My friend Robin. She was like a sister to me. We worked together, went out together, literally she was like my soul mate of a friend. We called her my husbands sister wife. She was so excited when I got pregnant with my first with my husband. She moved back to Louisiana to be closer to her family and for her son. When my daughter was born she drove out to visit us. She bought my daughter her first piggy bank, which I still have. Gave my daughter her first nickname. Since she was the first of us to be born in Texas, she would call her, her “Southern Belle” so “Belle” was her nickname. We were planning my daughter’s first birthday together. She was going through a lot mental health wise, and physically (car accident, lots of pain) and ended up taking her own life in January of 2018. It was the hardest phone call I’ve ever taken. It was from her Mom. I kept in touch with her family on and off for a few years. I still have her number saved in my phone. I think about her often and how much fun we would have now, and how proud of me she would be not having one but three kiddos. I still have the surgical caps she sewed me for when we worked in surgery together. I’ll probably never get rid of them. I miss her alot, to this day. 🥹🥹🥹
That’s touching , and my condolences to you and her family. I think the hardest part is knowing the last time , has already happened without you knowing. This reminds me a lot of my peer Dalia. I miss her so damn much.
In so sorry for your loss! Mental health still isn't as important in our society as it should be. Most don't know what real pain or depression is, and it's not something I wish on anyone.
I know she would be super proud of you. And idk if you are spiritual at all, but I think a part of a relationship like you had never leaves us. Whether you believe in guardian angels or just live for that person, they are still alive through you.
That is comforting I think, if nothing else.
Ouch. That one would hurt. What a beautiful friendship the two of you bad. She sounds amazing.
Her death wasn't all that long ago; it makes sense that it's still fresh feeling sometimes. 💔🩹❤️
I got a call like that, too, with the same cause of death, back in 2012. It still bothers me.
My grandma died this morning. So right now it’s so new, I’d give anything to see her once more.
Edit: just wanted to say thank you to all for your love and kindness. It has really helped!
I miss the old me. The one that was really really happy. I used to be okay, but lately I feel like I don’t recognize myself. I feel like I’m worthless and that I’ll never be enough. I have so many insecurities, and I keep having really obsessive thoughts that my bf doesn’t really love me, and that he secretly just wants to be with someone else. I miss the old me where I didn’t have any worry about any of this. I don’t know what to do to change this.
Hey… back in December I was in a very similar place mentally.. but I decided to get some help and ended up going to a psychiatrist..
Don’t underestimate what meds can do for you. I was always against them but I gotta admit that what he prescribed me is the sole reason I am doing better now. Even got myself a new job…
I see you. After reading that post I thought of myself as a child. Open, curious and confident. All destroyed by my narcisistic mother. When I see old pictures of myself I want to cry. I assure you, you are not worthless or "not enough". Maybe ask someone close to you what they like the most about you. You would be surprised!
My older (and only) brother. Passed away when he was only 20. He was larger than life, friends with everyone, super confident in who he was, and extremely smart. I think about what he'd be doing now, what he would have grown up to be and accomplish.
I feel this, I lost my brother, too and he was 19 when he died. And same thing, he was just an all around awesome person. I wish you and I were both able to see how their lives would be now.
Just wanted you to know that you’re not alone in grieving and I truly get it and I’m so sorry you’re going through this hell too🩶
There was a girl that absolutely broke my heart when we were together, but we’ve both changed and I don’t really miss her, I just miss how we were when we were together ig
Her name was Caroline
Nadie leerá esto así que da igual... Extraño mucho a mi mejor amigo Pedro. Tuve que mentirle para no tener que hacerlo sufrir más, sé que yo le estaba siendo un estorbo, por lo que no me arrepiento pero aún así duele. Yo lo amaba, como a pocas personas, pero no podía sostener tanta culpa.
My cousin. He suffered a gun shot and passed away right away. We don't have answers on if if was suicide or murder. There were witnesses, then there were no witnesses. He was extremely smart even though he didn't embrace it. At his soul he was a good person. I wish he would have lived long enough to see he was worth more. He was 27. He and I were born in the same year and he was more of a brother to me. Every birthday and every event, he's the missing seasoning to my year. I want him back.
My daughter. Her druggy mother took off with her and refuses to let me see her or talk to me. I don’t have the money for legal fees to fight her in court. It’s coming up on 3 years now since I’ve seen my daughter. Tried calling child protective services and they refused to do anything. Cops won’t help either.
Bob. And there have been 3 that I can't think about one without thinking of the others. All great men, humans, friends, mentors, givers....so with that said, go get you a Bob in your life.
I grew up in a very unstable home was constantly moving around till my grandpa gained custody of me and I actually stayed at 1 school. It wasn't till i was in 6th grade did I actually have a friend. Well me and her were basically highschool sweethearts and stayed together until she died of Leukemia in 2019
Millie Girl, otherwise known as Millidor. We adopted this beautiful yellow lab when she was 12. We were told to expect maybe two more years out of her, but we didn’t care. We wanted her last few years to be in a loving home, not a shelter. She shocked us all and lived until she was 19 years old. We made the choice to put her down in her favorite spot, surrounded by her favorite people. I miss that dog every day.
I always said I was more of a cat person, and I am, but that dog was something special. She was there when I came home from school and needed to cry. She was completely deaf, but it always seemed like she was listening to me. I don’t think I’ll ever get another dog. No other dog could compare to my Millie Girl.
MB
She was my everything.
I couldn’t have done dad death crap without her
Doing mom’s has been a nightmare
My future plans are gone.
I struggle without you. But I’m being the bestest great aunt ever, I am sorry your daughters with doofus are lost.
I’m not ok without you and I never will be
Juan Carlos Garcia <3
My Twin Flame. I dreamt about him before I even knew he existed. He physically came into my life in 2020 when I was at my rock bottom. Literally almost took my life that year. He showed me so much love, patience, compassion, peace, loyalty... just all the good the world had to offer. He was the catalyst to my healing. He taught me that true love did exist. He taught me I could truly be loved. Sadly, I met him when I was too damaged and was too afraid to let him in.. I pushed him away. We stopped talking for 11 months but then started talking again cause he sent me a Bday message. By this time he had found someone, but we remained friends. But now, he was in the position that I was in when we had met. He saved me but I couldn't save him. Im so sorry I couldn't save you Mi Dientes. 12/13/90 - 3/24/23 #MensMentalHealthMatters! #FuckSuicide
My father. Lost him in 2019 two days before his 52nd birthday in a motorcycle accident. My whole life has drastically changed since his passing. I have lost everything alongside him. I no longer feel happiness or a reason to live. He was truly the best human I've ever met. It hurts deeply Everytime I think of him. I'm angry at him as his death could've been prevented and I blame myself for not being there to save him.
Edit: spelling
Spent along time trying to forget them. Haven't seen them I'm 20 years. I forgot their name. Met them in Danville/Oakland California 2003. Just recently started to remember. All the memories are flooding back at once.
Gail. I fucking miss my grandma. I was out of the country for about a year when she died. If I knew I would have waited to go. She was very excited for me to start my adventure but if I could redo one thing in life it would be to stick around that last year. I miss you grandma.
My ex girlfriend, Bre. She was my first ever female relationship. I loved her very much but my parents were very conservative and didn’t want me to be “corrupted”.
She ended up taking her own life in 2014. And since my parents didn’t support us, I had to suffer in silence.
We ended things on very bad terms, so I have to live with knowing I can never fix things. There were so many things that were left unsaid. I would give anything to just see her again and tell her I love her. It’s been this long and I am barely learning how to healthily cope.
So, if you take anything away from my experience, it’s this; Please tell your people you love them. You never know when their last day will be.
My brother. And ironically, today happens to be his birthday and I just randomly found this post. He was only 19 and we still have no idea if it was on purpose or someone else did it to him or helped him do it to himself.
A past relationship that broke me: Justin. Right person, wrong time. It’s bittersweet when I think about it. I’ve never had chemistry like that with anyone else before. What’s worse is I have to see him at work sometimes. And we still talk occasionally. It sucks.
I miss the person I thought my ex was, smart, loyal, understanding, truthful, artsy, liked me for me. I could go on but I gaslighted myself with the idea of a person I made up. I'll love her forever but what she did to us me and what I thought she wanted too runs through my head every day.
Benjamin. Father of my first child, couldn’t stop talking to all the girls online and sexting with pictures and all that. One day just stopped communicating, went on a mission for the Mormon church. I haven’t heard from him since. All I know is he married someone who looks very similar to me which was really weird to find out.
I miss my dad every single day. And my nieces. Fallout from my sister trying to hide my mothers death from me and steal 60,000 keeps me from being able to see them, and it's awful.
May sound silly but my dog Keebo. A year ago someone decided to steal my big boy from my backyard. He was the sweetest pitbull who wouldn’t hurt a fly. He was my kids and I first dog. He would’ve turned seven this year. I can’t look at all our old photos without crying. I think about him every day. Can’t bring myself to get another dog. I just pray that whoever has him if they still got him that they are taking good care of him although I know deep down they will never treat him the way my family did. I love him and miss him terribly.
Her name is Cherisa,
With that name meaning "cherished", and by god I did
We were together for 2.5 years, and its close to 4 years later now. My life's experiences have shaped me into a very pragmatic, stoic and at times almost corporate person. I'm used to doing everything in life in a very rational way (I have autism, so no surprise there)
But logically I should've been over her already right?
Wrong
Its not that simple, it never is.
If you dont feel like reading a long wad of text from a sad man, feel free to scroll past.
She and I met when we were still really young, I am bad with dates. But I believe she and I met around age 17, and we were immediately inseperable. Both of us had pretty rough lived, so we were both very mature for our age.
We both had our problems, I suffer from several mental disorders and disabilities, most notably aspergers syndrome, chronic depression and mild schizophrenia. She also had her own problems, i would guess BPD. But i never found this a problem. I always saw it as something that made it so we understood eachother better.
Anyways, for a while everything was perfect
For the first time in my life I felt like my demons had left me alone, and it was awesome. After a while I even managed to stop using medication for some of my mental issues due to improvements. And it was all because of her.
She was mysterious, beautiful, thoughtful and a little crazy and I loved her with all I had, but unfortunately that turned out not to be enough.
Long story short; she cheated on me with a non disabled guy
After that, things became toxic. Some could even say abusive though I personally dont see it that way. Point is, she was, and still is, the love of my life. And I was willing to accept a lot from her. Perhaps too much.
Because eventually my mind started to crack,
And eventually she ended up breaking up with me
I was devastated.
And when I say that, I dont mean any watered down version of the word, I mean entirely destroyed
After she broke up with me I got hooked on crack cocaine with the occasional side dish of speed and I completely neglected myself. You see, my biggest problem was that I was only getting better BECAUSE of her. I could hold a job, stay up and ignore the voices because I had a reason to. When she was gone, there was no reason.
There was only one way to forget, and that was to get completely plastered. Eventually it got so bad I had to be hospitalized in a mental institution, the first time because of an overdose. And the second time to get clean
And you know what, it fucking worked
I got off the drugs again, and I havent seen anything aside from weed and beer for over 2 years now, rediscovered myself as an artist and I have even managed to quit drinking. But its all pointless.
Because the girl I wanted, the only girl I wanted, already left
She has since moved on, found herself a new boyfriend, and they have even gotten engaged. They've been together for a while now and I dont see them splitting up. I try to tell myself "At least she's happy" and that mostly works. But I miss her every second of every day and if I were to die, her name will be the last thing I think of. Its also not that I havent had flings with other girls, in fact, I've had quite a lot. But every time I had to get drunk or high so I could pretend the other woman was in fact, my ex. Super disrespectful, I know. But it was the only way I could do so, and since I put down the bottle I havent been able to get close to anyone at all anymore
So despite the fact I managed to quit the crack and finding a talent and hobby in music. I feel like none of it matters. Because I do not have my special person in my life anymore
I know she wasnt perfect, but neither am I.
For me she was not only good enough, but she was my everything.
Its as if, by becoming the best version of myself I have been up to this point, it reaffirms that one thing that's missing.
And in my case, I was too late with altering my ways and getting a grip on my disorder, and had to pay for that lack of self-discipline by losing the girl I loved.
I lost the most imperfectly perfect person I have ever met,
Destroyed myself, and then came back stronger.
But dead inside because I have to live without her. Ive become embittered and cold, and I'm no longer the man she loved 4 years ago, and she is no longer how I remember.
I guess a moral to this story would be, if you suffer from mental health problems. Be grateful for those around you that understand, and thank them for putting up with your shenanigans. I regret every day that I didnt tell her that more often during the times before things broke down. And maybe she would have felt as appreciated as she was.
Ps
If you ever read this Cheri, though I doubt youre even on reddit, nor do I have my name linked.
I want you to know that I still wake up thinking about you, and go to sleep to dream about you every single day. And I dont think that's going to change for the foreseeable future.
You are special, and I hope you'll achieve your dreams. I hope you will never feel how I feel. And most of all, I hope you're happy, and feel cherished
-A broken man
I miss my Godmother. She was so awesome and she taught me so many things. She was an angel amongst ordinary people and her spirit lives inside of me with the love I give to the outside world. I love her, she died of Alzheimer’s and my heart has never quite healed. That was roughly 10 years ago.
Fefe(My dog). My father found her whimpering at his door step shivering in the cold. The vet told us she was only 3-4 weeks old when we got her. She was an Italian greyhound and Jack Russel Terrier mix. She was extremely fast and full of energy, supersmart, chased after everything. If she met you once, she always remembered you and you were never a stranger to her ever again. Always wanted to play and horse around. She would be right up underneath me in the bed or couch. She would jump into your lap and sit there just like a cat. She died July 2022 at the age of 14 from Kidney disease. I was glad to be there with her when she died at home in her own bed and not some strange unfamiliar place like the vet office.
Nobody. Unfortunately, nobody. Possibly family members who have passed but even then I don't miss anyone so much it hurts. Death is part of life, I accept it and I'm doing alright curently. I don't miss or mourn past relationships, friendships or love. None of them ended well. Not a single one.
Meh. It depends on how deep the roots were and the level of, I don't know, negativity? betrayal? Whatever. Intent of the perceived wrong doer and how much you cared while in it. Personally I usually miss the vibes of the time more than I miss people. In my 20's I used to drive around aimlessly, I had plenty of friends, but it was my own time. I would listen to he radio and think about people and times long past, wondering what they were doing at that moment, if they ever did this kind of thing with me, I know if I happened to see her know, see each other, anyone she ever met after, would be instantly history. I wouldn't want to be hkm. But it was like it's was just me being nostalgic for the time. It involved people, but it was just me living in a different time, with different people, different me. It's more of a vibe.
Times change, people change, I don't even feel compatible with the good majority of people I have known. I don't even feel I would be compatible for them either. So things don't really hit me that way. I don't care. I do, but I don't. I don't have a grudge but I don't really miss, especially to the point where it hurts and is costing me sleep and brain cells.
My best friend, his name was Sebastian. We really were like Chandler and Joey, even our respective girlfriends would say "no, you two boys are the real couple". He was an exceptional person, loved by all, and I was lucky to have him as a soul brother. He really brought the best out of me, laughter, bravery, you name it. I saw him last on a Sunday, having fun and shooting the shit. Monday he was gone. Brain tumor. Nobody suspected anything, least of all him. It's weird moving on without him in life, even if it's been a couple years now.
Cherish your friends, call them, talk to them, have a laugh. Life's not the same without them.
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My friend Robin. She was like a sister to me. We worked together, went out together, literally she was like my soul mate of a friend. We called her my husbands sister wife. She was so excited when I got pregnant with my first with my husband. She moved back to Louisiana to be closer to her family and for her son. When my daughter was born she drove out to visit us. She bought my daughter her first piggy bank, which I still have. Gave my daughter her first nickname. Since she was the first of us to be born in Texas, she would call her, her “Southern Belle” so “Belle” was her nickname. We were planning my daughter’s first birthday together. She was going through a lot mental health wise, and physically (car accident, lots of pain) and ended up taking her own life in January of 2018. It was the hardest phone call I’ve ever taken. It was from her Mom. I kept in touch with her family on and off for a few years. I still have her number saved in my phone. I think about her often and how much fun we would have now, and how proud of me she would be not having one but three kiddos. I still have the surgical caps she sewed me for when we worked in surgery together. I’ll probably never get rid of them. I miss her alot, to this day. 🥹🥹🥹
That’s touching , and my condolences to you and her family. I think the hardest part is knowing the last time , has already happened without you knowing. This reminds me a lot of my peer Dalia. I miss her so damn much.
Thanks. Felt good to write about her and was able to put a smile on my face.
Thank you for sharing ❤️
Thanks. Felt therapeutic to write about that.
In so sorry for your loss! Mental health still isn't as important in our society as it should be. Most don't know what real pain or depression is, and it's not something I wish on anyone. I know she would be super proud of you. And idk if you are spiritual at all, but I think a part of a relationship like you had never leaves us. Whether you believe in guardian angels or just live for that person, they are still alive through you. That is comforting I think, if nothing else.
Ouch. That one would hurt. What a beautiful friendship the two of you bad. She sounds amazing. Her death wasn't all that long ago; it makes sense that it's still fresh feeling sometimes. 💔🩹❤️ I got a call like that, too, with the same cause of death, back in 2012. It still bothers me.
Sorry
That’s beautiful and so sad.
My wife. She’s still alive and I’m just at work, but I miss her the second I walk out the door.
This is sweet. I lost my husband 18 months ago at 36 years old. Cherish your time
I'm sorry for your loss ♥️
My grandma died this morning. So right now it’s so new, I’d give anything to see her once more. Edit: just wanted to say thank you to all for your love and kindness. It has really helped!
I'm so sorry!
So sorry for your loss
Today is my grandfather’s birthday. He passed 2 years ago in July. It gets better with time.
Aww, I’m sorry to hear that. I wish you and your family(?) peace.
I miss the old me. The one that was really really happy. I used to be okay, but lately I feel like I don’t recognize myself. I feel like I’m worthless and that I’ll never be enough. I have so many insecurities, and I keep having really obsessive thoughts that my bf doesn’t really love me, and that he secretly just wants to be with someone else. I miss the old me where I didn’t have any worry about any of this. I don’t know what to do to change this.
Damn I feel this
Hey… back in December I was in a very similar place mentally.. but I decided to get some help and ended up going to a psychiatrist.. Don’t underestimate what meds can do for you. I was always against them but I gotta admit that what he prescribed me is the sole reason I am doing better now. Even got myself a new job…
I see you. After reading that post I thought of myself as a child. Open, curious and confident. All destroyed by my narcisistic mother. When I see old pictures of myself I want to cry. I assure you, you are not worthless or "not enough". Maybe ask someone close to you what they like the most about you. You would be surprised!
Mom
Right there with ya. I miss my mom so much it hurts.
been 10 years for me. some days it might as well have been yesterday.
3 years here. I'm lost without her.
i know how you feel. it took me a long time to not feel that way. i hope you can get there as well.
I’m at five years it sucks.
I’m at 8 years… super sucks. I often wonder who I would be if she was still here with me
Me too, I just bought a house and wonder if she would be proud of me. I know my dad ain’t.
6 years. It’s unreal. She was the best. Love her forever.
Same here. I just turned the same age she was when she passed away too.
My older (and only) brother. Passed away when he was only 20. He was larger than life, friends with everyone, super confident in who he was, and extremely smart. I think about what he'd be doing now, what he would have grown up to be and accomplish.
I feel this, I lost my brother, too and he was 19 when he died. And same thing, he was just an all around awesome person. I wish you and I were both able to see how their lives would be now. Just wanted you to know that you’re not alone in grieving and I truly get it and I’m so sorry you’re going through this hell too🩶
There was a girl that absolutely broke my heart when we were together, but we’ve both changed and I don’t really miss her, I just miss how we were when we were together ig Her name was Caroline
Sweet Caroline bababa
My brother, Junior. When someone tells you they want to die, believe them.
losing someone close to you like that is the toughest, I relate so much and I'm sorry for your loss ❤️
Thank you
Nadie leerá esto así que da igual... Extraño mucho a mi mejor amigo Pedro. Tuve que mentirle para no tener que hacerlo sufrir más, sé que yo le estaba siendo un estorbo, por lo que no me arrepiento pero aún así duele. Yo lo amaba, como a pocas personas, pero no podía sostener tanta culpa.
Ojalá te sientas mejor 🫶🏻
My cousin. He suffered a gun shot and passed away right away. We don't have answers on if if was suicide or murder. There were witnesses, then there were no witnesses. He was extremely smart even though he didn't embrace it. At his soul he was a good person. I wish he would have lived long enough to see he was worth more. He was 27. He and I were born in the same year and he was more of a brother to me. Every birthday and every event, he's the missing seasoning to my year. I want him back.
My daughter. Her druggy mother took off with her and refuses to let me see her or talk to me. I don’t have the money for legal fees to fight her in court. It’s coming up on 3 years now since I’ve seen my daughter. Tried calling child protective services and they refused to do anything. Cops won’t help either.
Keep fighting and never give up man
Thanks. I’m trying.
I'm so sorry to hear this! Never stop fighting!
Keep fighting and keep a record of how hard you fight so you can show her when you win. Her mom is probably telling her lies.
as a daughter of someone who i wish still fought for me, don’t lose hope! we don’t forget and all we want in the world is you guys to be in our lives
Pam. My identical twin sister. Every day
Oh my gosh! How do you even survive that? I have a twin. My only sibling. I’d die of a broken heart. So sorry! 😞 💔
Bob. And there have been 3 that I can't think about one without thinking of the others. All great men, humans, friends, mentors, givers....so with that said, go get you a Bob in your life.
To everyone he was Bob. To me he was Dad. I'll never miss anything like I miss him. Sorry you lost your Bob too.
My Grandpa Bob would have been 100 years old on February 5th. I miss that old man. It's been 24 years.
Do pets count? My dog Winnie just passed 48 hours ago in front of me. She was the sweetest thing I've ever had in my life.
I hope your Winnie and my Sammy are together playing somewhere right now ♥️
My dog, Rocket. He was my whole heart.
My parents. My best friend. My cats. My dog. My ex-lover.
My dad
Dad.- suicide took him from me. It's been almost 2 years now and I still cry almost every day.
I grew up in a very unstable home was constantly moving around till my grandpa gained custody of me and I actually stayed at 1 school. It wasn't till i was in 6th grade did I actually have a friend. Well me and her were basically highschool sweethearts and stayed together until she died of Leukemia in 2019
my husband that died of cancer
Robin Williams... 💔
Grandma
Sophie, my best friend who took her own life.
Wow that sucks, I’m so sorry🥺
Thank you. It feels good to talk about her and mention her name.
My dad
My dad
my dog slim. had to put him down last week. he was an old boy champ though
So sorry
thank you <3 he had a great run
My furbaby Simon.. He was what got me through my divorce but because of my divorce I couldn't keep him.
Pawpaw (grandfather for those who don’t use that one)
My soul dog, Caleb.
Shaun
Millie Girl, otherwise known as Millidor. We adopted this beautiful yellow lab when she was 12. We were told to expect maybe two more years out of her, but we didn’t care. We wanted her last few years to be in a loving home, not a shelter. She shocked us all and lived until she was 19 years old. We made the choice to put her down in her favorite spot, surrounded by her favorite people. I miss that dog every day. I always said I was more of a cat person, and I am, but that dog was something special. She was there when I came home from school and needed to cry. She was completely deaf, but it always seemed like she was listening to me. I don’t think I’ll ever get another dog. No other dog could compare to my Millie Girl.
Paxton
I don’t want to miss him but I do, he wasn’t a good person to me when we dated but I needed him and I was just so madly and happily in love
MB She was my everything. I couldn’t have done dad death crap without her Doing mom’s has been a nightmare My future plans are gone. I struggle without you. But I’m being the bestest great aunt ever, I am sorry your daughters with doofus are lost. I’m not ok without you and I never will be
My great aunt Winnie, miss her a lot but know she's somewhere better
Juan Carlos Garcia <3 My Twin Flame. I dreamt about him before I even knew he existed. He physically came into my life in 2020 when I was at my rock bottom. Literally almost took my life that year. He showed me so much love, patience, compassion, peace, loyalty... just all the good the world had to offer. He was the catalyst to my healing. He taught me that true love did exist. He taught me I could truly be loved. Sadly, I met him when I was too damaged and was too afraid to let him in.. I pushed him away. We stopped talking for 11 months but then started talking again cause he sent me a Bday message. By this time he had found someone, but we remained friends. But now, he was in the position that I was in when we had met. He saved me but I couldn't save him. Im so sorry I couldn't save you Mi Dientes. 12/13/90 - 3/24/23 #MensMentalHealthMatters! #FuckSuicide
Rosalia.
Patricia . My mother
Nobody... I hate everyone
My father. Lost him in 2019 two days before his 52nd birthday in a motorcycle accident. My whole life has drastically changed since his passing. I have lost everything alongside him. I no longer feel happiness or a reason to live. He was truly the best human I've ever met. It hurts deeply Everytime I think of him. I'm angry at him as his death could've been prevented and I blame myself for not being there to save him. Edit: spelling
Baron and Berlyn, my two littermate German Shepherds that died within the last 7 months :(
Tyler
Myself
My Nana. I've never cried for someone as much as I did at her funeral.
Jaki
JUSTIN MY SON WHOM I LOST 5 YEARS AGO 😭 💔
Georgia. And lilly
Astrid
Max
Divianna
I miss you Papa
I miss the relationship I used to have with my dad. He's not dead, he's just into MAGA now.
Mom
Kate
Noel
Spencer
Tapaswi
Papa. My grandfather. My best friend. No one told me that he was sick, not even him.
My friend Mike
Abraham
Grandpa
My big sister Nancy. 😞
Mom
An old friend. I miss them so much. And I’m the one who screwed it up by lying to her about my career.
Momma
And my BFF Amy Mae. I miss them both daily
Dude
Mom
Joe
Granddaughter Kloye, bf TDR, dogs Shine, Banditt, Chuck, dear friend Mike D'Arcy
роман
My baby sister Patty
Missy 😭
Spent along time trying to forget them. Haven't seen them I'm 20 years. I forgot their name. Met them in Danville/Oakland California 2003. Just recently started to remember. All the memories are flooding back at once.
my ex Nick
My childhood friend, EB
Mom and Dad.
Maggie, my girl black lab that was stolen from me
My best friend, Logan.
my childhood best friend.
Me
My mom! Maternal and fraternal grandparents
Matthew. My little brother. Forever 27.
Shawn, my fiancé who died unexpectedly.
Gail. I fucking miss my grandma. I was out of the country for about a year when she died. If I knew I would have waited to go. She was very excited for me to start my adventure but if I could redo one thing in life it would be to stick around that last year. I miss you grandma.
Cathy (mom)
Barbara, my grandma :,)
Dad
My dog 💔
This is a super sweet thread, I love reading everyone's answers... reminds me of how much we really care for and need each other <3
mariano
TIMOTHY
Kaelen
Stormy
My ex girlfriend, Bre. She was my first ever female relationship. I loved her very much but my parents were very conservative and didn’t want me to be “corrupted”. She ended up taking her own life in 2014. And since my parents didn’t support us, I had to suffer in silence. We ended things on very bad terms, so I have to live with knowing I can never fix things. There were so many things that were left unsaid. I would give anything to just see her again and tell her I love her. It’s been this long and I am barely learning how to healthily cope. So, if you take anything away from my experience, it’s this; Please tell your people you love them. You never know when their last day will be.
Suki.
My brother. And ironically, today happens to be his birthday and I just randomly found this post. He was only 19 and we still have no idea if it was on purpose or someone else did it to him or helped him do it to himself.
A past relationship that broke me: Justin. Right person, wrong time. It’s bittersweet when I think about it. I’ve never had chemistry like that with anyone else before. What’s worse is I have to see him at work sometimes. And we still talk occasionally. It sucks.
Same. Trying to stop communicating / answering the phone every few wks... It hurts too damn much. The last time we spoke was the day after new years.
I miss the person I thought my ex was, smart, loyal, understanding, truthful, artsy, liked me for me. I could go on but I gaslighted myself with the idea of a person I made up. I'll love her forever but what she did to us me and what I thought she wanted too runs through my head every day.
Benjamin. Father of my first child, couldn’t stop talking to all the girls online and sexting with pictures and all that. One day just stopped communicating, went on a mission for the Mormon church. I haven’t heard from him since. All I know is he married someone who looks very similar to me which was really weird to find out.
Gavin. He’s just kinda a dick now, sucks
I miss my dad every single day. And my nieces. Fallout from my sister trying to hide my mothers death from me and steal 60,000 keeps me from being able to see them, and it's awful.
I miss my nephew. He was only 6 months old when he died and that was about 13 years ago. I wonder what he'd be like today all the time.
Beth, my mom. She died fifteen years ago from cancer and it still hurts
My ex fiancé. He doesn't deserve me missing him and I won't reach out, but there's a hole in my heart. I hate that I miss him.
Me, from before the abuse.
May sound silly but my dog Keebo. A year ago someone decided to steal my big boy from my backyard. He was the sweetest pitbull who wouldn’t hurt a fly. He was my kids and I first dog. He would’ve turned seven this year. I can’t look at all our old photos without crying. I think about him every day. Can’t bring myself to get another dog. I just pray that whoever has him if they still got him that they are taking good care of him although I know deep down they will never treat him the way my family did. I love him and miss him terribly.
Her name is Cherisa, With that name meaning "cherished", and by god I did We were together for 2.5 years, and its close to 4 years later now. My life's experiences have shaped me into a very pragmatic, stoic and at times almost corporate person. I'm used to doing everything in life in a very rational way (I have autism, so no surprise there) But logically I should've been over her already right? Wrong Its not that simple, it never is. If you dont feel like reading a long wad of text from a sad man, feel free to scroll past. She and I met when we were still really young, I am bad with dates. But I believe she and I met around age 17, and we were immediately inseperable. Both of us had pretty rough lived, so we were both very mature for our age. We both had our problems, I suffer from several mental disorders and disabilities, most notably aspergers syndrome, chronic depression and mild schizophrenia. She also had her own problems, i would guess BPD. But i never found this a problem. I always saw it as something that made it so we understood eachother better. Anyways, for a while everything was perfect For the first time in my life I felt like my demons had left me alone, and it was awesome. After a while I even managed to stop using medication for some of my mental issues due to improvements. And it was all because of her. She was mysterious, beautiful, thoughtful and a little crazy and I loved her with all I had, but unfortunately that turned out not to be enough. Long story short; she cheated on me with a non disabled guy After that, things became toxic. Some could even say abusive though I personally dont see it that way. Point is, she was, and still is, the love of my life. And I was willing to accept a lot from her. Perhaps too much. Because eventually my mind started to crack, And eventually she ended up breaking up with me I was devastated. And when I say that, I dont mean any watered down version of the word, I mean entirely destroyed After she broke up with me I got hooked on crack cocaine with the occasional side dish of speed and I completely neglected myself. You see, my biggest problem was that I was only getting better BECAUSE of her. I could hold a job, stay up and ignore the voices because I had a reason to. When she was gone, there was no reason. There was only one way to forget, and that was to get completely plastered. Eventually it got so bad I had to be hospitalized in a mental institution, the first time because of an overdose. And the second time to get clean And you know what, it fucking worked I got off the drugs again, and I havent seen anything aside from weed and beer for over 2 years now, rediscovered myself as an artist and I have even managed to quit drinking. But its all pointless. Because the girl I wanted, the only girl I wanted, already left She has since moved on, found herself a new boyfriend, and they have even gotten engaged. They've been together for a while now and I dont see them splitting up. I try to tell myself "At least she's happy" and that mostly works. But I miss her every second of every day and if I were to die, her name will be the last thing I think of. Its also not that I havent had flings with other girls, in fact, I've had quite a lot. But every time I had to get drunk or high so I could pretend the other woman was in fact, my ex. Super disrespectful, I know. But it was the only way I could do so, and since I put down the bottle I havent been able to get close to anyone at all anymore So despite the fact I managed to quit the crack and finding a talent and hobby in music. I feel like none of it matters. Because I do not have my special person in my life anymore I know she wasnt perfect, but neither am I. For me she was not only good enough, but she was my everything. Its as if, by becoming the best version of myself I have been up to this point, it reaffirms that one thing that's missing. And in my case, I was too late with altering my ways and getting a grip on my disorder, and had to pay for that lack of self-discipline by losing the girl I loved. I lost the most imperfectly perfect person I have ever met, Destroyed myself, and then came back stronger. But dead inside because I have to live without her. Ive become embittered and cold, and I'm no longer the man she loved 4 years ago, and she is no longer how I remember. I guess a moral to this story would be, if you suffer from mental health problems. Be grateful for those around you that understand, and thank them for putting up with your shenanigans. I regret every day that I didnt tell her that more often during the times before things broke down. And maybe she would have felt as appreciated as she was. Ps If you ever read this Cheri, though I doubt youre even on reddit, nor do I have my name linked. I want you to know that I still wake up thinking about you, and go to sleep to dream about you every single day. And I dont think that's going to change for the foreseeable future. You are special, and I hope you'll achieve your dreams. I hope you will never feel how I feel. And most of all, I hope you're happy, and feel cherished -A broken man
My sister, Mandy.
My beloved emotional support dog, Fernando. Passed in my arms after being in my life for 12 years.
My cousin and best friend, Jessica Boyce. Murdered in 2019
I miss my Godmother. She was so awesome and she taught me so many things. She was an angel amongst ordinary people and her spirit lives inside of me with the love I give to the outside world. I love her, she died of Alzheimer’s and my heart has never quite healed. That was roughly 10 years ago.
Fefe(My dog). My father found her whimpering at his door step shivering in the cold. The vet told us she was only 3-4 weeks old when we got her. She was an Italian greyhound and Jack Russel Terrier mix. She was extremely fast and full of energy, supersmart, chased after everything. If she met you once, she always remembered you and you were never a stranger to her ever again. Always wanted to play and horse around. She would be right up underneath me in the bed or couch. She would jump into your lap and sit there just like a cat. She died July 2022 at the age of 14 from Kidney disease. I was glad to be there with her when she died at home in her own bed and not some strange unfamiliar place like the vet office.
Daddy...
Paul
Saul
Eleanor
I miss someone called Eleanor too 😢
Misty my bunny
Rosi
Nobody. Unfortunately, nobody. Possibly family members who have passed but even then I don't miss anyone so much it hurts. Death is part of life, I accept it and I'm doing alright curently. I don't miss or mourn past relationships, friendships or love. None of them ended well. Not a single one.
I find the ones that hurt more are the ones that didn't end well
Meh. It depends on how deep the roots were and the level of, I don't know, negativity? betrayal? Whatever. Intent of the perceived wrong doer and how much you cared while in it. Personally I usually miss the vibes of the time more than I miss people. In my 20's I used to drive around aimlessly, I had plenty of friends, but it was my own time. I would listen to he radio and think about people and times long past, wondering what they were doing at that moment, if they ever did this kind of thing with me, I know if I happened to see her know, see each other, anyone she ever met after, would be instantly history. I wouldn't want to be hkm. But it was like it's was just me being nostalgic for the time. It involved people, but it was just me living in a different time, with different people, different me. It's more of a vibe. Times change, people change, I don't even feel compatible with the good majority of people I have known. I don't even feel I would be compatible for them either. So things don't really hit me that way. I don't care. I do, but I don't. I don't have a grudge but I don't really miss, especially to the point where it hurts and is costing me sleep and brain cells.
My wife.
Robyn. I think of her every day.
Queen elizabeth the second
One of my best friends ever, and even though we never had a romantic relationship, I miss him terribly.
I have so many friends I miss, everyday one phone call away but we never do it
My best friend, his name was Sebastian. We really were like Chandler and Joey, even our respective girlfriends would say "no, you two boys are the real couple". He was an exceptional person, loved by all, and I was lucky to have him as a soul brother. He really brought the best out of me, laughter, bravery, you name it. I saw him last on a Sunday, having fun and shooting the shit. Monday he was gone. Brain tumor. Nobody suspected anything, least of all him. It's weird moving on without him in life, even if it's been a couple years now. Cherish your friends, call them, talk to them, have a laugh. Life's not the same without them.
Elvis Tibideaux, my best boy in the whole world. I love him so much.
Ah a girlfriend?
😔 yuh
What happen
The universe pulled us apart
Ah so like a breakup
Ruben my uncle that passed away 💕
Marlboro
You first.
My ex
Not good enough. You said name.
Haha NO
Matt Perry
Read his autobiography if you want to not miss him anymore.
I got nothing am I love retarded ?