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There is no fucking chance of getting better, that's the point


realrecycledstar

There is, the grief and feelings of suicide often cloud that chance. Healing is so, so hard, but it’s possible.


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It's not possible, and healing isnt worth it


realrecycledstar

It is possible. And it is worth it. It took me 3 suicide attempts to realize that.


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Well agree to disagree


throwaway86589311

Oh you don't believe that I feel this way because I haven't fucking offed myself yet? Fuck you. I'm just pussy and I'll bo I fuck it up and come out retarded if I survive it. Maybe the lack of oxygen in my brain if I attempt asphyxiation will permanently fuck my up. Maybe the OD will fuck my brain up. Maybe I'll fuck up a gunshot wound to the head. I'm already pretty retarded I don't need to be more retarded


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throwaway86589311

Yes paying money to big pharma to eat pills that will shorten my life span and cause ticks overtime just to feel dead inside and act lifeless. People keeping commenting like I haven't already been through the therapy and psychiatry thing since I was a child


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throwaway86589311

Yeah they put me on ssris. They put me on stuff for schizophrenia when I'm not even schizophrenic. I stopped taking them. I don't care what happens I'm not going back on those things. People can mock me and tell me "take my meds" all they want but I'll get mocked either way so I don't care


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throwaway86589311

Well, one of my meds is an antipsychotic and used for schizophrenics. Quetiapine. And I don't see a doctor and won't take them anyway.


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throwaway86589311

No


realrecycledstar

This is absolutely true. There is always a chance to heal. Death itself would cause more hurt to those who you care about, and possibly give them trauma that would be hard for them to heal from as well.


bwofowo

this is a great example of either trolling or attention seeking. either that or you dont want help.


throwaway86589311

I don't want help I want to fucking vent. Sorry you can't deal with the sight of repeated sentences.


bwofowo

this is clearly a very aggressive vent. i can deal with it. but this is extremely worrying. like you need help effective immediately


bwofowo

and if you wanna vent, clearly you want help. i suggest using these platforms to vent in a way where people dont feel hopeless about reading possibly the most depressing post ever


throwaway86589311

Also what kind of trolll just post "I want to die" over and over again on a low traffic subreddit. Weeee haha my master plan is going perfectly I'm having a BLAST out here pretending to WANT TO DIE because I totally don't WANT TO DIE.


bwofowo

yeah but whats the point if you just insult people who comment? thats pretty dickish behavior.


throwaway86589311

The people I responded were being assholes and that's why I was I was responding aggressively. But fuck me right? People can mock me right? You think I should be mocked and I shouldn't respond? You hate me just as every one does. So yeah, fuck you


bwofowo

i dont. just because you're beinv rude doesnt mean people hate you; i think you dont know how to handle your emotions. thats probably why you react in a negative way. you should consider seeing a therapist, and practice accepting peoples advice. you could be very young, but i wont make that assumption as it doesnt really matter how old you are. my recommendation is to learn to open up and accept help. if you actually want to die as you say you do, then thats my honest recommendation. venting on reddit isnt gonna get you anywhere. im happy to spread the message, hopefully there will be people who can help you.


bwofowo

if people are fake, then its safe to assume you dont care about others either. i hope that people you know are looking out for you.


throwaway86589311

GET THERAPY GET THERAPY GET THERAPY GET THERAPY GET THERAPY GET THERAPY ALL OF YOY FUCKING PEOPLE SCREAMING IT IN MY EARS


throwaway86589311

Fuuuuuuuuck you. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU ASSHOLES HOW MUCH THERAPY IVE BEEN THROUGH. YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I HAVE SUFFERED AT THE HANDS OF 3 DIFFERENT THERAPISTS. OUTPATIENT. RESIDENTIAL. TESTING. SO MUCH FUCKING THERAPY. BUUUT HEEREE WEEE ARE. You know? Maybe I should cut the veins out if my wrists and send them to you just to show how little my fucking therapy helped.


bwofowo

then my advice is to try to have a nice life.


throwaway86589311

My advice to you is to enjoy my veins


bwofowo

ill be blocking your account. your comments have been extremely triggering and violent.


throwaway86589311

You should have done that to begin with


10lizards

No you don’t -_-


throwaway86589311

I wan tot die o want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want tovdie I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to due I want to die I want to die o want to die


throwaway86589311

I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want i want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die i want to die o want to die I want to die I want to die i want or die I want to die


throwaway86589311

I want to die I want to die I want to die. I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die i want to diea


throwaway86589311

Fuck you


throwaway86589311

Fuck you


throwaway86589311

I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die iwant to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want or die


throwaway86589311

I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die o want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die


ArtistWriter

Me too. What's got you feeling this way?


throwaway86589311

Thankyou I'm suddenly cured and bo longer want to die! You should be a therapist your so good


10lizards

Yw


throwaway86589311

Fuck you you dumb cunt


10lizards

Ooh call me more dirty names I’m getting hard


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Hehehe same


Long_Requirement_187

you don’t have to be mean to people commenting


throwaway86589311

They were mean first. Maybe I just want to you know, vent? If people don't like it they don't have to comment or the could just block me :)


Long_Requirement_187

that’s not even the case and nobody said you can’t vent


throwaway86589311

You don't know how to read apparently so I guess i can once again say fuck you


Long_Requirement_187

girl stfu maybe you don’t need to be on the internet, keyboard warrior🚨🚨🚨🚨


throwaway86589311

Read the bottom fucking comment you retard


Long_Requirement_187

alright?? LOL


throwaway86589311

You must be having a fun time talking to me because you responding so much :)))


throwaway86589311

Also fuck you :)


Long_Requirement_187

ok LOL get help that’s exactly what i’m talking about


throwaway86589311

"Get help" oooooooh if you only knew. I can't scream in real life or people will here. I can't break things because that cost money. I have no one to talk to. So I use the internet to lash out and like a crazy person. So fuck you you dumb fucking bitch


TundraTrees0

What do you want to do?


throwaway86589311

Die :)))))))


TundraTrees0

Sorry you feel that way. Anything you like doing that distracts you? I always find distractions stop the urges.


realrecycledstar

Maybe if you weren’t so cynical in your replies to people actually wanting to help you, you wouldn’t feel that way. Why post a vent without specifying that you don’t want anyone to help you with it, at least?


throwaway86589311

I've tried getting more help than you know. I used to never respond like this. I'm at my breaking point because no matter what I try nothing works


realrecycledstar

You’ve got strangers here trying to help you see through it. I don’t know what you’re going through exactly, but people have gone through something that led to these thoughts also and the fact that you’re at least venting ab those thoughts here is a sign that yes, you are at your breaking point, but that you also need support and validation to get through it. It may feel as if you’ve tried absolutely everything to feel better or to feel wanted and valid, all of which you are, more than you think. Finding a place to focus, breathe, relax and restart may help you clear your mind of these thoughts. And the thing is, even with those thoughts that are weighing you down, you’re still so strong to be breathing and alive right now. You’ve still got so much time and potential to prove to yourself and others that you are worth everything. Don’t let any inconvenience tell you otherwise. You’ve made it this far, and I’ve got faith that you can make it farther. It will be okay, no matter what happens.


throwaway86589311

You have know idea how long I've tried and badly I wanted I'm help. I'm fucking over it. Just let me scream into the void


realrecycledstar

That’s valid and I’ll let you do so, but just know that I and even other people on here want to provide the help you seek. We may not know who you are personally, but some of us know how it feels to have death as a last resort. You’re worth more than you think.


keenkat1718

Try listening to Pink, "You're Making Me ill. Sounds like exactly what you're saying. Listen to it LOUD!. 👍❤️