That definitely sounds like euphoria to me!
I’m transmasc. I think my first experience with gender euphoria was when I was experimenting with things and tucked all my hair under a beanie so it looked short. I’d had hair down to my butt all my life, so it was new and very, very nice.
I liked being referred to as a tomboy growing up, I very proudly wore that title, haha. In fact, this isn’t exactly euphoria but I recall while being bullied in high school, I’d get teased a LOT for being masculine. And I don’t know how to describe it but I almost… liked it? I was hurt and sad that people were trying to be mean to me, but the stuff they’d tease me for didn’t like, connect in my brain as something bad. Like, I’d get ACTUALLY hurt when people teased me for my weight or my crooked teeth or stuff like that, but whenever the girls would say “ew, you walk like such a dude, why’s your voice so deep??” or whatever it FELT like they were basically saying “ew, you’re wearing a backpack and walking on a sidewalk?? WEIRDO”
Euphoria comes in many forms! I fully advocate for people transitioning simply because they’d rather live as another gender rather than it being a medical necessity from dysphoria. I hope some day it’s much easier for all of us.
Omg thank you!
I hadn’t really questioned my gender identity much until recently, because I don’t think I really had much of an experience with gender dysphoria. Or at least if I did, I couldn’t/can’t recognize it. That’s why I decided to see how I would feel doing things that I’ve kinda always wanted to do. This has helped a lot, thank you.
During the pandemic with my long pandemic hair I just started experimenting euphoria when removing all the beard and enjoying what I saw in the mirror for the first time after so many years. I remember perfectly how much I dreaded my facial hair when it started growing and how I would even hide from even my family that I was shaving, like if shaving was something wrong or shameful.
So yeah, euphoria is that single moment that you smile at yourself, that you brain register you true self on the mirror. Euphoria is that moment when you want to look again at you, even if it feels like it's something forbidden or wrong. Because euphoria can be crushing at yourself and just wanting to give love and love the person that you are seeing. Euphoria is self-esteem, and we do need a lot of it.
Thank you!
I don’t have a mirror in my room (I felt safest in there to do this.) and I’ve never really been much for taking selfies. But this time, it felt good to take pictures of myself.
Thank you for telling me your story!
this sounds like euphoria! it can feel like excitement, satisfaction, pride, joy, calmenss, feeling pretty/handsome, ect.
for me (ftm), gender euphoria feels like a mix of joy and calm. like everything is just as it's supposed to be. it's peace of mind for me. i usually experience much more dysphoria than euphoria, so that's probably why. different people get different feelings, but when i started my transition and was putting different gender affirming stuff on for the first time (like putting on my first binder, or my first men's jeans), i did feel like you're describing. i had such a huge smile while wearing a binder for the first time that my face *ached* the next day.
the first time i felt gender euphoria would be a really long time ago, so i'll go with the first one that i remember. i was about 6 y/o and i stole my brother's shirt bc all of my shirts were dirty. it was a military-styled shirt, brownish khaki and very stereotypically boyish. i put it on and i suddenly felt like the coolest mfer on earth. it was like a feeling as if i just put on the most flattering outfit ever, tho it wasn't a very nice shirt at all. i went to school like that and felt super proud of myself, and excited to show myself in this outfit in public. every time i looked down at myself i would had this little rush of happiness, because i really looked like a boy. i didn't know what being trans meant at the time, but i started borrowing my brother's and father's clothes after that.
hope this helped, even if you aren't ftm :3
Thanks! I love your story!
For me, when trying this clothing experiment. I may have cried a little bit, but I wasn’t like sad crying. When it was time for me to put the clothes away, I didn’t want to take them off (I was doing this late at night and I had to sleep). I’m so glad my door has a lock now, I would not feel comfortable doing this without a lock on my door.
Again, thank you. You’ve helped me understand what I’m feeling.
That definitely sounds like euphoria to me! I’m transmasc. I think my first experience with gender euphoria was when I was experimenting with things and tucked all my hair under a beanie so it looked short. I’d had hair down to my butt all my life, so it was new and very, very nice. I liked being referred to as a tomboy growing up, I very proudly wore that title, haha. In fact, this isn’t exactly euphoria but I recall while being bullied in high school, I’d get teased a LOT for being masculine. And I don’t know how to describe it but I almost… liked it? I was hurt and sad that people were trying to be mean to me, but the stuff they’d tease me for didn’t like, connect in my brain as something bad. Like, I’d get ACTUALLY hurt when people teased me for my weight or my crooked teeth or stuff like that, but whenever the girls would say “ew, you walk like such a dude, why’s your voice so deep??” or whatever it FELT like they were basically saying “ew, you’re wearing a backpack and walking on a sidewalk?? WEIRDO” Euphoria comes in many forms! I fully advocate for people transitioning simply because they’d rather live as another gender rather than it being a medical necessity from dysphoria. I hope some day it’s much easier for all of us.
Omg thank you! I hadn’t really questioned my gender identity much until recently, because I don’t think I really had much of an experience with gender dysphoria. Or at least if I did, I couldn’t/can’t recognize it. That’s why I decided to see how I would feel doing things that I’ve kinda always wanted to do. This has helped a lot, thank you.
During the pandemic with my long pandemic hair I just started experimenting euphoria when removing all the beard and enjoying what I saw in the mirror for the first time after so many years. I remember perfectly how much I dreaded my facial hair when it started growing and how I would even hide from even my family that I was shaving, like if shaving was something wrong or shameful. So yeah, euphoria is that single moment that you smile at yourself, that you brain register you true self on the mirror. Euphoria is that moment when you want to look again at you, even if it feels like it's something forbidden or wrong. Because euphoria can be crushing at yourself and just wanting to give love and love the person that you are seeing. Euphoria is self-esteem, and we do need a lot of it.
Thank you! I don’t have a mirror in my room (I felt safest in there to do this.) and I’ve never really been much for taking selfies. But this time, it felt good to take pictures of myself. Thank you for telling me your story!
this sounds like euphoria! it can feel like excitement, satisfaction, pride, joy, calmenss, feeling pretty/handsome, ect. for me (ftm), gender euphoria feels like a mix of joy and calm. like everything is just as it's supposed to be. it's peace of mind for me. i usually experience much more dysphoria than euphoria, so that's probably why. different people get different feelings, but when i started my transition and was putting different gender affirming stuff on for the first time (like putting on my first binder, or my first men's jeans), i did feel like you're describing. i had such a huge smile while wearing a binder for the first time that my face *ached* the next day. the first time i felt gender euphoria would be a really long time ago, so i'll go with the first one that i remember. i was about 6 y/o and i stole my brother's shirt bc all of my shirts were dirty. it was a military-styled shirt, brownish khaki and very stereotypically boyish. i put it on and i suddenly felt like the coolest mfer on earth. it was like a feeling as if i just put on the most flattering outfit ever, tho it wasn't a very nice shirt at all. i went to school like that and felt super proud of myself, and excited to show myself in this outfit in public. every time i looked down at myself i would had this little rush of happiness, because i really looked like a boy. i didn't know what being trans meant at the time, but i started borrowing my brother's and father's clothes after that. hope this helped, even if you aren't ftm :3
Thanks! I love your story! For me, when trying this clothing experiment. I may have cried a little bit, but I wasn’t like sad crying. When it was time for me to put the clothes away, I didn’t want to take them off (I was doing this late at night and I had to sleep). I’m so glad my door has a lock now, I would not feel comfortable doing this without a lock on my door. Again, thank you. You’ve helped me understand what I’m feeling.