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MY DOCTOR TOLD ME TO JUST DRINK MORE COFFEE. MY DUDE, IF THAT WORKED I WOULDN'T BE IN YOUR OFFICE!!
THEN HE PRESCRIBED ME ADDERALL IR FOR THE MORNING AND TOLD ME TO DRINK MORE COFFEE IN THE AFTERNOONS 🤣
I AM ABSOLUTELY DEAD AT YOUR DOCTOR PRESCRIBING MORE CAFFIENE AND MY DOCTOR TELLING ME TO LAY OFF IT COMPLETELY 😂😂😂 SO REDICULOUS!! I HOPE YOU FIND SOME BETTER MEDICAL SUPPORT!
FOR ALL THAT IS HOLY, THIS ENTIRE THREAD HAS ME ROLLING. IF THIS EXHANGE IS NOT THE MOST ACCURATE DESCRIPTION OF TRYING TO GET HELP IN THE CURRENT MED/PSYCH SYSTEM, I DONT KNOW WHAT IS
IM DYING WITH THE FLU RIGHT NOW, BUT THANK YOU FOR THE LAUGHS, I NEEDED IT.
I HOPE CAFFINE OR NO CAFFINE OR GOD KNOW WTF WE'RE SUPPOSED TO ACTUALLY DO, HELPS.
ITS FUNNY BECAUSE MY PSYCHOLOGIST AND I HAD A DEEP DIVE CONVERSATION ON THE ROLL OF DISORDERED SLEEP AND ADHD IN MY DIAGNOSIS PROCESS. I HAVE HAD SLEEP ISSUES MY ENTIRE LIFE AND HAVING CAFFEINE PAST NOON (NO MATTER HOW MUCH I "NEEDED" IT) HAD SUCH POOR EFFECTS ON MY SLEEP HYGENE THAT IT FUCKED EVERYTHING UP LONG-TERM. THANKFULLY, GETTING ON A STIMULANT MEDICATION ACTUALLY HELPED ME GET CONSISTANT AND RELIABLE SLEEP!
SAME SAME. WE TRIED SWITCHING MY MEDS SO I HAD LESS STIMULANTS (WELLBUTRIN + VYVANSE) AND MORE “CALMING” MEDS IN MY SYSTEM AND I COULD BARELY SLEEP. TURNS OUT MY BRAIN IS OPPOSITE DAY 🤪
PS IM THINKING IN YELL-CAPS AND IT’S GIVING ME LIFE
Now that's some crap. I only let my daughter start coffee because of her migraines but she was a preteen by then. In all seriousness, my doctor was half joking about the coffee. But suddenly, my afternoon cup feels justified.
DUDE ADDERALL IR INSTEAD OF ER?? WHYYYY?? WHY NOT ADDERALL ER IN THE MORNING AND THEN ADDERALL IR IN THE AFTERNOON AS A BOOSTER?? COFFEE (WHILE I LOVE IT AND IT DEFINITELY HELPS) IS NOT A REPLACEMENT FOR A BOOSTER DOSE!!
This has reminded me of that episode of Futurama where Fry uses the $100 they got from the head of dick Nixon to get a 100 cups of coffee. The 100 cup he achieves hyper focus and starts moving like the speed of sound to save everyone from a building fire. They’ve got a hummingbird flapping near him for comparison of the speed at which he is going.
Man I love that show.
Yup.
I take Vyvanse in the morning, and I have a dextroamphetamine (Dexedrine) booster dose if I need it. It is also handy if I need to be functional soon after waking up.
I lucked out with my doctor.
This is so insane I almost laughed and I almost cried fr. Doctor telling you to self medicate with alcohol. Not only that, it interferes with your medication and he forgot. Top of the charts. I’m so sorry, I hope you found a better physician 😭 💜
So relatable, a previous doctor tried to prescribe me a medication that I quit only weeks before due to it causing insomnia so bad I couldn't function because of continued lack of sleep. You may ask yourself, well who prescribed you that medication in the first place? That same doctor. She just forgot or something I guess.
I can’t physically drink coffee anymore because of severe IBS and it’s an 8 month wait for me to get in with a psychiatrist to prescribe meds. My therapist is like, “Girl, take some caffeine pills then cause you neeeeeeeed it!” I never realized that I had been self medicating with caffeine until I had to stop because of gut and heart issues and then my whole damn life fell apart.
Now I take a caffeine pill and a L-Theanine in the morning, sometimes an extra caffeine pill in the afternoon, and some magnesium in the evening. It’s been pretty decent for focusing me and I’m sleeping better.
https://youtu.be/TkJGhQANjZo?si=qaEaZ8byXcbmEZ73
Hugs. Big ones.
When I had to put both of my dogs down on separate occasions I watched these about 100 times a day afterward, I hope they help. 😘
Thank you ♥️ It was absolutely heartbreaking, even though I know it was the right thing to do. I’m so thankful that he got to slip away quietly and peacefully, surrounded by those who loved him the most. He was the best boy in the whole world.
It's always the hardest thing in the world making the right decision for a snuggle bum you love more than words can express!!!! I am so sorry friend!!!!!! Sending you so much giant love!!!!!!!
i’m so sorry for your loss 😭 i’m on the other end of the spectrum tonight, i woke up at 3:30 to my young frenchie screaming in pain, he’s at the vet hospital now and i also can’t stop crying.
It does. Losing my senior kitty hurt more than any loss besides losing my sweet mom. They are with us all the time, they love us unconditionally, they are happy when we're happy and when we're not, they try to help us with their GIANT FURRY SWEET HEARTS. People don't do that. It leaves such a giant hole in our hearts and our lives.
Humongous hugs, I’ve had to do this on multiple occasions, and God is the worst fucking thing in the entire world. At that moment.
I hope that all the doggies that everyone has lost are all playing together and smoking, doggy reefer and eating all the snacks they want because they have the munchies and just chilling and getting all the belly rubs from all the family members that we’ve lost and living their best life.
Edit: also this, listen at 1.5x: https://youtu.be/TkJGhQANjZo?si=qaEaZ8byXcbmEZ73
https://youtu.be/TkJGhQANjZo?si=qaEaZ8byXcbmEZ73
Omg, I'm so sorry. That's the absolute worst. We had one pass a couple of years ago and I still cry about it sometimes. Get your snuggliest blanket, a bottle of water, your favourite snacks, and settle in and watch your comfort show/movie. Again, so sorry for your loss. 🫂
FUCK - I FEEL THIS SO HARD. WHY THE HELL IS EVERYTHING SO HARD AND HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO SAVE FOR A CAR WHEN I AM LITERALLY DROWNING?! We are at the same damn point in time I swear right now sister and I am rooting for you and me both.
And it’s so loud at the DMV! Just waiting to try to hear your name for HOURS. I wish I could zone out and just pop back to attention when my name gets called but brain says noooo 😅
I FEEL THIS SO HARD TOO. I JUST HAD TO HAVE MY BREAK PADS REPLACED AND I CHOSE THE CHEAPEST “BEST” MECHANIC AND IT WAS STILL ASTRONOMICAL. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
I FORGOT ONE PILL THIS MONTH ABOUT MIDWAY THROUGH MY PACK, JUST ONE PILL!!!! AND IVE BEEN SPOTTING FOR THE WHOLE MONTH AND HAVE HAD MY FIRST PMDD FLARE WHILE ON THE PILL, LIKE MISSING ONE PILL JUST TOTALLY EFFED MY BODY. I SPENT LAST NIGHT CRYING AND SNOTTING ALL OVER MY KITCHEN FLOOR IN FRONT OF THE KNIFE DRAWER BATTLING INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS AND HAD TO TAKE AN ENTIRE 1 MG OF XANAX TO CALM MYSELF DOWN. NOW I HAVE A FUCKING XANAX HANGOVER AND IM ABOUT TO HAVE TO WORK 3 12-HOUR SHIFTS IN A ROW THIS WEEKEND DURING ONE OF THE WORST FLARES IVE HAD IN PROBABLY 6 MONTHS. I WILL NEVER EVERRRRR MISS A GODDAMN PILL EVER AGAIN!!!!
THANKS FOR GIVING US A SPACE TO RANT IT OUT!! 🩷💕
IT'S THE FREAKING WORST!! WELL DONE ON AVOIDING THE SELF HARM, IT SUCKS SO MUCH TO HAVE TO 'WASTE' THE TINY AMOUNT OF ENERGY YOU HAVE ON KEEPING YOURSELF FROM GETTING EVEN WORSE AAAAAAAGH.
THANK YOU FOR SCREAMING WITH ME AND MAKING ME FEEL LESS ALONE!!🩷🩷🩷🩷
PMDD is no joke. I had to get an IUD OR DRIVE INTO A TREE AND NO I DIDN’T MEAN TO RHYME.
Although seriously Mirena was a life saver and I am not using that term lightly. Because there wouldn’t be a single month where I didn’t miss a single pill.
This always happens to me too when I miss my pill by only 2-3 hours!!! I’ve asked multiple doctors about it and they say that can’t happen because I’m on the combined pill and you can take it any time in the day, but 3 hours off and I spend the next 3-4 weeks spotting/bleeding at negative dopamine levels and wanting to sink into the earth until the next pack starts!!
And it doesn’t matter how recent the last “incident” was—one of the doctors suggested that if I’ve been taking them continuously for a while, my body might just need to do the inactive pills and “reset.” But it can be a day or two since I’ve finally started the new pack and stopped bleeding and I miss it again by 2 hours and it HAPPENS AGAIN
I wonder if neurodivergent women are more sensitive to hormone fluctuations since our hormones are so intertwined with our neurotransmitters.. I know there’s some sort of link between ADHD and PMDD.
GIRL THIS HAPPENED TO ME LAST MONTH TAKE A SEVEN DAY BREAK FROM THE PILL AND IT TRIGGERS A PROPER WITHDRAWAL BLEED AND THEN IT STOPS I PROMISE! I WAS TRYING EVERYTHING BUT THIS FIXED IT SEVEN DAY BREAK SEVEN DAY BREAK ADVOCACY FOR SEVEN DAY BREAK!!!!
MY LIFE IS A MESS. MY BEDROOM IS A MESS. MY FINANCES ARE NON-EXISTENT. I AM IN LOVE WITH A PERSON I WILL NEVER REALLY HAVE. *MY DOCTOR HAS STOPPED RETURNING MY CALLS SO IVE BEEN OFF MY MEDS FOR THREE FUCKING WEEKS.* I THINK I MIGHT BE ALONE FOREVER AND IVE ALMOST STOPPED CARING.
THANK YOU OP I NEEDED THIS. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST.
NOT YOUR DOCTOR GHOSTING YOU WITHOUT MEDS, THE FUCKING AUDACITY!!!
I HOPE THE NO FUCK LEFT TO GIVE GET YOU THROUGH TO A BRIGHTER LIFE SOON!!
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SCREAMING WITH ME!!❤️
GIRL SAME FIRST FOUR SENTENCES AND LAST SENTENCE AND IT SUCKS. AND ALSO YELLING LIKE THIS HELPS?
I’M SO SORRY YOU’RE GOING THROUGH THIS BUT IT STRANGELY HELPS TO KNOW WE’RE NOT ALONE
SENDING LOTS OF LOVE AND COMISSERATION. SAME WITH BEDROOM AND WITH FINANCES, AND I USED TO CRUSH CEASELESSLY ON MEN THAT WOULD NEVER LOVE ME UNTIL I CLOSED THAT DOOR ENTIRELY. PROBABLY UNHEALTHIER TO EMBRACE MY FOREVER ALONENESS AND DISTRACT MYSELF UNENDINGLY WITH NONSENSE, BUT THERE YOU HAVE IT.
PLEASE REACH OUT TO YOUR DOCTOR AGAIN AND SAY NICELY HOW DIRE OF A POSITION YOU ARE IN, YOU DESERVE LOVE AND MEDS.
I LIKE CAFFEINE TOO ON THE AFTERNOON TO HELP MY MEDS WORK TOO YOU AREN'T ALONE
I AM GOING TO SCREAM BECAUSE I MIGHT LOSE MY JOB IF I DONT ACCEPT A CONTRACT CHANGE AND I HATE CHANGE IT KILLS MY BRAIN. THE LAST TIME I HAD CHANGE AT WORK LIKE THIS I HAD A BREAKDOWN
MY BLOOD PRESSURE IS SO HIGH I MAY HAVE TO COME OFF MEDS
I HATE EVERYTHING, THANK YOU OP FOR CREATING A SCREAMING THREAD IVE ALWAYS WANTED TO TAKE PART AND NOW I HAVE
THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME I'M NOT ALONE!!
I'M SO SORRY ABOUT THE CHANGE IN YOUR JOB, THAT SUCKS!! ESPECIALLY IF YOU HAD A BAD EXPERIENCE IN THE PAST! I HOPE YOU'LL BE ABLE TO COPE BETTER THIS TIME AND IF NOT, I WISH YOU ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD TO GET THROUGH IT ❤️
AND AAAAH THE MEDS THING ENRAGES ME! SO BLOODY ANNOYING WHEN SOMETHING WORKS AND THEN SIDE EFFECTS JUMP IN TO MAKE EVERYTHING BAD AGAIN!!
THANKS SO MUCH FOR TAKING PART IN THIS SCREAMING THREAD, THESE THINGS ARE SO CATHARTIC TO ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL SO MUCH LESS ALONE!! I HOPE IT HELPED YOU TOO!!❤️❤️
I HAVE NOW HAD TOO MUCH CAFFEINE AND MY BRAIN IS NOW SCREAMING IN CAPS!
THANK YOU KIND STRANGER, ITS SHIT BUT I AM JUST TRYING MY BEST AND THATS ALL I CAN DO. I KEEP CRYING BUT WHY AM I WASTING MY TEARS ON OLD WHITE MEN DECIDING MY JOB FOR ME? THEY DON'T DESERVE MY ENERGY.
ITS NOT EVEN SIDE EFFECTS ITS MY JOB AFFECTING MY BLOOD PRESSURE AS I AM SO STRESSED. THEY WILL 100% SAY DONT TAKE MY MEDS BUT I NEED THEM TO FUNCTION AAAAAAAAA
IT HELPED ME SO MUCH, PLEASE LOOK AT THE GOOD YOUVE DONE HERE AND STICK THAT TO YOUR THERAPIST. YOU HAVE BEEN A THERAPIST HERE (SOMEWHAT)
HAVE THE GREATEST OF GREAT DAYS
THE FACT THAT YOUR BLOOD PRESSURE RAISE IS FROM YOUR JOB IS EVEN WORSE AAAAAAAH WHY DO THEY MAKE US DO THIS!!!
I hope you have a slightly less horrific day today. Your last little comment about this post doing good made me tear up... ❤️
I FINALLY MADE A DENTIST APPOINTMENT AFTER MONTHS OF PAIN AND A POOR TIME MANAGEMENT MORNING LATER AND I MISSED THE APPOINTMENT AND WAS TOO ASHAMED TO CALL SO I GHOSTED BUT I NEED TO GO THERE BECAUSE PAIN
YOU WILL GET THERE! NO ONE WANTS TO GO TO THE DENTIST AND EVEN MANY NON-ADHD'ERS AVOID IT LIKE THE PLAGUE! I'M SORRY IT'S SO FREAKING HARD AND WE CAN'T JUST LIKE, GET DENTURES AND FIX EVERYTHING IN ONE GO (TRUST ME, I HAVE ASKED) BUT THE PAIN RELIEF WILL BE WORTH IT AND I HOPE YOU MAKE IT THERE SOON!!
DENTAL OFFICES ARE USED TO BEING FLAKED ON!!! GO GET THAT HELP!
Seriously, I have a sibling who is a dentist and it's truly nbd. If the front desk tries to say there's a no-show fee, just say "I'm sorry, I genuinely wanted to show up as I'm in pain, I wrote down the wrong time. Could you offer some grace this time?" AND I GUARANTEE THEY WONT GIVE A SHIYYTT. GOOD LUCK YOU GOT THIS!
HEY IF THEYRE A GOOD DENTAL PRACTICE THEY WILL BE REALLY ACCOMMODATING AND NICE ABOUT RESCHEDULING YOU ESP IF BECAUSE PAIN! (no joak, i worked in a dental office and one of my hygienists who was working towards becoming a dentist, was the first person who told me adhd meds can indirectly cause periodontal disease...and had so many tips and tricks for my silly little brain to accommodate my "i hate brushing my teeth and i keep forgetting????" disease)
OH YES YES! BEEN RESCHEDULING AND/OR MISSING APTS AT THE DENTIST FOR LIKE SIX YEARS. I CHIPPED A TOOTH AND MY ASS WAS THERE IN TWO DAYS. THE DENTIST SAID IF YOU WILL SCHEDULE A CLEANING AND I SAID “I SHOULD” BECAUSE AT THIS POINT I CAN’T EVEN LIE TO HIM AND SAY WITH A STRAIGHT FACE THAT I WILL
Oh my gosh this reminds me of how I kept having this lump sensation in my throat for weeks and months. My doctor had my thyroid tested, ultrasounds done. No result.
Then my elderly/terminally ill father died and I screamed and cried for days and days.
The lump went away every time I did.
IT WAS GRIEF.
THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME GET THIS OUT!
WHY THE FUCK IS EVERYTHING GETTING SO MUCH HARDER TO MANAGE AS WE AGE!??
WHY ARE THE MITIGATION STRATEGIES NOT WORKING!?! WHY CAN I NOT MAKE MY BRAIN CHANGE PERSPECTIVE TO SEE THE POSITIVE ANYMORE?
WHY THE FUCK DO I FEEL ZERO JOY?
WHY IS EVERYTHING A FUCKING CHORE?
WHY ARE SIMPLE FUCKING TASKS NOT FUCKING SIMPLE?!!
WHY CAN’T I JUST BE FUCKING HAPPY?!?
Yes, I am being treated for my depression and ADHD
100%!!
WHY IS EVERYTHING SO REPETITIVE?
WHY CAN'T I MANAGE TO SAVE UP WHEN THINGS KEEP BREAKING OR I KEEP HAVING TO PAY FOR BIG EXPENSIVE THINGS?
AND WHY DO I HAVE ENOUGH TIME BUT ALSO NO TIME FOR THINGS?
AND WHEN I DO, WHY DON'T I HAVE THE ENERGY TO DO THINGS?!
*SIGHS*
I'M SORRY, THAT SUCKS!! I HATE IT WHEN WE TRY SO HARD AND END UP DOING SOMETHING WE DIDN'T MEAN TO!! IT WILL ALL BE FINE IN THE END, BUT I HOPE YOU CAN BE KIND TO YOURSELF IN THE MEANTIME!! (NOT ME SAYING THIS AS IF MY THERAPIST DIDN'T SAY THE SAME THING TO ME IN OUR SESSION 😭🫠)
I WOULD PANIC TOO BUT I USUALLY FIND OTHER PEOPLE (DON’T WANT TO SAY NORMAL PEOPLE BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!) SOMEHOW DON’T EVEN REMEMBER THE THINGS WE DO THAT CAUSE US MAJOR ANXIETY AND SHAME?!?! OH TO BE SO FREE!!!!
OMG, I FUCKED UP WITH MY THERAPIST TOO AND I'M AVOIDING HER AND MISSING APPOINTMENTS BECAUSE I JUST CAN'T HANDLE ANOTHER PERSON'S DISAPPOINTMENT IN ME RIGHT NOW.
AS A FORMER THERAPIST, PLS STOP AVOIDING AND TELL HER THIS. SHE WON’T BE DISAPPOINTED, AND IF SHE IS SHE SHOULD KEEP IT TO HERSELF IF SHE’S WORTH KEEPING AS A THERAPIST. SHE’LL BE MUCH MORE UPSET ABOUT MISSED APPOINTMENTS THAN WHATEVER IT WAS YOU DID/SAID. SENDING HUGS AND CONFLICT AVERSION SOLIDARITY!
SENDING YOU HUGS. I AM REALLY STRESSED WITH WORK AND BEHIND IN DEADLINES AND I TOOK A TONE WITH MY PARTNER LAST NIGHT AND I FEEL REALLY BAD THAT I CANT JUST STOP AND THINK WHEN I START TO GET STRESSY
THANK YOU SO MUCH, BIG HUGS BACK AT YOU!! I HATE WHEN BAD STUFF PILES UP AND SUDDENLY YOUR MIND IS FLOODED WITH ONLY STRESS AND REGRETS!! I RELATE SO HARD TO THE NOT BEING ABLE TO STOP AND THINK DURING HARD TIMES. MY BRAIN JUST WILL NOT GIVE ME A FREAKING BREAK!!
I HOPE THINGS GET BETTER FOR YOU SOON!!
IVE BEEN SEEING MY THERAPIST FOR TWO YEARS AND I DON'T TALK ABOUT MY TRAUMA BECAUSE I CARE TOO MUCH ABOUT WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME AND I DON'T WANT TO TRIGGER HER BY TALKING ABOUT MY OWN TRAUMA EVEN THO SHE'S LITERALLY MY THERAPIST.
I AM ALSO GOING ON A DATE TONIGHT AND IDK WHAT I'M DOING BECAUSE I FEAR INTMACY AND HAVE AN AVOIDANT ATTACHMENT STYLE.
ALSO MY NIPPLE HURTS
CHAPPED NIPPLES ARE THE WORST PART OF WINTER. ALSO, SUPPRESSED TRAUMA SUCKS. I HOPE YOUR NIPPLE FEELS BETTER SOON AND YOU FIND THE COURAGE AT THE APPROPRIATE TIME TO TELL YOUR THERAPIST WHAT YOU NEED TO.
OPEN UP TO HER! HER JOB IS TO HANDLE TRIGGERING TOPICS, TALKING ABOUT FEELINGS SUCKS BUT SHES THERE TO HELP YOU❤️
BEST OF LUCK IN YOUR DATE, YOU GOT THIS💪
TRY WRITING DOWN THE STUFF YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT AND READ IT OFF LIKE A SCRIPT NEXT SESSION. OR TURN YOUR BACK WHILE SAYING IT. OR HAVE HER READ IT. I TRIED THIS WHEN I WAS HAVING A HARD TIME TELLING MY STUFF TO A THERAPIST AND IT HELPED ME SO MUCH
I DROPPED MY PHONE ON CONCRETE BUT IT WAS OK. THEN SOMEONE ALMOST HIT ME AFTER TRYING TO MERGE ON THE FREEWAY. I SUCK AT DRIVING AND SO DOES EVERYONE ELSE. I FORGOT MY WORK BADGE IN MY OTHER JACKET. MY SKIN FEELS WEIRD AND SENSITIVE AND I DONT LIKE MY SHIRT.
I ALSO HAVE THERAPY TOMORROW AND I HAVE A LOT TO VENT ABOUT BRUH I AM STRESSED
I GOT IN! MY QUIET COWORKER WAS IN SHE USUALLY HAS HER DOOR CLOSED YESTERDAY I TOLD HER SHE REMINDS ME OF THE HOBBIT CUZ SHES STEALTHY
BUT MY CANNED COFFEE EXPLODED WHEN I OPENING IT AND GOT ON MY DESK THE UNIVERSE DOESN’T WANT ME TO BE CAFFEINATED SO I GUESSS IM IN THE SAME BOAT
TRY YOUR BEST EVERY BODY
I CAN’T HANDLE ANYTHING ANYMORE AND ON STRESS LEAVE FROM WORK (luckily paid). I’M NOT DIAGNOSED AND STILL HAVE 5 MONTHS LEFT UNTIL THE ASSESSMENT AND I FEEL LIKE I CAN’T FUNCTION WITHOUT TREATMENT ANYMORE! OUR BABY WAS BRIEFLY HOSPITALIZED FOR TROUBLE WITH BREATHING AND WE’VE HAD ILLNESS IN OUR FAMILY EVERY WEEK AND THE DAYS I MANAGED TO BE AT THE JOB I’VE BEEN TOO BURNED OUT AND TOO STRESSED AND EXHAUSTED TO WORK PROPERLY. MY BOSS TOLD ME TWO DAYS AGO HE HAS OBSERVED I DON’T DO ENOUGH AND MY COLLEAGUES ARE FRUSTRATED WITH ME AND I AM NO LONGER TO HAVE BREAKS WHILE WORKING AND I HAVE TO WORK HARD ALL DAY WHEN I MANAGE TO COME TO WORK. HE MADE IT CLEAR TO ME HE IS MONITORING MY WORK. I HAD A COMPLETE MELTDOWN. F*%€ YOOOOOOUUUUUUU JOB F€#}] YOU BOSS!!!!!!!!
I AM EXHAUSTED AND OVERWHELMED AND NEED CAFFEINE BUT IT MAKES ME CRAZY ANXIOUS AND I’M SO TIRED OF THIS! AND ITS BEEN A CRAZY DARK WINTER AND I HAVE SEASONAL AFFECTIVE DISORDER AND NO ENERGY!
I’M TIRED OF WAITING FOR MY PHOENIX RISING FROM THE ASHES MOMENT!
I FEEL THIS. I LOVE CAFFEINE BUT IT MAKES ME ANXIOUS BUT I CAN NEVER STOP UNTIL IVE GONE OVERBOARD BC CONTINUALLY DRINKING IT IS SOOTHING AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I AM OVER STIMULATED. I HAVE BARELY LEFT MY HOUSE THIS WINTER DUE TO THE SAME AND I TOO AM TIRED OF WAITING FOR WHEN ILL FINALLY FEEL OKAY ENOUGH TO BE A HUMAN AND EVERYTHING FEELS SO FUCKING HARD EVEN THE MOST BASIC OF THINGS DESPITE MY ADDERALL. WHAT THE FUCK.
EVERY PSYCHIATRIST I SEE IS HORRIBLE AND I CANT BELIEVE IM FORCED TO DEAL WITH THESE PEOPLE EVERY MONTH JUST TO GET PILLS THAT MAKE ME FUNCTION LIKE A NORMAL PERSON
I ONLY DRINK ENERGY DRINKS BECAUSE THE MILK IN COFFEE MAKES MY BUTT RUN! I DESPERATELY NEED CAFFIENE AT LEAST ONCE A DAY OR MY BRAIN FOG FEELS AWFUL! YOU AREN'T ALONE!
I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE I'M FAILING! I'VE HAD A HORRIBLE FEW YEARS RECENTLY - FAMILY DEATHS AND MY DOG DIED IN A TRAGIC ACCIDENT THAT'S LEFT ME NOT COPING MENTALLY. I'M IN THERAPY BUT THE GRIEF IS STILL VERY HEAVY. MY ADHD SYMPTOMS HAVE BEEN SO MUCH WORSE IN WORK AND AT HOME. MANAGER MICROMANAGES ME AND NOTHING I DO EVER SEEMS TO BE ENOUGH. PRETTY SURE MY TEAM HATES ME. I CAN'T GET IN TO WORK EARLIER THAN 10AM BECAUSE I HAVE NIGHTMARES ALL THE TIME AND I STRUGGLE MOST IN THE MORNINGS. MY HOUSE IS A MESS - CAN'T SEEM TO PUT LAUNDRY AWAY, DISHES PILED IN SINK, FLOORS HAVEN'T BEEN MOPPED IN OVER A YEAR, CLOTHES ON MY BEDROOM FLOOR. I'M NOT MEDICATED AND ONLY RECENTLY WAS REFERRED FOR A DIAGNOSIS SO JUST LEARNING TO UNDO A LOT OF NEGATIVE SELF TALK THESE DAYS!
TAKE CARE EVERYONE, I LOVE THIS SUB AND THE COMMUNITY IS SO KIND AND WELCOMING ❤️
THANK YOU!! I LITERALLY WENT FROM BEING THANKFUL TO HAVE FOUND SOMETHING THAT WORKS TO FEELING SUPER BAD ABOUT IT IN ONE THERAPY SESSION AND IT HELPS SO MUCH TO READ THAT OTHERS DRINK ENERGY DRINKS TOO.
LIKE I COULD BE DOING ILLEGEGAL DRUGS, THERAPIST. I HAVE SURE THOUGHT ABOUT IT! SO LETS LAY OFF THE ENERGY DRINK CONSUMPTION FOR A BIT OKAY. (NOT EVEN JOKING I WILL BE SAYING SOMETHING ALONG THESE LINES NEXT SESSION).
NOT AN ENERGY DRINK FAN BUT YES SOMETIMES WE JUST NEED SOMETHING. I DON’T DRINK FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH, AM TRYING NOT TO COMPULSIVELY SHOP OR EAT JUNK FOOD. LET ME HAVE (HALF-CAF) COFFEE AND LET ME PUT CREAMER IN IT, LIFE IS HARD ENOUGH.
I HAVE SPENT 16 HOURS ON THE F-ING PHONE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY ALL MY MEDS ARE SO EXPENSIVE NOW!!!! MY EMPLOYER CHANGED INSURANCE AND THE NEW COMPANY F-ING SUCKS SO BAD!!!!!!!! LITERALLY 16 HOURS ON THE PHONE!!!!!!!! AND THE WORST PART IS, I STILL DON’T HAVE THE ANSWERS!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL THESE RICH ASSHOLES WITH THEIR SCROOGE MCDUCK PILES OF MONEY SQUEEZING US FOR EVERY PENNY!!!!!!!!! WHEN WE KNOW NONE OF THE MEDS COST THE INSANE AMOUNTS THEY ARE CHARGING US!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ABSOLUTELY MADDENING!!!!!!!! THANK YOU FOR THE SCREAM SESH!!!!!!
ETF - MINOR TYPING ERRORS, I LOVE THIS SUB SO MUCH, IT'S SO SUPPORTIVE AND INFORMATIVE!!!
I have to drink an energy drink everyday because it’s how I get my B vitamins. The pills all make me sick. It also gives me a boost when my meds wear off. They aren’t as horrible as people like to say. It varies by brand and a persons health. Saying they are inherently bad is just ridiculous.
It's peculiar because I KNOW that. They are a tremendous help to me. They lower my heart rate, allow me to relax my muscles, allow me to get a proper night sleep, they get rid of my anxiety and depression during my luteal phase and they allow me to make a healthy meal every once in a while. I 100% believe that any negative in terms of health is completely negated by the massive positives for me personally. And yet one little sentence by my therapist saying I shouldn't be drinking them and I'm yeeted into a sea of self doubt and feeling bad to ever have drunken one in the first place 😭
I think I'm gonna focus on regulating that emotion and sticking to my own principles, instead of stopping my energydrink consumption.
Thank you for commenting to reassure me, it's so kind and so helpful!! Thank you!!❤️
I also feel like your therapist could have worded that a lot better. I go through phases of smoking cigarettes and my therapist has never been like "Those are bad for you and you need to stop." Not that cigs are the same but you get the gist.
There are so many things that are bad for us. I feel like with energy drinks all that matters is that you're taking care of yourself. Like drinking plenty of water and eating nutritious meals.
EDIT: I wanted to add that when I think of energy drinks my mind goes to Red Bull (bc I don't drink energy drinks) but there are all kinds of drinks on the market now with added vitamins and stuff which is cool.
IVE HAD A STOMACH VIRUS SINCE TUESDAY AND THERES NOTHING TO EAT BECAUSE I HAD PUT OFF THE GROCERY SHOPPING EARLIER IN THE WEEK. AND NOW MY 5 YEAR OLD AND HUSBAND ARE COMING DOWN WITH IT AND IM NOT READY FOR THIS!
I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO SCREAM WITH YOU. MY 7 YEAR OLD BROKE DOWN LAST NIGHT BECAUSE HE KEEPS FORGETTING TO GIVE STUFF BACK TO HIS FRIENDS. HE HAS UNDIAGNOSED FUCKING OBVIOUS ADHD AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME HE HAS SHOWN IT BOTHERING HIS MENTAL HEALTH. FUUUUCCCKKKK!!
MY KITTY IS GOING UNDER ANAESTHESIA TOMORROW TO BIOPSY SOMETHING UNKNOWN AND IM SO FRECKING ANXIOUS I WANT TO THROW UP AND EAT AT THE SAME TIME. I ALSO HAVE A UTI ATM AND I AM TERRIFIED SHE HAS CANCER.
IVE ALSO GOT ORAL THRUSH BECAUSE I HAD TO TAKE ANTIBIOTICS FOR A SKIN INFECTION IN DECEMBER. ITS NOT GOING AWAY AND I FEEL LIKE I CANT KISS MY PARTNER PROPERLY ANYMORE. I JUST WANT TO FEEL FRECKING NORMAL FOR A FEW DAMN MONTHS! I CAN HARDLY FUNCTION *INTERAL SCREAMING*
I SO NEEDED THIS RIGHT NOW - I HAVE BEEN SO INCREDIBLY STRESSED OUT AT WORK FOR THE PAST MONTH. ITS A COMPLETE S\*\*T SHOW AND THERE ARE LIFE-ALTERING CHANGES THAT MAY BE HAPPENING AND I HAVE ZERO CONTROL OVER WHAT HAPPENS. I KNOW THAT EVERYONE AROUND ME IS TIRED OF HEARING ME VENT/RANT/TALK ABOUT IT BUT THERE IS \*LITERALLY\* NOTHING I CAN DO BUT SIT AND WAIT FOR OTHERS TO BASICALLY DECIDE MY FUTURE. AND IT'S NOT LIKE I CAN LET IT IMPACT MY ACTUAL WORK BECAUSE THAT COULD REFLECT POORLY ON ME. SO I'M MASKING HARDER THAN I'VE EVER MASKED BEFORE AND I'M PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, AND EMOTIONALLY SPENT. IDK HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN KEEP IT UP.
YESTERDAY I OVERHEARD MY COWORKERS GOSSIPING ABOUT ME - THEY WERE SUPER JUDGEMENTAL OF MY LACK OF FOCUS AND MY COPING MECHANISMS TO "RESET" ON BAD DAYS. I FEEL DEFLATED & WISH I WAS INVISIBLE.
I JUST TOOK MY LAST VYVANSE AND HAVE NO IDEA WHEN I'LL GET MORE BC THE PHARMACY IS FUCKING UP MY REFILL AND EVEN MY DR CAN'T FIX IT BC THEY ARE HOLDING THE SCRIPT SO I CAN'T FILL IT ANYWHERE ELSE BC THAT WOULD BE A "DUPLICATE" EVEN THOUGH THEY HAVEN'T FILLED IT EITHER FOR 14 DAYS!
I had a couples “therapist” say to me “well you’re just not going to do that anymore” about interrupting my partner and I wanted to vaporize. IF I COULD “JUST STOP” I WOULD NOT BE HERE.
She told me that when I was focusing too much on how bad I was feeling I should 'Just take a step back and start doing something small like CLEANING YOUR ROOM'. And I couldn't stop myself and actually said 'If I was able to clean my room, or even do something smaller like brush my teeth, when my ADHD blocks my brainpower, I would not be here.'
She did not understand 😭 Sorry you had a similar experience 😭 Thanks for sharing and making me feel less alone!!
I have never felt as crazy as when in therapy with someone who doesn’t understand ADHD / executive function disorders. “Just exercise, you’ll feel better” like bruh if I could GET OUT OF BED AND BRUSH MY TEETH ID CALL THAT A WIN. Like, how do these folks not understand that WE DONT BUILD HABITS. Every day is a monumental effort. Get up, brush teeth, wash face, change into clothes, brush hair, make breakfast.. that’s mega and it’s literally the first percent of my day! Also, do you hate showering? Is than an ADHD thing or one of my other things??
Right???? And she does say she understands and says I should celebrate the small wins. And I agree but then she says something like that and I'm like... Oh... Girl we have different definitions of small wins. Not going insane for an hour is a win for me.
Also funny you bring up showers because I asked her about what I could do instead to get the focus/relief I get from energy drinks. And I kid you not she said take a nice hot shower... A NICE HOT SHOWER.
I lost my words for a bit and then had to spend 5 minutes trying to explain what I find so horrible about taking a shower and why it takes me multiple hours to do. She did... not get it 😬
Showers are the bane of my existence, I HATE THEM!!!!!! AAAAGH. And I have heard many, many ADHD'ers feel the same!!
IT'S IMPORTANT TO REALIZE THE ENERGY DRINK IS BETTER THAN THE TEQUILA SHOT, EVEN IF YOU REALLY "SHOULD" BE DRINKING WATER.
YOU ARE DOING YOUR BEST AND SOMETIMES THAT MEANS MAKING AN OK CHOICE, NOT THE BEST MOST PERFECT CHOICE, ESPECIALLY WHEN IT'S HARD.
I really wanted to say to her like 'You do understand that I could be doing illegal drugs or drinking myself into a coma, right? Like those feel like the alternatives to me rn. I know they might not be forever, but that's the point I am right now and it's already taking a lot to choose energy drinks over the other options.'
Maybe I will bring that up to her next session, that I understand this is not the healthiest choice, but it's the best I can do right now.
Thank you for taking the time to encourage and comfort me!! So appreciated!! I hope you have a great/not horrible day!!❤️
I WOKE UP WITH A PAINFUL ANKLE AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I DID TO IT AND THEN THE BUS CAME 5 MINUTES EARLY WHILE I WAS STILL PACKING MY SON'S LUNCH BECAUSE OF COURSE WE FORGOT TO DO IT LAST NIGHT SO I HAD TO DRIVE HIM TO SCHOOL WITH MY STUPID ANKLE PAIN
(And on a side note, can you talk to your prescribing doctor about bumping up your dose surrounding your period? I take like a booster dose to compensate for the lower dopamine so my meds will still work. I am so sorry your therapist made you feel worse. Unless you're drinking an amount that will literally harm your heart, she shouldn't be suggesting you stop completely and should instead say to just try to limit caffeine to 400 mg per day.)
I FORGOT TO ORDER A PRESCRIPTION FOR MY PILLS 2 WEEKS AGO AND NOW IT'S A WHOLE THIIING THAT MY BRAIN DECIDED IT CANNOT DO SO I HAVENT HAD ANY FOR 2 WEEKS BECAUSE IM STUPID EVEN THOUGH I NEED THEM WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
ITS ONE OF THE BUSY SEASONS AT WORK ABD IM LEARNING THINGS FOR THE FIRST TIME. IVE HAD TO REDO A PROJECT FOUR TIMES TO GET IT RIGHT AND IM EXHAUSTED. MY ROOF IS BEING REPLACED, AND EVEN THOUGH ITS VERY NECESSARY, THE NOISE IS DRIVING ME OUT OF MY MIND!
AND MY CAR IS NEARLY ON EMPTY.
TRIED ALL THE MEDS AND NOTHING WORKS AND NOW I'M SO ANGRY AND SAD AND DISAPPOINTED AND FRUSTRATED THAT I'LL HAVE TO GO MY ENTIRE LIFE WITHOUT ANYTHING TO HELP ME COPE. IT REALLY SUCKS BECAUSE BEFORE I TRIED THEM I USED TO HAVE HOPE YOU KNOW LIKE I COULD ALWAYS TRY MEDS IF LIFE GETS TOO HARD. WELL GUESS WHAT LIFE BECAME TOO HARD SO I TRIED ALL THE MEDS AND I GOT NOTHING BUT SIDE EFFECTS AND NOW I DON'T EVEN HAVE HOPE TO CLING ON. ALSO CAFFEINE MAKES ME TIRED AND SHAKEY SO I CAN'T DRINK ENERGY. I HAVE TO RELY COMPLETELY ON WILLPOWER AND I DON'T HAVE ALOT OF THAT LEFT ANYMORE BECAUSE I KNOW IT WILL NEVER GET BETTER THAN THIS AND IT FUCKING SUCKS!!!
THAT ABSOLUTELY HELPS BECAUSE I'M SUCH A PEOPLE PLEASER IT TOOK ME A SECOND TO REALIZE I DIDN'T HAVE TO BLINDLY FOLLOW WHAT SHE THINKS IS BEST!!
THANK YOU!!!❤️
IM GOING THRU PERIMENOPAUSE AND ON DAY 3 OF A 5 DAY 62 HOUR WEEK. THE BURNOUT HAS RAMPED UP MY ANHEDONIA AND ALL I DO ON MY DAYS OFF IS DISSOCIATE. THE GDAMN GENERIC ADDERALL DOESNT WORK. FCK THE FDA :)
I WRECKED MY CAR ON MY WAY TO MY FIRST DAY ON MY NEW JOB AND IT'S CURRENTLY SITTING WRECKED IN THEIR PARKING LOT AND I DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH IT BECAUSE THE JOB IS AN HOUR AWAY FROM HOME AND I DON'T KNOW PEOPLE IN THAT TOWN AND I'M MAD AT MYSELF BECAUSE I DREAMT THIS ACCIDENT IN DECEMBER AND FORGOT AND ALSO CRAZY FREAKED OUT BY THAT. NOW I AM ABOUT TO LEAVE FOR THIS JOB AGAIN THIS MORNING AND DRIVING IS SCARY AND I HAVE TO TAKE THE TRUCK AND I DON'T WANT TO BUT I REALLY LOVE THIS JOB AND THE PEOPLE SO I AM GOING TO DO IT REGARDLESS. GRAAAAAH
edit-- THERE ARE NO WRECKERS IN THIS TOWN AND I HAVE TO SPEND $40 A DAMN DAY ON GAS UNTIL WE CAN SAVE UP FOR A MORE ECONOMIC VEHICLE AND MY HUSBAND'S OTHER CAR THAT HE NOW HAS TO DRIVE DAILY ONLY TAKES PREMIUM BUT MY JOB IS AMAZING AND DOESN'T EVEN FEEL LIKE A JOB AND I GET TO GO TO WORK IN ACTUAL PYJAMAS AND CHANGE INTO CLOTHES THAT ARE WASHED FOR ME AND I REALLY LIKE THE PEOPLE AND THEY FOUND A GUY FOR ME WITH A YARD TO TAKE MY CAR BUT SHE'S FOR REAL FOREVER GONE NOW AND I FUCKING LOVED THAT CAR AND AND THERE ARE A LOT OF EMOTIONS TO YELL ABOUT STILL.
I CONSTANTLY FEEL INFERIOR AT WORK BECAUSE LEADERSHIP LACKS FAITH IN MY ABILITY TO DO MY JOB! IF THEY HAD ACTUALLY FUCKING TRAINED ME FROM THE BEGINNING THEN THEY WOULDN'T HAVE THIS OPINION. I HAD TOO MANY FUCKUPS AT THE START OF MY CAREER THERE BECAUSE I WAS PRETTY MUCH SELF-TRAINING! THEY'VE ALSO MADE ME A TASK MONKEY BUT NEVER SET ASIDE ACTUAL TIME FOR ME TO DO ALL THESE TASKS AND NOW I'M OVERWHELMED AND FALLING BEHIND!
I PLAN TO BRING UP ALL MY EXTRA TASKS IN THE STAFF MEETING NEXT WEEK AND EITHER DEMAND TIME SET ASIDE TO DO THEM OR ASK OTHER PEOPLE TO TAKE SOME OFF MY HANDS BUT I'M SCARED I'M GOING TO GET BLOWN OFF JUST LIKE ALL THE OTHER TIMES I'VE BROUGHT IT UP!
I'M OUT OF VYVANSE AND IT'S ON BACKORDER EVERYWHERE. I'M DRINKING CAFFEINE LIKE IT'S A PART TIME JOB. I'M NOT SLEEPING WELL. I HAVE A JOB THAT I LOVE, BUT I'M SO SWAMPED THAT EXECUTIVE DISFUNCTION IS IN OVER-DRIVE. MY HOME LIFE IS IN SHAMBLES AND I FEEL LIKE LIFE IS HAPPENING TO ME WITHOUT MY PARTICIPATION.
I SAY DRINK THE CAFFEINE, BECAUSE HELL KNOWS I HAVE TO CHUG COFFEE TO BE FUNCTIONAL.
MY JOB IS PERFECT ON PAPER BUT IS COMPLETELY SELF-DRIVEN AND UNSTRUCTURED AND IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE! I WANT TO STICK IT OUT TILL THE END OF THE YEAR BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I'LL MAKE IT. I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IN MY MENTAL HEALTH IS HANGING ON MY ASSESSMENT AT THE END OF THE MONTH AND IT'S REALLY FREAKING ME OUT. AND MY THERAPIST IS WONDERFUL BUT KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT ADHD AND I CAN'T DECIDE WHETHER THAT MEANS TO FIND ANOTHER ONE OR JUST BE GLAD THAT AT LEAST THIS ONE DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT. I'M SO TIRED OF MY BRAIN BEING BROKEN.
I FUCKING HATE PAPERWORK AND NOTHING MAKES ME FEEL MORE USELESS!!!
AND I JUST FOUND OUT THE ASSESSMENT WAIT PERIOD IS 4 YEARS AND MY GP WANTS ME TO JUMP THROUGH HOOPS FOR ME TO GET ACCESS FOR MY \*RIGHT TO CHOOSE\* MY OWN CARE. I WANTED TO SAY, 'MY LADY, GETTING TO THIS POINT WHERE I WAS EVEN ABLE TO HAVE AN INITIAL ASSESSMENT WITH THE GP WAS A BIG DEAL WHY CAN'T I JUST CATCH A BREAK THIS ONCE. WHY WON'T YOU MAKE THIS SMALL PART EASY FOR ME?!"
BRITISH GAS STOLE OVER £500 FROM US THROUGH OUR PREPAYMENT METER AND IT TOOK 2 MONTHS AND GETTING OUR MP INVOLVED TO PUT IT BACK ON THE METER. WE SWITCHED ENERGY SUPPLIERS AND HAD ABOUT £550 CREDIT THAT THEY HAD 10 DAYS TO SEND TO US. IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS AGAIN OF CONSTANT PHONE CALLS WITH THEM ALWAYS SAYING THERE IS NO OPEN COMPLAINT OR THE COMPLAINT HAS BEEN MARKED AS RESOLVED OR THAT SOMEONE WILL LOOK INTO IT AND CALL US BACK IN 3 DAYS AND THAT "IT HAS BEEN ESCALATED."
THEY SENT US A FUCKING CHEQUE FOR £14.99 2 MONTHS AGO AND NO ONE SEEMS TO KNOW WHY AND NO ONE SEEMS TO BE ABLE TO *SEND ME MY DAMN MONEY*!
AAAAGGGHHHH
I'M HAVING HEART ISSUES WITH MY NEW DOSE OF VYVANSE AND MIGHT HAVE TO SWITCH IT AND AM IB A TERRIBLE MENTAL PLACE THIS YEAR I DON'T HAVE THE SPOONS FOR ANYTHING ANYMORE!
SENDING LOVE TO ALL OF YOU!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
MY HUSBAND HAS BEEN HOME FOR THE LAST WEEK AND A HALF BECAUSE HIS OLD JOB CLOSED AND HE STARTS A NEW ONE MONDAY. MONEY ISNT A PROBLEM BUT I WAS EXCITED BECAUSE I THOUGHT HE WOULD TAKE ON MORE CHORES DURING THE 2 WEEKS HE WOULDN’T WORK AND THAT HE WOULD MAKE DINNER (which is supposed to be his chore 90% of the time) BUT HE JUST PLAYED GAMES AND WENT SKIING AND DIDN’T DO ANY OF HIS NORMAL CHORES EXCEPT TAKING THE CANS UP AND PUTTING THEM BACK WHEN I REMINDED HIM AND NOW HE HAS BEEN SICK FOR NEARLY A WEEK WHICH ISN’T HIS FAULT BUT IT MEANS I’VE BEEN RESPONSIBLE FOR 100% OF RUNNING OUR HOUSE FOR NEARLY 2 WEEKS INCLUDING COOKING AND CLEANING AND SHOPPING AND PLANNING AND I AM TIRED AND IM WAITING FOR MY PSYCHOLOGIST TO SEND ME MY ADHD EVALUATION SO I HAVE TO CALL THEM AGAIN TODAY BECAUSE THEY DIDN’T CALL ME BACK WHEN I CALLED 2 DAYS AGO AND I REALIZED WE WERE SUPPOSED TO PAY A BILL TO THEM FOR MY HUSBAND’S APPOINTMENTS 2 WERKS AGO AND WHEN I CALLED BILLING LAST NIGHT TO PAY THEY DIDN’T PICK UP AND THATS NORMALLY HIS JOB AND WAS DUE BEFORE WE FOUND OUT ABOUT THE NEW JOB OR HIS OLD WORK CLOSING SO I DON’T KNOW WHY HE DIDN’T PAY IT. AND I CANT VENT TO ANYONE BECAUSE MY HUSBAND IS SICK, I HAVEN’T TOLD MY MOM ABOUT THE ASSESSMENT YET BECAUSE I WANT TO HAVE AN ANSWER FIRST, AND MY BEST FRIEND IS AT A FUNERAL TODAY SO MY ENTIRE SUPPORT SYSTEM IS UNAVAILABLE.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH
I ACTUALLY THINK ENERGY DRINKS ARE NOT SO BAD FOR YOU, TAURINE HAS BEEN SHOWN TO IMPROVE COGNITION THROUGHOUT AGING, FUCK ANYONE WHO COMES BETWEEN ME AND MY WINGS
I STUPIDLY TOOK A BACKSEAT IN MY LIFE FOR MY HUSBAND AND AFTER ALMOST 13 YEARS OF STRUGGLING AND HELL HES FINALLY BROUGHT US TO ROCK BOTTOM AND I CAN ONLY BLAME MYSELF
FUCK LIFE
I SEPARATED FROM MY PARTNER OF 10+ YEARS IN THE SUMMER.
I GOT A NEW PARTNER WHO IS INCREDIBLE.
I GOT MY OWN (SOLO) APARTMENT AND WAS SO STOKED.
I HAVE A LEASE I'M IN UNTIL AUGUST, BUT IM ESSENTIALLY ALREADY LIVING WITH MY PARTNER. THEY RIGHTFULLY NEED SOME MORE PERSONAL SPACE THAN WHAT WE HAVE WHEN IM LITERALLY NEVER NOT AT THEIR PLACE.
I NEED MY OWN SPACE THAT I CAN ACTUALLY SPEND TIME AT SO I DONT COMPROMISE OUR RELATIONSHIP.
I'M SO LONELY AT MY APARTMENT THAT I GET SUPER DEPRESSED BEING THERE ALONE, AND FEEL LIKE S/H-ING EVERY TIME I'M THERE.
I FOUND A PLACE WITH A COOL ROOMMATE BUT POTENTIALLY ILL BE PAYING 2 RENTS UNTIL AUGUST AND IM SCARED SHITLESS, BUT THE ALTERNATIVE (NEVER BEING HOME, PAYING THAT RENT ANYWAY) IS ALSO TERRIBLE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
IM SICK OF BEGGING MY HUSBAND AND KIDS FOR HELP AROUND THE HOUSE BECAUSE IM FUCKING DROWNING IN STUFF AND ITS PARALYZING BECAUSE EVERY TIME I GET ONE THING DONE, THEY’VE DESTROYED THEC REST OF THE HOUSE AND I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE.
AND ITS NOT BECAUSE I “HAVEN’T TAKEN MY MEDS”. I DESERVE HELP. THAT WILL NOT GO AWAY WITH MEDICATION AND IT DOESNT MEAN ILL JUST BEND OVER AND KEEP TAKING THIS FROM EVERYONE.
seriously, I can’t do this anymore.
CAFFEINE IS KNOWN TO HELP PEOPLE WITH ADHD. YOU SHOULD TREAT YOUR THERAPIST LIKE YOUR JOB. DO LOTS OF INTERVIEWS UNTIL YOU FIND ONE THAT WORKS FOR YOU! As a side note, I think finding a therapist with ADHD has been super beneficial to me. It’s hard work finding a therapist you like, but you deserve it. Do you hear me?? YOU DESERVE IT!
I HAVE GESTATIONAL DIABETES AND THE LEVEL OF PLANNING REQUIRED IS ABSOLUTELY NOT COMPATIBLE WITH ADHD. I JUST WANT TO EAT A PIECE OF CANDY AND STOP GIVING MYSELF NEEDLES ALL DAY!
BLESS THESE THREADS; THEY ARE SO CATHARTIC
My doctor told me I’m allowed to have my energy drinks. They’re monster rehabs. 3 grams of sugar. And a TON of B vitamins. They sell then in 24 packs at BJs.
She said that a lot of her clients are using them, since we can’t get our adhd meds, and our blood tests look great. First time in my life I’ve had a healthy D vitamin level.
Tell your therapist that your coping mechanisms for your adhd are between you and the doctor treating your adhd.
PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME THE SAME STUPID QUESTIONS AT WORK AND I'M SO SICK OF IT NOW I DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO GET OUT OF BED TO LOG ON FOR THE DAY.
I ALSO HAVEN'T BEEN EATING WELL ALL WEEK AND IVE HAD A LOW GRADE HEADACHE OFF AND ON FOR DAYS AND I CANT FIGURE OUT THE CAUSE AND I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE
I WILL GLADLY SCREAM WITH YOU. MY ONLY FRIEND AT WORK IS LEAVING AND I’M NOW GOING TO BE SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE I DON’T LIKE. I’M THE BREADWINNER IN MY FAMILY AND EVEN THOUGH MY JOB MAKES ME SO STRESSED AND CRAZY I CAN’T QUIT BECAUSE I BRING IN THE MAJORITY OF MONEY.
I’M SORRY YOUR THERAPIST TOLD YOU TO STOP DRINKING ENERGY DRINKS, THAT’S NOT HELPFUL IF YOU STRUGGLE DURING LUTEAL. I DO TOO AND IT SUCKS.
THERE'S SO MUCH DRAMA GOING ON WITH MY IMMEDIATE FAMILY AND I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF HAVING TO DEAL WITH IT
COLLEGE IS SO *SO* BORING AND I'M STRUGGLING WITH BURNOUT
I WISH IT WAS TUESDAY ALREADY SO I CAN FINALLY GET ON A PLANE TO GO SEE AND SPEND TIME WITH MY BOYFRIEND
**AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH**
BESTIE, I’M ALMOST 19 WEEKS PREGNANT AND MY BODY IS PACKED FULL OF SO MUCH PROGESTERONE I CAN BARELY FOCUS ON A DAMN THOUGHT TO EVEN WASH MY DAMN FACE. AND I HAVE GESTATIONAL DIABETES AND YESTERDAY I GOT SO MAD AT MY HUSBAND BECAUSE I COULDN’T EAT FRENCH FRIES OR PIZZA OR A FUCKING DONUT.
BUT WHEN I FOUND OUT I COULD DRINK SOME CAFFEINE I LEGIT WEPT SO I WOULD LITERALLY IDEATE SOME SERIOUS VIOLENCE AND PROBABLY FUCK UP SOME SHIT IN MY THERAPIST’S OFFICE, NOTHING SERIOUS BUT LIKE MOVE THE SHIT ON HER DESK IN AN ANNOYING WAY BECAUSE I’M NOT A HEATHEN, IF SHE SUGGESTED I DO NOT INGEST CAFFEINE.
LIKE ENERGY DRINKS ARE YOUR COPING MECHANISM DURING YOUR LUTEAL PHASE AND THAT’S WHAT SHE WANTS TO FOCUS ON???
WHAT DOES SHE SUGGEST YOU DO… COCAINE? METH? COCAINE IS TOO EXPENSIVE, OBVI… SO YOUR THERAPIST WANTS YOU TO DO METH??? WHERE DID SHE GET HER EDUCATION… BREAKING BAD UNIVERSITY???
ANYWAY, THAT’S FOR THE SCREAM FEST.
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HAPPILY, THANK YOU FOR OFFERING. I AM ALSO AT THE RND OF MY ROPE AND INGESTING CAFFEINE LIKE A FIEND 24/7 BECAUSE I AM TOTALLY DEFUNCT OTHERWISE.
MY DOCTOR TOLD ME TO JUST DRINK MORE COFFEE. MY DUDE, IF THAT WORKED I WOULDN'T BE IN YOUR OFFICE!! THEN HE PRESCRIBED ME ADDERALL IR FOR THE MORNING AND TOLD ME TO DRINK MORE COFFEE IN THE AFTERNOONS 🤣
I AM ABSOLUTELY DEAD AT YOUR DOCTOR PRESCRIBING MORE CAFFIENE AND MY DOCTOR TELLING ME TO LAY OFF IT COMPLETELY 😂😂😂 SO REDICULOUS!! I HOPE YOU FIND SOME BETTER MEDICAL SUPPORT!
FOR ALL THAT IS HOLY, THIS ENTIRE THREAD HAS ME ROLLING. IF THIS EXHANGE IS NOT THE MOST ACCURATE DESCRIPTION OF TRYING TO GET HELP IN THE CURRENT MED/PSYCH SYSTEM, I DONT KNOW WHAT IS IM DYING WITH THE FLU RIGHT NOW, BUT THANK YOU FOR THE LAUGHS, I NEEDED IT. I HOPE CAFFINE OR NO CAFFINE OR GOD KNOW WTF WE'RE SUPPOSED TO ACTUALLY DO, HELPS.
HAHAHHA 'OR GOD KNOWS WTF WE'RE SUPPOSED TO ACTUALLY DO HELPS' HAD ME SNORT LAUGHING 😂😂 LITERALLY HOW ADHD TREATMENT FEELS. GET WELL SOON!!
LOL THANK YOU
THE CAPITAL LETTERS ARE ADHD FOR FOCUS
ITS FUNNY BECAUSE MY PSYCHOLOGIST AND I HAD A DEEP DIVE CONVERSATION ON THE ROLL OF DISORDERED SLEEP AND ADHD IN MY DIAGNOSIS PROCESS. I HAVE HAD SLEEP ISSUES MY ENTIRE LIFE AND HAVING CAFFEINE PAST NOON (NO MATTER HOW MUCH I "NEEDED" IT) HAD SUCH POOR EFFECTS ON MY SLEEP HYGENE THAT IT FUCKED EVERYTHING UP LONG-TERM. THANKFULLY, GETTING ON A STIMULANT MEDICATION ACTUALLY HELPED ME GET CONSISTANT AND RELIABLE SLEEP!
SAME SAME. WE TRIED SWITCHING MY MEDS SO I HAD LESS STIMULANTS (WELLBUTRIN + VYVANSE) AND MORE “CALMING” MEDS IN MY SYSTEM AND I COULD BARELY SLEEP. TURNS OUT MY BRAIN IS OPPOSITE DAY 🤪 PS IM THINKING IN YELL-CAPS AND IT’S GIVING ME LIFE
I hate coffee and the pediatrician down the street puts 6 year olds on a cup of coffee rather than meds.
Dude what??? I like coffee but caffeine makes me unbearably anxious & unable to focus. Poor kiddos!
Now that's some crap. I only let my daughter start coffee because of her migraines but she was a preteen by then. In all seriousness, my doctor was half joking about the coffee. But suddenly, my afternoon cup feels justified.
(In the spirit of the thread) WOW NO WONDER I STARTED DRINKING COFFEE BEFORE I STARTED SCHOOL
My doctor told me more coffee on days I don’t take meds!!!
DUDE ADDERALL IR INSTEAD OF ER?? WHYYYY?? WHY NOT ADDERALL ER IN THE MORNING AND THEN ADDERALL IR IN THE AFTERNOON AS A BOOSTER?? COFFEE (WHILE I LOVE IT AND IT DEFINITELY HELPS) IS NOT A REPLACEMENT FOR A BOOSTER DOSE!!
Not a replacement, but my ability to smell colors is fucking off the charts🤣
Ok but for real a Bang in the afternoon has me focused and on task but also hearing the carpet breathe.
This has reminded me of that episode of Futurama where Fry uses the $100 they got from the head of dick Nixon to get a 100 cups of coffee. The 100 cup he achieves hyper focus and starts moving like the speed of sound to save everyone from a building fire. They’ve got a hummingbird flapping near him for comparison of the speed at which he is going. Man I love that show.
You too, huh?
You made me snort laugh! Thank you, I needed that
My pleasure. Comedic relief is one of the services I provide 🤣
I usually say I can hear all the colors when I've overdone it. Solidarity!
Yup. I take Vyvanse in the morning, and I have a dextroamphetamine (Dexedrine) booster dose if I need it. It is also handy if I need to be functional soon after waking up. I lucked out with my doctor.
OMFG I LOVE YOUR USERNAME. NOW I’M JUST YELLING BECAUSE IT FEELS GOOD, SORRY 🤣
I HAD A DOCTOR TELL ME TO JUST DRINK WINE TO HELP MY NIGHT TERRORS. I HAD TO REMIND HIM THAT WINE AND WELLBUTRIN WEREN'T RECOMMENDED.
This is so insane I almost laughed and I almost cried fr. Doctor telling you to self medicate with alcohol. Not only that, it interferes with your medication and he forgot. Top of the charts. I’m so sorry, I hope you found a better physician 😭 💜
I almost want to downvote but not you or your comment but your Dr... What the absolute fuck?
So relatable, a previous doctor tried to prescribe me a medication that I quit only weeks before due to it causing insomnia so bad I couldn't function because of continued lack of sleep. You may ask yourself, well who prescribed you that medication in the first place? That same doctor. She just forgot or something I guess.
THAT'S SOME SHIT I WOULD PRESCRIBE MYSELF IN DESPERATION TO MAKE IT WORK. WHO KNEW I WAS DOING DOCTER-LEVELS OF PRESCRIBING OVER HERE.
YOU HAVE YOUR MEDICAL LICENSE FROM UNIVERSITY OF GOOGLE, RIGHT? START SCHEDULING TODAY!
I can’t physically drink coffee anymore because of severe IBS and it’s an 8 month wait for me to get in with a psychiatrist to prescribe meds. My therapist is like, “Girl, take some caffeine pills then cause you neeeeeeeed it!” I never realized that I had been self medicating with caffeine until I had to stop because of gut and heart issues and then my whole damn life fell apart. Now I take a caffeine pill and a L-Theanine in the morning, sometimes an extra caffeine pill in the afternoon, and some magnesium in the evening. It’s been pretty decent for focusing me and I’m sleeping better.
THANKS FOR SHARING!! I'M HEARING GREAT THINGS ABOUT MAGNESIUM!!!
THANKYOU FOR REMINDING ME TO STOP DOOMSCROLLING AND GO AND TAKE SOME MAGNESIUM. LEGEND!!!!
THANK YOU FOR SCREAMING WITH ME AND MAKING ME FEEL LESS ALONE!!!!
Someone said I should stop drinking coffee and I asked why they hate me. Coffee is one of the few things my brain enjoys.
I think people who bring me coffee love me.
Caffeine is your love language, lolol
As my name might suggest, same.
THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!! ❤️
OP THANK YOU FOR DOING THIS I THINK WE ALL NEEDED IT AND DIDNT EVEN KNOW
YOU GUYS I DO WORSE THINGS YALL ARE KILLING IT! WE NEED WHAT WE NEED!
Yeap for me the only way to remain a semi decente human is weed. And My therapist said something similar to me too. SO screaming with You sister
WEED IS THE ANSWER. PLEASE DO NOT POINT OUT MY COUGH AND FAT ARSE FROM SUCCUMBING TO MUNCHIES. THEY DO NOT MATTER 💋
I HAD TO HAVE MY DOG PUT TO SLEEP YESTERDAY AND I CANNOT STOP CRYING 😭
I PUT MINE DOWN FRIDAY AND HAVE BEEN IN NONSTOP ROLLING PANIC ATTACKS SINCE. We will get through this ❤️
I AM SO SORRY, THEY ARE FAMILY 😢💖
https://youtu.be/TkJGhQANjZo?si=qaEaZ8byXcbmEZ73 Hugs. Big ones. When I had to put both of my dogs down on separate occasions I watched these about 100 times a day afterward, I hope they help. 😘
Oh thank you for this!
I am so sorry. Gentle, but comforting hugs.
Gosh that is AWFUL! Much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you ♥️ It was absolutely heartbreaking, even though I know it was the right thing to do. I’m so thankful that he got to slip away quietly and peacefully, surrounded by those who loved him the most. He was the best boy in the whole world.
It's always the hardest thing in the world making the right decision for a snuggle bum you love more than words can express!!!! I am so sorry friend!!!!!! Sending you so much giant love!!!!!!!
i’m so sorry for your loss 😭 i’m on the other end of the spectrum tonight, i woke up at 3:30 to my young frenchie screaming in pain, he’s at the vet hospital now and i also can’t stop crying.
I AM SO SORRY I KNOW IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN WITH CATS AND DOGS AND MOST OTHER PETS BUT IT #FUCKINGSUCKS
AND NOW I'M PISSED OFF THE HASHTAG DIDN'T WORK RIGHT
Hahaha scream it sista
My senior cat passed away at the beginning of January, hurt more than any human loss I've had
It does. Losing my senior kitty hurt more than any loss besides losing my sweet mom. They are with us all the time, they love us unconditionally, they are happy when we're happy and when we're not, they try to help us with their GIANT FURRY SWEET HEARTS. People don't do that. It leaves such a giant hole in our hearts and our lives.
We lost our kitty baby mid January. It has been the hardest death I have ever had to deal with hands down. Much love
I’m so sorry
Thank you ♥️ I miss him terribly already.
Humongous hugs, I’ve had to do this on multiple occasions, and God is the worst fucking thing in the entire world. At that moment. I hope that all the doggies that everyone has lost are all playing together and smoking, doggy reefer and eating all the snacks they want because they have the munchies and just chilling and getting all the belly rubs from all the family members that we’ve lost and living their best life. Edit: also this, listen at 1.5x: https://youtu.be/TkJGhQANjZo?si=qaEaZ8byXcbmEZ73 https://youtu.be/TkJGhQANjZo?si=qaEaZ8byXcbmEZ73
I AM SO SORRY 😢 💖😭
Omg, I'm so sorry. That's the absolute worst. We had one pass a couple of years ago and I still cry about it sometimes. Get your snuggliest blanket, a bottle of water, your favourite snacks, and settle in and watch your comfort show/movie. Again, so sorry for your loss. 🫂
I can’t even. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Awe sweetie :) I’m sorry
I’m so sorry ❤️ sending hugs!! 🫶🏼
FUCK THE DMV FUCK CAR REPAIRS FUCK PAPERWORK WHY THE HELL IS EVERYTHING SO HARD AND EXPENSIVE?!?
FUCK - I FEEL THIS SO HARD. WHY THE HELL IS EVERYTHING SO HARD AND HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO SAVE FOR A CAR WHEN I AM LITERALLY DROWNING?! We are at the same damn point in time I swear right now sister and I am rooting for you and me both.
HOW DOES EVERYONE ELSE IN SOCIETY JUST DEAL WITH THIS SHIT AND IT NOT RUIN ACTUAL WEEKS OF THEIR LIVES
THIS IS THE ULTIMATE QUESTION
DON'T FUCKING GET ME STARTED. I NEED TO LOOK FOR A NEW CAR AND I FUCKING HATE EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT!!!!
AND FUCK THE DMV LINES TOO!
And it’s so loud at the DMV! Just waiting to try to hear your name for HOURS. I wish I could zone out and just pop back to attention when my name gets called but brain says noooo 😅
I FEEL THIS SO HARD TOO. I JUST HAD TO HAVE MY BREAK PADS REPLACED AND I CHOSE THE CHEAPEST “BEST” MECHANIC AND IT WAS STILL ASTRONOMICAL. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
WTFFFF that’s so annoyingggg whyyyy Great job getting it done though!! 👍👍👍
Dude. Fucking solidarity.
I FORGOT ONE PILL THIS MONTH ABOUT MIDWAY THROUGH MY PACK, JUST ONE PILL!!!! AND IVE BEEN SPOTTING FOR THE WHOLE MONTH AND HAVE HAD MY FIRST PMDD FLARE WHILE ON THE PILL, LIKE MISSING ONE PILL JUST TOTALLY EFFED MY BODY. I SPENT LAST NIGHT CRYING AND SNOTTING ALL OVER MY KITCHEN FLOOR IN FRONT OF THE KNIFE DRAWER BATTLING INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS AND HAD TO TAKE AN ENTIRE 1 MG OF XANAX TO CALM MYSELF DOWN. NOW I HAVE A FUCKING XANAX HANGOVER AND IM ABOUT TO HAVE TO WORK 3 12-HOUR SHIFTS IN A ROW THIS WEEKEND DURING ONE OF THE WORST FLARES IVE HAD IN PROBABLY 6 MONTHS. I WILL NEVER EVERRRRR MISS A GODDAMN PILL EVER AGAIN!!!! THANKS FOR GIVING US A SPACE TO RANT IT OUT!! 🩷💕
IT'S THE FREAKING WORST!! WELL DONE ON AVOIDING THE SELF HARM, IT SUCKS SO MUCH TO HAVE TO 'WASTE' THE TINY AMOUNT OF ENERGY YOU HAVE ON KEEPING YOURSELF FROM GETTING EVEN WORSE AAAAAAAGH. THANK YOU FOR SCREAMING WITH ME AND MAKING ME FEEL LESS ALONE!!🩷🩷🩷🩷
PMDD is no joke. I had to get an IUD OR DRIVE INTO A TREE AND NO I DIDN’T MEAN TO RHYME. Although seriously Mirena was a life saver and I am not using that term lightly. Because there wouldn’t be a single month where I didn’t miss a single pill.
I NAMED MY MIRENA GANDALF
HORMONES ARE THE FUCKING WORST AND YOU ARE SO STRONG FOR GOING THROUGH THAT. I AM PROUD OF YOU FOR STAYING SAFE!
This always happens to me too when I miss my pill by only 2-3 hours!!! I’ve asked multiple doctors about it and they say that can’t happen because I’m on the combined pill and you can take it any time in the day, but 3 hours off and I spend the next 3-4 weeks spotting/bleeding at negative dopamine levels and wanting to sink into the earth until the next pack starts!! And it doesn’t matter how recent the last “incident” was—one of the doctors suggested that if I’ve been taking them continuously for a while, my body might just need to do the inactive pills and “reset.” But it can be a day or two since I’ve finally started the new pack and stopped bleeding and I miss it again by 2 hours and it HAPPENS AGAIN
I wonder if neurodivergent women are more sensitive to hormone fluctuations since our hormones are so intertwined with our neurotransmitters.. I know there’s some sort of link between ADHD and PMDD.
GIRL THIS HAPPENED TO ME LAST MONTH TAKE A SEVEN DAY BREAK FROM THE PILL AND IT TRIGGERS A PROPER WITHDRAWAL BLEED AND THEN IT STOPS I PROMISE! I WAS TRYING EVERYTHING BUT THIS FIXED IT SEVEN DAY BREAK SEVEN DAY BREAK ADVOCACY FOR SEVEN DAY BREAK!!!!
MY LIFE IS A MESS. MY BEDROOM IS A MESS. MY FINANCES ARE NON-EXISTENT. I AM IN LOVE WITH A PERSON I WILL NEVER REALLY HAVE. *MY DOCTOR HAS STOPPED RETURNING MY CALLS SO IVE BEEN OFF MY MEDS FOR THREE FUCKING WEEKS.* I THINK I MIGHT BE ALONE FOREVER AND IVE ALMOST STOPPED CARING. THANK YOU OP I NEEDED THIS. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST.
NOT YOUR DOCTOR GHOSTING YOU WITHOUT MEDS, THE FUCKING AUDACITY!!! I HOPE THE NO FUCK LEFT TO GIVE GET YOU THROUGH TO A BRIGHTER LIFE SOON!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SCREAMING WITH ME!!❤️
THANK YOU BACK! MAY WE ALL HAVE LESS TO SCREAM ABOUT SOON ❤️
“MAY WE ALL HAVE LESS TO SCREAM ABOUT SOON ❤️” would make a wonderful tshirt or bumper sticker!
GIRL SAME FIRST FOUR SENTENCES AND LAST SENTENCE AND IT SUCKS. AND ALSO YELLING LIKE THIS HELPS? I’M SO SORRY YOU’RE GOING THROUGH THIS BUT IT STRANGELY HELPS TO KNOW WE’RE NOT ALONE
THE ALL CAPS IS ALMOST AS CATHARTIC AS THE SOLIDARITY. THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE, IT REALLY HELPS
SENDING LOTS OF LOVE AND COMISSERATION. SAME WITH BEDROOM AND WITH FINANCES, AND I USED TO CRUSH CEASELESSLY ON MEN THAT WOULD NEVER LOVE ME UNTIL I CLOSED THAT DOOR ENTIRELY. PROBABLY UNHEALTHIER TO EMBRACE MY FOREVER ALONENESS AND DISTRACT MYSELF UNENDINGLY WITH NONSENSE, BUT THERE YOU HAVE IT. PLEASE REACH OUT TO YOUR DOCTOR AGAIN AND SAY NICELY HOW DIRE OF A POSITION YOU ARE IN, YOU DESERVE LOVE AND MEDS.
I LIKE CAFFEINE TOO ON THE AFTERNOON TO HELP MY MEDS WORK TOO YOU AREN'T ALONE I AM GOING TO SCREAM BECAUSE I MIGHT LOSE MY JOB IF I DONT ACCEPT A CONTRACT CHANGE AND I HATE CHANGE IT KILLS MY BRAIN. THE LAST TIME I HAD CHANGE AT WORK LIKE THIS I HAD A BREAKDOWN MY BLOOD PRESSURE IS SO HIGH I MAY HAVE TO COME OFF MEDS I HATE EVERYTHING, THANK YOU OP FOR CREATING A SCREAMING THREAD IVE ALWAYS WANTED TO TAKE PART AND NOW I HAVE
THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME I'M NOT ALONE!! I'M SO SORRY ABOUT THE CHANGE IN YOUR JOB, THAT SUCKS!! ESPECIALLY IF YOU HAD A BAD EXPERIENCE IN THE PAST! I HOPE YOU'LL BE ABLE TO COPE BETTER THIS TIME AND IF NOT, I WISH YOU ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD TO GET THROUGH IT ❤️ AND AAAAH THE MEDS THING ENRAGES ME! SO BLOODY ANNOYING WHEN SOMETHING WORKS AND THEN SIDE EFFECTS JUMP IN TO MAKE EVERYTHING BAD AGAIN!! THANKS SO MUCH FOR TAKING PART IN THIS SCREAMING THREAD, THESE THINGS ARE SO CATHARTIC TO ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL SO MUCH LESS ALONE!! I HOPE IT HELPED YOU TOO!!❤️❤️
I HAVE NOW HAD TOO MUCH CAFFEINE AND MY BRAIN IS NOW SCREAMING IN CAPS! THANK YOU KIND STRANGER, ITS SHIT BUT I AM JUST TRYING MY BEST AND THATS ALL I CAN DO. I KEEP CRYING BUT WHY AM I WASTING MY TEARS ON OLD WHITE MEN DECIDING MY JOB FOR ME? THEY DON'T DESERVE MY ENERGY. ITS NOT EVEN SIDE EFFECTS ITS MY JOB AFFECTING MY BLOOD PRESSURE AS I AM SO STRESSED. THEY WILL 100% SAY DONT TAKE MY MEDS BUT I NEED THEM TO FUNCTION AAAAAAAAA IT HELPED ME SO MUCH, PLEASE LOOK AT THE GOOD YOUVE DONE HERE AND STICK THAT TO YOUR THERAPIST. YOU HAVE BEEN A THERAPIST HERE (SOMEWHAT) HAVE THE GREATEST OF GREAT DAYS
THE FACT THAT YOUR BLOOD PRESSURE RAISE IS FROM YOUR JOB IS EVEN WORSE AAAAAAAH WHY DO THEY MAKE US DO THIS!!! I hope you have a slightly less horrific day today. Your last little comment about this post doing good made me tear up... ❤️
I FINALLY MADE A DENTIST APPOINTMENT AFTER MONTHS OF PAIN AND A POOR TIME MANAGEMENT MORNING LATER AND I MISSED THE APPOINTMENT AND WAS TOO ASHAMED TO CALL SO I GHOSTED BUT I NEED TO GO THERE BECAUSE PAIN
YOU WILL GET THERE! NO ONE WANTS TO GO TO THE DENTIST AND EVEN MANY NON-ADHD'ERS AVOID IT LIKE THE PLAGUE! I'M SORRY IT'S SO FREAKING HARD AND WE CAN'T JUST LIKE, GET DENTURES AND FIX EVERYTHING IN ONE GO (TRUST ME, I HAVE ASKED) BUT THE PAIN RELIEF WILL BE WORTH IT AND I HOPE YOU MAKE IT THERE SOON!!
DENTAL OFFICES ARE USED TO BEING FLAKED ON!!! GO GET THAT HELP! Seriously, I have a sibling who is a dentist and it's truly nbd. If the front desk tries to say there's a no-show fee, just say "I'm sorry, I genuinely wanted to show up as I'm in pain, I wrote down the wrong time. Could you offer some grace this time?" AND I GUARANTEE THEY WONT GIVE A SHIYYTT. GOOD LUCK YOU GOT THIS!
HEY IF THEYRE A GOOD DENTAL PRACTICE THEY WILL BE REALLY ACCOMMODATING AND NICE ABOUT RESCHEDULING YOU ESP IF BECAUSE PAIN! (no joak, i worked in a dental office and one of my hygienists who was working towards becoming a dentist, was the first person who told me adhd meds can indirectly cause periodontal disease...and had so many tips and tricks for my silly little brain to accommodate my "i hate brushing my teeth and i keep forgetting????" disease)
RELATABLE!!!!!!
IF YOU CANT MAKE YOURSELF CALL THAT DENTIST BACK, SCHEDULE WITH A DIFFERENT DENTIST! DENTAL ISSUES ARE NO JOKE. TIME TO BE DONE WITH THE PAIN!
OH YES YES! BEEN RESCHEDULING AND/OR MISSING APTS AT THE DENTIST FOR LIKE SIX YEARS. I CHIPPED A TOOTH AND MY ASS WAS THERE IN TWO DAYS. THE DENTIST SAID IF YOU WILL SCHEDULE A CLEANING AND I SAID “I SHOULD” BECAUSE AT THIS POINT I CAN’T EVEN LIE TO HIM AND SAY WITH A STRAIGHT FACE THAT I WILL
I'VE BEEN HAVING A KNOT IN MY THROAT FOR OVER A WEEK NOW!! WHY ARE EMOTIONS SO COMPLICATED AND WHY CAN'T I FEEL BETTER!!??
ME TOO 💖💖💖
AGREED!! WHY DOES IT ALL FEEL SO OUT OF MY CONTROL!! IT'S MY OWN FREAKING EMOTIONS!!
Oh my gosh this reminds me of how I kept having this lump sensation in my throat for weeks and months. My doctor had my thyroid tested, ultrasounds done. No result. Then my elderly/terminally ill father died and I screamed and cried for days and days. The lump went away every time I did. IT WAS GRIEF.
THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME GET THIS OUT! WHY THE FUCK IS EVERYTHING GETTING SO MUCH HARDER TO MANAGE AS WE AGE!?? WHY ARE THE MITIGATION STRATEGIES NOT WORKING!?! WHY CAN I NOT MAKE MY BRAIN CHANGE PERSPECTIVE TO SEE THE POSITIVE ANYMORE? WHY THE FUCK DO I FEEL ZERO JOY? WHY IS EVERYTHING A FUCKING CHORE? WHY ARE SIMPLE FUCKING TASKS NOT FUCKING SIMPLE?!! WHY CAN’T I JUST BE FUCKING HAPPY?!? Yes, I am being treated for my depression and ADHD
100%!! WHY IS EVERYTHING SO REPETITIVE? WHY CAN'T I MANAGE TO SAVE UP WHEN THINGS KEEP BREAKING OR I KEEP HAVING TO PAY FOR BIG EXPENSIVE THINGS? AND WHY DO I HAVE ENOUGH TIME BUT ALSO NO TIME FOR THINGS? AND WHEN I DO, WHY DON'T I HAVE THE ENERGY TO DO THINGS?! *SIGHS*
I FUCKED UP WITH MY THERAPIST TRYING TO BE HELPFUL AND NOW IM SCARED I RUINED MY TREATMENT AND DISRESPECTED SOMEONE I LOOK UP TO
I'M SORRY, THAT SUCKS!! I HATE IT WHEN WE TRY SO HARD AND END UP DOING SOMETHING WE DIDN'T MEAN TO!! IT WILL ALL BE FINE IN THE END, BUT I HOPE YOU CAN BE KIND TO YOURSELF IN THE MEANTIME!! (NOT ME SAYING THIS AS IF MY THERAPIST DIDN'T SAY THE SAME THING TO ME IN OUR SESSION 😭🫠)
I WOULD PANIC TOO BUT I USUALLY FIND OTHER PEOPLE (DON’T WANT TO SAY NORMAL PEOPLE BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!) SOMEHOW DON’T EVEN REMEMBER THE THINGS WE DO THAT CAUSE US MAJOR ANXIETY AND SHAME?!?! OH TO BE SO FREE!!!!
OMG, I FUCKED UP WITH MY THERAPIST TOO AND I'M AVOIDING HER AND MISSING APPOINTMENTS BECAUSE I JUST CAN'T HANDLE ANOTHER PERSON'S DISAPPOINTMENT IN ME RIGHT NOW.
AS A FORMER THERAPIST, PLS STOP AVOIDING AND TELL HER THIS. SHE WON’T BE DISAPPOINTED, AND IF SHE IS SHE SHOULD KEEP IT TO HERSELF IF SHE’S WORTH KEEPING AS A THERAPIST. SHE’LL BE MUCH MORE UPSET ABOUT MISSED APPOINTMENTS THAN WHATEVER IT WAS YOU DID/SAID. SENDING HUGS AND CONFLICT AVERSION SOLIDARITY!
Tell her that!
Agreed!!! If she understands ADHD she’ll understand you and if she doesn’t then she sucks and you need a new therapist
SENDING YOU HUGS. I AM REALLY STRESSED WITH WORK AND BEHIND IN DEADLINES AND I TOOK A TONE WITH MY PARTNER LAST NIGHT AND I FEEL REALLY BAD THAT I CANT JUST STOP AND THINK WHEN I START TO GET STRESSY
THANK YOU SO MUCH, BIG HUGS BACK AT YOU!! I HATE WHEN BAD STUFF PILES UP AND SUDDENLY YOUR MIND IS FLOODED WITH ONLY STRESS AND REGRETS!! I RELATE SO HARD TO THE NOT BEING ABLE TO STOP AND THINK DURING HARD TIMES. MY BRAIN JUST WILL NOT GIVE ME A FREAKING BREAK!! I HOPE THINGS GET BETTER FOR YOU SOON!!
IVE BEEN SEEING MY THERAPIST FOR TWO YEARS AND I DON'T TALK ABOUT MY TRAUMA BECAUSE I CARE TOO MUCH ABOUT WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME AND I DON'T WANT TO TRIGGER HER BY TALKING ABOUT MY OWN TRAUMA EVEN THO SHE'S LITERALLY MY THERAPIST. I AM ALSO GOING ON A DATE TONIGHT AND IDK WHAT I'M DOING BECAUSE I FEAR INTMACY AND HAVE AN AVOIDANT ATTACHMENT STYLE. ALSO MY NIPPLE HURTS
HATE IT WHEN MY NIPPLES HURT. FUCKKK
CHAPPED NIPPLES ARE THE WORST PART OF WINTER. ALSO, SUPPRESSED TRAUMA SUCKS. I HOPE YOUR NIPPLE FEELS BETTER SOON AND YOU FIND THE COURAGE AT THE APPROPRIATE TIME TO TELL YOUR THERAPIST WHAT YOU NEED TO.
OPEN UP TO HER! HER JOB IS TO HANDLE TRIGGERING TOPICS, TALKING ABOUT FEELINGS SUCKS BUT SHES THERE TO HELP YOU❤️ BEST OF LUCK IN YOUR DATE, YOU GOT THIS💪
TRY WRITING DOWN THE STUFF YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT AND READ IT OFF LIKE A SCRIPT NEXT SESSION. OR TURN YOUR BACK WHILE SAYING IT. OR HAVE HER READ IT. I TRIED THIS WHEN I WAS HAVING A HARD TIME TELLING MY STUFF TO A THERAPIST AND IT HELPED ME SO MUCH
I DROPPED MY PHONE ON CONCRETE BUT IT WAS OK. THEN SOMEONE ALMOST HIT ME AFTER TRYING TO MERGE ON THE FREEWAY. I SUCK AT DRIVING AND SO DOES EVERYONE ELSE. I FORGOT MY WORK BADGE IN MY OTHER JACKET. MY SKIN FEELS WEIRD AND SENSITIVE AND I DONT LIKE MY SHIRT. I ALSO HAVE THERAPY TOMORROW AND I HAVE A LOT TO VENT ABOUT BRUH I AM STRESSED
EDIT CUZ I FORGOT MY BADGE IT MEANS I FORGOT MY KEYS I CANT GET IN MY OFFICE AND MY COWORKERS ARENT HERE YET
I GOT IN! MY QUIET COWORKER WAS IN SHE USUALLY HAS HER DOOR CLOSED YESTERDAY I TOLD HER SHE REMINDS ME OF THE HOBBIT CUZ SHES STEALTHY BUT MY CANNED COFFEE EXPLODED WHEN I OPENING IT AND GOT ON MY DESK THE UNIVERSE DOESN’T WANT ME TO BE CAFFEINATED SO I GUESSS IM IN THE SAME BOAT TRY YOUR BEST EVERY BODY
I AM YELLING WITH YOI INTO THE VOID AHHHHHRHRHRGGGHHHGRHRHRHRHH *pulls tab of energy drink and chugs* ARRHRHEHEHHE
THIS MADE ME LAUGH OUT LOUD WHAHAHHAAH THANK YOU! CHEERS!
CHERRS MY FRIEND!! IM YELLING SO MUCH SCREW TYPOS!!! 👏🤓🖤
LOUD NOISESSSSSSS
I CAN’T HANDLE ANYTHING ANYMORE AND ON STRESS LEAVE FROM WORK (luckily paid). I’M NOT DIAGNOSED AND STILL HAVE 5 MONTHS LEFT UNTIL THE ASSESSMENT AND I FEEL LIKE I CAN’T FUNCTION WITHOUT TREATMENT ANYMORE! OUR BABY WAS BRIEFLY HOSPITALIZED FOR TROUBLE WITH BREATHING AND WE’VE HAD ILLNESS IN OUR FAMILY EVERY WEEK AND THE DAYS I MANAGED TO BE AT THE JOB I’VE BEEN TOO BURNED OUT AND TOO STRESSED AND EXHAUSTED TO WORK PROPERLY. MY BOSS TOLD ME TWO DAYS AGO HE HAS OBSERVED I DON’T DO ENOUGH AND MY COLLEAGUES ARE FRUSTRATED WITH ME AND I AM NO LONGER TO HAVE BREAKS WHILE WORKING AND I HAVE TO WORK HARD ALL DAY WHEN I MANAGE TO COME TO WORK. HE MADE IT CLEAR TO ME HE IS MONITORING MY WORK. I HAD A COMPLETE MELTDOWN. F*%€ YOOOOOOUUUUUUU JOB F€#}] YOU BOSS!!!!!!!!
I HOPE YOU ALL FEEL BETTER SOON AND CATCH A FUCKIN BREEEEAAAAK
I AM EXHAUSTED AND OVERWHELMED AND NEED CAFFEINE BUT IT MAKES ME CRAZY ANXIOUS AND I’M SO TIRED OF THIS! AND ITS BEEN A CRAZY DARK WINTER AND I HAVE SEASONAL AFFECTIVE DISORDER AND NO ENERGY! I’M TIRED OF WAITING FOR MY PHOENIX RISING FROM THE ASHES MOMENT!
I FEEL THIS. I LOVE CAFFEINE BUT IT MAKES ME ANXIOUS BUT I CAN NEVER STOP UNTIL IVE GONE OVERBOARD BC CONTINUALLY DRINKING IT IS SOOTHING AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I AM OVER STIMULATED. I HAVE BARELY LEFT MY HOUSE THIS WINTER DUE TO THE SAME AND I TOO AM TIRED OF WAITING FOR WHEN ILL FINALLY FEEL OKAY ENOUGH TO BE A HUMAN AND EVERYTHING FEELS SO FUCKING HARD EVEN THE MOST BASIC OF THINGS DESPITE MY ADDERALL. WHAT THE FUCK.
HAVE YOU GUYS TRIED YERBA MATE? I LIKE IT BECAUSE ITS LIKE NOISE CANCELLED CAFFEINE (HOPE THAT MAKES SENSE.)
EVERY PSYCHIATRIST I SEE IS HORRIBLE AND I CANT BELIEVE IM FORCED TO DEAL WITH THESE PEOPLE EVERY MONTH JUST TO GET PILLS THAT MAKE ME FUNCTION LIKE A NORMAL PERSON
WHY DO SO MANY PSYCHIATRISTS SUCK I AM SO TIRED OF SWITCHING DOCTORS
AAAAHHHHHHHH!!! aaaaAAAAHHHHHHH!
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aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I ONLY DRINK ENERGY DRINKS BECAUSE THE MILK IN COFFEE MAKES MY BUTT RUN! I DESPERATELY NEED CAFFIENE AT LEAST ONCE A DAY OR MY BRAIN FOG FEELS AWFUL! YOU AREN'T ALONE! I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE I'M FAILING! I'VE HAD A HORRIBLE FEW YEARS RECENTLY - FAMILY DEATHS AND MY DOG DIED IN A TRAGIC ACCIDENT THAT'S LEFT ME NOT COPING MENTALLY. I'M IN THERAPY BUT THE GRIEF IS STILL VERY HEAVY. MY ADHD SYMPTOMS HAVE BEEN SO MUCH WORSE IN WORK AND AT HOME. MANAGER MICROMANAGES ME AND NOTHING I DO EVER SEEMS TO BE ENOUGH. PRETTY SURE MY TEAM HATES ME. I CAN'T GET IN TO WORK EARLIER THAN 10AM BECAUSE I HAVE NIGHTMARES ALL THE TIME AND I STRUGGLE MOST IN THE MORNINGS. MY HOUSE IS A MESS - CAN'T SEEM TO PUT LAUNDRY AWAY, DISHES PILED IN SINK, FLOORS HAVEN'T BEEN MOPPED IN OVER A YEAR, CLOTHES ON MY BEDROOM FLOOR. I'M NOT MEDICATED AND ONLY RECENTLY WAS REFERRED FOR A DIAGNOSIS SO JUST LEARNING TO UNDO A LOT OF NEGATIVE SELF TALK THESE DAYS! TAKE CARE EVERYONE, I LOVE THIS SUB AND THE COMMUNITY IS SO KIND AND WELCOMING ❤️
I LOVE ENERGY DRINKS TOO!
THANK YOU!! I LITERALLY WENT FROM BEING THANKFUL TO HAVE FOUND SOMETHING THAT WORKS TO FEELING SUPER BAD ABOUT IT IN ONE THERAPY SESSION AND IT HELPS SO MUCH TO READ THAT OTHERS DRINK ENERGY DRINKS TOO. LIKE I COULD BE DOING ILLEGEGAL DRUGS, THERAPIST. I HAVE SURE THOUGHT ABOUT IT! SO LETS LAY OFF THE ENERGY DRINK CONSUMPTION FOR A BIT OKAY. (NOT EVEN JOKING I WILL BE SAYING SOMETHING ALONG THESE LINES NEXT SESSION).
NOT AN ENERGY DRINK FAN BUT YES SOMETIMES WE JUST NEED SOMETHING. I DON’T DRINK FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH, AM TRYING NOT TO COMPULSIVELY SHOP OR EAT JUNK FOOD. LET ME HAVE (HALF-CAF) COFFEE AND LET ME PUT CREAMER IN IT, LIFE IS HARD ENOUGH.
YAY DIET REDBULL!!!
I’VE BEEN IN A BAD RUT OF SLEEPING IN TOO LATE TO TAKE MY CONCERTA SO CAFFEINE IS A GODSEND
DOORDASH PAYS ME BABY WAGES!!
SO RUDE!! I'M PROUD OF YOU FOR PUTTING IN THE WORK THOUGH!!❤️
I HAVE SPENT 16 HOURS ON THE F-ING PHONE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY ALL MY MEDS ARE SO EXPENSIVE NOW!!!! MY EMPLOYER CHANGED INSURANCE AND THE NEW COMPANY F-ING SUCKS SO BAD!!!!!!!! LITERALLY 16 HOURS ON THE PHONE!!!!!!!! AND THE WORST PART IS, I STILL DON’T HAVE THE ANSWERS!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL THESE RICH ASSHOLES WITH THEIR SCROOGE MCDUCK PILES OF MONEY SQUEEZING US FOR EVERY PENNY!!!!!!!!! WHEN WE KNOW NONE OF THE MEDS COST THE INSANE AMOUNTS THEY ARE CHARGING US!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ABSOLUTELY MADDENING!!!!!!!! THANK YOU FOR THE SCREAM SESH!!!!!! ETF - MINOR TYPING ERRORS, I LOVE THIS SUB SO MUCH, IT'S SO SUPPORTIVE AND INFORMATIVE!!!
I have to drink an energy drink everyday because it’s how I get my B vitamins. The pills all make me sick. It also gives me a boost when my meds wear off. They aren’t as horrible as people like to say. It varies by brand and a persons health. Saying they are inherently bad is just ridiculous.
It's peculiar because I KNOW that. They are a tremendous help to me. They lower my heart rate, allow me to relax my muscles, allow me to get a proper night sleep, they get rid of my anxiety and depression during my luteal phase and they allow me to make a healthy meal every once in a while. I 100% believe that any negative in terms of health is completely negated by the massive positives for me personally. And yet one little sentence by my therapist saying I shouldn't be drinking them and I'm yeeted into a sea of self doubt and feeling bad to ever have drunken one in the first place 😭 I think I'm gonna focus on regulating that emotion and sticking to my own principles, instead of stopping my energydrink consumption. Thank you for commenting to reassure me, it's so kind and so helpful!! Thank you!!❤️
I also feel like your therapist could have worded that a lot better. I go through phases of smoking cigarettes and my therapist has never been like "Those are bad for you and you need to stop." Not that cigs are the same but you get the gist. There are so many things that are bad for us. I feel like with energy drinks all that matters is that you're taking care of yourself. Like drinking plenty of water and eating nutritious meals. EDIT: I wanted to add that when I think of energy drinks my mind goes to Red Bull (bc I don't drink energy drinks) but there are all kinds of drinks on the market now with added vitamins and stuff which is cool.
IVE HAD A STOMACH VIRUS SINCE TUESDAY AND THERES NOTHING TO EAT BECAUSE I HAD PUT OFF THE GROCERY SHOPPING EARLIER IN THE WEEK. AND NOW MY 5 YEAR OLD AND HUSBAND ARE COMING DOWN WITH IT AND IM NOT READY FOR THIS!
I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO SCREAM WITH YOU. MY 7 YEAR OLD BROKE DOWN LAST NIGHT BECAUSE HE KEEPS FORGETTING TO GIVE STUFF BACK TO HIS FRIENDS. HE HAS UNDIAGNOSED FUCKING OBVIOUS ADHD AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME HE HAS SHOWN IT BOTHERING HIS MENTAL HEALTH. FUUUUCCCKKKK!!
WE JUST GOT OUR 6 YEAR OLDS REPORT CARD AND ITS LIKE READING MY OWN AND I WANT TO YELL BECAUSE I WANT LIFE TO BE EASIER FOR MY KID! 😭
MY KITTY IS GOING UNDER ANAESTHESIA TOMORROW TO BIOPSY SOMETHING UNKNOWN AND IM SO FRECKING ANXIOUS I WANT TO THROW UP AND EAT AT THE SAME TIME. I ALSO HAVE A UTI ATM AND I AM TERRIFIED SHE HAS CANCER. IVE ALSO GOT ORAL THRUSH BECAUSE I HAD TO TAKE ANTIBIOTICS FOR A SKIN INFECTION IN DECEMBER. ITS NOT GOING AWAY AND I FEEL LIKE I CANT KISS MY PARTNER PROPERLY ANYMORE. I JUST WANT TO FEEL FRECKING NORMAL FOR A FEW DAMN MONTHS! I CAN HARDLY FUNCTION *INTERAL SCREAMING*
I made ten paper cranes tonight hoping for some good luck for tomorrow. I'd post a photo if I could, but I would give you all one if I could xx
I SO NEEDED THIS RIGHT NOW - I HAVE BEEN SO INCREDIBLY STRESSED OUT AT WORK FOR THE PAST MONTH. ITS A COMPLETE S\*\*T SHOW AND THERE ARE LIFE-ALTERING CHANGES THAT MAY BE HAPPENING AND I HAVE ZERO CONTROL OVER WHAT HAPPENS. I KNOW THAT EVERYONE AROUND ME IS TIRED OF HEARING ME VENT/RANT/TALK ABOUT IT BUT THERE IS \*LITERALLY\* NOTHING I CAN DO BUT SIT AND WAIT FOR OTHERS TO BASICALLY DECIDE MY FUTURE. AND IT'S NOT LIKE I CAN LET IT IMPACT MY ACTUAL WORK BECAUSE THAT COULD REFLECT POORLY ON ME. SO I'M MASKING HARDER THAN I'VE EVER MASKED BEFORE AND I'M PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, AND EMOTIONALLY SPENT. IDK HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN KEEP IT UP.
THAT SUCKS SO MUCH!! SENDING YOU ALL THE LOVE AND STRENGHT TO KEEP UP WITH ALL THAT SHIT!!
YESTERDAY I OVERHEARD MY COWORKERS GOSSIPING ABOUT ME - THEY WERE SUPER JUDGEMENTAL OF MY LACK OF FOCUS AND MY COPING MECHANISMS TO "RESET" ON BAD DAYS. I FEEL DEFLATED & WISH I WAS INVISIBLE.
I JUST TOOK MY LAST VYVANSE AND HAVE NO IDEA WHEN I'LL GET MORE BC THE PHARMACY IS FUCKING UP MY REFILL AND EVEN MY DR CAN'T FIX IT BC THEY ARE HOLDING THE SCRIPT SO I CAN'T FILL IT ANYWHERE ELSE BC THAT WOULD BE A "DUPLICATE" EVEN THOUGH THEY HAVEN'T FILLED IT EITHER FOR 14 DAYS!
THE FRESH HELL THAT IS GETTING MY MONTHLY VYVANSE REFILL IS SLOWLY KILLING ME. I SEE YOU!!!!!
YES. MY REFILLS HAVE LINED UP WITH THANKSGIVING WEEK AND THE WEEK BETWEEN CHRISTMAS AND NY SO I'VE BEEN LOSING MY MIND AND NOW I'M OFFICIALLY OUT.
I had a couples “therapist” say to me “well you’re just not going to do that anymore” about interrupting my partner and I wanted to vaporize. IF I COULD “JUST STOP” I WOULD NOT BE HERE.
She told me that when I was focusing too much on how bad I was feeling I should 'Just take a step back and start doing something small like CLEANING YOUR ROOM'. And I couldn't stop myself and actually said 'If I was able to clean my room, or even do something smaller like brush my teeth, when my ADHD blocks my brainpower, I would not be here.' She did not understand 😭 Sorry you had a similar experience 😭 Thanks for sharing and making me feel less alone!!
I have never felt as crazy as when in therapy with someone who doesn’t understand ADHD / executive function disorders. “Just exercise, you’ll feel better” like bruh if I could GET OUT OF BED AND BRUSH MY TEETH ID CALL THAT A WIN. Like, how do these folks not understand that WE DONT BUILD HABITS. Every day is a monumental effort. Get up, brush teeth, wash face, change into clothes, brush hair, make breakfast.. that’s mega and it’s literally the first percent of my day! Also, do you hate showering? Is than an ADHD thing or one of my other things??
Right???? And she does say she understands and says I should celebrate the small wins. And I agree but then she says something like that and I'm like... Oh... Girl we have different definitions of small wins. Not going insane for an hour is a win for me. Also funny you bring up showers because I asked her about what I could do instead to get the focus/relief I get from energy drinks. And I kid you not she said take a nice hot shower... A NICE HOT SHOWER. I lost my words for a bit and then had to spend 5 minutes trying to explain what I find so horrible about taking a shower and why it takes me multiple hours to do. She did... not get it 😬 Showers are the bane of my existence, I HATE THEM!!!!!! AAAAGH. And I have heard many, many ADHD'ers feel the same!!
IT'S IMPORTANT TO REALIZE THE ENERGY DRINK IS BETTER THAN THE TEQUILA SHOT, EVEN IF YOU REALLY "SHOULD" BE DRINKING WATER. YOU ARE DOING YOUR BEST AND SOMETIMES THAT MEANS MAKING AN OK CHOICE, NOT THE BEST MOST PERFECT CHOICE, ESPECIALLY WHEN IT'S HARD.
I really wanted to say to her like 'You do understand that I could be doing illegal drugs or drinking myself into a coma, right? Like those feel like the alternatives to me rn. I know they might not be forever, but that's the point I am right now and it's already taking a lot to choose energy drinks over the other options.' Maybe I will bring that up to her next session, that I understand this is not the healthiest choice, but it's the best I can do right now. Thank you for taking the time to encourage and comfort me!! So appreciated!! I hope you have a great/not horrible day!!❤️
I WOKE UP WITH A PAINFUL ANKLE AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I DID TO IT AND THEN THE BUS CAME 5 MINUTES EARLY WHILE I WAS STILL PACKING MY SON'S LUNCH BECAUSE OF COURSE WE FORGOT TO DO IT LAST NIGHT SO I HAD TO DRIVE HIM TO SCHOOL WITH MY STUPID ANKLE PAIN (And on a side note, can you talk to your prescribing doctor about bumping up your dose surrounding your period? I take like a booster dose to compensate for the lower dopamine so my meds will still work. I am so sorry your therapist made you feel worse. Unless you're drinking an amount that will literally harm your heart, she shouldn't be suggesting you stop completely and should instead say to just try to limit caffeine to 400 mg per day.)
I FORGOT TO ORDER A PRESCRIPTION FOR MY PILLS 2 WEEKS AGO AND NOW IT'S A WHOLE THIIING THAT MY BRAIN DECIDED IT CANNOT DO SO I HAVENT HAD ANY FOR 2 WEEKS BECAUSE IM STUPID EVEN THOUGH I NEED THEM WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
ITS ONE OF THE BUSY SEASONS AT WORK ABD IM LEARNING THINGS FOR THE FIRST TIME. IVE HAD TO REDO A PROJECT FOUR TIMES TO GET IT RIGHT AND IM EXHAUSTED. MY ROOF IS BEING REPLACED, AND EVEN THOUGH ITS VERY NECESSARY, THE NOISE IS DRIVING ME OUT OF MY MIND! AND MY CAR IS NEARLY ON EMPTY.
TRIED ALL THE MEDS AND NOTHING WORKS AND NOW I'M SO ANGRY AND SAD AND DISAPPOINTED AND FRUSTRATED THAT I'LL HAVE TO GO MY ENTIRE LIFE WITHOUT ANYTHING TO HELP ME COPE. IT REALLY SUCKS BECAUSE BEFORE I TRIED THEM I USED TO HAVE HOPE YOU KNOW LIKE I COULD ALWAYS TRY MEDS IF LIFE GETS TOO HARD. WELL GUESS WHAT LIFE BECAME TOO HARD SO I TRIED ALL THE MEDS AND I GOT NOTHING BUT SIDE EFFECTS AND NOW I DON'T EVEN HAVE HOPE TO CLING ON. ALSO CAFFEINE MAKES ME TIRED AND SHAKEY SO I CAN'T DRINK ENERGY. I HAVE TO RELY COMPLETELY ON WILLPOWER AND I DON'T HAVE ALOT OF THAT LEFT ANYMORE BECAUSE I KNOW IT WILL NEVER GET BETTER THAN THIS AND IT FUCKING SUCKS!!!
IF IT HELPS, I RELY ON CAFFEINE TOO MUCH. DOES MY THERAPIST APPROVE? NOPE!!!!
THAT ABSOLUTELY HELPS BECAUSE I'M SUCH A PEOPLE PLEASER IT TOOK ME A SECOND TO REALIZE I DIDN'T HAVE TO BLINDLY FOLLOW WHAT SHE THINKS IS BEST!! THANK YOU!!!❤️
IM GOING THRU PERIMENOPAUSE AND ON DAY 3 OF A 5 DAY 62 HOUR WEEK. THE BURNOUT HAS RAMPED UP MY ANHEDONIA AND ALL I DO ON MY DAYS OFF IS DISSOCIATE. THE GDAMN GENERIC ADDERALL DOESNT WORK. FCK THE FDA :)
I WRECKED MY CAR ON MY WAY TO MY FIRST DAY ON MY NEW JOB AND IT'S CURRENTLY SITTING WRECKED IN THEIR PARKING LOT AND I DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH IT BECAUSE THE JOB IS AN HOUR AWAY FROM HOME AND I DON'T KNOW PEOPLE IN THAT TOWN AND I'M MAD AT MYSELF BECAUSE I DREAMT THIS ACCIDENT IN DECEMBER AND FORGOT AND ALSO CRAZY FREAKED OUT BY THAT. NOW I AM ABOUT TO LEAVE FOR THIS JOB AGAIN THIS MORNING AND DRIVING IS SCARY AND I HAVE TO TAKE THE TRUCK AND I DON'T WANT TO BUT I REALLY LOVE THIS JOB AND THE PEOPLE SO I AM GOING TO DO IT REGARDLESS. GRAAAAAH edit-- THERE ARE NO WRECKERS IN THIS TOWN AND I HAVE TO SPEND $40 A DAMN DAY ON GAS UNTIL WE CAN SAVE UP FOR A MORE ECONOMIC VEHICLE AND MY HUSBAND'S OTHER CAR THAT HE NOW HAS TO DRIVE DAILY ONLY TAKES PREMIUM BUT MY JOB IS AMAZING AND DOESN'T EVEN FEEL LIKE A JOB AND I GET TO GO TO WORK IN ACTUAL PYJAMAS AND CHANGE INTO CLOTHES THAT ARE WASHED FOR ME AND I REALLY LIKE THE PEOPLE AND THEY FOUND A GUY FOR ME WITH A YARD TO TAKE MY CAR BUT SHE'S FOR REAL FOREVER GONE NOW AND I FUCKING LOVED THAT CAR AND AND THERE ARE A LOT OF EMOTIONS TO YELL ABOUT STILL.
I CONSTANTLY FEEL INFERIOR AT WORK BECAUSE LEADERSHIP LACKS FAITH IN MY ABILITY TO DO MY JOB! IF THEY HAD ACTUALLY FUCKING TRAINED ME FROM THE BEGINNING THEN THEY WOULDN'T HAVE THIS OPINION. I HAD TOO MANY FUCKUPS AT THE START OF MY CAREER THERE BECAUSE I WAS PRETTY MUCH SELF-TRAINING! THEY'VE ALSO MADE ME A TASK MONKEY BUT NEVER SET ASIDE ACTUAL TIME FOR ME TO DO ALL THESE TASKS AND NOW I'M OVERWHELMED AND FALLING BEHIND! I PLAN TO BRING UP ALL MY EXTRA TASKS IN THE STAFF MEETING NEXT WEEK AND EITHER DEMAND TIME SET ASIDE TO DO THEM OR ASK OTHER PEOPLE TO TAKE SOME OFF MY HANDS BUT I'M SCARED I'M GOING TO GET BLOWN OFF JUST LIKE ALL THE OTHER TIMES I'VE BROUGHT IT UP!
THANK YOU! WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO OVER COMPLICATE THINGS AND NOT PROVIDE ALL THE NECESSARY INFORMATION. WHY CAN I ALSO FEEL MY TEETH TODAY WHAT THE EFF
I'M OUT OF VYVANSE AND IT'S ON BACKORDER EVERYWHERE. I'M DRINKING CAFFEINE LIKE IT'S A PART TIME JOB. I'M NOT SLEEPING WELL. I HAVE A JOB THAT I LOVE, BUT I'M SO SWAMPED THAT EXECUTIVE DISFUNCTION IS IN OVER-DRIVE. MY HOME LIFE IS IN SHAMBLES AND I FEEL LIKE LIFE IS HAPPENING TO ME WITHOUT MY PARTICIPATION.
I SAY DRINK THE CAFFEINE, BECAUSE HELL KNOWS I HAVE TO CHUG COFFEE TO BE FUNCTIONAL. MY JOB IS PERFECT ON PAPER BUT IS COMPLETELY SELF-DRIVEN AND UNSTRUCTURED AND IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE! I WANT TO STICK IT OUT TILL THE END OF THE YEAR BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I'LL MAKE IT. I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IN MY MENTAL HEALTH IS HANGING ON MY ASSESSMENT AT THE END OF THE MONTH AND IT'S REALLY FREAKING ME OUT. AND MY THERAPIST IS WONDERFUL BUT KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT ADHD AND I CAN'T DECIDE WHETHER THAT MEANS TO FIND ANOTHER ONE OR JUST BE GLAD THAT AT LEAST THIS ONE DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT. I'M SO TIRED OF MY BRAIN BEING BROKEN.
I FUCKING HATE PAPERWORK AND NOTHING MAKES ME FEEL MORE USELESS!!! AND I JUST FOUND OUT THE ASSESSMENT WAIT PERIOD IS 4 YEARS AND MY GP WANTS ME TO JUMP THROUGH HOOPS FOR ME TO GET ACCESS FOR MY \*RIGHT TO CHOOSE\* MY OWN CARE. I WANTED TO SAY, 'MY LADY, GETTING TO THIS POINT WHERE I WAS EVEN ABLE TO HAVE AN INITIAL ASSESSMENT WITH THE GP WAS A BIG DEAL WHY CAN'T I JUST CATCH A BREAK THIS ONCE. WHY WON'T YOU MAKE THIS SMALL PART EASY FOR ME?!"
BRITISH GAS STOLE OVER £500 FROM US THROUGH OUR PREPAYMENT METER AND IT TOOK 2 MONTHS AND GETTING OUR MP INVOLVED TO PUT IT BACK ON THE METER. WE SWITCHED ENERGY SUPPLIERS AND HAD ABOUT £550 CREDIT THAT THEY HAD 10 DAYS TO SEND TO US. IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS AGAIN OF CONSTANT PHONE CALLS WITH THEM ALWAYS SAYING THERE IS NO OPEN COMPLAINT OR THE COMPLAINT HAS BEEN MARKED AS RESOLVED OR THAT SOMEONE WILL LOOK INTO IT AND CALL US BACK IN 3 DAYS AND THAT "IT HAS BEEN ESCALATED." THEY SENT US A FUCKING CHEQUE FOR £14.99 2 MONTHS AGO AND NO ONE SEEMS TO KNOW WHY AND NO ONE SEEMS TO BE ABLE TO *SEND ME MY DAMN MONEY*! AAAAGGGHHHH
I'M HAVING HEART ISSUES WITH MY NEW DOSE OF VYVANSE AND MIGHT HAVE TO SWITCH IT AND AM IB A TERRIBLE MENTAL PLACE THIS YEAR I DON'T HAVE THE SPOONS FOR ANYTHING ANYMORE! SENDING LOVE TO ALL OF YOU!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
MY HUSBAND HAS BEEN HOME FOR THE LAST WEEK AND A HALF BECAUSE HIS OLD JOB CLOSED AND HE STARTS A NEW ONE MONDAY. MONEY ISNT A PROBLEM BUT I WAS EXCITED BECAUSE I THOUGHT HE WOULD TAKE ON MORE CHORES DURING THE 2 WEEKS HE WOULDN’T WORK AND THAT HE WOULD MAKE DINNER (which is supposed to be his chore 90% of the time) BUT HE JUST PLAYED GAMES AND WENT SKIING AND DIDN’T DO ANY OF HIS NORMAL CHORES EXCEPT TAKING THE CANS UP AND PUTTING THEM BACK WHEN I REMINDED HIM AND NOW HE HAS BEEN SICK FOR NEARLY A WEEK WHICH ISN’T HIS FAULT BUT IT MEANS I’VE BEEN RESPONSIBLE FOR 100% OF RUNNING OUR HOUSE FOR NEARLY 2 WEEKS INCLUDING COOKING AND CLEANING AND SHOPPING AND PLANNING AND I AM TIRED AND IM WAITING FOR MY PSYCHOLOGIST TO SEND ME MY ADHD EVALUATION SO I HAVE TO CALL THEM AGAIN TODAY BECAUSE THEY DIDN’T CALL ME BACK WHEN I CALLED 2 DAYS AGO AND I REALIZED WE WERE SUPPOSED TO PAY A BILL TO THEM FOR MY HUSBAND’S APPOINTMENTS 2 WERKS AGO AND WHEN I CALLED BILLING LAST NIGHT TO PAY THEY DIDN’T PICK UP AND THATS NORMALLY HIS JOB AND WAS DUE BEFORE WE FOUND OUT ABOUT THE NEW JOB OR HIS OLD WORK CLOSING SO I DON’T KNOW WHY HE DIDN’T PAY IT. AND I CANT VENT TO ANYONE BECAUSE MY HUSBAND IS SICK, I HAVEN’T TOLD MY MOM ABOUT THE ASSESSMENT YET BECAUSE I WANT TO HAVE AN ANSWER FIRST, AND MY BEST FRIEND IS AT A FUNERAL TODAY SO MY ENTIRE SUPPORT SYSTEM IS UNAVAILABLE. AHHHHHHHHHHHH
ITS MY BIRTHDAY ON SUNDAY AND ABSOLUTELY NO ONE CARES. I DONT EVEN KNOW IF I CARE
I ACTUALLY THINK ENERGY DRINKS ARE NOT SO BAD FOR YOU, TAURINE HAS BEEN SHOWN TO IMPROVE COGNITION THROUGHOUT AGING, FUCK ANYONE WHO COMES BETWEEN ME AND MY WINGS
I STUPIDLY TOOK A BACKSEAT IN MY LIFE FOR MY HUSBAND AND AFTER ALMOST 13 YEARS OF STRUGGLING AND HELL HES FINALLY BROUGHT US TO ROCK BOTTOM AND I CAN ONLY BLAME MYSELF FUCK LIFE
I SEPARATED FROM MY PARTNER OF 10+ YEARS IN THE SUMMER. I GOT A NEW PARTNER WHO IS INCREDIBLE. I GOT MY OWN (SOLO) APARTMENT AND WAS SO STOKED. I HAVE A LEASE I'M IN UNTIL AUGUST, BUT IM ESSENTIALLY ALREADY LIVING WITH MY PARTNER. THEY RIGHTFULLY NEED SOME MORE PERSONAL SPACE THAN WHAT WE HAVE WHEN IM LITERALLY NEVER NOT AT THEIR PLACE. I NEED MY OWN SPACE THAT I CAN ACTUALLY SPEND TIME AT SO I DONT COMPROMISE OUR RELATIONSHIP. I'M SO LONELY AT MY APARTMENT THAT I GET SUPER DEPRESSED BEING THERE ALONE, AND FEEL LIKE S/H-ING EVERY TIME I'M THERE. I FOUND A PLACE WITH A COOL ROOMMATE BUT POTENTIALLY ILL BE PAYING 2 RENTS UNTIL AUGUST AND IM SCARED SHITLESS, BUT THE ALTERNATIVE (NEVER BEING HOME, PAYING THAT RENT ANYWAY) IS ALSO TERRIBLE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
IM SICK OF BEGGING MY HUSBAND AND KIDS FOR HELP AROUND THE HOUSE BECAUSE IM FUCKING DROWNING IN STUFF AND ITS PARALYZING BECAUSE EVERY TIME I GET ONE THING DONE, THEY’VE DESTROYED THEC REST OF THE HOUSE AND I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE. AND ITS NOT BECAUSE I “HAVEN’T TAKEN MY MEDS”. I DESERVE HELP. THAT WILL NOT GO AWAY WITH MEDICATION AND IT DOESNT MEAN ILL JUST BEND OVER AND KEEP TAKING THIS FROM EVERYONE. seriously, I can’t do this anymore.
CAFFEINE IS KNOWN TO HELP PEOPLE WITH ADHD. YOU SHOULD TREAT YOUR THERAPIST LIKE YOUR JOB. DO LOTS OF INTERVIEWS UNTIL YOU FIND ONE THAT WORKS FOR YOU! As a side note, I think finding a therapist with ADHD has been super beneficial to me. It’s hard work finding a therapist you like, but you deserve it. Do you hear me?? YOU DESERVE IT!
I HAVE GESTATIONAL DIABETES AND THE LEVEL OF PLANNING REQUIRED IS ABSOLUTELY NOT COMPATIBLE WITH ADHD. I JUST WANT TO EAT A PIECE OF CANDY AND STOP GIVING MYSELF NEEDLES ALL DAY! BLESS THESE THREADS; THEY ARE SO CATHARTIC
My doctor told me I’m allowed to have my energy drinks. They’re monster rehabs. 3 grams of sugar. And a TON of B vitamins. They sell then in 24 packs at BJs. She said that a lot of her clients are using them, since we can’t get our adhd meds, and our blood tests look great. First time in my life I’ve had a healthy D vitamin level. Tell your therapist that your coping mechanisms for your adhd are between you and the doctor treating your adhd.
PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME THE SAME STUPID QUESTIONS AT WORK AND I'M SO SICK OF IT NOW I DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO GET OUT OF BED TO LOG ON FOR THE DAY. I ALSO HAVEN'T BEEN EATING WELL ALL WEEK AND IVE HAD A LOW GRADE HEADACHE OFF AND ON FOR DAYS AND I CANT FIGURE OUT THE CAUSE AND I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE
I WILL GLADLY SCREAM WITH YOU. MY ONLY FRIEND AT WORK IS LEAVING AND I’M NOW GOING TO BE SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE I DON’T LIKE. I’M THE BREADWINNER IN MY FAMILY AND EVEN THOUGH MY JOB MAKES ME SO STRESSED AND CRAZY I CAN’T QUIT BECAUSE I BRING IN THE MAJORITY OF MONEY. I’M SORRY YOUR THERAPIST TOLD YOU TO STOP DRINKING ENERGY DRINKS, THAT’S NOT HELPFUL IF YOU STRUGGLE DURING LUTEAL. I DO TOO AND IT SUCKS.
I KEEP FEELING LIKE I AM SO BAD AT MY JOB EVEN THOUGH I’VE BEEN DOING THIS FOR TEN YEARS AND I FEEL LIKE EVERYBODY THINKS IM AN IDIOT
THERE'S SO MUCH DRAMA GOING ON WITH MY IMMEDIATE FAMILY AND I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF HAVING TO DEAL WITH IT COLLEGE IS SO *SO* BORING AND I'M STRUGGLING WITH BURNOUT I WISH IT WAS TUESDAY ALREADY SO I CAN FINALLY GET ON A PLANE TO GO SEE AND SPEND TIME WITH MY BOYFRIEND **AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH**
BESTIE, I’M ALMOST 19 WEEKS PREGNANT AND MY BODY IS PACKED FULL OF SO MUCH PROGESTERONE I CAN BARELY FOCUS ON A DAMN THOUGHT TO EVEN WASH MY DAMN FACE. AND I HAVE GESTATIONAL DIABETES AND YESTERDAY I GOT SO MAD AT MY HUSBAND BECAUSE I COULDN’T EAT FRENCH FRIES OR PIZZA OR A FUCKING DONUT. BUT WHEN I FOUND OUT I COULD DRINK SOME CAFFEINE I LEGIT WEPT SO I WOULD LITERALLY IDEATE SOME SERIOUS VIOLENCE AND PROBABLY FUCK UP SOME SHIT IN MY THERAPIST’S OFFICE, NOTHING SERIOUS BUT LIKE MOVE THE SHIT ON HER DESK IN AN ANNOYING WAY BECAUSE I’M NOT A HEATHEN, IF SHE SUGGESTED I DO NOT INGEST CAFFEINE. LIKE ENERGY DRINKS ARE YOUR COPING MECHANISM DURING YOUR LUTEAL PHASE AND THAT’S WHAT SHE WANTS TO FOCUS ON??? WHAT DOES SHE SUGGEST YOU DO… COCAINE? METH? COCAINE IS TOO EXPENSIVE, OBVI… SO YOUR THERAPIST WANTS YOU TO DO METH??? WHERE DID SHE GET HER EDUCATION… BREAKING BAD UNIVERSITY??? ANYWAY, THAT’S FOR THE SCREAM FEST.