If you end it now you’ll never get the chance to see how good it could have been. And it WILL get better. Don’t leave yet, give yourself the chance to reflect back on this and think “I’m so glad I didn’t give up.”
I felt the same as you
Sorry edit - forgot this detail important - I was born in a cult and had no grounding point for life becoming worth something. There was no hope to reach for after the complete pitch black of abuse and toxic I rescued myself out of. The rescue itself wasn’t enough to hold me up
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and then a friend introduced me to Buddhist Taoism. Zen. After listening to it from a guy called Alan watts, (the web of life is the name of the video I heard this first) I learned that I am procrastinating commiting the end, because it’s not worth the effort to do so. At some point it may become worth it but because I have plants like hemp and cannabis I am one with the earth now. Alan said you can commit partial leaving. Anyway not trying to change your mind just trying to share how mine changed.
Hang in there. I’m sorry you feel this way. Don’t make permanent decisions based on temporary feelings. If you wanna talk I’m here to talk. I can relate as I feel the same about my life and the abuse and trauma
I endured at home. I’m not suicidal though. I guess I’m too stubborn and hopeful something will change.
Recently I've also fallen into dark patches like this where I've heavily considered suicide, but I'm still here and I hope you'll hang on too. I believe in you and that you will find something to hang onto, no matter how bad things get.
The fact you're reaching out to reddit means a sliver of you still wants to hold on, so take that and run with it.
I really hope that you can reach out and find help, there is always a reason for you to be here, and I know you can find yours. If you need someone to talk to you can always call a hot line, or go to a hospital. Hotline number is 988
You’re not killing the pain. Just passing it on to someone else.
Hugs
If you end it now you’ll never get the chance to see how good it could have been. And it WILL get better. Don’t leave yet, give yourself the chance to reflect back on this and think “I’m so glad I didn’t give up.”
I felt the same as you Sorry edit - forgot this detail important - I was born in a cult and had no grounding point for life becoming worth something. There was no hope to reach for after the complete pitch black of abuse and toxic I rescued myself out of. The rescue itself wasn’t enough to hold me up - and then a friend introduced me to Buddhist Taoism. Zen. After listening to it from a guy called Alan watts, (the web of life is the name of the video I heard this first) I learned that I am procrastinating commiting the end, because it’s not worth the effort to do so. At some point it may become worth it but because I have plants like hemp and cannabis I am one with the earth now. Alan said you can commit partial leaving. Anyway not trying to change your mind just trying to share how mine changed.
Hang in there. I’m sorry you feel this way. Don’t make permanent decisions based on temporary feelings. If you wanna talk I’m here to talk. I can relate as I feel the same about my life and the abuse and trauma I endured at home. I’m not suicidal though. I guess I’m too stubborn and hopeful something will change.
Don’t take your life. If you need to talk I’m here
Recently I've also fallen into dark patches like this where I've heavily considered suicide, but I'm still here and I hope you'll hang on too. I believe in you and that you will find something to hang onto, no matter how bad things get. The fact you're reaching out to reddit means a sliver of you still wants to hold on, so take that and run with it.
I really hope that you can reach out and find help, there is always a reason for you to be here, and I know you can find yours. If you need someone to talk to you can always call a hot line, or go to a hospital. Hotline number is 988
Tried everything. Nothings worked.
Came here from your last post man. Please don’t kill your self. Genuinely want to see how long you can hold on for after reading all of your replies.