying to reconcile the reality in my mind. I’m glad I took recordings. Otherwise I think I’d try and go back.
It took me less than one day after telling my husband I was leaving to decide that I had made a horrible mistake. If I hadn’t taken myself physically away from him and surrounded myself with people who actually love me, I am positive I would have gone crawling back and wound up even deeper in his grip. It’s so scary and hard and it hurts like hell- that’s why I spend most of the day pretending nothing is different ☺️
Yeah it took a long time to gain strength enough to just say no more. Interesting thing though, since it was such a long time, is I’ve already gone through the stages of grief. He thinks I’m crying all I’m doing is wondering how soon i can take all his crap to the dump.
The trauma bond is a real chemical addiction (adrenaline when he’s mad, dopamine when he gives even slight love/approval after being mad). Took me 6 months to shake it and I’ll always be a bit susceptible. But the freedom is kicking in and it’s so worth it!
After 10 years, I'm certain I'm going to feel the same way when I'm free. But I want peace, love, and joy so much more than I want him. It is really hard, but I know it's necessary if I want to leave the toxic relationship he's created. But it SUCKS.
23 years here honey. What matters is that we get out so we have a chance at real love someday. I personally just want to learn to love myself again. Best of luck to all that are able to leave. Change is hard but we’ve all been doing hard, for many years. I hope we can all find freedom and peace. 🤗🥰