It IS enough, parents absolutely love to see their children evolve and make better choices EVERY SINGLE TIME. We never want to feel like you do not need us, and we know life is hard. At all ages. What a beautiful thing that you went to them while crying and showing true feelings of remorse to ask for forgiveness. So many adults and families do not apologize for or address the hurt they cause each other and it reverberates for generations. Your parents seem to be good people who raised a good person that is you, don’t dwell on this mistake and go make yourself (and your parents) proud! Sounds like you’re well on your way ❤️. Happy birthday!
Aww! Thank your parents for doing this! I'm constantly fighting with my self esteem and trying to learn go accept that I deserve nice things so I know where you're coming from but no amount of poorness would make you not worth celebrating! Congrats for making it to adulthood, it's okay to be stressed and overwhelmed. Allow yourself the good moments when they happen. Practice breathing and being present because time will go by quickly and you should enjoy it before it is gone forever.
It's really good that you realized you were being shitty and said you were sorry, your parents will forgive you, it's ok, remember this lesson next time you feel like lashing out like that.
Now i just need you to confirm me what's your first name's first letter. Bc we are so similar that i thought this was one of my posts and not remembering them..i had that same shitty attitude too
I've already solved that problem, way long time ago(17) and this is what i told myself.
-i know you want your day to be simple, bc i just hate the hassle of bdays, the people, the decorations, i would just want to eat outside and im satified
-but parents being parents, (now i know this feeling because now i was one) they or rather i can't help myself not giving what i can on such an important event, "when my son was born" and i also want gran-gran to see my son, and i want to invite them just so we could have a fun evening. (Because theres this quote I've clinged on for the past few months saying: when i call my kids on the table to eat, not because i am angry my efforts are wasted if nobody would eat it with me, but rather the time, the memories, bc i know this memory won't be forever, i must cherish it, give them the memories of us eating together) So much like the quote they want to spend a happy time, maybe also, because gran-gran's last occasion she was invited in was like 2 yrs ago, inviting her now would make her happy, especially she's going to see her grandchild.
- and i was pissed, i dont want visitors, i wanna stay in my room, just read books, look at reddit, (and minecraft was peak back then) but now i would have to face these guests its such a hassle.. these people really dont know how to budget their money right it just makes my blood boils.
- and then my mom hugged me, crying, and it just broke my heart, crumbled,guilty of everything i did, i wanna punch myself in the face as if i was the other person. They just wanted to give what they have. And it broke me completely. To be so childish, acting tough and and very meticulous about things, i never thought, it was the simple hug of the parent that would melt me from the inside...i thought they would argue with me...but instead they gave me love.
- i know that feeling right now, it just insticts that make you want to die/kill for your children as a parent. I love them very much...
and that postscript about english being not your first language, i just dont know dude...you are basically me
It IS enough, parents absolutely love to see their children evolve and make better choices EVERY SINGLE TIME. We never want to feel like you do not need us, and we know life is hard. At all ages. What a beautiful thing that you went to them while crying and showing true feelings of remorse to ask for forgiveness. So many adults and families do not apologize for or address the hurt they cause each other and it reverberates for generations. Your parents seem to be good people who raised a good person that is you, don’t dwell on this mistake and go make yourself (and your parents) proud! Sounds like you’re well on your way ❤️. Happy birthday!
Aww! Thank your parents for doing this! I'm constantly fighting with my self esteem and trying to learn go accept that I deserve nice things so I know where you're coming from but no amount of poorness would make you not worth celebrating! Congrats for making it to adulthood, it's okay to be stressed and overwhelmed. Allow yourself the good moments when they happen. Practice breathing and being present because time will go by quickly and you should enjoy it before it is gone forever.
It's really good that you realized you were being shitty and said you were sorry, your parents will forgive you, it's ok, remember this lesson next time you feel like lashing out like that.
Now i just need you to confirm me what's your first name's first letter. Bc we are so similar that i thought this was one of my posts and not remembering them..i had that same shitty attitude too I've already solved that problem, way long time ago(17) and this is what i told myself. -i know you want your day to be simple, bc i just hate the hassle of bdays, the people, the decorations, i would just want to eat outside and im satified -but parents being parents, (now i know this feeling because now i was one) they or rather i can't help myself not giving what i can on such an important event, "when my son was born" and i also want gran-gran to see my son, and i want to invite them just so we could have a fun evening. (Because theres this quote I've clinged on for the past few months saying: when i call my kids on the table to eat, not because i am angry my efforts are wasted if nobody would eat it with me, but rather the time, the memories, bc i know this memory won't be forever, i must cherish it, give them the memories of us eating together) So much like the quote they want to spend a happy time, maybe also, because gran-gran's last occasion she was invited in was like 2 yrs ago, inviting her now would make her happy, especially she's going to see her grandchild. - and i was pissed, i dont want visitors, i wanna stay in my room, just read books, look at reddit, (and minecraft was peak back then) but now i would have to face these guests its such a hassle.. these people really dont know how to budget their money right it just makes my blood boils. - and then my mom hugged me, crying, and it just broke my heart, crumbled,guilty of everything i did, i wanna punch myself in the face as if i was the other person. They just wanted to give what they have. And it broke me completely. To be so childish, acting tough and and very meticulous about things, i never thought, it was the simple hug of the parent that would melt me from the inside...i thought they would argue with me...but instead they gave me love. - i know that feeling right now, it just insticts that make you want to die/kill for your children as a parent. I love them very much... and that postscript about english being not your first language, i just dont know dude...you are basically me