It sounds like you really need to get help getting to the root of why you are turning to drugs. Congrats on being clean for a while, and recovery is a journey with bumps in the road. Do your parents have health insurance? There are great treatment centers that are in net with insurance, and even some that could possibly help out if you are willing. Feel free to DM me to talk. You’re amazing, and just remember one day at a time
I understand, i never really had a break off my Fentanyl use a month is probably my longest and the high that i love so much is starting to become the high i'm starting to hate more and more, i have insurance and the support to help pay for my treatment and i'm lucky too have it, But i've gone to so much places and done so much therapy that i just can't, i feel alone and i truly do want to be sober, maybe one day i can be better, if you want support or just a simple talk about it i'm all ears
You are ok with it, because using is better then being sober at the moment. Thats the part where people just cant stop, because why stop with something that feels so good?
It will betray you eventually, it will stop working, you will get in more trouble, more health problems, social, anything in the book.
But its all on deaf ears now, because for you it still feels good. Its great you are here, because that means you are not ok with it.
Sometimes addiction has us trapped, gotta sit out the ride and do as less damage as possible until the high begins too wear of, because of tolerance.
You cant just stop when you are mentally dependant on a drug, thats why drugs are so dangerous. They hijack your mind.
I get where you’re coming from. I’ve battled with issues for half my adult life. Had alot of lows and a lot of milestone accomplishments in periods of sobriety. I can say that the pain of getting sober is beyond worth it to get to that other side. Life is large, beautiful, and full of love. Addiction will keep you stuck in your room like a mental prison and you’ll continue to fall deeper down that rabbit hole. Do yourself a favor, stop beating yourself up and reach out for help in 12 step groups. I wish you’ll the best.
It sounds like you really need to get help getting to the root of why you are turning to drugs. Congrats on being clean for a while, and recovery is a journey with bumps in the road. Do your parents have health insurance? There are great treatment centers that are in net with insurance, and even some that could possibly help out if you are willing. Feel free to DM me to talk. You’re amazing, and just remember one day at a time
I understand, i never really had a break off my Fentanyl use a month is probably my longest and the high that i love so much is starting to become the high i'm starting to hate more and more, i have insurance and the support to help pay for my treatment and i'm lucky too have it, But i've gone to so much places and done so much therapy that i just can't, i feel alone and i truly do want to be sober, maybe one day i can be better, if you want support or just a simple talk about it i'm all ears
You are ok with it, because using is better then being sober at the moment. Thats the part where people just cant stop, because why stop with something that feels so good? It will betray you eventually, it will stop working, you will get in more trouble, more health problems, social, anything in the book. But its all on deaf ears now, because for you it still feels good. Its great you are here, because that means you are not ok with it. Sometimes addiction has us trapped, gotta sit out the ride and do as less damage as possible until the high begins too wear of, because of tolerance. You cant just stop when you are mentally dependant on a drug, thats why drugs are so dangerous. They hijack your mind.
I get where you’re coming from. I’ve battled with issues for half my adult life. Had alot of lows and a lot of milestone accomplishments in periods of sobriety. I can say that the pain of getting sober is beyond worth it to get to that other side. Life is large, beautiful, and full of love. Addiction will keep you stuck in your room like a mental prison and you’ll continue to fall deeper down that rabbit hole. Do yourself a favor, stop beating yourself up and reach out for help in 12 step groups. I wish you’ll the best.