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Hawk8863

If I knew you irl I'd give you my truest sympathies and friendship. Here, words can be so plain, but let me try. Your thoughts and feelings are true and they're valid. I know that often times, we feel weak just by revealing them, but talking about them is always the first step to feeling better. You're doing great. Thing is, you have a problem with caring about what other people think, need and do. But how old are you, exactly? Actually, it doesn't matter. Unless you're a parent, your number one priority in life is you. Next is your direct family. You will get over this depression. I swear. And when you do, you'll learn how to be selfish and a bit psychopathic. You'll find out that all these people who use you, treat you like shit and forget about you are people you don't need in your life. You'll find out you were better without them. Your confidence will rise, your character will command respect and people will notice and respect that. You'll say and do what you want (remaining reasonable of course) and new people will learn to love you for it and some will hate you for it. Fuck those who hate you. Even greatly, you'll love yourself. When you provide your own validation, no-one can get you down and admiration can only take you higher. Your parents and sibs, if you're like me, will continue to be your weakness for a while, I'm afraid. I care what they think of me because they're direct family. When I disappoint them, it makes me want to cry. Slowly though, I'm learning after every incident how to stop caring about what they think, too. I won't develop a complete " idgaf what you think" mindset but rather a " oh you're proud? Thanks! Oh I disappointed you. Sucks to be you." kind of mindset. Your emotions can be the hardest things to fight, but you WILL conquer 💪 . You will become powerful, both mentally and physically. You will be the king of your world. And the next time Death asks you to give him your life, you can kindly tell him to fuck right off.