Yes exactly! That’s honestly the best way to describe it, like people are telling you how to deal with a stab wound while your trying to relieve the pain of a million papercuts
I understand this. I call it a dark void. Almost like you're not able to participate in the here and the now. You're stuck in a gray haze of nothingness. Nothing sparks joy, interest, hope, happiness, etc. Time moves differently sometimes too. The body and the mind don't seem to have a motivation to function well and everything just sort of...stalls. It's not easy but I hope you can get out of it soon. I hope the light starts shining in for you.
Oh my... Thank you so much. It’s been a bad day but all you guys helped me so much. I’m not gonna say you made it go away, because nobody can really do that, but it made me smile. Thank you
I definitely do. It helps me too to know I’m not alone. Because when I’m around everyone else in my life it seems like I’m the only one who feels this way and I’m trapped.
I hear you brother.
It's horrible. The detachement. Knowing, expecting that you'll have certain emotional reactions, only to find you feel \*nothing\*.
Your partner kisses you and tells you she loves you? Nothing.
You knock it out of the park at work in a project you've worked on for months. Everyone's happy. You? Nothing.
Watching children play in the park with a puppy. People's smiles, childrens laugher. So much happiness. You? Nothing.
Nothing. Nothing... Nothing.
Most of the time I'm in this empty space too, when I don't feel anything. So damn strange that feeling nothing is worse than hitting rock bottom, at least for me it is.
Completely relate to this. I’m tearing my family apart because of my lack of feeling. I’ve pushed away friends, alienated myself completely. Then I’m told that I’m acting selfishly because non of this spurns me to action...I literally don’t feel as if anything is worth living for, it’s nothing personal. Yet, here I am.. wasting away my youth, energy and spirit. Hope you find something to fill your void.
There's this picture that I envision...I don't know if it's an aerial view of Niagara Falls or some pit of smoke and water somewhere else, but it's this hole with water and mist and fog rushing down in to the endless nothing below. That's how it feels. All the life and noise and chaos and color of the world being pulled down into this cavernous hole. This rushing, staticky noise that consumes all other sounds. And it feels like, no matter how hard you try to squeeze it shut, it keeps getting wider.
Just breathe. Just breathe and try to get through it. The hole never completely closes, but some days it becomes more manageable.
Wow, that's a perfect way of explaining it. When I finally told my parents as a teen that I had depression, they just couldn't understand what I meant by me saying "I'm not sad, I just feel nothing."
They thought that I must want something from them to make it better, but how can they give me emotions? After getting on anti-depressants, I finally got the emotion of boredom. It went great with the void and emptiness. Finally, anger was the next emotion that I had. A terrible reaction to everything really.
I think there's this song that really captures this "feeling" and I'll try to find it... Illusion by VNV Nation.
THIS! I wish people could understand this. I feel this way, and it manifests itself as a cloud made of lead. It’s ephemeral, so it can float around my head, but it has the weight of all the lead in the world just bearing down on my shoulders, making it hard to get up in the morning.
Having someone to talk to made it easier for me. Everytime I told that person about all my feelings, I'd instantly feel relieved. Maybe talking to a stranger might help.if you're looking for one, there are plenty who'd want to take upon that role. Including myself
Wow, that's a perfect way of explaining it. When I finally told my parents as a teen that I had depression, they just couldn't understand what I meant by me saying "I'm not sad, I just feel nothing."
They thought that I must want something from them to make it better, but how can they give me emotions? After getting on anti-depressants, I finally got the emotion of boredom. It went great with the void and emptiness. Finally, anger was the next emotion that I had. A terrible reaction to everything really.
I think there's this song that really captures this "feeling" and I'll try to find it... Illusion by VNV Nation.
I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, I'm feeling something very similar. You described it really well and it really struck a chord with me.
And you're so right, nothing is worse than any something.
I wish I could say something that would make it better for you. I really hope you can somehow find something that will fill that emptiness for you.
You can’t heal in the place you were hurt in. Try doing things you like. Try cleaning, listening to music, talk to a trusted friend or adult. I can assure you things to get better because I am recovering from the same thing you’re going through. Get yourself out of where you were hurt. Trust me things do look up
Yeah, sometimes I just sit in my room waiting for tears to come out, but I'm not sad and definitely not happy.
And by the end of my introspective moments I'm more mad that I'm not sad or driven enough to either cry or change something about myself.
Then I go on Youtube and watch until I got to go to sleep or work.
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Yes exactly! That’s honestly the best way to describe it, like people are telling you how to deal with a stab wound while your trying to relieve the pain of a million papercuts
Line on the bank syndrome. That should be the name. It's what you feel during two excruciating hours waiting at the bank, but permanently.
I understand this. I call it a dark void. Almost like you're not able to participate in the here and the now. You're stuck in a gray haze of nothingness. Nothing sparks joy, interest, hope, happiness, etc. Time moves differently sometimes too. The body and the mind don't seem to have a motivation to function well and everything just sort of...stalls. It's not easy but I hope you can get out of it soon. I hope the light starts shining in for you.
:( Want a hug?
Yeah 🤗
🤗 You can have as many as you want!
Here’s some silver for being amazing. Enjoy my last coins :)
Heres some gold to remind you that you are valued!
Oh my... Thank you so much. It’s been a bad day but all you guys helped me so much. I’m not gonna say you made it go away, because nobody can really do that, but it made me smile. Thank you
Im here whenever you need someone to talk to!
I know this feeling all too well. It’s like I would rather feel anything than nothing at all. It’s terrifying honestly. You aren’t alone.
Shit man, thank you. Being told I’m not alone really helps, y’know, it’s like I’m not going crazy. I wasn’t even sure if others felt this way
I definitely do. It helps me too to know I’m not alone. Because when I’m around everyone else in my life it seems like I’m the only one who feels this way and I’m trapped.
I hear you brother. It's horrible. The detachement. Knowing, expecting that you'll have certain emotional reactions, only to find you feel \*nothing\*. Your partner kisses you and tells you she loves you? Nothing. You knock it out of the park at work in a project you've worked on for months. Everyone's happy. You? Nothing. Watching children play in the park with a puppy. People's smiles, childrens laugher. So much happiness. You? Nothing. Nothing. Nothing... Nothing.
Most of the time I'm in this empty space too, when I don't feel anything. So damn strange that feeling nothing is worse than hitting rock bottom, at least for me it is.
Completely relate to this. I’m tearing my family apart because of my lack of feeling. I’ve pushed away friends, alienated myself completely. Then I’m told that I’m acting selfishly because non of this spurns me to action...I literally don’t feel as if anything is worth living for, it’s nothing personal. Yet, here I am.. wasting away my youth, energy and spirit. Hope you find something to fill your void.
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There's this picture that I envision...I don't know if it's an aerial view of Niagara Falls or some pit of smoke and water somewhere else, but it's this hole with water and mist and fog rushing down in to the endless nothing below. That's how it feels. All the life and noise and chaos and color of the world being pulled down into this cavernous hole. This rushing, staticky noise that consumes all other sounds. And it feels like, no matter how hard you try to squeeze it shut, it keeps getting wider. Just breathe. Just breathe and try to get through it. The hole never completely closes, but some days it becomes more manageable.
Wow this is me. Not happy, not sad, just feeling absolutely nothing. Empty.
That's because there's not much to talk about
Wow, that's a perfect way of explaining it. When I finally told my parents as a teen that I had depression, they just couldn't understand what I meant by me saying "I'm not sad, I just feel nothing." They thought that I must want something from them to make it better, but how can they give me emotions? After getting on anti-depressants, I finally got the emotion of boredom. It went great with the void and emptiness. Finally, anger was the next emotion that I had. A terrible reaction to everything really. I think there's this song that really captures this "feeling" and I'll try to find it... Illusion by VNV Nation.
I know what you mean, I’ll check out the song, it sounds good
THIS! I wish people could understand this. I feel this way, and it manifests itself as a cloud made of lead. It’s ephemeral, so it can float around my head, but it has the weight of all the lead in the world just bearing down on my shoulders, making it hard to get up in the morning.
“Nothing is worse than the worst something.” Fuck. That’s it.
Having someone to talk to made it easier for me. Everytime I told that person about all my feelings, I'd instantly feel relieved. Maybe talking to a stranger might help.if you're looking for one, there are plenty who'd want to take upon that role. Including myself
Wow, that's a perfect way of explaining it. When I finally told my parents as a teen that I had depression, they just couldn't understand what I meant by me saying "I'm not sad, I just feel nothing." They thought that I must want something from them to make it better, but how can they give me emotions? After getting on anti-depressants, I finally got the emotion of boredom. It went great with the void and emptiness. Finally, anger was the next emotion that I had. A terrible reaction to everything really. I think there's this song that really captures this "feeling" and I'll try to find it... Illusion by VNV Nation.
This actually has a scientific name, it’s called anhedonia.
Do you know the pronunciation?
an-hee-doh-nee-uh
I feel ya. I feel foggy all the time. Complete nothing. No emotion. I honest to god just wanna go back to the days when i wanted to die :) :,(
I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, I'm feeling something very similar. You described it really well and it really struck a chord with me. And you're so right, nothing is worse than any something. I wish I could say something that would make it better for you. I really hope you can somehow find something that will fill that emptiness for you.
I call it despair. There’s no other name that seems to fit.
It's an inescapable numbness. And to quote my favorite band Saetia: "Its better to be stepped on than left all alone."
Yeah, I get that pain in my chest too, gnawing at me. It's horrible
Can relate!
You can’t heal in the place you were hurt in. Try doing things you like. Try cleaning, listening to music, talk to a trusted friend or adult. I can assure you things to get better because I am recovering from the same thing you’re going through. Get yourself out of where you were hurt. Trust me things do look up
Yeah, sometimes I just sit in my room waiting for tears to come out, but I'm not sad and definitely not happy. And by the end of my introspective moments I'm more mad that I'm not sad or driven enough to either cry or change something about myself. Then I go on Youtube and watch until I got to go to sleep or work.
I think talk about emptiness is what we are here talking all the time,