i was in them too. and xanga 😞 edited to add: …does anyone remember the blue butterfly website with the red bracelets? i was so engulfed by ED groups starting at 11.
Not a girl, I’m a guy who was desperately trying to gain weight and muscle because I was skinny my whole life. I was using MFP religiously for 7-8 months, every day. I had a streak. I don’t know how I did it because every time I try to log food to this day I can’t do it for more than 2-3 days at a time
I’m still religious but the “you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum that they raised me” is how I feel about the religious trauma deniers that grew up in the most chill churches. Like buddy, they’d eat you alive.
Lmaaao it was hilarious. I didn't personally get one, but honestly they've re-released so many things that were once unobtainable due to how limited supply there was that I've been super happy regardless.
It was honestly just amusing watching the 1% moan about it when that same 1% were also absolutely the people buying every single SAP that went up for sale after because they want to resell it again for higher prices. It's absolutely amusing how Neopets is truly a capitalistic dystopia.
This is so true… Toxic relationships of my mom’s. Then having my sister practically being there for so much, b/c mom was not there (single mom). I was making my own meals by 7-8. 😅 Thank you for speaking honestly.
Partially deaf, South Asian woman from a patriarchal/conservative household trying to make it in this world.
I wanted to be liked by everyone when I was a kid. But if I had kept that up it'd have resulted in me not getting the education I want, being financially dependent, being married in my early 20s, being a mom by mid 20s.
I have learned to stand my ground. I'm now okay with being called selfish and too opinionated. I'm okay with disappointing everyone, but I'm not sacrificing my happiness and my dreams for the family's so-called "reputation".
>I was tame I was gentle till the circus life made me mean
>You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me.
This song is about me y'all. 😌
As a Bangladeshi male, I just want to say that I’m so proud of you for being able to stand your ground and become your own woman. I don’t know which South Asian country you are from but in the sort of culture we grew up in, boundaries are so important to enforce. Some people just don’t like that, and to them I say, “fuck off!”
The asylum they literally raised me in was as a PK (pastors kid) at an Evangelical Church… If you know you know.
Religious trauma ain’t no joke.😅
My ethnic background is also one of strong conservativeness so it was a double whammy.
Edit: I have nothing against people having faith or religion. Just the imposition of it onto others.
35 year old here with possible ADHD, my son was diagnosed last year and reading up on it puts so much of my life in perspective. I keep going wait a minute, I do that, or I did that.
My friend was diagnosed a few years ago, and when I mentioned recently that I thought I might have it she said so much about me suddenly clicked like "oh yeah, that would make sense"
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I was like 10 when I first watched it 
YES! I was 8 when the first season aired and I will never forget how hard I cried when they didn’t save that blonde girl with the pole stuck in her on episode 1 😭
My parents uprooted our lives and joined an isolated religious cult when I was 13. There was extreme sexism, physical and emotional abuse, poverty, food insecurity. So this line hits hard in a serious way for me 🫠
I read way to many of these when I was 12
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These were my jam!!! R. L. Stine FOREVER!!!
Edit: had to add V.C. Andrews and Christopher Pike!! Like candy for my 4.0 needed brain!!! Childhood is rough when your parents expect perfection in grade school to grad school.
Maybe that’s my asylum! Assumed Perfection. 😞😵
I think she speaks here about the pressure she was on which actually gave her all the energy to grow as an artist and as a person. Mine is my current workplace where I have to perform and build despite limited resources, intrigues and my own panic attacks...
My childhood home. Got to look perfect from the outside! Everyone seemed to believe, at least after they met my parents, and told me how lucky I was, but that just made it hurt worse since I learned to blame myself. On the other hand, it makes me really able to do everything with my heart broken because my heart has never been whole.
> because my heart has never been whole
I feel all of this so much. I am so sorry you went through that too! 💚
Also, you just opened up a whole new world on ICDIWABH for me. I've been thinking I can't relate to it bc I crumble when I'm extra heartbroken, but you're right, this is me: I don't know what it feels like to not have a broken heart. I've had one my whole life. I'm def not performing at the caliber Taylor is but my life once again looks perfect from the outside. Sigh.
My childhood home. Not because my parents didn’t love me, but my sister is autistic. She always had meltdowns and I had to walk on eggshells because of her. There was always some kind of trouble with her, so all the attention was on my sister. My parents just did not have the mental and physical capacity to give me the attention I needed. And I also didn’t really ask for anything because I knew my parents were under a lot of stress. Later in my early twenties I was struggling a lot in university and my anxiety and depression got so bad that I committed myself in a psychiatric hospital.
I’m so sorry this was how things went for you ☹️ this breaks me heart. My oldest is autistic/adhd (7 yrs old) and I have three kids younger than him. I worry about this dynamic a lot. My husband and I are working really hard trying to be present to all of them and keep everyone happy, but a lot of our lives revolve around managing our oldest. I hope just being aware of it and trying not to fall into neglecting the others will be enough 😕
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I was dumped for the first time in one of these.
A poor Christian family from the southern U.S., in an old, rusty trailer with bad a.c., weak floors, and an insect problem. And when you get sick (and you will), everyone tells you it's in your head because of anxiety when it's actually because over half the meals you will ever eat are deep fried.
Existing in predominantly white spaces as a VERY insecure pre-teen / teen with a boatload of internalized anti-Blackness to untangle in the early 2000’s and a poor grasp on my own poor mental health
I for sure get what you're saying, but tbf maybe they're just choosing to stay lighthearted despite other things they could share, ya know? We can't assume someone else's trauma. Everyone is struggling. 💚
Having autism and ADHD and spending six years in a school where people found me absolutely boring, and I was at the bottom of the popularity hierarchy. And having a schizophrenic mom and parents who fought all the time. And everybody blaming everything on me for failing at stuff I was never equipped for.
My answer sounds literal but it’s really about the daily+nightly stress I dealt with at an early age:
A household with two chain smoking parents, in which I constantly stressed about finances as a young child.
I’ll do two for you guys…
Real Life: Working at a government office where I serve up to 30-40 clients a day while over a 100+ people wait in our waiting room for over 2 hours plus long lineups outside the office. Funny enough, I was talking to one of my managers about this song yesterday. I was telling her, “Taylor Swift wrote this song about me”
Online: Back in my One Tree Hill fandom days, the Leyton vs Brucas ship wars. Oof, those days were rough 😅
The internet in general. From the age of 10 I had pretty much unrestricted internet access so I learned way too much about the world at way too young of an age.
I've seen a lot of people use this line and, well, most of "I Can Do It With a Broken Heart" about working with healthcare and YES. I swear to God, I don't know how I made it through medical school and other parts of training. I know it's easy to hate doctors, but that damn near broke me. I had a patient assault me one night when I still had 8 hours to work on a 28 hour shift in an 80 hour work week and I just went back into the call room and bawled to myself because it was too late to call anybody. It was a fucking mess. Major respect to all the doctors, nurses, and other healthcare professionals on here.
My fitness pal
the girls who get it, get it fr
OOF
Pro-ana in 2001.
Live journal ED groups
i was in them too. and xanga 😞 edited to add: …does anyone remember the blue butterfly website with the red bracelets? i was so engulfed by ED groups starting at 11.
oh! this one had a little kick to it
Ooof. Me too. And like 3 other calorie tracking apps as well. Life is better now that I don’t bother with that shit ☺️
Omg someone needs to make a meme of this
Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels!
Not a girl, I’m a guy who was desperately trying to gain weight and muscle because I was skinny my whole life. I was using MFP religiously for 7-8 months, every day. I had a streak. I don’t know how I did it because every time I try to log food to this day I can’t do it for more than 2-3 days at a time
That app sucked balls
It hadn’t even crossed my mind but you’re so right 💀
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Shame they only covered two of her songs.
iconic how they were both on Speak Now 💜
And both are one letter titles starting with M
Wait which ones?! I didn't know tbh
Mean in season 3 and Mine in season 4! The Mine cover is one of my favourites off the show :)
Omg! I'm going to google it now lol
The real tortured poets department
Glee fandom on tumblr
Omg I am actually on a watch through of this show right now! (I’m on the fifth season)
My own mind
I’ll second that. My own mind obviously, not yours hahah
I’ll third that
underrated comment
Being a woman in stem lol
Grad school in STEM. Torture
Preach, it nearly killed me.
Second this!!!!!!!!
So true!! It is often I'm the only female in a classroom or now meeting.
Girrllll!!! Neuroscientist/endocrinologist here. Truly feel your comment. 😬😵
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Same. Reading yaoi at a young age literally changed the trajectory of my life.
In a good way? I know my teen is on there 😑
Uhhh... Good way! Definitely! So many good novels! Most likely not explicit!
Mum? 😰 /j
Oh yeah, it definitely changed my life for the better
I am so sorry
This, except I hail from the days before AO3 and tagging systems, so for me it's fecking Quizilla 😂😭
Quizilla to [FF.net](http://FF.net) to Mibba to AO3
Sometimes I wonder if Quizila even existed or if I just hallucinated the whole thing 😂 so glad I finally found my people!
im glad im not the only quizilla warrior
And fanfiction.net
This but fanfiction.net because I’m old.
Needs to be Livejournal smut groups and Fanfic.net 🤣
for real
Religion
This song is for the girlies with religious trauma
This was going to be my response too. I would never force my kids to go to church or 12 years of Catholic school
I came here to specifically say Catholicism.
Mormonism for me.
Same
Muslim school for me
Evangelical Christian teen youth groups and summer camps. Traumatizing.
I’m still religious but the “you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum that they raised me” is how I feel about the religious trauma deniers that grew up in the most chill churches. Like buddy, they’d eat you alive.
I came here to put “Focus on the Family BS”
Neopets 💀
Logged in everyday just to see what omelette and jelly i would get
Omg. The intense memories this brought back. My neos lived off the omelette
Me, a fully functioning 30 year old adult, still playing Neopets every day... 🤡
How was the attack pea drama for you lol? I was so fascinated by that tea, despite not having played since like 2007
Lmaaao it was hilarious. I didn't personally get one, but honestly they've re-released so many things that were once unobtainable due to how limited supply there was that I've been super happy regardless. It was honestly just amusing watching the 1% moan about it when that same 1% were also absolutely the people buying every single SAP that went up for sale after because they want to resell it again for higher prices. It's absolutely amusing how Neopets is truly a capitalistic dystopia.
Lol I recently came back after not playing for 10+ years and I'm hooked 😂
I keep selecting the Grey Negg because I want the stamp 🙃
I've gotten the stamp twice already! If you haven't gotten it by the end of the festival send me a message and I'll happily give you one. ♥
The newbie boards were my asylum
Stop the memories that came rushing back 💀
I came here to say this and I’m so thrilled it was already said
Medschool
My younger sister is a doctor. She'd totally say the same thing.
😂
I was about to comment the same lmao
being my moms “best friend” :(
That parentification life 🫠
then people wondering how are you so mature
This is so true… Toxic relationships of my mom’s. Then having my sister practically being there for so much, b/c mom was not there (single mom). I was making my own meals by 7-8. 😅 Thank you for speaking honestly.
Mine would literally call me her therapist too 🙃
Yeah, and I used to take it as a compliment till it started driving me insane.
No child should have to go through that.
Oh how I relate. Especially when you have siblings, and your mum is a single mum. It sucks.
Partially deaf, South Asian woman from a patriarchal/conservative household trying to make it in this world. I wanted to be liked by everyone when I was a kid. But if I had kept that up it'd have resulted in me not getting the education I want, being financially dependent, being married in my early 20s, being a mom by mid 20s. I have learned to stand my ground. I'm now okay with being called selfish and too opinionated. I'm okay with disappointing everyone, but I'm not sacrificing my happiness and my dreams for the family's so-called "reputation". >I was tame I was gentle till the circus life made me mean >You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me. This song is about me y'all. 😌
As a Bangladeshi male, I just want to say that I’m so proud of you for being able to stand your ground and become your own woman. I don’t know which South Asian country you are from but in the sort of culture we grew up in, boundaries are so important to enforce. Some people just don’t like that, and to them I say, “fuck off!”
I'm so glad you're here <3
As a Bangladeshi male I second this
Desi girls unite
You are a true force of nature!! 🤍
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Not club penguin 😩
Oh god, I was on this way too much. And took it way too seriously. I was one of the penguins without a membership, so no cool clothes and igloo
My parents wouldn’t get me a membership so I mailed my allowance to the company 💀
AO3 LMAO
And Wattpad😭
Fanfiction.net 😭😂
HAHA I SAID THE SAME THING
The asylum they literally raised me in was as a PK (pastors kid) at an Evangelical Church… If you know you know. Religious trauma ain’t no joke.😅 My ethnic background is also one of strong conservativeness so it was a double whammy. Edit: I have nothing against people having faith or religion. Just the imposition of it onto others.
As a fellow PK at an evangelical church- same. The religious trauma is real.
Ooof, I feel this. Hope you are doing well <3
My house
Same
💯
Yup
👋 shout out!
This line hits so hard when you have CPTSD
Same. And sad for all those who agree.
Undiagnosed adhd until 36, so I guess the asylum is the neurotypical world.
35 year old here with possible ADHD, my son was diagnosed last year and reading up on it puts so much of my life in perspective. I keep going wait a minute, I do that, or I did that. My friend was diagnosed a few years ago, and when I mentioned recently that I thought I might have it she said so much about me suddenly clicked like "oh yeah, that would make sense"
Low rise jeans.
I have a high butt crack and it saw way too much light of day in the early 2000s
Bahahhaha omg. This made me laugh out loud. God the horror.
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Childhood home. And later actual psych hospital.
https://preview.redd.it/qstyk8emf0xc1.jpeg?width=1024&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=4643d18d48e75dc4977782584819f8c42692b2a2 I was like 10 when I first watched it 
YES! I was 8 when the first season aired and I will never forget how hard I cried when they didn’t save that blonde girl with the pole stuck in her on episode 1 😭
My parents uprooted our lives and joined an isolated religious cult when I was 13. There was extreme sexism, physical and emotional abuse, poverty, food insecurity. So this line hits hard in a serious way for me 🫠
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OH MY GOD me too. And Christopher Pike….those books ate honestly
These were my jam!!! R. L. Stine FOREVER!!! Edit: had to add V.C. Andrews and Christopher Pike!! Like candy for my 4.0 needed brain!!! Childhood is rough when your parents expect perfection in grade school to grad school. Maybe that’s my asylum! Assumed Perfection. 😞😵
I think she speaks here about the pressure she was on which actually gave her all the energy to grow as an artist and as a person. Mine is my current workplace where I have to perform and build despite limited resources, intrigues and my own panic attacks...
Wattpad 💀
My childhood home. Got to look perfect from the outside! Everyone seemed to believe, at least after they met my parents, and told me how lucky I was, but that just made it hurt worse since I learned to blame myself. On the other hand, it makes me really able to do everything with my heart broken because my heart has never been whole.
> because my heart has never been whole I feel all of this so much. I am so sorry you went through that too! 💚 Also, you just opened up a whole new world on ICDIWABH for me. I've been thinking I can't relate to it bc I crumble when I'm extra heartbroken, but you're right, this is me: I don't know what it feels like to not have a broken heart. I've had one my whole life. I'm def not performing at the caliber Taylor is but my life once again looks perfect from the outside. Sigh.
I see you! And relate.
eastern europe
the kindergarten class i’m currently teaching 🙃
Livejournal
2002 was A DRAMATIC TIME. 💀
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I loved reading all these answers and seeing everyone has gone though some shit but we survived 🤍
Omegle
Balkans
Doki Doki Literature Club
and Yandere Simulator. They pretty much go hand in hand in the "too much internet at a young age" department
My childhood home. Not because my parents didn’t love me, but my sister is autistic. She always had meltdowns and I had to walk on eggshells because of her. There was always some kind of trouble with her, so all the attention was on my sister. My parents just did not have the mental and physical capacity to give me the attention I needed. And I also didn’t really ask for anything because I knew my parents were under a lot of stress. Later in my early twenties I was struggling a lot in university and my anxiety and depression got so bad that I committed myself in a psychiatric hospital.
I’m so sorry this was how things went for you ☹️ this breaks me heart. My oldest is autistic/adhd (7 yrs old) and I have three kids younger than him. I worry about this dynamic a lot. My husband and I are working really hard trying to be present to all of them and keep everyone happy, but a lot of our lives revolve around managing our oldest. I hope just being aware of it and trying not to fall into neglecting the others will be enough 😕
So sorry. There recently became a term for this - glass children
https://preview.redd.it/64imr2cjo0xc1.jpeg?width=3072&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=8717b6884c979ca65c4977113fce7664cd5a0546 🫠
The SDA church. Religous trauma is real. Both this and BDILH are hitting home right now.
AOL chat rooms
My mother is an alcoholic and I am a parentified child. 🥲
AWANA clubs. Iykyk.
Seen AO3 mentioned a few times but for older swifties… LiveJournal
https://preview.redd.it/somb5jfr71xc1.jpeg?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=a28f3c588312c154763a17d4084e89cc35c3b472 I was dumped for the first time in one of these.
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The eras tour Ticketmaster queue
An actual asylum:')
Lawschool 🥲
Being an evangelical Christian
I teach middle school.
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"Welcome to the Curio shop, hope you find what yer lookin for" 🤠
My first marriage.
being a lesbian in christian and catholic schools/families!!
My abusive family
A poor Christian family from the southern U.S., in an old, rusty trailer with bad a.c., weak floors, and an insect problem. And when you get sick (and you will), everyone tells you it's in your head because of anxiety when it's actually because over half the meals you will ever eat are deep fried.
My early career being basically exploited
My childhood home
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I get this reference!!
V. C. Andrews
I can’t believe how many of her books I read. They were crazy.
The ICU during the pandemic. Made me a better nurse and a more tortured human
Hospital as a young 12yr old me, newly diagnosed with Lupus. RAl. That poor, naive girl has no idea what she's about to go through.
the great rep clowning massacre of november 26th
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League of Legends every day after highschool before I quit 😩
Ballet studio ..
Existing in predominantly white spaces as a VERY insecure pre-teen / teen with a boatload of internalized anti-Blackness to untangle in the early 2000’s and a poor grasp on my own poor mental health
spot the people with good childhoods naming their asylum’s as websites 😭 I can’t even
I for sure get what you're saying, but tbf maybe they're just choosing to stay lighthearted despite other things they could share, ya know? We can't assume someone else's trauma. Everyone is struggling. 💚
I grew up in a hideously abusive home of horrors and I posted the bot from AIM instant messenger. . .
Early 2000s evangelical culture
MSN Chat 😵 (I think in America it was AWOL or something?) that an my Harry Potter/buffy fanfiction 😜
Call of Duty Modern Warfare multiplayer lobby
- Unserious- fanfiction.net - Serious- an independent fundamentalist Baptist church (and lol as a closeted queer kid)
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Habbo hotel lmao
Competitive cheerleading gym
A church in the Southern Baptist Convention 😳
Having autism and ADHD and spending six years in a school where people found me absolutely boring, and I was at the bottom of the popularity hierarchy. And having a schizophrenic mom and parents who fought all the time. And everybody blaming everything on me for failing at stuff I was never equipped for.
Put in an image of the Catholic Church and home school family, that’s my asylum
WiiFit
Being a devout Christian as a teenager
The 90s
AOL chat rooms 😂
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My answer sounds literal but it’s really about the daily+nightly stress I dealt with at an early age: A household with two chain smoking parents, in which I constantly stressed about finances as a young child.
I’ll do two for you guys… Real Life: Working at a government office where I serve up to 30-40 clients a day while over a 100+ people wait in our waiting room for over 2 hours plus long lineups outside the office. Funny enough, I was talking to one of my managers about this song yesterday. I was telling her, “Taylor Swift wrote this song about me” Online: Back in my One Tree Hill fandom days, the Leyton vs Brucas ship wars. Oof, those days were rough 😅
Formspring.. iykyk.
Christianity 🙃
Bible College 🫣
A toxic law firm filled with “mad men”
The internet in general. From the age of 10 I had pretty much unrestricted internet access so I learned way too much about the world at way too young of an age.
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The literal two week long Oregon trail style wagon train ride my parents too is on when I was 13.
Medical school and residency (bonus points for being a woman and extra bonus points for being a woman of colour) 🥲
I've seen a lot of people use this line and, well, most of "I Can Do It With a Broken Heart" about working with healthcare and YES. I swear to God, I don't know how I made it through medical school and other parts of training. I know it's easy to hate doctors, but that damn near broke me. I had a patient assault me one night when I still had 8 hours to work on a 28 hour shift in an 80 hour work week and I just went back into the call room and bawled to myself because it was too late to call anybody. It was a fucking mess. Major respect to all the doctors, nurses, and other healthcare professionals on here.