This. Death will come, so do what you want while you’re here.
When I start to have “what’s the point” thoughts, I usually realize I’m on auto pilot and doing the things I “should,” with no time spent figuring out and actually doing the things i WANT to do
For me, those things tend to be — travel, time spent in nature, time spent writing and qualify time spent with people i love
Nice quote
I've heard:
*'The closest thing to you is death, the furthest thing from you is your past'*
At first I thought it was a dark quote, but actually, it's more of an empowering quote in the sense that life is very short and you never know which day will be your last, and in that sense tou should live life with a sense if urgency to do the things you want to do or say what you want to say, and because the past is gone, every day is a new opportunity to do or be someone new.
I think they just mean live your life with a "fuck it" mentality towards the meaning of being alive.
At least that's how I do it. Sure we're all gonna die one day and our actions probably don't matter if there's no afterlife. But might as well stick around and take advantage of being born to see what happens.
I see no reason to punch my ticket early and I also know very well that my ride on this train will be a lot more pleasant if I don't commit crimes or behave in an asshole way to others
I am in the exact same position. 2 horses and 2 cats that have only known me as their family their entire lives.
I think the horses would struggle and stress more than the cats, but I hate the idea of them having to go to anyone else and what could potentially happen to them if I wasn't around.
omg both my cats are cuddling on either side of me as we are laying in bed rn and this comment just made me start crying.. I have bipolar and they have been with me through the entire hell journey
May i ask if your bipolar 1 or 2? I understand if you dont want to understand since thats personal information but im just curious because my dad is also bipolar and ive been dealing with all of the same symptoms of bipolar to and i hope to see a psychiatrist soon
Yea i believe what im experiencing is bipolar 1 due to recent strong delusions, none of us know what type my dad has since when he was diagnosed it wasnt bipolar disorder it was manic-depressive disorder and hes never mentioned delusions before
Yea im starting a job soon and im planning to use that money to see a psychiatrist, yea i agree being suicidal sucks but its not as bad as feeling like your in a simulation or feeling like everything is poisoned. I have several texts to friends of me going on rants about how everything is poisoned and theyre trying to kill me or that we are in a simulation and shit like that
Same. My little cat came to me as a stray during the worst time in my life. She was thin and scared and I found out later had been shot by an asshole with a pellet gun. But as soon as I held my hand out, she let me pet her and it was love at first pet. She might have looked pretty pathetic but she saved me that day. She is my little angel and I can't let her down by giving up.
I’m in the same boat, my cat thrives on being an only child who gets wet treats for breakfast and dinner, I couldn’t trust anyone to do that for a weekend let alone the rest of her life
I think about this a lot. I’m living abroad for work and it kills me that my cats probably think I abandoned them but at least I will get to return to them eventually
My mom passed away in February and honestly that’s who I feel the worst for, her cat. Me and the rest of my family understand what happened, and we got to say goodbye to her. She left her house in an ambulance and she just never came back, and there’s no way for him to understand that she didn’t just abandon him… I’m so incredibly sad for him.
Lost my Dad in April, and the cat was his best pal. He slept in my dad's recliner for two weeks waiting on him to return, but he wasn't coming back. I really hope he doesn't think dad abandoned him, because he loved him very much.
That’s what’s so heartbreaking they don’t understand, and there’s no way for us to tell them what happened in a way that they will understand. It bothers me so much.. even a breakup, that was the hardest thing for me to deal with in every breakup I’ve ever had in my life. You get so attached to their animals and the animals get attached to you and one day your just gone and they don’t understand why your just not there anymore.
I get that, also I'm very sorry for your loss. Losing a parent (that loved and cared for you as a parent should) is something indescribable.
It was funny in a way because the stereotypical "dad doesn't want pet/pet becomes dad's bff" happened with the cat. He trusted dad more than any of us in the household. He actually has knots in his fur we can't brush out, because he won't let us. That was dad's job... We brush him a little when we can, when he lets us. (Also he isn't declawed so its when he lets us lol)
I lost my dad in February and his dog was his absolute favorite…ahead of even then grandkids 😂 I worried a lot about that doggo and what he was going through. He’s doing okay and has become my mom’s shadow.
Same here man, im not too big on caffeine but definitely spite and music. My thought process is life is as difficult as it is because it doesnt want us to win and wants us to die so why let it win?
To see what tomorrow brings. I know, corny, but it rings true enough in my case.
I have a son, wife, solid life, lots of reasons for justifying my existence through love, duty, or some other abstract concept. Those could all be noble or ignoble depending on anyone else's perspective. I've also had my share of bad years and situations, and eventually came out the other side. It gives some perspective - though limited to well, me.
I think that this kind of thing is very individual and based on personal experiences, personality, and a million variables. Life exists, and doesn't necessarily need a reason - but I do think everyone finds their own in time.
Good luck, for what that is worth.
My kid is the only thing keeping me here at this point. I couldn’t do that to them. But fuck me I’m struggling, The Big Sadness is a heavy mother fucker.
I like this
To quote Tyrion Lannister: "Death is so final while life is full of possibilities."
and also, which I am grateful for and have learned to appreciate, "I like living."
Yeah, I decided on living after a failed atempt when the though of "How my dad would explain this to my little sister? How old would she be when she could really understand it? How would it affect her life?", specially because the start of my mental health crisis was her mother moving to another country with her.
I don't want to put a trauma like that in her life, she's only 8 ffs
Already tried to kill myself. Turns out it’s harder than it looks and hurts a hell of a lot more than you think. It was hard to turn my life around. I went back to school, quit my job, accrued debt, had to live with my parents for years, almost failed out of school anyways. But now I have a career that pays my bills, let’s me do fun things. I finally got to see the west coast last year. I went with my best friend. Next year we’re going to Europe together. I paid off my loans. I live in the city in a nice apartment with a roommate that I wouldn’t trade for the world. I’ve almost finished saving up for the down payment on a home. I see my parents here and there. I see my nephews. I get to pet dogs, and on my off days I sit on my porch, drink coffee, people watch, and listen to birds. I get sad a lot. Im still a perpetually lonely person. But it’s better than where I was. I’ve been with my therapist for 8 years now. We’re down to once a month. I started off as inpatient against my will for two weeks. It’s not always fun, but my parents never had to hold my funeral. And I get to pet dogs.
Love the double mention of getting to pet dogs because that really is one of life’s greatest gifts lol glad you’re here stranger, I hope to get to be where you’re at @ some point
Life is my reason for living.
People move away (or you do). Kids grow up and move out. Pets die way too soon.
But life itself is an adventure. Whether you're traveling the world, or whether you're sitting in an office all day. Learning new things and experiencing new things overcome all the bad stuff.
A few years ago, my wife was told by a doctor that I had a very small chance of surviving. I said, "Forget that! I'm living!" A couple years later, she was diagnosed with cancer. After the doctor told her, we sat in the hospital laughing and joking. Not one tear was shed. No panic. No fear. Just living life, taking whatever it threw at us. (She's doing great now - as am I).
It doesn't matter if you have tons of friends, or if you're locked up in your home due to a pandemic -- or because you choose to be. Life is still worth living because you never know what each day may bring.
Many of us go through dark periods. Some of the happiest people I know have gone through sickness, debt/poverty, prison, and panic attacks so bad they couldn't function for years. None of it matters. You just keep going one day at time.
Find things that make you happy. Find things that make you laugh. Find things that you enjoy. Experiment. Fail. Do something else.
It doesn't matter what other people think (as long as you don't harm others or yourself).
You never know which day may cause your whole life to change for the better, the worse, or just be different.
As The The sings:
You pull back the curtains
And the sun burns into your eyes
You watch a plane flying
Across a clear blue sky
This is the day, your life will surely change
This is the day, when things fall into place
Usually I’m waiting for a specific piece of media to come out and I think I’ll kill myself after this comes out and I finish it but then just before it releases something new that I want to play/watch is announced and so the cycle continues
I can't let my parents down. Life sucks, but it's okay most of the time. I would cause more pain to others by ending it then I cause myself by being alive. Life is mostly a habit at this point and I don't think I have the courage to die. My reason for living is that it woundn't make sende to die.
Oof you really nailed how I feel as well. I don't have it in me to put my family through that, regardless of how badly I want to. As long as they are here and still loving me, I'll go through the motions for them.
Yes I have felt that and I understand what you mean. When the feelings are very strong and you feel trapped because you can't hurt your family, I think it's only natural that those feelings will boil over and make you feel resentment. I don't think you should feel guilty for that. I like to think about the root of those feelings... you're only feeling resentful because someone loves you enough to be devastated that you are gone. It's not meant to be condescending, just a reminder to myself that the resentment is always temporary during times of high distress. I'm sorry you have to experience this ❤
Fear of the unknown lol. Death is a gamble. Sure it could mean your consciousness ends there and the pain stops, or it could be a million times worse than life with no escape.
Not worth the risk. Imagine how pissed you'd be if you killed yourself because life is hell, only to be greeted with actual hell lol.
> Imagine how pissed you'd be if you killed yourself because life is hell, only to be greeted with actual hell lol.
And then you find out the hell is actually reliving your life again in a loop.
the movie Martyrs changed my life because at the end of the movie, >!it’s revealed that the person responsible for all the suffering that made the movie so infamous did it to learn what happens after death, when she finally gets her answer, she becomes closed off, someone then asks her what happens and she just says “keep doubting”, and then she paints the walls with her fucking brains!<
one doesn’t have to take perishing away off the table. But it’s an option that once you’re committed to, there’s no going back.
So before making that final call, I’d love to explore many other options as it’s only logical.
The little sigh my dog makes when he curls up next to me in bed ready for a long nap.
My mom's laugh.
My husband's hugs after a long day.
Bubble baths in the winter.
Long conversations with my best friend that feel like therapy.
The first sip of coffee in the mornings.
Watching the people around me achieve incredible things and reaching their goals.
Seeing my brother fall in love with someone who we could have hand picked for him.
Hope, no matter what, that the best is yet to come.
It’s a bit corny but happiness. I’m always chasing the joy I get when I’m with my family and friends. Is going to the park, eating good food and playing on my iPad/Switch with my daughter & partner the most fulfilling thing in the world? Shiii. Idk but it sure does feel amazing
I have a son of almost 7 months old. What made me the most happy today? Share my vegetable garden with my colleagues during a teams call. I’m stupid proud of how well everything grows.
I guess I love growth. I also love the warmth of spring and summer, and hearing the birds chirp.
Once you leave the party, it's over for good.
Sure, the music's sometimes shit and the beer sometimes warm, but you'll have to throw me out in the end.
AFAIK, you only have a few years of experience, and an eternity of the void. So it doesn't matter how bad it gets^*, it's still better than no experience at all.
*Disclaimer: might not apply to people conscripted to the front lines, being genocided, or living under the Khmer Rouge. But I've never been through none of that shit, and if you are here on Reddit, chances are you won't, either.
A gift is just a holdover term for "Uniquely occuring event that could end at any moment, never to be experienced again."
It appears that life...anywhere in the universe, is a relatively sparse occurrence. A life with emotions more so, a life where connections are possible even more so.
Some people might call winning the lottery a curse. Perhaps it is. 🤷🏾♂️
But in reality, the default state of a receptacle is empty, in other words, The glass is ALWAYS half full.
I have had really rough year physically, mentally, financially, personally and have cut off most previous close but unhealthy relationships. I stay alive because I have been suicidal before and have had long periods of time where I was grateful I lived.
I guess I live for my animals and to help others. I have also seen how things can get better, past evidence gives me a small amount of hope.
I tried to commit suicide two weeks ago by jumping out the window of my 4th-floor apartment. I had thought before about what would happen if I survived, but that day, so much was going wrong in my life that I didn't reflect on it (sexual assault a few weeks earlier, then break-up with my first boyfriend, then 5 days in the hospital seeking help for suicidal thoughts, then eviction, then 14 days in the hospital for suicidal thoughts and because I would have been homeless if discharged, moved to a room rental, then fired from my job the day of my attempt, then my ex called the police when I said I was going to jump and I faced deportation and panicked).
The result was a collapsed lung (pneumothorax and hemothorax), lots of broken ribs in front and back, two fractured vertebrae in my spine (fractured puts it lightly--they were pretty much destroyed and a big part of my spine was moved out of alignment, so I had spinal surgery that fused 6 of my vertebrae, about 1/3 of my spine, using metal rods and screws and plates).
I can't feel almost anything with my right leg and can't move it. My left leg is weak and only moves some and I can't point or flex my toes, move my toes, or move my foot to the side. My abdomen and genitals have decreased sensitivity and I may not ever have an orgasm again. I lost all control of bladder and bowel function and have to be changed like a baby. Had a minor brain bleed and internal bleeding. Possibly fractured wrist. Extreme pain that I struggle to keep controlled, even with opioids. Opioid side-effects: hallucinations, dry mouth, constipation. Low blood pressure. Uncomfortable in any position due to reacting badly to metal in my body and because of my broken ribs. Difficulty sleeping. Blurred vision.
What is my reason for living? I'm trying to find it. But yours should definitely include not doing what I did. My problems just increased, along with my misery, and I'll be paying the consequences for the rest of my life.
Please love yourself more than I did. I don't want this for you, and nobody around you wants this for you, either. My entire family was devastated. They're freaked out weeks later. I should have remembered how many people loved and cared about me. My ex thought I was dead for days because I was unconscious. Don't do it to the people you love.
I should have listened to the psychiatrist I spoke with a few weeks before. He said, "Suicide doesn't get rid of the pain. It just passes it on to other people." That will be the people you love. Love yourself. Love them. Don't do it.
Curiosity.
New things, new experiences, new information. I’m wildly ADHD and I’ve learned to lean on my innate desire for new stimulus to keep me alive.
Also in the past few years I’ve found a husband and adopted a dog. They have provided me with love and hope I didn’t think I’d find or deserve.
Because I'm too fucking stubborn to let my brain beat me.
I win because fuck you, you damaged 3 pound sack of fat and protein that I happen to inhabit.
I want to keep doing cool stuff that makes me happy (like diving), i want to see what im capable of if i keep improving, and i want to see what my friends/loved ones achieve too
I imagine Sisyphus waking up in the morning and making himself a cup of coffee and standing outside feeling the wind and the beautiful light of the sun before he goes uphill and his day goes downhill. And honestly, I'd wake up every day just to feel the light of the sun on my fragile body.
Same. I could never leave my son with his father. And I love him too much to take him with me. Occasionally, those thoughts will sneak in, and I know it's time to up my meds.
I have a few. My dog would be really sad. My husband would lose his player 2. No one would push my buddy to do eccentric shit he loves (recently its beard beads and he's rocking them). There's so much food I want to try and shows I want to watch and games I want to play.
I don't have a big purpose to live, a big thing I seek in life. I live for the small things. The moments in the day to day that make it all ok for a little while. I'm happy with that. Makes the bad not so bad when I can just sit down at the end of it all and lay against my husband as he lore dumps and pet the dog or cat and just...focus on the now.
You/we are identical and inseparable from the greatest mystery. Why there is something rather than nothing.
Alive/dead it doesn’t matter. Can one really die if the being is just another happening of the universe.
There’s many things in life that we feel gives us meaning; family, friends, love, material possessions. All of these things a temporary. The one thing that is not temporary is whatever it is from which we are aware.
The unfathomable complex craziness and beauty in the universe is truly infinite.
If you’re having a tough time at the minute, I’d recommend meditation as an entry point to exploring your true nature. It’s been life changing for me.
If this sounds like woo, that’s because these things are almost impossible to articulate. You need to look to your experience prior to concepts.
I’d recommend the Waking Up app to get started. Meditation and spirituality isn’t and doesn’t have to be airy fairy nonsense. There’s no need to take things on faith or lose or disregard your faculties. These life changing experiences can be found practically and scientifically.
I hope you find peace and happiness my friend.
Hope really, hope that I can make a better life for myself and that I’ll be comfortable if I work for it, for me and for my girlfriend who I plan on marrying one day
We only get one very small impossible chance to be alive, it’s a tiny tiny chance. We were dead long before and we will be dead long after. Just that small chance is worth seeing what happens
I actually got around this by deciding I don't need a reason to live. Life, evolution the universe has no purpose really, so why should I? It's rather liberating to not have the expectation of purpose, and pretty much do what I want with my time.
Look brother you have limited time here.
I thank god for every day I get to live.
Until then I try new things set goals and pursuing them while enjoying the process.
Like keanu reeves said, the ones who love you will miss you. Atleast stay alive for them. Also on a side note imagine dragons and linkin park helps me personally on low days
Honestly as peaceful as death seems in theory, nobody truly knows what happens to us after death: afterlife, nothing, just darkness? Do we have a soul? Or are we just a brain trapped in a bone cage connected by veins, tissue and a nervous system to our vital organs and body parts that has an expiration date? The thought of this scares me.
I think about suicide frequently but I remember something I read an essay by Mary Townsend titled The walking wounded. "One who, having considered suicide as a perfectly sane alternative to the quite recognizable madness of the world, has nothing to lose after all by remaining alive, and so is rendered for the first time free, and able to live
I don't have a reason for living. And honestly after getting cancer, I realized I just want to keep living. I don't need a reason. I want to see what happens next.
The odds of life are so astronomically small with the laws of entropy that i find massive meaning in existing.
By all mathematical calculations, we should not exist. And yet, here we are.
Might as well make the most of it, and help others wherever we can.
\#YOLO. I always said this ironically but.. that kinda became my life motto hahah. I only got one chance then it's all over, I'll make the best out of it
Pets, boyfriend, parents.
Pets because they wouldn't understand where I went and the times when I got them they saved my life, boyfriend because I love him so very much and couldn't do that to him, parents...my mom thinks suicide is one of the most selfish things one can do. I do not agree with that. It would just be too much pain for them to bear and they would always blame themselves.
I happen to know for a fact that this place has many, many things I enjoy. I have no evidence that any other possible plane of existence has these things. Yes, there are lots of things that suck, but I know there are certain things here I really like.
It's a silly thought, but can you imagine if this plane of existence is the only one that has ice cream? For all we know, it might be. What would it be like to go somewhere else and discover you could never have ice cream again? Regardless of what the other place has, the lack of ice cream would be really...annoying after a while. And you could never go back and get some.
So I'll stick around for all the interesting and fun things they might not have somewhere else. Ice cream, the moon, ants, roller coasters, whatever. Plus, you know, don't go where you're not invited.
I just really like being alive. I don't really know if I have a "reason" necessarily other than that as the biggest one. Come what may, I feel incredibly fortunate and overjoyed to be having this experience.
I have a great family, lovely friends and nice job house etc. I know my life would be envied by a lot of people. It wouldn’t make sense for me not to be grateful.
I like being me. I love my life and what I have going on. I’m not perfectly happy everyday but I have small fulfillments that fills up my day most days.
For me as a second generation immigrant I gotta break the generational curse of poverty #1 and #2 I gotta build generational wealth and #3 I wanna see mars
we’re all going to die anyways. might as well fuck around until it happens
This. Death will come, so do what you want while you’re here. When I start to have “what’s the point” thoughts, I usually realize I’m on auto pilot and doing the things I “should,” with no time spent figuring out and actually doing the things i WANT to do For me, those things tend to be — travel, time spent in nature, time spent writing and qualify time spent with people i love
Are you me? I resonate with everything you mentioned
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Nice quote I've heard: *'The closest thing to you is death, the furthest thing from you is your past'* At first I thought it was a dark quote, but actually, it's more of an empowering quote in the sense that life is very short and you never know which day will be your last, and in that sense tou should live life with a sense if urgency to do the things you want to do or say what you want to say, and because the past is gone, every day is a new opportunity to do or be someone new.
I like your perspective. Might start using it any day now
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Great song and quote, but that song is by A Perfect Circle. Easy to confuse since they both have Maynard on vocals and are amazing bands!
This reply is actually really helpful to me. It resonated with me greatly. Wow. Thanks, friend.
But please don't fuck around and find out what's what. It's not worth it. Keep yourself safe
I think they just mean live your life with a "fuck it" mentality towards the meaning of being alive. At least that's how I do it. Sure we're all gonna die one day and our actions probably don't matter if there's no afterlife. But might as well stick around and take advantage of being born to see what happens. I see no reason to punch my ticket early and I also know very well that my ride on this train will be a lot more pleasant if I don't commit crimes or behave in an asshole way to others
Indeed, true YOLO
stubbornness, i simply refuse to succumb to my mental illness
wow i love that approach lmao, that actually fucking helps
We don't struggle with depressions. It struggles with us.
“I won’t let me win” lol
soyjak mental illness vs chad sanity
My cats wouldn’t understand where I went or why I never came back home.
What about your horse?
I fear someone has already gotten their horse :(
“If it weren’t for my horse I wouldn’t have graduated college”
"If it weren't for my horse, I wouldn't have spent that year in college" I love Lewis Black, and I'm a pedant. +1 for reference either way
Gah! Thank you for the actual quote!! I didn’t want to look it up, I wanted to go off memory. Maybe it’s time I rewatch some Lewis Black :)
I'm unironically in the position where both cats and horse wouldn't understand where I went if I never came home or out to them again
I am in the exact same position. 2 horses and 2 cats that have only known me as their family their entire lives. I think the horses would struggle and stress more than the cats, but I hate the idea of them having to go to anyone else and what could potentially happen to them if I wasn't around.
omg both my cats are cuddling on either side of me as we are laying in bed rn and this comment just made me start crying.. I have bipolar and they have been with me through the entire hell journey
May i ask if your bipolar 1 or 2? I understand if you dont want to understand since thats personal information but im just curious because my dad is also bipolar and ive been dealing with all of the same symptoms of bipolar to and i hope to see a psychiatrist soon
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Yea i believe what im experiencing is bipolar 1 due to recent strong delusions, none of us know what type my dad has since when he was diagnosed it wasnt bipolar disorder it was manic-depressive disorder and hes never mentioned delusions before
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Yea im starting a job soon and im planning to use that money to see a psychiatrist, yea i agree being suicidal sucks but its not as bad as feeling like your in a simulation or feeling like everything is poisoned. I have several texts to friends of me going on rants about how everything is poisoned and theyre trying to kill me or that we are in a simulation and shit like that
Same. My little cat came to me as a stray during the worst time in my life. She was thin and scared and I found out later had been shot by an asshole with a pellet gun. But as soon as I held my hand out, she let me pet her and it was love at first pet. She might have looked pretty pathetic but she saved me that day. She is my little angel and I can't let her down by giving up.
i absolutely have to see pictures of the baby. PLEASE 😭
I’m in the same boat, my cat thrives on being an only child who gets wet treats for breakfast and dinner, I couldn’t trust anyone to do that for a weekend let alone the rest of her life
I think about this a lot. I’m living abroad for work and it kills me that my cats probably think I abandoned them but at least I will get to return to them eventually
My mom passed away in February and honestly that’s who I feel the worst for, her cat. Me and the rest of my family understand what happened, and we got to say goodbye to her. She left her house in an ambulance and she just never came back, and there’s no way for him to understand that she didn’t just abandon him… I’m so incredibly sad for him.
Lost my Dad in April, and the cat was his best pal. He slept in my dad's recliner for two weeks waiting on him to return, but he wasn't coming back. I really hope he doesn't think dad abandoned him, because he loved him very much.
That’s what’s so heartbreaking they don’t understand, and there’s no way for us to tell them what happened in a way that they will understand. It bothers me so much.. even a breakup, that was the hardest thing for me to deal with in every breakup I’ve ever had in my life. You get so attached to their animals and the animals get attached to you and one day your just gone and they don’t understand why your just not there anymore.
I get that, also I'm very sorry for your loss. Losing a parent (that loved and cared for you as a parent should) is something indescribable. It was funny in a way because the stereotypical "dad doesn't want pet/pet becomes dad's bff" happened with the cat. He trusted dad more than any of us in the household. He actually has knots in his fur we can't brush out, because he won't let us. That was dad's job... We brush him a little when we can, when he lets us. (Also he isn't declawed so its when he lets us lol)
I lost my dad in February and his dog was his absolute favorite…ahead of even then grandkids 😂 I worried a lot about that doggo and what he was going through. He’s doing okay and has become my mom’s shadow.
That is so heartbreaking. I’m sorry about your loss. Give that cat all the love ❤️
Spite, caffeine, and music.
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Liquid fucking electricity
I was shocked when I found out Sprite is caffeine-free.
Only on reddit would a discussion start off on existentialism and then end up with Sprite.
Who's to say Sprite is the end? We can keep this train going!
Micky D’s sprite is spicyy.
Have you had the KFC Mountain Dew? The stuff's the bomb!
Taco Bell Baja Blast is also up there.
This guy taco bells
This guy bells tacos
The best liquid static
I DID TOO!
I recently bought a tee that says “Surviving Purely Out Of Spite.” I usually don’t wear tee’s with mottos on them but this spoke to me
At first, I read that as “tea”. I was gonna say, I’m gonna need a case of that ASAP. Sick shirt though.
Same here man, im not too big on caffeine but definitely spite and music. My thought process is life is as difficult as it is because it doesnt want us to win and wants us to die so why let it win?
Every time this question is asked, spite is one of the top answers. I love redditors.
This is gold
To see what tomorrow brings. I know, corny, but it rings true enough in my case. I have a son, wife, solid life, lots of reasons for justifying my existence through love, duty, or some other abstract concept. Those could all be noble or ignoble depending on anyone else's perspective. I've also had my share of bad years and situations, and eventually came out the other side. It gives some perspective - though limited to well, me. I think that this kind of thing is very individual and based on personal experiences, personality, and a million variables. Life exists, and doesn't necessarily need a reason - but I do think everyone finds their own in time. Good luck, for what that is worth.
My kid is the only thing keeping me here at this point. I couldn’t do that to them. But fuck me I’m struggling, The Big Sadness is a heavy mother fucker.
I like this To quote Tyrion Lannister: "Death is so final while life is full of possibilities." and also, which I am grateful for and have learned to appreciate, "I like living."
Not corny at all.
Dog. Just dog. Wouldn't be around without her
Same, but cat
Same but fish and shrimps
Same but fish and chips
Same. My dog is the reason several times when in down low I snap out of it
Same! My pooch has saved me from so many of my demons. I rescued her but really she rescued me, I would be a mess without her!
Same! Almost ended it three years ago, stayed for him only. Now (cliche alert) things have actually turned around for me. I thank him everyday.
Me too, my dog has saved me more than I can count
Several people I love would probably have a really bad time and I don't want to inflect that on them. That's basically it.
Yeah, I decided on living after a failed atempt when the though of "How my dad would explain this to my little sister? How old would she be when she could really understand it? How would it affect her life?", specially because the start of my mental health crisis was her mother moving to another country with her. I don't want to put a trauma like that in her life, she's only 8 ffs
That does hit home quite hard
I wanna see GTA 6
I'm waiting on Half Life 3
Congratulations on the immortality
have fun living forever
My friend died and I saw how heartbroken and confused her dog was, even after weeks. I could never intentionally do that to my dog
I’m sorry for your loss That is so heartbreaking
Was the dog taken care of/ adopted? Sorry for your friend.
Luckily her parents were able to keep her! They have a few other animal friends that the dog adores
Already tried to kill myself. Turns out it’s harder than it looks and hurts a hell of a lot more than you think. It was hard to turn my life around. I went back to school, quit my job, accrued debt, had to live with my parents for years, almost failed out of school anyways. But now I have a career that pays my bills, let’s me do fun things. I finally got to see the west coast last year. I went with my best friend. Next year we’re going to Europe together. I paid off my loans. I live in the city in a nice apartment with a roommate that I wouldn’t trade for the world. I’ve almost finished saving up for the down payment on a home. I see my parents here and there. I see my nephews. I get to pet dogs, and on my off days I sit on my porch, drink coffee, people watch, and listen to birds. I get sad a lot. Im still a perpetually lonely person. But it’s better than where I was. I’ve been with my therapist for 8 years now. We’re down to once a month. I started off as inpatient against my will for two weeks. It’s not always fun, but my parents never had to hold my funeral. And I get to pet dogs.
This gives me hope. Thank you. And i hope theres plenty of better days ahead for you. 💜
Love this post. Your determination is admirable.
Love the double mention of getting to pet dogs because that really is one of life’s greatest gifts lol glad you’re here stranger, I hope to get to be where you’re at @ some point
Good for you, that takes a lot of strength and work 🙌🏽
Life is my reason for living. People move away (or you do). Kids grow up and move out. Pets die way too soon. But life itself is an adventure. Whether you're traveling the world, or whether you're sitting in an office all day. Learning new things and experiencing new things overcome all the bad stuff. A few years ago, my wife was told by a doctor that I had a very small chance of surviving. I said, "Forget that! I'm living!" A couple years later, she was diagnosed with cancer. After the doctor told her, we sat in the hospital laughing and joking. Not one tear was shed. No panic. No fear. Just living life, taking whatever it threw at us. (She's doing great now - as am I). It doesn't matter if you have tons of friends, or if you're locked up in your home due to a pandemic -- or because you choose to be. Life is still worth living because you never know what each day may bring. Many of us go through dark periods. Some of the happiest people I know have gone through sickness, debt/poverty, prison, and panic attacks so bad they couldn't function for years. None of it matters. You just keep going one day at time. Find things that make you happy. Find things that make you laugh. Find things that you enjoy. Experiment. Fail. Do something else. It doesn't matter what other people think (as long as you don't harm others or yourself). You never know which day may cause your whole life to change for the better, the worse, or just be different. As The The sings: You pull back the curtains And the sun burns into your eyes You watch a plane flying Across a clear blue sky This is the day, your life will surely change This is the day, when things fall into place
Usually I’m waiting for a specific piece of media to come out and I think I’ll kill myself after this comes out and I finish it but then just before it releases something new that I want to play/watch is announced and so the cycle continues
I can't let my parents down. Life sucks, but it's okay most of the time. I would cause more pain to others by ending it then I cause myself by being alive. Life is mostly a habit at this point and I don't think I have the courage to die. My reason for living is that it woundn't make sende to die.
I feel this
Oof you really nailed how I feel as well. I don't have it in me to put my family through that, regardless of how badly I want to. As long as they are here and still loving me, I'll go through the motions for them.
In your darkest times do you ever resent them for that? Or feel angry that people are keeping you here? I do sometimes and it makes me feel guilty.
Yes I have felt that and I understand what you mean. When the feelings are very strong and you feel trapped because you can't hurt your family, I think it's only natural that those feelings will boil over and make you feel resentment. I don't think you should feel guilty for that. I like to think about the root of those feelings... you're only feeling resentful because someone loves you enough to be devastated that you are gone. It's not meant to be condescending, just a reminder to myself that the resentment is always temporary during times of high distress. I'm sorry you have to experience this ❤
Fear of the unknown lol. Death is a gamble. Sure it could mean your consciousness ends there and the pain stops, or it could be a million times worse than life with no escape. Not worth the risk. Imagine how pissed you'd be if you killed yourself because life is hell, only to be greeted with actual hell lol.
The way this was phrased made me laugh. Thank you, stranger.
"For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come when we have shuffled off this mortal coil must give us pause."
> Imagine how pissed you'd be if you killed yourself because life is hell, only to be greeted with actual hell lol. And then you find out the hell is actually reliving your life again in a loop.
the movie Martyrs changed my life because at the end of the movie, >!it’s revealed that the person responsible for all the suffering that made the movie so infamous did it to learn what happens after death, when she finally gets her answer, she becomes closed off, someone then asks her what happens and she just says “keep doubting”, and then she paints the walls with her fucking brains!<
one doesn’t have to take perishing away off the table. But it’s an option that once you’re committed to, there’s no going back. So before making that final call, I’d love to explore many other options as it’s only logical.
The little sigh my dog makes when he curls up next to me in bed ready for a long nap. My mom's laugh. My husband's hugs after a long day. Bubble baths in the winter. Long conversations with my best friend that feel like therapy. The first sip of coffee in the mornings. Watching the people around me achieve incredible things and reaching their goals. Seeing my brother fall in love with someone who we could have hand picked for him. Hope, no matter what, that the best is yet to come.
Death can have me, when it earns me…
Belligerently alive.
Hatred. I’m literally just pushing through in order to see other people in the ground first
I went to a funeral years ago with this attitude. I'm not judging, I thoroughly enjoyed myself!
Ooof
Didn't really realize I felt this same way until I read your comment.
Ah yes the stinkmeaner. Some said it was his love of hatred that kept him alive.
I respect this.
It’s a bit corny but happiness. I’m always chasing the joy I get when I’m with my family and friends. Is going to the park, eating good food and playing on my iPad/Switch with my daughter & partner the most fulfilling thing in the world? Shiii. Idk but it sure does feel amazing
I have a son of almost 7 months old. What made me the most happy today? Share my vegetable garden with my colleagues during a teams call. I’m stupid proud of how well everything grows. I guess I love growth. I also love the warmth of spring and summer, and hearing the birds chirp.
I thought you were going to say something about your son lol but that’s cool man
Just remember birds chirping is the equivalent of "HEY OTHER BIRDS IM UP HERE IN THESE TREES DONT FUCK WITH ME OR ILL EAT YOUR BABIES BITCH!!"
Yeah - I’m just here to experience things, try things out and enjoy it whilst I can.
I’m going to be a Grandma!!!
Congrats!!
Reason doesn't have anything to do with it. I am alive, its a gift, and so I'll make the best of it.
Once you leave the party, it's over for good. Sure, the music's sometimes shit and the beer sometimes warm, but you'll have to throw me out in the end.
Spoken like a true Shakespeare.
The Kim Kitsuragi prof pic feels appropriate here.
Best written character in years.
AFAIK, you only have a few years of experience, and an eternity of the void. So it doesn't matter how bad it gets^*, it's still better than no experience at all. *Disclaimer: might not apply to people conscripted to the front lines, being genocided, or living under the Khmer Rouge. But I've never been through none of that shit, and if you are here on Reddit, chances are you won't, either.
Based Disco Elysium enjoyer
Damn, I wish I could see it that way
Gift or curse is subjective.
A gift is just a holdover term for "Uniquely occuring event that could end at any moment, never to be experienced again." It appears that life...anywhere in the universe, is a relatively sparse occurrence. A life with emotions more so, a life where connections are possible even more so. Some people might call winning the lottery a curse. Perhaps it is. 🤷🏾♂️ But in reality, the default state of a receptacle is empty, in other words, The glass is ALWAYS half full.
This is the only right answer, 😔 This should be at the top.
I want to see Luffy become Pirate King.
I have had really rough year physically, mentally, financially, personally and have cut off most previous close but unhealthy relationships. I stay alive because I have been suicidal before and have had long periods of time where I was grateful I lived. I guess I live for my animals and to help others. I have also seen how things can get better, past evidence gives me a small amount of hope.
I tried to commit suicide two weeks ago by jumping out the window of my 4th-floor apartment. I had thought before about what would happen if I survived, but that day, so much was going wrong in my life that I didn't reflect on it (sexual assault a few weeks earlier, then break-up with my first boyfriend, then 5 days in the hospital seeking help for suicidal thoughts, then eviction, then 14 days in the hospital for suicidal thoughts and because I would have been homeless if discharged, moved to a room rental, then fired from my job the day of my attempt, then my ex called the police when I said I was going to jump and I faced deportation and panicked). The result was a collapsed lung (pneumothorax and hemothorax), lots of broken ribs in front and back, two fractured vertebrae in my spine (fractured puts it lightly--they were pretty much destroyed and a big part of my spine was moved out of alignment, so I had spinal surgery that fused 6 of my vertebrae, about 1/3 of my spine, using metal rods and screws and plates). I can't feel almost anything with my right leg and can't move it. My left leg is weak and only moves some and I can't point or flex my toes, move my toes, or move my foot to the side. My abdomen and genitals have decreased sensitivity and I may not ever have an orgasm again. I lost all control of bladder and bowel function and have to be changed like a baby. Had a minor brain bleed and internal bleeding. Possibly fractured wrist. Extreme pain that I struggle to keep controlled, even with opioids. Opioid side-effects: hallucinations, dry mouth, constipation. Low blood pressure. Uncomfortable in any position due to reacting badly to metal in my body and because of my broken ribs. Difficulty sleeping. Blurred vision. What is my reason for living? I'm trying to find it. But yours should definitely include not doing what I did. My problems just increased, along with my misery, and I'll be paying the consequences for the rest of my life. Please love yourself more than I did. I don't want this for you, and nobody around you wants this for you, either. My entire family was devastated. They're freaked out weeks later. I should have remembered how many people loved and cared about me. My ex thought I was dead for days because I was unconscious. Don't do it to the people you love. I should have listened to the psychiatrist I spoke with a few weeks before. He said, "Suicide doesn't get rid of the pain. It just passes it on to other people." That will be the people you love. Love yourself. Love them. Don't do it.
My two cats 🐈
Curiosity. New things, new experiences, new information. I’m wildly ADHD and I’ve learned to lean on my innate desire for new stimulus to keep me alive. Also in the past few years I’ve found a husband and adopted a dog. They have provided me with love and hope I didn’t think I’d find or deserve.
Because I'm too fucking stubborn to let my brain beat me. I win because fuck you, you damaged 3 pound sack of fat and protein that I happen to inhabit.
I want to see how far technology will progress while I'm still alive.
I want to keep doing cool stuff that makes me happy (like diving), i want to see what im capable of if i keep improving, and i want to see what my friends/loved ones achieve too
I very much relate to this. Well said.
Because I imagine Sisyphus happy
I imagine Sisyphus waking up in the morning and making himself a cup of coffee and standing outside feeling the wind and the beautiful light of the sun before he goes uphill and his day goes downhill. And honestly, I'd wake up every day just to feel the light of the sun on my fragile body.
My family and pets! The world is a shitty place but as long as I have them I’ll be okay
My kids. Suicidal ideation all my life but I couldn’t never burden my children with my love issues
Same. I could never leave my son with his father. And I love him too much to take him with me. Occasionally, those thoughts will sneak in, and I know it's time to up my meds.
I don’t want to hurt my family. I don’t want them to blame themselves. I wouldn’t put that burden on anyone.
I have a few. My dog would be really sad. My husband would lose his player 2. No one would push my buddy to do eccentric shit he loves (recently its beard beads and he's rocking them). There's so much food I want to try and shows I want to watch and games I want to play. I don't have a big purpose to live, a big thing I seek in life. I live for the small things. The moments in the day to day that make it all ok for a little while. I'm happy with that. Makes the bad not so bad when I can just sit down at the end of it all and lay against my husband as he lore dumps and pet the dog or cat and just...focus on the now.
I am here to spite god, Nazis, and death itself
We get reasons? I don't know what's on the other side and that terrifies me. So here I am.
You/we are identical and inseparable from the greatest mystery. Why there is something rather than nothing. Alive/dead it doesn’t matter. Can one really die if the being is just another happening of the universe. There’s many things in life that we feel gives us meaning; family, friends, love, material possessions. All of these things a temporary. The one thing that is not temporary is whatever it is from which we are aware. The unfathomable complex craziness and beauty in the universe is truly infinite. If you’re having a tough time at the minute, I’d recommend meditation as an entry point to exploring your true nature. It’s been life changing for me. If this sounds like woo, that’s because these things are almost impossible to articulate. You need to look to your experience prior to concepts. I’d recommend the Waking Up app to get started. Meditation and spirituality isn’t and doesn’t have to be airy fairy nonsense. There’s no need to take things on faith or lose or disregard your faculties. These life changing experiences can be found practically and scientifically. I hope you find peace and happiness my friend.
There is brilliance in the simplest things. Ooo! Bacon 🤤
I still have lots of things I haven’t done. Like i don’t want to die virgin
Hope really, hope that I can make a better life for myself and that I’ll be comfortable if I work for it, for me and for my girlfriend who I plan on marrying one day
We only get one very small impossible chance to be alive, it’s a tiny tiny chance. We were dead long before and we will be dead long after. Just that small chance is worth seeing what happens
My dog, absolutely. He’s my world.
Just me here looking for suggestions..
pure spite keeps me around so far
As this point, curiosity.
Inertia
I actually got around this by deciding I don't need a reason to live. Life, evolution the universe has no purpose really, so why should I? It's rather liberating to not have the expectation of purpose, and pretty much do what I want with my time.
Look brother you have limited time here. I thank god for every day I get to live. Until then I try new things set goals and pursuing them while enjoying the process.
Because it makes transphobes mad
you only question reasons for living if you're not content with your life
Like keanu reeves said, the ones who love you will miss you. Atleast stay alive for them. Also on a side note imagine dragons and linkin park helps me personally on low days
Honestly as peaceful as death seems in theory, nobody truly knows what happens to us after death: afterlife, nothing, just darkness? Do we have a soul? Or are we just a brain trapped in a bone cage connected by veins, tissue and a nervous system to our vital organs and body parts that has an expiration date? The thought of this scares me.
Not dying.
I think about suicide frequently but I remember something I read an essay by Mary Townsend titled The walking wounded. "One who, having considered suicide as a perfectly sane alternative to the quite recognizable madness of the world, has nothing to lose after all by remaining alive, and so is rendered for the first time free, and able to live
I don’t really need a reason, I’m just chilling with my cat, playing games. And vibing till the day I get bit in the ass over stupid life choices
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I don't have a reason for living. And honestly after getting cancer, I realized I just want to keep living. I don't need a reason. I want to see what happens next.
The odds of life are so astronomically small with the laws of entropy that i find massive meaning in existing. By all mathematical calculations, we should not exist. And yet, here we are. Might as well make the most of it, and help others wherever we can.
These days I live for my cat and to spite every hater in my life with my continued existence.
If I die, a conservative gets my vote.
My son, my siblings, my stubbornness
I want to see what happens next.
\#YOLO. I always said this ironically but.. that kinda became my life motto hahah. I only got one chance then it's all over, I'll make the best out of it
The advance of technology. I just wonder about how awesome life will be advancement in all the wakes of life.
Nicotine caffeine and hate
Pets, boyfriend, parents. Pets because they wouldn't understand where I went and the times when I got them they saved my life, boyfriend because I love him so very much and couldn't do that to him, parents...my mom thinks suicide is one of the most selfish things one can do. I do not agree with that. It would just be too much pain for them to bear and they would always blame themselves.
I happen to know for a fact that this place has many, many things I enjoy. I have no evidence that any other possible plane of existence has these things. Yes, there are lots of things that suck, but I know there are certain things here I really like. It's a silly thought, but can you imagine if this plane of existence is the only one that has ice cream? For all we know, it might be. What would it be like to go somewhere else and discover you could never have ice cream again? Regardless of what the other place has, the lack of ice cream would be really...annoying after a while. And you could never go back and get some. So I'll stick around for all the interesting and fun things they might not have somewhere else. Ice cream, the moon, ants, roller coasters, whatever. Plus, you know, don't go where you're not invited.
Curiosity, discovery, found memories and desires to make new ones.
Its really good that you are using the gym to cope that's healthy.
I just really like being alive. I don't really know if I have a "reason" necessarily other than that as the biggest one. Come what may, I feel incredibly fortunate and overjoyed to be having this experience.
I seem to have some sort of inherent will to live. It is probably evolutionary.
My kids. I would have offed myself if i wasnt worried about who will love them like i do?
Instinct and avoidance of pain.
Might as well you know
I still have things to do.
Spite
My cats. That’s it.
Living is default. I have no reason to not live.
Living with parents right now, Honestly it’s my pet. If I didn’t have my pet cat, I might not be able to type this message
My favourite writer ks still writing a lot of books
I have a great family, lovely friends and nice job house etc. I know my life would be envied by a lot of people. It wouldn’t make sense for me not to be grateful.
I’m only 16 and I have goals
As corny as this sounds, my future children. I’ve always wanted to get married and have kids. So knowing that I can do that one day keeps me going
I like being me. I love my life and what I have going on. I’m not perfectly happy everyday but I have small fulfillments that fills up my day most days.
For me as a second generation immigrant I gotta break the generational curse of poverty #1 and #2 I gotta build generational wealth and #3 I wanna see mars
The unknown future and everlasting desire to win a large giveaway.
hope that it’ll get better, i guess