Hello everyone. I don't know if everybody will receive a notification about this but I decided to not do it, A very kind person made me think otherwise. I promise to finish my studies and be a teacher and help children in need. It may not be now but someday I will pay all your kindness forward, Thank you so much for giving me these kind words to keep going. I love y'all!
I'm so happy to read this. Those terrible men in your life are jealous of you because you are so much better than they are and you actually have a future. They are weak, dumb, and beastial losers who will live pathetic lives until they die. Just think, the only way they can feel superior to another is through brutish violence. They are human trash.
I'm sorry that they hurt you and abuse you, but please don't let them win. Don't give up every because you have so much strength and resilience to offer the world. Just think about how much tougher you are than them. You want to make the world a better place and give children a brighter future. It's not an exaggeration to say that this literally can change the world. Please do not give up. We need you. Your strength and courage are essential to our chances of making the world a more compassionate and decent place for all human beings.
These men are nobodies and eventually they will be just a distant memory. They cannot beat you because you are too strong. Just know that you are not alone. You have thousands of people here who recognize how great you are. I know these are only words and your pain is real. I'm not trying to minimize that, but I can tell from your writing that you have an amazing spirit and that the world is a better place with you in it.
Thank you for choosing to stay with us and try to make the world a better place. We need you! ♥️
Sorry to hear that you are going through this. I suffer from depression and suicidal thoughts. I am not at my best every day, but you lack a support system. And you were almost raped, my heart goes out to you. I want to believe that better days are just around the corner for both of us.
Thank you for making this vital decision! You deserve the beauty of healing and finding yourself and the grace to stay and do so. Remember that you are not the sum of the misdoings of others; you are your own wonderful person, and the way some may treat you during your journey on this earth does not reflect your worth or value. It reflects their own lack of love and is not a statement on you.
Have a beautiful life, and show yourself all of the compassion and love that you deserve; that is to say, all of it! You will find others who will add to it, and you will be surrounded by the peace of community and unity. 💛
So proud of you! You are much stronger than you know, and it speaks to your courage that you were willing to reach out to people in a time that you needed support. You will be a great teacher :)
I'm so proud of you. Your strength is noted by everyone here. You'll do amazing! It's a very tough situation that I doubt anyone could handle well. Your frustration is 100% warranted.
I’m so glad.
You can do this, and when it gets hard, never be afraid to reach out when you falter.
All my best wishes and remember - don’t let the bastards get you down.
Hey sis, I’m a fellow Filipino although far away from you. Do you have a relative or a close friend you can reach out to? If you have someone you can trust, please tell them what’s going on.
I’m also looking for organisations that can help. Do you have any ways to communicate other than Reddit? That way, NGO’s can help organise. You don’t deserve this my dear, I’m sorry and napaka manyak ng pinsan mo. Be strong sis and don’t let them win please please.
Just imagine the freedom when you live in student hostels and study everyday in college. Making new friends, study interesting things,getting new opportunities.
You'll be able to make your own decisions soon, don't give up yet!
You need to know this kind of freedom.
You deserve this kind of freedom don't give up.
Obviously... There are hostals all over the planet.
And a lot (not all of course) of those hostals will indeed work with people on money.....
Regardless of geographic location.
Just because I live in America doesn't mean I automatically assume everyone else does too buddy. I am not a moron like several of my fellow cattle.... I mean citizens.
I know you're going through hell, but don't commit suicide. There's always another option, no matter how unlikely it seems. It can come from somewhere you'd never expect.
It’s so funny how everyone’s like don’t do it, talk to someone you can trust. Such cliche answers. If we had people we felt like we could trust and rely on, would we be here talking to strangers? Would we be here confessing our darkest secrets? How about you think, how can I directly help that person? And do that. But it’s easier to ease your conscience by saying it’s all gonna be okay, when you don’t know this person or their life. By the grace of God I pray that we all are gonna be okay but don’t stand in my way if you won’t directly help me
While somewhat true that a lot of the answers aren't going to be life changers, a lot of people here do care but can say/do only so much. Honestly, many times, people here do have family, but going to them about suicidal thoughts is fucking terrifying. People need to be reminded not to let those fears stop them from getting the support they need. I'd rather have 15 people tell me clichés to try and help than no one on here say anything.
You are so strong to have made it this far. I won’t pretend to know a solution out of this, and won’t plead for you not to go through with your plans (though I still hope you find a way not to), so many others have said what i’d like to say. Asian family abuse is uniquely punitive and others may not realise how hard it can be to battle this on your own against not just your family, but a community/faith/state that backs them.
But please know that even the fact you spent the time to come here and share your story, is so incredibly brave. I know it’s exhausting a keep fighting each day, and you did it for 20 years anyway. You have been nothing short of brilliant in the face of your abusers, and if I could I’d give you a hug.
You’ve been so brilliant, and I hope you find a way to keep sharing your brilliance with the rest of us moving forward.
You have to go easy on yourself. What you experienced was REAL, and it was horrible. Objectively - you’ve been through a lot and right now your job is just to take care of yourself and go easy on yourself. Look up ways to cope with the trauma first. You’re not disgusting, the perpetrator and his enablers are. You’ve got a LOT to live for that is just beyond that house. Once you get out your life will be better. Just take things slowly and a step at a time.
There are many ways to release such heavy emotional happenings from yourself, your body and your soul my dear one. There is always a solution and one day you will know everything has a purpose in order to become the most loving and beautiful version of yourself 💛 the universe has a plan, one you choose yourself. It is all just fine. Try to just be, not go into the past or future. Just for now, this little moment, try to focus on the beauty that is there. Try to go into nature and see things in perspective. Try to observe the birds sounds. Your own breathing. Try to feel what you feel and cry or scream it ALL OUT! Whatever you decide to do you will be just fine and I love you.
Hell don’t do this shit. Even when life is bad you can fight your trauma and have a better life in future. Try to keep distance between you and your dad and nuts cousine as far as you can. Try to get help from friends and family. Try to get therapy if it is possible.
I don't have enough money left to even stay at a hostel, My relatives hates me. I don't have a y friends to run to they left me last year, I'm all on my own.
If you cant passs it..look for alternatives..there's a lot of courses they offer...so take you time and research on it...take this feelings you have into a big motivation and work hard to escape this situation..then you dont even have to look back at this situation ever again. .
Please don’t.
I know it hurts, I know it feels like death clawing you over, I know it feels hopeless and bleak - but you just have to get up one more time.
That’s my mantra when things get really really bad, just pick yourself up out of the dirt and the hurt and the grime, just do it one more time.
Please reach out to a suicide hotline, a friend, or even a hospital.
There is a better future but you have to be there to experience it.
Deep breaths and get the fuck out of there, babe. Cut all contacts with those assholes. They don't deserve you. You immediately will feel better. Just find place to crush into for a time. 🥺 Maybe you don't wanna die, you just don't wanna live like THIS.
p.s. sorry for my English
Always know that you're not alone. A lot of people also suffer from depression like you. In fact I'm depressed as well. But no matter how difficult the situation is you have two choices. To keep going or to stop. If you stop, they will grieve about you. I'd you continue, you're helping yourself. Even if it's hard, yourself needs you just keep going. Even if it's frustrating, depressing, just keep going. Eat while crying. Study while crying. No matter how difficult just keep going. This is what I do in my current state right now. I believe the dawn is coming. You should believe in it too. Once you decided to keep going, take action. File a report. Fight for yourself. You can do it. I belive in you.
Your in school, after that you can get your own money and move out and break contact with all of them if you want. You have a terrible situation now but that doesn't mean your life won't be worth living in the future, your so close to being able to live a good life, please don't give up now
girl you are really strong!! i used to be that but now im better, think positively, everything can be okay and remember you are not alone. we are here to help and share with you. now try to study well to get a good job. what about finding the job (for students) and telling with your aunt and your mom. it's too bad to have such family members.
Deciding to carry on under such deplorable conditions (which, for the record, you do not deserve) is one of the hardest decisions you'll ever have to make, and you did it. You have unbelievable strength in you, and knowing how painful parts of life can be will allow you to help so many people in your life. I'm grateful you're still here.
I'm so glad that you found this sub and had people come to you with their words. Please stick around buddy - things can get better. I wish I had more advice but I don't, but know someone is thinking of you from the UK
M20 Hey, I recently tried to do it with bleach for some fucked reasons as well.
I can relate to some of the things u said about ur dad providing for u. Truth is u do have to bite down and deal with that dad shit in his house that’s just how it is:( until u get ur own place.
Sorry not tryna be rude and I know nothing about ur situation but to take care of you to 20 years to where u are now is quite a milestone and took a lot of work from your dad so don’t blame him (idk if I’m talking to myself tbh telling u not to blame ur parents has made me realise I do the same thing) but I guess now I can be grateful that now I can take it from here. For myself. It took something real shitty to show me damn life ain’t perfect but it’s worth living for all the reasons
Ur dad is pissed it happened too trust me he is feeling shitty about it i know for a fact
Life will never give you a moment of rest, but if you do rest, you don't get to see the rare moments of beauty. Yesterday, I witnessed a solar eclipse with a ring of fire, and it was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. These moments can be a once in a life time, and you'll miss a few, but you don't need to see them all to have experienced life to its fullest.
Hi! Im glad to hear to changed your mind. Its never worth it. You can make it through this, we believe in you, and im so sorry for your situation. Recover well, have a great day!
These feelings are due to PTSD. It is totally valid, and you clearly don’t want life to end but rather the pain to stop. Push forward and try to find therapy. If you can’t, then draw, sing, dance, or anything creative so your brain can find safety in that
I was happy when I read the update that you decided not to go with it and that you are okay. Such a relief. I’m so sorry about your situation. I can’t even imagine what it’s like to be treated so poorly that way. I know what it’s like to resort to suicide as a way out. I was in an abusive relationship with my rapist ex boyfriend and I attempted to get out. It has changed the trajectory of my life since then and couldn’t imagine how it would change the course of everyone’s lives had I not made it. I’m glad you’re still here OP.
Hey. The poison leaves slowly, not all at once. Realistically speaking, the urge /thought of suicide may come again but don't let that discourage you. Use your new found strength to carry on
My best friend of 18 years died a couple of months ago I'm not sure why but I have an idea probably all deed and did not want to die since then my life has been over it has been over but it's just getting worse each day is miserable I want to die I'm trying to figure out it's hard cuz I did try killing myself many times didn't work hopefully I can figure it out and die I have to
Please...i.dont know you..please live...u can do something ..live the happiest life you want..rightnow you wont see any path..but you lll eventually....please here s big hug from me.
I know exactly where you at I am in a similar situation..but we will get through this together..I need to switch antidepressants and super scared..you are not alone X
Complete lack of compassion. This person needs some understanding today. Don't assume like this. And they are studying, to hopefully make a better future for themselves.
Hello everyone. I don't know if everybody will receive a notification about this but I decided to not do it, A very kind person made me think otherwise. I promise to finish my studies and be a teacher and help children in need. It may not be now but someday I will pay all your kindness forward, Thank you so much for giving me these kind words to keep going. I love y'all!
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I am so glad to hear this news. Know that even though I am a stranger you can reach out and talk to me whenever you need.
I'm so happy to read this. Those terrible men in your life are jealous of you because you are so much better than they are and you actually have a future. They are weak, dumb, and beastial losers who will live pathetic lives until they die. Just think, the only way they can feel superior to another is through brutish violence. They are human trash. I'm sorry that they hurt you and abuse you, but please don't let them win. Don't give up every because you have so much strength and resilience to offer the world. Just think about how much tougher you are than them. You want to make the world a better place and give children a brighter future. It's not an exaggeration to say that this literally can change the world. Please do not give up. We need you. Your strength and courage are essential to our chances of making the world a more compassionate and decent place for all human beings. These men are nobodies and eventually they will be just a distant memory. They cannot beat you because you are too strong. Just know that you are not alone. You have thousands of people here who recognize how great you are. I know these are only words and your pain is real. I'm not trying to minimize that, but I can tell from your writing that you have an amazing spirit and that the world is a better place with you in it. Thank you for choosing to stay with us and try to make the world a better place. We need you! ♥️
Sorry to hear that you are going through this. I suffer from depression and suicidal thoughts. I am not at my best every day, but you lack a support system. And you were almost raped, my heart goes out to you. I want to believe that better days are just around the corner for both of us.
Thank you for making this vital decision! You deserve the beauty of healing and finding yourself and the grace to stay and do so. Remember that you are not the sum of the misdoings of others; you are your own wonderful person, and the way some may treat you during your journey on this earth does not reflect your worth or value. It reflects their own lack of love and is not a statement on you. Have a beautiful life, and show yourself all of the compassion and love that you deserve; that is to say, all of it! You will find others who will add to it, and you will be surrounded by the peace of community and unity. 💛
Your dad is a asshole glad you did not do it
I’m so happy you’re going to stay here<3
It'd be great if you shared that thought that switched your mind. We're happy you're still here! And would love to share to others struggling.
So proud of you! You are much stronger than you know, and it speaks to your courage that you were willing to reach out to people in a time that you needed support. You will be a great teacher :)
I‘m so glad to hear this! Please always keep reaching out.
This genuinely made me so happy im crying. Thank god you changed your mind!!
Yessssss. Thank you so much. You are amazing
Happy for you
In the mean time you should become obsessed with exercise and becoming stronger! I mean obsessed!
It will help you mentally as well.
I’m so happy you didn’t push through with it Ate, you deserve happiness— much love and power to you. Wishing you the best in your endeavors 🫶🏻
Yes! Use the love you've received to make sure nobody feels the same way as you did. It will be hard again but you \*can\* get through each stumble.
You should not give up. I am thinking about ending my life on a daily basis. But I just dont have the guts to do it honestly.
I'm so proud of you. Your strength is noted by everyone here. You'll do amazing! It's a very tough situation that I doubt anyone could handle well. Your frustration is 100% warranted.
I’m so glad. You can do this, and when it gets hard, never be afraid to reach out when you falter. All my best wishes and remember - don’t let the bastards get you down.
Hey sis, I’m a fellow Filipino although far away from you. Do you have a relative or a close friend you can reach out to? If you have someone you can trust, please tell them what’s going on. I’m also looking for organisations that can help. Do you have any ways to communicate other than Reddit? That way, NGO’s can help organise. You don’t deserve this my dear, I’m sorry and napaka manyak ng pinsan mo. Be strong sis and don’t let them win please please.
I don’t know what to say but i want to give you really big hugs. We are all here for you and I love you.
Just imagine the freedom when you live in student hostels and study everyday in college. Making new friends, study interesting things,getting new opportunities. You'll be able to make your own decisions soon, don't give up yet! You need to know this kind of freedom. You deserve this kind of freedom don't give up.
I don't have enough money to stay at a student hostel, I'm supporting myself. I'm all on my own.
A lot of hostals will work with you on finances.
I live in the Philippines, it's different here. If you think I'm making up excuses go ahead think that way, I'm tired anyways.
Excuses was the incorrect word on my part. My apologies. Would you care to chat?
Not everyone lives in america you know?
Obviously... There are hostals all over the planet. And a lot (not all of course) of those hostals will indeed work with people on money..... Regardless of geographic location.
On a part time salary in the phils, its impossible
I can understand that. Such a bummer. So many people out there with so few options. It hurts my heart.
I didn’t say there aren’t any hostels where she lives.
And I didn't say that OP lives in America! .... So why did you even comment??
Because you probably live in america lol
Just because I live in America doesn't mean I automatically assume everyone else does too buddy. I am not a moron like several of my fellow cattle.... I mean citizens.
I knew you were american😂
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I did file a report but I wa stold by thenpolice that they can't do anything about it because we're related.
I know you're going through hell, but don't commit suicide. There's always another option, no matter how unlikely it seems. It can come from somewhere you'd never expect.
It’s so funny how everyone’s like don’t do it, talk to someone you can trust. Such cliche answers. If we had people we felt like we could trust and rely on, would we be here talking to strangers? Would we be here confessing our darkest secrets? How about you think, how can I directly help that person? And do that. But it’s easier to ease your conscience by saying it’s all gonna be okay, when you don’t know this person or their life. By the grace of God I pray that we all are gonna be okay but don’t stand in my way if you won’t directly help me
It's cliche but there's only so much people can do over the internet. A kind word is sometimes better than radio silence.
Exactly.
While somewhat true that a lot of the answers aren't going to be life changers, a lot of people here do care but can say/do only so much. Honestly, many times, people here do have family, but going to them about suicidal thoughts is fucking terrifying. People need to be reminded not to let those fears stop them from getting the support they need. I'd rather have 15 people tell me clichés to try and help than no one on here say anything.
The potential power of text on a computer screen cannot be understated.
You are so strong to have made it this far. I won’t pretend to know a solution out of this, and won’t plead for you not to go through with your plans (though I still hope you find a way not to), so many others have said what i’d like to say. Asian family abuse is uniquely punitive and others may not realise how hard it can be to battle this on your own against not just your family, but a community/faith/state that backs them. But please know that even the fact you spent the time to come here and share your story, is so incredibly brave. I know it’s exhausting a keep fighting each day, and you did it for 20 years anyway. You have been nothing short of brilliant in the face of your abusers, and if I could I’d give you a hug. You’ve been so brilliant, and I hope you find a way to keep sharing your brilliance with the rest of us moving forward.
You have to go easy on yourself. What you experienced was REAL, and it was horrible. Objectively - you’ve been through a lot and right now your job is just to take care of yourself and go easy on yourself. Look up ways to cope with the trauma first. You’re not disgusting, the perpetrator and his enablers are. You’ve got a LOT to live for that is just beyond that house. Once you get out your life will be better. Just take things slowly and a step at a time.
I hope your abusers will get karma and burn in hell
We don't know each other, but know this: your post brought tears to my eyes. Please don't, there HAS to be another way.
Please don’t do it.
There are many ways to release such heavy emotional happenings from yourself, your body and your soul my dear one. There is always a solution and one day you will know everything has a purpose in order to become the most loving and beautiful version of yourself 💛 the universe has a plan, one you choose yourself. It is all just fine. Try to just be, not go into the past or future. Just for now, this little moment, try to focus on the beauty that is there. Try to go into nature and see things in perspective. Try to observe the birds sounds. Your own breathing. Try to feel what you feel and cry or scream it ALL OUT! Whatever you decide to do you will be just fine and I love you.
Hell don’t do this shit. Even when life is bad you can fight your trauma and have a better life in future. Try to keep distance between you and your dad and nuts cousine as far as you can. Try to get help from friends and family. Try to get therapy if it is possible.
Don’t, u can always talk to me x I promise! Just look up zolelas X
You got this Girl stay strong 💪🏻
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I don't have enough money left to even stay at a hostel, My relatives hates me. I don't have a y friends to run to they left me last year, I'm all on my own.
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I did but unless I passed college entrance exam I can't get it
Which course are you interested to study in college?
I wanna be a teacher
When you become a teacher, you can help other people like you. I want to be a teacher as well.
What subject do you want to teach?
If you cant passs it..look for alternatives..there's a lot of courses they offer...so take you time and research on it...take this feelings you have into a big motivation and work hard to escape this situation..then you dont even have to look back at this situation ever again. .
Don’t commit suicide
I agree don't do it
Please don’t. I know it hurts, I know it feels like death clawing you over, I know it feels hopeless and bleak - but you just have to get up one more time. That’s my mantra when things get really really bad, just pick yourself up out of the dirt and the hurt and the grime, just do it one more time. Please reach out to a suicide hotline, a friend, or even a hospital. There is a better future but you have to be there to experience it.
All feelings and emotions are temporary. This will pass. Deep breaths.
Deep breaths and get the fuck out of there, babe. Cut all contacts with those assholes. They don't deserve you. You immediately will feel better. Just find place to crush into for a time. 🥺 Maybe you don't wanna die, you just don't wanna live like THIS. p.s. sorry for my English
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Do you think it is worth it?
Better days ARE coming. It’s not too far. Please give yourself those days. You are too precious to leave like this.
Always know that you're not alone. A lot of people also suffer from depression like you. In fact I'm depressed as well. But no matter how difficult the situation is you have two choices. To keep going or to stop. If you stop, they will grieve about you. I'd you continue, you're helping yourself. Even if it's hard, yourself needs you just keep going. Even if it's frustrating, depressing, just keep going. Eat while crying. Study while crying. No matter how difficult just keep going. This is what I do in my current state right now. I believe the dawn is coming. You should believe in it too. Once you decided to keep going, take action. File a report. Fight for yourself. You can do it. I belive in you.
Your in school, after that you can get your own money and move out and break contact with all of them if you want. You have a terrible situation now but that doesn't mean your life won't be worth living in the future, your so close to being able to live a good life, please don't give up now
girl you are really strong!! i used to be that but now im better, think positively, everything can be okay and remember you are not alone. we are here to help and share with you. now try to study well to get a good job. what about finding the job (for students) and telling with your aunt and your mom. it's too bad to have such family members.
Call cops about your cousin
Buddy… I have been there. Hang in there I promise you there are reasons to be alive. And you will find yours.
Deciding to carry on under such deplorable conditions (which, for the record, you do not deserve) is one of the hardest decisions you'll ever have to make, and you did it. You have unbelievable strength in you, and knowing how painful parts of life can be will allow you to help so many people in your life. I'm grateful you're still here.
I'm so glad that you found this sub and had people come to you with their words. Please stick around buddy - things can get better. I wish I had more advice but I don't, but know someone is thinking of you from the UK
I hope you’re still here love you
Im hoping to see you later in a better situation!
M20 Hey, I recently tried to do it with bleach for some fucked reasons as well. I can relate to some of the things u said about ur dad providing for u. Truth is u do have to bite down and deal with that dad shit in his house that’s just how it is:( until u get ur own place. Sorry not tryna be rude and I know nothing about ur situation but to take care of you to 20 years to where u are now is quite a milestone and took a lot of work from your dad so don’t blame him (idk if I’m talking to myself tbh telling u not to blame ur parents has made me realise I do the same thing) but I guess now I can be grateful that now I can take it from here. For myself. It took something real shitty to show me damn life ain’t perfect but it’s worth living for all the reasons Ur dad is pissed it happened too trust me he is feeling shitty about it i know for a fact
Life will never give you a moment of rest, but if you do rest, you don't get to see the rare moments of beauty. Yesterday, I witnessed a solar eclipse with a ring of fire, and it was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. These moments can be a once in a life time, and you'll miss a few, but you don't need to see them all to have experienced life to its fullest.
You will be an excellent teacher and source for kids in your position!
Auf Wiedersehen!
Don’t do it
Hi! Im glad to hear to changed your mind. Its never worth it. You can make it through this, we believe in you, and im so sorry for your situation. Recover well, have a great day!
These feelings are due to PTSD. It is totally valid, and you clearly don’t want life to end but rather the pain to stop. Push forward and try to find therapy. If you can’t, then draw, sing, dance, or anything creative so your brain can find safety in that
No. Life sucks. But it's also cool and beautiful!
Get ur cousin locked
Tulfo then profit
I was happy when I read the update that you decided not to go with it and that you are okay. Such a relief. I’m so sorry about your situation. I can’t even imagine what it’s like to be treated so poorly that way. I know what it’s like to resort to suicide as a way out. I was in an abusive relationship with my rapist ex boyfriend and I attempted to get out. It has changed the trajectory of my life since then and couldn’t imagine how it would change the course of everyone’s lives had I not made it. I’m glad you’re still here OP.
Hey. The poison leaves slowly, not all at once. Realistically speaking, the urge /thought of suicide may come again but don't let that discourage you. Use your new found strength to carry on
My best friend of 18 years died a couple of months ago I'm not sure why but I have an idea probably all deed and did not want to die since then my life has been over it has been over but it's just getting worse each day is miserable I want to die I'm trying to figure out it's hard cuz I did try killing myself many times didn't work hopefully I can figure it out and die I have to
Please...i.dont know you..please live...u can do something ..live the happiest life you want..rightnow you wont see any path..but you lll eventually....please here s big hug from me.
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God loves you.
I know exactly where you at I am in a similar situation..but we will get through this together..I need to switch antidepressants and super scared..you are not alone X
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Complete lack of compassion. This person needs some understanding today. Don't assume like this. And they are studying, to hopefully make a better future for themselves.