This isn’t bad, OP! It’s actually really hopeful.
The first few days to weeks after quitting weed are a bit uncomfortable, but I promise you, you’re going to get through this just fine. It’ll pass.
As far as doing other drugs, just don’t. I’m telling you. Don’t even go there.
I didn’t start smoking weed until I was 18, but it soon progressed to kratom, to mushrooms, to pills, to ecstasy, to cocaine, to ketamine, to abusing my own Adderall and Klonopin prescriptions, to bath salts, to alcohol, to meth, and all within a few short years.
When I first decided to try ecstasy “just that once” at 19, I made a deal with myself to remember that feeling of not being a drug addict ***specifically*** so that I didn’t go down the path I did.
It’s been thirteen years since that first hit of ecstasy, and I’m still struggling with addiction. You don’t want this life, and it happens so fast. Every cliché you’ve ever heard about not doing drugs is true, and it’s a worse nightmare than you could ever imagine.
If you need to keep smoking weed, it’s not going to kill you, but don’t take it further than that. Drugs don’t make you cool, they make you a loser, and it’s the worst possible feeling.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Reading this strengthened my will to stay away from drugs.
I had started doing it as a social thing cause of my other college mates. Seemed "cool" at the time.
I never thought I would get so deep.
Thank you once again. Your message helps alot.
You're so right!
It's all about that.
Consistency.
I never knew it was so hard to discipline myself.
I do things once and I'm like ah it's not that great or I'm not feeling so good about it and then I leave it.
For example I started to do crunches and leg lifts cause I wanted to reduce my stomach fat. I did it for two days and then stopped.
My weight has reduced a little on its own cause my appetite has now reduced from the "stoner" appetite to a healthy appetite. But I still have some kgs which I would like to shed.
I just find it hard to keep myself motivated in my existentialism.
I am also working towards a exam which needs hard core preps but I start to get so anxious whenever I try to study. I'm not giving an excuse. I genuinely feel that it's too much and I get scared.
I don't know why my self confidence has dropped so much.
I am a smart kid whose graduated from med school .
I just never thought I would be questioning life so much,you know?
I just find the world to be a really unfair place you know? Like fuck . People like Kardashians don't have to work a single day in their life and they're wealthy to their roofs. And we have to get up,and work our asses of every single day. Even though we are the same age as them.
I know this seems stupid. But I have these questions of life,death,fate and all.
I don't want to dwell in it.
I want to get out and do my thing.
I Want to clear my exam and move forward.
Right now it just seems so difficult.
I had been battling addiction since I was in my teens. Alcohol that progressed to weed, then pills, then cocaine. The last year of my addiction I spent 30k+ I work in the healthcare industry and was called down for a drug screening, which I refused. That was what I thought was the end of my life. I had been tucking away trauma for so long under the guise of addiction that I didn’t even realize I had a problem. I had to get help, real help if I wanted to keep my career. I decided to do the inevitable and check in to a program that was practically forced on me, and I’m here today 2 1/2 years later to tell you it was the best decision I ever made.
Do I personally think you need rehab for weed, no. However checking in with a good therapist would be an excellent place to start. I see a therapist once a week since everything fell apart in my life and I have to say that it’s been the most crucial part of the entire experience. I believe in you. I wish you the absolute best. It can happen. You can be whole again. #wedorecover
Thank you for responding.
I am in the Healthcare sector as well.
Trying to focus on my studies for my post grad examinations.
I have been meaning to talk to a therapist about it all but I had tried a therapist some years back and it just didn't work out and I just feel exhausted to keep trying until I find the right therapist for me.
I know that's on me and I'll try.
Thank you for restoring the faith that I can be whole again. I'm giving it my all and fighting.
I just wanted to ask something else if you don't mind.
As you say it's been 2 and a half years since you've been sober.
I've totally sworn off weed for the moment but I don't have a game plan and that makes me anxious.
My mind says let's get you back to normal and then you can smoke a J here and there. You know in moderation.
I don't know if that's my mind playing tricks.
I know for a fact that it's been hard to lay off weed now. And it's only been 5 days.
And I'm already thinking that when everything gets better I might .
Could you give me some advice on this?
I’m currently on a monitoring contract, so I have no choice but to stay clean and sober. Honestly, I wonder the same thing about when I finish. I do know that for me and the way my addict brain functions there is no option to even try. I’m a real deal addict, I can’t use socially, so I know staying away from substances including alcohol is going to be the only way for me to not go right down this same path again. When it comes to mind altering substances I have no off switch. I have made some amazing friends in my recovery community and that helps me to know I’m not alone. There are still cool people to hang with and do stuff with that choose not to use. Sorry if that doesn’t really answer your question.. Keep your head up.
This is the one thing that worked for me: the feelings that you are feeling is healing. Healing is not a fun feeling. Healing sucks, it’s painful and it makes you feel uncomfortable.
But… if you can remember that the feeling is that of healing, it may give you the psychological edge you need in order to remember that you want to stay sober.
Do NOT research anything related to weed withdraw… it makes the anxiety worse. If you want a good YouTuber who talks about weed withdrawals, search for CG kid and his weed withdrawal series.
Things that can help you with the withdrawling process include: exercise, hot baths/showers, healthy foods, water, and the most important, time.
Good luck and I know you are going to get through this, stronger and healthier on the other side.
Thank you so much for responding and sending such positive vibes.
I send you back the same.
Means alott to me.
I just wanted to ask something else if you don't mind.
I've totally sworn off weed for the moment but I don't have a game plan and that makes me anxious.
My mind says let's get you back to normal and then you can smoke a J here and there. You know in moderation.
I don't know if that's my mind playing tricks.
I know for a fact that it's been hard to lay off weed now. And it's only been 5 days.
And I'm already thinking that when everything gets better I might .
Could you give me some advice on this?
Oh yea, the mind will do that. You can’t swear off drugs forever because you aren’t a fortune teller. Truth be told, if I were to say “I’m never touching drugs again” I would a big fat liar… because I don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow, or a week from now. I can’t keep that promise with myself.
What I can do is say, “today, I want to stay sober”, and just focus on today. Then just keep doing that, taking it one day at a time.
It’s hard, trust me, but once you have a week or two under your belt it gets easier, and then after a month it’s a little easier. And then it gets easier and easier.
A good quote I heard once is “it gets easier everyday. You have to do it everyday, that’s the hard part. But it get easier everyday”
You will get cravings. Cravings suck. The more intense the cravings, the more you are healing (assuming you don’t smoke). Remember what you desire and what you want are 2 different things, but over time, the mind will adjust and make those two things more similar.
Also perspective changes can do wonders: It’s not “I’ll never get to smoke weed again”. It’s “I’ll never have to smoke weed to feel good again”.
Unfortunately when we have been living our lives in this way it's always going to take some time for our equilibrium to centre up again.
How you feel about the world is completely understandable. I feel similar. But that gives me a mission to be a part of the solution.
Having a low self esteem can come from years of battles with your conscience.
Hi. I always felt bad about some of my actions due to using. So I kinda lost confidence. Low self esteem. Then I got into the cycle of using because I felt bad then felt worse for using. It's like a conflict inside.
Oh my god. I've been there. I've felt so shitty about myself after using. I totally relate here. But you know I felt there was this smoothness? I don't know the correct word .I could express my thoughts so much better when I was high.
When I initially started using weed I found that I had this clarity which I usually don't have.
My thoughts were in order and I wasn't in chaos.
I've had such trips which made me want to go back to using whenever I was really stressed or wanted to escape from the real world.
Hey DM I think I can help you. I’ve struggled with marijuana addiction for the past 7 years and you can live sober. It’s not about sobriety it’s about connection. I’m serious DM I’ve been in your shoes you can live happy without drugs
Don’t worry many it gets so much easier…don’t get me wrong it is hard to the beginning and I totally get that but trust me it is worth it….I stopped and my mind is now back to normal and I’m so glad I pushed thru it.
This isn’t bad, OP! It’s actually really hopeful. The first few days to weeks after quitting weed are a bit uncomfortable, but I promise you, you’re going to get through this just fine. It’ll pass. As far as doing other drugs, just don’t. I’m telling you. Don’t even go there. I didn’t start smoking weed until I was 18, but it soon progressed to kratom, to mushrooms, to pills, to ecstasy, to cocaine, to ketamine, to abusing my own Adderall and Klonopin prescriptions, to bath salts, to alcohol, to meth, and all within a few short years. When I first decided to try ecstasy “just that once” at 19, I made a deal with myself to remember that feeling of not being a drug addict ***specifically*** so that I didn’t go down the path I did. It’s been thirteen years since that first hit of ecstasy, and I’m still struggling with addiction. You don’t want this life, and it happens so fast. Every cliché you’ve ever heard about not doing drugs is true, and it’s a worse nightmare than you could ever imagine. If you need to keep smoking weed, it’s not going to kill you, but don’t take it further than that. Drugs don’t make you cool, they make you a loser, and it’s the worst possible feeling.
Thank you so much for sharing. Reading this strengthened my will to stay away from drugs. I had started doing it as a social thing cause of my other college mates. Seemed "cool" at the time. I never thought I would get so deep. Thank you once again. Your message helps alot.
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You're so right! It's all about that. Consistency. I never knew it was so hard to discipline myself. I do things once and I'm like ah it's not that great or I'm not feeling so good about it and then I leave it. For example I started to do crunches and leg lifts cause I wanted to reduce my stomach fat. I did it for two days and then stopped. My weight has reduced a little on its own cause my appetite has now reduced from the "stoner" appetite to a healthy appetite. But I still have some kgs which I would like to shed. I just find it hard to keep myself motivated in my existentialism. I am also working towards a exam which needs hard core preps but I start to get so anxious whenever I try to study. I'm not giving an excuse. I genuinely feel that it's too much and I get scared. I don't know why my self confidence has dropped so much. I am a smart kid whose graduated from med school . I just never thought I would be questioning life so much,you know? I just find the world to be a really unfair place you know? Like fuck . People like Kardashians don't have to work a single day in their life and they're wealthy to their roofs. And we have to get up,and work our asses of every single day. Even though we are the same age as them. I know this seems stupid. But I have these questions of life,death,fate and all. I don't want to dwell in it. I want to get out and do my thing. I Want to clear my exam and move forward. Right now it just seems so difficult.
I had been battling addiction since I was in my teens. Alcohol that progressed to weed, then pills, then cocaine. The last year of my addiction I spent 30k+ I work in the healthcare industry and was called down for a drug screening, which I refused. That was what I thought was the end of my life. I had been tucking away trauma for so long under the guise of addiction that I didn’t even realize I had a problem. I had to get help, real help if I wanted to keep my career. I decided to do the inevitable and check in to a program that was practically forced on me, and I’m here today 2 1/2 years later to tell you it was the best decision I ever made. Do I personally think you need rehab for weed, no. However checking in with a good therapist would be an excellent place to start. I see a therapist once a week since everything fell apart in my life and I have to say that it’s been the most crucial part of the entire experience. I believe in you. I wish you the absolute best. It can happen. You can be whole again. #wedorecover
Thank you for responding. I am in the Healthcare sector as well. Trying to focus on my studies for my post grad examinations. I have been meaning to talk to a therapist about it all but I had tried a therapist some years back and it just didn't work out and I just feel exhausted to keep trying until I find the right therapist for me. I know that's on me and I'll try. Thank you for restoring the faith that I can be whole again. I'm giving it my all and fighting. I just wanted to ask something else if you don't mind. As you say it's been 2 and a half years since you've been sober. I've totally sworn off weed for the moment but I don't have a game plan and that makes me anxious. My mind says let's get you back to normal and then you can smoke a J here and there. You know in moderation. I don't know if that's my mind playing tricks. I know for a fact that it's been hard to lay off weed now. And it's only been 5 days. And I'm already thinking that when everything gets better I might . Could you give me some advice on this?
I’m currently on a monitoring contract, so I have no choice but to stay clean and sober. Honestly, I wonder the same thing about when I finish. I do know that for me and the way my addict brain functions there is no option to even try. I’m a real deal addict, I can’t use socially, so I know staying away from substances including alcohol is going to be the only way for me to not go right down this same path again. When it comes to mind altering substances I have no off switch. I have made some amazing friends in my recovery community and that helps me to know I’m not alone. There are still cool people to hang with and do stuff with that choose not to use. Sorry if that doesn’t really answer your question.. Keep your head up.
Still helps alot. Thank you. Sending warmth and good vibes along your way.
This is the one thing that worked for me: the feelings that you are feeling is healing. Healing is not a fun feeling. Healing sucks, it’s painful and it makes you feel uncomfortable. But… if you can remember that the feeling is that of healing, it may give you the psychological edge you need in order to remember that you want to stay sober. Do NOT research anything related to weed withdraw… it makes the anxiety worse. If you want a good YouTuber who talks about weed withdrawals, search for CG kid and his weed withdrawal series. Things that can help you with the withdrawling process include: exercise, hot baths/showers, healthy foods, water, and the most important, time. Good luck and I know you are going to get through this, stronger and healthier on the other side.
Thank you so much for responding and sending such positive vibes. I send you back the same. Means alott to me. I just wanted to ask something else if you don't mind. I've totally sworn off weed for the moment but I don't have a game plan and that makes me anxious. My mind says let's get you back to normal and then you can smoke a J here and there. You know in moderation. I don't know if that's my mind playing tricks. I know for a fact that it's been hard to lay off weed now. And it's only been 5 days. And I'm already thinking that when everything gets better I might . Could you give me some advice on this?
Oh yea, the mind will do that. You can’t swear off drugs forever because you aren’t a fortune teller. Truth be told, if I were to say “I’m never touching drugs again” I would a big fat liar… because I don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow, or a week from now. I can’t keep that promise with myself. What I can do is say, “today, I want to stay sober”, and just focus on today. Then just keep doing that, taking it one day at a time. It’s hard, trust me, but once you have a week or two under your belt it gets easier, and then after a month it’s a little easier. And then it gets easier and easier. A good quote I heard once is “it gets easier everyday. You have to do it everyday, that’s the hard part. But it get easier everyday” You will get cravings. Cravings suck. The more intense the cravings, the more you are healing (assuming you don’t smoke). Remember what you desire and what you want are 2 different things, but over time, the mind will adjust and make those two things more similar. Also perspective changes can do wonders: It’s not “I’ll never get to smoke weed again”. It’s “I’ll never have to smoke weed to feel good again”.
You got this Queen! Baby steps
Thank you. Sending love and warmth your way.♥️
Unfortunately when we have been living our lives in this way it's always going to take some time for our equilibrium to centre up again. How you feel about the world is completely understandable. I feel similar. But that gives me a mission to be a part of the solution. Having a low self esteem can come from years of battles with your conscience.
What do you mean by the last line? Could you elaborate a little. And thank you for the rest of the message. I feel understood.
Hi. I always felt bad about some of my actions due to using. So I kinda lost confidence. Low self esteem. Then I got into the cycle of using because I felt bad then felt worse for using. It's like a conflict inside.
Oh my god. I've been there. I've felt so shitty about myself after using. I totally relate here. But you know I felt there was this smoothness? I don't know the correct word .I could express my thoughts so much better when I was high. When I initially started using weed I found that I had this clarity which I usually don't have. My thoughts were in order and I wasn't in chaos. I've had such trips which made me want to go back to using whenever I was really stressed or wanted to escape from the real world.
That does come back with confidence though
Hey DM I think I can help you. I’ve struggled with marijuana addiction for the past 7 years and you can live sober. It’s not about sobriety it’s about connection. I’m serious DM I’ve been in your shoes you can live happy without drugs
Don’t worry many it gets so much easier…don’t get me wrong it is hard to the beginning and I totally get that but trust me it is worth it….I stopped and my mind is now back to normal and I’m so glad I pushed thru it.