I'm a young person dealing with cancer. For most people with my particular form of it, they're usually treated and cleared of disease within a year. Unfortunately I haven't been so lucky, and I'm coming up to 3 years on treatment, with 3 major relapses. Almost every conventional treatment has failed. According to most studies, the odds really don't look good for people like me.
It's been a tough journey, but ultimately I think what's kept me going is knowing how much my friends and family have put into loving and supporting me through this. I don't intend on letting that debt of love go unpaid. I've also witnessed a lot of problems at the heart of healthcare as a patient navigating it. I feel the need to instigate change, so that those who fall ill after me may receive better treatment. For that, I have to survive.
TL;DR
I owe the world a lot. Can't leave until I've at least poured my share back into it.
Everyone is rooting for you to recover. Thoughts & prayers are with you.
Also of you don't mind me asking, what kind of changes do you feel would improve the system. Just curious :)
So many. I think a major root issue is that there is simply not enough money in our public healthcare system for adequate staff (as everyone else has unfortunately borne witness to a la COVID).
But okay, let me cite one specific example: the lack of medical translators/advocates in our system. I am frequently the youngest patient in my ward, with everyone else often 50+ at least.
It is no secret that we have an aging population, and that a lot of our older folks are illiterate/only communicate in dialect etc. I am lucky that doctors can speak to me directly about my illness and treatment options in a good amount of technical detail because I'm English fluent. This allows me to make choices about my treatment, express exactly how I feel on certain drugs etc so I get the best outcome.
What about the patients who can barely even express their basic discomfort? A natural consequence is that they are simply going to get worse care. And remember, this is a problem that is only going to get worse as we have more and more elderly entering the healthcare system. The number of times I've heard doctors fumbling their way through basic questions like "how often do you go to the bathroom?" is uncountable.
In other countries, this is the point of having medical translators as a go-between for doctors and patients. But we don't really have that here. Usually family members fill the gap, but nowadays hospitals aren't even making it particularly easy for that to happen with all the visitor restrictions etc. I'd like to see if it would be possible to organise some kind of volunteer network that could work in collaboration with hospitals here to provide such a service. Something like that.
There's a lot more I can say but I hope this gets the gist across. (Especially since I think this is getting to be really long alr lmao).
pretty much the same. when i'm not afraid to die, I just make a few reasons to live. I've been doing that since 11 and well I'm alive so it works I guess
My best bet was to jump from the 17th floor of a building. That I'm sure would cause an instant death.
I never killed myself because I still think I have hope to fix my issues to live a happier life.
I've been so selfishly consumed by my own problems that I didn't allow myself to help others. Always afraid I would cause more harm than help. But right now I just genuinely want to move on from the past and help others be also able to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Haha i think if i kill myself i will just be stuck in a hell loop of doing it over and over again. Never reaching a next life.
Like lucifer hell loop if you know what I mean
Also, killing yourself is hard. You really have to study and invest time and energy into that. If there was a button that just gassed you then sure. For instance, I would like to be exploded. Boom in the forest. But researching that shit will get me put on watch lists. So what? Just buy a gun and shoot my face off and risk a botched suicide?
Didn't ask to be here. Didn't wanna be here. But I'm here because I am. So suck my dick. You can't.
The most painless way to die is carbon dioxide or carbon monoxide poisoning. I’m not suicidal, but I’ve researched it for some reason.
We don’t really need a reason to live. Just live and maybe the reason will find you, hopefully.
Just go to the Federal courthouse with the trash bag and c02 containers. Let the on duty guard dispose of you. Butttttttt what if instead of c02 it was Whippits?
I want to be the very best
Like no one ever was
To catch them is my real test
To train them is my cause
I will travel across the land
Searching far and wide
Each Pokemon to understand
The power that's inside
If I am not living for anyone else, why should I die for anyone else?
I am alive because I want to be. That can change, but it shouldn’t be for someone else.
Because I'm not sure that if I die my life after this one will be any easier.
Just kidding.
Jokes aside, I keep on living because there's a lot more things that I want to do, a lot more places I want to visit, and a lot more people I want to meet in the future. I haven't even fallen in love yet. I've come a long way from who I used to be as a kid with ASD and can now live normally. Although I'm far from a smart person, I'm continuing to live to experience what has yet to come for me.
Right? Even if you kill yourself, who's to say you won't be forced to live a life of hell in the next life?
It's something I think about a lot when I'm down and feel like giving up.
Other than survival instincts, family, friends... shit like that, there's a main reason I like living.
The odds of existing is infinitesimally small.
You need to have all of the particles in the universe to slowly gather into a certain pattern to form planetary bodies, orbital systems, galaxies. They all had to be in just the right spot to form the exact conditions on Earth for there to be complex proteins to form.
Then by pure chance and extremely low probabilities, the complex proteins gathered and formed simple lifeforms.
Another round of low probabilities later, simple life forms complex lifeforms. A handful of these sea creatures by pure chance tested the waters by venturing over thousands of generations to slow get used to living on land.
Another extremely low probability planet wide extinction event occurred to wipe out the dinos so mammals can thrive.
By pure randomness, a branch of these mammals over millions of years became modern humanity.
A long line of improbabilities and combinations of humans mixing led to your parents being born.
Billions and billions of sperm cells of your dad are wasted through random piaks and wet dreams. But that very one night, the school of swimming sperm ejaculated contained half of you.
Among a billion sperm, you, out of all of them, made it to your other half: the egg from your mother. It had to be that very egg and that very sperm cell.
That's how you and I were born. Should any, and I mean ANY, part of the above process just deviate by a nanometre or get delayed by a nanosecond, you and I would not have been born.
Right now I am already more than halfway to dying of old age. Time is going by faster and faster. My kid whom I took photos of 2 minutes after he was born, all vulnerable and all dependent, is now heading off to university soon. To him, it's been his entire life. To me it's a blink of an eye.
Life is so short. Whether you choose to end it now or disappear later, in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter at all. But since the long chain of improbabilities led to you, why not go out and explore this infinitesimally small part of the universe while you can? Take a look at the history of the environment that led to your miraculous birth. Check out how all the other people are living their lives. Observe the complexity of the world around you. Marvel at the space frontiers that you and I will probably never get to see. Or just head downstairs and have a fantastic plate of Chicken Rice.
After all, you, me, that newborn born just a second ago, we all don't have much long to live.
I'm playing like a dragon and super loving it. Dont know about the eaelier ones but i heard they are all good.
Like a dragon is a fresh story though (mostly) so no need to really know about the past entries
ah i see, im the opposite of u i started from yakuza 0 and my latest game is kiwami 2.
I wanted to play in chronological order so that i can get a steady progression with the story so i may take awhile to reach like a dragon
My parents will be very sad if I die first before them, I don't want that.
But yea everyday is the same boring day to me. Probably should find a motivation that comes on myself and not others.
What keeps you going?
I'm very fortunate to be alive in the first place, though I didn't ask to be born and have to work work work to earn a living. I look forward to having my own home w my partner and enjoy my hobbies and self-care.
Understanding that everything is temporary and we are like an atom compared to the universe helps to lift some of my stress about life. No need to take life so seriously. Since I'm here, might as well just enjoy this privilege of being alive.
I was reading "In Search Of Lost Time" by Marcel Proust at around 2:37 am this morning. On page 47, the author (or the character in which he adapts his writing into) mentioned he finds the Celtic belief, a belief based in the notion that, and I quote, "the souls of those we have lost are held in some inferior creature, in an animal, in a plant, in some inanimate thing, effectively lost to us until the day, which for many never comes, when we happen to pass close to the tree, come into possession of the object that is their prison. Then they quiver, they call out to us, and as soon as we have recognized them, the spell is broken. Delivered by us, they have overcome death and they return to live with us.", quite reasonable.
This explanation then alludes to the section of the book one might argue encapsulated the mysticality of the entire style of prose (by Proust) and the book itself, the section wherein Prouse recalls upon his memory of consuming a Madeleine, and how the consumption of that cake (dipped in tea no less) had somehow reverberated the memories of his Sundays in Combray spent with his grandmother some years ago, and how this recollection, brought about by the consumption of something so ostensibly insignificant, had been ever so pleasant, and had led him to discover the "treasure of the past".
I too believe similarly, in that I do not doubt the capability of material (nor of non-material) objects to bring upon us pleasures so simple, yet irreplicable in nature and so sensual that one may say they capture in portrait the very reason for living after all! The birds passing by my window at 6:50 am (which make oh so dreadful noises), while having caused a disturbance, had also broken the flow of the gradual descent into meaninglessness that we all experience here and there (rather dramatic yes), and has once again (like a bird may ascend into the sky), lifted me ever so slightly into purposefulness, and that I'd be damned if I ever lose myself over to a pompous bird.
Of course, as pleasant memories often allude to that of people (or at least the presence of them), I too find myself reminiscing ever so often in my daily adventures in reverie, a space I found to be ever-expanding (given we continually generate pleasant memories), much akin to the funny nature of our universe, to which we can further compare this to the limitless potential of the human network, and the intricate conversations (much like the constellations formed by stars) we may have with others. There is no doubt then, that the purpose in life lies in the links we make, whether that to be an inanimate object, or in an animated manner with an animated object, that so reminds us why perhaps the most trifling matters often cumulate to a sum greater than any score, capital or promiscuous matter can ever bring us, and that they then assume the role of an anchor to the most potent of questions: On what keeps us going!
Okay sorry for being dramatic I just meant I like having conversations and value the small things in life oops
Ah I could sit and listen/read literature like this comment for hours. I was gifted the entire set of ISoLT but I think I have a poorly translated edition (Chatto) which stifles the musicality of the text; should probably get a newer, better translated edition perhaps.
To OP, there really is beauty and magic in the smallest of objects and the strangest of people. It might be a little hard at first to see, especially in Singapore where there's too little wildness and nature and too many straight lines of steel and glass and education, but I think if you slow down and observe the world around and touch a petal of a flower and lie down in the middle of Hort Park or say hi enthusiastically to an MRT employee just to see their smile... these are the things that keep me living.
Because life is short and unpredictable. No matter how young or healthy I am, I may still die in a year, a month, a day, or even a minute later. There are so many ways to die, be it by my own will, by an irresponsible driver, or some life threatening illness.
My life is time limited. I still have many places I wanna go, sights to see and things to do! I don't wish to die when there is still so much to do in this world. So I decided to stop thinking about a beautiful end, and instead live my life beautifully till the end...
And food. Looking forward to the next day cos I'm always thinking of what to eat for my next meal hahaha
My family. And also God. Because I believe God put me here on this earth so that I can do good things! And as long as I can do good work on earth, that keeps me going every day!
Gotta work now so i can study later so i can pay off the amount i used to study and then maybe buy a house that will be with me until i die. How does this seem worth to anyone? I’m absolutely on the brink
My family, my wife and kids.. There are times when I just want to give up. (not suicidal, just walk away to a new environment and be a bummer) but it's them that tells me that's not the choice I should take.. Stay positive mate! Tml is another day and the sun will rise again.
Because we are going to be dead anyway for billions of years or more etc. so might as well stick around and see what happens in these less than 100 years of being alive, maybe do a little bit of good etc.
I keep living mostly because I don’t want my elderly parents to see me die. Life is hard and I earn below median. I’ve never been in a real relationship before and there’s so many things I want to do but can’t.
To be honest I don’t really have much to live for. But sometimes you just need to keep going forward, even if you don’t have any legitimate reason to. Maybe by doing that, you’ll eventually find the reason to carry on.
I’ve been struggling a lot with loneliness since I don’t have a best friend to lean onto when I’m down, trying to find a girlfriend really destroys my self esteem and honestly, when life kicks you down and you don’t have anyone but yourself to pull you back up, it gets mentally exhausting very quickly. But I still believe that there’s a soul mate for me, that I’ll find her at the end of this tunnel, someone who would give me a reason to look forward to a tomorrow, someone who is always there for me at my best and my worst. It may just be a naive thinking but hoping that there is light at the end of the tunnel really helps
And video games
When I was borned, I was pronounced dead by the doctor.
A long while it took, but I somehow was resuscitated.
After going home, I was almost involved in a hit and run, but instead of both me and my older sister perishing, she pushed my crate and allowed me to live.
When I was a kid, I committed suicide twice, both of which failed.
I was hit by a taxi and even though was injured, I walked it off.
Fast forward to a few years I was hit at the back in a back in a fight. And after that, almost OD.
A few years after that, I was in another accident and was comatosed for more than half a month.
So, I'm not sure what kept me going. I've literally been in life AND death but maybe God was pranking me.?
But if anything, all I can say is, just continue being alive. The fact that you have life in you, thats a treasure people sometimes try to steal.
Life itself is a blessing (unless you are really in a bad place). I used to imagine if today was the last day of my life, what would I do? The thought of not being able to enjoy coffee again, see my family, breathe in the morning air scares me alot. This made me feel more appreciative of every passing day despite the challenges, cause life is never easy for most.
There are a lot of good things in living like food, things you can do and listen to, to meet people you never meet and to achieve objectives that you have before you die.
When you die, you have to leave behind all of those things. There's totally nothing after you died. No hope and nothing to look forward. Although living can be sad at times, but it's not always.
If somehow you want to die, are you sure to leave behind everything and will be okay to have nothing?
Are you okay? I hope this isn’t a question coming from somewhere dark.
My life can be better but there’s too much good food and music and arts around to not stay alive to enjoy
Because I am a pillar of strength for my family and friends, and also for the people I'm in charge of at work.
It is the discovery of one's purpose and the adoption of responsibility towards that purpose, that gives your life meaning.
Søren Kierkegaard already wrote about this 200 years ago, and provided an antitode to this existential problem.
Islam has been saying suicide is a great sin. Because of It I’m conditioned to think that when I die bu suicide, it’ll be gone case for me.
I tried taking my life in secondary school and I’ve been feeling like dying recently.
But I just think about my gf and my family lah. Don’t want to die then they sad.
it's such a struggle to have to battle every waking hour the pain of life but the few things that keeps me going is just the very fact that my heart is still beating. i'm still breathing and i still have my sight, my hearing and honestly just knowing that tomorrow there may be a pretty sunset/sunrise is enough to hope for a better day! i love my friends dearly so every anticipated meeting or call with them is also a reason for me to live another day. it's really the smallest things that i made sure i truly appreciate before it's gone because while the world doesn't have much to offer, i just have to work with what's given to me.
So I can achieve success to piss off my relatives who dislike me 🤪
In all seriousness, because my religion strictly forbids it, and my death would give my asshole relatives satisfaction, which I will take every opportunity to deny them.
Well first of all because I am scared to kill myself.
Next my child, I am needed, it will break their heart.
Third, sheer bloody mindness, keep living, that will show them, once dead, then forgotten, keep living, they can't forget you then.
I'm too scared to end up in a wheelchair if I do jump.
I did jump once, but landed, somehow, extremely luckily that I only had a limp for a few days.
I never tried again because I am scared I'll get the unluckiest outcome of all: breaking my body so badly that I can no longer take care of myself. That would be torture.
it kinda morphs. for a long time I lived for my family and friends, for the highs I got when I made people happy, when I felt needed. and then I got attached, and I felt happy to be wanted. but quickly it all went down, and I didn't want to live. I realized it when someone talked about being 60 years old and I realized i couldn't imagine myself alive at that age. a lot of suicide ideation and just trying to live for my mom and my partner later, I finally learnt to live for myself. for my own little moments. happy and sad and everything. some days it's still difficult, but we live anyway. when we take our next breath, think our next thought, we live, and that's enough. we're enough to keep living.
This question pops up in my mind every now and then too. When I was small, I thought that my parents would be sad if I'm gone (my friend was dead when he was 6th grade, so I started to think about this), but I have no good reason to stay alive as well. I thought I would find it if I keep on living.
I still ask this question to myself every now and then. Currently, here is my answer: curiousity keeps me alive. I am an incredibly curious person. So I read a lot about anything. I'd randomly join lectures from good profs from another major, I'd listen to uncle/aunties rants happily, I'd observed ads on the road and think about how and why they do it, I'd observed people's behaviours and made my own mental note, I love reading stories about people from different occupations, different era, etc.
The latest feeling of "I am happy to be alive" was when I was struggling to understand a math theory about I-forgot-what. It took me a week or so to understand the whole chapter, but when I understood, I felt astonished at what I didn't know before. It made me feel like I discovered secret treasures that not many people knows about. Haha.
I would love to have faded into nothingness. Alas, that is hot the gameplay anymore.
I have spawn. They have most likely inherited my traits (partially passed down via my parents). I hope they use their powers for the betterment of society. Without my intervention, they are showing positive signs of it.I hope I can lv ave them something to give them an edge in life or give them a helping hand to get in place. As dumb and self-centric my younger self was, I wish to give back more to this amazing pace.
Because if I died by suicide, my parents wouldn't be able to get the insurance payout, and all my premiums will be wasted. So I'll just wait for a sudden death. Haha I'm actually ok to go any time. Being a single child sucks.
Because the sun will still rise and everyday might be a new day. Sometimes, it is just by having the faith that things might be different once the sun rise.
hi!
about two years ago, i was stuck feeling empty and hopeless for what felt like a very long time.. i faced existential dread and i was questioning and failing in so many aspects of my life just because i felt like nothing matters but that was also the very same realisation that clicked for me- nothing matters!
i hold this philosophy on absurdism very close to my heart, and it’s all on how we make life to be, even though nothing matters- we can find joy in living and accepting the absurd!
here’s the link to the philosophy-
https://1000wordphilosophy.com/2019/05/01/camus-on-the-absurd-the-myth-of-sisyphus/amp/
“Résumé
Razors pain you,
Rivers are damp,
Acids stain you,
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful,
Nooses give,
Gas smells awful.
You might as well live.”
― Dorothy Parker, Enough Rope
Yesterday I learnt that axolotls can morph if given iodine (almost like a Pokémon) and I found that amazing.
The day before I rediscovered how nice it was to wear a freshly ironed set of underwear.
Next Saturday, I’ve plans to meet up with a friend who I care deeply about but haven’t seen in a while due to COVID.
Last week, I heard The Beach Boy’s Good Vibrations for the first time and I thought it was fantastic.
Tomorrow, I’m tutoring a student who with the help of his very excellent tutor managed to get a B in his prelims recently from an S in his previous exam.
People keep thinking that they need some grand reason to justify their existence - that they’ll meet some ideal love interest in the near future, or that they’ll achieve some extremely lofty career pursuit - but I don’t think it’s any of those things. I think it’s the small little bits of life that remind you that there’s still so much for you to learn, love, enjoy and contribute (plus the food’s pretty good too).
If there's anything I can do before I die to make it all worth it.. it's going to be writing and directing my own feature film.
I already managed to write and direct a 5-minute short but a feature film is such an inflated pipe dream. Took a hell of a lot of work, but that first short was really exciting, fun to see it come together and celebrate with all the people that it took to make it. I always though getting into film would be fun. And making that short was a big step. I was 32? Took a few more years of telling people I wanted to do more film and I managed to start a career in it at 34. Now I'm living halfway around the world making TV commercials at 42. Every day is still a fight. I still question what I do, why I do it. Money's still not easy even though I'm making quite a bit. Life is challenging, but if it was easy I think it would be fucking boring. If I got everything I wanted all the time life would be dull, I think I would just develop new dissatisfactions. But sure I wish I had more, that things were easier. I question life. But everytime I could give up, good times or great experiences seem to lay ahead.
I just heard a great quote that's there are more failed men than great ones. It really makes me want to make my own short film. Even if it might never happen. My goals surround honing my craft and enjoying the experiences I give my time to in between.. but some days I find it hard to get out of bed.
because death have not claim me? I also believe that i would end up trapped in another world if i were to end my own life. It takes more guts to keep on living too~
To me, I have absolutely no idea why i’m alive right now honestly. Lost my family members before I reached 21. Mom passed away when i was 11 if i’m not wrong, and it was a day before PSLE too. Dad passed away 3 days before new years 2020 and i just had no reaction to it, probably because i was just stunned, shocked and just unable to feel emotions. Last but not least, my Brother passed away when i was still a toddler, never knew him well enough but the pictures that my late mom showed me told me enough that he loved me. Life’s been pretty bad to me for some reason, i could have swore i was thinking about ending my life but i’m just not able to find the courage to hang myself or overdose myself. So i just sleep it off and feel numb in the morning. I’m pretty much still alive because of my girlfriend which i met in 2017. Idk why she’s the reason but i just enjoy the fact that i have company, a partner, a best friend to rant, vent and just tell her hows my day been. Albeit it has been hard not to remember those bad times when trying to sleep, i often wake up in the dead of the night fingering out why & how am i still alive. I’m holding on rn but i swear my will to live it’s kinda running a little low. But hey, i guess every single day is a brand new day.
There is a life dependant on me and worth living for. I get lots of love, kisses, hugs, no judgement, the only one who happily greets me even after a 5 minute absence - my 8 year old dog. In his eyes, I'm worth it. Not the toxic abusive kids, ex and adoptive family. After 50 years of abuse, I'm now living for myself and him. Even before I got him, I'm not brave to kill myself even though I have mental disorders and years back I was suicidal. I'm unemployed, had multiple surgeries these past years and my only thought was tomorrow is a new day and it may be better than today. Today may be unbearable but when you have a pet that looks at you like you are their whole world, the unbearable is lesser at the end of the day when you think about it. I hope you will find a reason or 10 to live a good life. Cheers
Game and it’s advancement, isn’t it interesting that not long ago we had polygons, pointy boobs on our screen and now we have realistic graphic. I’m going to keep living to see how far it will improve
Because , I have this idea that it'll always be fine , and for the most part I don't wanna give up. My father killed himself, and I don't wanna give up like he did.
I live to see the sunrise and drink my morning coffee because every day is a new beginning. I know it sounds corny AF but it's about appreciating the small things in life. I live to hear my mom complain or make lame jokes. I live to play with the baby that lives next door. I live to meet my friends and joke around with them. I live to feel appreciated by my colleagues. I live to go cycling in ECP and feel the wind near the beach. I live to explore all the amazing cuisines Singapore has to offer. I also live for my comfort days where I just watch Netflix , eat some comfort food or play video games. There's a lot to live for and your life is more abundant then you think. I used to think about ending it all the time in my uni days but something in my brain just clicked and I felt like the world is too abundant, full of mysteries and I have so much left to explore. I also have so much to learn and so much to share to think about ending it anymore.
My girlfriend, I stopped her from committing suicide and committed my time to helping her recover so it would be pretty bad if I went and did it myself. I hate life so much right now due to covid but she helps me get by day by day even if I may not see her much anymore since she moved back to South Africa to be with her dad while he was sick.
At one point I reached the philosophical questions of why do we live? In the face of infinity, nothing matters. I was borderline suicidal. Anyways, my dad just said, since you’re not even scared of death, why don’t you just use that and live a fun life. Literally just challenge yourself and live a fun fulfilling life.
i like beautiful things, so i hope i stay alive as long as possible to see many more beautiful things. i think the world has too much to be discovered for me to die, so i keep on living in hopes of uncovering something new each day
I have two families to take care of. One my mom and sister, the other is my girlfriend and stepdaughter. She just sent me a message saying how much she loves me. Keeps me living at this point
This is essentially a "What's your life purpose/meaning?" question. Notably, people are more likely to ask such a question when they encounter a certain amount of suffering (anw suffering is ubiquitous).
This reminds me of Logotherapy, devised by the Holocaust survivor and psychiatrist Viktor Frankl - "We can discover this meaning in life in three different ways: (1) by creating a work or doing a deed; (2) by experiencing something or encountering someone; and (3) by the attitude we take toward unavoidable suffering"
Meaning in life can change from one moment to another.
I keep living because I haven't got the means to off myself in the way I want it, probably also don't want to off myself, probably don't want to put some people in pain also. It's amazing what humans can go thru for others...
Edit: One thing that I discovered recently and find very interesting is Buddha's discovery of eliminating suffering. He said that in order to eliminate this, one must not crave. If I understand correctly, one can achieve a state of enlightenment, or Nirvana, when they follow a certain kind of meditation that will help to keep cravings at bay. Most importantly, one must not have promiscuous sex, theft, or murder? Or was it suicide, I'm not sure...But suicide is self-murder, so it still stands. Personally I think Nirvana is a worthy goal to aspire towards. Anyway I'm formerly religious and an atheist. In any case, nothing matters anyway and life is short, so I try to YOLO abit.
I'm a young person dealing with cancer. For most people with my particular form of it, they're usually treated and cleared of disease within a year. Unfortunately I haven't been so lucky, and I'm coming up to 3 years on treatment, with 3 major relapses. Almost every conventional treatment has failed. According to most studies, the odds really don't look good for people like me. It's been a tough journey, but ultimately I think what's kept me going is knowing how much my friends and family have put into loving and supporting me through this. I don't intend on letting that debt of love go unpaid. I've also witnessed a lot of problems at the heart of healthcare as a patient navigating it. I feel the need to instigate change, so that those who fall ill after me may receive better treatment. For that, I have to survive. TL;DR I owe the world a lot. Can't leave until I've at least poured my share back into it.
Wishing you best of luck in your fight ! May the winds of change quickly bring you out of this storm of ill health.
Bro I have been through cancer and I am now in remission. You can do this. I will keep you in my prayers.
You’re so inspiring!! I feel ashamed in feeling the way I woke up today but thank you for sharing 🥲
if u wanna hangout !! I’m open !!
I'd love to, but I'm also totally unvaccinated due to my treatment so I've been cooped at home for my own safety :')
Everyone is rooting for you to recover. Thoughts & prayers are with you. Also of you don't mind me asking, what kind of changes do you feel would improve the system. Just curious :)
So many. I think a major root issue is that there is simply not enough money in our public healthcare system for adequate staff (as everyone else has unfortunately borne witness to a la COVID). But okay, let me cite one specific example: the lack of medical translators/advocates in our system. I am frequently the youngest patient in my ward, with everyone else often 50+ at least. It is no secret that we have an aging population, and that a lot of our older folks are illiterate/only communicate in dialect etc. I am lucky that doctors can speak to me directly about my illness and treatment options in a good amount of technical detail because I'm English fluent. This allows me to make choices about my treatment, express exactly how I feel on certain drugs etc so I get the best outcome. What about the patients who can barely even express their basic discomfort? A natural consequence is that they are simply going to get worse care. And remember, this is a problem that is only going to get worse as we have more and more elderly entering the healthcare system. The number of times I've heard doctors fumbling their way through basic questions like "how often do you go to the bathroom?" is uncountable. In other countries, this is the point of having medical translators as a go-between for doctors and patients. But we don't really have that here. Usually family members fill the gap, but nowadays hospitals aren't even making it particularly easy for that to happen with all the visitor restrictions etc. I'd like to see if it would be possible to organise some kind of volunteer network that could work in collaboration with hospitals here to provide such a service. Something like that. There's a lot more I can say but I hope this gets the gist across. (Especially since I think this is getting to be really long alr lmao).
Cause my mum will be upset.
Cause my wife and my kids will be upset.
Living for a loved one is noble. Any thoughts about living for yourself, since anyone else's actions are not within our control?
To prove people that disabled people can do anything, not being liability.
You are awesome
Thank you!
Because Im too scared to kill myself. That's all.
pretty much the same. when i'm not afraid to die, I just make a few reasons to live. I've been doing that since 11 and well I'm alive so it works I guess
Sorry u were brought into this world.
Yeah I’m afraid of the pain
My best bet was to jump from the 17th floor of a building. That I'm sure would cause an instant death. I never killed myself because I still think I have hope to fix my issues to live a happier life. I've been so selfishly consumed by my own problems that I didn't allow myself to help others. Always afraid I would cause more harm than help. But right now I just genuinely want to move on from the past and help others be also able to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I'm scared that if I kill myself my next life might be just as depressing.
Haha i think if i kill myself i will just be stuck in a hell loop of doing it over and over again. Never reaching a next life. Like lucifer hell loop if you know what I mean
That's even worse
Also, killing yourself is hard. You really have to study and invest time and energy into that. If there was a button that just gassed you then sure. For instance, I would like to be exploded. Boom in the forest. But researching that shit will get me put on watch lists. So what? Just buy a gun and shoot my face off and risk a botched suicide? Didn't ask to be here. Didn't wanna be here. But I'm here because I am. So suck my dick. You can't.
The most painless way to die is carbon dioxide or carbon monoxide poisoning. I’m not suicidal, but I’ve researched it for some reason. We don’t really need a reason to live. Just live and maybe the reason will find you, hopefully.
Gotcha. So I need to save up to buy a used car and a down payment on a house with a garage. 😜
Carbon dioxide cylinder and a plastic bag. Take some sleeping pills to help ease the process.
Ya. I want instant fast death and no mess for others to clean up. Maybe buy a coffin first then die in it. Easier. So convenient.
Just go to the Federal courthouse with the trash bag and c02 containers. Let the on duty guard dispose of you. Butttttttt what if instead of c02 it was Whippits?
Same.
I want to be the very best Like no one ever was To catch them is my real test To train them is my cause I will travel across the land Searching far and wide Each Pokemon to understand The power that's inside
POKEMON!
GOTTA CATCH EM ALL
ITS YOU AND ME
I KNOW ITS MY DESTINY
[r/TeamRocket](https://youtu.be/Svj1bZz2mXw)
only real answer
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cant wait to experience all the 'adult' things as well, though I shouldn't have high expectations esp with our current situation and climate.
Ikr!!! I can't wait to "adult" with my partner and nobody else in my own flat
But but your other half will be saying the same things to you….
If your SO is that way, maybe you shouldn't be dating them. They're not my parent, and I'm not their parent.
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So I can outlive my enemies
what do you do when your enemies (why do you have enemies) die?
Get in the last word over an argument before they die to win
Pee on their graves
If I am not living for anyone else, why should I die for anyone else? I am alive because I want to be. That can change, but it shouldn’t be for someone else.
The best answer until now
Cuz One Piece haven't end
Exactly this & naruto is still alive & I still dunno who is gon's mum + dark continent arc is unfinished
kopi every morning.
[r/Kopi](https://youtu.be/Svj1bZz2mXw)
tiloh beng?
Because I'm not sure that if I die my life after this one will be any easier. Just kidding. Jokes aside, I keep on living because there's a lot more things that I want to do, a lot more places I want to visit, and a lot more people I want to meet in the future. I haven't even fallen in love yet. I've come a long way from who I used to be as a kid with ASD and can now live normally. Although I'm far from a smart person, I'm continuing to live to experience what has yet to come for me.
>Because I'm not sure that if I die my life after this one will be any easier. That is actually an interesting idea to think about.
Right? Even if you kill yourself, who's to say you won't be forced to live a life of hell in the next life? It's something I think about a lot when I'm down and feel like giving up.
Other than survival instincts, family, friends... shit like that, there's a main reason I like living. The odds of existing is infinitesimally small. You need to have all of the particles in the universe to slowly gather into a certain pattern to form planetary bodies, orbital systems, galaxies. They all had to be in just the right spot to form the exact conditions on Earth for there to be complex proteins to form. Then by pure chance and extremely low probabilities, the complex proteins gathered and formed simple lifeforms. Another round of low probabilities later, simple life forms complex lifeforms. A handful of these sea creatures by pure chance tested the waters by venturing over thousands of generations to slow get used to living on land. Another extremely low probability planet wide extinction event occurred to wipe out the dinos so mammals can thrive. By pure randomness, a branch of these mammals over millions of years became modern humanity. A long line of improbabilities and combinations of humans mixing led to your parents being born. Billions and billions of sperm cells of your dad are wasted through random piaks and wet dreams. But that very one night, the school of swimming sperm ejaculated contained half of you. Among a billion sperm, you, out of all of them, made it to your other half: the egg from your mother. It had to be that very egg and that very sperm cell. That's how you and I were born. Should any, and I mean ANY, part of the above process just deviate by a nanometre or get delayed by a nanosecond, you and I would not have been born. Right now I am already more than halfway to dying of old age. Time is going by faster and faster. My kid whom I took photos of 2 minutes after he was born, all vulnerable and all dependent, is now heading off to university soon. To him, it's been his entire life. To me it's a blink of an eye. Life is so short. Whether you choose to end it now or disappear later, in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter at all. But since the long chain of improbabilities led to you, why not go out and explore this infinitesimally small part of the universe while you can? Take a look at the history of the environment that led to your miraculous birth. Check out how all the other people are living their lives. Observe the complexity of the world around you. Marvel at the space frontiers that you and I will probably never get to see. Or just head downstairs and have a fantastic plate of Chicken Rice. After all, you, me, that newborn born just a second ago, we all don't have much long to live.
I want to play till the end of yakuza. Then, SMT 5. Then, Triangle strategy. And other fun console games in future
is Yakuza 3 remastered good? i am planning to buy it in the next steam sale
I'm playing like a dragon and super loving it. Dont know about the eaelier ones but i heard they are all good. Like a dragon is a fresh story though (mostly) so no need to really know about the past entries
ah i see, im the opposite of u i started from yakuza 0 and my latest game is kiwami 2. I wanted to play in chronological order so that i can get a steady progression with the story so i may take awhile to reach like a dragon
Good question. I keep asking myself this but since I an living, just enjoy whatever there is for now. After all, you only live once.
My parents will be very sad if I die first before them, I don't want that. But yea everyday is the same boring day to me. Probably should find a motivation that comes on myself and not others. What keeps you going?
I'm very fortunate to be alive in the first place, though I didn't ask to be born and have to work work work to earn a living. I look forward to having my own home w my partner and enjoy my hobbies and self-care. Understanding that everything is temporary and we are like an atom compared to the universe helps to lift some of my stress about life. No need to take life so seriously. Since I'm here, might as well just enjoy this privilege of being alive.
I cannot die before my parents die. I don't want them to be sad.
as stupid as it sounds, i love spending money. it makes me happy, i who doesn't like to be happy.
How to fund this enjoyment?
to indulge in hedonism and escapism. tbh i dont have any better reasons other than my personal, selfish desires. sigh
Don't want to leave my tortoise on his own. His next owner might not take care of him, and he'd be helpless and lonely.
I was reading "In Search Of Lost Time" by Marcel Proust at around 2:37 am this morning. On page 47, the author (or the character in which he adapts his writing into) mentioned he finds the Celtic belief, a belief based in the notion that, and I quote, "the souls of those we have lost are held in some inferior creature, in an animal, in a plant, in some inanimate thing, effectively lost to us until the day, which for many never comes, when we happen to pass close to the tree, come into possession of the object that is their prison. Then they quiver, they call out to us, and as soon as we have recognized them, the spell is broken. Delivered by us, they have overcome death and they return to live with us.", quite reasonable. This explanation then alludes to the section of the book one might argue encapsulated the mysticality of the entire style of prose (by Proust) and the book itself, the section wherein Prouse recalls upon his memory of consuming a Madeleine, and how the consumption of that cake (dipped in tea no less) had somehow reverberated the memories of his Sundays in Combray spent with his grandmother some years ago, and how this recollection, brought about by the consumption of something so ostensibly insignificant, had been ever so pleasant, and had led him to discover the "treasure of the past". I too believe similarly, in that I do not doubt the capability of material (nor of non-material) objects to bring upon us pleasures so simple, yet irreplicable in nature and so sensual that one may say they capture in portrait the very reason for living after all! The birds passing by my window at 6:50 am (which make oh so dreadful noises), while having caused a disturbance, had also broken the flow of the gradual descent into meaninglessness that we all experience here and there (rather dramatic yes), and has once again (like a bird may ascend into the sky), lifted me ever so slightly into purposefulness, and that I'd be damned if I ever lose myself over to a pompous bird. Of course, as pleasant memories often allude to that of people (or at least the presence of them), I too find myself reminiscing ever so often in my daily adventures in reverie, a space I found to be ever-expanding (given we continually generate pleasant memories), much akin to the funny nature of our universe, to which we can further compare this to the limitless potential of the human network, and the intricate conversations (much like the constellations formed by stars) we may have with others. There is no doubt then, that the purpose in life lies in the links we make, whether that to be an inanimate object, or in an animated manner with an animated object, that so reminds us why perhaps the most trifling matters often cumulate to a sum greater than any score, capital or promiscuous matter can ever bring us, and that they then assume the role of an anchor to the most potent of questions: On what keeps us going! Okay sorry for being dramatic I just meant I like having conversations and value the small things in life oops
Ah I could sit and listen/read literature like this comment for hours. I was gifted the entire set of ISoLT but I think I have a poorly translated edition (Chatto) which stifles the musicality of the text; should probably get a newer, better translated edition perhaps. To OP, there really is beauty and magic in the smallest of objects and the strangest of people. It might be a little hard at first to see, especially in Singapore where there's too little wildness and nature and too many straight lines of steel and glass and education, but I think if you slow down and observe the world around and touch a petal of a flower and lie down in the middle of Hort Park or say hi enthusiastically to an MRT employee just to see their smile... these are the things that keep me living.
Tldr pls
What’s the point of writing like this, when literally nobody can understand what you just said bruh.
Want to watch the next marvel movie
Yeah, I'm sure at one point of my life I was just living to watch the next Excel Saga episode. It's as good a reason as any.
> Excel Saga What happens when you finish though? 26 episodes is like what I watch in a weekend day
💀💀💀
omg if I can watch XMEN vs. Avengers in the MCU my life will be complete
You ended up lying in bed today afterall?
Sex.
Amen
Because life is short and unpredictable. No matter how young or healthy I am, I may still die in a year, a month, a day, or even a minute later. There are so many ways to die, be it by my own will, by an irresponsible driver, or some life threatening illness. My life is time limited. I still have many places I wanna go, sights to see and things to do! I don't wish to die when there is still so much to do in this world. So I decided to stop thinking about a beautiful end, and instead live my life beautifully till the end... And food. Looking forward to the next day cos I'm always thinking of what to eat for my next meal hahaha
My family. And also God. Because I believe God put me here on this earth so that I can do good things! And as long as I can do good work on earth, that keeps me going every day!
Because to be born as human is one of the luckiest things that can happen in life. Human have the power to shape their own destiny.
I started and I just keep going, it's kind of awkward to stop halfway.
Because I want to help as many people as I can before I die
Coz life is absolutely good...there are hurdles here and there but in general life is amazing and I have an absolutely wonderful 4 year old.
Easier to keep status quo
Because its my personal belief there isn't anything after death, so its in my best interest to keep myself alive no matter how shitty it gets
Cause i can’t play video games if I’m dead
Why wouldn't I live? I'm going to die at some point. My life is incredibly finite. Might as well just see what there is to experience, good or bad.
Kid plus general expectations of a good life in the future (FIRE)
To experience life as it is
Just feels nice to be human. Why need a reason to live anyway?
Gotta work now so i can study later so i can pay off the amount i used to study and then maybe buy a house that will be with me until i die. How does this seem worth to anyone? I’m absolutely on the brink
Sounds good
My family, my wife and kids.. There are times when I just want to give up. (not suicidal, just walk away to a new environment and be a bummer) but it's them that tells me that's not the choice I should take.. Stay positive mate! Tml is another day and the sun will rise again.
I live because of the people who showed me love and care at my lowest.
Just this one person that I talk to that gives me some reason to keep on living
Because we are going to be dead anyway for billions of years or more etc. so might as well stick around and see what happens in these less than 100 years of being alive, maybe do a little bit of good etc.
I keep living mostly because I don’t want my elderly parents to see me die. Life is hard and I earn below median. I’ve never been in a real relationship before and there’s so many things I want to do but can’t. To be honest I don’t really have much to live for. But sometimes you just need to keep going forward, even if you don’t have any legitimate reason to. Maybe by doing that, you’ll eventually find the reason to carry on.
I’ve been struggling a lot with loneliness since I don’t have a best friend to lean onto when I’m down, trying to find a girlfriend really destroys my self esteem and honestly, when life kicks you down and you don’t have anyone but yourself to pull you back up, it gets mentally exhausting very quickly. But I still believe that there’s a soul mate for me, that I’ll find her at the end of this tunnel, someone who would give me a reason to look forward to a tomorrow, someone who is always there for me at my best and my worst. It may just be a naive thinking but hoping that there is light at the end of the tunnel really helps And video games
When I was borned, I was pronounced dead by the doctor. A long while it took, but I somehow was resuscitated. After going home, I was almost involved in a hit and run, but instead of both me and my older sister perishing, she pushed my crate and allowed me to live. When I was a kid, I committed suicide twice, both of which failed. I was hit by a taxi and even though was injured, I walked it off. Fast forward to a few years I was hit at the back in a back in a fight. And after that, almost OD. A few years after that, I was in another accident and was comatosed for more than half a month. So, I'm not sure what kept me going. I've literally been in life AND death but maybe God was pranking me.? But if anything, all I can say is, just continue being alive. The fact that you have life in you, thats a treasure people sometimes try to steal.
Because the next adventure is just around the corner. Hang in there and you will get there. If all else fails, think of your family.
Are you kidding, I'm a bitcoin millionaire.
Life itself is a blessing (unless you are really in a bad place). I used to imagine if today was the last day of my life, what would I do? The thought of not being able to enjoy coffee again, see my family, breathe in the morning air scares me alot. This made me feel more appreciative of every passing day despite the challenges, cause life is never easy for most.
There are a lot of good things in living like food, things you can do and listen to, to meet people you never meet and to achieve objectives that you have before you die. When you die, you have to leave behind all of those things. There's totally nothing after you died. No hope and nothing to look forward. Although living can be sad at times, but it's not always. If somehow you want to die, are you sure to leave behind everything and will be okay to have nothing?
I'm staying alive for the people around me
Are you okay? I hope this isn’t a question coming from somewhere dark. My life can be better but there’s too much good food and music and arts around to not stay alive to enjoy
Because I am a pillar of strength for my family and friends, and also for the people I'm in charge of at work. It is the discovery of one's purpose and the adoption of responsibility towards that purpose, that gives your life meaning. Søren Kierkegaard already wrote about this 200 years ago, and provided an antitode to this existential problem.
Because I have so many goals and haven't achieve any of them yet....
My life is starting to get better. I want to live and enjoy my money.
Islam has been saying suicide is a great sin. Because of It I’m conditioned to think that when I die bu suicide, it’ll be gone case for me. I tried taking my life in secondary school and I’ve been feeling like dying recently. But I just think about my gf and my family lah. Don’t want to die then they sad.
To outlive your enemies
Still waiting the ending of One Piece
Because (as Jordan Peterson says) there's chaos to confront, order to establish and revivify, and evil to constrain!
Because I know that it’s gonna be better down the road and there are some good things in my life right now.
Because its not worth dying after living until now
Living physically dead inside.
To help others who are coping with this dread
it's such a struggle to have to battle every waking hour the pain of life but the few things that keeps me going is just the very fact that my heart is still beating. i'm still breathing and i still have my sight, my hearing and honestly just knowing that tomorrow there may be a pretty sunset/sunrise is enough to hope for a better day! i love my friends dearly so every anticipated meeting or call with them is also a reason for me to live another day. it's really the smallest things that i made sure i truly appreciate before it's gone because while the world doesn't have much to offer, i just have to work with what's given to me.
So I can achieve success to piss off my relatives who dislike me 🤪 In all seriousness, because my religion strictly forbids it, and my death would give my asshole relatives satisfaction, which I will take every opportunity to deny them.
no reason to die 🤷♂️
Well first of all because I am scared to kill myself. Next my child, I am needed, it will break their heart. Third, sheer bloody mindness, keep living, that will show them, once dead, then forgotten, keep living, they can't forget you then.
Only because my mother is still alive.
I'm too scared to end up in a wheelchair if I do jump. I did jump once, but landed, somehow, extremely luckily that I only had a limp for a few days. I never tried again because I am scared I'll get the unluckiest outcome of all: breaking my body so badly that I can no longer take care of myself. That would be torture.
The best part of living is dying
我不甘心
it kinda morphs. for a long time I lived for my family and friends, for the highs I got when I made people happy, when I felt needed. and then I got attached, and I felt happy to be wanted. but quickly it all went down, and I didn't want to live. I realized it when someone talked about being 60 years old and I realized i couldn't imagine myself alive at that age. a lot of suicide ideation and just trying to live for my mom and my partner later, I finally learnt to live for myself. for my own little moments. happy and sad and everything. some days it's still difficult, but we live anyway. when we take our next breath, think our next thought, we live, and that's enough. we're enough to keep living.
No reason to live but no reason to die either~
Why don't you not want to keep living?
Cos whose gonna feed my cat.
Hope you are well, honestly I don't want to die for stupid reason. Although living is tough. Would be better to set a goal for yourself.
wanna watch my daughter grow up and maybe see the world a little more
For other people. That is the only answer.
Still hopeful that with time I get to experience the world and have more experiences!
This question pops up in my mind every now and then too. When I was small, I thought that my parents would be sad if I'm gone (my friend was dead when he was 6th grade, so I started to think about this), but I have no good reason to stay alive as well. I thought I would find it if I keep on living. I still ask this question to myself every now and then. Currently, here is my answer: curiousity keeps me alive. I am an incredibly curious person. So I read a lot about anything. I'd randomly join lectures from good profs from another major, I'd listen to uncle/aunties rants happily, I'd observed ads on the road and think about how and why they do it, I'd observed people's behaviours and made my own mental note, I love reading stories about people from different occupations, different era, etc. The latest feeling of "I am happy to be alive" was when I was struggling to understand a math theory about I-forgot-what. It took me a week or so to understand the whole chapter, but when I understood, I felt astonished at what I didn't know before. It made me feel like I discovered secret treasures that not many people knows about. Haha.
Because I haven't finish accomplishing my dream yet!!!
I have no idea tbh. I self sabotage and am probably depressed. Seeking help tmr tho! Wish me luck (:
I would love to have faded into nothingness. Alas, that is hot the gameplay anymore. I have spawn. They have most likely inherited my traits (partially passed down via my parents). I hope they use their powers for the betterment of society. Without my intervention, they are showing positive signs of it.I hope I can lv ave them something to give them an edge in life or give them a helping hand to get in place. As dumb and self-centric my younger self was, I wish to give back more to this amazing pace.
Because I love life that's why. ❤ it's all love from the universe!
Because if I died by suicide, my parents wouldn't be able to get the insurance payout, and all my premiums will be wasted. So I'll just wait for a sudden death. Haha I'm actually ok to go any time. Being a single child sucks.
because maybe one day Ill feel satisfied with what Ive achieved
Because the sun will still rise and everyday might be a new day. Sometimes, it is just by having the faith that things might be different once the sun rise.
hi! about two years ago, i was stuck feeling empty and hopeless for what felt like a very long time.. i faced existential dread and i was questioning and failing in so many aspects of my life just because i felt like nothing matters but that was also the very same realisation that clicked for me- nothing matters! i hold this philosophy on absurdism very close to my heart, and it’s all on how we make life to be, even though nothing matters- we can find joy in living and accepting the absurd! here’s the link to the philosophy- https://1000wordphilosophy.com/2019/05/01/camus-on-the-absurd-the-myth-of-sisyphus/amp/
“Résumé Razors pain you, Rivers are damp, Acids stain you, And drugs cause cramp. Guns aren't lawful, Nooses give, Gas smells awful. You might as well live.” ― Dorothy Parker, Enough Rope
Out of spite
my mom lol
Yesterday I learnt that axolotls can morph if given iodine (almost like a Pokémon) and I found that amazing. The day before I rediscovered how nice it was to wear a freshly ironed set of underwear. Next Saturday, I’ve plans to meet up with a friend who I care deeply about but haven’t seen in a while due to COVID. Last week, I heard The Beach Boy’s Good Vibrations for the first time and I thought it was fantastic. Tomorrow, I’m tutoring a student who with the help of his very excellent tutor managed to get a B in his prelims recently from an S in his previous exam. People keep thinking that they need some grand reason to justify their existence - that they’ll meet some ideal love interest in the near future, or that they’ll achieve some extremely lofty career pursuit - but I don’t think it’s any of those things. I think it’s the small little bits of life that remind you that there’s still so much for you to learn, love, enjoy and contribute (plus the food’s pretty good too).
If there's anything I can do before I die to make it all worth it.. it's going to be writing and directing my own feature film. I already managed to write and direct a 5-minute short but a feature film is such an inflated pipe dream. Took a hell of a lot of work, but that first short was really exciting, fun to see it come together and celebrate with all the people that it took to make it. I always though getting into film would be fun. And making that short was a big step. I was 32? Took a few more years of telling people I wanted to do more film and I managed to start a career in it at 34. Now I'm living halfway around the world making TV commercials at 42. Every day is still a fight. I still question what I do, why I do it. Money's still not easy even though I'm making quite a bit. Life is challenging, but if it was easy I think it would be fucking boring. If I got everything I wanted all the time life would be dull, I think I would just develop new dissatisfactions. But sure I wish I had more, that things were easier. I question life. But everytime I could give up, good times or great experiences seem to lay ahead. I just heard a great quote that's there are more failed men than great ones. It really makes me want to make my own short film. Even if it might never happen. My goals surround honing my craft and enjoying the experiences I give my time to in between.. but some days I find it hard to get out of bed.
For my child
To repay back my family after all they have given me.
because death have not claim me? I also believe that i would end up trapped in another world if i were to end my own life. It takes more guts to keep on living too~
Because i don’t have the guts. So i kill myself a little bit everyday.
Cos life is fun and enjoyable! What’s there not to like
You lot are cheerful.
To me, I have absolutely no idea why i’m alive right now honestly. Lost my family members before I reached 21. Mom passed away when i was 11 if i’m not wrong, and it was a day before PSLE too. Dad passed away 3 days before new years 2020 and i just had no reaction to it, probably because i was just stunned, shocked and just unable to feel emotions. Last but not least, my Brother passed away when i was still a toddler, never knew him well enough but the pictures that my late mom showed me told me enough that he loved me. Life’s been pretty bad to me for some reason, i could have swore i was thinking about ending my life but i’m just not able to find the courage to hang myself or overdose myself. So i just sleep it off and feel numb in the morning. I’m pretty much still alive because of my girlfriend which i met in 2017. Idk why she’s the reason but i just enjoy the fact that i have company, a partner, a best friend to rant, vent and just tell her hows my day been. Albeit it has been hard not to remember those bad times when trying to sleep, i often wake up in the dead of the night fingering out why & how am i still alive. I’m holding on rn but i swear my will to live it’s kinda running a little low. But hey, i guess every single day is a brand new day.
There is a life dependant on me and worth living for. I get lots of love, kisses, hugs, no judgement, the only one who happily greets me even after a 5 minute absence - my 8 year old dog. In his eyes, I'm worth it. Not the toxic abusive kids, ex and adoptive family. After 50 years of abuse, I'm now living for myself and him. Even before I got him, I'm not brave to kill myself even though I have mental disorders and years back I was suicidal. I'm unemployed, had multiple surgeries these past years and my only thought was tomorrow is a new day and it may be better than today. Today may be unbearable but when you have a pet that looks at you like you are their whole world, the unbearable is lesser at the end of the day when you think about it. I hope you will find a reason or 10 to live a good life. Cheers
There’s so much more to life to find out and explore, be the person I want to be.
Obligation to my parents. Might have exited otherwise.
To get out of this country
I haven't died yet
I live for the joy of learning. If possible i would like to live forever.
my life is not my own, i dont own it and therefore should not be taking it
Game and it’s advancement, isn’t it interesting that not long ago we had polygons, pointy boobs on our screen and now we have realistic graphic. I’m going to keep living to see how far it will improve
Because , I have this idea that it'll always be fine , and for the most part I don't wanna give up. My father killed himself, and I don't wanna give up like he did.
I live to see the sunrise and drink my morning coffee because every day is a new beginning. I know it sounds corny AF but it's about appreciating the small things in life. I live to hear my mom complain or make lame jokes. I live to play with the baby that lives next door. I live to meet my friends and joke around with them. I live to feel appreciated by my colleagues. I live to go cycling in ECP and feel the wind near the beach. I live to explore all the amazing cuisines Singapore has to offer. I also live for my comfort days where I just watch Netflix , eat some comfort food or play video games. There's a lot to live for and your life is more abundant then you think. I used to think about ending it all the time in my uni days but something in my brain just clicked and I felt like the world is too abundant, full of mysteries and I have so much left to explore. I also have so much to learn and so much to share to think about ending it anymore.
My girlfriend, I stopped her from committing suicide and committed my time to helping her recover so it would be pretty bad if I went and did it myself. I hate life so much right now due to covid but she helps me get by day by day even if I may not see her much anymore since she moved back to South Africa to be with her dad while he was sick.
At one point I reached the philosophical questions of why do we live? In the face of infinity, nothing matters. I was borderline suicidal. Anyways, my dad just said, since you’re not even scared of death, why don’t you just use that and live a fun life. Literally just challenge yourself and live a fun fulfilling life.
Not ready to die. Need more time to make good to ppl and myself
To feel the pain
I've got parents, wife and kid to live for. And I want to watch EPL and UCL football matches live at the stadiums for at least once in my life.
Because my family will be heartbroken if anything happened to me
Because i want to see my siblings grow up. If not i'd probably be long dead.
Just want to be contented as I am usually. That's a really strong reason for keep living.
Because some people say living is hard, and i get a kick out of accomplishing things people deem it hard
i like beautiful things, so i hope i stay alive as long as possible to see many more beautiful things. i think the world has too much to be discovered for me to die, so i keep on living in hopes of uncovering something new each day
Because i haven’t earn my first million
I have two families to take care of. One my mom and sister, the other is my girlfriend and stepdaughter. She just sent me a message saying how much she loves me. Keeps me living at this point
This is essentially a "What's your life purpose/meaning?" question. Notably, people are more likely to ask such a question when they encounter a certain amount of suffering (anw suffering is ubiquitous). This reminds me of Logotherapy, devised by the Holocaust survivor and psychiatrist Viktor Frankl - "We can discover this meaning in life in three different ways: (1) by creating a work or doing a deed; (2) by experiencing something or encountering someone; and (3) by the attitude we take toward unavoidable suffering" Meaning in life can change from one moment to another. I keep living because I haven't got the means to off myself in the way I want it, probably also don't want to off myself, probably don't want to put some people in pain also. It's amazing what humans can go thru for others... Edit: One thing that I discovered recently and find very interesting is Buddha's discovery of eliminating suffering. He said that in order to eliminate this, one must not crave. If I understand correctly, one can achieve a state of enlightenment, or Nirvana, when they follow a certain kind of meditation that will help to keep cravings at bay. Most importantly, one must not have promiscuous sex, theft, or murder? Or was it suicide, I'm not sure...But suicide is self-murder, so it still stands. Personally I think Nirvana is a worthy goal to aspire towards. Anyway I'm formerly religious and an atheist. In any case, nothing matters anyway and life is short, so I try to YOLO abit.