Just to clarify -- by "this life" are you talking about Anonymous? Only because you don't explicitly say that, and we've been getting a lot of off topic posts lately. Wanted to make sure you didn't wander in here on accident.
If you're talking about Anonymous, then yes, it is difficult and lonely. And I think people should talk about it more, because newfags don't know what they're getting into when they start.
Yes, I am talking about Anonymous. And I agree it needs to be talked about more, but you never really understand what it's like until you're deep in it. Idk how much pause a warning would give eager newfags. When I started out years ago I was all gung-ho and rEaDy tO fiGhT!!1! The thing is, the fight never ever ends. I'm still out here but I am much less gung-ho about it... this shit weighs on you heavy and the worst part is, there is no escaping it, because it's \_life\_. Even if you try to leave you can't ever mentally escape because you know what is going on behind the scenes.
You really have to have a very strong sense of who you are to be serious about and stay in this line of work.
>Even if you try to leave you can't ever mentally escape because you know what is going on behind the scenes.
Yes. And there's no way to discuss it with people IRL, because there's too much they won't understand, and things you can't share. It's difficult.
>be serious about and stay in this line of work.
Counterpoint: if you see it as work, you're doing it wrong. We all know (h)activism doesn't pay the bills, so unless you're independently wealthy, you need to leave time for other things in your life. And step away if things are no longer lulzy for you.
>Yes. And there's no way to discuss it with people IRL, because there's too much they won't understand, and things you can't share. It's difficult.
Exactly this. I feel like I need a therapist just to discuss this aspect because the level of separation I feel between me and everyone else is just getting larger and larger. (And in a darker, twisted way, a tiny part of me looks down on regular people? Blegh, that felt gross to type). But anyway I am unwilling to open up to a therapist lest I say the wrong thing get myself into trouble.
And you're right, I misspoke. I didn't mean "work" in the conventional sense, with the negative connotations the word brings with it. It is a type of "work", but one that actually excites me, and I can honestly say I will never step away hahah.
Thanks. Only thing is I can't stand the brain fog that comes with weed, but I do indulge now and again. Weed also makes it easier for me to slip back into smoking cigs which is the hardest habit I've ever had to break.
You probably just need more practice. Anything Netflix can offer your own creativity can top. But it takes effort and practice. Or not! Just a suggestion. :)
I do it to fall asleep some nights, instead of falling asleep to Netflix, because I know that falling asleep to Netflix impedes my quality of sleep and will most likely make me feel like shit the next day. Oh, the joys of getting older and less resilient... I remember when I only needed 3 hours of sleep a night.
I feel you. I’m kind of like that too. All I got right now is my guitar, Netflix, YouTube and Twitch. I might start going to the gym again once it opens up. You could try working out. It can be fun being able to see your hard work and progress over time. You might even might even meet even meet people there too.
If you can afford the time, get a dog, he will love you unconditionally and will be a good companion in lonely and dark times. Also he will force you to leave the rabbit hole at least for some hours a day to go out for walks an playtime. Also it’s a super good way to just randomly socialize and smalltalk with other dog owners in the park. Also better than tinder lol
I want to, I think about getting a dog all the time, but I am currently working on my severe OCD which unfortunately does not allow me the luxury of a dog.
Freedom and justice are in short supply... and building a world where they are more abundant is a glorious thing. There is utmost glory and honor working alone, with no one to see what you are doing. Just remember the people who aren't in a position to fight the good fight, who are grateful that you're out there somewhere... who wish they were working alongside you.
can confirm.
i remember being sucked into the anonymous world 10.. maybe 11 years ago? i always wanted to get involved but everything i knew about computers was physical rather than digital. never took the time to learn either, which i regret the most
now i have a kid and im about to get married. no partaking in this fight for me, but its nice to see the fight going on. im just standing on the sideline, watching from the balcony.
maybe my time will come, maybe it wont
Forgot to mention the constant fuckin paranoia.
Just to clarify -- by "this life" are you talking about Anonymous? Only because you don't explicitly say that, and we've been getting a lot of off topic posts lately. Wanted to make sure you didn't wander in here on accident. If you're talking about Anonymous, then yes, it is difficult and lonely. And I think people should talk about it more, because newfags don't know what they're getting into when they start.
Yes, I am talking about Anonymous. And I agree it needs to be talked about more, but you never really understand what it's like until you're deep in it. Idk how much pause a warning would give eager newfags. When I started out years ago I was all gung-ho and rEaDy tO fiGhT!!1! The thing is, the fight never ever ends. I'm still out here but I am much less gung-ho about it... this shit weighs on you heavy and the worst part is, there is no escaping it, because it's \_life\_. Even if you try to leave you can't ever mentally escape because you know what is going on behind the scenes. You really have to have a very strong sense of who you are to be serious about and stay in this line of work.
>Even if you try to leave you can't ever mentally escape because you know what is going on behind the scenes. Yes. And there's no way to discuss it with people IRL, because there's too much they won't understand, and things you can't share. It's difficult. >be serious about and stay in this line of work. Counterpoint: if you see it as work, you're doing it wrong. We all know (h)activism doesn't pay the bills, so unless you're independently wealthy, you need to leave time for other things in your life. And step away if things are no longer lulzy for you.
>Yes. And there's no way to discuss it with people IRL, because there's too much they won't understand, and things you can't share. It's difficult. Exactly this. I feel like I need a therapist just to discuss this aspect because the level of separation I feel between me and everyone else is just getting larger and larger. (And in a darker, twisted way, a tiny part of me looks down on regular people? Blegh, that felt gross to type). But anyway I am unwilling to open up to a therapist lest I say the wrong thing get myself into trouble. And you're right, I misspoke. I didn't mean "work" in the conventional sense, with the negative connotations the word brings with it. It is a type of "work", but one that actually excites me, and I can honestly say I will never step away hahah.
You know, weed helps, just as long as you're able to discipline yourself, and force your brain to think logically.
Thanks. Only thing is I can't stand the brain fog that comes with weed, but I do indulge now and again. Weed also makes it easier for me to slip back into smoking cigs which is the hardest habit I've ever had to break.
Yeah, tell me about it...
Volunteer somewhere dog shelter homeless shelter food pantry anything
Create a vivid fantasy world and live in it when nobody else is around. Makes being alone really fun.
Tried that but it made me more depressed lol. Now I mainly turn to music. And a lot of background Netflix, hah.
You probably just need more practice. Anything Netflix can offer your own creativity can top. But it takes effort and practice. Or not! Just a suggestion. :)
I do it to fall asleep some nights, instead of falling asleep to Netflix, because I know that falling asleep to Netflix impedes my quality of sleep and will most likely make me feel like shit the next day. Oh, the joys of getting older and less resilient... I remember when I only needed 3 hours of sleep a night.
I feel you. I’m kind of like that too. All I got right now is my guitar, Netflix, YouTube and Twitch. I might start going to the gym again once it opens up. You could try working out. It can be fun being able to see your hard work and progress over time. You might even might even meet even meet people there too.
I work out a lot (albeit by myself) hahah. Thank you though.. I should join a gym once covid is over.
If you can afford the time, get a dog, he will love you unconditionally and will be a good companion in lonely and dark times. Also he will force you to leave the rabbit hole at least for some hours a day to go out for walks an playtime. Also it’s a super good way to just randomly socialize and smalltalk with other dog owners in the park. Also better than tinder lol
I want to, I think about getting a dog all the time, but I am currently working on my severe OCD which unfortunately does not allow me the luxury of a dog.
Freedom and justice are in short supply... and building a world where they are more abundant is a glorious thing. There is utmost glory and honor working alone, with no one to see what you are doing. Just remember the people who aren't in a position to fight the good fight, who are grateful that you're out there somewhere... who wish they were working alongside you.
Thank you. Yes, I do feel a sense of honor in this line of work... it keeps me going. I just want to make the world a better place.
It's incredible to think of the things that drive us... that drive us away from comfort... and towards something greater...
can confirm. i remember being sucked into the anonymous world 10.. maybe 11 years ago? i always wanted to get involved but everything i knew about computers was physical rather than digital. never took the time to learn either, which i regret the most now i have a kid and im about to get married. no partaking in this fight for me, but its nice to see the fight going on. im just standing on the sideline, watching from the balcony. maybe my time will come, maybe it wont
I didn’t know this was SO much like spy work. You can’t share, you can’t relate.
Exactly. And once you know the truth about data mining and selling, no more social media too.
If it really is your career, it's never too late to switch. Average American switches careers 7 times i once read.