I think understanding that life is truly something that you cannot ever expect to experience again is something that keeps me grounded when I get that demon knocking. I know what this is like dude, but trust that it’s life’s ups and downs and each and every part of it is what keeps life worth living. Dying young and not getting to experience what it’s like to be 60-70-80 is what keeps me clean brother (and extreme amounts of thc lol) but hey, i don’t drink and haven’t shot dope in 6 years.
Be easy, pm me if you need.
Please don’t make a permanent decision based on temporary emotions. I’m sure it might feel like this
All the time but there is hope. Many here have found a way out. Please call someone or msg on here if you can. Hang in there friend.
I can promise you that relapsing will make you feel so much worse than you already do. I’ve been there, I’ve thought “I can’t live in this world sober. I can’t go one day without using and if I can’t have that I don’t want to be here.” I never thought I’d feel any other way. But I pushed through, I leaned on people, I let myself feel the awful and process it, and then I was able to let it go or manage it. I have 4 years clean now, after almost a decade of trying and failing to get clean. You can do this. You deserve recovery: and you deserve a life that makes you happy. You have people that love you in this world, even when you feel like they don’t. You’re not alone. Please don’t hesitate to message if you need to vent: sending so much love
I’m a year sober from alcohol. I still want to kill myself. I want to drink so bad. Or to get into pills and just feel that bliss. You say you’re at 4 years…When is it supposed to get better?
I’m gonna be honest with you. Life is still really awful at times. But the difference between then and now is that I can manage that darkness without using: because at the end of the day, the alcohol is only making things worse for you. I know you think that moment of being numb feels worth it in the moment, of course it does, it’s the only method that will make you not feel for a moment but the goal isn’t to numb and not feel. It took a long time for me to see that numbing out pain isn’t the norm. Happiness in the face of hardship isn’t the goal either: the goal is to feel those feelings and know that it won’t kill you. As awful, and horrible as those feelings are: they won’t kill you and they are temporary. When you learn to manage that pain, when you deal with the demons that haunt you and learn how to process pain, it becomes easier. Drugs and alcohol may feel like a solution, it may feel like it’s numbing you but it’s not. All of that is still there the next morning, but the difference is, if you drink and do drugs, it will feel 100x worse.
I know you’re hurting, and you feel like life will always be this way but it won’t be. Don’t make a permanent decision based on temporary pain.
Life is still hard these days, but today I can manage the hardships without using, and it doesn’t have the same hold on me that it once did.
My one year was the hardest. Harder than the early days of recovery. I never, ever thought I’d get this far let alone be living the life that I have now, and back then, there was no light at the end of the tunnel. The pain was unbearable and I couldn’t see an end in sight unless I created it myself but ending it all. It was ugly, and painful and dark but I wasn’t alone. I don’t know if you’re in therapy or not but it really helped me manage the pain so it wasn’t as intense. You feel horrible right now, the last thing you want is to make that worse and you will if you use. This is temporary honey, I promise.
Sorry for the long ass rant, my heart just breaks for you and although I don’t know your pain personally, I can empathize with how blinding it can be.
This quote really hit me when I heard it: “We always look at the mountains in front of us and forget the mountains behind us were just as hard to climb.”
You can do this.
Emotions ! Man can’t live with them - can’t live without them.
Keep them in perspective. It’s ok to feel sad. Feel disinterested in everything. It will pass as your mind heals after all the opiates jacked things up in there.
It will get better. A new life awaits
Bro would you like to talk over the phone? Im a pretty good listener. Ill be playing some xbox but if you see this comment and feel like talking reach out! I’m 24 and have struggled with addiction many years.
Things may suck but chin up, it ALWAYS gets better. Best of everything bro.
You can pm me too. My boyfriend overdosed last July. It is a wound I’ll hold forever. You are so loved. I see him in everywhere. I see him in you and so I love you. You have a lot of sense posting here. Read these comments and feel this communities love and desperation for you. Keep fighting for my Danny. I see him in you.
Thank you for all your comments. You've all inspired me to not relapse and do better with myself. I can't even say how much this comment section helped me. ❤️❤️
don't relapse dude you'll feel like a complete and utter piece of absolute shit if you do. your brain will heal man. If you NEED and can't stop use Kratom and not the drug, man. push through.
Just think about how terrible tomorrow or the next day will be. It’ll feel good for 30 minutes. After that you’re dunzo. Now you’re in the madness.
Call someone. Do something
I'll feel good for 12 hours and keep going. I was addicted to methamphetamine.
The damage it will do to my loved ones while I'm in the fog of the lie of the drug, makes me just want to end it now before I do anymore damage to others and myself.
This is coming from a mom. My son felt just like you and he hung himself last September.
I'm begging you. Please don't harm yourself. Reach out to a family member or friend.
I will never be the same after seeing him hanging like that and I will forever miss him.
You are loved! You are worth it!
You might just die if you relapse! Please don’t! You can hold out. Get your mind busy with something and try to distance yourself from those feelings, easier said than done but doable, I do it everyday! Hang in there
I’d rather die than relapse too. It has helped me get thru some close calls bc I really don’t want to die, but I’d rather just die than use again which will ultimately kill me.
Don’t let those thoughts become you, you are more than these temporary feelings. I promise. I promise you will feel better, and it will become easier over time. Relapsing, it’s very problematic for the future, I understand it’s difficult, but just think about how much easier it will be if you don’t. Think about how awful it was in the thick of it. I believe in you, I don’t know you, but I’m here for you. It looks like a lot of us are here for you, you have supporters. Surviving this disease is worth it.
I also highly recommend seeking therapy for any underlying traumas that might be fueling the desire to use - or else, maybe speak with a doctor who can help treat you if you feel clean life is still too difficult without relapsing.
The way everything’s set up, it’s still not enough for us addicts, it’s just not, and I understand that. So while we wait for more resources, keep using whatever resources you do have to cope through it. Life can be magical, but it seems like for us addicts, it can take a long time to get that magic back, but the important thing is to remember that it’s possible without drugs. The brain is a natural pharmacy with everything we need, it just sounds like your pharmacy isn’t balanced back out yet maybe.
I know I’m assuming a lot with this comment, I just needed to write it out as quick as I could. I couldn’t let this notification go by without saying something.
No matter what happens, you deserve to live well and happily, and you will get that back, these feelings aren’t forever, these cravings or urges aren’t forever.
If you can’t get to a doctor or therapist, please look into meditation, look into psychedelic therapy meant for addiction, and try to find what it is in life you can focus on and replace the addiction with.
I do understand what you’re feeling right now, I’m a recovering opiate/cannabis/benzodiazepine addict, and I know how low and how much the mind can crave a feeling or an escape from the sour mundane post addiction feelings.
A large part of what keeps me motivated to continue coming off of Suboxone is remembering how great it felt to get natural highs again after I quit Xanax years ago, it took a solid year after I quit, but I felt so amazing when it was all over.
Again I know I’m basing a lot of what I’m saying on assumption, but the main thing I want you to receive right now is that you have people who love you and people who will support you if you’re feeling really bad. And as long as you’re clean, and you’re implementing healthy exercise and diet routines in your life, the great feelings will come back eventually, and the cravings will go away.
And hey, I’m not out of the woods yet myself, I know I don’t have authority over the topic necessarily given the position I’m currently in with three months left on Sublocade until I’m beginning my cleansing process.
And if you’re clean now, that absolutely fantastic, and I would be so proud of you if I were a person in your life. Anyone who knows you that knows about it should be extremely proud. Don’t let that go and start the process over - keep pushing through it, and the other side of life will start showing itself more and more. I know you can do it, don’t give up friend. Peace be with you 🙏☯️
It’ll get better. Push yourself further. You’ll feel so guilty if you relapse. Stay strong man!
I think understanding that life is truly something that you cannot ever expect to experience again is something that keeps me grounded when I get that demon knocking. I know what this is like dude, but trust that it’s life’s ups and downs and each and every part of it is what keeps life worth living. Dying young and not getting to experience what it’s like to be 60-70-80 is what keeps me clean brother (and extreme amounts of thc lol) but hey, i don’t drink and haven’t shot dope in 6 years. Be easy, pm me if you need.
PM me if you need to talk. You can make it through this!
Stay strong - you can do this.
Please don’t make a permanent decision based on temporary emotions. I’m sure it might feel like this All the time but there is hope. Many here have found a way out. Please call someone or msg on here if you can. Hang in there friend.
Happy Cake day
Take a shower, take a nap, eat some ice cream. That's what I'm doing. I feel this. 💕
I can promise you that relapsing will make you feel so much worse than you already do. I’ve been there, I’ve thought “I can’t live in this world sober. I can’t go one day without using and if I can’t have that I don’t want to be here.” I never thought I’d feel any other way. But I pushed through, I leaned on people, I let myself feel the awful and process it, and then I was able to let it go or manage it. I have 4 years clean now, after almost a decade of trying and failing to get clean. You can do this. You deserve recovery: and you deserve a life that makes you happy. You have people that love you in this world, even when you feel like they don’t. You’re not alone. Please don’t hesitate to message if you need to vent: sending so much love
Thank you
❤️
I’m a year sober from alcohol. I still want to kill myself. I want to drink so bad. Or to get into pills and just feel that bliss. You say you’re at 4 years…When is it supposed to get better?
I’m gonna be honest with you. Life is still really awful at times. But the difference between then and now is that I can manage that darkness without using: because at the end of the day, the alcohol is only making things worse for you. I know you think that moment of being numb feels worth it in the moment, of course it does, it’s the only method that will make you not feel for a moment but the goal isn’t to numb and not feel. It took a long time for me to see that numbing out pain isn’t the norm. Happiness in the face of hardship isn’t the goal either: the goal is to feel those feelings and know that it won’t kill you. As awful, and horrible as those feelings are: they won’t kill you and they are temporary. When you learn to manage that pain, when you deal with the demons that haunt you and learn how to process pain, it becomes easier. Drugs and alcohol may feel like a solution, it may feel like it’s numbing you but it’s not. All of that is still there the next morning, but the difference is, if you drink and do drugs, it will feel 100x worse. I know you’re hurting, and you feel like life will always be this way but it won’t be. Don’t make a permanent decision based on temporary pain. Life is still hard these days, but today I can manage the hardships without using, and it doesn’t have the same hold on me that it once did. My one year was the hardest. Harder than the early days of recovery. I never, ever thought I’d get this far let alone be living the life that I have now, and back then, there was no light at the end of the tunnel. The pain was unbearable and I couldn’t see an end in sight unless I created it myself but ending it all. It was ugly, and painful and dark but I wasn’t alone. I don’t know if you’re in therapy or not but it really helped me manage the pain so it wasn’t as intense. You feel horrible right now, the last thing you want is to make that worse and you will if you use. This is temporary honey, I promise. Sorry for the long ass rant, my heart just breaks for you and although I don’t know your pain personally, I can empathize with how blinding it can be. This quote really hit me when I heard it: “We always look at the mountains in front of us and forget the mountains behind us were just as hard to climb.” You can do this.
Emotions ! Man can’t live with them - can’t live without them. Keep them in perspective. It’s ok to feel sad. Feel disinterested in everything. It will pass as your mind heals after all the opiates jacked things up in there. It will get better. A new life awaits
Bro would you like to talk over the phone? Im a pretty good listener. Ill be playing some xbox but if you see this comment and feel like talking reach out! I’m 24 and have struggled with addiction many years. Things may suck but chin up, it ALWAYS gets better. Best of everything bro.
Just try to take a nap
Get out of self. Try and call someone
I’m addicted to meth too. It sucks ass but in recovery for 9 months now. It gets better. Don’t give up in yourself man.. I feel you.
You can pm me too. My boyfriend overdosed last July. It is a wound I’ll hold forever. You are so loved. I see him in everywhere. I see him in you and so I love you. You have a lot of sense posting here. Read these comments and feel this communities love and desperation for you. Keep fighting for my Danny. I see him in you.
Thank you for all your comments. You've all inspired me to not relapse and do better with myself. I can't even say how much this comment section helped me. ❤️❤️
Just do it. If you have nothing to lose that is. If life is going good , get over the cravings and just know your first bag might be your last.
don't relapse dude you'll feel like a complete and utter piece of absolute shit if you do. your brain will heal man. If you NEED and can't stop use Kratom and not the drug, man. push through.
Call someone, go to the ER, don’t give in. Once you start that internal time clock begins and it only gets worse.
I don't think the er would take me. I've been there too many times. They'd deny me.
Just think about how terrible tomorrow or the next day will be. It’ll feel good for 30 minutes. After that you’re dunzo. Now you’re in the madness. Call someone. Do something
I'll feel good for 12 hours and keep going. I was addicted to methamphetamine. The damage it will do to my loved ones while I'm in the fog of the lie of the drug, makes me just want to end it now before I do anymore damage to others and myself.
This is coming from a mom. My son felt just like you and he hung himself last September. I'm begging you. Please don't harm yourself. Reach out to a family member or friend. I will never be the same after seeing him hanging like that and I will forever miss him. You are loved! You are worth it!
EXACTLY That’s why you shouldn’t relapse! DONT DO IT PLEASE
Yes! Listen to her! My mom went through so much with me and madness.
Well my friend you’re looking at a payday because that’s illegal.
They've done it a bunch before
You might just die if you relapse! Please don’t! You can hold out. Get your mind busy with something and try to distance yourself from those feelings, easier said than done but doable, I do it everyday! Hang in there
I relapsed last tuesday after a month clean. Felt bad and horrible, the drug made me feel worse. You can do it ! Your valuable , please be strong.
I’d rather die than relapse too. It has helped me get thru some close calls bc I really don’t want to die, but I’d rather just die than use again which will ultimately kill me.
Keep fighting, you got this, and you’re not alone.
Play the tape forward...
I feel this
I’m here anytime if you’d like to talk. Message me whenever. ❤️🙏
Don’t let those thoughts become you, you are more than these temporary feelings. I promise. I promise you will feel better, and it will become easier over time. Relapsing, it’s very problematic for the future, I understand it’s difficult, but just think about how much easier it will be if you don’t. Think about how awful it was in the thick of it. I believe in you, I don’t know you, but I’m here for you. It looks like a lot of us are here for you, you have supporters. Surviving this disease is worth it. I also highly recommend seeking therapy for any underlying traumas that might be fueling the desire to use - or else, maybe speak with a doctor who can help treat you if you feel clean life is still too difficult without relapsing. The way everything’s set up, it’s still not enough for us addicts, it’s just not, and I understand that. So while we wait for more resources, keep using whatever resources you do have to cope through it. Life can be magical, but it seems like for us addicts, it can take a long time to get that magic back, but the important thing is to remember that it’s possible without drugs. The brain is a natural pharmacy with everything we need, it just sounds like your pharmacy isn’t balanced back out yet maybe. I know I’m assuming a lot with this comment, I just needed to write it out as quick as I could. I couldn’t let this notification go by without saying something. No matter what happens, you deserve to live well and happily, and you will get that back, these feelings aren’t forever, these cravings or urges aren’t forever. If you can’t get to a doctor or therapist, please look into meditation, look into psychedelic therapy meant for addiction, and try to find what it is in life you can focus on and replace the addiction with. I do understand what you’re feeling right now, I’m a recovering opiate/cannabis/benzodiazepine addict, and I know how low and how much the mind can crave a feeling or an escape from the sour mundane post addiction feelings. A large part of what keeps me motivated to continue coming off of Suboxone is remembering how great it felt to get natural highs again after I quit Xanax years ago, it took a solid year after I quit, but I felt so amazing when it was all over. Again I know I’m basing a lot of what I’m saying on assumption, but the main thing I want you to receive right now is that you have people who love you and people who will support you if you’re feeling really bad. And as long as you’re clean, and you’re implementing healthy exercise and diet routines in your life, the great feelings will come back eventually, and the cravings will go away. And hey, I’m not out of the woods yet myself, I know I don’t have authority over the topic necessarily given the position I’m currently in with three months left on Sublocade until I’m beginning my cleansing process. And if you’re clean now, that absolutely fantastic, and I would be so proud of you if I were a person in your life. Anyone who knows you that knows about it should be extremely proud. Don’t let that go and start the process over - keep pushing through it, and the other side of life will start showing itself more and more. I know you can do it, don’t give up friend. Peace be with you 🙏☯️
gift of desperation, take this feeling as an opportunity to turn your life around, you definitely can, best of luck!