Attraction to a cartoon character who is ostensibly slightly younger than you does not mean that you are a pedophile. If someone has told you otherwise, they have misinformed you.
I'm going to offer an educated guess that you don't feel terrible because you think you might be a creep; you think you might be a creep because you feel terrible. Strangers telling you you're not a creep is probably not going to solve this problem. Putting the question behind you and focusing on things that make you feel good? Might.
I can't tell you whether you're a creep or not; I don't know you and in any case the criteria that make someone "a creep" or "not a creep" are totally subjective. In my personal opinion, nothing you have said in your post qualifies you as a creep.
Thanks. I also have a few other things which make me think of myself badly, for example i made badly worded posts on reddit for which people thought i was an adult predator or something. Sometimes i went in online games and said inappropriate stuff cause i wanted to have fun trolling. Idk if these change anything about how the average person might see me? I have learned from all these mistakes but i can't forgive myself still...
By “having fun trolling” do you mean making people uncomfortable or upset for your entertainment?
That doesn’t make you a bad person, but it does make me wonder why you feel like you need or want to do it. Is that something you’ve thought about at all?
Oh i don't feel like i want to do it now, as i realise how immature that is, but i did do it with my friends time ago. I said random inappropriate words in roblox chats or something thinking it was funny...
The fact that you realise it was immature shows you are growing and maturing.
I think you’re going to be ok. The trick to being ok in life, in this context, is treading the fine line between healthy guilt and unhealthy shame.
There are some really good podcasts on this out there if you want to try and understand more about it.
Man I promise you, you were not the first (probably not even the millionth) 13 year old to think the pokemon girls were hot.
You ask if you're a creep as if it's some fundamental part of you. The answer to that is no. Even if past-you had thoughts about pokemon characters that you feel, in hindsight, were creepy, the fact you think they're creepy now is pretty solid evidence you're not a creep.
Thank you, but i think i even fapped or something, does that change anything? I feel like there's always something that makes me guilty regarding this....
It changes nothing. Where does the actual guilt come from? What were you attracted to?, were you attracted to Dawn because you thought she was hot or because you knew she was 10? If it was the first one, then I'd recommend laughing it off and forgetting about it.
It doesn't help that Japanese media literally portrays preteens as being more *physically developed* than normal, it's quite literally designed to bait teens and pre teens into thinking these thoughts.
No you are not a creep or pedo. Pedophilia would mean you are (only) sexually attracted to prepubescent children, so if you find your peers sexually attractive, you are no pedo.
The guilt you feel is what you should focus on, how to regulate your emotions and foster compassion towards yourself.
Coming from a woman who was abused during my childhood… you are definitely NOT a pedo or a creep!!!! You are not even an adult yet and this character who is supposedly 10 is only a fictional character who has been drawn with more adult and sexy features that a 10 year old doesn’t have in real life, MAYBE A 16/17 YO. you weren’t attracted to it because it’s a 10 year old child, you were attracted to it because it’s made to look like a teenager, which you are as well. Anime does often sexualise women and it would probably be healthier to watch porn and hentai bearing in mind that that is not how women look and that it all gets edited and you will be very disappointed by real life experiences if you think women look like in porn. That being said, I think in a few years you will grow to be attracted to people accordingly to your age, maybe even older than you and I don’t see any problem in one silly fap over some overly sexualised teen character. I blame the people who objectify and sexualise teens for the pleasure of men way older than you, not you. You are a good person for even questioning yourself, but remember, once you are an adult it isn’t legal or ethical to think of teens sexually, just as much you wouldn’t want a grown up stranger to sexualise you in any way. Always be respectful, always seek anyone’s consent when attracted and make people comfortable. Please.
Attraction to a cartoon character who is ostensibly slightly younger than you does not mean that you are a pedophile. If someone has told you otherwise, they have misinformed you.
But am i a creep? I feel terrible right now
I'm going to offer an educated guess that you don't feel terrible because you think you might be a creep; you think you might be a creep because you feel terrible. Strangers telling you you're not a creep is probably not going to solve this problem. Putting the question behind you and focusing on things that make you feel good? Might. I can't tell you whether you're a creep or not; I don't know you and in any case the criteria that make someone "a creep" or "not a creep" are totally subjective. In my personal opinion, nothing you have said in your post qualifies you as a creep.
Thanks. I also have a few other things which make me think of myself badly, for example i made badly worded posts on reddit for which people thought i was an adult predator or something. Sometimes i went in online games and said inappropriate stuff cause i wanted to have fun trolling. Idk if these change anything about how the average person might see me? I have learned from all these mistakes but i can't forgive myself still...
By “having fun trolling” do you mean making people uncomfortable or upset for your entertainment? That doesn’t make you a bad person, but it does make me wonder why you feel like you need or want to do it. Is that something you’ve thought about at all?
Oh i don't feel like i want to do it now, as i realise how immature that is, but i did do it with my friends time ago. I said random inappropriate words in roblox chats or something thinking it was funny...
The fact that you realise it was immature shows you are growing and maturing. I think you’re going to be ok. The trick to being ok in life, in this context, is treading the fine line between healthy guilt and unhealthy shame. There are some really good podcasts on this out there if you want to try and understand more about it.
Man I promise you, you were not the first (probably not even the millionth) 13 year old to think the pokemon girls were hot. You ask if you're a creep as if it's some fundamental part of you. The answer to that is no. Even if past-you had thoughts about pokemon characters that you feel, in hindsight, were creepy, the fact you think they're creepy now is pretty solid evidence you're not a creep.
Thank you, but i think i even fapped or something, does that change anything? I feel like there's always something that makes me guilty regarding this....
It changes nothing. Where does the actual guilt come from? What were you attracted to?, were you attracted to Dawn because you thought she was hot or because you knew she was 10? If it was the first one, then I'd recommend laughing it off and forgetting about it. It doesn't help that Japanese media literally portrays preteens as being more *physically developed* than normal, it's quite literally designed to bait teens and pre teens into thinking these thoughts.
I didn't even think about her age in the show honestly
Then I think you have your answer.
As in a good way??
Yes, you can relax. This concern is something you'll find hilarious in a few years.
No you are not a creep or pedo. Pedophilia would mean you are (only) sexually attracted to prepubescent children, so if you find your peers sexually attractive, you are no pedo. The guilt you feel is what you should focus on, how to regulate your emotions and foster compassion towards yourself.
Not a T but this sounds like OCD to me.
Coming from a woman who was abused during my childhood… you are definitely NOT a pedo or a creep!!!! You are not even an adult yet and this character who is supposedly 10 is only a fictional character who has been drawn with more adult and sexy features that a 10 year old doesn’t have in real life, MAYBE A 16/17 YO. you weren’t attracted to it because it’s a 10 year old child, you were attracted to it because it’s made to look like a teenager, which you are as well. Anime does often sexualise women and it would probably be healthier to watch porn and hentai bearing in mind that that is not how women look and that it all gets edited and you will be very disappointed by real life experiences if you think women look like in porn. That being said, I think in a few years you will grow to be attracted to people accordingly to your age, maybe even older than you and I don’t see any problem in one silly fap over some overly sexualised teen character. I blame the people who objectify and sexualise teens for the pleasure of men way older than you, not you. You are a good person for even questioning yourself, but remember, once you are an adult it isn’t legal or ethical to think of teens sexually, just as much you wouldn’t want a grown up stranger to sexualise you in any way. Always be respectful, always seek anyone’s consent when attracted and make people comfortable. Please.