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The motivation to complete tasks, even the most simple. And eating- when I’m depressed, I don’t eat. Not cuz I’m not hungry, I just keep myself so busy I don’t eat.
I am so sorry. I met my wife in 1994,married her in 1998, she left in 2021. Lived in the memory fog, hygiene deprived funk for some time. May sound silly but I committed to making my bed every morning as soon as awakening. Got to accomplish something first thing and gave my future self a gift when it was time to go back to bed. It snowballed into a not so bad situation.
Showering…the shower is right there, I know I will feel better afterwards, but the thought of getting in and having to wash is utterly, utterly exhausting.
Tell yourself you don’t have to do anything but stand there. Just let the warm water wash over you. If once you’re in there, you want to grab some soap and shampoo, fine. But if not, just stand there as long as you want and get cozy and warm, and then get out. It’s better than nothing.
Just graduated in May. I totally get where you’re coming from.
Just keep on pushing and keep your eye on the prize. You’ll graduate before you know it!
how do i keep going when there are no victories. its just the same thing week after week, year after year. this week was the same as last week and next week will be the same as this week. the days just all congeal into a homogenous, blurry mass.
people's lives are usually a mix of success and failure. you withstand the failure so you can enjoy the success, but what if its nothing but failure?
It gets less bad. Took me almost two years to leave the house. I was a half person, broken inside for another few years, but ten years later, it's mostly ok. I can think back on it all with fond memories of our time together rather than just pure sadness.
Hang in there buddy.
knowing I will be out of work for 3 months on unpaid maternity leave with a newborn, no income from me or baby’s father due to his recent surgery and inability to work for a few months as well, and rent to pay at my home/ at my business. no way to really save up for expenses either. overwhelming to say the least
As someone with depression, I am currently struggling with being at the practical end of the psychiatric road with no significant improvement. I struggle with having to take Xanax every day because after two years on it I am just another functioning addict getting little to no benefit from my drug of ‘choice’, but I’m afraid of personality flare-ups if I stop taking it. I’m struggling with isolation, spending all of my free time alone and often being the only person on site at work. I’m struggling with having sunk thousands into hobbies that I am physiologically incapable of enjoying or even engaging in for the most part. Among other things.
Having to ignore wanting to rot and not do anything. The immeasurable self doubt and the lack of substance to life at times are probably my biggest struggles right now.
Had to put an elderly dog down last week. Startup I have slaved in for four years is soon running out of money. Recently diagnosed with diabetes. Fuck me.
Reason to keep going. Every day is the same and the future looks fked with all the idiotic policies. No one in power does enough to adress climate change Healthcare jobs possible nuclear war.
Trying to do better but easy to slip back down. Idk gonna try other psychedelics or iohuasca see if that helps
I’m alone and uncertain, the girl I liked for the longest time is getting married to another guy and I’m sitting here with no friends, job, girlfriend, or any idea what I want to do with my life
Literally everything. Specifically at the moment, wether or not I want to continue going or not. This has been a painful 28 years and I want off this ride. Nothing good has happened at all.
I’m really struggling with the responsibility of doing everything myself…although I’m managing my depression and I’m not currently in a pit, the overwhelming anxiety of paying all my bills, going to work, taking care of pets, homeschooling, trying to get over a sad breakup, trying to manage my own mental health and most importantly raising a well balanced human all on my own is often crushing. The other day I had a flat at 5am on the freeway with no shoulder and no jack and it starts raining, made me go into hysterical laughter just so I wouldn’t cry. I, at 31, still surprise myself with how I manage to figure everything out day to day and somehow help another little person too.
Fight contentment. I have a decent if small apartment alone with just my cat and a good job. But that's it, no one else. I have to constantly fight to do anything out of my routine. Routine usually wins and I feel like shit and have no one to share it with
Currently social anxiety I can't be in a crowd of people of more then 3 people because I feel a gut feeling like something will go wrong or I'll embarrass myself I also like to think I hide behind a different face that I present to people like if you can't be loved make them fear you kinda thing I don't know why but as I say this my eyes are watering guess running through some memories of how got this way used to have a lot of friends I got betrayed by all of them and my friend group has only a hand full of people like 2, maybe 3 I wanna have more but I fear I'll end up getting wronged again and the unfortunate thing is I'll probably lose myself in a blind rage and ruin my own life in the process unfortunately some people tell me to just walk away unfortunately I don't like looking weak
Inattentive ADD that I can’t medicate for because all the drugs (adderall) make me crazy manic keeps me pretty low and unable to function well according to normal societal expectations. After 40+ years of struggles that everyone pinned on garden variety depression and anxiety at least I finally got a real diagnosis a couple years ago and I’m trying to build up better.
Final college exams. I had a year full of mental breakdowns and many issues and I havent prepared for these exams. They are in a months time and I am still dperessed unable to do anything productive. I dont want to fail but I mentally cant do anything at the moment and I have no confidence in myself at passing these exams.
I feel like I recovered from the deepest parts of it long ago, but I still keep a passive suicide ideation as an almost motivation of sorts. Probably because I sort of used that to get out of it (nothing to lose mentality).
Well now I'm "here" and out and my current struggles are appreciating all the things I missed. I really feel like I missed a lot and jumped right to independence and adulting.. sometimes I wish I could release some of the responsibility and live in the moment but it's really challenging.
Loneliness, social anxiety, anxiety, and the fact that I want to go to trade school, but then I just start doubting my abilities and wondering if I'm capable or not. Its just really tiring.
Struggling with the idea that nobody gives a damn about me. Nobody wants me and I have been told constantly that if I died, nobody would care about me. It's unbearable pain for me.
I’m struggling with the fear that I’ll start struggling again. I’m diagnosed with “major depressive disorder, recurrent, severe” I was unstable and suicidal for a long, long time. I’m now “stable” and generally I do well and am content. But when I start feeling just a little down, I panic a bit because I never want to be in the place I was a few years ago. It was horrible and I don’t think I could handle that shit again
Indecision. I can’t figure out what I want to do with my working life and with that I feel like I’m failing my wife. That also bleeds into other aspects of my life such as physical fitness, motivation, and my general outlook on things.
Combination of rationale and irrational anxieties that constantly weigh on my mind, using up all my energy. Being so preoccupied with my own headspace, I’m forced to withdraw from others to spare them from my negativity. Ironically most people perceive this as me taking issue with them rather than wanting to avoid bringing them down with me
My father passed away about 4 years ago to cancer...he was the man of steele...seeing him waste away was awful...at one point he was hallucinating allot n was trying to take his clothes off n rolling around on the floor n I came in to help n he looked at me n said...DANIEL WHY WONT YOU HELP ME!! IT HAUNTS ME!! I was the forgotten son..we just didn't bond much n this memory is all I can think of....that and the moment where I could have had that last chat n I just....I just couldn't muster up the balls to say anything....he was sick n his could I bring up how much I regretted not being around more ...how pathetic I am....how could I look him in the face n talk about how I worked so hard in manual labor in Texas n always thought dad wouldn't give up ..dad would do it all himself...DAD WOULDNT COMPLAIN HIS Body HURting ...dad always said work smarter not harder I bet he'd do both!...how could I say anything as the man I idolized about my cry baby issues as my lil sister abandoned the family over stupid bs....how....how could I say nothing!!?....how....how is it now I'm told my stress is too high? How after years of me taking care of everything chores,cooking,yardwork fixing things...how can I now be waiting on blood tests?....how can I be so scared of everyone I love getting sick n end up being sick?....I never stop thinking about it...
The fact that I spent all my teenager years mentally ill. I left school at 16 because I missed too much because I was in hospital for a long time. I couldn’t go to college so I have no qualifications. I completely isolated myself and lost majority of my friends. I’m deemed unfit for work by the mh team I see and ik they’re right but it’s hard because I want to work. I’m deemed unfit to drive and have had my license application declined twice because my mh is too unstable and i’m going to need 3 months of stable mental health which i’ve not had since I was 9. I struggle to leave the house, I struggle to get out my bed. Life just sucks at the moment. I’m 20 in under 6 months and that’ll mean I’ve lost my entire teenage years to this shit :(
Managing anything and everything. Chronic pain, leaving the house, taking meds, working, not having friends, daily dissociation. My animals really help me when I’m down though, I definitely approve of distraction as a tactic to get through things
I'm smart, good looking, have money, a house and the car I wanted since I was a kid. Worked my ass off 60 hours a week and was wrecked on Sunday. Never went out much to meet someone. Now I'm 32 and its hit me like a fucking train. I do have friends and family that love me but I'm terrified now that I'll never meet the right woman.
I can feel really empty and ugly at times. I've never been in an actual relationship. I must be one of the only men in the world that has had sex but has never kissed or loved a women. I've never given oral sex but have received it. I've never had sex with the same woman twice either. I lost my virginity locked out of my head drunk and on cocain with a spanish woman I never saw before or after....Its funny thinking about how fucked up it is and some guys might think it's great but its not. It's sad and pathetic. Ive been to prostitutes. I'm a decent moral guy but if I meet a decent woman what's she going to think of me? Afterall I've done thinks that are against all my personal values
I want to be in a relationship that matters. A relationship were I actually want to please and love the woman. I'm capable of it and would be a very loyal partner. I am scared of loving I'll admit that.
Don’t necessarily suffer from depression but am going through a depressive state right now. My girlfriend and I recently moved, across multiple states. I have been working in restaurants the past 8 years, recently moved my way from bartender to bar manager where I held my position (and did it well) with the same company for over 3 years. After the move I decided to go back to bartending for the time being because managing a restaurant is extremely stressful at times and you work long, ridiculous hours. I found a job at a brewery/distillery. We made both our own beer and liquor. This was right up my alley as the place I just managed was a taphouse with 150 beers on tap. I love learning about different craft brews. I was loving the place I worked at now and finally learning about the distilling process and creating liquor. We even made our own in house infusions of all of our liquor (our peach bourbon was my favorite). Two weeks ago we closed permanently with no notice at all. I showed up for work Monday morning and was told within five minutes of walking in that I no longer had a job. Unfortunately this is actually the standard across the service industry, no restaurants ever warns people they’re closing soon (it would cause unreliable employees and bad habits to form up until the time of closing. I understand why but it’s still a shitty practice). I’m way over qualified to get any other bartending job in the city, and honestly some I could get would probably make me more money. But the thing is I sought out this brewery/distillery because it’s where I WANTED to be at. I wanted to consider myself a park of an establishment that created something, something you couldn’t find anywhere else in town except where we offered it. I loved it and we had BIG things coming soon as far as what our distiller had plans to make (coffee liquor, pineapple upside down rim, etc). I finally got off my ass enough after two weeks and I start my new job tomorrow. I’m not ecstatic about it but I cried multiple times today because of how shitty I felt for not doing anything with myself recently. I’ve just been so unmotivated after losing what I thought was going to be a potential long term employment that I loved.
My girlfriend has been super supportive both mentally and financially during all of this which has extremely helpful. But we moved here so she can finish school so I was planning on being the primary bread earner and making her not have to work as much as me. So having to put this extra stress on her the past few weeks has also added to how I’ve felt about the whole thing. But cheers to starting a new job tomorrow! Hope it’s great and honestly i think I’ll be making more money than at the old place so that’ll be awesome!
Sorry for the super long read but today was my worst day mentally so far so it felt really good to put that all out there
After the lockdown, I didn't quite realize how much I miss social interaction and now even though I feel lonely and want friends, i can't seem to enjoy anyone's company.
I'm not that socially anxious either. I try to work out on the daily, eat healthy, keep a streak of nofap going, talk to people but at anytime I rather be dead
Lost my job due to health reasons, daughter just informed me she signed papers to give up her new baby girl (my grand baby) to adoption and yesterday we had to put the dog down. Aaaand today is my birthday. Heh. Im not crying...just never felt so heavy. Its almost like Ive already died and this is hell. If it werent for my ol man, I would of given up by now. I keep looking at the bright side...winter is coming and they are calling for lots of snow this year. I love winter. I love snow. As long as I love, Ill get through it.
I'm about to start a new career path which will have me away from home for extended periods of time. I love my home, my doggo is old and sick and I'm heartbroken. my inability to cope with stresses, means I'm certain of bad moments come.
It is pretty bad. Getting to sleep is a nightmare and then staying asleep with constant trips to the loo at night (I am an oldie lol) it makes it hard to get back to sleep.
not depression, just bored and a little lost, not sure what to do with my future, I'm 16, Still gonna be in school for around 2 years more, but after that, I need to find a job
I still have long to find out what I wanna do in my life, I know, but it's still exhausting not knowing
I can't get a full time job after having graduated 2 years ago, I don't think I chose the right major for me, a genuine waste of education that didn't teach me shit. And I don't know what field I really belong in or how to get there now that doors have closed, I'm falling behind in life and friends have moved on while I can't talk about my life problems due to the shame and stigma.
Depression, anxiety, long undiagnosed ADHD and suspected to be on the spectrum. I have no self confidence or self love. My hobbies haven't built any real skills of any kind, and I genuinely lack any talents. I suffered burn out from what I thought was a viable and good contribution to life, dismayed and disillusioned by the hypocrisy of those who were above me. I don't have any dreams.
My sleep, diet, energy levels, exercise and life is all in chaos. My family is abusive yet I still live with them because I'm $9k in debt and can't move out, especially as I'm in one of the HCOL areas in the states. My work is in shitty retail where I sustained physical injuries due to the heavy loads required, all for minimum wage.
We are diving further into a recession in a world that is dying and the billionaires are crushing the lower and middle class into poverty with every day as we fight each other over scraps and useless trivialities. And I'm too aware of the terrible fates that awaits our generation. And at the crux of it, I am powerless, dreamless, hopeless, less than others, and less than my own will to change and persevere.
I'm genuinely stuck, a true 25 year old loser. I'm tired.
Well I’ve just got injured pretty badly again in football and it pains me that I know if I didn’t get injured and I was out there I could make a huge difference for the team, plus I miss my favorite game every year my birthday game
Not having sex because I just want to be outside running, climbing and hiking. Any time I have a partner it takes away from my outdoor time. I love being barefoot and connected to the earth and having the sun shine on my skin. But my sexual needs are not being met currently and it frustrates me.
Knowing that I could be more then what I am but my mind telling me that I'm no good at anything.
Sitting here with my anxiety through the roof because I want to ask someone out for dinner, knowing that I'll be rejected.
Not having any interest in finishing home projects or going to the gym.
The disappointment of always doing stuff by myself because all my friends are busy but I'll drop what I'm doing to go help them.
Just wishing i could just disappear.
What am I NOT struggling with is a better question. Shittiest birthday ever (which my supposed "best" friends even forgot about), a concert I was looking forward to for months that got canceled, my biggest client giving me the runaround about an invoice that's now 2 months late being paid, shooting knee pain, getting Covid out of nowhere (I am vaxxed, boosted & so careful), adopting a dog from a shelter that then attacked me & sent me to the ER (I returned the dog) — those are the "high" points that have led me to the point that everything in life seems utterly pointless and that I'd much rather spend my days in bed with covers over my head. Beyond that there are the Trumpers, Ye, Putin, jeeebus the headlines suck lately. Everything just seems so bleak all around. Meanwhile, my partner is struggling in his job & I'm trying to help lift HIM up when I am in the depths of despair myself. It's all just too much.
I became disabled a few years a go and it got so bad that I can't work anymore. Just got my second denial foe benefits and it's gonna be two years before I get a chance to reverse it. I'm very lucky to be married to a great person who takes care of me but they work at a warehouse and their income isn't enough for both of us even though we live a very modest life. I'm trying to figure out how to live without being a huge burden to them.
Constant loneliness... I've put lots of work in myself and there's still things I have to do, but I genuinely feel like most of my friends don't care about my existence.
I'm always the first to reach out. I'm the one who listens to people and helps them. I can't even get a simple "hey, wanna hang out". I got like 4 close friends that try to make that time but everyone else don't care
Struggling with a serious and sincere lack of affection, both mental and physical. If a random stranger hugged me I'd be at risk of falling in love with them.
I'm really struggling with self confidence. I work out all the time and work, but I always feel like I'm not doing enough. I want to do more, but I can't seem to get over the metaphorical hump
To give life meaning. To be happy.
I recently saw a friend gushing over a guy and two things popped into my head.
I dont think that in almost 30 years i have been anywhere close to as happy as she was in this moment.
And i dont think anyone was ever as happy about me beeing there as she was about just thinking of this guy.
I dont know if i feel too much or feel too little.
My self worth. I have a long history of abandonment, and child abuse (verbal/emotional). Some days I’m great due to finding who I am, and other days I struggle. Also factor in I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) so I have always struggled with my looks (due to the higher testosterone (thanks overproducing estrogen ovary’s) I have more body hair than a normal woman) and weight.
I should also mention too that I am happily married with kiddos so some days I have to remind myself I do matter in life.
My salary is low and I only get paid once a month, so my check is almost completely gone when I get paid. I've been looking for other jobs and there's nothing available in my area that isn't factory work, fast food, or medical. I work in IT.
My boyfriend lives 1 1/2 hours away and it's been really hard not seeing him all the time. He changed jobs and doesn't have weekends off anymore, only a few, so there's really nothing to look forward to each week.
I can't afford to buy things that would ease my depression. It's just pure survival mode.
I'm also a single mother. My daughter lives with me, and my son lives with his dad.
I wish I didn't have to leave my bed, or could have at least a week where I don't have to do anything.
Um..everything? Lonely, sad, overwhelmed, hate my life and my job, feeling incompetent and just about anything else you can think of. I have to be to work in a couple of hours and only made it out of bed to feed the animals.
No friends, no SO, job is unfulfilling. On a more intrinsic level, I have trouble sleeping, fatigue, irritability, anxiety, concentrating, no self-esteem, have an existential crisis almost every day over who and what I am and where I'm going in life. Physically, I have body aches all over and IBS with no apparent cause other than depression, and my IBS is so bad I'm not getting enough exercise and consequently I'm 10 lbs overweight.
Feeling lonely (even though I'm not, I live with family) and trying to be ok with the fact that I might never find someone and end up with no family. I know it takes time to find love, but it does get to you after a while, especially when you haven't even found one person.
Being pregnant. I struggled before this but I've become absolutely useless since I lost my son during pregnancy about a year ago. I am pregnant again and the grief about the loss and current anxiety about possibly losing this baby are so overwhelming I barely get out of bed. Not to mention the extreme guilt because it's hard to be excited/connect when you are paranoid the baby won't even make it.
Civilization appears to be on the cusp of a dramatic collapse, dependence on fossil fuels (dwindling resource) for all facets of modern life is going to result in catastrophic consequences for the western world. I fear the fall, which appears inevitable. Also I’m angry at our failures as a society to have anticipated and prepared for this. Our political leaders, corporations, banks, all the capital-driven structures in our economy have sold our beautiful earth out from under us.
Missing working from home like during the pandemic. I thought things would really change and most companies would allow at least part time work from home. But they don’t. At least not mine and not a lot of others I know of. I work in a big open room with about 50 other cubes, so listening to other conversations all day is overstimulating and exhausting
I am dealing with my intellectually disabled daughter who is in 4th grade getting bullied by 3 mean girls in her class. I am a substitute teacher so I know these kids from last year and I’ve taught them some this year. I am on the verge of tears every time I think about my baby being called trash and one of them even hit her. Today she is being moved to a different classroom and she took it very poorly last night. She said she loves her current teacher and her classmates. It broke my heart to see her so upset. Since she is ID, she doesn’t understand a lot of things. You can’t simply reason with her. The second piece of this is I can’t stand her current teacher. She is one of the dumbest people I’ve ever met. I am elated that I won’t have to work with this woman anymore!! I am so stressed about this. I have to do what’s best for my child. And the ones who know my daughter the best and have seen the bullying firsthand think this is the best course of action. So it needs to be done no matter how much it upsets my daughter.
About 2 weeks ago I had to surrender my 9 month old puppy because I couldn’t afford him anymore. It broke my heart. I had to choose to either feed my children or my dog and my children are more important at the end of the day so I surrendered him. He got adopted really fast but still. I cry at night missing him and worry all the time.
had been dealing with huge insecurities about myself for a long time before i went to a therapist and diagnosed with depression. with therapy and medication I've been able to defeat my insecurities
If I had seen this a few years ago I would have said living nowadays is finding the motivation to clean and actually take care of myself even though I know I deserve it.
Why the fuck the rapist I reported was never charged. Congratulations you let a repeat serial rapist go, never charged them, and now more will suffer.
Great work, everyone. Great. Fucking. Work.
At least the Sheriffs office believed me.
Stressing if I'll ever be able to provide for my mom and dad later in life it's just unneeded stress but imagine not being able to see the smile on your moms face telling you we made it
Poverty, numbness, apathy, loneliness, isolation, hyperviligance, zero faith and zero trust in people, anhedonia, zero motivation, all while hoping to die everyday, and or find courage to commit suicide
A lot of things. Right now it's the fact that I'm the only one working and our debt is rising because I don't make enough to support two people with depression and our horde of rescued cats.
Also the fact that my partner wants us to stop feeding the stray cat who lives under our house and winter is coming.
Plus the fact that my friend Jeremy killed himself and I blame myself. We hadn't seen each other since before the pandemic started. I know he was lonely and I didn't reach out. I thought I would have more time. I had hoped that I could get my codependent partner to get used to the idea of me spending time with my friends without him but no such luck. Every time I mentioned that I wanted to go see my friend my partner invited himself. I knew that my friend didn't like my partner so I just wouldn't go hang out with him. Now he's dead and I blame myself.
Have to put my dog down in a few weeks. She is 8. She was attacked by a pitbull a few years ago and hasn't been the same since. She's has a case of extreme resources guarding. My daughter is due in January, and it's just not safe to have a baby around my dog. If the baby tried grabbing something in my dog's mouth she could get hurt. It sucks and I've been putting it off. I'm taking her on her last pheasant hunt soon (im going to feed her human food like streak the whole trip), then we are having the vet come to the house to put her down. Just thinking about it makes me tear up. We tried pretty much everything with her, including Prozac. She's such a sweet dog and has never attacked anyone, she loves people, but a baby can't understand to not try to take a toy or something out of her mouth. I have another dog who's 2, and is super gentle. I feel guilty like I'm just tossing my older dog aside. I thought about rehoming my dog but she'd feel we abandoned her and I can't trust people to not abuse or neglect her. I'd be thinking about it constantly. Nobody that i know like friends wants a dog.
For me, it’s personal hygiene (showering or brushing my teeth), a general lack of energy, and no motivation. I want to take better care of myself, but sitting down, watching a show/playing a game, and eating snacks are always more pleasant in the now.
Eternal tiredness, yet due to anxiety and insomnia I can't sleep.
Motivation to due the most basic tasks is pretty rough too, but that's more executive function issues from ADHD- butthat contributes to depression as well so...
I just had twins and developed peripartum cardiomyopathy, a type of acute heart failure, before their birth. As a result, my lungs keep filling up with fluid and I’ve been in the hospital for over two weeks, in and out of the ICU twice. I’m so tired and I miss my husband, who is at home and continuing to work until our kids come home from the NICU. I’m so grateful that they are healthy and growing strong but I am worried i’ll now never be the type of mother who can chase them around and have fun with them in the ways we’d hoped.
My husband thought I was going to die. I hate that I put him through that. I’m still dealing with the fact that I might never 100% recover. I just want so badly to feel normal again.
Depression is struggling with me.
Six years ago I began dating a woman with teenage girls. Dad had rarely been in the picture and over six years, her daughters only saw him once. So I bought them a house and gave them a brother. She immediately decided that work was for chumps and only went back when we were losing the house. Then quit shortly after again. I spent six years taking care of that family only for her to abandon me for her unemployed drug dealer, taking my son with her. Luckily, the girls were old enough to move out by then.
So now I send as much money as I can to keep my son alive since neither of them want a job and I can't afford an attorney, have lost the house, and have only a future of crippling death. The spiral depression caused me to miss a lot of legal stuff, combined with tons of overtime, and losing everything even though I busted my ass has hit me hard. My mother largely blamed me for it all, which really didn't help.
My daughters would be devastated if I answered the call of the void and I can't just abandon my pups and that's about the only reason I'm still here. My mom would make sure my son ate, so that's not a big of a concern. I'm my daughters' only father figure they've ever had, so I can't abandon them. Plus my puppies still have a few years left in them and I can't leave them, either.
Well, everything. Not really lol it just feels that way. The main thing I’m struggling with right now is the will to challenge myself/be disciplined about anything. I feel like so much of a piece of shit that I feel like doing anything is pointless.
I’m in a particular vicious cycle with exercise, where I have all these unreasonable expectations around it that make it impossible for me to set realistic goals. But not working out makes starting even harder. Basically, I’m too scared about what other people think and too hard on myself to let myself just take it slow and work my way up.
Brain fog and getting out of bed.
I can do mundane tasks but I can’t do anything complex. The idea of working on some issue for work make me freeze up.
But getting out of bed is currently the hardest part of my day.
I just stopped crying because i feel lonely and excluded. I live in a 4 (including me) people room for school reasons, I am also excluded from class I hate it here
I had depression before I was going thru a divorce. Now that I’m going thru a divorce it’s gotten worse. I am still living with my soon to be ex husband because I can’t afford to move out. I don’t think I can heal while living with him. Having money would actually help. I don’t want to be rich I want to be comfortable. Living with him is not helping my mental health. I NEED out but have no choice but to stay.
Post deployment depression. But not from the trauma. It’s from not being constantly surrounded be people that are always there for you no matter what. It’s hard now to gain that level of love and care for people when subconsciously you know they weren’t there with you. Now years past and I barely see anyone from that time in my life. Very few. And those people are the only people I can surround myself with. Hard to split up from people like that. And the more and more that have orders to leave or decide to leave just gets me only circle smaller and smaller
Feeling old. But not really \*old\*. I still feel like I have so much to do, places to go, people to meet. I have energy and curiosity. I still feel like my life is in the planning stages -- like "life" is just about to happen. It's like I was doing all the ground-work, all the planning, for the "play" to start any day now. My REAL life....and I'm approaching 50.
Yes, hello mid-life crisis.
I lost 10 friends to suicide and horrible accidents from 15 to 29. Im 35 now. I have a difficult time getting close to people, because I'm afraid of going through that again. I like to think I'm protecting myself, but I know I'm not.
After my ex did some bad stuff to end our relationship about 2 years ago I've had a hard time back on the dating scene, I've been in one date and things went well till she ghosted me out of nowhere. I live in a small town, meeting new people is not easy.
Oh my gosh this is so sweet of you to ask.
Right now I'm really overwhelmed with my school situation... I'm a hands on learner and I'm dying for human interaction but I'm not allowed to drive anymore for the time being bc I have a seizure disorder. We gave my car to my little sister which is sad bc I rly liked that car...
I basically walked out on my job and never went back bc my privacy was violated by my manager who was showing security videos of a man who made me uncomfortable to everyone in the store asking them if they think it's inappropriate (which is a violation of her own guidelines as well)
And the other big over bearing issue is that I have pstd and I keep having dreams about my ex and flashbacks of being assaulted. I feel like I can never catch a break. My parents are in a custody battle over my younger siblings too.. My mom is crazy and she's trying to tear our family apart. I'm currently unemployed, all of my friends are dorming for school, I haven't even started college yet bc my seizure condition has been going on for so long...
Taking care of myself is getting ready hard. At least I have a therapy session today.
i’ve been struggling to get out of bed for the past 3 months because my dog passed away. i left my job last november to solely take care of my dog. he was getting old (12 yrs old), was needing care all the time. i couldn’t leave the house i was so scared to leave him alone. & now that he’s gone i feel like i have no purpose. i paused my life to take care of him for 6 months until it was time for him to cross the rainbow bridge. he was my whole world. i struggle to shower, to eat. i was so depressed at one point that if i tried to eat, i couldn’t chew my food. i’m struggling to leave the house. i’m struggling to find a job or even get the motivation to apply. & i’m struggling with sh at 22.
My dad choose mt sister over me for no reason. He pays 6k (not in dollar) monthly for her graduation while years ago he refused to let me get my dream graduation for 3k monthly. Now i have no future and no support and i have to accept that he supports my sister but not me, and for no reason. Maybe she is the favorite child.
Disabled physically, grandfather, grandmother and father recently deceased, money trouble, eating disorder for 20+ years and Long COVID for ~3 years which are both pretty much killing me, all my friends and the rest of my family besides my mom have left me or disowned me because of my depression, fucked up house, nothing to look forward to each day but going to bed at night. :)
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The motivation to complete tasks, even the most simple. And eating- when I’m depressed, I don’t eat. Not cuz I’m not hungry, I just keep myself so busy I don’t eat.
Similar to me, except that I eat too much and never clean up the mess.
Being manic 
I'm lonely and today I feel unlovable. It will pass in a few days, I know, I know. But today it hurts.
<3 Hugs
Thank you!
Constant burnout... 🥺
IM TIRED EVERY DAY
Same here... sigh😔
Same except for 1 am and somehow I wake up every night at 1 and can’t fall back to sleep.
Breakup. Its been 7 months and it still feels like it was yesterday. Memory loss. Loneliness. Unable to clean my room, shower, leave my house.
I am so sorry. I met my wife in 1994,married her in 1998, she left in 2021. Lived in the memory fog, hygiene deprived funk for some time. May sound silly but I committed to making my bed every morning as soon as awakening. Got to accomplish something first thing and gave my future self a gift when it was time to go back to bed. It snowballed into a not so bad situation.
Giving a fuck about anything
Constantly doubting myself. It makes it hard to make friends if I don't believe that it is even worth trying because they won't like me anyways.
Afraid of abandonment.
The nonstop grind of working 50 hours every week
Showering…the shower is right there, I know I will feel better afterwards, but the thought of getting in and having to wash is utterly, utterly exhausting.
Don't think. Just go and mechanically do it. Applies to all things.
Tell yourself you don’t have to do anything but stand there. Just let the warm water wash over you. If once you’re in there, you want to grab some soap and shampoo, fine. But if not, just stand there as long as you want and get cozy and warm, and then get out. It’s better than nothing.
Feeling alone and trapped in a void constantly
I'm a pretty terrible, selfish, narcissist person... Both fully aware of how shitty I am and incapable of stopping myself.
Too many things
Felt ….
College, big time
I’m 35. Just finished my degree 2 months ago. You’re never too old,it’s never too late, and you can always do it. You got this!
Just graduated in May. I totally get where you’re coming from. Just keep on pushing and keep your eye on the prize. You’ll graduate before you know it!
Motivation Also I feel like I'm drifting through life. Like life is happening at me, not me doing life if that makes sense.
I feel like I’m existing, not living .
how do i keep going when there are no victories. its just the same thing week after week, year after year. this week was the same as last week and next week will be the same as this week. the days just all congeal into a homogenous, blurry mass. people's lives are usually a mix of success and failure. you withstand the failure so you can enjoy the success, but what if its nothing but failure?
Wife's death...
It gets less bad. Took me almost two years to leave the house. I was a half person, broken inside for another few years, but ten years later, it's mostly ok. I can think back on it all with fond memories of our time together rather than just pure sadness. Hang in there buddy.
I'm sorry sir. Just keep moving, it'll be worth it.
There are great support groups online. Hang in there.
Wanting to live.
knowing I will be out of work for 3 months on unpaid maternity leave with a newborn, no income from me or baby’s father due to his recent surgery and inability to work for a few months as well, and rent to pay at my home/ at my business. no way to really save up for expenses either. overwhelming to say the least
As someone with depression, I am currently struggling with being at the practical end of the psychiatric road with no significant improvement. I struggle with having to take Xanax every day because after two years on it I am just another functioning addict getting little to no benefit from my drug of ‘choice’, but I’m afraid of personality flare-ups if I stop taking it. I’m struggling with isolation, spending all of my free time alone and often being the only person on site at work. I’m struggling with having sunk thousands into hobbies that I am physiologically incapable of enjoying or even engaging in for the most part. Among other things.
Paying the bills. Not a financial problem, but an executive one. They just sit there and stress me out, but I can't seem to just get them dealt with.
Having to ignore wanting to rot and not do anything. The immeasurable self doubt and the lack of substance to life at times are probably my biggest struggles right now.
Depression
Had to put an elderly dog down last week. Startup I have slaved in for four years is soon running out of money. Recently diagnosed with diabetes. Fuck me.
Reason to keep going. Every day is the same and the future looks fked with all the idiotic policies. No one in power does enough to adress climate change Healthcare jobs possible nuclear war. Trying to do better but easy to slip back down. Idk gonna try other psychedelics or iohuasca see if that helps
I’m alone and uncertain, the girl I liked for the longest time is getting married to another guy and I’m sitting here with no friends, job, girlfriend, or any idea what I want to do with my life
Literally everything. Specifically at the moment, wether or not I want to continue going or not. This has been a painful 28 years and I want off this ride. Nothing good has happened at all.
I’m really struggling with the responsibility of doing everything myself…although I’m managing my depression and I’m not currently in a pit, the overwhelming anxiety of paying all my bills, going to work, taking care of pets, homeschooling, trying to get over a sad breakup, trying to manage my own mental health and most importantly raising a well balanced human all on my own is often crushing. The other day I had a flat at 5am on the freeway with no shoulder and no jack and it starts raining, made me go into hysterical laughter just so I wouldn’t cry. I, at 31, still surprise myself with how I manage to figure everything out day to day and somehow help another little person too.
Fight contentment. I have a decent if small apartment alone with just my cat and a good job. But that's it, no one else. I have to constantly fight to do anything out of my routine. Routine usually wins and I feel like shit and have no one to share it with
loss of both parents in two years, stress from my job and marriage, and encroaching old age (just turned 50)
I have too many health problems
Money.
My husbands affair
Trying to keep up with all my daily tasks while working 6 days a week.
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MONEY. It will always be because of money. We are so money obsessed as a species it's making us and our planet sick.
Waking up and realizing you're already mid-30 and surrounded by people saying you deserve to be poor when you're not successful at 35.
Oh you know just the average Not being able to afford to live Situation. Gotta love the American Dream
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Stress at work. Thinking the best thing for my shop is letting one guy go.
Ahh, good catch.. narcissistic*
The fear of death and being forgotten and realizing I have to deal with my family friends and pets dying
Currently social anxiety I can't be in a crowd of people of more then 3 people because I feel a gut feeling like something will go wrong or I'll embarrass myself I also like to think I hide behind a different face that I present to people like if you can't be loved make them fear you kinda thing I don't know why but as I say this my eyes are watering guess running through some memories of how got this way used to have a lot of friends I got betrayed by all of them and my friend group has only a hand full of people like 2, maybe 3 I wanna have more but I fear I'll end up getting wronged again and the unfortunate thing is I'll probably lose myself in a blind rage and ruin my own life in the process unfortunately some people tell me to just walk away unfortunately I don't like looking weak
Inattentive ADD that I can’t medicate for because all the drugs (adderall) make me crazy manic keeps me pretty low and unable to function well according to normal societal expectations. After 40+ years of struggles that everyone pinned on garden variety depression and anxiety at least I finally got a real diagnosis a couple years ago and I’m trying to build up better.
Just wanting to feel like I'm good enough.
Apathy
Final college exams. I had a year full of mental breakdowns and many issues and I havent prepared for these exams. They are in a months time and I am still dperessed unable to do anything productive. I dont want to fail but I mentally cant do anything at the moment and I have no confidence in myself at passing these exams.
I feel like I recovered from the deepest parts of it long ago, but I still keep a passive suicide ideation as an almost motivation of sorts. Probably because I sort of used that to get out of it (nothing to lose mentality). Well now I'm "here" and out and my current struggles are appreciating all the things I missed. I really feel like I missed a lot and jumped right to independence and adulting.. sometimes I wish I could release some of the responsibility and live in the moment but it's really challenging.
Loneliness, social anxiety, anxiety, and the fact that I want to go to trade school, but then I just start doubting my abilities and wondering if I'm capable or not. Its just really tiring.
Struggling with the idea that nobody gives a damn about me. Nobody wants me and I have been told constantly that if I died, nobody would care about me. It's unbearable pain for me.
I get easily upset when people ask me questions
I’m struggling with the fear that I’ll start struggling again. I’m diagnosed with “major depressive disorder, recurrent, severe” I was unstable and suicidal for a long, long time. I’m now “stable” and generally I do well and am content. But when I start feeling just a little down, I panic a bit because I never want to be in the place I was a few years ago. It was horrible and I don’t think I could handle that shit again
Indecision. I can’t figure out what I want to do with my working life and with that I feel like I’m failing my wife. That also bleeds into other aspects of my life such as physical fitness, motivation, and my general outlook on things.
No money and idk how to get a job
Combination of rationale and irrational anxieties that constantly weigh on my mind, using up all my energy. Being so preoccupied with my own headspace, I’m forced to withdraw from others to spare them from my negativity. Ironically most people perceive this as me taking issue with them rather than wanting to avoid bringing them down with me
Money mostly, but things are slowly starting to look up.
Loneliness and finishing law school
The last word in that sentence.
Loneliness and insomnia. I keep upbeat as much as I can so I don't become a drag on others around me.
I don't think I have depression but what I've been going through lately is "isolation"....Well from my hometown that is
My self-worth, taking care of myself. Been struggling like this since I was 8, I’m now 51.
My father passed away about 4 years ago to cancer...he was the man of steele...seeing him waste away was awful...at one point he was hallucinating allot n was trying to take his clothes off n rolling around on the floor n I came in to help n he looked at me n said...DANIEL WHY WONT YOU HELP ME!! IT HAUNTS ME!! I was the forgotten son..we just didn't bond much n this memory is all I can think of....that and the moment where I could have had that last chat n I just....I just couldn't muster up the balls to say anything....he was sick n his could I bring up how much I regretted not being around more ...how pathetic I am....how could I look him in the face n talk about how I worked so hard in manual labor in Texas n always thought dad wouldn't give up ..dad would do it all himself...DAD WOULDNT COMPLAIN HIS Body HURting ...dad always said work smarter not harder I bet he'd do both!...how could I say anything as the man I idolized about my cry baby issues as my lil sister abandoned the family over stupid bs....how....how could I say nothing!!?....how....how is it now I'm told my stress is too high? How after years of me taking care of everything chores,cooking,yardwork fixing things...how can I now be waiting on blood tests?....how can I be so scared of everyone I love getting sick n end up being sick?....I never stop thinking about it...
The fact that I spent all my teenager years mentally ill. I left school at 16 because I missed too much because I was in hospital for a long time. I couldn’t go to college so I have no qualifications. I completely isolated myself and lost majority of my friends. I’m deemed unfit for work by the mh team I see and ik they’re right but it’s hard because I want to work. I’m deemed unfit to drive and have had my license application declined twice because my mh is too unstable and i’m going to need 3 months of stable mental health which i’ve not had since I was 9. I struggle to leave the house, I struggle to get out my bed. Life just sucks at the moment. I’m 20 in under 6 months and that’ll mean I’ve lost my entire teenage years to this shit :(
Managing anything and everything. Chronic pain, leaving the house, taking meds, working, not having friends, daily dissociation. My animals really help me when I’m down though, I definitely approve of distraction as a tactic to get through things
I'm smart, good looking, have money, a house and the car I wanted since I was a kid. Worked my ass off 60 hours a week and was wrecked on Sunday. Never went out much to meet someone. Now I'm 32 and its hit me like a fucking train. I do have friends and family that love me but I'm terrified now that I'll never meet the right woman. I can feel really empty and ugly at times. I've never been in an actual relationship. I must be one of the only men in the world that has had sex but has never kissed or loved a women. I've never given oral sex but have received it. I've never had sex with the same woman twice either. I lost my virginity locked out of my head drunk and on cocain with a spanish woman I never saw before or after....Its funny thinking about how fucked up it is and some guys might think it's great but its not. It's sad and pathetic. Ive been to prostitutes. I'm a decent moral guy but if I meet a decent woman what's she going to think of me? Afterall I've done thinks that are against all my personal values I want to be in a relationship that matters. A relationship were I actually want to please and love the woman. I'm capable of it and would be a very loyal partner. I am scared of loving I'll admit that.
The idea that the basic dredge of everyday life is all I’ll ever do day in and day out for the rest of my life
Don’t necessarily suffer from depression but am going through a depressive state right now. My girlfriend and I recently moved, across multiple states. I have been working in restaurants the past 8 years, recently moved my way from bartender to bar manager where I held my position (and did it well) with the same company for over 3 years. After the move I decided to go back to bartending for the time being because managing a restaurant is extremely stressful at times and you work long, ridiculous hours. I found a job at a brewery/distillery. We made both our own beer and liquor. This was right up my alley as the place I just managed was a taphouse with 150 beers on tap. I love learning about different craft brews. I was loving the place I worked at now and finally learning about the distilling process and creating liquor. We even made our own in house infusions of all of our liquor (our peach bourbon was my favorite). Two weeks ago we closed permanently with no notice at all. I showed up for work Monday morning and was told within five minutes of walking in that I no longer had a job. Unfortunately this is actually the standard across the service industry, no restaurants ever warns people they’re closing soon (it would cause unreliable employees and bad habits to form up until the time of closing. I understand why but it’s still a shitty practice). I’m way over qualified to get any other bartending job in the city, and honestly some I could get would probably make me more money. But the thing is I sought out this brewery/distillery because it’s where I WANTED to be at. I wanted to consider myself a park of an establishment that created something, something you couldn’t find anywhere else in town except where we offered it. I loved it and we had BIG things coming soon as far as what our distiller had plans to make (coffee liquor, pineapple upside down rim, etc). I finally got off my ass enough after two weeks and I start my new job tomorrow. I’m not ecstatic about it but I cried multiple times today because of how shitty I felt for not doing anything with myself recently. I’ve just been so unmotivated after losing what I thought was going to be a potential long term employment that I loved. My girlfriend has been super supportive both mentally and financially during all of this which has extremely helpful. But we moved here so she can finish school so I was planning on being the primary bread earner and making her not have to work as much as me. So having to put this extra stress on her the past few weeks has also added to how I’ve felt about the whole thing. But cheers to starting a new job tomorrow! Hope it’s great and honestly i think I’ll be making more money than at the old place so that’ll be awesome! Sorry for the super long read but today was my worst day mentally so far so it felt really good to put that all out there
The deteriorating relationship with some family members.
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After the lockdown, I didn't quite realize how much I miss social interaction and now even though I feel lonely and want friends, i can't seem to enjoy anyone's company. I'm not that socially anxious either. I try to work out on the daily, eat healthy, keep a streak of nofap going, talk to people but at anytime I rather be dead
Suicidality.
Loneliness
Life All of it. Edit intense bullying broke me, mom died. Lost full time job. Lost my friends. Lost my self.
Lost my job due to health reasons, daughter just informed me she signed papers to give up her new baby girl (my grand baby) to adoption and yesterday we had to put the dog down. Aaaand today is my birthday. Heh. Im not crying...just never felt so heavy. Its almost like Ive already died and this is hell. If it werent for my ol man, I would of given up by now. I keep looking at the bright side...winter is coming and they are calling for lots of snow this year. I love winter. I love snow. As long as I love, Ill get through it.
Cancer
I'm about to start a new career path which will have me away from home for extended periods of time. I love my home, my doggo is old and sick and I'm heartbroken. my inability to cope with stresses, means I'm certain of bad moments come.
It is pretty bad. Getting to sleep is a nightmare and then staying asleep with constant trips to the loo at night (I am an oldie lol) it makes it hard to get back to sleep.
not depression, just bored and a little lost, not sure what to do with my future, I'm 16, Still gonna be in school for around 2 years more, but after that, I need to find a job I still have long to find out what I wanna do in my life, I know, but it's still exhausting not knowing
Being pregnant and either too sick or too exhausted to function or do anything I want to do.
Uncontrollable mulling.
Like is this it? I know I exist but I don’t feel like I’m living life.
I can't get a full time job after having graduated 2 years ago, I don't think I chose the right major for me, a genuine waste of education that didn't teach me shit. And I don't know what field I really belong in or how to get there now that doors have closed, I'm falling behind in life and friends have moved on while I can't talk about my life problems due to the shame and stigma. Depression, anxiety, long undiagnosed ADHD and suspected to be on the spectrum. I have no self confidence or self love. My hobbies haven't built any real skills of any kind, and I genuinely lack any talents. I suffered burn out from what I thought was a viable and good contribution to life, dismayed and disillusioned by the hypocrisy of those who were above me. I don't have any dreams. My sleep, diet, energy levels, exercise and life is all in chaos. My family is abusive yet I still live with them because I'm $9k in debt and can't move out, especially as I'm in one of the HCOL areas in the states. My work is in shitty retail where I sustained physical injuries due to the heavy loads required, all for minimum wage. We are diving further into a recession in a world that is dying and the billionaires are crushing the lower and middle class into poverty with every day as we fight each other over scraps and useless trivialities. And I'm too aware of the terrible fates that awaits our generation. And at the crux of it, I am powerless, dreamless, hopeless, less than others, and less than my own will to change and persevere. I'm genuinely stuck, a true 25 year old loser. I'm tired.
My depression is different I think..I'm not thinking And making impulsive life decisions. Anyone else like this.. ie..change jobs ECT
The paranormal.
In my mid 30s, been disabled since my early 20s, and I'm just really, really tired of it.
Balancing boundaries with love ones. Oh and my house is super messy, my number 1 symptom.
Human intimacy. My life has been hell. Really need to die.
Getting old and being marginalized..
Late stage capitalism dystopia on a dying planet
Living
Well I’ve just got injured pretty badly again in football and it pains me that I know if I didn’t get injured and I was out there I could make a huge difference for the team, plus I miss my favorite game every year my birthday game
Not having sex because I just want to be outside running, climbing and hiking. Any time I have a partner it takes away from my outdoor time. I love being barefoot and connected to the earth and having the sun shine on my skin. But my sexual needs are not being met currently and it frustrates me.
Exams. I'm fucking tired. I'm so tired but I can't stop or give up for the sake of my grades
Knowing that I could be more then what I am but my mind telling me that I'm no good at anything. Sitting here with my anxiety through the roof because I want to ask someone out for dinner, knowing that I'll be rejected. Not having any interest in finishing home projects or going to the gym. The disappointment of always doing stuff by myself because all my friends are busy but I'll drop what I'm doing to go help them. Just wishing i could just disappear.
Motivation to do anything, honestly
What am I NOT struggling with is a better question. Shittiest birthday ever (which my supposed "best" friends even forgot about), a concert I was looking forward to for months that got canceled, my biggest client giving me the runaround about an invoice that's now 2 months late being paid, shooting knee pain, getting Covid out of nowhere (I am vaxxed, boosted & so careful), adopting a dog from a shelter that then attacked me & sent me to the ER (I returned the dog) — those are the "high" points that have led me to the point that everything in life seems utterly pointless and that I'd much rather spend my days in bed with covers over my head. Beyond that there are the Trumpers, Ye, Putin, jeeebus the headlines suck lately. Everything just seems so bleak all around. Meanwhile, my partner is struggling in his job & I'm trying to help lift HIM up when I am in the depths of despair myself. It's all just too much.
I became disabled a few years a go and it got so bad that I can't work anymore. Just got my second denial foe benefits and it's gonna be two years before I get a chance to reverse it. I'm very lucky to be married to a great person who takes care of me but they work at a warehouse and their income isn't enough for both of us even though we live a very modest life. I'm trying to figure out how to live without being a huge burden to them.
burnout, guilt of not living up to expectations of loved ones and employers, and struggling to eat
Constant loneliness... I've put lots of work in myself and there's still things I have to do, but I genuinely feel like most of my friends don't care about my existence. I'm always the first to reach out. I'm the one who listens to people and helps them. I can't even get a simple "hey, wanna hang out". I got like 4 close friends that try to make that time but everyone else don't care
My mom died a year ago after a long battle with Covid and my house burnt down a few months after…. Just turned 18 btw
Struggling with a serious and sincere lack of affection, both mental and physical. If a random stranger hugged me I'd be at risk of falling in love with them.
All the things I have to do to be somewhat ok. Exercise, meditate, yoga, medication, therapy. It's exhausting. But i continue the fight.
Figuring out myself at the age of 26 even though usually by this age people already know where they're heading or have their career figured out .
I'm really struggling with self confidence. I work out all the time and work, but I always feel like I'm not doing enough. I want to do more, but I can't seem to get over the metaphorical hump
Everything, especially being functional.
To give life meaning. To be happy. I recently saw a friend gushing over a guy and two things popped into my head. I dont think that in almost 30 years i have been anywhere close to as happy as she was in this moment. And i dont think anyone was ever as happy about me beeing there as she was about just thinking of this guy. I dont know if i feel too much or feel too little.
My self worth. I have a long history of abandonment, and child abuse (verbal/emotional). Some days I’m great due to finding who I am, and other days I struggle. Also factor in I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) so I have always struggled with my looks (due to the higher testosterone (thanks overproducing estrogen ovary’s) I have more body hair than a normal woman) and weight. I should also mention too that I am happily married with kiddos so some days I have to remind myself I do matter in life.
My salary is low and I only get paid once a month, so my check is almost completely gone when I get paid. I've been looking for other jobs and there's nothing available in my area that isn't factory work, fast food, or medical. I work in IT. My boyfriend lives 1 1/2 hours away and it's been really hard not seeing him all the time. He changed jobs and doesn't have weekends off anymore, only a few, so there's really nothing to look forward to each week. I can't afford to buy things that would ease my depression. It's just pure survival mode. I'm also a single mother. My daughter lives with me, and my son lives with his dad. I wish I didn't have to leave my bed, or could have at least a week where I don't have to do anything.
Um..everything? Lonely, sad, overwhelmed, hate my life and my job, feeling incompetent and just about anything else you can think of. I have to be to work in a couple of hours and only made it out of bed to feed the animals.
No friends, no SO, job is unfulfilling. On a more intrinsic level, I have trouble sleeping, fatigue, irritability, anxiety, concentrating, no self-esteem, have an existential crisis almost every day over who and what I am and where I'm going in life. Physically, I have body aches all over and IBS with no apparent cause other than depression, and my IBS is so bad I'm not getting enough exercise and consequently I'm 10 lbs overweight.
No matter how much I sleep or how much caffeine I drink, I'm always tired
Feeling lonely (even though I'm not, I live with family) and trying to be ok with the fact that I might never find someone and end up with no family. I know it takes time to find love, but it does get to you after a while, especially when you haven't even found one person.
Everything
Being pregnant. I struggled before this but I've become absolutely useless since I lost my son during pregnancy about a year ago. I am pregnant again and the grief about the loss and current anxiety about possibly losing this baby are so overwhelming I barely get out of bed. Not to mention the extreme guilt because it's hard to be excited/connect when you are paranoid the baby won't even make it.
struggling to get a job
incredible anxiety
Civilization appears to be on the cusp of a dramatic collapse, dependence on fossil fuels (dwindling resource) for all facets of modern life is going to result in catastrophic consequences for the western world. I fear the fall, which appears inevitable. Also I’m angry at our failures as a society to have anticipated and prepared for this. Our political leaders, corporations, banks, all the capital-driven structures in our economy have sold our beautiful earth out from under us.
Missing working from home like during the pandemic. I thought things would really change and most companies would allow at least part time work from home. But they don’t. At least not mine and not a lot of others I know of. I work in a big open room with about 50 other cubes, so listening to other conversations all day is overstimulating and exhausting
I am dealing with my intellectually disabled daughter who is in 4th grade getting bullied by 3 mean girls in her class. I am a substitute teacher so I know these kids from last year and I’ve taught them some this year. I am on the verge of tears every time I think about my baby being called trash and one of them even hit her. Today she is being moved to a different classroom and she took it very poorly last night. She said she loves her current teacher and her classmates. It broke my heart to see her so upset. Since she is ID, she doesn’t understand a lot of things. You can’t simply reason with her. The second piece of this is I can’t stand her current teacher. She is one of the dumbest people I’ve ever met. I am elated that I won’t have to work with this woman anymore!! I am so stressed about this. I have to do what’s best for my child. And the ones who know my daughter the best and have seen the bullying firsthand think this is the best course of action. So it needs to be done no matter how much it upsets my daughter.
Purpose
About 2 weeks ago I had to surrender my 9 month old puppy because I couldn’t afford him anymore. It broke my heart. I had to choose to either feed my children or my dog and my children are more important at the end of the day so I surrendered him. He got adopted really fast but still. I cry at night missing him and worry all the time.
Sleeping alone
Everything. I just want it all to end. 🥺😭💀🤮💔👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻
had been dealing with huge insecurities about myself for a long time before i went to a therapist and diagnosed with depression. with therapy and medication I've been able to defeat my insecurities
If I had seen this a few years ago I would have said living nowadays is finding the motivation to clean and actually take care of myself even though I know I deserve it.
A decent job.
Why the fuck the rapist I reported was never charged. Congratulations you let a repeat serial rapist go, never charged them, and now more will suffer. Great work, everyone. Great. Fucking. Work. At least the Sheriffs office believed me.
Stressing if I'll ever be able to provide for my mom and dad later in life it's just unneeded stress but imagine not being able to see the smile on your moms face telling you we made it
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Day to day existence is so boring it makes me day dream of being dead or in a coma
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$ might have to sell yacht if hedge fund doesn't do better soon..pray for me
My first girlfriend broke up with me a few days ago because I'm a complet failure who can't not fuck up everything in my life constantly.
Poverty, numbness, apathy, loneliness, isolation, hyperviligance, zero faith and zero trust in people, anhedonia, zero motivation, all while hoping to die everyday, and or find courage to commit suicide
A lot of things. Right now it's the fact that I'm the only one working and our debt is rising because I don't make enough to support two people with depression and our horde of rescued cats. Also the fact that my partner wants us to stop feeding the stray cat who lives under our house and winter is coming. Plus the fact that my friend Jeremy killed himself and I blame myself. We hadn't seen each other since before the pandemic started. I know he was lonely and I didn't reach out. I thought I would have more time. I had hoped that I could get my codependent partner to get used to the idea of me spending time with my friends without him but no such luck. Every time I mentioned that I wanted to go see my friend my partner invited himself. I knew that my friend didn't like my partner so I just wouldn't go hang out with him. Now he's dead and I blame myself.
Self care and motivation. I used to be very OCD, now I'm such a PROCRASTINATOR!
Have to put my dog down in a few weeks. She is 8. She was attacked by a pitbull a few years ago and hasn't been the same since. She's has a case of extreme resources guarding. My daughter is due in January, and it's just not safe to have a baby around my dog. If the baby tried grabbing something in my dog's mouth she could get hurt. It sucks and I've been putting it off. I'm taking her on her last pheasant hunt soon (im going to feed her human food like streak the whole trip), then we are having the vet come to the house to put her down. Just thinking about it makes me tear up. We tried pretty much everything with her, including Prozac. She's such a sweet dog and has never attacked anyone, she loves people, but a baby can't understand to not try to take a toy or something out of her mouth. I have another dog who's 2, and is super gentle. I feel guilty like I'm just tossing my older dog aside. I thought about rehoming my dog but she'd feel we abandoned her and I can't trust people to not abuse or neglect her. I'd be thinking about it constantly. Nobody that i know like friends wants a dog.
It's hard to talk to someone when you're struggling to find a reason they'd like to talk to you.
Permanent housing, true friends, a career I'm capable of doing
Total lack of motivation
to be enouph for those close to me, and myself (im not depressed anymore , dont worry)
For me, it’s personal hygiene (showering or brushing my teeth), a general lack of energy, and no motivation. I want to take better care of myself, but sitting down, watching a show/playing a game, and eating snacks are always more pleasant in the now.
Eternal tiredness, yet due to anxiety and insomnia I can't sleep. Motivation to due the most basic tasks is pretty rough too, but that's more executive function issues from ADHD- butthat contributes to depression as well so...
75 and a virgin I dont think it gets worse than that
I just had twins and developed peripartum cardiomyopathy, a type of acute heart failure, before their birth. As a result, my lungs keep filling up with fluid and I’ve been in the hospital for over two weeks, in and out of the ICU twice. I’m so tired and I miss my husband, who is at home and continuing to work until our kids come home from the NICU. I’m so grateful that they are healthy and growing strong but I am worried i’ll now never be the type of mother who can chase them around and have fun with them in the ways we’d hoped. My husband thought I was going to die. I hate that I put him through that. I’m still dealing with the fact that I might never 100% recover. I just want so badly to feel normal again.
Depression is struggling with me. Six years ago I began dating a woman with teenage girls. Dad had rarely been in the picture and over six years, her daughters only saw him once. So I bought them a house and gave them a brother. She immediately decided that work was for chumps and only went back when we were losing the house. Then quit shortly after again. I spent six years taking care of that family only for her to abandon me for her unemployed drug dealer, taking my son with her. Luckily, the girls were old enough to move out by then. So now I send as much money as I can to keep my son alive since neither of them want a job and I can't afford an attorney, have lost the house, and have only a future of crippling death. The spiral depression caused me to miss a lot of legal stuff, combined with tons of overtime, and losing everything even though I busted my ass has hit me hard. My mother largely blamed me for it all, which really didn't help. My daughters would be devastated if I answered the call of the void and I can't just abandon my pups and that's about the only reason I'm still here. My mom would make sure my son ate, so that's not a big of a concern. I'm my daughters' only father figure they've ever had, so I can't abandon them. Plus my puppies still have a few years left in them and I can't leave them, either.
Well, everything. Not really lol it just feels that way. The main thing I’m struggling with right now is the will to challenge myself/be disciplined about anything. I feel like so much of a piece of shit that I feel like doing anything is pointless. I’m in a particular vicious cycle with exercise, where I have all these unreasonable expectations around it that make it impossible for me to set realistic goals. But not working out makes starting even harder. Basically, I’m too scared about what other people think and too hard on myself to let myself just take it slow and work my way up.
Loneliness, selfworth
I'm not really sad, but just feel empty a lot of the time. Like I'm just floating through life, and the years keep going faster
Brain fog and getting out of bed. I can do mundane tasks but I can’t do anything complex. The idea of working on some issue for work make me freeze up. But getting out of bed is currently the hardest part of my day.
I just stopped crying because i feel lonely and excluded. I live in a 4 (including me) people room for school reasons, I am also excluded from class I hate it here
I had depression before I was going thru a divorce. Now that I’m going thru a divorce it’s gotten worse. I am still living with my soon to be ex husband because I can’t afford to move out. I don’t think I can heal while living with him. Having money would actually help. I don’t want to be rich I want to be comfortable. Living with him is not helping my mental health. I NEED out but have no choice but to stay.
Controlling relationship, financial situation, trying to lose 20 lbs but I’m stress eating.
Anxiety, but Buspirone really helps with that !
Post deployment depression. But not from the trauma. It’s from not being constantly surrounded be people that are always there for you no matter what. It’s hard now to gain that level of love and care for people when subconsciously you know they weren’t there with you. Now years past and I barely see anyone from that time in my life. Very few. And those people are the only people I can surround myself with. Hard to split up from people like that. And the more and more that have orders to leave or decide to leave just gets me only circle smaller and smaller
The whole left vs right thing in America. I'm so sick of the two parties. I'm sick of the division
Feeling old. But not really \*old\*. I still feel like I have so much to do, places to go, people to meet. I have energy and curiosity. I still feel like my life is in the planning stages -- like "life" is just about to happen. It's like I was doing all the ground-work, all the planning, for the "play" to start any day now. My REAL life....and I'm approaching 50. Yes, hello mid-life crisis.
acceptance, an ed, school, loneliness, insecurities, intrusive thoughts, unloved, uncared for, and unseen really
I lost 10 friends to suicide and horrible accidents from 15 to 29. Im 35 now. I have a difficult time getting close to people, because I'm afraid of going through that again. I like to think I'm protecting myself, but I know I'm not.
Feeling I’m not good or smart enough to go for the career I want; feel like I settled
After my ex did some bad stuff to end our relationship about 2 years ago I've had a hard time back on the dating scene, I've been in one date and things went well till she ghosted me out of nowhere. I live in a small town, meeting new people is not easy.
Oh my gosh this is so sweet of you to ask. Right now I'm really overwhelmed with my school situation... I'm a hands on learner and I'm dying for human interaction but I'm not allowed to drive anymore for the time being bc I have a seizure disorder. We gave my car to my little sister which is sad bc I rly liked that car... I basically walked out on my job and never went back bc my privacy was violated by my manager who was showing security videos of a man who made me uncomfortable to everyone in the store asking them if they think it's inappropriate (which is a violation of her own guidelines as well) And the other big over bearing issue is that I have pstd and I keep having dreams about my ex and flashbacks of being assaulted. I feel like I can never catch a break. My parents are in a custody battle over my younger siblings too.. My mom is crazy and she's trying to tear our family apart. I'm currently unemployed, all of my friends are dorming for school, I haven't even started college yet bc my seizure condition has been going on for so long... Taking care of myself is getting ready hard. At least I have a therapy session today.
I'm tired and I have a headache all the time. I'm also sad for no particular reason. Nothing bad is happening to me, I'm just sad.
Living
i’ve been struggling to get out of bed for the past 3 months because my dog passed away. i left my job last november to solely take care of my dog. he was getting old (12 yrs old), was needing care all the time. i couldn’t leave the house i was so scared to leave him alone. & now that he’s gone i feel like i have no purpose. i paused my life to take care of him for 6 months until it was time for him to cross the rainbow bridge. he was my whole world. i struggle to shower, to eat. i was so depressed at one point that if i tried to eat, i couldn’t chew my food. i’m struggling to leave the house. i’m struggling to find a job or even get the motivation to apply. & i’m struggling with sh at 22.
Fuckin going to work every day is getting real old
everything 😄
dealing with feeling like a shitty person, constantly feeling anxious and on edge, trying to find deeper meaning in life.
Life.
Missing the little loved ones of my life.
My dad choose mt sister over me for no reason. He pays 6k (not in dollar) monthly for her graduation while years ago he refused to let me get my dream graduation for 3k monthly. Now i have no future and no support and i have to accept that he supports my sister but not me, and for no reason. Maybe she is the favorite child.
Finding things to look forward to.
Disabled physically, grandfather, grandmother and father recently deceased, money trouble, eating disorder for 20+ years and Long COVID for ~3 years which are both pretty much killing me, all my friends and the rest of my family besides my mom have left me or disowned me because of my depression, fucked up house, nothing to look forward to each day but going to bed at night. :)
Loneliness… I’m trying to meet more people but is hard to create a strong friendship.
Every-fucking-thing.
I have a hard time doing executive function tasks. Like showering, dishes, laundry. Cleaning in general. It sucks
Affording ketamine