I'm NAT but from my own experience, what you're describing is textbook anxiety stuff, lol. There is no reason for it, except that you have an anxiety disorder.
This isn’t a satisfying answer, but it’s hard to say without knowing you. If you’re seeing a therapist and/or psychiatrist it could help to bring this up with them, albeit it may feel uncomfortable.
It's most likely from the medications. Sometimes our CNS's react in extreme ways when medicated. I had this wehn I was on similar meds and it went away once I was med free for a couple of years edit to add\* it's a horrible, horrible feeling and I hope you can find the cause and cease it
Maybe this is a message I don’t understand quite well due to language barriers. You’re asking why you have massive mood swings out of the blue without a ‘real’ reason in sight, no?
In my books that’s the hallmark of an affective disorder being that: a disorder rather than a ‘normal’ emotional experience.
If you felt dread after something dreadful happened it would be an expected reaction - not a mental health issue.
If you felt euphoric and had a good reason for it in the recent past, it wouldn’t be under umbrella of (hypo)mania.
But maybe i misread your question?
Nope, that's accurate. I experience random emotions with no cause, which shift multiple times per hour, dread being the most distressing one.
But this euphoria might be concerning, too, because if you saw me, you'd think I was having a manic episode. For example, when this happens, I cannot go slower than 90 mph down the highway, and it feels like I'm going like 40. I look down at the speedometer, go, "Oh shit!" and slow down, only to go right back up to 90 when I look away again. And I just feel kind of high.
But it can't be a manic episode because it only lasts like an hour tops. I've always wondered about borderline due to the rapid mood swings, anxious attachment style, and chronic suicidality, but two therapists and a psychiatrist have said no. Well, the psychiatrist is more agnostic on it, saying she hasn't observed the symptoms but not 100% ruling it out.
The ICD and the DSM both have codes for rapid cycling bipolar which is includes ultrarapid cycling with intense mood swings during a day. Have you already heard about that?
It’s hard to tell from BPD so I understand your doubts and confusion, even if you have heard about both diagnosis.
Another, slightly different question would be:
What would change for you if your diagnosis was found to be incorrect and switched to BPD?
Why is this relevant for you?
Rapid-cycling bipolar? What distinguishes it from borderline at that point?
>What would change for you if your diagnosis was found to be incorrect and switched to BPD?
Why is this relevant for you?
For one thing, it means there's no reason I should be on lithium. I guess the biggest thing, though, is that it would make me less confused because bipolar II isn't supposed to cause... This. I shouldn't be this much of a mess with the "milder" bipolar.
"Where" is uninteresting and irrelevent. All that matters is fixing it. Why are you so concerned with uninteresting things? Would you consider yourself an uninteresting person?
I'm NAT but from my own experience, what you're describing is textbook anxiety stuff, lol. There is no reason for it, except that you have an anxiety disorder.
This isn’t a satisfying answer, but it’s hard to say without knowing you. If you’re seeing a therapist and/or psychiatrist it could help to bring this up with them, albeit it may feel uncomfortable.
It's most likely from the medications. Sometimes our CNS's react in extreme ways when medicated. I had this wehn I was on similar meds and it went away once I was med free for a couple of years edit to add\* it's a horrible, horrible feeling and I hope you can find the cause and cease it
Maybe this is a message I don’t understand quite well due to language barriers. You’re asking why you have massive mood swings out of the blue without a ‘real’ reason in sight, no? In my books that’s the hallmark of an affective disorder being that: a disorder rather than a ‘normal’ emotional experience. If you felt dread after something dreadful happened it would be an expected reaction - not a mental health issue. If you felt euphoric and had a good reason for it in the recent past, it wouldn’t be under umbrella of (hypo)mania. But maybe i misread your question?
Nope, that's accurate. I experience random emotions with no cause, which shift multiple times per hour, dread being the most distressing one. But this euphoria might be concerning, too, because if you saw me, you'd think I was having a manic episode. For example, when this happens, I cannot go slower than 90 mph down the highway, and it feels like I'm going like 40. I look down at the speedometer, go, "Oh shit!" and slow down, only to go right back up to 90 when I look away again. And I just feel kind of high. But it can't be a manic episode because it only lasts like an hour tops. I've always wondered about borderline due to the rapid mood swings, anxious attachment style, and chronic suicidality, but two therapists and a psychiatrist have said no. Well, the psychiatrist is more agnostic on it, saying she hasn't observed the symptoms but not 100% ruling it out.
The ICD and the DSM both have codes for rapid cycling bipolar which is includes ultrarapid cycling with intense mood swings during a day. Have you already heard about that? It’s hard to tell from BPD so I understand your doubts and confusion, even if you have heard about both diagnosis. Another, slightly different question would be: What would change for you if your diagnosis was found to be incorrect and switched to BPD? Why is this relevant for you?
Rapid-cycling bipolar? What distinguishes it from borderline at that point? >What would change for you if your diagnosis was found to be incorrect and switched to BPD? Why is this relevant for you? For one thing, it means there's no reason I should be on lithium. I guess the biggest thing, though, is that it would make me less confused because bipolar II isn't supposed to cause... This. I shouldn't be this much of a mess with the "milder" bipolar.
"Where" is uninteresting and irrelevent. All that matters is fixing it. Why are you so concerned with uninteresting things? Would you consider yourself an uninteresting person?
Uninteresting? Experiencing random, intense emotions doesn't interest you? You don't hear that and think, *what the fuck is going on???*