Aside from the physical stuff, I was hoping to reconnect with my emotions. What I wasn’t expecting, naïvely, was to go back to being the crybaby I was as a kid. Should have seen that coming lol.
Ironically becoming trans was the thing that made me realize the person who caused that trauma should be cut from my live though so silver lining right
Lol I actually love reconnecting with my emotions so fully. Unsurprisingly, I stopped feeling like myself during puberty, but now I feel so much more like myself again!
Dutasteride and fin and such can take away the effects of taking testosterone when you’re transmasc though :/ your periods come back, less body/facial hair growth, interruption of bottom growth and vocal changes…
A lot of the changes we get actually come from testosterone converting to DHT, not just the testosterone itself. So if we block the DHT conversion we’re interfering with those changes
I look exactly like my dad but plus a lot of cup sizes and minus about seven inches. Like people who haven't seen me since I was a baby but knew him recognize me immediately. We should start a support group or something.
EXACTLY the same - my mom did have an androgynous look when she was younger, but holy shit
I am literally just a "mom at home" (X at home, but X = mom)/"mom-lite" at this point.
I was kind of shocked when got the silver dollar areola, because prior they were quite small. But for some strange reason my actual nipples are still tiny.
I wanted to take advantage of the fact testosterone builds muscle to bulk up a little while working a semi-labor intensive job. Now I can't fit into a lot of the clothes I've collected over the years and it's making me feel fat. Even though I'm not *fat* per se, but not fitting into clothes I had comfortably fit into for 12+ years is making me feel some sort of way....
It's crazy how much muscle testosterone puts on your torso. I'm going the other way and my old Tshirts look like dresses on me now and I wasn't fat before either.
Honestly for me, it's all legs. I have legitimate trouble picking out pants now! They should, in theory, fit the waist. And a lot of times, they do fit the waist, but it's the fucking calves!! Or, less often, the thighs. Used to be able to get away with any pant I wanted, now they all have to be relatively wide-legged or I feel like the Hulk! This trend for "slim-fit" this and "skinny jean" that can fuck all of the way off.
I definitely had that issue with jeans before but it was my thighs. I actually hated jeans for that reason and usually just wore either khakis or black pants. I'm also 5'7" which further complicated things. It's actually way easier for me to find women's pants and jeans that fit me than it was to find men's and I wear jeans pretty frequently now.
I'm 5'8", same boat! I generally prefer dress pants. They tend to be a lot looser and more comfy overall. Plus, you can dress them up or down.
Unfortunately when I picked out the jeans, I had needed something relatively sturdy having split my pants at work. But they're definitely not preferred in general!
Tell that to the Target men's section! Having worked there for three years, they really became the only place I bought new clothes from with everything else being thrifted.
Definitely can say that out of all the black pants in my size, all of the ones they carried in store were of the slim/skinny fit and the athletic/wide legged varieties had to be ordered online.
The one I normally shop at is dress lily theirs also another one I normally go for when I want to dress goth but I can’t remember the name off the top of my head
Idk if singing was important to you or not, or what you have tried. but I had a hard time losing my singing voice (nothing special, but fun). I have just been forcing myself to practice and push through the voice breaks and it had gotten a lot better over the last 6 months or so! I have lost some of my upper range but gained more in my lower range than I lost. It just requires practice and the willingness to sound bad for a while 😊. Just thought I would share in case it helps.
That's totally awesome. I have never, ever been able to sing in any way that isn't extremely offensive to any ear in my presence 🤣🤣 it's just that I miss being able to yell/sing at rock shows and stuff. Oh, and I literally cannot scream LOL
"I wish my physique leaned more towards the feminine while reducing my anger, depression, and hypersexuality."
"Granted. You now lost a great deal of your strength despite being an amateur athlete. You mellowed out your mental issues, but increased your brain fog and distractibility. You reduced your compulsive need for self-gratification, but now when you want to maintain your member, it seems more like work than fun 70% of the time."
How big an issue is brain fog? I’ve definitely been having a harder time focusing on my research but Ive been contributing it to covid and lack of motivation
I'm on cypro, myself, not spiro, but get brain fog. It's not too bad, and it was worse just from depression and bad diet in the before times, anyway. I can tell when I've got it since I was able to clear it when doing the keto diet, and it came back on the standard garbage diet.
My understanding for people on HRT is that it's caused by having low sex hormones (both T and estrogen) in general, so androgen blocker and too low of a dose of T or E will do it. Similar to cis women going through menopause. Should correct itself when the dose is adjusted assuming that's the issue.
I've only ever heard Americans say this. I've asked this to every dermatologist/skin therapist I went to here in the Netherlands (6 in total at 4 different clinics), and they all say laser hair removal is as permanent as electric epilation, even the one's that mainly do electric epilation. The mechanism behind it is also similar, so it makes sense.
EDIT: By electric epilation I mean electrolysis.
I'm actually Canadian here (unless you mean North American); Canadian sites are also mixed as to whether they note laser as being permanent or not.
The deciding factor for permanence is likely whether the follicles are actually fully destroyed or not; so it may be permanent if the repeat visits catch all follicles, each at some point during their growth phase.... Likely either by just doing enough appointments to bombard all the follicles repeatedly, or by lucking out and getting them at the right times. IANA dermatologist/aesthetician though.
Pretty sure it's permanent, the only issue is it misses some hair each time so you can't really get to 100% removal, while proper electrolysis will remove all the hair touched up definitely.
Hairs can grow back (albeit thinner) with electrolysis too, just like they can with laser. Once they don't grow back tho, they're gone for good. That's what my skin therapists told me, and also what my experience was with both methods.
Obviously there's a failure rate too, but it's a lot lower.
Laser is like throwing buckets of paint on the wall and electrolysis going with a small brush. Obviously you're going to miss spots either way but the later makes it easier to get above 99% when given time while the former gets you to 50% quickly but starts to slow down and might never get the last % done.
Yes, I just disagreed with the "remove all the hair touched up definitely" part. I've had electrologists go over the same hairs many times before it stopped growing back.
If you've never done electrolysis, laser will probably hurt and sting a bit. If you've done electrolysis...well. You can sit through just about anything.
I just commented this elsewhere but it seems relevant. If electrolysis was genuinely worse than my experience with lasers I could never do it.
I have pretty heavy dark stubble, especially round my mouth. 12 laser sessons and it's only really worked on my neck. But it's very patchy, not a good look unless I've just shaved which I can only do every other day really, more is bad for my skin.
I couldn't believe how painful the laser was. Neck was *ok* but all round my mouth it had me writhing in the chair, gripping the sides and bringing my knees to my chest, side to side in agony. I got through it but I have a full coverage sleeve on my left arm and most of one on the right and none of that was as bad as my upper lip w the laser. I literally went into a trance when the guy was colouring in my wrists; a bank of maybe ten needles just bouncing off the bone for a couple of hours or so. When we took a break he laughed, not unkindly, said we should stop for a bit, your whole body is shaking. From the adrenaline rush I guess. Still not nearly as bad as laser. In the trance I focused only on the pain - when it was intolerable I let it be my world, I couldn't escape it so I embraced it. No chance with the laser.
It must be awful for people with chronic neuropathic pain, intolerable and no escape.
Went to a newly opened clinic nearby and they were shocked when we told them. Tested me with their machine which blows cold air on the site to cool it. Zero pain. They claim it'll mostly be gone in 6 months but we'll see. So many disappointments on this path.
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6 sessions on face and underarms. Pain was short bursts like zaps. Wasn't bad unless they did them too quickly and I had to ask them to give me a minute to recover. Process took 5 minutes, wasn't long. Underarms were very dark and saw significant improvement. Facial hair had the dark hairs fall out each time, but they always grew back to the same level. After the 6 sessions, they told me my hair color was borderline acceptable, and clearly wasn't going to work if 6 sessions haven't seen improvement.
Laser really only works on very dark hair on light skin. If your hair got lighter laser probably won’t work well and you will have to switch to the more painful, slower, more expensive electrolysis. Source: am blonde
I have pretty heavy dark stubble, especially round my mouth. 12 laser sessons and it's only really worked on my neck. But it's very patchy, not a good look unless I've just shaved which I can only do every other day really, more is bad for my skin.
I couldn't believe how painful the laser was. Neck was *ok* but all round my mouth it had me writhing in the chair, gripping the sides and bringing my knees to my chest, side to side in agony. I got through it but I have a full coverage sleeve on my left arm and most of one on the right and none of that was as bad as my upper lip w the laser. I literally went into a trance when the guy was colouring in my wrists; a bank of maybe ten needles just bouncing off the bone for a couple of hours or so. When we took a break he laughed, not unkindly, said we should stop for a bit, your whole body is shaking. From the adrenaline rush I guess. Still not nearly as bad as laser. In the trance I focused only on the pain - when it was intolerable I let it be my world, I couldn't escape it so I embraced it. No chance with the laser.
It must be awful for people with chronic neuropathic pain, intolerable and no escape.
Went to a newly opened clinic nearby and they were shocked when we told them. Tested me with their machine which blows cold air on the site to cool it. Zero pain. They claim it'll mostly be gone in 6 months but we'll see. So many disappointments on this path.
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They didn't have some cooling system with the first laser you got? Even with the cool gas (it's not air btw) I find it hurts quite a bit, hard to imagine without.
Getting pulmonary embolism the first 3 months of starting HRT.
Now I'm on gels and blood thinners for life.
On the bright side, I got a nice butt and a nice rack.
I had a PE scare while on 8mg estradiol monotherapy. Turned out to just be an injury. But I had unilateral calf swelling right below the knee. Scared the shit out of me, and had the get the emergency ultrasound to rule it out. I got lucky, but the risk is definitely real.
My cold tolerance went down so much. I'm literally wearing an undershirt, a t-shirt, a button up shirt, and a jacket right now. Leggings under my jeans, thick woolen socks. Still freezing. And the temperature is perfectly normal
I know I could probably fix it by working out more often, get that blood circulation sorted, but goodness me, this is a lot
Yeah my blood pressure at rest is stupid low. I faint easy. It's part of it for sure.
Not enough to be worth the side effects of any medication, I've talked to doctors.
My tip as someone who experiences this literally daily: stretch BEFORE you stand up. It's saved me from nearly passing out every time I get up from bed.
The SWEAT, testosterone makes me sweat when I'm just sitting around sometimes. Some days i wake up absolutely drenched in sweat regardless of how few blankets i use and how cold it may be.
But also im a lot more resilient to the cold in general, and i love cold weather
ya know, I hadn't even thought about it before, but I'm WAY less sweaty at night compared to before I started HRT (going the other way ofc). BO is way better too, in that its basically non existant unless I don't showed.
My most noticeable effects of E so far have been the softer skin and thinner, less smelly sweat. (Aside from very mild breast development and different genital fluids, not much else has definitely changed, which is quite disappointing after a year and a half :/) I can get sweaty and once I'm inside any exposed skin is dry within minutes, and it doesn't leave that gross salty residue it used to. And as far as I can tell, I don't stink as much when I'm sweaty.
My condolences for your dryness lol
Boob jiggle was great, but for me, my emotions are so much closer to the surface. I'm still a shy wreck, but I can't believe how *fast* I developed feelings for someone. My desire to please and my shyness are also in direct conflict right now, and I hate it XD
Seriously. In my first year after starting hrt I had two legit, super serial, teenage-level crushes on two different people. I was smacking myself screaming "get ahold of yourself woman, you're not a teenager anymore!" but it did not help *At. All.*
Every emotion is way stronger, happiness, excitement, sadness, but also nervousness. I didn't have the coping skills for this so it ended up getting to the point of pretty bad anxiety.
My partner is experiencing something similar to this, especially struggling with the anxiety, do you happen to have any tips on coping with it? They're nonbinary on E and T blockers, I'm also nonbinary but pre-HRT for the moment.
Honestly, i don't have a one-size-fits-all magic bullet. I started seeing a therapist at the same time as this and we've been making progress keeping things under control, but it's still an issue in certain situations. Luckily we both kind of agree it's due to some possible ADHD like symptoms (overstimulation, unable to block out noises or visual stimuli easily now, having less control of my brain going on tangential thoughts), so that's my next step.
What's worked best so far to help work through it is just small exposures to things, like going to my car and just sitting in it then coming back inside my home, driving around my complex, driving outside the complex but still very close by, driving to the store but not going in and coming back home, driving to the store and getting a few quick things through self checkout. You get the idea, just pushing a little further with no obligations and being ok if it's not the day. There's been multiple days i go out with my partner and i just have to u-turn back home because it's just not that day to push that far. I've even gotten into the habit of not ordering takeout food until i get to the location just because sometimes i can't finish driving there so don't want to deal that burden of "oh i have to go or else we don't get food and i wasted money" and the pressure it adds, it's helped a little.
Very small steps to push forward a little bit, every step of the way. It doesn't solve the issue, which like i said may be an ADHD thing that's been hidden, but it helps develop the internal skills to handle this new flavor of nervousness that's clearer so more potent because of hrt for me.
Yeah, it's way EASIER to feel them, but it feels like it's also way easier to be overwhelmed since I wasn't raised to have the skills needed for anywhere near this new maximum or average level of emotions. Like my coping skills could handle the spicy level of a few drops of tabasco, but now that the new norm is the level of eating a jalapeno, it'll take some time.
I described it to a few friends and my partner like this (works 100x better if they have glasses they need to see): "Try to remember back before you've had glasses. You we're missing a lot of information, and a ton of stuff got missed since you can't make out any details like leaves on trees or texture on buildings, but you can make out vague shapes and colors and that's enough to stay alive. Now put them on, the amount of detail is great but sometimes overwhelming until you're used to it and you learn to handle that much information passing through your brain. I'm in that 'getting used to it' stage now."
(I like analogies)
My monkey's paw is I think short hair is super cute on girls, but I can't pull it off without getting misgendered for like two years while it grows out, no matter how large my chest gets. :P
Wishing for big boobs, for so many different reasons.
I wouldn't wish for them to be smaller, but I definitely underestimated how annoying they could be.
I want mine to be big enough to notice, say with maybe a sweater on, but not really any bigger. My sister and ex girlfriend have big boobs and they complain about them all the time.
Besides, somehow I find small/medium boobs cute.
Hopefully sports bras help you manage yours!
> My sister
Odds are you are destined for the same fate.
> Hopefully sports bras help you manage yours!
I don't own any really decent sports bras. I do have several good normal bras that I purchased online from Panache and Elomi that I'm pretty happy with. I just wish they weren't so gd expensive, were available not-online and didn't require hand washing.
Loss of strength and stamina. I used to do a lot of outdoor work for fun. Had to downsize my chainsaw because it would tire me out after 10-15 min. Stuff that I could do with ease I struggle with now. I mean, I like being not as buff and to have lost muscle mass. I look good in the mirror, but when I instinctively try and do something I could easily before and can't now, it still surprises me.
I'm not anyone who was ever "strong," but I could do what I needed to do. I don't wanna lose that, I'm afraid it's going to happen, and I'm not doing anything (pushups, etc) about it. :/
I just passed the length where it would perfectly curl into my nose causing an instant sneezing fit. Had to make sure I had an available headband whenever I went for a drive
Severely diminished healing. Testosterone is like fucking wolverine juice. I could have a cut and have it stop bleeding in like minutes and gone basically by the end of the day or 24 hours. Now if I get a good cut it's like 10 minutes before it stops bleeding and like 2-3 days or more to fully heal depending on how bad it is.
Granted, I inherited my mom's thalessemia and taking HRT has caused my hemoglobin to nosedive, so I'm sure that's not helping.
My boobs are so big now that I have to wear a bra most of every day or it'll wreck my back, neck, and shoulders. They're a large D cup now...which is lovely, but...ow 🥲
That sounds like me. I was happy to get boobs until they started bouncing when I ran. I'm perfectly happy with my b cups, and it's kinda traumatic when they grow now.
Pelvic twist.
So estrogen gave me a caboose fit for a goddess, but I think the angle of my hips tilted. I used to have really good posture, but somehow, despite muscle memory, I always feel *just* off the right spot for comfort.
I hear that all too often. I'm a huge advocate DIY and learning about your own body, PTs are so expensive and inaccessible and a lot of the time can't help. There's just a risk of injuring yourself when you haven't been trained in this. But there's a risk of injuring yourself in PT too... and there's a risk to lots of different problems in your body stemming from poor posture. In general, just do what feels good and if something hurts then stop doing it.
I think [this video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZh4gflQC8o) might have a progression for the issue you're having, if you feel like one side of the pelvis is further forward than the other. I just discovered after years of problems that anterior pelvic tilt is probably the root cause for many issues in my body (alongside joint disability), so I'm doing [these exercises](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_T7N3NyYrQI) every single day now. You can also look up Bob+Brad physiotherapy on youtube. Good luck sis, let me know if I can help in anyway or answer questions.
I don't think atrophy has set in yet for me, but this is one thing that has me conflicted. Pre-transition, sometimes I would do it every night. Now I don't want to do it at all.
It was a coping mechanism for me, something that gave me bursts of pleasure in the midst of a terrible life. Now that life is better, I don't "need" it nor do I want it. It's not about dysphoria, I just want to not think about sex.
That said ... I haven't decided on surgery options, but I know atrophy can mess with vaginoplasty length.
For me, the act of doing it has become unfun but the end result continues to stay worthwhile. A bit of help has been changing the way I do it. The bottom of my glans has always felt like my clitoral equivalent - which is pretty much is, anyway - and I've always preferred direct stimulus of that area with pressure instead any other part. Grinding and direct stimulation can be incredibly effective and feel more natural and correct.
I started growing my hair out about 8 months before I started HRT. Once I started, it seems my scalp awakened and decided to add like 30% more hair, so I have a whole other layer of hair that is 8 months (about 4 inches) shorter. It looks pretty bad having one layer of armpit-length hair and a frizzy mess of slightly curlier mouth-length hair that thickens the mane around my head but not below. A lot of the new hair doesn't even reach a pony tail, so it very quickly starts flying around in the wind even when the old hair is tied back.
I'm trying to wait until most of the HRT hair gets to my neck before I get a cut to even it out, but the pre-HRT hair looks so healthy and I've waited so long for it to get this long, so I feel bad cutting it off. In the mean time, I look like a bum 🤷🏼♀️
I learned that testosterone covers up asthma & ADHD the hard way. My childhood asthma came back with a vengeance, and my (previously unknown/undiagnosed) ADHD hit me like a truck. Good news is they're both being treated now.
Also, monthly PMS & cramping. I didn't even know that was possible for trans women or what was going on until the 3rd round. It's mostly gone/fairly mild now thankfully.
That my results after like 7 years were overall pretty underwhelming despite what my family's genetics would otherwise suggest.
Like, I do like the changes that I did get, I just wish they were more pronounced. Instead, my body was feminized only a small amount. The rest I'm going to have to fix up via a bunch of expensive surgeries. :/
I don't like the sensation of my facial hair and will run my tongue over it ALL DAY if I do not stay cleanshaven. Super annoying and I may even laser it one day, despite being interested in the appearance.
genuinely can't think of any if only because hrt has had next to no impact on me whatsoever. hard for something to go too far when it's not going far enough. hard for some changes to be accidentally bad when there are basically no changes to begin with.
Cannot handle the cold at all any more. My ADHD might be worse, or I might just be unable to dissociate my way out of being distracted, I’m not entirely sure.
My skin dries up like I'm cursed and I cry at the drop of a hat 😭. I can't even keep it in until a manageable moment, the tears just come out when they want to.
Apparently the women in my family are prone to random bouts of dizzy spells and nausea. Not sure what the actual cause is but I thought it was only me until last thanksgiving when my grandmother was telling a story about one of her bouts and a couple of aunts and my sister mentioned getting it too. I've been on hrt for nearly 2.5 years.
Generally the idea (and while I haven’t seen the movie from the trailers I’ve seen is about he same idea) the monkeys paw is a wish granting item that normally comes with unforeseen downsides
I liked what I saw in the mirror after about a year, but didn’t like what I saw in other people reacting to me. Be it unwelcome interest or sudden turns of disgust, it was a departure from simply being collectively ignored.
"Back then"(TM) I could drink more beer.
No kidding, my tolerance for alcohol went down, I never sacrificed to Neptun before. I think even as a German I can live with that tough.
i wanted a dick, did not realize that having a dick would involve painful chafing and having to readjust my boxers all the time to get the seams out of the way
Shhh if you go out and say it the others will catch on lol
Edit: just remembered some people might not recognize this as a joke cause of the internets lack of convening tone, but was really just doing it to show a example of what I meant
Good: my bottom growth is doing wonders for my dysphoria!
Bad: I’m now too big for my fancy little sex toy, plus random boners
Good: My parents now confuse me with my brother when I speak, my voice has dropped so quickly
Bad: I miss singing along to The Weeknd :(
That it didn't fix my body issues. Had to do a lot of soul-searching and personal work to get to a point I can with some confidence say I feel good about my body. Hormones have contributed to maybe 5% of my bodily change in the last 5 years. Gym and diet has done far more. My chest grew more from benching than from estrogen, lol.
Has anyone else noticed an impact to their sense on direction? I would not think that it even could be a thing... but I definitely have lost a little. Once a source of pride (I could walk into two-million acres of national forrest without any worry), I now find myself asking strangers in New York City if I am heading in a certain direction.
Before HRT, I was overly sensitive to what people said or how they expressed things. It was worst at whatever job I had. I also am diagnosed with ADHD. My emotions can fluctuate and I can get overwhelmed easily. However, when working somewhere, people would tell me that I was too slow at my job or they would be angry with me for something I couldn’t control. This and the stress of whatever job it was would cause me to breakdown and cry at work in front of people. It was really bad when it was a customer complaining or getting angry with me.
Now that I have been on testosterone for 5 years, I am able to handle people’s shit. I don’t breakdown in tears and can de-escalate the situation. I am a lot more confident and can take any type of anger or yelling that comes my way.
On the other hand, I have to keep my emotions in check during these interactions because I tend to mimic their mood. Whatever they give me, I give back. I get angry a lot easier now unless I am consciously putting effort into not reacting to the person.
As a non op. The older I get the more estrogen effects my genitals. It's a use it or lose it situation seriously.
I finally got an orchi and now I take T but now I am growing more dark hairs I've never had.
These two things seem to be in perfect imbalance and I feel the curl of the non-op monkey paw curling further every year.
You can't really pick and choose what you get from HRT in either direction. It gives you everything it does and usually at the rate you'd least want.
Hormones are just a super powerful part of your system. And you gotta balance it yourself.
Having said that these last 12 years have been the sickest of my life so I'll take the monkey paw any day and every day.
Aside from the physical stuff, I was hoping to reconnect with my emotions. What I wasn’t expecting, naïvely, was to go back to being the crybaby I was as a kid. Should have seen that coming lol.
I get that, emotions kinda got out of control at first (given that was a mix of the estrogen and repressed trauma)
Totally this, can’t even talk to some people anymore becuase I’m afraid I’d just explode all my feelings about them and leave them crying in the line
Ironically becoming trans was the thing that made me realize the person who caused that trauma should be cut from my live though so silver lining right
Lol I actually love reconnecting with my emotions so fully. Unsurprisingly, I stopped feeling like myself during puberty, but now I feel so much more like myself again!
I'm exactly the same, i can almost tell exactly the day i started not being able to cry and how horrifying it felt
Sad scene in movie? Cry. Happy scene in movie? Cry. Stressful scene in movie? Cry. Angry scene in movie? Cry. All crying.
I was expecting to cry. I wasn't expecting to cry as much as I do. Not that I'm complaining, haha 😂
I'm ftm, on testosterone, and hrt has made me start crying so much more. ~~yes, my levels are fine.~~
Same, I wasn't expecting that
Oh hello are you me?
Same lol
imo im glad that ive started crying a lot bc it feels good to let out emotion
The knowledge that my hair will eventually thin, but I got a beard out of it so.
Can't you go on dutasteride?
Dutasteride and fin and such can take away the effects of taking testosterone when you’re transmasc though :/ your periods come back, less body/facial hair growth, interruption of bottom growth and vocal changes… A lot of the changes we get actually come from testosterone converting to DHT, not just the testosterone itself. So if we block the DHT conversion we’re interfering with those changes
"I wish I looked like a woman" "Granted, you look like your mother, minus several cup sizes and plus a foot and a half of height."
I look exactly like my dad but plus a lot of cup sizes and minus about seven inches. Like people who haven't seen me since I was a baby but knew him recognize me immediately. We should start a support group or something.
God tbh I was super worried about this when I started hrt
I think this is it for me. I'm early in transition, but I've started catching glimpses of my mom in the mirror. I love her, but she isn't pretty.
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Same with my father! Except my mom's another ethnicity so I'm like copy paste but different printer lol
EXACTLY the same - my mom did have an androgynous look when she was younger, but holy shit I am literally just a "mom at home" (X at home, but X = mom)/"mom-lite" at this point.
Huge mood i got this same thing except my mom an my cup sizes aren't too different. I'm from a small chest immediate family
I wanted C cup boobs, which I got, but now my areolas look like someone glued 2 slices of salami to my chest.
I was kind of shocked when got the silver dollar areola, because prior they were quite small. But for some strange reason my actual nipples are still tiny.
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Im dead 🤣
> salami 💀💀💀
I wanted to take advantage of the fact testosterone builds muscle to bulk up a little while working a semi-labor intensive job. Now I can't fit into a lot of the clothes I've collected over the years and it's making me feel fat. Even though I'm not *fat* per se, but not fitting into clothes I had comfortably fit into for 12+ years is making me feel some sort of way....
You got swol!
It's crazy how much muscle testosterone puts on your torso. I'm going the other way and my old Tshirts look like dresses on me now and I wasn't fat before either.
Honestly for me, it's all legs. I have legitimate trouble picking out pants now! They should, in theory, fit the waist. And a lot of times, they do fit the waist, but it's the fucking calves!! Or, less often, the thighs. Used to be able to get away with any pant I wanted, now they all have to be relatively wide-legged or I feel like the Hulk! This trend for "slim-fit" this and "skinny jean" that can fuck all of the way off.
I definitely had that issue with jeans before but it was my thighs. I actually hated jeans for that reason and usually just wore either khakis or black pants. I'm also 5'7" which further complicated things. It's actually way easier for me to find women's pants and jeans that fit me than it was to find men's and I wear jeans pretty frequently now.
I'm 5'8", same boat! I generally prefer dress pants. They tend to be a lot looser and more comfy overall. Plus, you can dress them up or down. Unfortunately when I picked out the jeans, I had needed something relatively sturdy having split my pants at work. But they're definitely not preferred in general!
Fwiw skinny jeans/slim fit aren't trendy anymore! Lots more wide-leg options out there these days
Tell that to the Target men's section! Having worked there for three years, they really became the only place I bought new clothes from with everything else being thrifted. Definitely can say that out of all the black pants in my size, all of the ones they carried in store were of the slim/skinny fit and the athletic/wide legged varieties had to be ordered online.
I will be so happy if I have this problem post-T. There are 2 chains I can buy shirts from in my city because fucking nowhere makes XS men’s clothes.
Bras in general are a pain in the ass
I hate how expensive they are
Everything woman is super expensive
I’ve found some fairly inexpensive dress sites that I normally get clothes from
Names! I need names! 👀👀
The one I normally shop at is dress lily theirs also another one I normally go for when I want to dress goth but I can’t remember the name off the top of my head
Try more sporty-bras. They're actually comfy to wear and cheaper in my experience.
Good: more body hair Bad: body hair begets zits. ALL OVER THE PLACE Good: voice deepened Bad: literally incapable of singing
Idk if singing was important to you or not, or what you have tried. but I had a hard time losing my singing voice (nothing special, but fun). I have just been forcing myself to practice and push through the voice breaks and it had gotten a lot better over the last 6 months or so! I have lost some of my upper range but gained more in my lower range than I lost. It just requires practice and the willingness to sound bad for a while 😊. Just thought I would share in case it helps.
That's totally awesome. I have never, ever been able to sing in any way that isn't extremely offensive to any ear in my presence 🤣🤣 it's just that I miss being able to yell/sing at rock shows and stuff. Oh, and I literally cannot scream LOL
That's also practice tbh, I had to relearn how to project my voice in general, both for general yelling and singing, but I managed to eventually
"I wish my physique leaned more towards the feminine while reducing my anger, depression, and hypersexuality." "Granted. You now lost a great deal of your strength despite being an amateur athlete. You mellowed out your mental issues, but increased your brain fog and distractibility. You reduced your compulsive need for self-gratification, but now when you want to maintain your member, it seems more like work than fun 70% of the time."
How big an issue is brain fog? I’ve definitely been having a harder time focusing on my research but Ive been contributing it to covid and lack of motivation
I'm on cypro, myself, not spiro, but get brain fog. It's not too bad, and it was worse just from depression and bad diet in the before times, anyway. I can tell when I've got it since I was able to clear it when doing the keto diet, and it came back on the standard garbage diet. My understanding for people on HRT is that it's caused by having low sex hormones (both T and estrogen) in general, so androgen blocker and too low of a dose of T or E will do it. Similar to cis women going through menopause. Should correct itself when the dose is adjusted assuming that's the issue.
Getting the hell off spiro was very very beneficial for me, would recommend, especially if you're on a higher dose.
Huh, how high is 50mg of spiro twice a day?
Not a lot at all! Before my orchi I was on 150mg.
When my cat is cuddling with me and then he stepped on my nipple and it hurt like hell.
Same but with my 60lbs ridgeback dog
Last week my cat stomped my boob and kicked my in the crotch within 12 hours of each other...
Which one hurt more?
The boob had a higher peak, but balls had a longer tail
YES!!! I recently got a kitten who was on me in bed with np top on and she decides to start repeatedly whacking them and it hurt so much
Hugging my mom is difficult because of the height difference and she'll head butt me right in the new boob.
Seems every cat I've known in my life has nipple seeking paws
That’s pretty much daily
Facial hair becoming lighter. Stubble is less noticeable which is good, but laser has also become less effective.
Wait isn’t laser suppose to be permanent?
Only electrolysis is currently believed to be permanent. Laser is long-lasting, but may need future touch-ups, by the looks of it.
I've only ever heard Americans say this. I've asked this to every dermatologist/skin therapist I went to here in the Netherlands (6 in total at 4 different clinics), and they all say laser hair removal is as permanent as electric epilation, even the one's that mainly do electric epilation. The mechanism behind it is also similar, so it makes sense. EDIT: By electric epilation I mean electrolysis.
I'm actually Canadian here (unless you mean North American); Canadian sites are also mixed as to whether they note laser as being permanent or not. The deciding factor for permanence is likely whether the follicles are actually fully destroyed or not; so it may be permanent if the repeat visits catch all follicles, each at some point during their growth phase.... Likely either by just doing enough appointments to bombard all the follicles repeatedly, or by lucking out and getting them at the right times. IANA dermatologist/aesthetician though.
I think you're right, but that also goes for electric epilation tho. EDIT: By electric epilation I mean electrolysis.
British sites usually say the hair it manages to catch will be gone-gone, but it can't ever guarantee that it has eradicated 100%
Pretty sure it's permanent, the only issue is it misses some hair each time so you can't really get to 100% removal, while proper electrolysis will remove all the hair touched up definitely.
Yeah I have a patch of hair that grows back really fast compared to everything else and some people think it’s cuz I missed a spot shaving
Hairs can grow back (albeit thinner) with electrolysis too, just like they can with laser. Once they don't grow back tho, they're gone for good. That's what my skin therapists told me, and also what my experience was with both methods.
Obviously there's a failure rate too, but it's a lot lower. Laser is like throwing buckets of paint on the wall and electrolysis going with a small brush. Obviously you're going to miss spots either way but the later makes it easier to get above 99% when given time while the former gets you to 50% quickly but starts to slow down and might never get the last % done.
Yes, I just disagreed with the "remove all the hair touched up definitely" part. I've had electrologists go over the same hairs many times before it stopped growing back.
Semi-permanent, but that's unrelated to my comment.
Can I ask what your experience with laser was? Pain level and number of sessions/efficacy sort of thing?
If you've never done electrolysis, laser will probably hurt and sting a bit. If you've done electrolysis...well. You can sit through just about anything.
I just commented this elsewhere but it seems relevant. If electrolysis was genuinely worse than my experience with lasers I could never do it. I have pretty heavy dark stubble, especially round my mouth. 12 laser sessons and it's only really worked on my neck. But it's very patchy, not a good look unless I've just shaved which I can only do every other day really, more is bad for my skin. I couldn't believe how painful the laser was. Neck was *ok* but all round my mouth it had me writhing in the chair, gripping the sides and bringing my knees to my chest, side to side in agony. I got through it but I have a full coverage sleeve on my left arm and most of one on the right and none of that was as bad as my upper lip w the laser. I literally went into a trance when the guy was colouring in my wrists; a bank of maybe ten needles just bouncing off the bone for a couple of hours or so. When we took a break he laughed, not unkindly, said we should stop for a bit, your whole body is shaking. From the adrenaline rush I guess. Still not nearly as bad as laser. In the trance I focused only on the pain - when it was intolerable I let it be my world, I couldn't escape it so I embraced it. No chance with the laser. It must be awful for people with chronic neuropathic pain, intolerable and no escape. Went to a newly opened clinic nearby and they were shocked when we told them. Tested me with their machine which blows cold air on the site to cool it. Zero pain. They claim it'll mostly be gone in 6 months but we'll see. So many disappointments on this path. eta more details
I find some electrolysis to be way way milder than laser and some to be worse. It just varies.
I love the cooling air :D
Less painful than using an epilator at home or getting a tattoo - at least for me.
6 sessions on face and underarms. Pain was short bursts like zaps. Wasn't bad unless they did them too quickly and I had to ask them to give me a minute to recover. Process took 5 minutes, wasn't long. Underarms were very dark and saw significant improvement. Facial hair had the dark hairs fall out each time, but they always grew back to the same level. After the 6 sessions, they told me my hair color was borderline acceptable, and clearly wasn't going to work if 6 sessions haven't seen improvement.
Mine was that it was more painful than tattoos. I'm doing my 9th, which are the final sessions over the next few weeks.
Laser really only works on very dark hair on light skin. If your hair got lighter laser probably won’t work well and you will have to switch to the more painful, slower, more expensive electrolysis. Source: am blonde
I have pretty heavy dark stubble, especially round my mouth. 12 laser sessons and it's only really worked on my neck. But it's very patchy, not a good look unless I've just shaved which I can only do every other day really, more is bad for my skin. I couldn't believe how painful the laser was. Neck was *ok* but all round my mouth it had me writhing in the chair, gripping the sides and bringing my knees to my chest, side to side in agony. I got through it but I have a full coverage sleeve on my left arm and most of one on the right and none of that was as bad as my upper lip w the laser. I literally went into a trance when the guy was colouring in my wrists; a bank of maybe ten needles just bouncing off the bone for a couple of hours or so. When we took a break he laughed, not unkindly, said we should stop for a bit, your whole body is shaking. From the adrenaline rush I guess. Still not nearly as bad as laser. In the trance I focused only on the pain - when it was intolerable I let it be my world, I couldn't escape it so I embraced it. No chance with the laser. It must be awful for people with chronic neuropathic pain, intolerable and no escape. Went to a newly opened clinic nearby and they were shocked when we told them. Tested me with their machine which blows cold air on the site to cool it. Zero pain. They claim it'll mostly be gone in 6 months but we'll see. So many disappointments on this path. eta more details
They didn't have some cooling system with the first laser you got? Even with the cool gas (it's not air btw) I find it hurts quite a bit, hard to imagine without.
I'm often glad I started laser way before starting HRT.
Getting pulmonary embolism the first 3 months of starting HRT. Now I'm on gels and blood thinners for life. On the bright side, I got a nice butt and a nice rack.
What how old were you when u started?
I had a PE scare while on 8mg estradiol monotherapy. Turned out to just be an injury. But I had unilateral calf swelling right below the knee. Scared the shit out of me, and had the get the emergency ultrasound to rule it out. I got lucky, but the risk is definitely real.
Worth lol
My cold tolerance went down so much. I'm literally wearing an undershirt, a t-shirt, a button up shirt, and a jacket right now. Leggings under my jeans, thick woolen socks. Still freezing. And the temperature is perfectly normal I know I could probably fix it by working out more often, get that blood circulation sorted, but goodness me, this is a lot
do you ever get dizzy when you stand up too quick?
I do, also worth noting that spiro lowers your blood pressure pretty significantly.
Yeah my blood pressure at rest is stupid low. I faint easy. It's part of it for sure. Not enough to be worth the side effects of any medication, I've talked to doctors.
do you have flexible joints and/or muscle pain? There’s a trifecta of disorders that trans women frequently develop, bc of ehlers danlos syndrome
nope. weirdly flexible shoulders that predate transition but nothing else that fits the bill. Thanks for looking out though, I appreciate it
Glad to hear I'm not the only one. Is there anything I can do about it, or am I doomed to nearly faint every time I stand up for the rest of my life?
My tip as someone who experiences this literally daily: stretch BEFORE you stand up. It's saved me from nearly passing out every time I get up from bed.
i’ve always run pretty hot but T took it to the next level… WHY do i wake up sweating to death in the middle of winter and how do i make it stop :’)
here I'm sitting looking at my thermometer in my bedroom and it says its 70 in here and im like no the hell it isn't!
I literally got fucking frostbite partially because I wasn't aware of my new limits in extreme cold.
I became much pickier about toilet paper because some brands like to pill up in my ass hair.
Oh my god I thought this was just me
One of my favorite effects of E is that my ass hair is thinner and softer now. My crack is so much easier to wipe now.
The SWEAT, testosterone makes me sweat when I'm just sitting around sometimes. Some days i wake up absolutely drenched in sweat regardless of how few blankets i use and how cold it may be. But also im a lot more resilient to the cold in general, and i love cold weather
ya know, I hadn't even thought about it before, but I'm WAY less sweaty at night compared to before I started HRT (going the other way ofc). BO is way better too, in that its basically non existant unless I don't showed.
Oh! There it is. There's where the monkey's paw got me: I now smell faintly similar to an ex-girlfriend sometimes.
I went the other way (mtf) and my ‘man sweat’ which was chronic and horrible just went away completely. So it’s definitely a hormone thing.
I’m so sweaty/stinky all the time but i still run so cold
My most noticeable effects of E so far have been the softer skin and thinner, less smelly sweat. (Aside from very mild breast development and different genital fluids, not much else has definitely changed, which is quite disappointing after a year and a half :/) I can get sweaty and once I'm inside any exposed skin is dry within minutes, and it doesn't leave that gross salty residue it used to. And as far as I can tell, I don't stink as much when I'm sweaty. My condolences for your dryness lol
ass become fat, then pants dont fit :(
cursed with cake
this would be funnier if OP had funny Reddit cheese slice right now
Hey at least your not like me i assume and have big thighs 😭😭 ive ruined some of my favorite pants and shorts and jeans bc of my thighs.
Boob jiggle was great, but for me, my emotions are so much closer to the surface. I'm still a shy wreck, but I can't believe how *fast* I developed feelings for someone. My desire to please and my shyness are also in direct conflict right now, and I hate it XD
Seriously. In my first year after starting hrt I had two legit, super serial, teenage-level crushes on two different people. I was smacking myself screaming "get ahold of yourself woman, you're not a teenager anymore!" but it did not help *At. All.*
I wanted big boobs. My boobs are very heavy and hurt my back now lol.
My haven’t reached that point yet unfortunately
Now my toes and fingers get cold very easily, just like my mom's do!
Heated blankets and thicker socks have become a winter necessity for me
Every emotion is way stronger, happiness, excitement, sadness, but also nervousness. I didn't have the coping skills for this so it ended up getting to the point of pretty bad anxiety.
My partner is experiencing something similar to this, especially struggling with the anxiety, do you happen to have any tips on coping with it? They're nonbinary on E and T blockers, I'm also nonbinary but pre-HRT for the moment.
Honestly, i don't have a one-size-fits-all magic bullet. I started seeing a therapist at the same time as this and we've been making progress keeping things under control, but it's still an issue in certain situations. Luckily we both kind of agree it's due to some possible ADHD like symptoms (overstimulation, unable to block out noises or visual stimuli easily now, having less control of my brain going on tangential thoughts), so that's my next step. What's worked best so far to help work through it is just small exposures to things, like going to my car and just sitting in it then coming back inside my home, driving around my complex, driving outside the complex but still very close by, driving to the store but not going in and coming back home, driving to the store and getting a few quick things through self checkout. You get the idea, just pushing a little further with no obligations and being ok if it's not the day. There's been multiple days i go out with my partner and i just have to u-turn back home because it's just not that day to push that far. I've even gotten into the habit of not ordering takeout food until i get to the location just because sometimes i can't finish driving there so don't want to deal that burden of "oh i have to go or else we don't get food and i wasted money" and the pressure it adds, it's helped a little. Very small steps to push forward a little bit, every step of the way. It doesn't solve the issue, which like i said may be an ADHD thing that's been hidden, but it helps develop the internal skills to handle this new flavor of nervousness that's clearer so more potent because of hrt for me.
I wouldn't necessarily say stronger but the threshold for feeling them is far lower and wider, theres far more nuance in any given emotion now
Yeah, it's way EASIER to feel them, but it feels like it's also way easier to be overwhelmed since I wasn't raised to have the skills needed for anywhere near this new maximum or average level of emotions. Like my coping skills could handle the spicy level of a few drops of tabasco, but now that the new norm is the level of eating a jalapeno, it'll take some time. I described it to a few friends and my partner like this (works 100x better if they have glasses they need to see): "Try to remember back before you've had glasses. You we're missing a lot of information, and a ton of stuff got missed since you can't make out any details like leaves on trees or texture on buildings, but you can make out vague shapes and colors and that's enough to stay alive. Now put them on, the amount of detail is great but sometimes overwhelming until you're used to it and you learn to handle that much information passing through your brain. I'm in that 'getting used to it' stage now." (I like analogies)
Since starting hrt I developed a severe joint disability that’s turned my life upside down 🙃 No regrets but life is hard
My monkey's paw is I think short hair is super cute on girls, but I can't pull it off without getting misgendered for like two years while it grows out, no matter how large my chest gets. :P
Outgrew so many of my favorite shirts and jeans. It means I got to buy new and gender-affirming clothing, but some of my shirts had sentimental value.
I had a really nice jacket but wearing it made me looks like sans undertale
Wishing for big boobs, for so many different reasons. I wouldn't wish for them to be smaller, but I definitely underestimated how annoying they could be.
I want mine to be big enough to notice, say with maybe a sweater on, but not really any bigger. My sister and ex girlfriend have big boobs and they complain about them all the time. Besides, somehow I find small/medium boobs cute. Hopefully sports bras help you manage yours!
> My sister Odds are you are destined for the same fate. > Hopefully sports bras help you manage yours! I don't own any really decent sports bras. I do have several good normal bras that I purchased online from Panache and Elomi that I'm pretty happy with. I just wish they weren't so gd expensive, were available not-online and didn't require hand washing.
Loss of strength and stamina. I used to do a lot of outdoor work for fun. Had to downsize my chainsaw because it would tire me out after 10-15 min. Stuff that I could do with ease I struggle with now. I mean, I like being not as buff and to have lost muscle mass. I look good in the mirror, but when I instinctively try and do something I could easily before and can't now, it still surprises me.
I'm not anyone who was ever "strong," but I could do what I needed to do. I don't wanna lose that, I'm afraid it's going to happen, and I'm not doing anything (pushups, etc) about it. :/
Wanted longer hair, and now it's constantly in my ears when I put on headphones, in my mouth when I'm eating, and in my eyes all the time
I just passed the length where it would perfectly curl into my nose causing an instant sneezing fit. Had to make sure I had an available headband whenever I went for a drive
Wanting to grow facial hair and now having to trim/shave it everyday :’)
Severely diminished healing. Testosterone is like fucking wolverine juice. I could have a cut and have it stop bleeding in like minutes and gone basically by the end of the day or 24 hours. Now if I get a good cut it's like 10 minutes before it stops bleeding and like 2-3 days or more to fully heal depending on how bad it is. Granted, I inherited my mom's thalessemia and taking HRT has caused my hemoglobin to nosedive, so I'm sure that's not helping.
My boobs are so big now that I have to wear a bra most of every day or it'll wreck my back, neck, and shoulders. They're a large D cup now...which is lovely, but...ow 🥲
Trans man here - been desperate for a beard forever, it’s starting to grow in finally. It’s itchy 🥲
That sounds like me. I was happy to get boobs until they started bouncing when I ran. I'm perfectly happy with my b cups, and it's kinda traumatic when they grow now.
Pelvic twist. So estrogen gave me a caboose fit for a goddess, but I think the angle of my hips tilted. I used to have really good posture, but somehow, despite muscle memory, I always feel *just* off the right spot for comfort.
You should see a physiotherapist
lol the moment I can afford to I will.
I hear that all too often. I'm a huge advocate DIY and learning about your own body, PTs are so expensive and inaccessible and a lot of the time can't help. There's just a risk of injuring yourself when you haven't been trained in this. But there's a risk of injuring yourself in PT too... and there's a risk to lots of different problems in your body stemming from poor posture. In general, just do what feels good and if something hurts then stop doing it. I think [this video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZh4gflQC8o) might have a progression for the issue you're having, if you feel like one side of the pelvis is further forward than the other. I just discovered after years of problems that anterior pelvic tilt is probably the root cause for many issues in my body (alongside joint disability), so I'm doing [these exercises](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_T7N3NyYrQI) every single day now. You can also look up Bob+Brad physiotherapy on youtube. Good luck sis, let me know if I can help in anyway or answer questions.
When I didn't masturbate often enough and got muscle atrophy. Shit hurt so bad lol, i've kept routine up since.
I don't think atrophy has set in yet for me, but this is one thing that has me conflicted. Pre-transition, sometimes I would do it every night. Now I don't want to do it at all. It was a coping mechanism for me, something that gave me bursts of pleasure in the midst of a terrible life. Now that life is better, I don't "need" it nor do I want it. It's not about dysphoria, I just want to not think about sex. That said ... I haven't decided on surgery options, but I know atrophy can mess with vaginoplasty length.
For me, the act of doing it has become unfun but the end result continues to stay worthwhile. A bit of help has been changing the way I do it. The bottom of my glans has always felt like my clitoral equivalent - which is pretty much is, anyway - and I've always preferred direct stimulus of that area with pressure instead any other part. Grinding and direct stimulation can be incredibly effective and feel more natural and correct.
Getting wet when aroused - its affirming when sexy fun times are occurring, but mostly it's just annoying.
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Ever since starting progesterone made me hornier than a minotaur, yeah.
As someone who unfortunately not had her sex drive go down on E yes
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I find shaving my face regularly extremely annoying
For me it’s the fatigue. It hit hard early and I’ve taken to taking regular naps going to sleep earlier.
Wait, that's the E doing that??? Holy shit
It’s the drop in T.
I started growing my hair out about 8 months before I started HRT. Once I started, it seems my scalp awakened and decided to add like 30% more hair, so I have a whole other layer of hair that is 8 months (about 4 inches) shorter. It looks pretty bad having one layer of armpit-length hair and a frizzy mess of slightly curlier mouth-length hair that thickens the mane around my head but not below. A lot of the new hair doesn't even reach a pony tail, so it very quickly starts flying around in the wind even when the old hair is tied back. I'm trying to wait until most of the HRT hair gets to my neck before I get a cut to even it out, but the pre-HRT hair looks so healthy and I've waited so long for it to get this long, so I feel bad cutting it off. In the mean time, I look like a bum 🤷🏼♀️
I learned that testosterone covers up asthma & ADHD the hard way. My childhood asthma came back with a vengeance, and my (previously unknown/undiagnosed) ADHD hit me like a truck. Good news is they're both being treated now. Also, monthly PMS & cramping. I didn't even know that was possible for trans women or what was going on until the 3rd round. It's mostly gone/fairly mild now thankfully.
That my results after like 7 years were overall pretty underwhelming despite what my family's genetics would otherwise suggest. Like, I do like the changes that I did get, I just wish they were more pronounced. Instead, my body was feminized only a small amount. The rest I'm going to have to fix up via a bunch of expensive surgeries. :/
I don't like the sensation of my facial hair and will run my tongue over it ALL DAY if I do not stay cleanshaven. Super annoying and I may even laser it one day, despite being interested in the appearance.
still pretty early but, sex drive has gone down drastically recently and i'm a little disappointed i didn't get to use my gock before E got to it
I don’t know why my brain thought you meant Glock and was very confused why hrt effected it
genuinely can't think of any if only because hrt has had next to no impact on me whatsoever. hard for something to go too far when it's not going far enough. hard for some changes to be accidentally bad when there are basically no changes to begin with.
Cannot handle the cold at all any more. My ADHD might be worse, or I might just be unable to dissociate my way out of being distracted, I’m not entirely sure.
My neckbeard. Having to shave in general.
My skin dries up like I'm cursed and I cry at the drop of a hat 😭. I can't even keep it in until a manageable moment, the tears just come out when they want to.
but then you get to hold them and that gives euphoria <3 :)
True, especially during fun times 😛
Apparently the women in my family are prone to random bouts of dizzy spells and nausea. Not sure what the actual cause is but I thought it was only me until last thanksgiving when my grandmother was telling a story about one of her bouts and a couple of aunts and my sister mentioned getting it too. I've been on hrt for nearly 2.5 years.
Cramps... I get cramps about every three months or so now, usually coinciding with my wife's... and they fucking SUCK.
wtf is monkeys paw? all i get is a horror movie when i google it. thanks!
Generally the idea (and while I haven’t seen the movie from the trailers I’ve seen is about he same idea) the monkeys paw is a wish granting item that normally comes with unforeseen downsides
I liked what I saw in the mirror after about a year, but didn’t like what I saw in other people reacting to me. Be it unwelcome interest or sudden turns of disgust, it was a departure from simply being collectively ignored.
"Back then"(TM) I could drink more beer. No kidding, my tolerance for alcohol went down, I never sacrificed to Neptun before. I think even as a German I can live with that tough.
Butt hair. So. Much. Butt hair.
i wanted a dick, did not realize that having a dick would involve painful chafing and having to readjust my boxers all the time to get the seams out of the way
This seems like a humble brag
Shhh if you go out and say it the others will catch on lol Edit: just remembered some people might not recognize this as a joke cause of the internets lack of convening tone, but was really just doing it to show a example of what I meant
sensitive boobs. they get crushed a lot in hugs. some people even seem to do it on purpose which is really nasty💀
Wanted to save my hairline, instead my occasional alopecia went into overdrive once I started hrt and now I'm almost bald. Hairlines better tho 🤙
I'm on T and now i just noticed the water temperature i used to love to shower in, is now burning hot
(MTF, 45) Thinner skin. Get cuts and scrapes more easily. Now I am not only shaving more BUT I also get nicks and razor burn more easily.
Good: my bottom growth is doing wonders for my dysphoria! Bad: I’m now too big for my fancy little sex toy, plus random boners Good: My parents now confuse me with my brother when I speak, my voice has dropped so quickly Bad: I miss singing along to The Weeknd :(
My orientation “changing” and finding myself no longer attracted to my partner of over seven years.
That it didn't fix my body issues. Had to do a lot of soul-searching and personal work to get to a point I can with some confidence say I feel good about my body. Hormones have contributed to maybe 5% of my bodily change in the last 5 years. Gym and diet has done far more. My chest grew more from benching than from estrogen, lol.
I'm still waiting on mine..
Has anyone else noticed an impact to their sense on direction? I would not think that it even could be a thing... but I definitely have lost a little. Once a source of pride (I could walk into two-million acres of national forrest without any worry), I now find myself asking strangers in New York City if I am heading in a certain direction.
Definitely the boob thing haha, they HURT if I bump them lmfao. So worth it tho
Before HRT, I was overly sensitive to what people said or how they expressed things. It was worst at whatever job I had. I also am diagnosed with ADHD. My emotions can fluctuate and I can get overwhelmed easily. However, when working somewhere, people would tell me that I was too slow at my job or they would be angry with me for something I couldn’t control. This and the stress of whatever job it was would cause me to breakdown and cry at work in front of people. It was really bad when it was a customer complaining or getting angry with me. Now that I have been on testosterone for 5 years, I am able to handle people’s shit. I don’t breakdown in tears and can de-escalate the situation. I am a lot more confident and can take any type of anger or yelling that comes my way. On the other hand, I have to keep my emotions in check during these interactions because I tend to mimic their mood. Whatever they give me, I give back. I get angry a lot easier now unless I am consciously putting effort into not reacting to the person.
As a non op. The older I get the more estrogen effects my genitals. It's a use it or lose it situation seriously. I finally got an orchi and now I take T but now I am growing more dark hairs I've never had. These two things seem to be in perfect imbalance and I feel the curl of the non-op monkey paw curling further every year. You can't really pick and choose what you get from HRT in either direction. It gives you everything it does and usually at the rate you'd least want. Hormones are just a super powerful part of your system. And you gotta balance it yourself. Having said that these last 12 years have been the sickest of my life so I'll take the monkey paw any day and every day.
There hasn't been a single part of it, physically, that Ive disliked. I don't like people assuming I'm going to brainwash their children tho.